My Independence is a Problem // Living in my Car (story 12)

I am officially living on the road in my car, more specifically my unconverted bus. I am pointed in the direction of Colorado, where I will build out my skoolie with the help of a friend. Immediately I run into a mechanical problem. The highs and lows of this wild life offer me perspective into an are of myself in which I need to heal and grow: my independence. Rather, my hyper-independence. As much as I don't want to admit it, my hyper independence is a defense mechanism, a trauma response. So as I drive further into the unknown ahead, I take the time to reflect on this and make an unexpected pit stop to visit the person I trust the most.
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Lyss
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[@jimross7648]

I find that your way of looking at things is unique. You experience life fully. Your videos are uniformly well put together and I've enjoyed your journey up to now. I look forward to where you and Reo take us on your future adventures.

[@REGRETLYSS1]

Jim, thank you so much for your kind words and for the super. I'm grateful to have you as part of this journey.

[@backtobaesicz3068]

@@REGRETLYSS1 I have been watching your channel ever since my now Wife & I came across it. We got married August 14th 2021 and then went on the road for our Honeymoon ending in Illinois from Norwich CT. We made a few stops in NY, NJ, PA, Ohio, Indiana and of course Illinois in 7 Days. It was a definite BEAUTIFUL and AMAZING travel experience. When we found out "the Lucky Bus" was for sale, we jumped to conclusions that this LIFE is what we want! We have a YT Channel called "the Baez Chronicle" if interested. I will indeed be making more videos and staying informative to our audience. There is so MUCH IN THIS WORLD that a 9 to 5 job cannot do. Again, REGRETLYSS we wish to meet you one day. We were so close but we take this as a hint to continue what we love most. 🌎♥️

[@lomeygoat]

Great video, you are great. I've watched many of your videos, very interesting. I have done similar but on the sea in my own boat. A large boat I'm still refurbishing and fixing things on. But after 3 years and traveling the oceans I think it's my time to take it easy now.

[@gregorybiggs2068]

Sometimes it is not healing (suggests you are damaged). Sometimes it is just growth. Life is a journey and continuous growth. Keep it up! Great job on the RV!

[@pamm5287]

I can completely relate to what you said about being independent & cutting yourself off from others for protection. Stay safe and have a blessed & wonderful weekend.❤🙏🏼

[@moose354]

Where did you dump that coolant? Coolant is highly toxic and should only be disposed of at either the hazmat section of a dump or at an auto supply store that accepts coolant for recycling.

[@REGRETLYSS1]

Really appreciate you inquiring! I spoke with the attendant at the truck entrance. They had a toxic waste dump where the coolant was properly disposed of. I couldn't do mama Earth dirty like that! Thank you for informing others in the comments.

[@moose354]

@@REGRETLYSS1 Great, I forward to following your new build.

[@imperfectadventure]

@@REGRETLYSS1 I was also wondering. Good to know that possibility is out there for me too when I finally hit the road. Kudos to Loves for having that.

[@mariossaraiva]

I really enjoy that you do van life videos without waiting for the van to be completely outfitted and 'ready'. There is a simplicity, plainness, home made video feel that is really refreshing and authentic.

[@REGRETLYSS1]

I really appreciate this Mario. I treat my videos almost like diary entries, I'm glad the 'home made video' feel comes across and is enjoyable. Hope you stick around to see the completed build.

[@BeeKay4444]

Hey Lady! New subbie here as I just found your channel. Starting from the first video! Saying hey. Happy to be here and look forward to seeing you grow throughout these chapters ahead. I will be loudly cheering you and Rio on! Rio is such a sweet girl.

[@jonlaster6805]

You're tough, pretty, smart and determined to succeed. I think you will and I am excited to watch, can't wait for 13!

[@precisiont5188]

I relate to your trauma response yet the realization that what you truly want is connection with others. I am very introverted which helps me in some ways but it's not healthy.

[@leslieservantofgod8601]

I do love the loves overnight parking video the best you are so good you make what we live with seem glamorous and it kind of is in our own way

[@maxplanck9055]

Minimalizing dependency on others is good, total isolation removes you from fun opportunities with people, balance is needed. Protect yourself from a world that may fail you with government and centralised institutions, other people can still be useful, better judgement and experience is needed here 💗👍🇬🇧 much love ❤️

[@charisma-hornum-fries]

As a late but wonderful personality Michael Brooks said, Be ruthless to institutions but kind to people.

[@hairybusiness3759]

Colorado was one of my favorite places for van life. Careful of the elevation! one minute you’re 6,000ft up next you 12,000 and you wake up nauseous and dizzy ha

[@annapacatang5079]

I love your sweet attitude and I see you maturing in wisdom and knowledge. I just hope Rio is eating healthier than you are!😂 What an amazing experience you are sharing with us. Keep on keeping on, dear Lyss 👍💗🙏🏻🌺🤗

[@KoRndog78]

You are Awesome,keep making more videos, you are very inspirational. Thanks

[@timothynaquin8899]

Love the beware of dog sign in the window

[@bonitastjulienlepauvre6489]

Love your facetious tour at the end of the video. Thanks for the entertainment! Bon Voyage!

[@saskiaisskra3240]

Oh my gosh !!!!! I live in columbus ohio and sail on erie during the summer !!!!! It looks like you and your brother explored goodale park - short north

[@drivventodrumm1]

Watching in my van conversion, while listening to the waves in San Onofre beach So Cal. Best wishes on your journey

[@freddyvaldivia2985]

Without doubt sometimes I found myself described by all those words , I'm a especial breed although very easy to get along I have my own (sometimes difficult to understand) ways to think .

[@angelaferreira5177]

I learned from you today that yes self reliance is a protection and some times keeps me away from others. Thanks for your honesty and bravery😍

[@matthewdever2118]

I think it's a balancing act; self-reliance also means you don't have to put up with people who don't honor you as you honor them. Anecdotally, the most self-reliant people I know attract the healthiest friends/partners. Irony: when you're strong enough to leave, you attract people with whom you want to stay.

[@charleswhite1014]

Little lady please get a 177 air gun. They are sold at Walmart mart, air guns aren't considered a weapon so you don't need a permit to own them. The pellets are really cheap. They aren't a joke. Never pump it more than 12 times or you could burst the air bladder, they shoot much faster than a rimfire .22 gun but don't have as much nock down. I have bought a couple and they are just under 60 bucks 250 pellets are under $3 dollers. They are great for self defense and getting small game. They will easily drop a deer if you aim for the side of the head, Or anything.

[@bagoluis]

Haha.. Loves the MTV Cribs walk through. Also love the duct tape X over the school bus sign, lol. Keep reflecting and growing. That’s what makes us better people. Always looking for ways to improve ourselves and offer the best version of ourselves to the world and others.

[@ltwig476]

Yeah, we don't see but just a bit of what is really going on with you right now. But be patient. It will get better as you slowly build your new life.

[@braneden]

The more free we seem the more reliant we are. But how smoothly our modern "thing" operates you wouldn't really realize it or maybe you would, that the guy who repairs the vehicle a person needs, but doesn't necessarily want. I've been there when my big rig breaks down in the desert. But yeah, I wouldn't date the dude either lol

[@robertkilpatrick61]

Thank you for sharing your video I really enjoy watching it. And I love your fur baby..please be careful and take care of yourself and as always your very beautiful young lady..god bless..from your friend Robert

[@momoDar1977]

So lovely 🥰🥰🥰and Good work 🥰🥰🥰🎩🎩🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@franziskaprz8581]

Love your journey! Thanks for sharing. Verry inspiring! And funny - nice bustour 😂

[@mmgoodwings3981]

SO.... you seem to like Cheerios! :) great video, thanks for bringing us along.

[@veroniquediallo6055]

Loved the Bloopers!

[@TheMrmark61]

You have the spirit if Lewis and Clark. You have the heart of a romantic. You have the look of a model. You the thoughts of a philosopher. You have the independence of a free spirit. Keep on keeping on and I’m rooting for you every step of the way. I envy you. Keep it up.

[@REGRETLYSS1]

Wow, such kind words. Thank you. I'm keeping on. 🤍

[@TheMrmark61]

@@REGRETLYSS1 I hope you put a really big water tank and bathroom in the new bus. I worry about you at the truck stops. I don’t know you but I do care about you and your well being.

[@desmondfalakei7108]

Watching these makes me want to take my dog on more road trips. So fun. Imagine some earth magnets would be of great use with all that metal. Good times.

[@OffbeatLiteracy]

Okay the tour killed me 🤣🤣

[@clairekeddieclaire7021]

Love this channel ❤️ x

[@bernie5206]

You are an inspiration💥💯 thank you for sharing 🤙

[@Johnrider1234]

I spent 3 years homeless in my car. It was not good as i had No money. That will NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN.

[@daniele.f.2963]

Oh, you are naturally pretty and have a cool sense of humor.

[@rachelmartin5947]

You were only 30 mins away from me in Ohio! Bummer!!

[@rexmobley2760]

Good Stuff ... Roll On Lyss

[@superssage]

Your fortitude outshines your beauty, just barely!

[@RobGordonTheHomeSweetHomeGroup]

Shut out to Neil Avenue, Columbus OH!

[@royranna6081]

Your dog is so cute

[@cottons5951]

Dang missed the live debut, had my time zones mixed up haha.

[@OLM46]

When are you coming to Kentucky?

[@APHATMOUSE]

This video is causing me so much unexpected introspection, lol

[@kerryweston7752]

Where did you dump the coolant? That stuff is bad for the environment.

[@alexeatonexploresamerica5511]

I spend a lot time by my self. It's hard some times. Do you ever come to FLORIDA

[@cplcabs]

Not seeing the self reliance. The first problem that happened resulted in a call to someone to fix the problem….i.e. reliance on someone

[@mariettedemarest5173]

You don't really understand the concept of "independence"

[@simonjandrell5897]

Nice Beach

[@samitolluna]

🥰👌

[@anthonyvalade2959]

Where abouts in upstate ny, I'm from there

[@bobmariano3731]

👍😘⚾️

[@Mary-tj5qx]

The problem with being self-reliant, in the extreme, is that when you need nothing from anyone else, you’ll attract people who have nothing to give. This is a great realization for you to come to at this age.

[@tahliad3439]

The fact that you've come to this huge realisation after being on the road on your own for such a short amount of time is the exact reason I want to do solo van life.

[@brendaswann7292]

Your sweet spirit brought a tear to my 67 year old eyes. God damn girl …. Live your life as you see fit, I am in awe. You sound grounded, and self aware. I’ll be watching your growth, and living vicariously. Safe journeys to you both.. 👏🏽🙏🏼🇨🇦

[@tofferarvid6589]

The puppet masters hate to see former puppets walking or driving around without strings controlling every move.... Your independence is a problem to the ones who are not free and or the ones taking away freedom.... It is not however a problem to you be free and blossom your strength and courage just intimidates them that's all

[@tofferarvid6589]

I think your only real problem is that your too beautiful(jk).... It distracts everyone from seeing your inner beauty and I know you aren't trying to do it but we humans tend to...... "Squirrel"!! Ok now what were we talking about?

[@tofferarvid6589]

Some ppls envy comes out in hate while others express it with gratitude.... Gratitude is the attitude that I choose to use🤓🕯️

[@checkingoutgypsymike2075]

Nog to mention the other puppets who have bought into the worldly lifestyle, caught up in the smith and jones mindset were sold a bill of goods on everywhere we turn. Marketing the system of the beast isn't just in commercials, turn on the idiot tube, radio or watch a movie and were programmed to buy into the system. Those still working on the company farm, shopping at the company store and seeing the company doctor don't like to see others living a loving, peaceful and more free life. We haven't had freedom since settlers have crossed the country in Conestoga wagons. True freedom ended with the certificate of birth, social security number, and certificate of death was introduced. You can tell who most of the people are that are sick of they way life has become. They are either living off grid roaming, or watching the videos of those who are wishing they could do the same lol. Great comment, just thought I'd add the ones you didn't mention. God bless!!

[@tofferarvid6589]

@@checkingoutgypsymike2075 AMEN 🙏 as if a name or number could ever represent who we truly are.... Agreed that's why ppl making videos should wait months before posting so the ones trying to stop freedom won't know where they are 🥺

[@wandarios1711]

I’m so enjoying your journey! Can’t wait to see more! BLESSINGS! Wanda Rios

[@briandavis9975]

You go girl safe travels and continue to stop and enjoy the moments.

[@lindapurvis5402]

Thanks for sharing! I will begin my van life 1 September and will now be more comfortable not having it completed. Stay safe

[@daniele.f.2963]

Dan from Liberty, NC - I hope you will find a godly man who will help you find a balance and love your uniqueness.

[@joshuapereira3787]

GOOD MORNING BEAST ALYSSA KZbin VIDEO CANADA ONTARIO MISSISSAUG 🇨🇦🇨🇦🌱🌱🍃🍀🍀🐕

[@aaliyahentertainment8395]

Hello my name is Aaliyah and I have had a rough life. I work everyday and pay bills and tired of the same shit everyday. I been depressed for many years and just recently went through a terrible break up, over time I started watching your videos and love how you create your videos and it helps me a lot when I’m down. My plan is to copy you and start my healing process and finally get to travel and experience new things.

[@LOTStreets]

Let's not start assuming folks.. pretty sure she's level headed and certainly not her first time running in to some issues. Let's wait and see for sure before we decide what really happened.. 😁💚💛🤠☮️

[@charisma-hornum-fries]

I think the previous 11 episodes is telling of what hardships went before the valve incident.

[@LOTStreets]

@@charisma-hornum-fries regardless the previous episodes, every situation is different and assuming isnever the right answer for any situations.

[@CrixJoki]

Loved your Welcome to my crib part ;) You certainly made me smile, and I needed that today! 💜 I hope this won´t sound mean or condescending, cos it´s meant as an compliment (I find it hard sometimes to find the right words to express what I´m thinking, downside of being Autistic) it seems like an old, wise soul is emerging from within you, figuring out what´s been missing in your life and acknowledge where it comes from and why, like REALLY seeing it, and you are taking control and making brave changes for the better 💜 change is hard, especially when you have to dig deep within and acknowledge behaviors that´s hindering you from being the best, happiest version of yourself, but it´s also necessary to be able to grow into the person you want to be, to live the life you want to live and reach the goals of your dreams. It makes me so happy to see when someone is living their life fully in their own way, being brave enough to choose their own path, just like you are doing :) wise beyond your years. I am so grateful that you´re letting us following along on your beautiful journey 💜 and as always, I wish you all the best in life, relationships, experiences, most of all, joy and true happiness :) whatever that may be for you! I am sorry to bring this up, and I might be overstepping, but I just have to say, from the small amount of time since you and Dan decided to take different paths, you have grown tremendously :) 💜 (sorry bout the long comment, just my way of letting you know that I see you, and even though I don´t really know you, I care) Stay safe, see yah on insta ;)

[@LetsPlayRideandSeek]

finally got wifi and we are catching up. you are beautiful juxtapostish (however you spell that) the blooper tour lol...we are definitely on the same wave length. see ya soon biiiiiii

[@eloisety1392]

There's something so calming and reassuring in watching your videos... I've watched you before with you know who.. but, I never subscribed. Now, I'm in love with your content.. your independence and your transparency. Thank you for sharing it with us and empowering women. God bless you🙏❤️

[@robdajuiceman1328]

Coming from a guy who kinda lives off of cold soups, don't waste your time with the bowl. You can just eat straight out of the can. 😆

[@olbird7647]

I was actually impressed with the bowl use tbh....felt a bit fancy 😂

[@Shan-ShanH]

Better start eating healthier or you will be sorry.

[@kencornwell]

Did you check your tire pressure?

[@jackies1597]

I can’t wait to watch you build your new skoolie. I wish you had some covers on your windows at night (I am 65 and worried for you😂😂).

[@neomatrix6160]

This one really spoke to my soul. Thank you. You’re really evoking something wonderful with these “diaries.”

[@gplourdes]

Enjoyed the "bloopers". I smiled through the whole thing. You're such a pleasant gal. P.S. Ever thought of becoming an author? A book about your adventures and the life/travel lessons along the way. Your way with words/story-telling will surely keep the reader engaged. P.S.S. Hugs for Rio.

[@josephdappa1340]

Regretlyss/Elizabeth: why is your independence a problem? You must know nobody has all the answers! Only God is omniscience, all knowing Father in heaven for whom ❤! I love you very much. jtsdrd, USA

[@jblanche747474]

really enjoyed it....thanks for that...did learned much which is great...best!!..your transportation turned in something really nice...take care

[@Johnrider1234]

How about being independent on a homestead. On a dead end road. 15 min. Half hour. And one hour from three towns. How about. Cats. Dogs. Cows 2. 84 acres. 10 acres of organic gardens. A world wide economic depression is very close. We planted 200 fruit trees. So much to learn and do. And grow. Build your own. New house. Simple. Practical and beautiful. Look up. Wild wonderful off grid. They do a great job\. My son. Adores you. Free health care too. Good solid income. Nice equipment. Nice vehicles. God bless you. His name is Matthew

[@goober9983]

No great footage from Illinois or Missouri ? not much to see except corn fields and bean fields😂😂

[@kasperthee]

Om late to the party but… what the?! Haribo vingummi. Where did you get that? 🤩 Perfect candy. Have you ever tasted danish lakrids?

[@ericwarner4402]

Completely understand being overly independent. I've struggled with that for years myself. Self awareness and trusting the unknown is the only way to overcome this I believe. But, on a more exciting note. Upstate NY!?! I have family there too! You made me miss it. I've been in Bali Indonesia for nearly 6 years, so seeing a small piece of home made me ever so slightly homesick. Love your videos and the music choices. 🎶 👌 I've been bouncing around your channel and I hope you love your new home in Colorado. 🙂

[@Captain_Kendo]

First video I’m seeing of yours thanks to @Chuck Cassidy and I love it! You’re hilarious! That crib tour lmao ❤️.. On a real note tho personal I like this conversion better than Charlie’s conversion on your bus! Haha shots fired at Charlie 😂 Damn I wish I knew how to tag someone on KZbin hopefully he sees this or you tag him haha.. but all seriousness everyone needs to see that conversion he did on your rig 😍😍

[@debbieselfridge9103]

I want to thank you for sharing your journey with us I'm truly enjoying watching you 2 together iam very happy I found your channle thank 😊 you Debbie from the mountains ⛰ of New Hampshire

[@DarrenCorman]

You drove right through my town. lol I live just on the other side of the Ohio Arch. : )

[@DeborahLong7777]

Too funny blooper ending, surely you will have an awesome new home and I totally GET IT 😂😂😂🙏

[@francoisgauvin9240]

Hi Lyss, I saw that you're watching the tv reality ''Alone''...it's the only tv reality i've been watching too since the first season and i really enjoying it. It's such a great tv show. You and Chad from living the van life inspired me to get into this kind of living when i will stop working in 7 years from now. Love your Channel and keep on riding in beautiful places in North America.

[@joellynparks7805]

Now I want a waffle 🧇

[@alexeatonexploresamerica5511]

Did you bern holes in your pants when grinding. I have ruened clothes doing that

[@jamesradcliffe3985]

I tell myself that I just want to be free and independent, self-reliant, etc. But I suspect the truth is I cannot stand the inanity of the vast majority of humanity. It seems I have been striving for solitude and aloneness for 30 years and with my van under construction it appears I am close to finally making the break from the last 3 people I associate with (mother, sister, daughter). Will 2 cats supply all my required companionship? I am going to find out.

[@EliteAztec]

Hey. I might have missed quite a few of your videos! You’re in a different bus! I’ll go back to watch them. Stay safe!

[@leslieservantofgod8601]

I gave this link to my sister and I said she should watch this it's really good there's more than what you think I love your philosophy peace be with you and may the abundance be poured out on you press down filled up to overflowing

[@PCBackUp-iu9zy]

You are amazing and you are very strong woman I am proud of you give Rio steak you make smile thank you I have schizophrenia it very hard I am proud of your are very beautiful thank you I wish you happiness I love Rio he is very beautiful dog I wish I could travel with you everyone loves you I love you peace it's just a dream I am a loser I wish you prosperity and tranquility I love Rio you are my hero thank you are are a inspiration to me you are very smart I love your personality keep up the awesome job. 🌹

[@alanwondergem2105]

I just found your website again. I don't think I subscribed last time. I did now. You seem to have your stuff together. An you seem to have a good sense of humor. Plus I can understand what you are saying. I'm 75 ( soon to be 76). I'm a single old guy that likes to watch you tube.

[@blessedmimi3339]

there is only ONE who can be fully trusted... and that would be Jesus... have a relationship with Him, and all the others will fade in comparison sweet girl... be safe

[@geezer4962]

I've learned a lot from watching yours and other people in this life style and I am speechless, I am without speech. I've even started looking at truck campers, but, reality set in. And I sincerely hope this doesn't happen but the democrats are proposing plans to put a tax on vehicles for every mile that you drive. This would be part of the plan to pay for the massive " for the peoples" bill that they want to put through. Talk about ruining lives, and the thing is, the poorest people do the most driving.

[@Iamtherodlight1453.]

Wow Uur amazing. Could not stop watching. Good luck in everything you set your heart to.

[@jamesmann4501]

Loved this one and your openness about self reliance as a protection mechanism. I'm reading a book you might enjoy called Love Sense. It's all about the importance of connection.

[@thedaddechannel]

Girl, you're better than Sex In The City. Your intelligence, common sense, lone wolf, says a lot. That says a lot about you. I bet the same thing has happened to a lot of us. That's how we know you.

[@user-cw7fq1pf9h]

Nice video, and you are a beautiful person . I’m thinking you will have plenty of offers on relationships but knowing the right one for you will probably be difficult. Like you can’t see the forest for the all the trees or however that saying goes. Take care luv, safe travels to you.

[@KoRndog78]

Dude!! The Bus Tour was the best, I couldn't stop laughing. "Not sponsored" lol

[@Tryingtohelpnow]

I just found your channel. I don’t know your story, but I relate to the few videos I have watched. Thank you for the openness and vulnerability

[@rickcleveland5326]

Im a little late to the game here. I ran across you a week or two ago. Your way of looking at life has really given me insight that ive needed to look at life differently. Ive been given a chance to start over, due to a worl related injury. I have had no idea what to do or where to go...any why do anything at all...and its made me miserable. Time to change that! Thank you!! PS, we were neighbors or close (25 miles as the crow flies) when you were parked on the pier. Best of luck!

[@jortalportal2834]

This video is very instructive for all who travel solo. Alyssa is brilliant - but being "independent" is far overrated. We are not built to be completely independent.

[@adventureawaits5003]

It's going to be awesome to look back at this when you've finished building it out. Nice upload definitely appreciate the honesty in your video. 👍

[@REGRETLYSS1]

Really appreciate all your comments. Glad you're here :)

[@adventureawaits5003]

@@REGRETLYSS1 Glad I found your channel it's awesome seeing someone follow there dreams the way your doing and sharing so honest through it all. Your videos have made me contemplate and rethink different subjects that you share during your growth and journey. Thanks for the response. Safe travels hope all is well with bus 2.0 🤙

[@larryguy7160]

I guess we all have to some day ' find the way ' not as much on the road but, what's in all of us and our own journey thru life....what make us different and separates us from all the rest.....Safe travels and good luck on the rebuild...

[@danielvanmourik]

beuatiful bus video from you. wish you so much luck and hope everting comes good whit you and your dog and the bus. keep going and stay safe whit your health