My failure to be a Marine | Quitting Bootcamp | 1 Year Retrospective

[@roadieryanontherun]

As a Marine… I respect you making this video. You were almost 30 man… Parris Island was grueling at 18. At least you had the hardware to sign the contract to try. Move forward and flourish

[@jvalusmc0331]

This post took balls man. No one ever talks about this side of the military. I always wondered what happened to the guys who went to SEPS. They always said the quickest way off Parris Island was to graduate. I hope you find peace of mind and your mental health improves. You may not have earned the title Marine but as far as I’m concerned you have guts!

[@lifedeather]

Nah he earned it

[@NANA-lq5md]

@@lifedeather no he didn't

[@Mjohn_41]

I thought it was called RSP (recruit separation ) but ya same always wonder

[@jvalusmc0331]

@@Mjohn_41 I don’t remember it being called anything during boot camp but in SOI the guys that popped for drugs or whatever went to what everyone called “SEPS” which I always assumed meant “separation” but knowing the Marine Corps it was probably an acronym for something. 🤷

[@Mjohn_41]

@ oh ok I thought he was talking about boot camp cause at boot in San Diego I saw kids with writing on their shirts that said R.S.P and we were always told not to talk to them at church lol

[@Thefewfunds]

Marine here 2009-2014. Honor Courage and Commitment are traits that we all have to work our entire life to obtain. You started that work…got the wind knocked out of you and are still fighting. That’s courage.

[@thedesertfox77]

Ooh rah. Hardcore. 3rd Battalion here.

[@summersetlocalservices6189]

2113 we went through together man, everyone was reaching out to you and trying to connect with you, yeah most of us were younger, but we looked out for you, i gave you my food, cried with you, shared life stories with you and stuck by your side. A lot of this video is making me realize that you lied to us about your situation at home, you lied about your contract, and you lied about your circumstances. We tried man. We tried. Glad to see you’re alive tho, I was hoping you’d come out okay.

[@daveb2280]

When I was in the USAF at 17 we had many older people such as Collin. We always looked up to them and they were great mentors. I'm grateful that you and others were there to try and help Collin.

[@nonserviam9673]

SFMF

[@Unrepentent]

Let it go, you got yours he didn’t. Get some MF’er, and enjoy your time, because rather you realize it or not. You will never be able to unMarine yourself, not matter what your accomplishments are after you get out. None of them other than maybe being a father will define you more than being a jarhead. I would sign up a do it all over again. 90-99

[@anonymousm9113]

Retired Infantry Drill Sergeant here. I enlisted at 23, having already established a career as a mechanic, and leaving my wife and two children behind. She held a grudge for years and we had multiple periods of separation, but we're still together after over 27 years. Initial Entry Training is a culture shock, and the environment can prey on the minds of the unprepared and those unable to adjust. Don't sweat it, you thought you wanted to be a Marine and then found differently. I was dead set on becoming an Infantryman, but there were moments where I felt alone and isolated. Maybe there's something wrong with me, but I simply cut off thoughts of my family and former life and focused on the training. It helped that we were always busy. Even during "personal time" we were shining boots while talking amongst each other. The biggest enemy Trainees have is themselves, followed closely by the "barracks lawyers" who are perpetually at sick call seeking to lure others into their fold. We'd send a young Trainee to sick call for an injury or illness, and they'd have their ears filled with the acronym "RFT"--Refuse to Train. A minority would come back and immediately approach a Drill Sergeant, "RFT, Drill Sergeant!". Those are the true quitters, and we'd usually keep them around doing details until close to graduation. A 14-week (at the time) Infantry training cycle would see these kids quit in the first week, then spend the next 10 weeks watching as their former peers edged closer to earning their Blue Cords. For the anonymous keyboard warriors making negative comments, let's see you enlist and serve out even one enlistment. If you did serve and are still making such comments, you must have had a very relaxed career. During my time on the Trail, my battalion lost two Drill Sergeants to themselves. They had personal demons they didn't let anyone know about, and within two months, I lost two of my peers. In Iraq in 2003 we lost a Cook after he got a Dear John letter. I took over the HHC Arms Room after the deployment and was reminded of him during every monthly inventory, when I had to produce the paperwork showing that CID had his M4 in their evidence locker. I was selected as a Recruiter shortly after Houston Recruiting Battalion had lost their fourth Recruiter in two years. I won't even go into how many Soldiers I took to the ER for evaluation after ideations or attempts. It's been nearly two years since I retired from my 21-year career. I can't count how many Soldiers I've known who self-destructed and either took a direct route to, indirect route to (heavy drinking, etc.), or just barely missed that permanent solution to what is almost always a temporary problem.

[@daviddu6297]

Thank you for sharing this. I am curious about how you said it is "almost always a temporary problem". Could you elaborate on that?

[@anonymousm9113]

@daviddu6297 Simply put, many issues that lead to someone taking their own life are ones that could be resolved, or at least mitigated, with time, outside help, and in extreme situations, medication. When you're far away from family, in a seemingly hostile environment, it might seem like the end of the world. Unless you're looking at spending decades in prison, though, it's not. If you fail to adapt to military life, especially in Basic, the light at the end of the tunnel is close. It might be a few weeks or even months, but you'll be home before you know it. If you consider it shameful that you didn't complete training, you can still take pride in the fact that you tried, unlike so many other qualified young men and women. Life goes on if you let it, and I've never heard a survivor reflect on a failed attempt and say that they wish they'd have succeeded. Many go on to live productive and even highly successful lives.

[@malcolmdcwwed]

Former 11b here too, I agree with alot of what you said. Let's be honest, the military isn't for everyone (especially combat arms). No shame in OP admitting that he couldn't make it. Atleast he's not attempting stolen valor or lying to people. The military is a machine and will go on with or without you. Take care of yourselves first.

[@EpicDragonfall]

READ THIS! Im a failed marine also. Yes, i made it past bootcamp, mct, all of my schools, and made it to the fleet, but i still failed due to mental health issues. I was physically abused to the max and zoned out. I never reported it. It ended up being my staff nco (E6) who saw people doing things to me and ended up dishonorably discharging those involved. I was "let go" and sent back home immediatly, where it took me a year to leave the house. In short, I got myself together, got a good job, and REFUSE to get VA benefits because I refuse to be haunted by my younger self. STAY ALIVE MAN. Surround yourself with good people and dont stay down

[@ralphlz23]

You're not a "failed Marine." You graduate bootcamp, earned the title, thats it-done!! What happened afterwards didn't matter in the sense where you're not/ever considered a Marine.

[@adenmercado1564]

what did they do to you

[@BARAHAZARD]

Holy shit, I was just like you. Except MCRD > ITB > Fleet, and 2 years in with my unit. I was physically abused (not hazed) and continuously humiliated by my squad leader. Also, those every early morning PT’s of never ending runs that made my legs feel like “broken bones” weren’t helping either and my lungs/heart about to “pop”. Those PT’s my sergeant conducted were so bad, it made Field Ops way more relaxing and fun than those hellish garrison days. At the end of the day, my command placed a report on him and gave him a big warning if he does it again, he would get an OTH.

[@AlBusillo-g1u]

I distance myself from snitches. There were plenty of alternative options instead of telling on others, but I doubt you got others Dishonorable Discharges. They follow Court Martials. Real military accomplishments you have. And the "m" in Marine is capitalized. That's in case you're still suffering for being let go. How ironic you got kicked out too.

[@rodolfomorenoiii135]

Where you working right now

[@Katalmach11b]

I joined the Marine Corps at age 19 in 2011. I failed to adjust in MCT and was kicked out. I spent the next almost decade beating myself up, and would still beating myself up if I hadn't gotten a waiver to join the National Guard at age 27. I shipped during COVID, had to redo basic training, and infantry school, and was stuck at Ft Benning for 8 whole months. We had 30+ year olds in our platoon. I made it, that's the only reason I could stop blaming myself for being a fuck up You will always feel like a loser, and you will always be a loser, unless you go right this wrong. Everybody feels like shit at boot camp. Everybody suffers at boot camp. It's not meant to be comfortable, or a nice experience. They are meant to destroy you and forge you into a killing machine. The Marine Corps is a unique branch, and they are the smallest for a reason. Go join the Army, you'll fit better

[@techtonic9100]

“You will feel like a loser, and will always be a loser until you right this wrong”. You didn’t “right” anything. You re-joined a far easier branch. Don’t be hypocritical.

[@daveb2280]

@@techtonic9100 No service is going to take a former mental health discharge. Not even the reserves. Especially with SI.

[@jimh4727]

​​@@daveb2280thats not true. I was els'ed on SI then I joined over a decade later and graduated with honors still in.

[@bubbles3630]

dude i was in your platoon in boot! we were totally surprised when you just disappeared one day

[@ajbethekidd]

I’m going to San Diego in about a month and a half at 24. I’m not going for the quality of life, money, or the brotherhood aspect. I got all that at home. I’m going there to see what I’m made of. To clearly view myself in a stressful position so I can alter that self for the better when the time comes. I envy you because you have an experience I have yet to gain. Be proud and don’t be afraid to try again. “For though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes.”Proverbs 24:16

[@REV-1]

Good luck man!!

[@JohnDoe-zz7on]

After you pass boot camp which is 3 months, there is like another 2 months of job training and then another 3 years and 7 months of fleet (Being a Marine) unless you are doing reserves. Just so you know

[@TexasRox]

@ajbethekidd Semper Fi, brother. One key of making it is Take Each Day one at a time. I got to where I would just focus to chow at noon, then to chow at dinner. So i hope i am making sense, just don’t think about the entire boot camp. As far as brotherhood… just wait. Best men i ever knew.

[@JohnDoe-zz7on]

@KeepYourSillyPronouns That's how I get through my Civ Div job; one meal at a time. Oohrah

[@jeffd4906]

I joined Marine corps age 25 I was prior Army

[@dionx88]

Hey man, I went through boot camp from May to July 2023 at 23 years old. Unfortunately, I fractured my hip during the PFT just before heading to Pendleton for third phase. I was close to finishing but had to go to MRP for surgery and recovery, which ultimately sent me home. I believe everything happens for a reason. You had the potential, but it might not have been what you expected. My drill instructors often reminded us that the military isn't for everyone. We had a 28-year-old guy, incredibly fit and capable of over 40 pull-ups, who still quit because he couldn't adjust. We had guys quit during processing. It seems like there was a different plan for you. The fact that you even tried shows your courage. There are valuable lessons to learn from this experience. If you're serious, you can always consider joining the Army or another branch. Stay fit, keep your mindset strong, and face each day with determination. Whether in the military or another career, I believe you'll achieve great things. Don't let this setback discourage you. I have faith in you. I hope you're doing well and staying safe. I'm sure it was hard because the age gap cause trust I was 23 and I had problems building connections because most of the kids were 17-18 but it's all good man. Life is all about getting better each day. Keep thriving in life and good things will come your way 🙏

[@Mdavid_]

Air Force veteran here. While AF boot camp isnt as long or as taxing as Marine boot camp, I am familiar with the stressors of how they initiate recruits in the process. By the time one is 30, it is assumed they are mostly set in their ways so at that age it may be harder for some to adapt to what the military is looking for. I was 22 when I joined, still relatively young and got out when I was 28. This is not the end for you. Most (if not all) of us have some failure or regret in life and this can hurt us, but there is hope and healing with time. I love and support all of our branches, but the world doesnt revolve around the military. Thank you for sharing and ignore all the hateful/useless comments. Proud of you.

[@rw1557]

I went in the Army Reserves at 31yrs old and did a 16 week OSUT. I was making a lot of money at the time doing real estate but I felt the NEED to help after 9/11. I had the opposite experience from you though, my age was basically a benefit in most cases. At 31, I was strong mentally and paced myself physically which helped me a lot. I realized the importance of staying middle of the road and unnoticed. I had the best times being kind of in dad mode and "coach". I was previously a wrestling coach and during drills and down time I taught some wrestling and grappled a bit. I think the service is whatever you make of it. I miss all the times of just suffering with my squad thru bad stuff. And as I've told a few people before that you can always find a reason to quit. and you can talk yourself in to or out of anything.

[@Extinct900]

i got discharged in January of 2023 from Paris Island. Made it 3weeks/1mon in. wasn't in the best mental state before i went in, went in to escape it, turned out it made it worst & couldn't mentally push through it. Early discharge due to depression. Uncharacterized discharge. You're not alone my man.

[@billblanco3237]

ay brother I commend you for being vulnerable and sharing your story, fuck anyone thatd look down on you for your journey theyre not worth your time or energy. When I was 18 I got kicked out of boot camp a month in for failure to adapt. For years it haunted me as my greatest regret and eventually at 23 I re enlisted. I made it through that time and making it to the end of boot camp and graduating was one of the best moments in my life, but something I noticed early on was even then due to my age and maturity compared to my peers I had a hard time making meaningful connections as well. It takes a toll on your mental when you can see all these younger guys bonding and you're on the outside of it, we were all friendly and they seemed to like me but when it came to it I wasnt spending any extra time with these guys. I hit the fleet and was going all out on being the best grunt (I was infantry) I could be and was making immaculate progress. However, even in the fleet I couldnt make many friends and was constantly being harassed and and treated like shit from some of the more senior guys, so much so that I wasnt even safe in my own room as I had been threatened to be jumped a few times. After two years into my contract I said fuck this noise and admitted myself for suicidal ideations. I was afforded the opportunity to be separated on good terms and am leaving the fleet for good next week. I might join the reserves later but just going to say that it likely wouldnt have gotten much better for you in that regard. most of the guys I met that did MSG did not like their time doing so and eventually you come back to the fleet and eat shit as a grunt for however long. No shame in being honest with yourself and realizing it wasnt for you at this stage in your life. when youre driving you almost always looking forward through the windshield, its good to look at the rear view mirror every so often to see whats behind you but its not going to lead you anywhere. Take care of yourself and continue to find yourself throughout life.

[@CrinMoss]

There's nothing wrong with failing out of bootcamp, and in your circumstance it's even more understandable. Marines tend to forget that they joined at a young age, had nothing going for them, and scraped by in bootcamp by being GP. I've never once judged someone who """quit""" in boot. Everyone has their own struggles and their own challenges, that's all there is to it. You're no less of a person or man for it, you stepped on those yellow footprints; something 80% of the population would never even consider, especially at your age. Courage comes from taking leaps, not landing them. Keep on keeping on man.

[@brucepeckham6043]

I went to Marine boot camp (San Diego, MCRD) at exactly 18 years old and it was a shock, very difficult for certain, but I adapted because I didn't have anything to fall back on if I failed. I'd had a major falling out with my dad, and I knew I DID NOT want to go to college (I hated high school and barely passed). I had too much to gain by adapting and passing boot camp, and whatever I had left to lose by dropping out - no where else to go - had to make it one way or the other. This mindset eventually propelled me from the Infantry into an elite member of Marine Recon in year 3 at Camp LeJeune after getting back from Okinawa. But it was a building block process. In my boot camp experience, there was a 28-year old guy and he was the weakest person in the platoon from an adaptability standpoint. He was like a fish out of water with all those 18-year olds. He made errors in team drill constantly, was the last to climb the mountain, last to finish a run. Unfortunately, the drill instructors made the whole platoon suffer more, collectively, for his inability to adapt, eventually everyone hated him because he was making it more difficult for everyone else. Eventually that lead to blanket parties where a handful of recruits would sneak up on him, while he was sleeping, and hit him with soap bars in their pillow cases and essentially beat the shit out of him. He eventually disappeared without explanation. I cannot imagine going to Marine boot camp at 30, I would have failed too.

[@Uh_0h_zilla]

Lmaooo “eventually disappeared without explanation” is so funny for no reason😂😂😂😂

[@yaboykev5627]

damn 😭

[@heythere4871]

Reminds me of the Full Metal Jacket scene.

[@seanbrennan4356]

What mountain are you referring to?

[@robertisham5279]

So he got vfc dropped for not being able to make it?

[@run_lift_communicate]

I knew quiet a few guys like you. So it is pretty normal. I myself joined the Army, 11X(infantry trainee) and went to basic at 29 years of age. There was 3 other dudes at the same age. Me 29, National guard guy(nco) at 30, and two other random dudes 30-32 years of age. This two random dudes quit or broke and dropped out. One of them right before graduation. I made it through, graduated. Went on to serve in one notorious unit that was known for its hazing. It was like going through basic all over again, but way harder. I deployed with that unit. Most of my friends in that unit got out after first contract, got kicked out or went awol(some are awol today). Instead of getting out at the end of my contract I went to Airborne School, and re-enlisted for 82nd Airborne Division. And I never looked back and never regretted it. I loved my time in 82nd. I was treated with respect there and I loved that unit. Had the best and hardest time of my life there. You know what made me succeed? I recently separated from ex, separated from my 2 year old daughter, lost everything in my life. They were in another country, on another continent, and here I am in the Army infantry basic with a bunch of 18-20 year old kids. You know how hard it was for me dude?!? But I was inspired that I will comeback at life and this is my chance. I had prior injuries that were hurting, I ended up having shingles half way through basic and almost dying, didn’t get dropped, continued. I succeeded because I came with right attitude, I had nothing to loose and everything to gain. Yes, next 7 years of life was hell, but at the end I got my whole life back. My suggestion to you, is get your shit together and if you can go join the army. You need that redemption for yourself or you gonna be forever suffering like right now. And when you do make it into army basic. Do not talk about being a marine or going to basic before. Tell your recruiter and let him deal with it. Good luck!

[@Anthony4949]

Regret would be if he didn’t try genius. He had the balls to try which is more than 99% of the nation. He’s got nothing to prove but to himself.

[@run_lift_communicate]

@ he is obviously regretting quitting, that’s why he still can’t let it go, genius. If trying made it worth while he wouldn’t be sitting and crying. But I bet you got a bunch of participation medals 🤣👍🏻

[@Anthony4949]

@ So he’s suppose to be happy about failure dummy lol? He’s being real and authentic and pussies like you can’t handle it. Learn to cope and take the dick out your mouth Army Puke.

[@malcolmdcwwed]

Nah. As a former infantryman I disagree. OP already tried once and it's not for him. Its not going to be any different in the army, let's be real here. The military isn't for everyone and that's okay.

[@Anthony4949]

@@malcolmdcwwed Agree 💯.

[@YaBoyStein]

A couple things failed that led to get Collin to the point he did. The training was not one of them. This is why we need to make sure we keep training with the standards we set. We make Marines. If people break during Boot Camp, how do we think they'd fair during a real world kinetic environment? Collin, you are not any less of a man because of this. Do not let this failure set you back from future endeavors. You can re-evaluate what you want to do. You have a calling for the greater good, keep that motivation! This sh!t aint for everyone.

[@Mike4XL]

I served in the USMC from 1999-2014 active duty. Don't be hard on yourself. I tell everyone, it isn't for everybody. That's just the way it is. Not everyone is going to be a doctor, not everyone is going to step foot in a college or be a master plumber. It just isn't the right direction for that individual. On the brotherhood thing. I don't believe, in my opinion that's a big development in bootcamp. It's a start. However, when you get to the fleet, or once MOS school is complete, that's where those bonds and life long relationships develop. Hold your head up high. Take it slow and let things fall into place. It might not be at the pace we expect or want. But its all in time. You got this, and I believe in you. Semper Fidelis my friend.

[@skynet_marauder1102]

I left for boot June of 2023. I turned 30 a month before that. Oldest in my platoon and second oldest in my company. Most recruits loved and respected me, we were all one. There was never any issue of loneliness or feeling outed. Too much going on to think of that. I’ve been in for a year and 5 months now. Does this life suck? Absolutely. But theres small victories that make you hold on and realize it could be worse (despite being broke as hell). All my best friends are 19-21 and I fit in just fine, I swear many times I forget Im 31. The best friends you’ll ever make are the ONLY thing you missed out on. Go get paid and thrive, cause I definitely miss the check I used to make before the corps.

[@thegreenlogbook]

Retired Marine here. Thank you for sharing your story, it’s one that needs to be told.

[@jesushidalgo1373]

Hey brother I went to bootcamp with you 2113 hope your doing good sorry to hear what happened but you were a great dude I just wanted to say that no one should go through that and I wish I could have help but I’m just telling you I’m proud and the rest of the guys are too you are one tough dude

[@ryanwilliams4270]

I joined the Army at 24 and had a similar experience. I was injured and that was enough for me to quit. You think about what you have and that you have the option to quit. Once that gets in, youre screwed. Different branches and jobs have different cultures, if you want to serve, do some research and come back. I did get service connected for my injury and it was honorable out of basic, but i knew i quit, i could have healed but i didnt want it. I had a civilian job and a life. I rejoined and went Coast Guard at 38! Only 3 weeks of basic and i didnt have to go to any advanced training, came in day 1 as an E5. So in the years from 24 to 38, I earned 4 degrees and became a registered nurse. Plently of professionals join the military at older ages. Im in the process of going back into the Army as a Nurse Anesthetist (a 2-300k civilian job). I out PT most of the 18-year-old cohort i interact with. The Marines have the least opportunity of any branch and promotions are slow. Marines want to be Marines until it takes 7 years to make E5. Shop around.

[@AlBusillo-g1u]

I walked into the army recruiter's office at 16. This was during the height of Vietnam. He gave me a cold beer and persuaded me to join. He disliked recruiting and longed to return to Vietnam. He did and got killed, and I've had a good life.

[@daviddu6297]

wait...what???

[@clarski7356]

Edit: spelling errors Junior marine here; finding out the Marine Corps is not for you is totally fine, people make it as far as MOS school or even the fleet when they realize that this place isn’t for them, there should be no shame in that. On top of that, DIs do make fun of the older recruits (even I did); but at the end of the day, we saw them as one of us. There was a guy in my platoon during MCT who was 28, we’d call him Unc. Bc he was older, leadership skills came to him a lot easier. Yes, after a certain age, you should look to being an officer or reserve instead of enlisted; but at the day, this is something you shouldn’t lose sleep over (although I do find it concerning that no one supported your endeavors, my friends are leftists & were still my biggest supporters)

[@danieldennehy3578]

Hey man I just wanted to first say God bless you. You are incredibly courageous to even try that in the first place. Secondly, your “failure” in bootcamp does not define you. Your family and loved ones not supporting you, and you still going and trying anyways shows you truly have some bravery. I’d look into maybe going into another branch, maybe even the Officer route if you have a degree. Please, do not let this define you as a man. There’s so many things you can do that are awesome opportunities and are challenging. You can become a first responder, get into intelligence or do almost any job you’d see in the Marines without being in the military.

[@danieldennehy3578]

As someone who wants to join the military but has a hard time due to a rare medical condition, I feel like I’m missing out sometimes. But, I go to a military school and I’m pursuing my degree as well. You could always join a Maritime Academy, there are people here in their late 20s just starting a degree in Marine Engineering or Transportation (And other degrees).

[@danieldennehy3578]

Do not give up on yourself, I hope this lesson in your life serves as motivation to chase your goals rather than make you stop trying, but I bet it’s hard sometimes.

[@daviddu6297]

well said👏👏👏

[@JonHunt292]

Failure is a part of life I went to USMC bootcamp (I was just 23 years old then) on January 13th 2020 (Hotel Co) got through the first week before I was dropped from my training company to STC then MRP 1 for a few weeks from IT band syndrome to recuperate but somewhere I just had enough and decided I didn't want to continue in spite of my PT scores being completely fine. I started feeling super down in the dumps especially from being such young recruit in the first week of boot camp I was slipping through the cracks, until I was working with one of the physical therapists they assign you and out the blue I told her Im depressed and she straight bolted and talked to the Navy personnel in charge. From there they sent me to RSP ( recruit separation platoon). Keep your head up dude!

[@jimh4727]

Hey man, I was just like you back in 2008 and got ELS'ed in the Army BCT similar type of discharge mine was Chapter 5-17 adjustment disorder with depressed mood. Years later, I enlisted in the Air Force and made it through BMT and Tech school passed with flying colors much easier but harder mentally as far as academics. You tried and it didn't work out. Your life is not over. You still got a future. It's up to you where you want to take it. Your dark thoughts does not define who you are meant to be.

[@efrainperez7510]

Takes balls to talk about this man. Dont be too hard on your self. Everything happens for a reason. Props for being honest bro

[@ShiquidLits]

Not everyone is cut out for the military and i cannot stress enough how okay and fine that is. People are different and thats okay!

[@vazquezga2023]

The fact was, you weren’t built for it, you probably were never challenged mentally before under stress. I went in 2001 and I questioned my decision but I told myself, I signed the contract and I have to own it. It the best decision I ever made. The success I have now I owe it to the lessons I learned in the Marine Corps. The mistake you made was that you should have gone into the reserves Instead of active duty. Since you already had a career established. You were looking at the time and made it bigger than what it was. My buddy was already a school teacher in his 30’s when he joined and never fail anything. I have another friend who’s a cop in his 30’s and recently made to decision to join the army because he didn’t want to have any regrets. He just got back from a year long deployment in Africa and he’s happy with his decision. We had a recruit who spent a year in boot camp in MRP because he got hurt. He said, what’s one year of your life for a title you’ll have the rest of your life. I went down to boot camp with a 27 year old who was a dentist, later on he became a sniper, water survival instructor, and I later saw a video of him fighting in Syria. I hope you’re doing well and don’t let this one failure dictate the rest of your life.

[@ginger-s1v]

You're good dude, in your case it's totally fine. Atleast you fuckin tried bro, even I don't have the balls to go into the marine corp. I enlisted to a different branch. Ain't Ready for the Marines Yet.......

[@lifedeather]

Real

[@alexpascasio3473]

LOLLLLL

[@daveb2280]

Should have went Air Force. I enlisted at 17 in the USAF and did 26 years active and reserve duty. The military has always been a young man's game. And even still, it's not for everyone. We had several Air Force recruits who dropped out. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@ivanzuniga2207]

Sorry to hear that man. Takes courage to put this on the internet. Take care of yourself man. You're worth it. Find forgiveness and find God.

[@DiLorenzo04]

Wow, amazing story my brother. Our stories started off exactly the same. I enlisted and shipped out to MCRD San Diego January 2014 at 29 years old. I left behind a tire shop me and my brother owned. Great life, there was absolutely no need for me to join. I was always a war movie fan growing up. Full metal Jacket, Black Hawk Down. After graduation HS in 04 I chickened out of joint and started my life. But that itch never went away. More movies came and went, Jarhead, the Hurt Locker. At 27 I began to loose weight and felt great about myself. I went to talk to a recruiter just for kicks but little did I know I’d be a Poolee a year later after ghosting the recruiter for a year. 28 years old I shipped out and turned 29 on Black Friday. Since receiving week o was already questioning my decision. I made it through phase 1, but during I told my SDI that I didn’t want to be there anymore and he told me that there’s no way of getting out. I toughed it out and asked again by the end of phase 1 and this time he sent me to our CO. The Captain who was 3 years older than me showed me a few photos of himself going through boot camp and told me everything was going to be ok. During phase 2 I was feeling worse. Someone told me to fake a migraine and I’d get sent home. I did but it didn’t work, someone else told me to tell them in suicidal but that just got me out of training for 2 days. Sent right back to training. At this point I just realized that there was no way for me to get out and fought through it. I graduated with my class, went to MCT, and mos school after. I went to a few drills since I was a reservist but stopped showing up and got admin sep. It’s a bitter sweet part of life me, I regret joining sometimes, and sometimes I don’t.

[@valoredramack9117]

I joined the U.S. Army at 19. I ended up retiring from the military as a Chief Warrant Officer after nearly two decades of service, but I still have memories of being abused in Basic Combat Training at Fort Knox, Kentucky. I was a homeschool kid and the other recruits hazed me quite a lot in the barracks, to the point I was locked in a room and punched in the kidneys. I almost quit basic combat training because of the abuse, but I stayed because one of the reasons why I joined the military in the first place was because my father was an even worst abuser. The military was my best option to get away from a bad life. I do not think I would have joined the military if it wasn't to escape the hostile environment in my home. I know a lot of fellow veterans who joined the military to escape a dark past. And as someone who stayed in the Army until retirement, I can assure you that military culture is a hostile environment even after boot camp. I became a very bitter, vicious, and hateful person because I adapted to that military environment to survive, but it changed me in ways that I cannot undue. Fortunately, equine therapeutic horsemanship has helped me to become more kind and compassionate.

[@socaljarhead7670]

You fucked up a guaranteed MSG contract!? That’s one of the best gigs in the Corps!😆😂

[@Beetsbert230]

Fr lmao

[@mgunny05]

No such guarantee to be a MSG in the Corps.

[@phillipabat8437]

Thats language i understand! USMC 77/88 🤣 Fucked up bigtime!

[@Pablo-oi1hv]

I joined the marine corps in 2007-2011. I was 19. I grew up in a rough neighborhood. Rough family. But the marine corps was absolutely hell. You really see where you rank amongst your peers. I think I felt the same way you did but I was to scared to do anything about it. Looking backwards I pushed through everything one day at a time. But yeah when you are older you have a bigger mindset. So I understand where your coming from. When you hit the fleet it gets better but worse. You did what you thought was best and that good. Your age had everything to do with it, dont beat yourself up man. You did more than many americans. I wish you the best of luck.

[@christiandherrera]

Hey Collin! Thank you for being so vulnerable about your journey. As a man in his 30s, I'm looking to join but I am seeking to go the OCS route. Can you please specify on what exactly you feel like you did not have to survive in the military? (10:00 - 10:30). I'm curious on what you may have felt like you lacked. Praying that you have found peace with your live brother.

[@danieldennehy3578]

I’m not sure how late or early 30s you are, but OCS generally accepts people that are 30 or 31 at the latest. Something to note is all. I’m sure other branches have less strict policies on that such as the Air Force and Army/Navy. Marine OCS also has a 25%+ attrition rate for males, meaning 25% or more do not make it either out of quitting or not being selected. OCS in the Marine Corps is a beast of a task, but I bet if you got an actual chance you’d do great!

[@christiandherrera]

@@danieldennehy3578 Thanks for taking the time to write me back. It's a dream of mine to be a marine and I would love to complete OCS and commission to serve other young marines. I'm a flat 30, I turned 30 in July. I'm going to be done with college in about a year and a half. I'm hoping to get waivers to clear the age limit. I'm not in shape right now but I'm working towards being OCS ready. I was intrigued by the initial video because like the author stated, I'm joining older, but I think I can get it done. I'm just curious as to why he struggled.

[@RandomInternetUser22]

Not a Marine but I’m an Airman. OCS typically draws older people to join it due to its college requirement. All the officers in my unit are far older than even some of my Staff Sergeants. I personally wouldn’t worry about being a black sheep in OCS because of the lack of teenagers (17-19) there. Typically people in their late teens to early 20’s go to the enlisted route like me. I joined at 19 and even in my basic training flight we had a guy who was 38 and another guy who was 41. 41 being the maximum age to even join the Air Force. Not faulting this guy at all but i wouldn’t say age prevented people from forming connections. The older guys in my flight were often respected and looked at as a father figure due to their life experience. Their age also didn’t prevent them from making friendships especially due to the fact there was plenty of mid age 20 year olds in my basic training. At the end of the day basic training/ OCS is one giant mind game. You get through the few months of mind games and your time in the operational setting will quickly void your experiences of basic trainings OCS. I remember in basic training I was miserable thinking what I did I get myself into but now that I’ve been operational for quite some time now I realize basic training is really just some long job interview. Nothing to truly be super scared about. Keep chasing your dreams!

[@christiandherrera]

@@RandomInternetUser22 Thanks for taking the time to share your experience brotha! I really appreciate the encouragement.

[@Uh_0h_zilla]

@@danieldennehy3578not true dude, it’s actually the opposite tbh

[@socaljarhead7670]

You signed the contract. 8 years as an MSG in embassies and other cool spots, excellent per diems. You missed out.

[@Uh_0h_zilla]

Nah not really lol

[@thomashouse6090]

I was in a similar situation in the Army. I got through basic and AIT. I was 31 by far the oldest in my platoon. I had many jobs before and had my own family. Needless to say i didn't get along with my platoon and was miserable. I did my time and got out. I work as a corrections officer now. For me my job is more of a brotherhood than the Army ever was.

[@deaddropsd1972]

Compatibility matters. Takes chemistry to connect. I enlisted in 1992. 6 AD 25 Reserves. I. HAD SOOOOOOO MUCH FUN!! B

[@deaddropsd1972]

Starship Troopers the audiobook 📚 ! Classic science fiction from 1959. On West Point & USMC reading 📖 lists for years! War. Violence. Crime & punishment. Powered armor 3 years before Iron Man’ first appearance in Marvel Comics…. “Marriage is a young man’s DISASTER & an old man’s comfort.” - Starship Troopers the book 1959 kzbin.info/www/bejne/sKipfqawfrt6odEsi=45WQXDgLXZSZYJJ2

[@charlesbull6463]

It takes a lot of guts to tell your story. I pray you find traction in life. You got guts, man. Run a marathon.

[@ashtondillard6906]

i had a similar experience, went to Marine corps boot camp 4 months ago and quit a month in. ive been back for about 2 months and honestly i regret my decision to leave with every fiber of my being. if i could go back in time and tell myself to keep going i would. Ive been considering re enlisting in the Army but have no idea if they take me with the prior discharge.

[@paprikaparade8846]

I was Air Force but I guess I'm a failed airman. I graduated from BMT and did most of my tech schooling, but I let a toxic family member back into my life and they started ruining my mental healt. When I tried to get help, theyjust discharged me. I fought to stay in but they gave me an under honorable (medical) instead. My life has been pretty stupid and zany since, but I'm still trying. Given the SI, you probably won't be able to rejoin any branch. I'd suggest working towards moving past it and creating a fulfilling life in spite of that. You tried and I think that's worth something. Keep living your life as best you can.

[@orbform]

Age has nothing to do with it bro, plenty of people go in at 30+. I just think you didn’t prepare mentally/physically before you went. You knew your job and signed a contract. I wish you the best but if you wanted to truly be a Marine they would’ve helped you get there. Sounds like you were too worried about your girlfriend and what your friends at home were doing.

[@lifedeather]

Gf and friends important bro 😂

[@orbform]

@ at 30? Not really bro. If they really care about you they would want to see you successful in whatever you want to do. If you’ve ever watch ‘Jarhead’ you should know thinking about your gf is the last thing you should be doing when becoming a Marine.

[@RobertCarroll-by1re]

I am former Marine, the fact that you made it that far is a testament to your physical fitness. Just let it go, you have the rest of your life ahead of you. I hope you are getting some treatment for your depression.

[@nicholas6210]

Graduating from MCRD Parris Island, SC Platoon 2089 back in 2003 what the best and proudest moment of my life and one lesson I learned in boot camp is that in life you have to develop a strong positive mental mindset if you want to conquer obstacles that will come your way throughout your life. Keep moving forward.

[@3dogsrus]

MCRD Parris Island was fun in 63’😂 Damn Drill Instructors trained, stomped, slapped, punched recruits at least 10 hrs a day for 13 weeks. Only way out was with a diagnosed physical injury or psychiatric discharge after weeks of grueling harassment. It was not a place anyone would want to be. If you had any sort of mental health issues the Marine Corps was not the place go for help. Glad I served 4 years active duty. Fortunately, my first duty station was Marine Barracks, Washington,D.C., Ceremonial Guard, Silent Drill Team.

[@CortinaATX]

You went further than a lot of people. Most leave in the first couple of weeks. It took guts to enlist at your age with so much life experience already. Sorry the gravity of the change that late in life and probably mental health condition convinced you to decide to quit. Sounds like you've come to terms with your experience, that's good. Accept it and keep moving forward. Stay strong.

[@FAURA99]

Don’t put yourself down for it. You chose to live and that’s what matters the most. Who knows how terrible your life could’ve have gone have you pushed all the way and made it through to the fleet. I lost many friends in the corps to suicide whom I much rather have not met had they called it in boot camp and maybe they would still be around. It’s not for everyone and that’s okay. I definitely had many moments in my career where I thought there was only one way out. At the end of the day what matters is we are here, alive.

[@JosephHenry-l5e]

The military ain't for everyone. Don't listen to other people here, who suggest you try a different branch. You don't join the military for the pay or benefits. You join to serve a greater purpose. Older Trainee's usually have a harder time in basic or boot camp because they will never fit in with the 17/18 year old's. The Drill Sergeants are usually younger than you. At 27, I was an E-7 and had already been busted down once and worked my way back up (back in the day this was considered a rite of passage). I chose Army because both my brothers went Marines and neither enjoyed the experience and everyone in my family has served in one branch or another. So, I went Army and retired 21 years later. My Son is now on his 2nd enlistment. I loved it. He loves it. Basic was a joke but it was fun. I grew up in a military family so nothing in basic was anything close to what my parent's put me thru. Basic is a head game. Embrace the suck. Get that mind set and everything get's better from there. Also, many people never get into a brotherhood unless they go combat arms. If you are looking for that family feeling of belonging, I'd suggest Infantry, Armor or Artillery or something along those lines.

[@Ajc-nb6zm]

It took me 10 months to make it through boot cause mah old man legs kept getting microfractures. I went through MRP twice and met a bunch of dudes from different places. A lot of guys had some shit they needed to sort out before they got there, sounds like a similar situation here.. The truth, a lot of those dudes are feeling sad, missing home, feeling weak too. The people next to you are probably just better at hiding it. You realize this when you make it to the fleet. There was a guy in our unit who was literally schizo. No idea how he hid it. Your upper chain of command is generally functioning alcoholics. People don't always show up to work the next day.. The corps is scandalous. You're wearing camo all day and tryjng to maintain an image. It's all illusions buddy. I'm out now and don't touch alcohol much anymore. Like weed and shrooms. It shows me that all this shit is just an illusion, people too. Boot destroyed your ego and you had an identity crisis because you thought your jobs defined you. Much like "Honor, Courage, Commitment" doesn't describe every shitbag that comes through. Don't let this experience define you either. You seem humble and you stepped away because you realized you were having issues. Some guys don't do that early on and later on it becomes an even bigger issue in the fleet. If you feel weak, get stronger. Go to the gym man. Do more crazier things in life..Take some mushrooms for that depression. They will tell you to stop punishing yourself.

[@hankpatrizi8907]

*My Failure As a Recruit

[@ivandfwm]

@@hankpatrizi8907 " MY MY MY MY!"

[@ivandfwm]

@@hankpatrizi8907marine recruit to be precise

[@clarski7356]

@@ivandfwm why can I hear this comment?? 😂

[@ivandfwm]

@clarski7356 haha it's cursed

[@erewrewrewr]

@@ivandfwm LMFAO

[@-Fishbone]

Brother, the service members that I was enlisted with that got kicked out are 100% doing better physically and mentally compared to the ones I know still in the service.

[@Yuppidy-Duppidy]

My respect to you and your situation is much, as well as to all who have been a part of the military and fighting for our nation. I know it takes great mental strength to do even what you did and the fact that you are still here, to pass on and share the things you have learned, is a wonderful thing. As someone in their early 20's and heavily considering enlisting to the Unites States Marines, I thank you. Thank you for your knowledge, thank you for your feelings, and thank you for your courage. I hope you find peace of mind and a good life once more. Salute.

[@edwardtroise9075]

Don't worry let it go. Military is not for everybody. Live your best life now!! God Bless You. Stay positive and you were with people who. We're not that good

[@marshaledrek71]

Dude, life is about so much more than the military. DO NOT equate your self worth as a person as to whether or not you got through Boot Camp and became a marine. You've got your whole life ahead of you, and good choices to make! I'd give my left testicle to be your age again! I didn't succeed in all the ways I wanted to in my time in the Army. Its okay. Its just one chapter of someone's life. Your life is about so much more! Also you've got heart and guts to make this video, that is commendable!

[@gilgilbert5866]

Thank you for your true moral courage in sharing your story with your audience. Thank you!

[@DMoe357]

Army 🪖 Vet here. I did 1 yr in Army National Guard before going Active Duty. I was 18 in in Basic. I only did the Guard initially because at the time Army and Marines were not accepting RECRUITS with a GED. AS A 29 YO, I would have suggested Marine Corp Reserve to acclimate yourself before going Active. I'm glad your 86'ing attempt was not successful. God Bless and hope your future is bright.

[@marcmatthews8438]

I enlisted in the Marine Corps and went to bootcamp June 1986. After 2 weeks there, i fell out from heat exhaustion. After being sent to the base hospital, and being treated, the doctor came in to check on me. He asked me if i wanted to go home, which I replied yes. He said i will do it. I regret that response to this day, I grew up wanting to be a career Marine. Two years later, my little brother enlisted and did 21 years ,retiring as an E8. So, i do understand your pain. I visited him numerous times at different basis during his career, always having it rubbed in my face. I don't really ever share this with people due to the embarrassment. Several years later i went through the police academy and became a Deputy Sheriff, which i did for 9 years. Looking back, i think it was a coping mechanism to make me feel like a man. Anyways, its life brother, and we just have to move on and make the best of it.

[@TheConductor_1]

Im 28 years old and have been considering joining the military. I don’t know what branch I want to join, I just want to learn great skills to better myself and learn how to survive. Technically I already have combat experience from being gunned down in a carjacking at point blank range. I’ve got a big steel rod in my right arm and it hurts like hell all the time. I was also rear ended in a car accident recently and have bad back pain. Don’t know how well I’d hold up in boot. Let’s hope the recruits don’t hate me!

[@AroundElvesWatchUrselves96]

Anything but the Marine Corps

[@HonestMovieReactions]

I wish you all the best 🙏 Stay strong my dear.

[@edwardtroise9075]

Don't put yourself down. Say to yourself I'm the best!! God Bless You. Just go on with your life. Forget about the USMC. Go back to work. And let all this stuff all go! Just go on now!

[@diegojames8678]

I joined the Marine Corps at 25. Yes every one is younger but I can say under stress you will naturally develop care for each other in order to make it through. I can say without a doubt some of these kids have shown extraordinarily amounts of character and maturity. Others act their age. My advice to anyone joining is boot camp is it’s only 3 months. Nothing more. It will pass. It will suck. You’re there because it’s the hardest boot camp, embrace the suck. Also something a lot of people don’t talk about is after boot camp you have to go to the school of infantry. Also dude, you might get some lash back from the title. Failed recruit, not a Marine. You earn that title when that EGA is placed on your hand.

[@Uh_0h_zilla]

Soi was too fun😂

[@diegojames8678]

@@Uh_0h_zillamy hands were thick and callused by the end of that shit 😂

[@Uh_0h_zilla]

@@diegojames8678 hahaha i bet it was man, when did you go? I went to soi during the cold

[@WD40318]

What are you talking about? He said "my failure to be a Marine". Meaning he didn't get to the point to earn the title

[@lifedeather]

Nah he is marine just for trying

[@eltonjohnson1724]

Thanks for your honesty. USMC Boot Camp is not for everyone. Also, it is basically a young man's world. I went through at 23 and only one guy in my platoon was older than me. He was 26 and we ribbed him about being a "grandpa". Some guys, who do not make it, have self-esteem problems so they lie about what happened. The fact that you have not shows that you had the guts to try and the guts to admit the truth about what happened. I admire you. You have NOTHING to feel ashamed about.

[@antoniog.5587]

@@eltonjohnson1724 Marine corp bootcamp is more mental than anything, if you are in Decent shape .,the physical is not as hard

[@antoniog.5587]

I joined at 23

[@Mjohn_41]

We had a 28 year old in my platoon and he was considered the grandpa , or big bird depending on the drill instructor cause he was tall as fuck

[@lucifero__]

I can share my part of my what I’ve been through. At 18 years old I was already ready to hit meps and head to mcrd right after. I had a gf who I thought she loved me. She would abuse me to the point I thought that it was normal. Eventually I was told by a social worker to report her. I did exactly as he said and then I ended up in jail, ended up being the one charged and ended up being convicted. It was the absolute lowest point of my life man, you guys have no idea how bad this was for me. Imagine being framed for a murder you didnt commit but you have alibies and camera proof yet the courts dont want to do anything about it. Well thats the type of position I was in. I worked security still at that time, got paid scraps so obviously I could definitely not afford a lawyer. I just barely got my record expunged 2024 In Janurary. I couldve done it in 2022 but I have been trying to open and fight my case since that time. I was convicted in June of 2020. Yup during covid. It was bad. Well anyway. I have my record expunged but with the domestic violence it restricted me from ever owning a firearm in my life. Imagine that bullshit. After Ive already done everything. Tried opening my case multiple times. I dont drink or smoke at all. Literally Im a student, Ive been a student since 2021. All this to still not be able to have my rights back. The only time Ill be able to join the marine corps is after 10 years from the conviction. Ill be 28 in 2030. So yeah, praying my pardon letter to the governor is accepted. Really upsetting. And definitely dont trust police to handle your case. Dont ever trust police for anything matter fact. Call a lawyer or handle it yourself. The law is so fkd up man. Cant believe Im going to try joining again once Im 28 years old. Im 22 right now literally days away from being 23 on the 27th. Sad. Very sad

[@SyBernot]

1) Joining the military at 29 is challenge, joining the Marines at 29 is borderline crazy just from a physical perspective. 2) Your headspace at 29 is way different than it is at 18. 25 year old me had already seen and done enough to know I didn't want any more and I was already into the easy part, a second go would have all been icing on the cake for me. At 25 I just wanted to be my own man for a change where as at 18 I'd wanted someone else to do that for me. 3) You don't really get that true sense of brotherhood and support until you're well into your career out in the fleet. All the training evolutions are just too short for any strong bonds to form. 4) Your heart was in the right place and I think you should have zero regrets, I don't have exact numbers but I think my math is good on this, only about 1% of all living US citizens can say they enlisted in the Marines. It's about .8% for those that graduate and earn the EGA. You are one of the rare ones to step up, just because you didn't make it does not erode you for your attempt. 5) You may not get this quite yet but one of the defining features of my time in is I know all too well where my limits actually are. Most people (those other 99%) go through life looking at an obstacle and they just decide they can't, some will half heartedly try but give up. My time taught me you haven't failed until you hit a hard limit, collapse, breakdown, unconscious, drowning. Up until those points you are still in the fight. And since you know where those limits are for you, you can train up to that point and push it a little more every time. It's only a failure if you lean nothing from the evolution. 6) You're going to be fine. Mental health is more important than any mission. Take the lesson and move forward. I look back on my days in and I honestly have to tell myself it was just some kind of a fever dream. Most everyone says they would do it all again but I think they forget how absolutely miserable they felt in those days. If I got another crack at it for real I'd have to have a long think about what that would mean and what it would look like. I'd like to think I'd do it again but would I? You surly picked up a fair amount of knowledge in that short time you were in, make good use the useful bits in your day to day be the person you know you can be.

[@Sebastian-bs5dq]

I almost quit (SI) boot camp the first day because my girlfriend broke up with me and ended up graduating as guide and going to the fleet as a machine gunner. Life sucks and you have to live with the pain of hardship or live with the pain of regret.

[@MrDogbrain]

I know some total wimps that went through MCT. You just weren't there mentally, you're good bro.

[@deaddropsd1972]

Starship Troopers the audiobook 📚 ! Classic science fiction from 1959. On West Point & USMC reading 📖 lists for years! War. Violence. Crime & punishment. Powered armor 3 years before Iron Man’ first appearance in Marvel Comics…. “Marriage is a young man’s DISASTER & an old man’s comfort.” - Starship Troopers the book 1959 kzbin.info/www/bejne/sKipfqawfrt6odEsi=45WQXDgLXZSZYJJ2

[@BARAHAZARD]

Hey man, looking through your older videos. I think it was a tough idea to even enter the military in the first place, especially the Marine Corps. It’s a hard headed branch than any other. Military isn’t everything, and I’m sure you know this. There are people out there who are very successful and served their community/nation in other ways without the military. God Bless you sir, you’ll find a better path to serve and meant to be.

[@ernestomontemayor5855]

First and Foremost. Failure in life is not about death. So many people fail in one thing or another. This is where commence and wisdom come into play. Hearing your story. It sounds like you weren't really prepared for this type of change. Boot camp is not a vacation. Recruits men and women have to earn the Eagle, Globe, and anchor. When I joined, I was 21. Did my boot camp in San Diego MCRD. There were other recruits little older than me, including two that had served in the army. We had a blast in boot camp. Yes. It was hard training. The harder it got. The more we pushed ourselves, the drill instructors were hard but firm. In my career, I did three tours as a drill instructor. (1) San Diego as a Corporal. (2) Sgt. Parris Island. (3) GySgt Parris Island. Had some recruits that wanted to quiet. Use to tell them. What would you parents think knowing you gave up on them. For that matter, your friends. Yes. They made it. For the most part. As drill instructors. We didn't allow them to fail. It's our job to motivate and use all avenues of approach to graduate our recruits. After all was said and done. They said. Thank you for not giving up on me. Sorry to say. You were not mentally and physically prepared. The Recuriter failed you. It's his/her job to ensure every man and woman enlisting in the Marine Corps is semi ready for the challenge. Your age has nothing to do as to what happened. Make another video and call it. (Failure in life is not the end), but( The beginning of life). Have to ask. What did your drill instructors do to prevent your failure. Hope the senior drill instructor pulled you into his office and gave you the facts of failing in boot camp. Marines do not allow failure. We adapt, improvise, and overcome. Don't dwell on this. Move forward and make that failure a success in life. Blessings GySgt Montemayor USMC Retired 77-97 Santa Rosa, Texas

[@Uh_0h_zilla]

You’re a great human being bro

[@antonkuzubov8532]

Man thats a sad story. Thanks for sharing! I thought I was old when i joined the marines at 24 lol. The oldest guy in our platoon was 28 tho, he made it thru, got out after 4 years and was good to go. Not gonna lie it was very hard for me in bootcamp, the only reason I made it thru was my girlfriend who supported me through it, I'm forever grateful to her. MSG is a really cool MOS man, its a dream life really - to guard an embassy in a foreign land and it is very honorable. Its a shame you didnt make it through. You said you gave the world a middle finger - I assume that is including your girlfriend too. And thats a great mistake my friend, a good woman by your side can make all the difference. When you have a good woman supporting you you can achieve whole a lot more. Keep this in mind bro

[@InformalGreeting]

I’m a bit confused. Couldn’t form meaningful relationships? When did you have time to think other people were forming these relationships? To anyone else reading this, literally all you have to do is what you’re told. The brotherhood comes later. I haven’t talked to anyone I went to boot camp with in years and years. I talk to guys I was in the fleet with every day, and I have been out of the Corps for 21 years. This guy wanted out, and that’s fine. The Marines aren’t for everyone. But don’t let his story impact your personal decisions. He wanted something that just isn’t possible at the beginning.

[@lifedeather]

But he still marine 😂

[@SDPimenta]

I graduated bootcamp recently and there’s no reason to quit if that’s what you want to become a marine. Do your best, pass the tests that aren’t too hard, drill instructors are mean but they don’t want you to drop, avoid getting hurt. And you’ll make it. You don’t have to be the best recruit to graduate, just meet the requirements that aren’t hard and you’ll eventually make it. Bootcamp is ass but hold on tight and make it through meal to meal, the bad things are temporary it won’t last forever.

[@saullopez3073]

Hopefully your experience helps others that might get caught in your situation, glad you it made alive, God bless

[@erenjaeger6204]

I'm Army, and my first time at BCT, I was a quitter. I regretted my mistake and went back in and suceeded. It takes guts to talk about this

[@Solid8077]

You are far from a “Failed Marine” you have my respect for even trying 🔥💯

[@elpanchosancho2]

For what! He's a certified failure

[@damienholland8103]

@@elpanchosancho2 So what? People sometimes fail when trying or learning something new. It is what it is. I'm sure you have too, pancho.

[@NANA-lq5md]

He was never a Marine.

[@bigbay1159]

Failed recruit

[@dantazboxing]

Although he’s not a failure. He is indeed a failed marine. Just like me.

[@NelsonSavinon]

I went to Army basic training back in the late eighties, in Fort Dix NJ, at age 34, I was older than everyone including the drill instructors, the training was rough but I breezed through it graduated on time and spend 23 years plus between active duty and reserves. Seems to me that this man was not cut out for the military, age it’s not an excuse.

[@FullcircleFaith]

It’s not too late man. You could always enlist in any of the other branches the cut off age is 35 or 42 depending on which branch. Life as a reservist ain’t bad either.

[@christiandherrera]

At 12:40 -13:15, I'm also curious on what do you feel like you were not ready for? The mentality, the physical workload, etc? What exactly are you advising 30 year olds to dig deep for? Like you, I feel like I've always wanted to join, but I'm curious what changed for you when you got there besides not relating to your fellow recruits.

[@dopyday402]

Let me give you an example. Tomorrow - not monday, not tuesday, tomorrow morning, put on a pair of jeans with white socks and a long sleeve shirt. Then go brush your teeth and shave your face. Immeditately after, go stand outside your front door for 45 minutes without moving. If any of this seems like something you find stupid, don't join.

[@John-ls1mn]

It's not hard, people have a hard time being yelled at and doing things fast,

[@koreysmith3635]

Whoa. What an outstanding share that will undoubtedly help others that have gone through similar experiences. Well done.

[@wallysworld5518]

It took courage to join and to tell your story. Hope you have a good day.

[@Virtusstrong]

I’m planning on going into the Marine Corp, I’m 25 as of this writing. I have many mixed feelings about it and in all honesty I’m still on the fence about it. I appreciate your honesty about your journey. In my book you’re a man of admiration just by sharing your story. Stay strong brother all we can do is our best.🙏🏾

[@Pitchithard]

Almost dropped out of Navy A School. Boot camp was easy but when I made it to Aviation Mechanics school could barely handle the studies. Called my father and he told me not to come home . So I buckled down and passed.

[@psalms27sneadspd46]

Coming here to share your experience is true bravery. I wish you the best. My niece Elaina is shipping out February for the Navy and I am worried if she's ready because she did it on a whim. You have my respect.

[@sputnikone6281]

Ex-IDF infantry Sgt here. Like all elite units the training is gruelling, I wanted to be a Paratrooper but the initial try out training was too rigorous for me so I and 2/3rd of my fellow trainees who had passed initial selection went back to being infantry sloggers.

[@micclay]

If you can't get into the Coast guard, Air Force, or Space Force, do not join.

[@SebastianRamos-y2h]

Ok look im 17 and i have 1 year of school left. I want to join he marines so badly but i have asthma. I dont know how to describe it but i can run 4 miles in 31 minutes average. My fastest time in the 4 mile run was 30 minutes and 19 seconds without using the inhaler. I want my asthma to fade away because im scared it might fuck with me during bootcamp or not. But I heard from my friends brother who is in the army that you can take an inhaler to bootcamp but use it supervised by medical staff. To all former marines do you think i can pass bootcamp with the condition i have???? Please reply🙏🙏🙏

[@takashimatsumoto3821]

I wouldn't beat yourself up. When you made the decision to join that was your choice. It's your life to live. I came back from training for the Australian army 2 months ago, didn't finish the whole program but did enough of it to join reserves. I was planning to quit originally but everyone convinced me to join reserves. Fast forward to now, I'm back home and I told my sergeant that I'm quitting literally last Friday. I didn't want to be stuck in a 4 year contact when I did so during training, but being in reserves made me realise I just don't like being in the army. To put it into perspective, my training platoon was surprisingly diverse with some people mid 30s. I am 24. A fair amount in mid 20s. The 30 year olds joined for meaning and purpose, they had lives at home but no family commitments. They quit for their own reasons but they will definitely return and finish the training. I consider them my family and we're close to the point they would let me move in rent free. There were so many other people in my platoon who lost things when they joined. A lot of people were running away from problems back home too, including me. Honestly I had no desire to be a soldier, the army was just a form of escapism for me. I don't consider myself a soldier after all this time. To people giving this guy shit, we literally had people going for commandos pulling out and going home because of family issues. He was crying at one point. I had a friend who was transferring to reserves like me, but because of his strong attitude he was recommended for direct entry commandos. You can always come back. If you don't want to commit to a contract you can try reserves and have a homelife. Everyone talks shit about reserves but your life is not other people's business.

[@bluskyz7398]

There is no shame in deciding that something isn't for you. This is what life is about - our choices. Only you are living YOUR life. Being honest with yourself is half the battle.

[@MVFC9424]

I just retired from a 29 year Army career. You would have found that brotherhood after your basic entry training. It takes courage to publicly admit your failures.

[@hthd1781]

my brother got failure to adapt

[@lifedeather]

Failure to be indoctrinated 😂

[@stevem7736]

Think of it this way now you can try Space Force. Atleast you gave it a shot. There is no dishonor in that.

[@JosephHenry-l5e]

Not with that SI in his record. He can't serve now.

[@wavey912]

Thanks for sharing your story man. I’m happy you did the right thing, and didn’t cause any harm to yourself and the to the future Marines.

[@jwickert3]

You hit the moment all recruits hit. All recruits get to rock bottom like you, the ones that make it usually get angry, maybe hate their DI, and keep going. To anyone watching, rule #1 don't quit. If you never quit your DIs will continue to train you and you will earn the title!

[@yuch1102]

No regrets at all and the military is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I needed a huge change and I got it. I joined the US Army at 30 for basic training promoted to SGT in 3 years, and selected for OCS a month ago. But it’s not for everyone, you have to have the right mindset coming in

[@thefuture4266]

You’re lucky you even made it to bootcamp, I was stuck in medical waiver purgatory for an entire year trying to fight it and they ultimately declined me

[@badboss5666]

It doesn’t matter about age honestly it’s all about maturity and building your sell at a different level. Don’t compare your self from others but your future and self

[@thomasmaroldo5813]

I wouldn’t beat yourself up about this move man. You were an established 29 year old who had a girlfriend family a job . What’s not said is most soldiers don’t have any of this. That being said we need people like that for this country but if it doesn’t fit you and your more of a family man then that is good to

[@edwinguzman6245]

As a former Marine since 1974 you have the guts to show us the otherside of things. Don't ever be ashame for not completing bootcamp. Not everyone can be a Marine. Rather have someone not finish then sone one being fully engage at my side during a hostile environment when I went to Vietnam.