My (ex) Jehovah's Witness Story

This video describes my family's history as Jehovah's Witnesses, and why I eventually left the religion.
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[@benmoreau6899]

That feeling of lightness you described after deciding you never have to go to another meeting again is spot on and recalled what it felt like for me when I made the same decision! I think ex-witnesses have it tough and it can quickly become a nihilistic hellscape if you're not careful, I wish the best for anyone who manages to find their way out.

[@mamajimothy1677]

Benjamin Moreau agree! Hamster wheel ended. My mood changed from regretting to get up to jumping out of bed early on weekend to clean house (yeah, right?) and then take off and have fun or run errands. Always able to relax in the evening whatever was planned. Before, my weekends were anticipated with dread because never enough time to take care of everything. I was up at 5am and didn’t get to sleep past 12am. Monday’s, I always felt sick going back to work and pushing through the week.

[@cherylseebreth328]

What a beautiful feeling when you make that decision. You feel like a burden has been lifted off your shoulders. Free at last! Thank God we are free at last.

[@mariakawiti4508]

From Aotearoa, New Zealand!!! My parents of "Maori Descent" were JW before I was born, 1955. Eldest of Ten Girls and Four Boys!!! Back in those days Maori Men were never allowed to be Elders till I was 13yrs!!! Bethel sent speakers throughout New Zealand forbidding JW Maori from returning to our Tribal families!! From a SPECIAL MEETING BEHIND CLOSED DOORS Elders around New Zealand preached to Us Maori condemning Maori... practices as Satanic?? We are not Satanic!!! I left as Solo mum of three young sons, I have No Regrets leaving!!! Just recently discovered Charles Tase Russell was part of 'Knights Templar?? Freemasons??" Before he died, Russel ordered a pyramid Headstone with etched Crown and a 'Cross Jesus supposedly died on, at the top of Pyramid???

[@robind.phillips2129]

I really enjoyed your Ex JW story. It took guts to just come out and tell your mom and dad. I grew up Pentecostal. My mom was a Local preacher( she is 97 1/2 now, and I'm not telling her about my deconversion journey). My oldest brother became a JW in his 20's after discharging from the military. He's still in it. I hope that somehow, he stumbles into this community of Ex JWs. Thank you for sharing your journey.

[@ld-zj1bn]

Your story is very interesting. Thanks for that. Well done.! Where would we be without the internet! 🤗🤗

[@mn7607]

I wish you the best! Fellow RN; I understand. Fellow JW: I understand. Fellow human; I understand. I wish you more. 💜

[@angvan7368]

I listen to videos as I do house work and I really enjoyed your life story. It's funny how we all have little things we connect with....canker sores! Oh my goodness I had such horrible ones.....Funny how they slowly faded from my life the longer my mind was away from the Witnesses. I'm also a shy one...the only reason I had any friends was because the daughter of an elder studied with me. It's taken me a lot of years to disconnect my mind from them. Listening to others stories really helps. So thank you for taking the time to make a video.

[@Makethetruthyourown1990]

Wow canker sores? I got many of them as well. Never knew why.

[@cindyluwho72]

wow our stories are similar - my parents were married in '69 - I was born in '78. I had a friend named Cory from Rochester, NY. my parents were baptized in '74 but somehow survived '75 - it never came up in our upbringing. I attended Pioneer Seminars with Everett Rodericks & his brother (Forgot his brother's name) I was always the one to study with the young girls to the point of baptism too. I too struggled with some "unclean habits" as they were called and fudged my responses to those questions on the Bethel, RBC (LDC) & regular pioneer applications I submitted. I loved the people in the congregation & my family & studying the Bible, but couldn't look back after I learned all of the deceitful teachings and secretive practices. Thanks for your videos - I enjoy listening to you very much!

[@minusdagroove]

Studying Nepali helped wake me up. Welcome to your freedom.

[@ShoNuffSoulBro1]

Studying the Kingdom book is what woke me up 😆

[@okhuibutala1640]

Looking for governing body 8 men .... 😫 No desire to follow them 🤣 Because God said Do not follow them No light and no truth and no salvation ...

[@Martinj1417]

My wife and I did the same thing! We started a Nepali group in Pennsylvania.

[@Martinj1417]

Did you know my uncle don Haugh an elder outside of Rochester. My cousin was Brandon Haugh.

[@angelawilliams9912]

Fascinating to see it from perspective of one brought up as a JW. I converted was in 40 years but been out 11/2 years now. You don't realise hamster wheel of service to WT you on until you jump off! My daughter didn't take to my religion fortunately so not being shunned by her. None of my family are JWs thank goodness. Ironically I used to think how lovely it would be to have your family in truth with you. But it's a nightmare when you wake up and they still fast asleep so you have to pretend you still on same wavelength to keep your family. Total mind control by WT, GB made it their craft they are good at what they do fooling the masses. It's so enabling to hear you said you wanted to step down after 20 yeas and you never went back. I put in my diss letter after 40 years and never went back. Such a relief. WT runs on FOG agenda. So unchristian.

[@eloiseramsey9276]

Good talk🙂

[@taramaitreya5265]

I love this video. Thanks for sharing your life as a witness and what goes on in your head while you were still in. I found so many similarities in the events of our lives except that I was disfellowshipped and not just faded away. It was my intention to just leave quietly but I guess I was too much of an influence in the congregation that they have to take action and warn others to stay away by announcing it in the congregation. I was the first person I heard that was disfellowshipped for apostasy and that was back in 1983! I have never regretted my decision to leave. Glad that I found your channels and I will be watching out for new videos to come. Thanks!

[@hektorlinko]

Wow...I remember back in the day when they would publicly announce a person being disfellowshipped or reproved "but has shown repentance" on the Tuesday night meetings during the announcements after mid meeting after singing our song. I remember being told as a kid not to look at that person or dare talk or even say hi even when they were there sitting at the back of the kingdom hall. I was reproved as a young teen and I was so humiliated and so embarrassed sitting in the middle of the hall with my parents and it was horrible and I finally left when I was 17. Couldn't take it anymore, the stress, the pressure to give talks, hold the microphones, go on field service, get bible studies, do this do that more more more to serve jehovah etc. and I finally snapped and crashed and burned and became the ex jw poster boy as I went crazy and grew my hair long, converted my image as a gothic death rock, punk rock, death metal persona (but I liked that music anyway and I skated as well) and I went crazy for a while but eventually grew up and became responsible etc. I'm now 48 live a humble life, work hard, have a lovely wife, two step-kids which are graduating college soon, we have a cat and 2 german shepard's and enjoy the simple things in life. Wow sorry for the long comment it just feels good to read other comments and keep this going.

[@bumrush9422]

"and I skipped the next one after that and I just never ever went back." Now THAT'S funny!!!! LOL!!!!

[@user-pp1xk3vm5c]

That was an awesome post. Amazing how those physical ailments disappeared once you left! I was on Lithium for a long time for my depression even hospitalised for it. But as soon as I left the Watchtower and cut ties with those people altogether, I no longer needed my medication. I have been off it now for almost 18 months. I want to share this video with a few of my friends that are pimo, I think they will benefit so much from your story. Look forward to many more 💪🏻 Please keep us posted re your new career in the aerospace industry, that sounds fantastic

[@heatheradams8946]

Really enjoyed your story thanks for sharing it ..your photos were fab too.

[@annabizaro-doo-dah]

"You're never going to get fired from preaching!". Ha! That's what I thought....until recently I heard that you can be reproved and have 'privileges' removed *including going out in the ministry* ! I'm like whaaa? I thought that was the "great commission",a direct order from the boss no one could remove(aside from DF of course)but apparently not! Anyone else heard this, too? The control is getting crazier!

[@mamajimothy1677]

Anna Twink when was reprove a preaching restriction. It was only commenting and participating in congregational matters that were restricted. You still went out in FS and attended meetings silently- to humble you and take on spiritual food. Control none the less.

[@msbutterfly4365]

Mama Jimothy I also remember years ago a few friends had their preaching work restricted and wasn’t allowed to go door to door, I live in London and I know for sure that happened it may not have been wide spread but it definitely did happen, I guess before the light got brighter phase....

[@annabizaro-doo-dah]

@@msbutterfly4365 that's funny because I too live in London.

[@msbutterfly4365]

@@annabizaro-doo-dah Ohhh lovely which part ...? I'm in east

[@lane6216]

Oh, yes. They’ve always threatened removal of “privileges.” Commenting and sound system, or microphones, used to be the big thing in the 80’s and 90’s. My brothers were all the time losing the microphone privilege because their hair was too “worldly.” 🙄

[@kittylove2975]

Thank you so much for sharing your story as a JW, your journey, and life experiences. Your ability to convey your thoughts are so vivid and touching. Thank you again... Thank you for your channel ‼️❤️💙❤️💙❤️

[@johannachan9685]

Phil, we always enjoyed your talks! I’m so glad you have this channel because now we all can enjoy your style and sense of humor. 💜

[@theblueenvelope]

I'm glad you found it!

[@microwavedsoda]

don't know if anyone already said this but you have one of the best set of teeth I have ever seen. Great video too man, I studied for a year and dropped out before baptizing etc.

[@suchenliao2710]

Great presentations! Thank you for sharing your life story wishing you well and a happier you

[@oroborus21x53]

Thanks for sharing your story Phil. Good luck on all your endeavours.

[@bumrush9422]

"I don't have to go to this meeting if I don't want to." hahahahahahaha!!!!!! BINGO!

[@christinemccoy2192]

That was a great share. I like the way you told your story. Simply told but not a simple story. The encouragement at the end about not being so afraid of making a "wrong" choice that you never dare to live was very moving. Thank you. ...and I hope you keep adding new posts.

[@mrssomuchmore7193]

Thank you so much for sharing your story!!! The quotes at the end from the '59 and Paramore (one of my fav bands) were perfect!!

[@jehovisbutty2959]

Been out for 27 years this year, and it takes a while to adjust your head, but it can be done. I wish you the very best as life in the real "WORLD" is bloody marvelous.

[@laymanphil8513]

Thank you very much for this wonderful testimonial. The photos made me cry because I felt like I was reliving that time with my family in France in the 80s. Since April 2019, the irrational is no longer part of my life. I absolutely do not regret my choice and for nothing in the world I would return to this "church". All of my chronic inflammations that had been going on for years disappeared 2 months after I left that doomsday cult. Thank you for your inspiring activism and I believe we EXJWs are very fortunate to live in a time that will see the decline of this fundamentalist religion. Again a big thank you to all the EXJW dissidence which becomes stronger and more numerous every year. I embrace you with all my heart.

[@NilDreams]

Wow! The quote from the 1959 WT at the end. Amazing how they judge and shun those who follow their own written words in that WT . That should go viral in the PIMO community for those who are still scared to leave. They would just be following WT urging.

[@johannvandermerwe4826]

Amazing to hear how much of thoughts of the past, unanswered questions and vague new teachings influenced so many of us. My "final enlightenment" came sort of during the Covid-19 lockdown ALSO because of having more time to think. Keepgoing and thanks for sharing an excellent life-story.

[@miat8264]

My decade in Las Vegas led me into the company of architects, engineers and interior designers as a project administrator primarily overseeing document control from concept to archival of some very exciting buildings, structures and complexes. You can hardly drive a mile anywhere in the city and not see something I had my hands on. One architect explained how thrilling it always was to fly in over the city and see so many cranes. I finally concluded that had to be the state bird. I enjoyed the weather and outdoor activities as well. I found it to be stimulating and fun, yet I could always find quiet away from the hustle and bustle. There are a number of ghost towns to explore, and not too far away is the London Bridge in Havasu City. If you do think about checking out a church I recommend Central Christian Church in Henderson. I'm retired now and settled in my old stomping grounds near my children and grandchildren. Never thought twice about going back to the witnesses after I left at 35.

[@scottthompson9874]

I'v watch dozens of these videos but never anyone from New York or at least so close to my area , most of peoples stories about being a JW are basically the same . It is great that we have the internet to help people who finally see the bad in that organization . You probably went to syracuse War Memorial for assembly may have even met you or seen you . I left in 1986 87 just left and never looked back , glad you made it out

[@theblueenvelope]

I usually went to Rochester but we were assigned to Syracuse a couple of years. I remember being quite impressed by the huge war murals.

[@1Adrian1967]

Thank you for sharing your story. Good luck for the future. Best wishes from the UK.

[@greatdayn4651]

This is the third video of yours I've watched in a row (I just found you.) I also just went to and have come back from watching/listening to Paramore's Careful. I had never heard the song nor even of the band. It is amazing; thank you for sharing.

[@funzh3443]

You did well. I was feeling the same at first. But now I am fine and happy that I woke up.

[@cindyarnold7322]

Thank you for sharing your story. I am interested in the history of Jamestown since it is the place where so many churches began. Would love it if you did a video on that.

[@annabizaro-doo-dah]

I second that. In fact any history of the religion I'm very interested in and especially personal interest pieces with a 'historical bent'.

[@janehampton2866]

Are you an exjw in Jamestown? I’m in Buffalo.

[@theblueenvelope]

@@janehampton2866 No, I moved out west a while back.

[@janehampton2866]

The Blue Envelope ok. That’s cool. There was talk of a meet up around here.

[@jovialbivouacker99]

I loved this retelling of your experiences within the religion. I have been an ex since 1993, and couldn’t be more satisfied with my decision to self-disassociate. I also had an organ transplant five years ago and received blood during the I surgery. I am doing fine as there were no repercussions of the transfusion! Keep relating your experiences. I know it can be healing.🤗 Also, what an awesome quote from the wt!

[@gypsylamb9502]

Thank you for sharing your story. It was similar to my experience. Once I made the decision to quit the organization a great weight was lifted off my shoulders. For the first time in my life (I was born in the “truth”) I felt free and happy. Best wishes for you and all of our fellow group of free roaming new family! 😀

[@evag2660]

I was in your hall as a kid. My mom was a single parent and I remembered thinking you guys were so perfect wishing we could be like you. I dont think your parents let susanna play with me cuz our family was irregular. I was so jealous cuz Katie and lisa spooner got to play with her

[@theblueenvelope]

wow small world! I remember my family had this attitude of needing to help those less fortunate, which was sort of good in one way, but also patronizing.

[@mattjames7272]

Phil - I really enjoyed your story. I can relate to much of it

[@debsvista2281]

Found you from watching a video you did with Lloyd Evans and Jay the Comedian. Thanks for sharing your journey from the 'borg'. Excellent quote from the WT. Wrote it down for future reference. I'm still in the 'healing' process of fading. After over 4 decades, I slowly woke up after trying to understand the 'overlapping generation', date of the destruction of Jerusalem, and watching the 1st season of Leah Remini: Scientology and the Aftermath. Looking forward to watching your earlier videos. Ever thought of doing videos in Spanish? No doubt your story would help them as well.

[@annderby6295]

This is one inspiring video! I thoroughly enjoyed your reasoning about the blood issue! My very best wishes to you in all that you do!

[@jexodussouthafrica177]

Your story is beautiful. I couldn’t agree with you more. Leaving the watchtower is healthy mentally and physically. Continue to enjoy your life!

[@kdrazalotg-usa6345]

Such an interesting journey! I’m watching this for the 2nd time in a few years! I now listen, and it makes different feelings pop up, based on my journey now, too, lol and so your journey affects me differently in good learning experiences, and now in relation to how my world has been colored (since Covid, and having been awake since 2018. The time before, I was more fresh out, my experience raw, and myself also shy, and now since going through a lot with the lockdown and all that, your experience (especially in the educational and job experiences) I also had done college but I hadn’t finished my education, but my goals also have changed. Now am trying to figure all that stuff out, am educating myself at home right now…I really hope to know how things are going now. 😊

[@the_luggage]

Well done, Sir. Fantastic video and thanks for being so honest. You'd be a perfect companion with whom to sit down and chat about the world. Having listened to your conclusion, I recommend travelling and seeing the world. It can be pretty enriching and is much easier and cheaper than people think (for those of us to be lucky enough to have good passports and/or visa opportunities).

[@sonyk9400]

Though my life being raised as a witness was very different and my decision to leave was different. I enjoyed listening to your story and feel a connection to you as a person. All my best.

[@katew.9402]

Awesome video! I loved that Watchtower quote at the end :-) I can very much relate to the black-and-white thinking. I think it's a personality trait for me, but my JW upbringing really exacerbated it.

[@jjose3069]

Hey Phil! I used to work with you at JEP doing security. Glad to know things are well with you.

[@theblueenvelope]

Nice, small world. Hope you're doing well too.

[@pennytarrant6608]

The time is going to pass, so you might as well enjoy what you are doing and delight in what we have here and now. I also like to find the beautiful places and enjoy the paradise that I expected. So happy to see that you experience that sense of weightlessness. It really is awesome. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@davidjrtodd]

You are the opposite of arrogant. I love your natural style of presentation. Lloyd Evans put me onto your channel.

[@cindyarnold7322]

Since you are in the health care industry I wonder if you've come across videos on You Tube by Dr Gabor Mate' ? He says stress causes many diseases, he wrote a book," When the Body Says No". So running can be a kind of meditation which helps relieve stress. Good luck with your new studies! Keep running!

[@theblueenvelope]

Thanks! I haven't seen those vids, I did read a book "Childhood Disrupted" by Nakazawa which it sounds like discusses the same ideas.

[@cindyarnold7322]

I will check that out.Always love checking out authors who offer insight into these things. Gabor has quite a story and he is very honest and aware of his shortcomings. He kinda gives us a good reason to examine ourselves without judgement. This year I am focusing on self care...and art.

[@Sunshine_AK]

@@theblueenvelope I am reading that book, Childhood Disrupted, right now.

[@jehovisbutty2959]

Running is really good as it produces the same brain state as meditation.

[@scoremat]

Thanks Phil... that was awesome! Many are on this path... you are never alone, me bruvah!

[@leahmelton5776]

Fellow RN here and exJW.. started doubting the JW teaching when attending University for my BSN. Faded shortly after getting my RN licensure. Went back for my Masters and graduated in 2012. Now I am a Nurse Practitioner. I own a clinic. Since leaving the JWs I feel free!

[@jimmyindallas1303]

Thank you for this. Your videos are very helpful. I really like the way you ended this one. I'm a fellow ex-jw Paramore fan. When I hear that lyric I think of the same thing.

[@rdhawk929]

Awesome story! Love the closing argument citing the Watchtower !! Bravo! My best to you! ❣☝️

[@VictoriaOz]

Thanks for sharing your story I really enjoyed it!

[@andreholder1540]

Great oration and smooth transition from, this cult.

[@ANDY_FUGAZI]

That was an encouraging story. Excellent still shots of the Family. I was born in 62. Met my Wife and Found the "Truth" when I was 19. We were both baptized 2 yrs later. Raised 5 kids. Served as an Elder for over 25 years. Like yourself, I enjoyed giving public talks. In 2007 I remember preparing a talk on God's Creation, and gave it several times in different congregations. Well, 6 years ago I began to question some of the bullet points and it's reference material along with the Science ( Evidence ) behind them. I was actually very dismayed and shocked that I could not find any scientific evidence for what the Society still continues to advocate ; That Earth, Our Home, is a Spinning, Wobbling, Teatering Ball flying through an infinite Vacuum of Space. I stepped down as an Elder, and haven't been to a physical meeting since. Just the odd zoom from time to time. I did sit down with several Elders, once at the Hall and a cpl of times at my Home. Because my "Opinion" on the Nature of Earth is different to that of the Society, I was told my thinking was "Border-Line" Apostasy. This did not sit well with me as we we're always asked to be diligent in our research, to " Make Sure " Be as a Berean !! I could not even find 1 Scriptural Text to support what i was teaching from the platform. It really disturbed me. The only reason why I bring this up is because of your interest in aerospace. Please look at its Evidence & History. May I recommend a book by Eric Dubay " 200 PROOFS Earth is not a Spinning Ball ".? Thanks again for your wonderful story. :: Your Brother, Andy...

[@dancingnature]

The earth has seasons because the earth is a spinning ball that is tilted 23 degrees

[@margybernard]

Thank you for your insightful recount. You have such a calm voice. That quote from the Watchtower, at the end, is aimed at all the other religions. They use it to convince people to join "the truth". By the way, your family was gifted with beauty. Your sister is gorgeous. Cheers for your tenacity in pursuing your dreams. 🆒🆓🆙💯

[@mytransparentwardrobe]

Thank You for sharing. Loved the quotes.

[@micheleharris2730]

Thanks for sharing your story. Have no regrets - it's your past that made you who you are today. 😊

[@SaraMartinez-su7dh]

Thank you for sharing your story keep it up stay strong and keep posted more videos I'm glad things are going good for you and embrace the new journey

[@glorialeach7301]

I always had questions but NEVER ask. Always interesting how we all have similar stories to tell. 👍

[@patriciapitt4228]

Thanks Gloria, but do you think it's like waking up from a night mare or perhaps or probably a day mare OR maybe a lot of Bulla Macow Peck Peck, just BEEN around Jduds for 60 years, sure is a blessing for all to be on the road to LIFE with out the Gbody, Cheers *.

[@dolam]

Great experience. Thanks for posting 👍🏼

[@Duhble07]

Right from the heart, thank you. You are such a keen observer. Since both of your parents converted in their 30’s (?) I wonder how that affected their and your relationships with non-JW family members? Being older, the conversion was hardest on you. And you clearly have a science bent, so it must have been especially painful to suppress or give that up. So glad you found your way back to science. If you like Geology I can personally vouch for that field. Las Vegas may not be the perfect place, but you did right to go west, and it has a feeling of more freedom and opportunity there. All the best and will be checking out your other offerings.

[@th2o26]

I love your quotes at the end! If you are ever in Grand Forks ND for the University Aerospace program it would be fun to meet you. My husband is an FAA Airman Medical Examiner.

[@theblueenvelope]

Thank you!

[@dawnemile4974]

I feel ashamed for encouraging people to come into the organization. I hope they forgive me and find out the real truth.

[@josevaldez3913]

I love your videos Phil you and Wally, aka J. W. thoughts are my two favorite peeps who discuss Jehovah's Witness life.

[@joedingey2039]

I grew up in Niagara Falls, and I'm currently living in the Rochester area. I know the Henderson's quite well

[@minusdagroove]

Joe Dingey hey Joe,where in Rochester do you live?

[@joedingey2039]

@@minusdagroove Eastern suburb. Do we know each other?

[@janehampton2866]

I’m in Niagara Falls. Hi how are you? And an exjw

[@joedingey2039]

@@janehampton2866 never been better!

[@DanMilZ]

What? Are you kidding me? What a small world! Lol! I live in Rochester currently and used to go to Arnett, Upper Falls, and Riverview congregation. I know those people who you mentioned. Glad to hear from you Brother, my true Brother! My wife and I are making up for lost time too and enjoying it, what a burden released. This is my step daughter's story kzbin.info/www/bejne/q5nVf4Keatukmsk. You may have crossed paths with her because she was very active. Peace

[@theblueenvelope]

Nice, I'm going to watch that.

[@minusdagroove]

D Mills I use to attend Arnett congregation also.

[@JdeUribe]

The Blue Envelope thank you for sharing your video. Have you seen The Witnesses by Oxygen channel the trailer is on KZbin? I also watched exjw Critical Thinkers channel I. KZbin

[@evag2660]

I'm in Rochester too!! Would love to meet other ex jw. It has not been easy

[@DanMilZ]

@@evag2660 Sweet! It's rare to find ex witnesses in your area. I was surprised my brother in law was one too. We all should catch up for coffee or something

[@robincourtney9459]

I disagree with you... you have NOT failed. You were born and raised into the JW culture. I LOVE that WT quote at the end. When you came to the realization that the path that your parents had placed you on was not for you you made a change. I applaud you!!!

[@minusdagroove]

I had attended the old South and the Arnett congregation in Rochester,New York.

[@janehampton2866]

Fat Gandalf hi I’m from Buffalo NY. How are you?

[@johnnyruins9025]

Thank you for sharing your story that last quote from the watchtower is one that I agree with raised has a jw lucky to leave at 16.

[@catmeow333]

Thank you so much for this video.

[@eddytheman1384]

Thanks Phil it was good to hear your life story ,story of ordinary man but still unique thus human story ! I love that quote from WT 59 have to make a bookmark of it ! Are you still in Vegas ? Keep up you good work bro, best & peace

[@theblueenvelope]

Thanks! No, I left Vegas for (literally) greener pastures haha. All the best to you.

[@eddytheman1384]

@@theblueenvelope thanks Phil I was use to your neighbor across water in Toronto.So if you will have plan to popup here keep me in mind ,coffee on me .best

[@yhli2539]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[@S.Her.]

I enjoyed listening to your life story. So glad you we able to recognize that you were not in "the truth" and find your way out! My concern is that ex-JW's might throw out the Bible just because some cults have used it in a twisted way. I hope you have met 'real' Christians since coming out-- those who study the whole Bible in it's context and find it to match with reality, who think critically, welcome questions, and can defend their beliefs using Scripture in context, who serve others out of their love for Christ not pressure from a man-made organization, those who can't help but share the joy and peace they have found since having their sins forgiven and beginning a personal relationship with the Savior Jesus of the Bible (not WTs version of created Jesus.) Jesus claimed that He was "the Truth." (John 14:6) Real Christian don't shun others who believe differently. They love and pray for them! I don't know you, but I care, God cares, and I am praying that He reveals Himself to you. ❤️🙏 (His explanation for how we can be made right with Him is explained in the first 11 chapters of Romans.)

[@dxxt136]

Hi Phil, Thanks for your video!! I just wanted to ask you if you still believe in God or Jehovah or would you consider yourself an agnostic or atheist?

[@franswa7251]

Bill, I enjoyed both of the videos on the story of your life! Are your parents still in contact with you?, I hope so...

[@theblueenvelope]

They are, so that's nice.

[@dianesicgala4310]

Love your Video’s. Thank you so much.

[@elroeelroe9006]

God bless you

[@RealDukeOfEarl]

Study physics, get the degree, the jobs will be offered in all sorts of fields. Plus you'll love it. Enjoyable listen again. Your story of the kid with the heart and the blood transfusion issues was touching. Reminded me of so many I knew of who lost their lives who might still be here today we're it not for that wicked doctrine.

[@danieliglesias6278]

Definitely moving away from your “original” congregation or city, town, different language, different culture, sorta gives one “permission” to do some research, to investigate certain beliefs or at the very least it allows us to question our beliefs. It would be interesting to hear a psychiatrist or psychologist speak about this. Why is that moving away from one’s parents (assuming they are JWs and indoctrinated us from birth, moving away from our old congregation, moving away from the group of elders that perhaps we respect deeply, maybe even fear them....that new situation tends to be where many witnesses find themselves finally starting to do some research and begin to look into beliefs or doctrine that we always had doubts about. I know it was so for me and it seems it was also so for other ex JWs and for you also. I think having to learn a new language and having to preach and give talks in that foreign language, adds to the “disconnect” we start to feel towards Watchtower. I think you do a great job doing your videos. No nonsense, no exaggerations, no “inventing” things about The Organization. Watchtower fairytales and lies are bad enough as they are. So, well done by you. That it why I am going to mention this one thing. In one of your videos you say something like...”Puerto Ricans would move to this area in ( I forgot if you were talking about West New York State, Pennsylvania or some other area near bu...) because they knew it was easy to get away being in Welfare and not having to work...” something to that effect. Maybe you would like to walk that back a bit. Also, were you assigned at times, to give the talk for the meeting on the weekst before the Watchtower article study, even though you were not an elder, just a ministerial servants. I think I escaped Watchtower about a decade before you but, when I was still serving The Governing Body, one had to be.an elder to give that talk. It’s very possible that “rule” was changed after I left. It’s not that important, I’m just curious about this. Maybe one of your other subscribers knows for sure. Lastly, sorry, pet peeve of mine...the “brothers and sisters” in the “Spanish Language Congregation” unless they were born in.Spain. Maybe they were Colombian, Cuban, Salvadorian, Puerto Ricans, Argentinian, Mexican, Dominican......which means they were Latin American or Latinos or Hispanic....but not Spanish, unless they were born in the country of Spain. Maybe you did have a couple of Spaniards but unless a person is born in Madrid, or Granada, or somewhere in Galicia, or Cordoba, or Murcia, or Barcelona....they were not Spanish brothers and sisters. Also, for the same reason, it was not Spanish Congregation if they were located in Brooklyn, or Detroit, or Boston, os Chicago, or even in Super Latino Miami. It is a Spanish Language Congregation, even in East LA, Little Havana, or El Barrio in NYC... no matter how much Spanish was spoken. Sorry, I know I am being super picky, most probably as a result of my former Watchtower indoctrination. I am a new subscriber to your videos. I think you do a good job exposing Watchtower. Thank you for your activism. I look forward to more of your videos. If I made a thousand mistakes, my excise is I wrote this at 02:24...or 2:24 am for you civilians. Besides, English is my second language. 🤔🇨🇺🇺🇸

[@joedingey2039]

Everett Rodrigues was one of the instructors in my first pioneer School also.

[@theblueenvelope]

Oh how about that. I was trying to remember if I did also, but I think it was a different CO by then.

[@annafarago2271]

A long time ago I started bible study only to help me understand the bible with JW - what a mistake that was. I basically new more than she did and picked up a lot doctrine errors and the false prophecies to name just a few - not surprisingly she was not interested. I explained to her that I only wanted to discuss and help understand the scriptures better - not follow their books and magazines. I found her rude once I told I was not interested in become a JW after all that I found out about their doctrines and false prophecies (this was prior to internet etc) - library was very helpful. it was our priest who explained the scriptures. I often wonder whether she has woken up - I hope so. She used smack her little baby in the pram just for crying - so cruel. Gad you woke up.

[@erichramone7812]

Great story! May I ask what time period was this when you faded away and also when you told your parent on that car ride. I’m just curious? We’re from the same generation, my parents married in 1973 and I was born in 1978 and my brother was born in 1981. I too was a servant at one time. I was tripped up, very stumbled by the generation teaching. My father and I would knock on doors early in the morning, late at night and every weekend, and he would push me by saying don’t worry it’s just a little while longer, til the end because the generation of 1914 is very very old now. Also we studied the revelation a couple times in the 90s and I was pissed to find the WT was a member of the UN as an NGO. There is no way I believed it when my apostate aunt told me. But, the house of cards crumbles fast sometimes. Anyways love your story... congrats too you!!!!! Also I was unsuccessful at taking my life right before I woke up. I’m so glad I woke up have the weight lifted off as you said and now know I can believe in God, and and have faith and it has nothing to do with the WT society....

[@theblueenvelope]

It was around 2011 I left. I think a few months later I told my parents, although everything is a bit fuzzy from that time.

[@erichramone7812]

Ok. Thanks for your reply I appreciate that, I am very happy for you!

[@danial6109]

@@theblueenvelope Now is August 9, 2020 (Sunday) . 2011 , that is 120 years from the birth year of the grandfather of Anthony Morris the third . 120 years (Genesis 6 : 3) . Also 2011 is the year of the Harold Camping (Judgement Day , May 21,2011) prediction .

[@poochar]

..... good job .....Thanks !!!!

[@eduardomarcelino3003]

"STOP, LOOK, LISTEN: Luke 8:17" For there is nothing hidden that will not be revealed, nor is there anything carefully hidden that will never become known and never come out. "Really if you are a Baptized person who does not is part of the new covenant that jesus made with his disciples to eat the bread that represents his body and drink the wine that represents his blood, how will there be eternal life? (Luke 22: 19,20). doctrine of men or the word of GOD? " note (john chap 3: 16,17) 16- “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, so that everyone who exercises faith in him may not be destroyed, but have everlasting life. 17- For God did not send his Son into the world so that he could judge the world, but so that the world could be saved through him. "Watch (john ch. 6: 53-57) 53- So Jesus said to them: to them with all certainty: Unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in them. 54- Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I I will be resurrected on the last day, 55- for my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink 56. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood remains in union with me, and I in union with him. Just as the Father, who lives, sent me and I live because of the Father, so also he who feeds on me will live because of me. Concluding this covenant observe (John chapter 14: 6) Jesus said: “I am the path, truth and life. No one comes to the Father except through me ". notice what Jesus said: Matthew 23:13 “Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! Because they close the kingdom of heaven before men; for you yourself do not enter, nor let those who are on the way in to enter. "look at the Conclusion of Jesus (john chap 10: 09,10) 9- I am the door; everyone who enters through me will be saved, and will enter and he will go out and find pasture. 10- The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they might have life and have it in abundance.

[@iliprivateequity]

Oh wow.. I grew up in Rochester. I know these families. I haven't heard those names in so many years! My family's last name is Banks. Went to Riverview and Lakeview congregations in Greece.

[@KariIsSoVery]

Thank you for sharing. 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

[@kped138]

Thanks for sharing your story!

[@Iamandi.rivera]

Wow small world I’m from Rochester NY and yes know the family you mentioned that studied with your parents. I went to Upperfalls

[@evag2660]

I'm in roc too! Are you still in the area?

[@Iamandi.rivera]

Eva G that’s good to know I wonder if we knew each other. I’m not in the area any more though I live on the west coast but I come back to visit often. I hope we can connect at some point. Look me up on ig andi_energy_

[@dianesicgala4310]

God bless you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@chantelecomstock4962]

I recognize some of the people in the pictures. My sister went to a hall in jamestown and Im pretty sure our family frequented the ski bike shop you speak of in Jamestown. I left 20 years ago and then was stalked and DF'd maybe 15 years ago. I'm still in the Southern Tier area if you need a friend. Thanks for making the video.

[@chantelecomstock4962]

I was also homeschooled through American school, pioneered... and left right after pioneer school. Currently a nurse and want my EMT!

[@chantelecomstock4962]

I was raised in the hall with Grant!

[@chantelecomstock4962]

So, if you are undocumented you cannot hold privledge but if you are an ex sex offender you can, interesting,

[@WWZenaDo]

@19:57 - Man, I hate to mention this, but - the level of personnel 'churn' in those Wallkill kingdom halls possibly presented an opportunity for a pedophile (or maybe more than one, over time) to slip into the group,v do damage, and then be sent home, safe from prosecution.

[@barbaraprest783]

Good luck on your journey

[@simoneneveragain2939]

Is it possible to talk with you directly? Thank you.

[@Esther-1914]

I L-O-V-E how the soul works to extricate us from the borg!💗

[@Wellness-y8f]

I enjoyed listening to your JW story. Wondering if you finished the aeronautics degree. Good story teller, maybe write a book…god luck to you!

[@theblueenvelope]

thanks for your kind words, and I did write a book! www.amazon.com/Dear-Britta-Memoir-Phillip-Kuchman/dp/B0897BVDGL/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3OMV0L5CQXBE&keywords=kuchman&qid=1690634726&sprefix=kuchman%2Caps%2C110&sr=8-1

[@idrishamilton2620]

Who the Son SETS FREE is Free INDEED. God BLESSINGS to u my guy.

[@bevybee2012]

I am conflicted because not every thing the witnesses teach is a lie trinity hellfire if we are all going to heaven what is the significance of the 144000. Origin of different holidays so many questions

[@brianprince1649]

(John 20:31) (Acts 15:11 16:31) (Romans 10:9) ( 1 John 5: 13) all have one thing in common Believe in Jesus and you will be saved and have eternal life. Nowhere does it say where you are saved at. in heaven. John 3:5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. So to be saved in heaven you need to be baptized Matthew 28:19 ¶Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: John 5: 29 And shall comeforth; theythat have done good, unto the resurrectionof life; and they that have done evil, unto the resurrection of damnation. Even the wicked after they have paid the price for their own sins will be resurrected but their resurrection will be different than those that were saved and those that are baptized will be different than those that were just saved Verse 29 States that it is Immediately after the tribulation In verse 30 Jesus comes, and 31 gathering all the tribes. So he can call 12000 out of ever tribe In Rev. the Angels are to wait for the 144000 to be sealed before they can release the winds to hurt the earth for the 144000 then they will have this protection during these plagues that will come to the earth after the great tribulation, it has nothing to do with them being the only ones going to Heaven as the JW’s say.

[@latgra1332]

Osea que tú hablas español!!!!👋👋👋👋..... qué lindo!!!!😊👍👍👍

[@dianesicgala4310]

Great video. Thank you so much. It such an evil cult. So many nice people caught up in it.

[@jokich6379]

Someone said it is not just about being a good worldly person- they just do not want to except Jehovah's rulership. I had to wrap my mind around that.

[@nadineglenn2758]

Finally a person who left the JW’s that is not super angry or sarcastic. I am a retired ER RN so I get how becoming an RN could introduce questions into your spirituality. I was a bedside RN for 33 years and loved it lots. Hope you stay out but learn how to feel God, Jesus, Holy Spirit loves you. Have fun developing your life. I find having a dog is fun.