My Health After Escaping Heroin Addiction

[@fidelisforhirex]

Girl, don't be sorry, please. You need to do what's best for your health. I'm grateful you've chosen to share this vulnerable side of yourself with us so we can cheer you on as you overcome your addiction and your infections. You don't NEED to do that, TBH. I'm glad to hear from you. :)

[@klesox7964]

Girl don’t beat yourself over not being able to post, focus on healing, we’ll always be here for you! 💓

[@JuanTorres-mg6sg]

Yea

[@radebombik1263]

Nah we wont

[@barrisonthethird4597]

@@radebombik1263 shut up

[@gacha_idiot_aoi8645]

Yea

[@12354rony]

@@radebombik1263 Cya!🙋🏻‍♂️

[@helpmyspaghettiiseatingme]

Never apologise for taking time to care for yourself It's okay to take time off even during your comeback 💚💚💚 your health comes first. Don’t stress over posting ❤️

[@Peach_VOxo]

Love your username haha

[@pinkayzt]

frrr

[@joelreji2117]

agree

[@summergrace5102]

I OD'd about 3 months ago from fent, I'm so proud of you for posting this Taylor, thank you for making me feel less alone in recovery

[@itzjess88]

I've been clean from my fentanyl addiction for 9 months now. I never overdosed thankfully but my bestfriwnd died on my couch. Dont go back baby. It only leads to 2 things and neither are good. Good luck!

[@SK-jp2ok]

Wishing you complete healing ❤️‍🩹

[@parisz]

You got this babe! ❤️

[@mallorytaylor6203]

I’m so happy you survived your overdose and are recovering! Take your time. Focus on small goals daily such as making your bed, showering, doing something that brings you joy such as eating a good meal, taking a walk, breathing fresh air and sitting in sunlight for 15 mins a day (5 deep breaths of fresh air daily are said to extend your life expectancy), etc. These small goals may seem unimportant but they’re crucial bc as an addict we know how difficult it is to get stuff done most days bc your time, energy, etc. revolves around drugs and their use. Achieving small goals makes achieving the bigger ones that much more likely! Drugs zap all of our joy so it’s crucial to reprogram your brain to recognize and enjoy the little things that once brought us immense pleasure. I have all the faith in you beautiful! I have 60 days clean from fent also and it does get easier as time goes on. I appreciate life in its most stripped down version nowadays. My worst day sober TRUMPS my best day high times infinity!! Keep fighting and keep praying! Sending you endless prayers and hugs ❤️❤️

[@mallorytaylor6203]

@@itzjess88 Sooo proud of you beautiful! I have 60 days myself and it feels incredible!! Everyday’s a blessing 💕

[@RP_76]

I'm 6 years clean, it is different for everyone. I think about you often and I'm glad to see you looking so healthy. Don't rush anything 💖

[@LAutobusbus]

I actually really like this format! It doesn't have to be perfect or long! Just you giving us a life update or perhaps telling us something that happened that was funny recently! I hope your health get better!

[@Molliefreya]

You randomly showed up on my discovery page like a couple of years ago, when you made your first video about your addiction - and ever since (although I wasn't a follower before) I have been checking up on you like every couple of months. You are so strong, thank you for sharing this journey with people so we get to understand more of what it's actually like to go through addiction. You are a badass.

[@Wrennyyy]

*Long time subscriber here.* It hurts my heart to see what you’ve gone through, but I truly believe that you’ll fully recover and go on to help others through your experiences. You’re an amazing woman with a huge heart. Just know that a ton of people feel the same as I do! *You’re a badass, Taylor! Just take one day at a time!* ❤️

[@jgpuglisi]

There is no such thing as fully recovering addiction. Once an addict, always an addict. You’re either a recovering addict or an relapsing addict, this isn’t a mental disease that can be cured and it will forever be a lifelong struggle

[@Wrennyyy]

@@jgpuglisi Fully recover in terms of finding inner peace and resolution. Though addiction is something that has to be managed, I do believe that she’ll come out on the other side stronger than ever before. 😊 She’s a strong girl. Her progress today is not representative of the progress that has yet to come! I’m excited for her.

[@alanpalooza]

Hi Taylor, where do I begin ive watched you since basically forever. One of my first vids was you buying servers turtles from the side of the road from a seller to save them. I’ve been on this journey with you basically since forever ( atleast for me ) and I’m a true fan of yours. Being open about your addiction and struggles with addiction is actually a relief for me. I’ve had a troubled life and often problems occur. I’ve struggled with alcohol consumption since I was 19, I’m 24 now, and I always assumed or thought I “ didn’t “ have a problem. Seeing you and hearing you be open and honest has made me come to terms with how I often abuse alcohol to deal with problems, not that our problems are the same ofc, but I can’t help but relate to you. I’m so proud of you and honestly and truthfully so amazed at your sobriety. You’re such a strong individual ! I want you to know that you being so open about your pain and your journey helps me not feel alone. Though I’m not alone physically, I feel alone most times mentally, I find myself counting the hours down to my shift to drink, I find myself waking up and thinking “ 8 hours till I get to come home and drink to wind down “ which says a lot. You inspire me. You beat the odds. I’ve had ( many ) sober streaks , personally, and I always fall back into the ( drinking daily ) trend in my life. But something about the openness in this video helped me realize “ I have a problem, and like Taylor I can overcome this with patience, time and understanding “ I have too been a victim ( idk if that’s the right play on words I’m sorry if it offends anyone ) of the “ pink cloud “ I just want to say thank you ! For validating my struggles with addiction. My struggles with life. But most importantly my struggles with myself. I feel honored that you could share your story, as should you. You’re helping so many people, even in the smallest of ways. Wether you believe it or not.

[@molli9292]

im sixteen years old and i overdosed 4 times in june from meth, addiction is hard but taylor i am so proud of you for getting this far.

[@jessiecamacho9936]

I really hope this isn’t triggering…. I just wanted to say, without you I would have never realized all the things I went through as a child with a parent that had/has addiction to opiates- that I wasn’t alone. When you go through these things; Like with your ex; The strange behavior when they’re high, the constant lying, the manipulation where everything is twisted to be your fault, the frustration, The loneliness, the isolation- All of it- I thought it was just me. I grew up thinking these things were happening to me and only me. Thank you, THANK YOU for teaching me what addiction is and showing me that I was/am not alone It feels so freeing to know I’m not alone. It makes me so ecstatic to see how far you’ve come and that there is hope- no matter how challenging, realistic and raw- there is hope. Love you Taylor, you can do anything you set your soul and mind to.

[@gwenifyer]

Don’t feel sorry for not making content!!!!! And it’s not boring. You can wake up, talk 10 min in the camera and load this up and I would love to listen to you. You don’t have to make animal content when you’re not healthy at all. Recovery is the most important thing now. I wish you all the best for getting healthy 🥰

[@jcdova29]

Keep fighting for your recovery and health! God bless you!😊

[@Ashley-db7hk]

I totally know where your coming from. My rock bottom was when I ended up in the hospital with DVT (deep vein thrombosis) and SEPTIC pulmonary embolism. So how does one get that? Well I'll tell ya! So i was injecting so much that I lost all of my surface veins in my arms, and the only other places I knew where to inject was either in my neck (which terrified me and I couldn't do it on my own) or my femoral vein. So I choose the fem. I had a close friend who inherited $350,000 from his mother passing away and he always had a SHIT ton of coke and heroin on him at all times. I got so bad to where I was literally shooting up once every 30-60 min A DAY. well one day I was having a hard time finding my vein cuz my needles were incredibly dull and I thought I got it but I completely missed. So when that happened my body didn't absorb it, what it did was clot up and grew an abscess which was basically intertwined with the clot. So I had an infected clot in my groin and the infected clot moved into my lungs. I was in EXCRUCIATING pain it felt like with each shallow breath I took like someone was jabbing a hot knife into my back and twisted it. I had to take a super super small breath in-between every other word. And it felt like I had a tennis ball in my groin where I missed the Injection (it was both coke and heroin) I thought oh my body will heal itself but I could barely walk or breath and what caused me to FINALLY go to the hospital was when my entire leg turned purple. And I was so sick that I had a heart murmur and they thought originally i had endocarditis (an infection in the heart) luckily it wasn't that. But I did have to be on the telemetry floor because of how bad my murmur was. I was in the hospital for 15 days and on IV antibiotics for 30 days and on blood thinners for about 6-9 months. When they were able to figure out what was wrong with me, and the gravity of the situation actually hit me and it hit me like a freight train. I told my Drs and nurses I'm tapping out I need to go to inpatient treatment. The staff was fantastic towards me I never felt judged for being an addict they treated me like another patient and once I told them I wanted to go to treatment as soon as I got out of the hospital they pulled out every resource they could find. I am also on O.R.T (opiate replacement therapy) and when I tell you it saved my life....it saved my life and they didn't judge me for that either Also I had no where to go when I got out of the hospital and I couldn't get right into treatment they sent me to a place called respite (rest-pit, is how it's pronounced) but it's a medical facility where homeless people go to finish their out patient treatments, like if you have to be on IV antibiotics for a long period of time but don't need to stay in the hospital they would send you home with all the equipment you would need. But since I didn't have a home I went to that facility and I was able to stay there until a bed opened up for me at inpatient. That was back in 2015, and I have been clean ever since. And I escaped death and I take that very seriously because I know if I relapse I'll never come back from it. You got this girl!! I'm so glad your clean and that your back on KZbin!!!

[@koolkat7617]

wow , that’s one story to tell! I cant believe you were able to get through that , you must be very strong physically and mentally! 😊

[@jocelynnmorales478]

Congratulations I’m proud of you!!

[@jscho8674]

Wow. You must be strong as hell! I am amazed you beat that terrible illness and your addiction. I am in awe of you girl!!! Keep telling your story!

[@tiffany2806]

We lost my Dad to that in January of 2020. We had to make the decision to take him off life support.. Well my sister did. He shot up in his arm. This from a man that has 2 complete open heart bypass surgeries and survived and we lost himn from deep vein thrombosis for over shooting an arm vein. I'm so so glad you stopped. You have no idea how bad me, my sister and his mom hurt. 😓

[@its.2.preppy]

You're so strong Pull through I hope you're doing much much much better now Have a good day and a good week

[@TheMaristocracy]

I literally shed a proud and happy tear. Your voice is so strong, Taylor. You are glowing and lovely, and we are so happy to hear about your progress 👏👏👏

[@itsolkingcol]

Can't imagine how scary that experience at the hospital could have been for you, and I'm really proud of you for everything you're doing to help yourself feel better.

[@h2oman95]

Your makeup reflects your mood… look at the difference between today and June 3. So dark back then So happy to see you are in a different place😃😃

[@hopeadler507]

That’s not how make up works. This is such a man thing to say lol

[@meowmeowkittymeow]

@@hopeadler507 🤣🤣🤣

[@cristinaosorio2871]

I’m glad to see your notification pop up and see that you are still trying and I appreciate you for that and I admire your strength to talk to us about your problems and I hope you continue to do well I’ll always be here as a loyal subscriber 💕 👑

[@vickytaylor6845]

Subscribed ! Came here from VICE and I don't like how they didn't include a link to your page! So I found you and your second page. 8 months in addiction recovery after being in and out of addiction (and mental health issues) for years. Single for the FIRST and longest time since I was 15 years old and I'm 36 now working on loving myself. With your following you, your story & your strength have the ability to save SO MANY LIVES! I will be watching to see any recovery / mental illness related content if you go that direction but will support your page either way!

[@MyHairLovesPunk]

It’s hard to understand and really appreciate just what our bodies do for us all the time that we don’t even realize. I hope you take all the resting time you need and don’t put yourself under any pressure. You’re doing the best you can and we understand 💕

[@milessharette3770]

I've been sober from heroin for almost 4 years. in that time I dealt with the death of my brother, and a painful divorce from my ex-wife. Also got my identity stolen and lost some good friends to addiction. If I can do it, so can you. I know the lonely, hopeless feelings that you are going through. know you have a lot of people supporting you.

[@SerenityScratch]

Wow, you have an incredible story. I’m not sure how much this means coming from a stranger but I highly respect your diligence and I’m inspired by your tenacity. Thank you for sharing, and stay strong!

[@samanthapostas9948]

Relapse isn’t apart of recovery but it’s apart of MANY of us addicts story including my own. I respect you so much you really have no idea because I myself believe that there isn’t much communication or content of addiction and truth be told is one of the biggest issues in our world today. By the grace of my god I will be celebrating 2 years clean in February and trust me it took me 8 1/2 years of in and out of treatment, being homeless, overdoses, stealing, etc you name it if heroin was calling my name there would be nothing stopping me until one day I just stopped digging. I FINALLY stopped digging my own grave and took action into saving my life no matter what I had to do. Ive watched you over the years and I’m sure it cannot be easy pretty much being under a microscope but I praise you so much and never and I mean ever loose faith in yourself. Find a recovery coach, meetings, literally, throw yourself into anything and everything if you know for sure you’re done digging and trust me you know when you’re done. Sending you much love and prayers Taylor 🖤

[@briannasbiome8762]

We’re so proud of you!! I struggle with chronic illnesses and the most important thing is to listen to your body and to not overdo it! Love you!

[@morticiansflamee]

ur intros lately have me rolling love you glad to see you taking care of yourself, much love from one recovering addict to another 🖤

[@paperback.dragon]

I also have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and POTS and dealing with those alone, I can barely get through my day. I can only imagine how hard all of this has been on you. Forever wishing you well ♥︎

[@dalkhal]

I’m sorry you go through this please keep fighting one day I promise it will get better

[@pattylovett4682]

I have EDS my Mom has both like you do and some others Its very difficult. My Mom cant even get out of bed

[@camcam794]

Take all the time you need! I have chronic illnesses too, and just got over sepsis, but I'm going through a flare that makes me totally exhausted, and in pain. I have to remind myself to take it easy. So please take it easy.

[@wondertwin13]

I also have an autoimmune disease and I almost died in 2016 from substances & domestic abuse. I was in a coma for 3 months & had to learn how to walk, talk & breathe again. Many prayers for you & your continued sobriety. I don’t think most people understand how difficult it is to live with an autoimmune disease or 2 and stay strong mentally/physically. 🙏🏻

[@Bethbethisme]

It's really good to see you again, I'm going through a similar thing at the moment as I'm trying to get back into a normal routine after a breakdown last year and while I'm generally a lot better my own chronic illnesses make it so much more difficult. Thank you for uploading and I'm really proud of you for doing all the work that creating a KZbin video takes❤️

[@kamryn110]

*I ALSO HAVE EDS (H TYPE) GIRL IK THAT STRUGGLE* Take your time♥️ Get your rest♥️ Don’t stress♥️ We’ll always be here♥️

[@citrinebby7977]

you don’t gotta worry about us , we love u and we want you to worry about you and take care of yourself before us 💜

[@melissasolis3488]

Honey you are strong af. A true miracle, a true angel.

[@avarayy]

always good to see your face and just know you’re healthy or doing better. everyone loves you trailer nickel ding

[@blazedgoddess710]

i just posted a short, showing the stretchy skin, i didn't touch on the dislocations and got called fake in my 1st comment. thank you for showing this aspect though i understand it might not be the point of the episode..(5mins in) EDIT: I have never been addicted to heroin, but I am on prescribed Oxycodone and Morphine by a pain clinic due to severe pain caused by EDS and spinal issues caused by Lupus, Ive seen so many people in my support groups turn to heroin to originally cope with the pain. I have so much respect for you and came to your channel after seeing you on VICE. You are amazing and I truly felt such a connection with you. THANK YOU for speaking out.

[@aishageorge3056]

I've never had a heroin addiction but I was addicted to marijuana for 20 years. I've been sober for 2 months now and I can really relate. I didn't want to smoke but kept on smoking. But there's always light at the end of the cover, just depends on how far away from it you are...You have achieved sooo much in a short time. Be extremely proud ❤

[@Odelle5]

Honestly, I'm also in San Antonio so I enjoy watching any of your content. If you just want to post occasionally, that's cool. If you want to talk about animals or your recovery or how you deal with illness/ depression/ life, I'll watch all of it.

[@makaylin6837]

I'm so proud of you taylor

[@charitylavallee1763]

Soooo I’m a ghost on most platforms and don’t really attach to influencers but I used to watch your animal videos literally all night I’d fall asleep when the birds sang and I genuinely missed your updates take your time and find your puzzle pieces one by one you got this

[@TheBritster09]

Girl don’t even worry about it. I’ve been through treatment 3 times and I have lupus myself. I’m going on 4 and 1/2 yrs. I believe wholeheartedly for you. You’ve built a community who has your back here. Don’t worry about life’s hardships. YOU are more than that. And WE love you. 💕💕💕

[@jpd1592]

Hope you’re doing well. You’re looking a lot healthier! stay strong, this is the best choice you will ever make for yourself to get clean ✨ good luck to you

[@EricaAmber]

Omg please talk more about EDS, I have it and I don’t really know how to deal with it or feel better with it.

[@wallie4734]

A youtuber called Aaron Ansuini has some videos about his EDS!

[@EricaAmber]

@@wallie4734 ooooo thanks I’ll check him out!!

[@RomaAcorn]

I feel you. Wish you strenght.

[@matthiasmajoris4029]

Hi, just found your videos! I'm also a heroin addict (once one, always one) been stuck on methadone for 10 years and have relapsed many times. I feel your pain, I have destroyed basically all of my surface veins, last time they tried to get blood from me they quit, lol. And when I had an emergency they had to use an ultrasound machine to get to deep veins in my arm. The tops of my hands are basically permanently swollen looking from all the missed shots and scars, so embarrassing, I used to have such great hands. I'm sure your videos are going to reach and inspire many addicts, if not to seek help, just to feel they are not alone. Thank you sincerely -matthias

[@jessicas.6235]

I never thought about how addiction can cause physical harm like infections to recover from. Thank you for sharing and so glad you’re struggling in the right direction. Be sure to take care of your gut microbiome with all those antibiotics, eat fiber to feed those good bacteria and they’ll help you absorb more nutrition so you can recover faster ❤️ Take it easy while you climb that mountain!

[@CoriGowins]

There will always be people there for you on the side line helping you not “run into traffic” you are never alone Taylor. So happy you’re doing well and almost three months sober that’s amazing!! Thank you as always for being so open. You’ve got this!!!

[@caraparker8004]

Don’t make yourself feel worse already you have been through enough your human and there will be people think that there opinions should be valued more but everyone is the same but different in there own ways so just be you and don’t let nobody tell you other wise you can beat this illness and dominate it ❤️

[@stevedearden1799]

Never heard of you before. just a random click. hope your well and stay clean love. Well done x

[@estelletherat3534]

Don’t beat yourself up about this my dad has also had problems with drugs and alcohol but he hasn’t don’t drugs in a month and your a good person ur videos are great and look at where u r! U have 1.97 million subscribers 😭

[@kathryneasley6429]

I so proud of you! I've never been in your shoes. But I could imagine. The way you address and explain your situation is so deep and brave. You coming out, could save alot of lives. Make others realize they aren't alone. Speaking about true reality, I know your words has meaning to them. As you speak you are reliving your experiences. I can't wait for you to look back on this moment within months and even years from now. Realize in this very moment how far you have come.

[@sleepydandan]

The way you talk about your addiction and your vulnerability is so genuine and honestly beautiful. I admire you and all that you’ve been through

[@summermorris7668]

u don’t need to apologize for caring for yourself.. ❤️❤️❤️

[@blueoceania]

girl honestly we don’t want to hear the apologies every video for not consistently uploading, your real fans/subs just want you to prioritize your health and us hear from you/watch you when you’re able to make content. you don’t need to explain yourself every time, i think you put too much pressure on yourself but i’m not blaming you because i’m sure there is those few people being like “wHy yOu sAy YoUr gOnNa UplOaD cOnSiStenTlY aNd tHeN dOnT” but the people who really care about you are gonna be here to watch you no matter what. ❤️

[@HilaryIsOkayssss]

I just watched the VICE video on you. It’s amazing how much you’ve been through and have overcome.

[@Dogwater]

i been struggling with oxy addiction for a year seeing you strong off this gives me hope, i still relapse every month but its all about progress

[@ciann11]

Glad to hear you’re still recovering, its a long ass process and sometimes feels never-ending but i have hope that you’ll get there! You’re so brave for sharing this with everyone, i know that hearing about your recovery from addiction has definitely been helping me with mine

[@kathleenhunt6879]

You are a big inspiration for me you have no idea! You don’t see very many people who are able to get sober and stay that way! Your amazingly strong to be able to publicly talk about your addiction

[@stinkypinky2547]

Just got out of in patient rehab this morning. Glad this was the first vid on my recommended. I’m 30 days today. Stay strong💜

[@cjk8207]

Taylor you would make a great Mental Health Nurse ( maybe Nurse isn’t the correct word ) but your definitely a people person , you’ve experienced addictions, illness and various mental health issues - you for sure help me wayy over here in Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 so you truly are so much more special than you believe you are - sending loads of love from Edinburgh City 🌃 ❤️

[@paperpenn9923]

Literally rooting for you so hard, sending all the love and positivity. You've come so far!!!

[@criminalkey2259]

Much love to you, I think most of us are just glad you are here! And I don't mean KZbin ❤

[@holyteratrinity8198]

19 days sober from alcohol. Thank you for your upload hope you're doing well❤️‍🩹

[@leandrogynous]

I’ve been watching you since I was 13 and I am now 18, I am so ridiculously proud of you!

[@roxannemongeon7868]

It’s so good to see you! I’m proud of you and you are a rockstar for staying so strong during all that you are going through ❤️

[@journeywithrosie]

I was just thinking about you today!!! 🥰 missed seeing you

[@dimaborisov3598]

so happy for you that you overcame your addiction! praise God

[@h1ddengem]

Your story, as painful and ugly as it may be, is so inspiring. I really feel like that is the realest, most honest thing I have seen in a while. Thank you for sharing and take your time to heal. We are all rooting for you.

[@whatsittoyou4153]

Addicts never change

[@sarahherbst137]

Not true

[@camskami]

Take your time. We’ll always be here. YOU matter, and take your time to heal.

[@cherrybomb3033]

Completely unrelated to the video, but your cat looks identical to our cat Zodo🐈‍⬛ My husband and I have been sober from an opiate addiction for 13 yrs now. It's a long hard road, but it gets better as the time passes. We'll always be addicts and have moments of craving, but its what we do in those weak moments that keep us sober. I am very lucky to have been able to get sober with my hubby and to have each other as a support system throughout our sobriety journey. Now I can get surgery, have a prescription of opiates, and am able to take them as directed. I actually only took them for the first day or two, and disposed of the rest. Such a weird feeling to be able to dispose of something so easily without being bothered when I use to value those pills like they were liquid gold. I will always come back to check on how you are doing and to see if you've uploaded no matter how long there is inbetween uploads. Take the time for yourself first and foremost because we will all be here waiting for you when you get back❤️

[@marccross1178]

You are never alone. You are always loved. ❤

[@lem1738]

Don’t be sorry, glad you’re doing better

[@sydneygoldberg395]

I’m so happy you are fighting and still here! I know you aren’t fully out of the woods yet but it’s quite a relief to see your mental space is so much better. I lost my favorite teacher from middle school who became a very close family friend in January to opioid addiction, I so wish he could have done what you did! He fought a long battle of addiction for 8 years and I will never forget all the many lessons he taught me

[@wannnnakeepit]

Oh & isn't it a great thing to get clean and feel emotions even when they're terrible

[@saltyrowisafirehazard]

Girl take your time, seeing you get better is all I need, we support you and we will wait as long as you need 💚

[@granthorrocks]

your so strong and doing so amazing considering everything,, take as long as you need

[@marty1685]

I also have daily health issues, and some days I just watch a lot of KZbin. I started watching reptile KZbinrs, your channel included. I haven't kept reptiles in years, but you reminded me how much I missed snakes. To make a long story short, I now have a Honduran Milk Snake, a Ball Python, and a Kenyan Sand Boa. While I still deal with daily physical pain, these animals have completely transformed my outlook and mental well-being. Your videos were a spark for this fire, thanks, they can make a difference for others. I also understand addiction, hang in there, you are headed in the right direction, take all the time you need, I'll still be subbed when you come back, no matter how long it takes. Also gonna get busy upping views on your past videos ;-)

[@roblim1767]

I know you receive a lot of "advices" and it is overboring mots of the time, but i feel it can help I really hope that you're meditating regularly. And slowly realizing that you are the source of all the pleasure, and everything that you can or could experience. Discovering you're above your mind, so you can control it. Realizing this and getting free of any lack, realizing your source and that this should be the start point of every action, emotion, thoughts,...so it is really the heaven on earth. You're much more than a social persona, and bringing this to your practical life is life changing. As an empath and emotional person avoiding associations with people with low selfcounsciouness is a must. Sometimes being "passionately dispassionate" can slow down the overjoy and bring a more blissful state. I'm an alternative healer(i know it not so much scientific ^^, but can be a good thing), and you're now on my list to receive distant healing.Hope you dont mind... And there are a lot of things that can help, like sound healing, holographic memory therapy, qigong, transcranial lllt, emf reduction, etc. Always taking care of "communities" (is not because someone is searching for some kind of self realization that this person is a good person to be around) and...your parents seems amazing, keep them close.^^ You was never alone, no one is really alone...sometimes some holes appear so the light can come in so we can identify with the light and not with the things that light illuminates. You will gonna be fine, and you have a long beautiful life ahead.

[@hannahtolley1793]

i just want you to know i'm so very proud of you and don't pressure yourself to make "animal content" i'm not even here for your animal content. i'm just here to see how you're doing and hear your story.

[@NanaIkiru2]

Taylor! You don't need to apologize, just focus on getting better and whenever you're ready, then you're ready!! We're rooting for you

[@LilMsSunshine2009]

Thank you for being so transparent. You have no idea how much you are helping others, myself included 💜

[@TheNiDreA]

You’re the best! 💜 Please don’t worry,your health is more important than being consistent with uploading on KZbin. Stay healthy and stay strong! You’re so beautiful and so strong and you’ve come soooo far!!!!! Kisses from the Netherlands 💜🌸

[@jonessoda1773]

Baby girl you are more than just uploading videos. You are important, you are loved, you are resilient x 💓 Keep pushing through

[@Pugthug]

Girl, you do you! You never need to apologise for not putting up videos. You are a strong wonderful person! I wish you all the best in your life!

[@ginarozario8945]

Virtual hug. It's good to see you good.

[@thatstheteasis3740]

girl you look great. dont beat yourself up for not uploading to take care of yourself.

[@jennharper872]

Girl you don't need to beat yourself up. Your mental health comes first. ❤❤❤

[@chelseaharris5708]

I hope you feel better soon. Keep fighting everyday! I am almost 3 years clean, and if you need anything I can talk. I know getting clean sucks but you need to take your time healing. Don’t allow yourself to get overwhelmed.

[@Ksane]

Wow. That's some brave shit 😱 Hold your head up, you've earned it.

[@carlyd.s.3797]

One day at a time! You’re doing great. Take care of yourself!

[@HC-bk2zl]

None of us are mad at you! Your mental and physical health are the most important thing! We love you 💕 and are so proud of you

[@taylormann2335]

hey girl, a fellow Taylor in her recovery journey here, also immunodeficient and so happy i found you!! Its refreshing to hear someone be real about this and just openly talk. Love your spirit and i would love to just have a conversation w you sometime 💖

[@kendraventrice3832]

hope you are doing better, glad to see you are back.

[@carellelol]

we’re all so proud of you Taylor 💓 it’s great seeing you on here again :) but focus on yourself & your health! your true supporters will love you regardless if you post once a month or once a year 🤍

[@jenniferwaldrop6181]

Hey sweetheart I feel your pain. I'm a recovering drug addict, that has relapsed. 😭😭😭 I had 4 years clean and sober. Now I've got 3 days clean. And I'm really sick. Gotta get up and shower to go to the ER. Hope and pray that you and I keep working a program of recovery. 💞✌️🙏

[@Mimispexial4]

Sweetheart you can do it I promise do not give up🦋

[@MissKckp]

We’re here for you 🙏🏻 Don’t apologize for choosing you and the time you need to heal and get better. I’m rooting for you!!! ❤️💗

[@AquilaCat]

You focusing on your health is what we like to see. Focus on your health and recovery first. Rest as much as you can while your body is fighting all those infections. You're so strong for fighting the addiction and making the right choices for your health. Keep going! Uploads can wait until your body has recovered more.

[@avery1191]

I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I have stayed here because of how funny you are and you just seem like a great person who loves her pets!!! ❤️❤️😊😊

[@Nanasmama]

We started recovering at the same exact time and I remember watching your video and you said something along the lines of “sometimes recovery means just watching the office everyday” I that literally finally normalized in my brain what recovery really was. Mind you, I’m on my 10th time rewatching I’ve Finally I’ve got A great job and about to get off treatment so I came back to look for you because I still don’t have the energy I used to and it’s been stoping my fullest potential. But I just heard you say your waiting to have more energy and honestly made me look forward to when I watch your next video and we are back to our baseline Self.

[@chantalcomtois6218]

Don't worrie about uploading a little late! We are here to support you and always will support you. ❤

[@citrinebby7977]

i’m spamming ur comment section sorry, i am just so thankful you’re alive. hang in there with us i would be soo heartbroken without you. You literally are a light in this crazy world.

[@crystalhelliwell1206]

Glad you are back and SOBER! I myself am on the same journey as you in regards to substance abuse, and its not easy, but so worth it. I hope you stay healthy and happy!