My Journey of Acceptance | Dissociative Identity Disorder

My Journey of Acceptance | Dissociative Identity Disorder | DID/OSDD and Faith

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Hello! we are finally back!
This video is a heavy hitter as Sarah talks through her journey of learning about her DID. There are a lot of pause breaks and the volume decreases towards the end as she discusses the things she is currently processing.
Please be patient and God Bless!
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@BeepBopUserName Ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing. I'm not religious, but your faith and strength are very inspirational! I watched this when it first came out, and I've been thinking about it ever since. My heart goes out to you! If you haven't already, please look up some resources in your area to see if there are any organizations that can help you escape the abuse. Best wishes for peace and safety ❤

@KatieT97 2 ай бұрын

Hi Sarah, and others of the Rose System. I just want to say that your continued faith in God is inspiring. I was convicted and moved to tears to hear you continue to praise him after all you've been through. I have anxiety and trauma surrounding my childhood church so I confess my current relationship with God, though I'm still a Christian, is still not one that's trusting enough to hand over the wheel of my life as much as I should. But your testimony is powerful and again inspiring that you always praise God. From your Sister in Christ, may He always show you His boundless Mercy and Grace.

@TheRoseSystem 2 ай бұрын

Hi! Thank you so much! Church can be a very hard thing and praising God can be difficult too. We have found that recording 1-3 things a day to be grateful for has helped us keep our eyes on the small things he provides. From there, it gets easier to see the big things too We will be praying for you, dear sister

@Lissyhead2 2 ай бұрын

First of all, we're so sorry for what you had to go through. What a fascinating and important video to have out here. You definitely gave us a lot to think about in our own, ongoing, journey with dissociative disorders. Thank you for that.

@TheRoseSystem 2 ай бұрын

Thank you so much!

@leisha4917 2 ай бұрын

Wow... I have so many things I want to say, but need to run to lifegroup. I will watch again later and share more then. In the meantime, thanks so much for your updated story, it helps me with mine 💕

@leisha4917 2 ай бұрын

Sooo, this feels similar to my journey of acceptance, which I've had to walk more of in the last month. I think I may have commented on one of your videos a year or so ago saying that I'd integrated/fully fused, but that's ended up not being the case. I too didn't know about my others(alters) for many years, and my mental health seriously deteriorated in 2018 but it wasn't until 2022 that I found out about four of them and found it hard but they were it. By the end of the year I had an experience which I thought was full integration! Then in 2023, I met a few more, and this year I've met still more. The more I've met, the more my story of my past has been ripped apart with new information. In the last month, one came out who said she was there at the original split and I wasn't all there was nor the "primary one", which was super hard to accept. I loved the thought that everyone could just merge into me... but that's not the case. I'm aware of approx 15 now, although a few have merged/integrated over time so don't have all 15 here at present. It's been so hard for me to process all of it and to accept that my journey isn't over. I can relate a little to the amnesia thing too, as I used to think I remembered everything but others proved I didn't. They get to choose what I remember and when. Overall, knowing how hard it's been for me to accept a system which is still relatively small, I can only imagine how hard it's been for you. But it's been encouraging hearing your updated story of the process, and realising that the different stages of mine are not unique to me. So, thank you again for sharing. It really does make me feel less alone and not crazy. I love you sharing how you hold onto God. I've struggled with where He is and has been in my life, especially since there were Christian people involved in what happened to me. It's only been in the last month that I realised maybe God has been faithful to me through giving me DID (or something like it, I don't have an official diagnosis atm) so that I survived and have some level of function now. I would have liked Him to intervene and stop what happened, or get me out of it, but DID is still something. I could have got into worse situations or not be here anymore if I was just one, so He is faithful in helping me cope with/by it. I've been comforted lately by the verse from Ecclesiastes that says "God has made everything beautiful in its time". Sometimes I've really doubted something good is coming due to more others and more memories surfacing, and therefore causing more difficult days of lower function for me. But I realised that verse talks about time. Clearly there is a time coming when I and my story will be made beautiful. I hope and pray you all will see this in time too. That one day we can look back and see the good. I'm so sorry for you all... the high alter count and polyfragmentation sounds unbelievably hard. You're doing amazingly well to be able to talk about it and focus on God and love. But the hard days are totally understandable and okay too. I really pray that you get all the support you need to keep moving forward. And I pray that someone (your therapist, friends, or one of your inner team) can help make the current trauma stop. That you break free from it. I'm so upset that whatever it is is still going on and that's totally not okay. I'm not always up for watching all your videos, depending on what I'm going through myself at the time, but I think of you all and watch and pray when I can. I'm so glad you're still here. The world is better for you all being in it. Much love xxxx And definitely feel free to chat with me.

@LiEnby 2 ай бұрын

gods having alters essentially cease to exist is always so sad, i struggle with like how do you even name such a person, if you never had a chance to meet them and dont know what their like and cant ask them if they'd like it or not. :(

@xxwintercookiestudiosxx3408 Ай бұрын

Hallo dear, Gosh, I'm not sure where to start. I can't imagine what you've gone through, heck, I don't think I'll ever fully understand what you've gone through, because I've never gone through it. A couple years ago I discovered a channel with a person that has DID, I was about 14-15 at the time, at first I was completely fascinated, I'd always had an interest in anything related to psychology. But I wanted to learn more about it not only because it was interesting, but because I had the hope that if I ever encountered a person with DID, I could have proper compassion towards them. But as a young Christian it shook me up quite a bit. I started questioning why God would allow something like that, how does it make sense regarding what we know about our soul and spirit, is it demonic, and so on. The person on that channel wasn't Christian, so I couldn't get my questions answered at the time. It was too jarring for me and I left it for a couple years. This is until this year. In my Psychology class I got the opportunity to work on a group presentation. And what was it about? Dissociative Identity Disorder. I was the one with the most knowledge in the group, and I found myself explaining what I understood to the others. I'd forgotten about my seemingly-random research adventure from long ago, but in that moment it came rushing back. This was a couple months ago. Today, for some reason, that old channel I'd discovered years ago had popped up again, and I started watching her videos again. And the questions came back too. But this time I wasn't scared, I finally decided to answer my big question: is there Christians out there who deal with DID in their lives? So, with really low expectations, I typed in "Christian with Dissociative Identity Disorder", and you were the first to pop up. First of all, I was shocked that there actually was a Christian with DID, and then I kicked myself for not typing the simple darn words into the search bar sooner. I watched your video "A Christian's Perspective", and I was ecstatic. I now knew that DID isn't demonic, it's a genuine coping mechanism demonstrating the miracle of the brain, showing how truly complex God's design is. Then, with fingers crossed, I clicked onto your channel, hoping to find that you were still posting. And then I watched this video. Love, my heart breaks for you. I'm just some random, silly 17-year-old, and I reckon I can't do much, But I just wanted to firstly say I'll be praying for you, all of you, every chance I get. But also, thank you... You, my dear Sister, are one of the greatest testimonies I've heard. And no, you didn't talk about your whole Christian testimony specifically in this video, but goodness me, the way you are still praising God in the end and holding on to Him, I would be insane to deny the light that is pouring from you. This has seriously strengthened my own faith, even if I don't have DID. I'll be thinking about this for a long time to come. Your beautiful faith that still remains in the face of such hardship, you are a beacon of hope, even though you may not feel like it. I genuinely wish with all my heart that I could give you a hug, that I could support you, but for now, all I can offer is a few words and lots of prayer, and I really hope it helps. Don't give up, precious Child Of God, you are a Masterpiece 💖🕊👑

@TheRoseSystem 25 күн бұрын

Thank you so much! Please continue to pray for us. We are praying that God will guide you down his paths for you. Who knows? Maybe you will become a psychologist who can help systems and be God's light for them

@xxwintercookiestudiosxx3408 25 күн бұрын

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