My Authentic Mental Health Journey w/ REAL Video Diaries (this past year)

[@cynthiawhitaker4538]

I think you hit the nail square on the head. You went through SO many major life changes all at once. Give yourself some grace. With that many things being disrupted or completely different, there is bound to be an adjustment period. Hang in there, and know you are loved.

[@oilinmylamp]

Amen ❤

[@NewSpitin]

April showers brings May flowers.

[@Marsha-lou1986]

Ashley, I can so relate to this video. When I lost my husband to Cancer in August of 2021, I was so low that I did not even care if I got out of bed. My doctor put me on an Anti-depressant and I went to counseling. The counselor was amazing, and things are looking up 2 years later. I still have really bad days, I just miss my husband. He was the love of my life, my best friend, just my everything. Hang in there, there are better days ahead. Sending lots of love and prayers your way.❤🙏❤

[@hannah.paints]

Don't ever feel guilty for not being there 100% for your man. Marriage is never 100/100 and it should be normal to feel okay being less than 100 and on the other hand let the other one be less than 100. You have your job (KZbin), you take care of the household and upon everything you have to join your husband doing his ministry - i think that this is a big load even for a happy depression-free person. Don't feel guilty about feeling low - it's a viscous cycle and it's totally unnecessary. Sending big hugs! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🧡🧡🧡🧡

[@coffeeandbibletime]

Thank you so much friend ❤❤❤ so important to remember!!

[@heatherleonard2053]

Ashley, I am 47 and went through a similar thing when I married my husband. I was so close to my family it was hard to leave and the shock of having a husband and living with someone was enough to send me into a mild depression. I had the same feelings you did. I have to say 19 years later I overcame those feelings and we have a Christ centered marriage. Your Christ centered marriage is the tool to make you stronger in the Lord and overcome these obstacles. Much love!! Heather

[@faithwithamber7272]

Oh Ashley 🩷I’m praying for you. We love you so much

[@bkohler89]

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18

[@rochelleesparza3421]

Ashley, I've struggled most of my life with anxiety and depression. Counseling really helped me unfold everything that was bothering me. Don't give up. Just keep getting help. People who don't experience depression don't understand. They look at your life and say "you should be happy, others don't have what you do". Stay in prayer.

[@coffeeandbibletime]

Thank you friend! I won't give up!

[@fearless_stellar2944]

Me too going thru it for centuries but I'm getting better bit by bit

[@DoctorCharlesSophy]

You're absolutely right; mental health can be a complex battle that isn't always visible from the outside. Keep shining, and your strength will inspire others.

[@tenlamps6183]

I think alot of new brides go thru some of the stuff you have. It's hard. Isaiah says to put on the garment of praise for the SPIRIT of heaviness. Depression is a spirit. Place your faith in the finished work at the cross, not in self. He will deliver you keep your eyes, your faith in what Jesus died to give you. Be healed. Depression comes from spending to much time looking back. Live in the present. Looking forward too much causes anxiety. Trust in the Lord. He is your great physician.

[@dachater1]

So good!

[@heavenlycontentedsoaps6453]

I am thankful for you, Health mentally and physically, and God who is the author of it all.

[@abigailgarber3296]

Praying for you ❤

[@rondaouko]

I watched till the end.

[@maherlynmorency2012]

I know the feelings you’ve expressed in this video all too well. It’s so strange watching someone else go through the valley when I’m no longer in the valley myself… Can I tell you this? Depression and fatigue usually hits after a season of following God’s will or experiencing a big achievement. Think about Elijah in the Bible. You’re experiencing the full weight of your call! Know you are on the right path, and the enemy is threatened by you. Lots of love and thank youuuu for your transparency❤️

[@ericawallace526]

I wept thru this entire video. I have walked this road for the past year and a half and wow, it has taught me a lot about myself, God and others but it has been extremely tough and that is putting it lightly. I am praying for you in this season. I know God sees and appreciates our effort. Well done faithful one.❤♥️

[@coffeeandbibletime]

Amen. Yes it has taught me so much about myself, God, and others too!! I am thankful for the refinement. I am praying for you my friend ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@genevieveevangeline8284]

Thank you for sharing this with us! 💜🙌💕💜💕💜💕

[@courtneywarner7441]

i watched to the end ...relatable

[@lexieswardenski]

I’ve been struggling on and off with anxiety and depression for years and this video has been so SO relatable as well as helpful to women who follow Christ. Love you, Ashley. You are doing the work of God + your testimony is so precious.

[@heavenlycontentedsoaps6453]

You’ve been on mind after watching your raw video about mental health. You are on my daily prayer list now… I’m praying for you daily hun❤

[@kaylaolivarez1]

I have seen so many woman in the church go through this same exact life change you are going through the only thing different is that, there not open at all with it. They will hide there feelings and put on a fake smile and I just see that they are so tired. I am married and I told myself I will be so open with my husband, family and friends about how I am feeling and some become upset a don’t understand and some do understand and give me grace.

[@bellis7772]

I watched till the end👍

[@emmkaa2099]

Can I just TELL you how good God is?? I typed you a note on a different video about an hour ago telling you that I found your channel and subscribed at 3:00 this morning - 12 hours ago. I don't tend to commit that fast, in fact, even as I was hitting the subscribe button I was questioning myself. THIS video is why - God knew! GOD KNOWS!! Ashley, I'm 65 years old and have fought depression since I was 19. In the past ten-or-so years anxiety has become an issue as well - I deal with some pretty gnarly anxiety-related chest pain just out of the blue that can put me out of commission. I've been on medication the entire time, except for when I was pregnant and am grateful for it. As you can imagine, the enemy and I went back and forth with his attacks of, "Well, if you were a better Christian you wouldn't NEED medication...". But I digress... although I stepped away from God over these past decades, not once did I feel that He left me. I made dreadful, foolish choices but still, despite myself, knew He was doing a work in me and that I would come out on the other side with a testimony that would bless others. I still have my days but at just the right time God reminds me of the time I misquoted Scripture, saying, "With Christ all things are easy...". No, He NEVER said that things are easy but rather that they are POSSIBLE! ...BIG difference, right? My testimony is ugly and beautiful at the same time. Thank you for sharing your story. You are not alone, you never were! You have touched my heart and blessed me immensely. Hugs, baby girl, from the southern California desert, MK 🤗❤️🌵❤️🤗

[@pandorag09]

I watched through the end! I am also struggling. right now, thanks for sharing your journey.

[@judyguenther2457]

I watched till the end! I was in a spiritual low and with many years of back pain that I didn't know what it was, found out that one of my spine discs is completely gone, since then my mother in law asked if we could do daily prayer and devotion through video calls twice a day and it's helped me stay way more consistent in the Lord, helping me wake up early, do my daily cleaning without being grumpy, being more patient with my son and husband! God bless whoever reads this comment

[@beverlycarver4495]

I watched till the end. I am currently struggling and have been for awhile. Thank you for sharing!

[@abby.padilla]

Literally everything you said is SO real and relatable to me! I got married about a month ago and moved 15 hours away from my family. Like you, also a new pastors wife and my husband is Latino in leadership at a Spanish speaking church. It has been a lot to adjust to. I feel like I’m talking to myself watching this video😂 Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this with us! You are not alone!

[@lindawolfe8946]

Watched until the end. Praying for you ❤️

[@Abigu-bp2pg]

I love u ash u are amazing my dear

[@carolpickens1577]

This was so AWESOME! Loved the ending. I can relate to everything you said. Except I don't have attached issues, I am a strong introvert, with social anxieties. But, your ending was right on! I started seeing a psychologist who happened to be a Christian. God used her in a mighty way. I did and do take a low-dose medication that helped me come out of deep depression and suicidal desires. I used all the tools she gave me, no ruminating, and the best is when negative thoughts try to come back on me I say "Cancel, cancel." I know it sounds funny, but it works. But, most importantly, God used a bubbly young woman who loved teaching his word and did bible journaling, and calligraphy. You, Ashley, reached me when nothing else could. I did not pray, read the word, or go to church. (I'm crying thinking about it.) I dropped every aspect of my "Christian" life. I just held onto God by my fingertips. He led me to your channel. I would watch you every day. I think my first video was you talking about how you mark your bible and keep your desk. I was an empty vessel that needed to be filled. I would get up in the morning just to watch one of your videos. It was my lifeline. I followed your journey being single, dedicating a year to singleness, singleness is a gift, meeting Johnny through today. Today, I can say that I am nowhere close to where I was. I still take medication, same dose, and I am so grateful to God for it. I bought a bible journal, a desk (set it up like yours) bought a small booklet to memorize scripture, James 1, and now moving to Psalms. I'm not completely where I want to be, still deal with social anxiety, but I have joy and happiness to the point of giddiness! I never had it before. That came directly from God! I can honestly say that I love life, my life. (I could never say that before.) God has been teaching me about marriage, being a Godly wife, men, and so much more. There are other channels he has led me to that have helped me grow into the woman I am today. I want to encourage you, to stay wrapped up in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Trust him completely. Always be honest with where you are, pray for your darling husband, and know that God sees your ending and it is exactly the way he wants it. Pastor Stanley used to say, "Obey God and leave all the consequences to him." Love you much!

[@Ana-ui9il]

I have bipolar depression and sometimes I feel sad but only God can help me through it all. 🙏 I need him daily for strength. Love you Ash and prayers for you and your mental health strength.

[@tonikaliawomi898]

I have been going through a tough phase of my life. It's been a dark time. But knowing that you went through this and sharing with us about God's faithfulness is truly a blessing. Thank you Ash. Keep shinning for Jesus 🕯️

[@coffeeandbibletime]

There is hope and light at the end of the tunnel! Don't give up friend!

[@ivyyking8907]

Thank you ❤

[@Hisdaughter277]

I’m the same, I go through depression, anxiety mental health things. God is with us. You’re not alone in the battle

[@kayb68489]

This is like watching myself. I’ve been in the toughest mental war I’ve ever been in. Thoughts of wishing I could just die every morning I wake. I try and try to look on the bright side and I trust God with everything I have, but these mental wars are brutal. Confused, depressed, and anxious all day. It’s hard, people say it gets better and I can’t wait for the day it is. Anyone out there reading this let’s stick together. I don’t know why God wants us here another day but He does. We’ve got the friend

[@rebeccamclaren97]

Diary 1, "Being with people is so hard for me right now"~ the most relatable thing I've ever heard anyone say. It's not that I don't want to be with people, it's just that I feel completely inadequate, unprepared and unable to face those circumstances. Usually if you push the negative mindset hard enough and go anyway despite your overwhelming feelings, you end up being ok when you get there. But how do we get the strength and courage to get to that point? I know 9 times out of 10, even with the panoply of God and unceasing prayer, I really really struggle to overcome my negative thoughts and fear of people. I feel as though my mind is wired up so completely differently to everyone else, and nobody in my family has been through this so like you said, they just don't- and can't- understand. And I also fear dragging them down, so tend to isolate myself which is toxic. It's so refreshing to hear such a similar story, to know I'm not the only one who's ever suffered in this way. Counsellors are too expensive so I'm praying for another solution, and trust God will heal my broken mind one day.

[@JJ-1020]

demons hate what a power couple for the Lord you are. never let the filthy pigs win. when they see an inch, they take a mile. lack of sunlight could contribute, vitamin deficiencies etc. see a naturopath! birth control is wicked poison, so thankfully you gave that crap up. far infrared light could seriously help in the gloomy days. look into it! bless you in Jesus name, and if it continues, seek deliverance ministry aned cast the foul things out!! love you sis x youre an inspiration EDIT - i didnt watch the end until now - awesome you did see a naturopath so good!! amazing!!

[@wilmaryliz200]

It's hard being a Pastor's wife, I am one myself but keep fighting dear. Sometimes in that role you feel you are living somebody else life ....but with God’s help you will find your own journey too and will be able to help others in this case because you will know by first hand what it is. There is a great need of Christian couselors in these hard times but you got this! Sending prayers your way ❤

[@funmigiwa-akintola6024]

Oh Ashley! As a Christian sis that also struggles with mental health issues, I am grateful for you! This gives me so much hope about getting to the other side. God bless you and yours! 😍

[@coffeeandbibletime]

You are not alone!

[@ANNAMOSLEY-nl3mh]

keep her in our prayers.

[@lesliebaeza6751]

God set me free from suicide depression anxiety!!!! And this was after i gave my life to Christ! They are legit demons who were tormenting me! Renounce and come out of agreement with anxiety& depression sis. It’s not part of you!! Christ not only bore our sins on that cross! HE BORE EVERY SICKNESS AND DISEASE! You don’t have to try to cope with this! God can set you free! If he did it for me he can do it for you!!! Matthew 10:7-8 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy,drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give. I urge you sister to Study the authority CHRIST gave us!

[@alicee3739]

Tips that I should follow and that can help you Ash: Speak to your soul to trust God Psalm 42. Also just speak out the word to yourself. Continue to bring out it to God. And Habakkuk 3:17-19. God sees you, he’s proud of you. And it’s not maybe your going to get through it. Instead of speaking death speak life proverbs 18:21. Also remember his past faithfulness psalm 37. ❤❤❤

[@rejoiceinallthangs]

heyy. i watched to the end

[@esther4751]

I was so stressed this week. And I watched your video and started praying and I finally have peace!!! So I got married about six months ago. And everybody acts like thats all rainbows and butterflies. But I really missed my family and it took some time to get used to my new place. It has also been hard with the new family. And your video helps me to see that more: its okay to need time to get through all the changes. I am really proud of you! Thank you for being vulnerable.

[@chantalc6978]

I watched the entire video! thanks for sharing your uneasy journey with me, and I am now in low season too. Studying in seminary, engaged, but found myself in a wounded and fearful place. I am grateful that this video prompted me to seek help, ask for prayers from my sister in Christ. I hope I can get better and healed to tesitfy God.

[@a.m.edwards9674]

Thank you for your transparency. It speaks volumes to what I have experienced.

[@angelicarose3366]

Praise be to God! Thank you for sharing your journey

[@jesuslover8823]

I'm currently struggling with depression & have been for the past couple weeks. I think I may have bipolar but I feel like you did with your husband--I don't want to tell my mom because I don't want it to affect her or for her to worry about me (I lost a brother when I was 8--he struggled with bipolar). I'm going to get tested in a couple weeks but I'm scared of the results because I fear it'll make me less of a Christian. Every day I want it to get better, but every day is the same. Even when I worship, read my Bible, & pray, it stays the same. I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel; I just wish I could see it. I'm currently doing Christian therapy--why am I still struggling? I used to have so much joy; I wish I didn't feel this way.😔

[@Authorthings]

Prayers and hugs for you. Whether you get a positive diagnosis or not, God doesn't love you any less. Outwardly we are wasting away, but inwardly we are being renewed day by day. It doesn't sound fun, but I encourage you to read the book of Job. 💜

[@victoriacreager]

I went through the same thing in 2019 and I tried everyday to figure it out. I read the Word and prayed and did bible studies, etc. and finally after I had exhausted everything I told the Lord I am done trying to figure it out, it is all up to do help me and heal me. The MOMENT I did that I had peace for the first time since it had all started! I just let God do what He wanted to do for as long as He wanted to do it and chose to trust and wait on Him. I never forgot that lesson.

[@candicebagan584]

Hi Ashley I will keep you in my prayers and I am going though a lot too and I know that god is with no matter what and I watch the whole thing of the video

[@natasha9805]

thank you for your vulnerability and honesty. I pray for healing ❤️‍🩹

[@laurac5021]

Im where you were. I watched to the end and im shocked. I havent considered it could be physical health. I havent been able to pull through. I also have been easily snappy, which isnt me. Ill have to talk to my dr about this. Thank you for being so honest and transparent.

[@jessicanorris4256]

I had a hard time with mental health when covid started and to be honest I am slowly coming out of it. I am sick right now with covid. It's my second time having covid. Take care of yourself and exercise. I have food anxiety too. Even when I travel I get anxiety. It will get better just pray.

[@ChristinaFromFlint]

I'm praying for you!! COVID is awful, both physically and mentally, and I'm so sorry you're doing it again! I will keep you in my prayers, Jessica... Promise!! Please update this thread as you feel better!! I'm here to talk if ya need or want!! ❤

[@coffeeandbibletime]

It has gotten much better for me :) I am so glad to share God’s faithfulness!

[@jessicanorris4256]

@@ChristinaFromFlint I sure will.

[@jessicanorris4256]

@@ChristinaFromFlint yes covid is bad both mentally and physically

[@ChristinaFromFlint]

@@jessicanorris4256 Thanks!! Hubby & I are coming off a 5 day off stretch, and both our jobs are requiring C19 tests, AGAIN, to return to work... So I'm assuming it's ramping back up again, at least here in Michigan. Hopefully we will hear by 5pm today the "all OK" 🙏

[@thriftymama3786]

I've had a hard time with mental health since my husband cheated and i left him. I never previously struggled but it has been a hard few years for sure. I've been trying to cling to God so i can be the best mom for my daughter.

[@CurlieDar]

I’m so glad you went to a functional medicine dr!!!!

[@ing.martinadurisova-tvs5257]

Thank you for the honest testimony. I watched it till the end. God bless you.

[@kuhlemavuso7635]

I watched the entire video Ash, and thank you for sharing your journey and being vulnerable. You really went through A LOT of very BIG changes all at once but God was and still is with you. The fact that you showed up every day for Coffee and Bible Time Bible Studies, showed up as a supportive wife, showed up as a sister and as a daughter is proof that God carried you through. Give yourself grace. You do sound much much better now and i'm praying that you continue working through everything with God! Lots of Love, and take care.

[@tanahhansen3326]

Thank you for sharing your journey. God is good! Some of the struggle you have been going through I can relate to. And something I didn’t think I was doing/ going through. I have just started this year on my faith in my walk with god and I have been struggling a lot. I came across one of your older videos about Christian struggles. The reason why I was looking this up is because my Bible study teach gave me an assignment for Romans7: 7-25. To read and teach for next Bible study.

[@KatieAJ]

I recognize your language and the words you're using. "It's hard..." I had been struggling with depression as well, for many years. I can relate to you so much. I have been doing years of therapy and I weaned myself off of years of antidepressants because I didn't like the idea of having long-term side effects after prolonged usage. It could be that you're now dealing with trauma that you never faced and it's manifesting now. Or It could be that you need deliverance. I'm speaking from experience. You have to face that pain, it's the only way. Don't try to figure it out, you gotta take your hands off, and let God do the work, sis. Fasting could help. And do those healthy things you mentioned, of course. And I'm going to pray for you because Trust me, I understand.

[@kishab6759]

Girl! I feel you! I can relate. It's NOT in your head. I mean kinda.. your brain but it's hormones and brain chemicals etc. It's so not a matter of " oh just smile and snap out of it" " just choose happy" that doesn't work with depression and anxiety. I'm so glad you won it. I had SEVERE post partum depression and anxiety. God got me through it. I also was on medication too (which isn't wrong or meaning you have no faith either). Those times were when I just talked to God. Like no formal prayers or set prayer time I was just like "ok God.. you gotta help me I cand do this on my own" I'd talk to God for hours. I felt so bad that I'd stopped fighting and fir " caving in and getting a prescription" but God showed me to take the medication by faith and that WAS fighting. That's what God had me do so meds aren't right for everyone of course but no counselor could have talked my brain into working right. So glad you made it through.

[@nancys.100]

Lost my hubby of 46 years in 2020 found a renewed peace with God this summer had to take some time out for solitude & prayer it really helped me!

[@lexieswardenski]

ALSO: there is no shame in needing to be on medication. I had to go on an antidepressant back in June and it truly was a gift from God. Most days, I feel back to myself and feel restored. Mental health comes and goes, give yourself some grace and know Jesus sees you, understands, and is with you. You have such a major platform for women everywhere, and even though it isn’t easy, He is using you for a bigger purpose through this season. Head up, buttercup. He will deliver you through this, He didn’t bring you this far to leave you in this mindset. Hold onto His truth of that. ❤

[@covers_con_ale]

Thank you for making this video! There's a lot of things I would like to say but the most significant for me was to thank you because through this video the Lord spoke to me so strongly regarding taking care of my sleep, food, excersice and peace habits!!! God has really point out to me that if I don't take care of my body, I'm despising the temple of his Holy Spirit and I don't want that. "Don't you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself" 1 Corinthians 6:19❤ God bless you sister, you were a corageous woman!!!

[@nmyolivas]

My favorite verse when I went through similar situation was the one that says Do not be anxious about anything

[@NewSpitin]

Mental health issues are a hidden blessing in disguise. God is in the business of people and by going through this toure able to yelp people not from the outside looking in but know for yourself how it feels from the inside looking out and people will trust you because you have lived experience. You can also take classes to become a certified peer support specialist.

[@JulieLewis-u3j]

Be Encouraged! You are doing exactly what you're supposed to do. Take one hour at a time. Just do the nxt right thing. Put one step in front of the other. Be patient. Don't look sideways...just look ahead AND up to Him. You will be back at it before you know it.

[@Desi-Rose]

I have been in this valley SOOO long,I can't hold on much longer. My name is Desiree. Please pray for me! TY soooo much for sharing this, and helping others, like myself. God bless you sister.✝️💜🛐...btw,my struggle is addiction to meds, and drugs. Hard as I have tried,...10 plus years, I can't get set free!!!💔

[@Authorthings]

I pray God heals you wholly and completely and delivers you fully. In Jesus' name we ask. Amen.

[@Desi-Rose]

@@Authorthings TY SOOO much. God bless you.✝️💜🛐

[@Authorthings]

​@@Desi-RoseDefinitely! May He bless you also!!

[@cmartn9672]

I am a new Christian. I grew up from a cult and been through this season leading up to meeting Christ. I am now going through a possible valley dealing with PTSD. I am trying to find joy in the Lord and its becoming increasingly difficult. Trying to rely on my husband God has provided and the church for comfort. God is always good and I know that. Reminding myself of all the blessings He has given me.

[@laurac5021]

I watched the whole video. God is so good. I am relieved I'm not alone but it's bittersweet. Thank you for being transparent. I saw so much of myself in the video. I didn't know some of this though. God is so good. Thank you, Father, for loving us.

[@ShanaSephora]

Hello from England, I watch it till the ends!, I am great full for God pickups, all we have to is called out to Him with a genuine heart, with a vulnerable heart, and with His soft whispers like that of loyal friend , His word will be a lamp onto your feet. In times of trouble I always see not just a Father, but a gift of a friend. How loyal is The Lord, He is your truest friend that when I wake up, I cannot believe I have Him. My heart cries with joyful disbelief at every reminder of that.

[@talyacederberg2486]

Praise the Lord for healing! Love that believers can come together and pray for each other during seasons like this. Trusting Him is everything when the enemy tries to hurt your mind. He brings us through 💕💕

[@TeresaEckert]

I can relate to feeling drained there r times I want to go to Wed. Night bible study. But sometimes I'm just so drained from work I don't go I'm just at the point where I want my quiet Time alone with God to regroup. Then I feel bad when I miss biblele study.

[@TeresaEckert]

God is with us

[@sunset418]

I understand you because I'm in the same season as you

[@Helena20254]

Psalm 119:143 “Trouble and distress have come upon me, but your commands give me delight.” The Good News: Do not fear anxiety and stress that you encounter, for your faith in God will see you through the challenging times.

[@jaciekern6105]

I have had depression all of my life and it is one of those things where you have good and bad times. I am sustained by God at all times. I praise God you have worked so much to be doing so much better in your walk.

[@alexisgeorgiana726]

Thank you for sharing💕💕

[@MyLifeAsAMum]

Sometimes it's SO good to say No, for yourself, bc forcing yourself can sometimes not actually help, but what I find is.. my daughter for instance, she'll remind me how, (because she wants to go for a 'midnight' walk, it's actually like 8pm) she'll remind me how going for a walk makes me feel better and after going on and on I'll go, now if I should have said no, we'll only get so far and I'll cut the walk short bc I really don't want to be out of the house OR I'll feel ever so slightly better... When it come to my partner, we make family plans and I want to stay home but I'm a mum so i have to do things i dont always want to, and i find it easier when were all getting up and going out and it helps me get up and out on day's id rot away a home feeling worse.. All that to say, Yes it's good to say no but sometimes it's good when were kinda obligated to go somewhere bc it could be god's way of helping us bc it's a distraction, to allow us to put our mind somewhere else so we get a rest from the distress, there only moment distractions but sometimes they help or are needed. I love this video diary concept, it's going to really help someone xx I'm not finished yet so i dont know the outcome but (video diary 4) I hope you feel better soon XO

[@patriciasims3426]

Made it to the end and phew 😮‍💨 I thank God for you! I’ve been watching you and your sister since I was in undergrad years ago and I love you content. I want to first acknowledge your vulnerability and courage to share your journey with this community. Thank you for being a vessel of honor. Thank you for your transparency with your mental health. You’ve recently experienced some major life transitions and that’s hard on the mind and body. Proud of you for documenting your journey, through every struggle and even when you didn’t have much to say, what you did say was enough. I love how you even showed your process of encouraging yourself in the Lord with memory verses bc if I’m honest, even that can be a struggle. So thank you. I’ve been recently battling with my own mental health and many life transitions as well, recently engaged, left a church community I’d been apart of for 8 years, loss of a bff and a mentor who belonged to a spiritual cult that I was also apart of for many years, in grad school and working a full time job while trying to balance all these titles, and it’s been HARD. Many times I wanted to give up on my walk completely but God. Healing from the affects of church hurt, loosing a community that was my rock, experiencing an engagement season, rebuilding what was lost. Without the Lord I literally wouldn’t have the strength to make it through a day. And some weeks are especially hard on my mind. But nevertheless, the Lord kept me. Every time you got on the camera after crying or having a hard day, I felt every bit of emotion that was there in those pauses you took. I found myself saying “me too girl”, “that’s so real” and “thank you Jesus” because I realize, I’m not alone in this mental health journey. Im actually in grad school to become a clinical mental health counselor and phew has it been a journey so far! Im healing and process as I go through this program and it’s tough but necessary work. I will continue to pray for you (and hubs) and support you from afar! Again thank you for being a vessel of honor that the Lord uses to show his daughters that He too cares about our mental health and well being. Keep fighting, be patient with yourself and be kind to you mind always 💜

[@anal.mendoza]

Hi Ashley, may the Lord bless you from Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic! I went through anxiety and depression 6 years ago during my walk with God. I always realized about lots of things but now I know that He's with me everywhere I go through. I'm still going to church and looking for God's love and mercy through the Bible. God was so merciful in my life (and he is) during this spiritual journey. I'm a happy, Christ-centered woman even if I'm going through adversity and hardships. I'm a 41-year-old manture, young woman who also struggles with emotions and wants to keep going forward. I know what you're going through because I went through that too. I want you to pray for me so that I want to find a Godly man who loves Him and has a deep passion for Him and His Word like I do. I'm still single so I really don't want what the Lord's Will for my life! Thanks for sharing this episode!

[@alexacarrenard-tremblay165]

Watching this helped me so much to face loneliness + mental illness. 🙏More on this topic would be great! Also, I just came back to the Lord after years away and I feel like I've got soooo muchhh to learn. Any tips? Thank you !

[@brookehawkins5764]

I was a pastors kid - lots of expectations and a shut up and be a good kid mentality. Fast forward I’m now married with kids and went through the worst anxiety and depression of my life. I realize I had no idea how to handle emotions and change. Majority of my life it’s been stuff it down and be good. The “Mark Dejesus” channel has helped me so so much. He goes over all of this from a Christian perspective and practical things to do. I’m on a recovery road now, and it does get better.

[@brietoujours1343]

Finished the video and God has been showing me He is faithful and loving. Praying for you and thank you so much for sharing your journey.

[@arenla2023]

Hi.. I've watched the whole video. I'm struggling too with my mental health and issues in my marriage. I'm a believer and I know Christ is always there with me in all of these but I just am having a hard time accepting His love for me more than anything else. I try to find my validation from my spouse and it overwhelms me. I know God is trying to teach me through this season that He's all I need but I fail to see Him in the storm and issues of my marriage and my other life struggles. Please pray for me and my family that God would soon deliver us from all that we're going through right now. Much blessed and encouraged by your testimony dear sister. May the good Lord bless you more. Much love from India❤

[@Authorthings]

Praying for you guys. Isaiah 43:2 Isaiah 42:3 2 Timothy 2:13 Psalm 50:10-12 Matthew 10:29-31 Zephaniah 3: 17

[@arenla2023]

@@Authorthings thank you so much dear sister in Christ for your encouragement. May our good Lord bless you more🙏

[@Authorthings]

​@@arenla2023absolutely! You as well 🙏 ❤️

[@ANNAMOSLEY-nl3mh]

I am struggling too my thoughts,school,Time for God

[@biankarodriguez2911]

I got through the whole video!

[@christinaspainhour5483]

praying you get the answer you need

[@sheyjewett2478]

I went through this years ago, and am so grateful you are doing better! Keep loving and trusting God, even when you feel nothing. He is there! Praying for you sweet sister!

[@annikasalonen4196]

I really needed this! Thank you for sharing tour journey!❤️

[@pattycake-86]

Love the realness to your testimony.❤

[@summer77nikkie]

I'm going through a really hard year and your journey is really encouraging me

[@alisamoos1028]

Ashley, it would be an understatement to say that we’re going through a lot of the same season. I too have suffered since at least December but really February is when I have felt like my world just came crashing down. And I know that you have so many supporters, and I know I’m not the only one to say this, but and I have thought this many times, and that I wish, we could develop a friendship that we could just pick up the phone and call each other. Although you have best friends to do that and so do I it is by Gods design that you and your sister and your mom have created this platform in community and it’s by Gods design that women like me have come to find such support in that. Thank you for what you do and the for the transparency and vulnerability. ❤

[@annalisecaldwell5858]

Hi, just finished this❤ God is so faithful!!

[@juju_9402]

Praise God! I just found this video. Will add you to my prayer list. You got this!!

[@SimplyAliceAtHome]

As someone who has been married for almost 7 years. I went through this as a new bride. However, I didn’t seek help until it almost cost me everything. Thank you for showing your vulnerability. ❤❤

[@cassandraluv1000]

I just finished watching. I was in tears by the end of the video. In January I moved to a different continent with my toddler and my emotions have just been all over the place. Im still adjusting , there have been days when getting out of bed seemed like an impossible task. God has been the one constant in the past 8 months, and seeing my son thrive in his new environment. Thank you for sharing this journey, for your honesty. I have also started to get my foundation in order. exercising, eating better and spending more time with the Lord. I will definitely look into seeing a councillor to help with the anxiety aspect of what im battling with. God bless you Ashley

[@coffeeandbibletime]

You are not alone my friend!!! I am so proud of for taking steps to heal and to get through this! God hears every cry and sees every tear. He is with you! ❤

[@graceschumacher1630]

Thank you so much for sharing. I went through as really similar time nov to May (2022 to 2023) i had days I couldn’t get out of bed. Felt so demonically attacked. I tried so many counselors I was on meds I was at a homeopathic doc and a normal doc. I stated and quit a job. I started and quit Bible school. I moved to Kansas for 2 months to do a Bible school thinking that would help it didn’t. I will say this, I went to an inter healing session in Kansas it was such a gentle healing experience and I started breaking stuff off, telling anxiety to go. 4 people were praying for me in the room and I believe I got healed that night . 2 days later I moved back home . Jon searched for 2 months and stared a job. God is so so faithful. Just moved to a new apartment 3 days ago. I am so ready to be with Jesus in my apartment and get to know him more he is faithful. Depression is never the end of the story.!

[@jazztt2011]

I watched until the end! I thank you for sharing and being transparent. As Christians we think are supposed to have it all together, but it’s in those times is when God steps in. Though the results are not instant, he shows us that he is with us.

[@janacanfield99]

I watched the entire video. I am struggling with physical pain issues, but I saw my dad overcome really painful shingles this week. God was with him and he is heading in a better direction. I pray for complete healing in my body, in Jesus' name 🙏

[@jessk187]

I did watch to the end. I’m beginning a new season right now because i’m a first-year teacher, and it has not been great so far. I honestly feel aimless in life despite entering my career field. I miss college so much because that’s where my friends and faith community were. God has led me to a new church in my town, so I’m hoping that will be a good space. I’m feeling lost right now, but I always value the moments when I can enter the secret place with God and find rest. I am very frustrated by the season already, and I don’t know how long it will last, but I can only lean on the Truth that God will use all things for Good.

[@ericar276]

I watched until the end! ❤ I had depression 4 years ago, my case was unforgiving the past mistakes that I made or that was made to me. Thanks God I overcome by prayer and a lot healing by studying the Bible in classes at my Church. Freedom in Christ classes also helped a lot. But God is faithful and He was carrying me for the whole season. God is good! 🙏 Thanks for sharing Ashley, this video clarified that we are not alone. Always loved your videos in the highest and lowest moments of you.Love you and all Coffee Bible família! Hugs from Thailand

[@ChristinaFromFlint]

I'm a newbie here, so I only have a couple of your vids under my belt. This particular topic is SO RELEVANT & TIMELY to my own personal and family struggles that I truly believe God meant for me to see this! It means so much more than you can IMAGINE to know you're not alone! Sadly, many many Christians both believe AND PREACH that if you're walking with God, making Godly decisions, living a God centered life, etc (you get the drift) that EITHER you WONT have these type of struggles, that you somehow deserve this, that it's a symptom of not praying & doing right, that it's like a penance for your past, OR that God wants you to go thru this "for your testimony." ITS ABSOLUTELY INSANE, everything I mentioned!! Today's Body of Christ needs to reexamine it's views, and speech, about mental health!!! I could say sooooooo much about this... BUT, I will say this: God made smart research scientists that created medicine FOR A REASON! I am NO LESS A BELIEVER because I needed said medicine! God doesn't "put me thru this" for ANY REASON... This is a HUMAN CONDITION because of brain chemicals!! AND YOU ARE GONNA BE OK EVENTUALLY... And God loves you SO MUCH and these struggles don't lessen that love!!!!!!!!

[@coffeeandbibletime]

Welcome to the channel :) I’m so happy you are here!!! You are so right! Thank you for sharing. ❤❤❤ I am praying for you my friend!!

[@ChristinaFromFlint]

@@coffeeandbibletime I'm so happy to be here, too! I'm praying for you & your husband too... And will continue to do so!! 🙏☕💕