My LAST Full-Blown Manic Episode | Bipolar 1 | Psychosis | Risky Behavior

This is the story of my last full-blown manic episode. It could have been even worse.
Lack of sleep led to psychosis (hallucinations) in this final big episode before getting on medication.
Pairs well with the story of my first full-blown manic episode: • My FIRST Full-Blown Ma... 
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[@rogerbarrett1979]

I find this to be an important channel for me because I've struggled with bipolar disorder for 24 years. I have my ups and downs. Initially I was ashamed of my bipolar disorder because I thought having a mental illness meant I was less of a person. But over time I learned to accept myself the way I was and I learned to cope one day at a time. And I look forward to seeing more of your interesting videos. I really need them.

[@ourbipolar]

Sounds like we've dealt with this disorder for about the same amount of time. I too was ashamed for many years. Thank you for being here and commenting! Find me under the same name (@ourbipolar) on IG. There's a wonderful bipolar community there. I hope to have a new video out soon. 🤍

[@VestalNumbre]

​@@ourbipolari have a question can they do a scientific documentary and on hypomania and mania to satisfy my curiosity?

[@ourbipolar]

I’m sure it’s been done. Search KZbin and I bet you’ll find it.

[@VestalNumbre]

@@ourbipolar send me a link on the subject I don't see many documentaries explaining it

[@rogerbarrett1979]

@@ourbipolar Of course I will!

[@knivezzzz9421]

God bless that taxi driver who knows where you would of went! This is sooo scary. May gods angels continue to watch over you

[@mentalhealthwithalana]

Thank you so much for being open!! I have bipolar and find it hard to find and connect with others who experience similar mental health issues, specifically relating to bipolar 😃

[@JustWanderingBy]

“Because I was manic, that’s why.” I just had to laugh. Thanks for the video, i just found your channel and am binge watching. I’ve never had a full-blown episode (I tend to get more hypomanic) but I had a mom who sure had them.

[@ourbipolar]

😂😂😂

[@austinholak]

Thank you so much for sharing. I went through the same level of a manic episode 3-4 times now. Hospitalized each time. First one was the worst since I had no medicine in my system. I lashed out on my family also. Thank you so much.

[@ercarrig]

This feels like a regular Tuesday for me.

[@vannyaceviz-delgado6625]

Literally

[@jaxxenriquez9542]

Thank you for sharing! I had my first episode this past January and just have been trying to learn all about it. It was embarrassing and it completely changed my life. I’m still working on learning how to navigate through this diagnoses.

[@ourbipolar]

Gosh I know exactly how you feel. It’s hard to get up to speed on what to do to avoid mania and depression as much as possible. I recommend the book Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder by Julie Fast. It helps those of us with bipolar to pinpoint triggers. Also, there is an amazing bipolar community on Instagram. I’m on there under the same name as here, ourbipolar. 💚

[@jaxxenriquez9542]

@@ourbipolar I’ll follow you, thank you for all the help & guidance!! 🙏🏽

[@namebrandkids2558]

My mom is so hard to deal with I'm trying to figure out if she is borderline pd or bipolar. It's so tough to watch the untreated mental illness cause my mom to push all her friends and family away, and I'm always the only one left for her to lean on. Im 31 yrs old now with a family and had to move 2 hrs away just to find peace, but even just going to visit my mom is EXHAUSTING and very hard on my hubby and kids. They don't even want to go over there anymore but I feel like I can't just cut her out 100% because she is my mom and i love her, I just can't stand anything about her anymore and its so heartbreaking 💔

[@ourbipolar]

This sounds really hard. It’s even possible to have both BPD and bipolar. Will your mom see a psychiatrist? Please take care of yourself above all else, whatever that looks like, in terms of your relationship with your mom. ❤️

[@vannyaceviz-delgado6625]

Coming off a manic episode and stimulants luckily I only hooked up with like only 2 guys yesterday now I’m watching videos to try to come to terms with this rollercoaster because I know what’s gonna come next. My birthday is coming up and I don’t wanna spend it in depression

[@ourbipolar]

Happy birthday! Hoping you avoid depression. 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

[@jamielauro2623]

I’m manic right now ahhhhhhhhh just cant sleep 💤 I feel great tho … I am sooo euphoric racing thoughts 💭 you were fearless when you were manic

[@ourbipolar]

Have you talked to your dr? Maybe something can help you sleep. 🤞🏼

[@HabibeBoyraz-hg2nk]

Melatonin helps more or less

[@IDLExHANDS]

I'm pretty sure I just had a manic episode. I was tired and laying in my room seeing ghosts or something. And them I kept having the thought that someone is trying to break into my car all night long. I've also had the feeling that the government is following me when I leave my house, and that the government is directing planes to bank towards the airport over my house, because they know I hate planes. I had a job for a month and I thought government agencies were after me because of my political views. I also thought someone was poisoning my coffee for about 2 or 3 weeks. I literally left one day because I thought I was going to get arrested. For what, I'm not sure? I honestly don't know what's wrong with me but it feels like I'm going crazy, and my doctors aren't giving me any kind of diagnosis. I honestly hope it's bipolar at this point and not schizophrenia or something else like that. It's been really hard on my family and I'm not sure what to do.

[@ourbipolar]

Sending love. Maybe it would be good to get a second opinion if you don’t feel your doctor is helping. Good luck and take care. 🤍

[@toddm6999]

Bless you for sharing..my daughter just got diagnosed .

[@ourbipolar]

You’re welcome. Sending love. Here are a couple book recs by Julie Fast if you’re interested: Loving Someone with Bipolar Disorder and Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder. Take Charge is geared toward someone with bipolar but also useful for loved ones. ❤️

[@Numerial0.0]

I don't know if I have bipolar disorder. For 3-5 days I'm alert and can keep to a schedule and can study art subjects like value, drawing, etc but afterwards for 2-2.5 weeks I just mope around and watch youtube videos the majority of the day with hardly any care. I think it's as if art is too much and I need those 2-2.5 weeks to recover but I don't know if I'm just being lazy or if I do have a problem I also see things in the dark. When I look at my phone screen at night without it being on (just the screen in the dark) I see small white dots in motion that reminds me of a circus and a theme park combined. The dots dance around in unison with things appearing and disappearing in a way like a merry-go around turning a corner because the ride is circular except the merry go around is floating and that's just one thing out of a whole clusterfuck of images. I don't do drugs I'm sorry you have these issues and I hope you live a calm life when you can

[@ourbipolar]

I would say it can’t hurt to get checked out by a psychiatrist, especially if these things are causing your life to be disrupted.

[@TheSofiv]

White dots in the dark it’s energy , your third eye is opening

[@Syncere20]

Thank you for the video

[@anjachan]

I have respect for you telling this story. I can´t imagine going thru this. Im interested in this topic because I feel so bad for Britney Spears. She seems to be in a manic episode currently ... I don´t understand why nobody is questing her insta posts ...

[@ourbipolar]

I’m concerned about Britney too. I have seen people in the bipolar community on IG questioning her posts. She seems to be in denial, or at least her public message is that she doesn’t have mental health issues. It’s terribly sad. I hope she gets the help she needs.

[@anjachan]

@@ourbipolar good to know you noticed it too. Take care of yourself too 😁

[@stephanieann622]

I have been having “episodes” pretty consistently every 3 or 4 weeks. I don’t remember probably 90% of what occurs during them. I do, however remember passing out during some of them. My son taped one of them and I am extremely manic and not like I normally am. I’m even mean and angry, which is not at all normal. I’m so afraid because I am on my own and worried about being assaulted, kidnapped, etc. if anyone has any ideas or advice it may be lifesaving for me. I’m working with my regular doctor but I can’t get into a psychiatric doctor for months. Any help would be so greatly appreciated, thank you in advance.

[@HectorGarciaPrado]

Hello thanks for sharing! You mentioned you haven't had another manic episode in the last 14 years? Wow that's impressive! You have never stopped using lithium?

[@ourbipolar]

Yes, I haven’t had a full-on manic episode for 14 years. For me lithium really helps. I won’t stop taking it until my body makes me. Now I have had these hypomanic/mixed episodes in that time, for sure. And depressive episodes that were torture. Bipolar still finds ways to disrupt my life. 🤪

[@HectorGarciaPrado]

@@ourbipolar thank you for taking the time to go over this with me. I'm learning how to cope with this as my gf is bipolar and it's being challenging but at the same time we've seen true love

[@nalinisehwani4601]

Please share what medication is working for you I know each person has a different cocktail but it would be great to know what is keeping you stable at the moment so please share tks

[@ourbipolar]

I personally take lithium and Seroquel. Lithium works for only one-third of people with bipolar. Not sure about Seroquel.

[@W1LDWESLEY]

I got a friend who has a 1000 thoughts which he chooses mattered not. Found some lines made mushrooms and herbals it is that you can get at the local Herb shop which helps his general mood. It's just that certain stimulus can set Him off on a rant. Right now hes just very scattered Brained on keeping things memorized and organized. Funny thing is he happens to keep me mentally organized when we're out Shopping😄

[@joshuacormett7237]

How did you make them stop? My fiance has had 3 full manic breakdowns with hallucinations and everything in the last 6 months. Something isnt working

[@ourbipolar]

The full-on mania stopped with a combination of the right meds and lifestyle changes like a regular sleep schedule. I still get hypomania and depression and when I do they both last for at least a month.

[@andrewoats]

The right meds and the right lifestyle is the only way. He needs to get good regular sleep, eat a healthy diet, and get on the right medication regime. I hope by now he has it figured out but if he doesn’t I would look for a new psychiatrist because that is no way to live.

[@radiogreenblue]

Thanks for your video! The bay behind Ocean City is not particularly gross

[@ourbipolar]

Good to know!

[@SG-zp4fz]

I don't know any about any kind of bipolar, can I ask, is it typical to see psychosis-like symptoms? Also do you notice that your behaviour is unusual compared to your past behaviours when a manic episode is happening? I clearly see how you might now be able to deal with it even if you knew, but did you know or not? I hope the question is understandable

[@ourbipolar]

Yes, psychosis (delusions, hallucinations, etc) is typical during episodes of mania and depression. If the person is having psychosis when stable, that could indicate schizoaffective disorder, which is a type of bipolar. In terms of knowing when a manic episode is happening, I've heard from people who don't know and those who do. From the beginning, I could tell that I wasn't acting like myself, even though I didn't know I had bipolar. For me the exception is when I'm in very early mania or hypomania, it can be difficult to tell if mania is starting or I'm just doing really well, am very happy, feeling good about myself, etc.

[@andrewoats]

I can always tell because my taste in music changes. When I’m down or even I tend to listen to country or Christian music. When I start listening to house music like I’m at a rave I know I’m getting manic. Thankfully my bipolar is well controlled for now so they never get too bad, it’s always a mild hypomania where I’m just happy and super productive. Comes in handy coming off a depression where I tend to neglect housework to some extent.

[@ourbipolar]

What a great tip off! I am the same that now I only get mild hypomania, but mine is dysphoric usually so not fun.

[@SaraBurbridge]

1:38 1:38

[@paulflint6254]

The only good thing I can say is that I can write books. But my life is hell. I have both Schizophrenia and Bipolar. Nice combo lol

[@ourbipolar]

I’d love to read one of your books!

[@paulflint6254]

@@ourbipolar thanks, not published yet.

[@claymac7895]

Wasn’t your brother aware of your mental condition? It seems he would have notified your dad or tried to get you help.

[@ourbipolar]

He was aware of it, but he wasn’t really around for most of my antics until my big outburst in the middle of the night. Then either he or I called my parents the next day. Not sure who, but it was probably him.

[@Alysser-er3gl]

Yes and not everyone wants to know what's going on with you so they never had good intent if they had questions then ask God damn communication is key as an adult I cannot blame me for your childish assuming anymore don't wanna know how to help or how to understand bye 😂