MY HORRIFYING HOSPITAL EXPERIENCE... (After My Rare Cancer Diagnosis & Surgery)

[@bignoknow]

Having the opportunity to open up with you all about my new cancer journey and what it's been like has been so cathartic for me. I say this every video but thank you for supporting me, sharing your stories, information, prayers, and testimonies. Means the world and it helps me get through right now. Also, thank you to everyone supporting the GoFundMe: gofund.me/c3e2410b Because of your kindness I was able to afford an appointment with a Nobel Prize winning doctor out of Nevada who is going to take on my case. Will share more soon I promise.

[@discospiders]

It’s been very helpful for me, emotionally, since we are on the same journey, at the same stage. Same fears, anxiety, pain, roller coaster of emotions. I don’t have to guys to make my own videos, so thank you for being vulnerable and brave. ❤ Michelle

[@apemancommeth8087]

Try to live in the moment and remind yourself regularly about all the things that you’re thankful for! You’ve got loving supportive friends and family and that’s something to be thankful for! Having a positive attitude really truly has an impact on the outcome! But don’t beat yourself up either if on occasion some anxiety comes your way! That’s perfectly healthy and normal! It might even be nice to talk to cancer survivors and see how they dealt with it all! Or find a current cancer patient you can talk to who’s going through and experiencing some of the same things you’re going through! You could end up with a great friend after you beat this!

[@donnae2013]

Many 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻for you ❤️

[@VICKI-t6i]

Everytime my mind starts to go in the direction of depression I ask GOD to take it away and HE does ❤ and prayers Noah

[@bignoknow]

@@discospiderslet’s stick together

[@apemancommeth8087]

I fully understand how scary it must be, but you’re so blessed to have loving, supportive family and friends by your side! You look extremely healthy and if anyone can make it, it’s you! Keep positive because it really does affect the outcome! Sending positive energy and prayers your way!

[@Meah-t7q]

❤❤❤❤

[@jeejeeband2290]

Thankyou Jesus for healing Noah of all cancer and his anxieties. Noah gives you all his burdens and you are his comfort place. Thank you Lord Jesus 🙏

[@VICKI-t6i]

I agree in Jesus Mighty Name

[@Wink2639]

Amen!!

[@tincup108]

As much as we are emotional when we find out our diagnosis, we have to be even more emotional in our drive and fortitude to recover from it. Make it happen!

[@bignoknow]

Wow…. That’s really powerful

[@cinzo7238]

I think it's wonderful that you are sharing your feelings and your mental health state, as it will help validate others who are battling health diagnoses. Your platform can also be a godsend to you, having support and encouragement from your followers. Praying for you, Noah.❤

[@kyledesu]

I gave everything to God on my cancer journey.. keep fighting and sharing your journey.. keeping you in my prayers buddy

[@lizzystitch4842]

Noah, brother in Christ, your emotions are normal for this stage. I've dealt with many medical anxiety situations. I keep handing it over to the Lord. I keep trusting Him for every moment of every day. "Jesus, I trust in you." is my constant, inward prayer. Cancer has many unknowns, but God knows the unknowns, so trusting Him for EVERY THING has been most helpful for me.

[@Meah-t7q]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@VICKI-t6i]

Everytime my mind starts to go in the direction of depression I immediately ask God to take it away and HE does . ❤

[@lucylu0615]

I have to comment on your anxiety over the diagnosis that we all fear, when I was diagnosed with cll leukemia I was utterly devastated and my anxiety was so bad that i couldn’t sleep bathe eat. I know exactly how you feel only one that goes through something like this knows the unwanted feeling. A lot of doctors don’t understand this. They need to be more compassionate with their patients. I’m so so sorry.

[@sandralazarus7338]

Dear son. My prayers are always with you.

[@christyb7455]

I’m so sorry you were treated this way😢 I’m praying for your complete healing❤

[@jimmlygoodness]

Literally just found your channel a few minutes ago because I searched for ''don't relapse'' and found your video from 10 years ago called ''you don't have to relapse tonight''. It helped me a lot (''say 'f--k you' to day zero!''). So just now I looked to see if you were still making videos and I come across this! Sorry to hear about what you're going though. I am pulling for you big time!! Take it one day at a time, brother. ♥

[@christeas8426]

Cancer PTSD , is normal . I just start my day with prayer , 🙏 psalm 23,then I get up and give thanks for the day hour or minutes, I am given. Praying for you daily.

[@Pan472]

All of what you've said is so relatable to me, because that's how I think with my hypochondria. Almost letter by letter same type of thinking. I always think of the worst. Noah, you're not alone. But you'll overcome this.

[@mariamorales81]

My heart hurts for you. God place you hands on him to give him your glory.

[@Musicandfilms7]

Your emotional reaction is completely normal, I deal with anxiety and panic attacks for other reasons and there are really hard to manage . Wishing you the best, we're all here with you Noah, stay strong

[@levihavdala3375]

I pray you make a full recovery from cancer

[@franny5295]

I can sympathize with the blood thing. The nurse went with me the first time I went to pee after my son was born. And when I looked between my legs horror and panic had overtaken my face and I know she was there specifically for that moment. Because as I took that breath she was assuring me that it was normal and expected and I was ok. Having your dad there is honestly the best you have going for you.

[@thesaucynurse]

It's ok to be afraid and scared 🙏🏻 I have medical anxiety from doctors missing my diagnosis and ignoring my symptoms. Our faith in The Lord will keep winning and carry us through 🙏🏻Stay strong 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 God will not leave your side🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@KikiBear_01]

Hi Noah, I feel you. Health anxiety here. I feel amazing outside of any doctor’s appointment, I make sure that I remind myself that that matters, that presently I have no concerning symptoms. I remind myself I’m ok, if something is detected I’m going to be okay too. It’s human, emotional rollercoasters. They say we need to be more emotionally regulated. When we can be calm and steady in the best of times and in the worst of times, we are emotionally mature. Wellllll, my moods ebb and flow and I go with the flow and I have gut reactions, I scream with excitement at times and other times cry it out, feel vulnerable and question every ping and pang in my body. I had a misdiagnosis for skin cancer. Then a punch biopsy on my nose after a month of something wasn’t healing. That lead to news of basal cell carcinoma in 2021. I was told by doctors better to have that than breast cancer or Covid, it’s the friendliest of cancers (62 at the time). They gave me radiation for a month. Mohs surgery was backlogged, surgery and possible flap terrified me too. Radiation has done some damage and I can happily accept those skin changes, I just wanted the cancer gone. Three more punch biopsies since radiation, all benign, and more scarring. Of course to this day I think of possible recurrence or a new cancer. It was a reality bite. I hate that my mind thinks of any skin change as cancer. I watch changes like a hawk now, worry yet cope, get distracted with enjoyable hobbies (making sourdough bread is pretty exciting and rewarding, who knew) and appreciate every carefree moment. New perspective on life here, I love that I am more mindful and intentional with living a healthy lifestyle, which gives me a sense that I’m doing everything in my power to stay well and grateful and with time just more at peace, accepting of ‘hey, life happens’. Live your best life, always have faith and hope, trust your instincts and have trust in God and heaven. Everyone that has passed before me is ahead of me now. I’m not moving on without them, I’m moving toward them. I do feel comforted thinking that I’ll be reunited with my family and friends one day. In the meantime, live large and curious and with purpose and joy. You are an inspiration and keep making an impact. Your sharing your experiences, knowledge, and encouragement is welcomed by your community. Hugs❤️XO

[@lezup]

Noah, I know this must be terrifying. You’ve got your family for support. You’ve got your KZbin family. Remember those coping mechanisms that have worked in the past. Remember the pain is temporary. It will get better.

[@martinatravers330]

Noah. You are too severe on yourself. Of course you will feel fear because you are an empathetic and beautiful human being. I have you in my prayers every day. Sending prayers and healing hugs from Ireland.🙏🙏 🤗🤗❤❤

[@TheBritot]

Hi sweet Noah. I do have medical anxiety about my condition and trust me when I say I'm not comparing mine against yours but I know it can be debilitating. I immediately go down the rabbit hole of dark thoughts. I can cry myself to sleep over it. I allow myself to shed those tears and then I move on. We can't allow ourselves to stay stuck in the negativity as the universe really listens. Keep positive, pray like you have been and at the end of the day, give thanks. You've got this, we all support you, and may my words amongst many others truly lift you up. I know this has got to be extremely scary but you must continue to fight. You can shed your tears, but please dont lose hope. You've got this and we've got your back. ❤ And by the way, 6 year old Noah was & still is adorably cute. ❤

[@golden.goldilocks]

I have health anxiety as a result of complex PTSD. But I think for you, I don't feel it is a child like response when you feel anxious and afraid, I believe it is a normal response. You haven't reverted into a 'child' as such, just an adult going through an enormously challenging time. And of course you will feel fear and anxiety. It is perfectly normal and that response should be validated in that way. Normal. And accepted. Like..I feel really afraid right now and I accept that I do, I don't resist these feelings and allow them to be there, surrender to them, don't resist them and they will ease off. Validation, acceptance, non resistance and surrendering. It is hard I know, but you can do it 💖💖

[@helenchoi4104]

Noah, God truly gives us the grace and courage to handle whatever he has in store for us. He explicitly tells us not to worry…so let‘s do as he tells us. I will pray for you!

[@Iroise1955]

C'est tellement normal d'avoir peur, qui n'aurait pas peur? Tout mon soutien ❤

[@julieduranie]

Keep going Noah! Praying for you!

[@mirzafatic1663]

Brother Noah, it is so normal to feel all those heavy, saddening, scary feelings and emotions, believe me, and also feel incredibly high anxiety and panic. You are young, just like me, and your body SO got this. Maintain releasing your emotions, whenever needed, trust in the fact that you have a wonderful mom and dad ❤, God as well. And all of us out here right there with you. Extended family. When you get better, I would love to connect with you my guy 💪👏😊

[@candycewindels1337]

I feel this. I've health anxiety along with ptsd and panic disorder. Its really hard not to get into your head sometimes. I personally when my mind gets too busy I redirect my attention to something else. Ie a movie or a game or some work that needs done etc. I also say I am safe right now. Even if the worst case scenario happens I can handle it. I've survived every hard day up until now. I just turned 40 in may. I will be having my first colonoscopy soon. My grandpa had colon cancer and prostate cancer. He survived both and lived to 92! Keep the hope alive my friend.

[@brendainny]

You seem a lot calmer now,I’m glad,I know it’s hard but if you stay positive,it helps a lot,YOU GOT THIS 🙏

[@derrickivey3123]

Oh my gosh Noah, my heart goes out to you, sending you so much love and you are such a radiant soul, remember to go back and love yourself more in those moments back when you were a young child and love yourself now, you are an amazing person and you help so many souls, one tiny moment at a time, we're all in this thing together, you're not alone Noah, lots of love 💓

[@Granados5]

You got this. You have given me strength to keep going when I had my anxieties take over my life. I cant imagine what you must be feeling or thinking. But I know with all my heart that you will beat this because you helped me beat my anxiety. I couldnt thank you enough, i pray that you get better. Much love and happiness is sent your way, i hope you are able to keep your head high. I BELIEVE!!

[@chiaradigiorgio1821]

Your breaking my heart Noah ❤

[@shoshannafachima1306]

Always keep your faith strong.give God your worries and He shall take care and support you and carry you safely through the storm thus bringing you back to health. Sending hugs and strength🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💪💪💪💪💪

[@sierra734]

You are in my prayers Noah 🙏🏼

[@ashjankins960]

My family is praying for you, everyday. Not just for your recovery but for the mental & emotional health of you & yours. God knows you’ve helped mine over the years, thank you!

[@tamarafarr9460]

Watching your journey is such a blessing, Noah! And seeing you share your thought process and fears is humbling and touches many hearts, I'm sure. Thank you for your candor and humilty. We're on this journey with you in Spirit! Praying for total healing. ❣

[@ladylincoln6691]

Sending blessings to you Noah. Sending prayers for your strength and healing. 🙏🙏🙏

[@loriscott5701]

I can completely relate. I had a double lung transplant 2/29/24 and I constantly think something is wrong. I am on immune suppressive drugs so I constantly worry that someone is going to get me sick. It has been real bad the last two months, first one of my blood tests came back that there was the possibility of rejection. I had to wait to get a bronchoscopy and then I had to wait for the results. It showed no rejection. Then I get monthly chest xrays and I got one at a different place than normal and the report said I had pulmonary venous congestion. Of course I googled it and it said it was a form of heart failure with a life expectancy of 1-2 years. I called my nurse and told me I needed to get the disc and they would compare it. My appointment was 2 weeks later and the doctor said it was nothing to worry about, I don't have that. I hate waiting for the results. I think we cant help but worry when you have a chronic condition. You got this! I will be praying for a good outcome for you.

[@tusanity]

Your physical appearance shines so bright with the holy spirit and I mean that in a literal sense.. you literally glow with God's light. We all know this will be a testimony that will change lives. Incredible!

[@techniquephysique]

🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@mandymurray4534]

I think you are being extremely brave sharing your news and very early knowing yourself 🥰🙏🩵 I've watched your dad on here for a very long time and he is just the best person for you to have by your side he's great and so are you ☺️☺️ big hugs and love from Birmingham UK 🇬🇧 xxx you got this 💪

[@goldstandardaviation1667]

You have a long road ahead. Won't be an easy one. Good luck along the journey.

[@helenmoniz1474]

What helped my anxiety when I went through my battle was this too shall pass . I repeated this mantra over and over . To calm my mind . It helped me tremendously.

[@Sheyann_89]

I personally dont have cancer but i have my own struggles going on right now and Noah your videos have helped me immensely in so many ways that i wouldn't have otherwise if it werent for you sharing your journey with us so thank you so much. Your bravery, courage, strength and your hope is so inspirational. Im just one person following along on your journey who you have helped, there are so many others who you have helped as well so dont give up, you will always have us to help you and support you through this hard chapter in your life. Sending hugs and prayers your way Noah. 🙏🙏🫂🫂

[@dinacirillo5269]

Praying for you Noah. Sending a huge hug to you and your family. Your daily videos I always look forward to. Thankyou

[@epluribusunum1978]

Keeping up with you, Noah. I'm in the Los Angeles area and we are experiencing terrible wind and fires. It's an emotional wallop. You expressing what your feeling and experiencing is so important. It gives a voice and a face to cancer. Take care of yourself and I am continuing to pray for you and your family.

[@thomass2055]

I put my emotions aside and quit worring about the future and lived for today the moment no matter how much pain im in i live for myself, live for others and most important live for my God until im called home. I do ignore the symtpoms the pains as much as i can and keep fighting. Will to stay alive i know one day my body is going to surrender and know ill be welcomed home. His love, his mercy, his grace is enough to tell me that. The feeling i have wrapped in his arms brings truth and healing to my soul. I dont blame him for what has happened i accept its part of bieng mortal just like so many before me. My soul will live forever and ever in his arms and in his presence. Through all this i have gained strength to look at my life and death and say no im not afraid. We all have our ups and downs but with god in your heart the fears and doubts almost become nonexistent. I went to Iraq in 2009 to Afg 2014 and another deployment i can not speak. Those moments of bieng scared and fearful dissapeared because God showed me he would protect me and brought courage to where i am today. This is a stepping stone a test shall we say to shake you to wake you up and not give up on yourself your God which should be number 1 and your family. Let me ask for you and ill see what i can find for you maybe answers.

[@joewelch3781]

I don't know if this willl help, but my anal cancer scared the crap out of me. I have had so many members of my immediate family die because of cancer and I had a fear that this was it. It felt horrible and worried about it all weekend before I found out that it was cancer and that there was a plan in place to take care of it. They had already done the surgery and when they told me they already had the plan in action. I got my CT, appointment with Oncology, appointment with Radiation Ocology and with the pharmacist for my chemo. When I did my research to find out about the survival rate and the all the other information I realized that this could be a blessing. I was living life like I had all the time in the world to make up what I wanted to do, and become professionally. I realized although I needed to plan for the future, I needed to live for today. My spiritual experience was one of love and acceptance of who I am. I had friends and family that checked in on me. Most of the time all I wanted to do was sleep because I was always tired. Two I wish I had not listened to them about which was eat as much as I wanted and to stop exercising. I got fat and out of shape and have not been able to get back to where I was previously. I know you have a great support system around you and remember to think positive and don't sweat the small stuff. Do what you need to do to control the cancer and stay positive about all the things in your life. It gets better.

[@grahamcracker209]

God bless, keep on keeping strong. You have mountain of people out here that believe in YOU! God's blessings 🙌 ❤

[@teresabunch1444]

Great to see you back at the gym and to see you smiling and laughing with your friends. Thoughts and Prayers to you and your family always!

[@thesaucynurse]

Your body is still healing...the nerves where surgery happened do not recognize what happened and its healing this the pains...you got this💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 Keep the faith 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@carolemckinney4497]

My dearest friend Noah. Thank you so much for sharing your feelings! When I had my cancer…now 26 years ago, had the same feelings. I am really proud of you for how you handling all of this. Keep going. We are all here for you and your family ❤

[@mezzzanina]

Thank you for letting us in on your tuff journey. I just want you to know we are here with you even if it is on a distance. I pray with you. You are not alone. Stay strong but also be week when you need it.

[@ReineObermier]

Noah I’m proud of you for sharing all your feelings. I understand how it feels in a different way of having medical anxiety every since I broke my neck and sustained a serious spinal cord injury I have & had to fight this a lot even 34 years after this all happened the good thing I’m better at talking myself down and have figured out how my body works better now. I struggle when something health wise is going on I often automatically think the worst and then work through the reality of the situation and tell myself to relax until I actually know what’s truly wrong and enjoy today because it’s not worth worrying and feeling silly if it’s ok and if it’s bad news I’ll deal with it. I also pray and meditate. It’s understandable why you’re feeling this extra fear and you’re aware. Prayers do help so keep your faith and be patient with yourself this is a lot but I know you can do this continued prayers 🙏🏼💕🙏🏼💕🙏🏼💕🙏🏼

[@melissapoole8580]

I don't have cancer, but recently (2 weeks ago) I was hospitalized for ongoing shortness of breath. They found MASSIVE pulmonary embolisms in my right lung causing collapse. I had infarcts in my lung (dead tissue) and literally I was told I should be dead. So now I am on blood thinners, and other meds, but every pain I feel in my lung, back, or even my head, makes me think I am fixing to die. To be medically traumatized is NO freaking joke. I will pray for your complete recovery.

[@victoriacritchlow9069]

I hear you and wish you the very best. I 2 am having shortness of breath (horrible ) and massive palpitations they think it's my heart. Having a machine fitted next Tuesday to see wats up. It's a hard time for us all I thinkn

[@jennifermulholland9412]

Sending love and prayers Noah from England ❤

[@carolwunsch4546]

Thank you for sharing your process. There are those who don’t understand. That’s OK. They’re doing the best they can with what they’ve got. We will all pray for everyone together. ❤️

[@mrg-k2r]

i was once told to do some volunteerwork to be less consumed with self. it works

[@janemortimer9714]

Everything you are going through, it makes me think of my husband. Believe, please. I know how scary this is, I could see it in my husband’s eyes. He too had Appendiceal Cancer, very rare. God be with you always.

[@davepounds8924]

Is this for real! He’s telling us how much pain he’s in when he lifts up on an examination table yet he’s lifting weights and working out in a gym.??? He’s got his go fund me going but just Be careful A lot of fake I’ve go cancer please donate going around lately

[@sandralazarus7338]

I dont think so.

[@keepingitreal9821]

Just had LAR surgery 3 days ago, I completely understand your thought process and the physical symptoms post surgery however I’m choosing not to catastrophise things and telling myself my body is healing after surgery and needs time to heal. Renewing your mind is part of the battle here…stay focussed on God and not the problem for our God is bigger than our problems 🙏🏻

[@SarahFew-d8b]

Sending you hugs Noah 🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@lmk0799]

Ive been hyperfocused for 4 years. Its hard not to be. Time should help. 8m still waiting.

[@Meah-t7q]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@manunited1132]

*HOPE ANCHORS THE SOUL *

[@markwinton6524]

God has you brother

[@TheTwistedMystic]

Hey man I've been subscribed to your channel for a long time and I just want to say you are really strong, you'll pull through this and I'm not sure what your faith is or if you have any but I want you to know that I will be praying for you. God bless you.

[@BasicBeachCommunity1]

i was talking to my kids about their relatives who passed on and trying to remind them that our place in heaven will be free from pain and suffering and our loved ones will be there...the time on this life will seem like a speck of sand... and eternity calls each person at some time. I miss my loved ones so much but know i'll be there one day.

[@karengiolli471]

I had stage 2 breast cancer and treatment is now done but I have terrible cancer ptsd. Every pain or symptom I think is cancer which is so exhausting.😢

[@Alex-nx8mp]

You have been through a lot and are still going through so much!! It’s normal to panic at every little thing that your body is going through but remember God is in control of your life and you just keep praying to him… 🙏🏼 I still panic but that’s one not gonna help you heal only stress out your body… but say I’m gonna get through today … if you don’t feel good one day it’s ok let yourself be sick 🤢, if you have a good day then yay 😁 it’s one day closer to healing from cancer… you are a man with cancer, cancer does not define who you are as a person… ❤🙏🏼

[@Amyia14]

Sending you love and prayers

[@pamgreen4249]

I just have to say that your reactions to what is happening to your body is normal. God has his own plan for you. Please trust in him. Wish I could give you a hug 🫂 and tell you that you are a blessing. Take care and stay strong.

[@jimsmith1549]

Noah, this is a beautiful recap of this part of your journey. Faith and family are the key for me. In my case, family consists of a couple of long-term friends and my beloved longtime partner. But the connection with a Higher Power has to come first for me. Everything else will get settled.

[@XPS231]

you gotta stay postivie, dw! you will and are going to live! you will survive i believe in you!!! dw try and stay positive!!!!!!!!! you are a legend my guy

[@33roses]

Please embrace and sit in your emotions. Don’t let your faith cause you to push them down.

[@helenabastarache7429]

I have health anxiety i have a heart appt coming up and im deathly afraid always thinking the worst but i remind my self God is in control and i calm down . We Serve a loving and peaceful God he has you noah and he loves you . Remember Hes in control and tell your self phillipians 4:6-7 thats what i do ❤❤

[@rowyourboat5361]

best of luck Noah. God is with you.

[@maryyung1994]

Find a therapist you can talk to about all your concerns.

[@ar-15techtipsinunder5minut8]

At least you have the time energy and fortitude to make an upload multiple videos a day. I’m not trying to be mean, I have cancer too, in middle of my fight, but maybe the difference is I’m 65 years old and not scared to die, if I was 35 I might be scared to death, hope your making good money off your u tube clips, I don’t monetize my channel so my few videos I have posted is for information only and aren’t about the money as Medicare is paying for most of my bills. I hope you get better. You seem genuinely scared, may God bless you.

[@carolwunsch4546]

You are in my prayers.

[@FlaGrown1955]

My son got myocarditis at 26 and he went thru this. It takes time to ptocess this. He is a very devoted Christian and had a crisis of faith which compounded the problem. I suggest a therapist,and meditation.

[@ExternalEclips305]

We all have to go eventually. Only difference is that you YOU yourself are more aware of it and acknowledging it day by day but people like us that aren’t diagnosed with it continue our lives ignoring it because let’s face it we’re all scared of death. I think it’s pretty badass to document yourself on this journey and to fight it everyday. You have a heart of a lion I’m scared of my day to day life as is and here you are facing death in its face. I don’t meant to sound edgy or dramatic but I truly envy your bravery and can hope one day I become just as brave as you are ❤️‍🩹

[@sign.language.l5765]

Something I learned recently was that we don’t “give it to God” one time and expect to feel fully free from anxiety and the worry. It’s a continuous thing that we have to submit to God every day - of every hour. I always felt down on myself and my faith because I just couldn’t “give it to God” because there was still the constant ruminating, catastrophizing, and replaying of scary moments. But, if it was that easy, we wouldn’t need Jesus or Paul. He calls us to submit and re-submit to Him each and every day, all day long. It’s not a one time deal. It’s a lifelong commitment.

[@Dee.C]

i am dealing with my own health anxiety . I keep thinking it is the end somedays. I leave it at God's feet and my doctor's hands . My love and prayers for you and your lovely family.

[@anka2378]

Heavenly Father you are the reason why we have life you created us I'm praying for this man and everyone who's fighting cancer also I'm praying for myself I have lyme but the most important man in my life is my husband he's fighting stage 4 cancer and with God Anything is possible we are victories God's children as long as we trust in Him we're going to be OK so I wish you nothing but the best Sr Joy peace healing understanding wisdom but most of all God's never failing amazing love

[@lizardwanderer]

I came across your story while looking up videos about my own symptoms. Started out with migrating pains in the digestive tract. A few CT's later we have lung nodules that may or may not be a problem, follow up in a year, something in my gallbladder that they can't identify. Polyp? Sludge? Stone? Don't know, follow up in a year. Pressure under lower left rib cage constantly, and now, pain in breast and armpit. Talk about health anxiety! I'm a pessimist so you know what we do. Always worst case scenario. Upper endoscopy and colonoscopy scheduled for the 29th. Nervous about that. On state medical which keeps denying payment for the imaging scans and making me jump through hoops to get it paid for. I'm beyond scared and certain I'm doomed. I wish I could be positive.

[@probablynot1368]

Stay in touch with us through this channel, and provide updates. I went through that gallbladder pain; it was my body pushing out ‘sludge’, so a lower fat diet helped calm the overworked gall bladder.

[@twshatney]

You are a fucking savage dude. I have a chest ct coming up next week I am super nervous about. Watching your journey with such vivid reminders is scary. I’m here. I’m ok. ❤

[@rickl9253]

Noah, I wish I could tell you that I"m coping with life after my cancer experience, but unfortunately I am not handling it well. Like you, every little hurt makes me wonder if the cancer has metastasized to another part of my body. I live from lab to lab for assurance that my numbers are still good. I have decided to seek professional help with a counselor to help me handle things better than I am. My prayers continue for you. You're strong and have an amazing faith. All shall be well.

[@bignoknow]

I really appreciate your honesty. Wishing you peace of mind. This is a very difficult and surreal experience. You’re a warrior

[@harrylegthigh]

Maybe taking testerone is not such a great idea. I'm sorry for what's happening to you but your so focused on your body and appearance. I'm just wondering about that as a life choice? I'm not trying to be mean it's just my thoughts after watching your posts.

[@RashetaCannon]

He’s not taking testosterone to be vain. His levels were extremely low and I believe that caused him to have very bad mental health issues. He talked about this in previous videos.

[@aileneproutyt.v4766]

Hi, positivity is the biggest weapon for any fear. Remember no matter the outcome, it is what it is. Be positive and enjoy what you can. Make an impact on someone with positive actions. You Got This. 🙏Keep the Faith 🙏. God Bless us all!

[@bignoknow]

Amen

[@stefaniamirri1112]

Praying over you Noah❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ make the Lord you best advisor man, give to Him your pain❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@yvonnetengen158]

Sending positive vibes ❤!

[@ElleMcCann-x8d]

It is not healthy to obsess over your cancer but make a plan. You can change that plan as you see how things develop. Get a ctDNA now. Don’t wait another minute. It will show you if and how much cancer you have active in your blood. Then it will be easier to plan your immediate future. We are here for you.

[@jimmc21]

Good seeing you! You look good.

[@AnneSmith-mu2ph]

Bless you❤️❤️❤️🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧

[@shellcshells2902]

Im going through health anxiety at the moment. Have had a deep, nagging pain in my left side for a month or so now and my PCP can't see me until the end of February. What is happening to our health care system??😢 I think I might just end up going to the ER... super expensive! Thank you for being so brave and real. You're really amazing!

[@bignoknow]

Hope you find peace of mind soon!!!

[@vdeniceeckert3494]

I lost my son 4 yrs ago to a motorcycle accident, three yrs after we found bladder cancer by accident,from a ct scan and a nuclear test for gallbladder, i actualpy wasnt afraid or concerned, i just wanted to get the treatment going, i think after losing my son i can deal with anything, i was lucky 8ts superficial and a 98 percent chance it wont spread and hopefully since my 3rd surgery was a month ago , they put chemo in the bladder for the 1st time , will find out in the s0ring if the chemo worked. Praying for you to have a great outcome too

[@bignoknow]

Praying for you too.

[@definit1on119]

Been praying for you brother. Thanks for sharing your story and hold the line!

[@farmgirlrebel1333]

Man, I can relate to medical anxiety. Last year they said my liver was loaded with cancer, they didn't know the origins. Turns out they were wrong, it was abscesses and sepsis. I spent 4 weeks with this death sentence diagnosis hanging over my head...and the sepsis almost killed me anyway, lol. So, here I am, a year later...still having anxiety. I'm having symptoms again and I keep thinking...is it the same thing? Did they miss cancer (my family dies from cancer young)? It's nerve wracking...so I get what you are going through. I actually find channels like yours help me make sense of my feelings and I find a weird comfort knowing other people have similar issues...so look at how much YOU are helping others by documenting your experience.

[@rachelbarr6959]

We all have those thoughts even ones that haven’t had to go through a Cancer treatment. I personally hated when people would see me and know my diagnosis and treat me like I was gonna die that day. I was always a joker, always smiling always happy to my coworkers and friends. But once they heard the word Cancer I was treated differently. One day I had had enough. I said to my coworkers, you know Cancer isn’t always a death sentence. If I do pass from Cancer I’m not dead today. So please remember today I laugh , I’m alive, I still love food, I still love laughter, I still love my family and friends. So please stop treating me like I’m The Walking Dead. I’ve always accepted that. I’m on this journey on earth for as long as God wants me to be. Whether I have cancer or no cancer it’s the same thing I could be hit by a bus crossing the street today or I could have a beautiful lovely day too. I guess what I’m trying to say is Cancer was my diagnosis? I was not Cancer. I have several friends who have survived stage four cancers everything ranging from colon cancer to breast Cancer. And they’re still living their best life 12 , 25 , years and more after Cancer treatments. My advice is to live your best life. What will be will be. Don’t waste your precious energy on negativity. Every day I wake up and say I’m not dead today let’s go. I will say work family and friends kept me going. The sooner I got back to my normal routine the more I felt like myself. You’ve got this Noah. Embrace the people were treating you and want to help you. Sending much love and positivity and healing your way. Hugs to you.

[@JeffryDegrande]

When you're given a 10% chance to be alive 5 years from now, you surely will be 100% alive today.

[@rachelbarr6959]

@ don’t let the diagnosis get in your head. You’re not astatistic you’re a human being. There are so many options in so many treatments. They have a friend who had stage four leukemia from Agent Orange he lived a full life for over 30 years due to stem cell treatment,. As the commercial says I don’t see an expiration tag on you. Good luck in your journey. Live every day to the fullest that you can. And find love and laughter each day Sending you love and light.

[@sprout1234ffs]

sending you love and good wish's that all ican do x

[@noahsathletics]

You don’t know me and I don’t know you but I feel I know you, you know. Head up, we are praying for you.

[@skittles9970]

I'm stage IV. I'm not as stressed about the cancer as I am about my finances as a result of the cancer. I wish I knew enough people who would donate to a gofundme because I have actually had to stop chemo until I can figure out what to do. I just got laid off from my job, and i just don't know who will hire me while going through chemo. I feel like giving up at this point. I have been dealing with this for 2 years now, and I have shed very few tears about the diagnosis until the financial strain of it hit. I have been a very happy go lucky person until just the last three months or so.

[@privard89]

I had cancer. I quit my job and started working under the table and got Medicare so my care was free. I met a lot of great people along the way and still continue working for a few of them. I'm cancer free now.

[@discospiders]

Can you get Medicare?

[@SusanDavis-mt3qe]

I know what you are going through. I have been in this cancer journey for 13 years😢-Stage 4 too and the financial burden is getting to me too! I don’t know why some go fund me’s get support and others do not. I do have one thing that may help you-apply as soon as you can for Social Security Disability! Being a Stage 4 cancer patient you may get it pretty quickly. It would at least give you some income. Also apply for food stamps (SNAP) having no income will help in getting those. If you get them that will help leave some money for other things. Most hospitals have financial programs for people with little to no income-talk to a social worker and see what is out there. You’re oncology treatment center maybe able to see if your chemo comes under one of a drug company’s assistance program-they do have them for certain medications. If you don’t have health insurance apply for the Affordable healthcare act and see if you qualify! Many towns and cities have a general assistance office, where you might qualify for some assistance! 211 is also a wealth of information. What I learned is take it one day at a time-I hope you can get some help and advice from some of these programs! I am routing for you!🧡

[@JeffryDegrande]

​@@SusanDavis-mt3qe This is wonderful advice!! I'm stage IV NSCLC all the way over here in Brazil and I don't have to fight the system nearly as hard as I see many, many Americans struggling with. It's truly appalling to me and it makes me wonder how much it plays into the poor prognosis statistics we see.