My Dad Went To Heaven On Christmas Day

[@signedwithheart]

Video Description & Transcript - Video description: Ashley is wearing a black top and she’s sitting in a swivel chair. Behind Ashley is a bookcase filled with books. On the top of the bookcase is a picture frame of Ashley and her Dad. Transcript: (This is not the exact transcript of the video but the script that I read from in the video.) My Dad went to Heaven on Christmas Day, in 2021. It's been almost 3 years now. It has been the hardest thing I’ve gone through… to lose my Dad, my BBF. I really, really love my Dad very much. He’s the most amazing Dad. My heart was so broken. It was the most hardest thing ever in the world. Now it’s September of 2024. This is my first KZbin video back since my Dad went to Heaven. The last video I posted was introducing my baby niece Clark. That was in October and then in November, we were informed of the terminal diagnosis then in December, my Dad went to Heaven on Christmas Day. It all happened so fast. It was so unexpected. It was not until in March that my sisters and I all posted on Instagram sharing about our Dad. I just posted a picture of me and my Dad with a caption. I didn’t do a video. I was going to film a video for KZbin too but I kept putting it off… weeks, months, years. Now I’m finally filming. This is what I shared on Instagram… (*insert the pictures* on the side). I will read & sign it. “My Dad went to Heaven on Christmas Day. 💔 . I honestly can’t believe I lived through this. It’s the hardest, most painful thing I’ve ever gone through and I can’t imagine anything more painful than to lose my Dad so young. I love my Dad very, very, very, very much. He’s so amazing and that’s what makes it so painful and so hard. And also, he’s my BBF (Best Buddy Forever). 💔 . On November 9, my parents came home from the doctor’s appointment and had all of us come to the living room for a family meeting. When my Dad told us what the doctor had told them… my eyes widened… the doctor had told them he only had 6 months to live. I was shocked. I didn’t move at all. I was completely shocked. I couldn’t believe it was happening to us too. I fought back the tears. I refused to accept that as the final word. I believed in miracles, I had faith. When he finished sharing with us, he stood up and came over to where I was sitting to give me a hug then I started to cry- I couldn’t imagine my life without him. I love my Dad very, very much. . My Dad was strong and fought courageously for 46 days before he went to Heaven on Christmas Day. 💔 . Despite that we didn’t get the miracle that we believed for, my Dad kept the faith in God to the very end, to his final breath. He finished his race strong. I’m forever impacted by his steadfast faith in God and how my Mom remains faithful to God after losing her husband of almost 39 years. . My Dad fought the good fight, he finished the race, and he kept the faith (2 Timothy 4:7). . I’ve always wanted to be like my Dad and now more than ever I strive to be more like him and run my race in faith and finish strong too, in his honor. . I’m so thankful for the hope of the eternal life through Jesus (John 3:16- “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish, but have eternal life.”) and that this is only a temporary separation, that we will see him again in Heaven. . Thank you all so much for watching our videos throughout the years. He always enjoyed doing videos with me. :) He will forever be missed. He will always be the favorite guest star on Signed With Heart! :)” I was not sure how to end the caption. My Dad had made an appearance in many of my videos that he had become the “Favorite Guest Star” on Signed With Heart. People loved seeing him in my videos. The smiley face was for all the sweet memories of doing videos with my Dad. No one can ever replace him. Even I’m not sure how to wrap this video up… I’ve always struggled with how to end… What has helped me get through this is having hope, the hope of Heaven and eternal life through Jesus… knowing this is only temporary and that I will see my Dad again. And my Mom, she’s so strong. I’m so grateful I still have her here. And also having an attitude of gratitude… thankful to God that I got to have Dad as my Dad. I feel extremely blessed to have had him as my Dad. I’m forever grateful to God for my Dad. God Now I need to run my race and finish strong and I will see my Dad again. Thanks so much again for watching our videos. I’m really glad you enjoyed the videos. Thank you.

[@aseals72]

My heart broke for you as I watched this. My father passed in 2019 and I thought my heart would never heal. It did. Your father was an amazing champion for you, always encouraging. Be proud of the wonderful woman you are because of his love and guidance.

[@mk553]

I'm so sorry to hear this! He was such a lovely man. I enjoyed watching all the videos of him and you.

[@Bebopbebop9898]

You're a very brave lady to make this video. To share your feelings about the loss of your beloved father. I lost someone dear to me in 2022. It was the absolute worst year of my life. I can feel the pain that you are going through. Not a day has gone by that I haven't thought about my dear loved one. I'm not religious but I do believe that our consciousness is eternal. I believe someday we will see each other again. As you will see your father again too. ❤

[@Nightynighthilda]

I am so sorry for your loss. When I started to study ASL with my little kids recently, I was thinking of you and searching for your channel again because I had watched your video. The video that you & your joyful father filmed together is one of my favorites. 100% sure your father is cheering on from heaven. Sending a big and warm hug.

[@Daydreamologist]

I so know how you're feeling and I am truly sorry. My dad passed 17 years ago and I still miss him like crazy. If it's any consolation, you will feel "less worse" as the years go by. I'm not going to lie, it's still hard to remember him and, still, all these years later, every once in a while I forget, for a split second, and I want to call him and tell him about my day. I was daddy's girl and that is one of the toughest parts of it. My heart goes out to you... ❤

[@earningzekrom4173]

RIP to your dad, I'm so sorry for your loss, sending support to you all!

[@mackie490]

Ashely, this is so raw and real. The starting over, the sadness, it is so hard losing someone so close. I cried with you for your loss and my own losses. Thank you for posting.

[@susanw489]

These are the things I said to my dad after he passed away. It's been 14 1/2 years since my dad went to heaven. Over the years the love and and memories don't diminish thankfully, but the pain and tears eventually are replaced by gratitude.....and now when I hear a song that reminds me of those early days, I don't cry - I sing along. 3 years ago my beloved mom joined dad and now I really feel relieved knowing they are dancing in heaven and worshiping Jesus.

[@themistermax]

One of the most beautiful videos I've ever seen. You are grateful for your father, but as a father myself (of a daughter about your age), I can tell you with absolute certainty - he is just as much grateful for you! My father passed in June 2018, I was alone with him (at 2:10 a.m., in hospice), and I think of him all the time (and often with tears). But I have felt his presence, and I know that he sees me and loves me even now. And I know that your father is with you, always. Our faith in Christ, our knowledge of God, compels our belief that this life is not the end, but only the beginning. Celebrate life this Christmas, Ashley. Yours, his, your mother's, your sisters', all of us. Thank you for sharing your heart. Merry Christmas!

[@charisamartin2152]

This is such an agonizing and beautiful video. Thank you for your honesty and your authenticity! You honor your Dad well! He was truly a light in this world! ❤️‍🩹🤟🏽

[@Dumballa]

It took a lot of courage to share this. Proud of you. Keep going.

[@debr4613]

My condolences to you and your family, grieving is not easy and it comes in waves. He was an amazing Dad and person and he raised an amazing daughter. He lives on through you. His work here was done quickly and honorably ❤ you are strong like him if not stronger and you have touched and helped many people. He will always be in your heart. Thank you for sharing this it helps others who have lost their parents. I love your channel and learning to sign with you is a wonderful gift. Be strong, your dad is so proud of you ❤

[@lisah.1448]

Amen. You are preaching the gospel. How proud your earthly Father and your heavenly Father are of you! Blessings to you

[@CallMeVie]

Condolences to you and your family. No words could I tell you that would comfort you. Feel your emotions and keep your faith. It's almost 20 yrs and I still miss my father. I had vocal surgery and all I wanted was to hear my father's words of wisdom instead God's word were my comfort. I understand you mix bag of emotions I have them today even after all this time has passed. Much 💚🙏🕊🫂 ~Vie

[@rociocastro8024]

Dear Ashley, May the Lord continue to strengthen you and your family until you see him again in Heaven. May the Holy Spirit comfort you with peace that trascends all understanding. May He continue to use you for His glory and bless you and your beautiful family in every way.

[@mustanggarland24]

My heart is breaking I was watching you and your dad's videos! Were he was guessing what you were saying. And he stood up and started witnessing. And it really touched my soul.Im so sorry 😞 what a precious man

[@theyrecalledharbularybatte8835]

I just lost my Dad too. I'm not ready to talk about it. I can hardly speak. I share in your pain, but also in the same hope of seeing him again in heaven. God is so good. Jesus will carry us. It won't be forever.

[@popfreak62]

I am so sorry to hear this. I cannot even fathom the pain and courage it took to make this video. Your love for him though made you strong to do it and that is what he would want. To see you stong and happy and confident to take on this life's challenges with a smile. May he rest in peace of body and spirit, and you in peace of mind that you make him proud

[@sweetcarolina2439]

I’m so sorry for your loss take your time healing praying for you and your family 😢

[@Wulfenburg]

My biggest fear is losing my mum... I don't know how I'm going to be able to cope. I wish I could give you a big hug, I'm sorry for your loss. I don't think anything can truly prepare us for this eventual outcome. I try so hard not to think about it. The sadness aside for a moment, It's really nice to see you again. I hope things become easier. You're dad seemed really kind and funny, I enjoyed watching the videos you did with him.

[@theotherwalt]

I knew you were close to your father. It was good to see this video and remember him. Your father loved you very much. I don't use Facebook or Instagram, so I can't watch your videos there. However, you have helped me learn sign language, and I appreciate seeing your videos.

[@bran6989]

Our dads have the same birthday 🙂 mine was in 1958 though. Our Lord is coming back soon Ashley. Let’s finish this race! Amen!

[@flaviaabreu9132]

I cried so but so much while watching this video, because my father is also my best friend and he is also ill (he got two cancer diagnosis this year). I keep imagining how I'm going to go through it when he dies, because I know it's a kind of pain like... you don't forget, you don't get to overcome it, you never stop feeling, you never stop missing. It's only possible to go through it because we're sure we are going to meet our loved ones again in Heaven. I truly believe in this. It hurts me that I too am very young (I'm 25), and probably my father will never see me grow old.

[@mt-up]

I am so sorry for your loss. We all miss him When I first started learning ASL I watched all your videos and always enjoyed watching you two. Just remember that he loves you and is looking down and watching over you. God bless you Ashley!

[@darkfemme4914]

I pray for your wholeness and healing. I am so sorry for your loss. God bless your family 💓🙏🏾

[@JonathanGARZA-w4o]

My grandmother passed away on Mother’s Day and my grandfather years after on Mother’s Day I know that she is in Heaven and that is a great gift a blessing like no other for her to be with Jesus for eternity

[@ilanamillion8942]

I enjoyed the videos with your Dad very much. It was easy to see that he adored you and loved doing the videos with you. As you say, God will see you through these hard times and you will see your Dad again. Bless you both!

[@janelleramirez5280]

I feel for you. Found your channel completely by accident, and understand how hard it can be to lose a parent who is like your best friend. I lost my mom in September of 2022. It was just a few days before my birthday, and I absolutely hate that time of year all the time now. Like you, my mom was my best friend. I went completely blind about 8 years ago, almost died because of advanced kidney disease, and lost my faith during that time. Faith is a very hard thing to keep when all you can see is loss, and grief. I admire you for your strength, and endurance in believing in God's word. Learning to lean on him during those painful times is hard. Sometimes we don't see that he's right beside us the entire time, until we get through sadness, to those little patches of happiness. Grief is a process, but more and more, hold on to those happy memories that you have. It's perfectly fine to laugh, and grieve at the same time. I still have those moments where I think about a funny memory with my own mom, but then also feel that sudden loss of her so heavily. But, hang onto the knowledge that you know your family will see your dad again. That his passing was only a "see you later."

[@xxgiraffe]

..... my heart breaks with yours. I am so incredibly sorry for your and your beloved family!!! I only knew of him whenever you shared him... he has always been so much sunshine and love, he always has so much joy being with you too 💗 your dad has always been such an incredible dad. ....thank you for making this video for us. please give yourself grace, it's okay to be emotional or lost or a combination of things... it's part of the processing the new reality and grief and speaking about it sometimes triggers a lot of things... so I get it and it's okay. You are doing amazingly. I send my love ❤❤❤

[@stephanievivier290]

You did good. Always take your time. Like my grandma used to say to me before she passed...have faith in God he will bring us all back together again. I still missed her till this day. (John 3:16) Is my most favorite scripture. And there is one I don't remember which passage it was. But it's about faith in God. And some people used to walk up to me (depending on their religion) and say, " I'd rather believe in God then die to find out there is no God." God bless you and your family. Merry Christmas.

[@susanramnanan5884]

I am so sorry dear girl. Your Dad is now in your future . I pray that Jesus will heal your broken heart.

[@andierichter1382]

I was wondering why the break but I completely respect it. I am so sorry for your loss. He truly seemed like your best friend. ❤️

[@donnabaker8288]

I'm so sorry about your dad. I have looked for your videos, now I understand...cling to Jesus and I know you will not forget all the wonderful memories you have with your dad....keep making videos, they are so encouraging to others....❤

[@Fred-h4p]

I am so sorry. I used to watch the videos with you and your dad years ago. I didn’t know you lost him until I saw this video in my feed. This is very sad news and I can only imagine how hard it is for you. In all the videos I saw of you and your dad, what was very clear to me was that he was an incredibly nice guy and he loved you so much. My heart breaks for you.

[@urbanlegendsandtrivia2023]

It is so nice to hear from you once again. Although you have not been posting on KZbin, I still watch your helpful videos, as I am deaf in my right ear and have almost-permanent tinnitus in my left ear. I know you were close to your late father because you used to post videos featuring the two of you together. I wish all the best to you and your family in the upcoming years.

[@AllyLangley]

It's so lovely seeing you again on this channel. I remember when you posted on Instagram that your Dad went to Heaven and I was speechless when I read it. Your dad would be so proud of you today as he's up there with Christ watching you as you continue. I pray for you and your family as you continue to lean on Christ through everything, knowing that he will hold you fast. Sending you much love from a fellow sister in Christ during this time of the year.

[@bran6989]

So sorry for your loss. I really enjoyed him in the videos ❤ Jesus gives us hope! God bless, and so happy to see you

[@raymondlin8728]

Im so sorry. I always looked forward to the both of you . Your channel help my mind learn something new when i was going thru my own problem.

[@runswithcaesars]

You're an amazing spirit and I could see from the videos you and your father were close. I started to learn sign as a special interest several years ago and came upon your channel. I'm sorry to say I haven't kept up with it, but I do strive to continue again soon. If I can impart any wisdom: rejoice in what you had with your father, even in times of pain we're meant to. I hope to be able to practice what I preach when those times happen for me. I know you'll find the strength you are looking for. Please consider continuing the channel uploads if it's something you can enjoy again, I'd love to keep learning sign through you. I send my condolences and God bless.

[@keetyalexx]

May his memory be a blessing ❤

[@ericagoehring1089]

I am so sorry. He was so sweet and charming. It was clear how much he adored you!

[@kynn23]

Your dad is cheering you on as you run your race toward Jesus. I'm sorry you have to run without him here. Thank you for posting. Big hug to you from this Internet stranger.

[@xiansx]

Amen! Praise the Lord for your Dad. To walk into heaven on Christmas Day! Imagine... You will see him again. Prayers of peace and strength for you and your family.

[@jaxansell5452]

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you continue to do videos, even just updates. He will be greatly missed by your family and friends, but also this world as he was a good man. Please don't vanish for 3 or more years before posting again. You are a light in this world that we need. Thank you for your honesty, your faith, and taking the time to share when you can.

[@ErnieV76]

So happy to see you on KZbin again, and it took great courage to share with us. I’m praying for you and your family. 🙏🏼

[@melanie7229]

Thank you for sharing the video Ash! You are so strong. This journey is so hard. I cried (with you) while watching your video. This year was 4 years without my Dad. Some days I can talk to people about my parents, but specifically my Dad, and other times I cry! A couple weeks ago I had to have that discussion with someone and I cried. Just know you're doing the best you can and you'll feel a little better on the better days ❤🫶🤟

[@dawncarter4322]

I am so sorry. Amen! Now it's your turn to run your race as he did. Praise God that you know Jesus and he will see you through. Keep going on with his memory close to you. You could tell on your videos that you were close and he loved you so much. Thank you for sharing this personal heartache.

[@8080VB]

Hey we miss you 🥺. I was worried all these days...My condolences for your loss. He's always proud of you . Keep doing your thing.

[@sharon-sz5li]

Am sorry for your loss, He will be waiting for you and your families in another lives. Hug tight

[@silvawolf11]

God bless you and your family. I can see the love in your heart. I will pray for you.

[@dimarisvelazquez2247]

My deepest condolences for you and your family. May God be your strength and give you peace in this hard times. Thank you for sharing your sorrow with us. My prayers 🙏🏽

[@MaryBeth205]

Prayers and so much love for you, my friend 💚

[@richtaub]

Though a tough video to make, glad to see you back on You Tube. It's been almost 10 yrs since losing may dad and doesn't seem that long, and still m miss him everyday

[@saquoiag]

My deepest condolences. You and your family are in my prayers.

[@the_docta]

I really enjoyed all the videos with you and your dad back when I discovered your channel years ago. Always looked forward to your posts. I was taking ASL classes because it intriged me and I wanted to learn. I just want to tell you that I'm sincerely sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family. I pray that your dad is at peace with God and I pray that you and your family find peace with God. No words that I can say can make things better but I send good vibes and prayers your way. 💜💜💜🙏

[@melissaschroeder1670]

Sending you love and light. Hoping the good memories wash over the pain of his absence.

[@jillgodfrey8445]

I’m so sorry about your dad, I Loved watching the 2 of you in videos always saw how much he meant to you, it came through in every video, it’s hard to believe someone you love so much is now gone, he’s always with you tho he’s never left if you dream about him he’s with you in that dream , I’m a firm believer of that hang in there I know some days are better than others holidays are always hard for me , but, you have your mom and your sister for support my parents are both gone and my husband as well the rest of my family is scattered all over lean on them I’m sure they will be there

[@trackclubbabe]

i love you, ash! Dad is so proud of you

[@cystocomplex]

Im sorry for your loss Ashley… just take your time. Stay strong ❤❤❤

[@susanw489]

Ashley, welcome back honey. Sending big hugs from Texas.

[@Arampe]

Sorry for your loss, Ashley. Your dad was amazing and will live forever in your heart. ❤

[@Watson_Holmes]

Everyone processes grief differently, and the pain that you're going through is genuine. 🩵 Thank you for finding the courage to share this vulnerable moment with us, it wasn't easy but you did it. Your love is unconditional and knows no bounds. May God guide you through your grief, no matter how long it takes stay strong in this love. Cherish it, may you reunite with your father one day up in heaven. You're doing so good, you're loved. 🩵

[@mayi4403]

I just clicked and started tearing.

[@SewlockHolmes]

My deepest condolences to you, I always loved watching your videos together and how you both would bring such joy to each other. He seemed like such a wonderful person who has touched many lives for the better. Thank you for sharing with us; best wishes and love to you and your family

[@zakbirch]

Thanks for posting. I know it was difficult for you. I wasn't very close to my father. It still makes me a little sad. It is a blessing to be able to care about anyone enough to feel hurt I suppose, although I'm sure it doesn't feel that way.

[@willemvandebeek]

My condolences for the sudden departure of your father. I am not on Instagram, so this is completely new news for me. Thank you for making this difficult video.

[@earningzekrom4173]

RIP to your dad, I'm so sorry for your loss, sending support to you all!

[@rstroh2105]

This is awful news. I am so sorry. Everyone loved "Ashley's Dad." However, I appreciate that he was a man of faith and that he and your family are fighting the good fight while waiting to see him again. Keep the faith!

[@carolinabock2453]

Im so sorry this happened. Sending you the biggest hug ❤

[@BlackHawkBricks]

I’m so sorry to hear that. I will be praying for you.

[@millerlena2208]

I can feel the pain. I’m so sorry

[@hafizsiraj3280]

I am sorry to hear . Ur dad is great

[@TrimansWife]

Deepest condolences.

[@shareemacrauser3584]

My condolences ❤

[@carlcounts1]

He is in good hands with Jesus now. God bless 🙏

[@TheCoolerDanny]

Sorry about your dad, but I’m sure he would be proud of you for being strong

[@gabrieldariobrasuna-5695]

Hi! Here from Argentina. You made a really difficult video. You have to know that your father will be always with you. He´s seeing you everyday. I lost my dad six month ago and this is really hard. I am learning Argentine sign language because I want to be an interpreter one day. The best for you! See you in your videos!

[@laurenmurphy7243]

Sending hugs your way love your videos

[@mattiasohlsson5676]

❤🙏

[@stormcld]

Sorry for your loss my dad died the day after Christmas always a hard time after every Christmas because it’s around that time so I’m with you in the sadness

[@HoV326]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[@sensibleprimate]

Sending love your way.

[@stormcld]

My heart goes out to you we have so much in common except the signing that I wish i could reach out to you and also give you a hug

[@BigFrakkinOgre]

Condolences

[@osamaalthaher2830]

OH man this is really some bad news... sorry for your loss

[@katefuglestad5894]

I am so sorry. *hug*

[@jamesclark318]

Hi, yes I remember, sorry for your loss.

[@rycocole5513]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@charisamartin2152]

❤🤟🏽❤🤟🏽❤

[@antonfernando8409]

RiP 🙏

[@edwardcole0711]

😔

[@pandusatryo5738]

thank you so much for sharing this video. I feel it is hard for you but you share it anyway, Means that you are very strong and honest person. I believe your DAD in heaven is so proud to you. May be i am wrong but …. i believe DAD surely wants Ashley sensei to not sad again. DAD is in heaven with Jesus and he is praying to God so everyone would be happy. BIG HUG‼️ …i believe so much DAD always love you and always support you to teach and share good deeds to the world🙏 🩵🩵🩵❤️🩵