This is a horrible example of how you teach your kid to lie to you,to hide things from you,to stop sharing with you,and to stop feeling safe with you. Disgusting 😢
@valentinadiaz1292 ай бұрын
Litt disgusting
@user-nf3cl3qr1b2 ай бұрын
1.5k likes and no comments???
@jessicacossin62822 ай бұрын
My parents read my journals constantly, no matter where I hid them. It was horrible and I learned I couldn't trust them ever.
@peachypeach58022 ай бұрын
👀 well hot diggy I didn't think I'd get so many likes thanks 🙏 goodness gracious 😄
@TheLastEldenLord282 ай бұрын
Fuck these parents
@luisacretu95532 ай бұрын
When children are punished for their honesty, that's when they start lying
@lilywilliams-x9y2 ай бұрын
That is so trueeee 👌❤️
@WolfTrot2 ай бұрын
I remember once when I was maybe 6 or 7 I accidentally stuck my hand onto a table that was freshly painted (it was our table) and I just quietly washed my hand and left it there. An hour later, my mom asked who made a hand print onto the table. I went to her and started crying a little. She told me she wasn't mad and that next time I should just tell her. When I accidentally did it a second time, I told my mom in a joking voice that I stuck my hand onto the table again, and she had my dad beat me for "sounding sarcastic and doing it on purpose" and sent me to my room. I know it sounds like a silly little story, but it's stuck with me for years. I remember every little detail.
@SolaireKnightus2 ай бұрын
Nah this isn’t discipline, this is abuse
@d.d.c.c-mc8fv4ox5o2 ай бұрын
Okay but if you knew what she did you would say that because she killed her dads dog
@pkra56072 ай бұрын
I'm like that🤫😉🖤
@KyeskatFamily24 күн бұрын
For those who are wondering what happened, in her diary she had a poem about losing her virginity. Her father took it the wrong way because he thought she did it voluntarily. She was actually sexually assaulted and never spoke up about because she was scared or something.
@penelopeslays10 күн бұрын
That’s awful. 😞
@KyeskatFamily10 күн бұрын
@@penelopeslays I know right
@YummiiKitty10 күн бұрын
Even still if she did it consensualy that's not a reason to send someone's head spinning
@ameen272-amin10 күн бұрын
dayum...
@xixizizi69709 күн бұрын
He sounds like my father. My father would do the same thing and my mom is exactly do that. Then they would blame me. ......it's just heartbreaking. I had once told my father about a problem related to an online predator. He turned the tables and said i was having an affair and questioned my chastitiy.later when confronted he said that whatever he did was correct. I font even want to talk to him anymore.
@lun4ever2 ай бұрын
"Why don't my kids visit anymore? 😢" And the parents act like the victims
@yass5850Ай бұрын
Story of my life, so true. Always guilt tripping me like I'm wrong and demanding visit when nothing positive comes out their mouth.
@Nanano943Ай бұрын
real
@Abel-h1lАй бұрын
fr like when my dad makes me cry, I go to my room, and he comes and says "why are you crying" boi did you just not yell at me for being distracted at the living room tv like Bruh
@ivtstjbАй бұрын
thats so trur
@Catra-c2nАй бұрын
Truiuuue
@miniruby882 ай бұрын
This is why I trust no one..... I have trusted in the past only to be shit on more then once...
@catherinedavis91962 ай бұрын
I had 2 close friends who I thought never lied, after they moved away I realized they where never friends. It's an endless cycle and ppl wander why I have trust issues even if they know what happened the last time I trusted someone
@kadhijasarah74792 ай бұрын
@@catherinedavis9196same I (thought) had 2 friends but I didn’t realise how toxic they were then because they were popular and anyone would want to be in my place. They always cancelled me out for things, borrowed money and always asked me for homework answers. We weren’t talking for 2 months and that’s when I realised they were fake. They used me for money and homework answers. Ever since I knew, whenever they’d ask me for money, I’d say I didn’t bring and whenever they asked for homework answers, I’d say I didn’t do them yet. I blocked them and deleted their number on my phone so I don’t have to deal with them anymore
@phoenixofthestix2 ай бұрын
Sounds like ptsd/cptsd bud
@kerryradlein93742 ай бұрын
Fr
@SarahMoussa-xg3un2 ай бұрын
Same don’t worry you’re not alone
@ffyoung22 ай бұрын
My parents read my diary and told my school what was in it; even though it had nothing to do with them and was self harm in nature. The school sent me to the counselor and I was horribly confused until she said my parents were concerned about my diary. I got yelled at that night for ‘worrying them’ and refused to keep a diary from then on. I then hid mental illness symptoms so bad that they later turned into psychotic episodes that probably could have been helped had I received the proper care way back then.
@KaelDuskАй бұрын
I have trust issues with people I don’t like others to see my diary so I will usually write my big problems in a online one with a password
@gabriellaleander21 күн бұрын
Sorry to hear that
@ffyoung220 күн бұрын
@@gabriellaleander it’s okay, im handling things now and I manage well. Just is a big lesson of life and hopefully it helps other people.
@darrellwilliams171418 күн бұрын
Why didn't you just tell them you needed help instead? That would've made more sense.
@ffyoung218 күн бұрын
@@darrellwilliams1714 they weren’t very receptive to the idea.
@stephanieperri50122 ай бұрын
That happened to me too. My mom still throws it in my face...20 years later. I'll never forget it & I havent written anything down since.
@jabressdolath76572 ай бұрын
Same
@Gigisjay092 ай бұрын
🫂🫂🫂🫂
@zozupskystar86392 ай бұрын
Why would you keep in contact with someone who hurt you so much?
@user-ts8fq6xe9e2 ай бұрын
That's why I am always afraid to keep a diary
@misssavvyliterature59772 ай бұрын
Same, my mother used to read my diaries too and i write in english (3rd language) which she doesnt really know apart from basics, so she tells my elder sister to read and translate for her. My sister could have refused bcz my mom wont have done anything to her but the betratel i felt from the both of them God i still feel it with their actions until this day
@asihacraig42652 ай бұрын
My grandma told me to write things out when i was angry... being young, angry , misunderstood, i got into this huge argument with my mom ( it happened a lot) and i went to my room and wrote some petty vulgar stuff about how she was a cheater and how she needed to be a better mom and i through it out with the trash and got over it. 2 days later, she retrieved it from the trash and read it out in front of everyone, including my grandma and dad... At first, i thought i was grounded until my grandma and dad said she was wrong for going through the trash.
@Stephanie-sp9huАй бұрын
That's do sad tho😢
@boba_ZYToonsАй бұрын
Why was she going through the trash
@jivikakulkarni3481Ай бұрын
at least your dad and grandma were with you
@asihacraig4265Ай бұрын
@@boba_ZYToonsit's been years but my dad, brothers and I were doing yard work and my mom took trash to the can, I guess the papers were sitting on top to where she saw them. I think she thought my dad and grandma would side with her( just like I thought) When she read it out loud, but it didn't go in her favor. Privacy was not a concept in my family and even though my dad and grandma sided with me; my mom was still spitful and gave me extra chores or just verbally assaulted me till I blew up to find a reason to punish me😂
@lionessqueen6087Ай бұрын
My MIL found out I was pregnant because she dug through the OUTSIDE trash bin on the side of the road, I moved my stuff out that month and my fiance moved in with me. Not long after. Our son was born 2 months ago and we never confirmed our pregnancy and she hasn't met him yet.
@cheesecakegirl9635Ай бұрын
I told my mother that my doctors said I could be suffering from depression (after they asked me questions), and she beat me for it. She slapped my face, pulled my hair and grabbed my arm so tight it left bruises, all while screaming how stupid I was trying to act like the victim and that it was impossible for me to have depression because I was to young to understand what real pain felt like. And when I started crying, she simply said "oh, do you want a valid reason to cry?", and slapped me again.
@munchie-hl4ez23 күн бұрын
oh that is terrible
@user-ny7iq8pj1m23 күн бұрын
Every child deserves parents But not every parents deserve child I hope you are now ok ❤❤you deserve better girl I am sorry 😔 this happened
@ISTOLEYOURTOAST98723 күн бұрын
What a crazy mother!
@dramareccomendations22 күн бұрын
My mom also has mental breakdowns like these.... Ok so my mom is a health freak and doesnt allow me to eat anything like chips,fizzy drinks,fast food,smoked meat or stuff like this- AT ALL.(im 52 kg ) So once i found 4 chocolate candies she hid from us in a drawer(i was 12) and i ate them. She went ballistic Threw a bucket if water at me and started hitting me with a wet towel(we were in the kitchen)then she pulled my hair and started stiking her nails in my skin-all this infront of my lil brother. After she finished i wasnt even crying, with a straight face i started wiping the water all over the kitchen while she was still screaming at me for being an useless brat. I guess i was a bit lazy that day and that just was the last drop, she was tired and i dont blame her. But still that moment was kinda sad.
@yuanplayz117622 күн бұрын
Child abuse
@S1eepyYur12 ай бұрын
Lock broken? What's a diary for? Something the entire world is supposed to read? NO!
@user-dn5lb6yj6w2 ай бұрын
Honestly, I only have an online diary for safety with a password and a different icon so my mother won't find it
@angelaputnam72122 ай бұрын
It's not that deep bro it was broken...
@Not_Liz2 ай бұрын
@@angelaputnam7212 that persons parents broke the lock on their diary and read it, and they’re still traumatized to this day, what about that isn’t that deep?
@Ilove_beans122 ай бұрын
@@angelaputnam7212 every kid has a right to privacy that 'father' didn't even know the meaning of privacy like I know parents have the right to do that but to hurt them and even if they have the right sometimes it's not correct to do it
@arose927952 ай бұрын
The parents literally broke the lock so that they could read the diary. @@angelaputnam7212
@The_blub_blobfish2 ай бұрын
"I wOnDeR wHy My KiDs DoNt TrUsT mEeE :,(" brotha eugh
@icloudyxd22 ай бұрын
Frrr
@JqAnimateshello2 ай бұрын
Whats that brutha?
@Vixie_xx2 ай бұрын
@@JqAnimateshello brutha is a way to say brother or brotha
@Rando_Dog2 ай бұрын
@@Vixie_xxthey know what brotha means
@Vixie_xx2 ай бұрын
@@Rando_Dog opps, o was stupid
@FlagraNightwalkerАй бұрын
I once had a diary when I was younger to write out all my rage- but stopped after my adopted parents read my diary and yelled at me and lectured me about how I was a horrible person. I am adopted and was abused and neglected badly as a kid before I was put into the foster care system and one foster family almost adopted me after a year but changed their minds because they caught me playing with their hunting knives in the back yard alone when I was 9 and thought that meant I apparently was gonna try to kill their 11 year old heavily autistic son- which wasn’t the case as I was just being stupid and throwing knives at a tree to see which one was the sharpest. I never tried to hurt others or animals, as I while I am a tomboy and liked knives and fishing I never actually wanted to hurt anyone. I had just seen they left their hunting knives in the garbage and pulled them out to play with. I was heart broken because they had told me before they were gonna adopt me- and I had had my hopes up. I went into a deep depression and swore to never pick up a weapon again because of it- I felt like a monster- they made me believe I would actually hurt someone. I went to the Saint Francis Hospital for 9 days as the other foster homes wouldn’t take me- I had been in them before- Millcreek of Ponatoc, Faith Haven, Diamond Grove- all places in Mississippi at the time where I lived. They wouldn’t take me back. I felt completely worthless like no one would ever want to adopt me. But one day I was taken to the hospital lobby to meet my new family. I was obsessed with Tornadoes and weather and animals at the time. I was scared to screw up another chance at a family so I bottled up my emotions- it made me very upset deep down. I started having anger issues- though I never took it out on anyone. My new parents were hard core Christians and I wasn’t used to that life. I tried to adjust and hide who I really was- they told me it was wrong to run around barefoot and catch frogs and butterflies and I needed to act like a proper young lady. At one point there was a girl who pushed me down some stairs and I got up and punched her- she had been bullying me for months. My new mom went off saying things essentially saying it was against the gospel to do what I did. Seeing I was upset a school counselor suggested I write all my intrusive thoughts, anger, pain, any negative emotions down in a diary to get it out of my head. I started to do it, and hid the diary from my family as by that time they had officially adopted me. I also wrote other personal things like crushes and even things that made me happy- the diary became a way to vent and just get my thoughts and feelings out be it positive or negative. I enjoyed it. But one day I came home after allowing myself to get punched because my mom told me to never get into a fight or yell back at the kids bullying me because it was “wrong”. But I felt like I couldn’t defend myself. I was feeling horrible and couldn’t wait to write in my diary to get it out- but my mom and dad told me to do my homework but sounded angry and betrayed. I was confused. They waited until I finished my homework before dropping the diary on the table and began to read parts out loud in front of my younger sisters as well. I was really embarrassed and hearing my angry thoughts out loud in front of my family I felt like a monster. My mom punished me and told me if I wasn’t adopted already she would’ve sent me back. I was 14 when she found my diary. She tried to make it mandatory I keep writing in the diary- but it felt like a school project after that and I only wrote lies- claiming I was happy and satisfied with how my life was going. Things only got worse because my sisters began to shun me for being the only tomboy in the family- they were super girly- which I didn’t judge them for but for some reason they felt like they needed to team up on me. I stopped opening up to my family and being myself- I couldn’t risk it. I lived with my mom all the way up to 2019 before I got married and moved out ASAP. But now I can’t even bring myself to write in a diary ever again. It was a serious invasion of privacy by my parents and still to this day I won’t forget how horrible I felt because of them.
@Yourmom-c6c28 күн бұрын
I'm not reading all that shit
@Heartstop-6g24 күн бұрын
wow your adoptive parents were assholes! i hope they realise what they did was not christian at all! invading your kids privacy is not in the bible and you should not do it anyway!
@doggoboi702623 күн бұрын
Holy yap
@FlagraNightwalker22 күн бұрын
@@doggoboi7026 indeed. Pretty impressive huh?
@doggoboi702622 күн бұрын
@@FlagraNightwalker yeah, insanely impressive, personally I wouldn’t have the patience to yap that much
@pastelxpocket2 ай бұрын
I was around 6 when my parents gave me a journal with a lock. I kept it as my little diary for a few years, writing infrequently, but after the first time I got in trouble for the contents, I only used it to document the abuse and neglect I was dealing with. Every time I was in trouble, everything they did. I stopped writing what I thought or what I was feeling and they stopped reading it. After I moved out, I found it in some of my stuff and was destroyed reading in my little 8yo handwriting about how I was forced to stand for 16 hours straight without food, water, or bathroom breaks, or how I had to pick every weed from the yard by hand because of backtalk.
@maddyvic16Ай бұрын
I'm so sorry you had to go through this
@thuunvolar2483Ай бұрын
damn that's rough
@Cinnamon-roll-PlushlyАй бұрын
I do this to i hid it thought my mom and dad have no idea i have it they would beat my if they did find it
@dantesantini6168Ай бұрын
I'd have used it to make them feel like shit for abusing me, hope you got some closure
@user-cc2db3qb3rАй бұрын
WOMP WOMP
@crowofjudgment2 ай бұрын
My mom read my diary and my dad used to hit me too. So instead of writing words i drew. Years later i had my art in an art gallery and a psychologist saw it and handed my teacher his card asking her to pass it on to me. He was genuinely worried. To others my art looked like just that, art. To a trained eye it showed pain, emptiness, and utter break. I am now in therapy.
@cxqvette2 ай бұрын
You can do this, we all believe in you ❤
@ashleeaustin3582 ай бұрын
Same. How did you feel about your art being up for people to see? My art was taken without my knowledge and put up and that made me very uncomfortable.. my mom called me selfish for being angry about it but my art is a diary.
@Ravenavenn2 ай бұрын
@@ashleeaustin358 I can relate to this!!!
@ashleeaustin3582 ай бұрын
@@Ravenavenn kinda sad how art isn't seen as private sometimes isn't it. Lol
@faizahfaisal91852 ай бұрын
So much brave you can do it ❤❤
@alexg885228 күн бұрын
My brother gave my diary to my parents. I didn’t think it mattered much because all I did was write actual stories in it, nothing personal. But my family took it out at the dinner table and started laughing at my writing, taking turns to read sections of the notebook in dramatic voices. I asked for my notebook back but it just kept being passed. Throughout my childhood, I was very vocal about being a writer one day. Being mocked for my writing at the dinner table by the very people who are suppose to rise me up and support me hurt so badly that I stopped handing in writing assignment at school, I stopped sharing my work with friends, I stopped writing on line and eventually stopped writing all together. Now in my 30s, I can’t share anything other than emails, even with my boss. I avoid writing reports at all costs. A stupid move by my parents one time led to life long damage that I don’t know how to crawl out from.
@Ultra-hs3fb19 күн бұрын
I would recommend a therapist it may seem stupid but you never know unless you try along with that try also if you want you could start writing some stories nothing big just stories if you live alone than that is even better since no one else is going to see them
@darrellwilliams171418 күн бұрын
Maybe you just were a bad writer.. we got enough of those out there.
@Ultra-hs3fb18 күн бұрын
@@darrellwilliams1714 too soon man
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
You CAN over come this!
@haphephobia13 күн бұрын
@@darrellwilliams1714that doesnt mean they get to make fun of him u r3ta@rd
@KawaiiPockyEater2 ай бұрын
My mom stole my diary one time, and she and her then husband dragged me out of my bed at 3 am to be involuntarily locked up in a psych hospital for 3 weeks. I was around 18/19, so I legally couldn’t be locked up against my will, but they somehow accomplished that. I still resent them for it.
@tanmayta10Ай бұрын
What was in that diary
@KawaiiPockyEaterАй бұрын
@@tanmayta10 I wrote about crushes I had, funny moments with friends, things I wanted to do in college and after, and vented about the abuse I endured in that house as well as the bullying in school. I also wrote about my being SAd by a person I thought was a friend, and though I tried to keep it in code; they figured it out.
@deinemuddda1178Ай бұрын
Gay
@KawaiiPockyEaterАй бұрын
@@deinemuddda1178 Ikr?
@AliixHitoshi29 күн бұрын
@@KawaiiPockyEateroh my, I’m so sorry that happened, I hope you’re doing better ❤️
@XaveryX_122 ай бұрын
“Trust can be shattered in an instant, and the scars from betrayal last a lifetime…” Edit 1: TYSM FOR THE LIKES ❤
@Crocamong2432 ай бұрын
That is a good quote..
@sayasakjusaki97942 ай бұрын
Thats what I told my sister, she used my Trust and my Love for her. Now I am tired to get manipulated and Lied by her. She even doesn't do something to get my Trust Back. So, her loss Not Mine 😮
@aireln.afistler9032 ай бұрын
Thats sooo true
@user-fv1kr7wi6s2 ай бұрын
😢
@XaveryX_122 ай бұрын
@@sayasakjusaki9794 😢
@BabyNatie12Ай бұрын
The most disgusting part about the story is how the mother still stayed with the husband instead of divorcing him and getting her kids that help the they need, these kids needed their mother and that night it shows the kids how their mother failed them🥺
@Jessicake222 ай бұрын
On vacation with family, we were all walking one evening. I tripped and gripped my fathers shirt pocket to not fall to the floor. It ripped. All of my family laughed so i looked up at my father and gave a slight smile. He hit me so hard across my face that i blacked out and fell to the floor. Everyone was stunned. It was a simple accident, why hit me right there on the street. Ill never forget or forgave him for him. I was so little too didnt really know how to behave since i am autistic and have empty sella syndroom so i cant handle stress
@user-qj4ev2bh7jАй бұрын
I hope that you are okay now but still are u ?
@eh1702Ай бұрын
Have you considered whether your father might also be on the autistic spectrum? Is it possible your smile made him think you did it on purpose, as a prank? This is just a possibility. But of course even if he initially thought it was deliberate, other people would have made him aware of how inappropriate and unfair his response was. He should have apologised at the very least.
@UkhhjhАй бұрын
@@lebogangramafoko1096 so many things wrong with this statement 😐
@Idk_lmfaooАй бұрын
@@lebogangramafoko1096no just no,never ever forgive a toxic and a messed up person ppl say that "they can change" never! They dont change at all they just come to learn that everytime they gon do smth bad,they will get their way out of it by simply apologizing and sympathy begging.
@thatoneguy9816Ай бұрын
@@eh1702did the kid apologize?
@AnonymousePrime2 ай бұрын
Supposedly later in the story, the father apologizes because he misunderstood what he and the mother read. The girl wrote a poem about loss of virginity, it was a way to express how she was raped, but she didnt write that she was raped, the parents assumed she just lost her virginity and was bragging, which im going to get to my main point in a second, but the implications of BEATING your daughter to bleeding because she had sex is fuxking disgusting and enough to make me stick the parents in a bad retirement home in the future, but back to my point. he apologizes later on, and i would only accept the apology if he let me inflict the same injury on him. If you spill my blood, to buy my forgiveness, i must spill yours. An eye for an eye Some people may say two wrongs don't make a right, but one REALLY bad wrong is enough to make the response not wrong. Edit: 1st of all thanks for the likes ♡ 2nd, violence should never be your first answer, I agree to a point, but you can't deny the tragic act of making your child bleed is evil and violent as it is. Aggressive responses, edgy even, violent responses to violence enacted can be not the right way, but you responding with violence is not wrong. If you have awful parents like these, don't hurt them, sue for emotional damages if you can, cut them out of your life, or find less violent revenge. 3rd. Virginity is becoming a firey topic in the replies, I agree to disagree with some, but for the most part adolescent children are going to experiment and try things they shouldn't, if you want to prevent it, you *can't* can't CANNOT make a big stink out of it, but you should also take measures to prevent pregnancy and STDs if you're kids are around that age. Stop being willfully ignorant, be disappointed in your child, but do it all with them not having a kid at 16 or stds at 18. And you should never beat a child because of this, you can punish them if you feel that's the way to go, but never ever draw your child's blood in purpose. Monsters do that. Monsters hurt children, parents are meant to protect not hurt.
@iheartbigbeefymen2 ай бұрын
if they still live with each other it’s either from 17-0. you would still be a MINOR . not even a minor should have sex nor be raped.
@user-uu7ur2uk7m2 ай бұрын
Thank you
@AnonymousePrime2 ай бұрын
@corps3mu. well yeah, no one should be raped, and minors shouldn't have sex, but they're going to anyway, I'd rather know that my child is protected and safe rather than teach her to sneak around and then get preggo from unsafe sex. And that's IF this was about her having intercourse, which is not what happened.
@iheartbigbeefymen2 ай бұрын
@@AnonymousePrime true.. you have a point knowing what their doing and knowing they are honest if they get preggo.
@dolfacelondon32 ай бұрын
@@iheartbigbeefymenDoesn’t give any parent the right to beat them until they bleed. over virginity? Really?
@pietacorona2 ай бұрын
It happened to me too. Minus beating, my mom read my diary, and criticized me for liking and admiring a boy. I was a teenager at that time. I was so ashamed for that. Now, I'm 32 and feeling anxious everytime I shared my secrets. Feeling unsafe, everytime I tried to write a diary, I would tear it or fire the pages after I finished writing them, so that no one would read it.
@purpleblues167521 сағат бұрын
Do you also feel or felt shame for having crushes from then on? I feel like it’s a normal part of the human experience that also got demonised for me, so when I like someone I often feel a mix of shame, sad longing & disconnect,and disgust for myself that I could experience such a “bad” feeling
@lelamartin66782 ай бұрын
I literally stopped keeping a diary because I knew this would happen. My mother was the type who liked to snoop through everything, including text messages and emails, and I had no way of getting out of my head without her knowing about it. When I was 12, she got me a journal, and I knew something was up, but I decided to test it out. When I was 13, I would write about the ab*se I went through at school, and my mother started telling me about how, if I wasn't so pathetic, I wouldn't get beaten so badly. Worst of all, I had written about the guy who stood up for me and actually walked with me after school every day so that he and his friends could protect me. I was immediately forbidden from seeing him, which hurt since he was one of the only people who seemed to care about me back then. I still have issues trusting people, especially when it comes to my thoughts.
@dantefreeman46062 ай бұрын
Sounds like your mother has issues of her past that doesn't allow her to see you as a necessity for safety, if I were you, id call to have parental immunities from some of her demands because obviously she wants to see you suffer. That isn't a mother that is a bully. Remember the difference young lady.
@user-bc3fs1ws3t2 ай бұрын
What happened to you and your mom bro?
@sanjakoledin98032 ай бұрын
Dawg you're mom is an asshole
@n3o1ns582 ай бұрын
Why did she forbid you to see the only guy that protected you?
@manuproulx27642 ай бұрын
@@n3o1ns58 She clearly doesn't care about her child if she did that.
@SimplySimulated2 ай бұрын
This was why I never kept a diary.
@ChiliCat..2 ай бұрын
Me too
@user-jz3zx8ep7g2 ай бұрын
Yep
@Glitch_n1112 ай бұрын
I used to have one, but I ended up ripping the pages and throwing it out.. I now keep all that stuff bottled up, it's better this way
@minnymoon13602 ай бұрын
Yeah, I just don’t like writhing
@marianadobreva_2 ай бұрын
Exactly. Those thoughts are in my mind
@agirlfrommars3441Ай бұрын
My daughter’s been journaling since she was 8 I’ve never invaded her trust and I think it’s because of that, that she’ll sometimes verbally share with me things she plans to journal about. One time her and I both got very bad news and the minute we got home she plopped herself down on her bean bag I’ve never seen anyone write with that amount of emotion. It makes me glad that she can journal without fear I’ll go snooping. I journal as well :)
@purpleblues167521 сағат бұрын
I hope I’m like you when I become a parent ❤ keep at it you’re great
@agirlfrommars344117 сағат бұрын
@@purpleblues1675 that’s the sweetest KZbin comment I’ve received. Thank you 🙏 As a parent we just have to try our best, no one is perfect but we hope it prepares them and builds on the over all wellbeing of our children 💕
@fever_kam2 ай бұрын
Will never forget my stepmom finding my diary, reading it to my Dad, and them both guilt tripping 12 year old me about it. Even had my name and “DON’T READ” on the front page. Gotta love parents who have no idea how to respect their childrens’ privacy.
@wrigthtalekenavi2066Ай бұрын
and this is how you get a child that will hide everything they do from you: breaking their trust and judging them while doing it.
@IDontGotThis2 ай бұрын
Same. When I was a kid, my mother encouraged me to write a diary. A place to say everything I felt that I couldn't say aloud. I did. My mother read my diary, and "disciplined" me for what I wrote, even feeling or thinking the wrong things. From Little things like "I was mad that I wasn't allowed to play more with the dog" to things like "I feel like mama doesn't love me. I think she doesn't like me either. It makes me sad." She never tried to comfort or reassure me, just punished me for it. Then she encouraged me to keep writing a diary. I didn't, because I wasn't a fan of setting myself up for a beating. So I got puinished for NOT writing a diary too. Finally, I wrote a diary again, but it was more like a daily log. "July 1st, 2008: it was rainy today. We went to swim lesson and piano practice. Supper was Meatloaf." Every day was written like this, so finally she stopped reading, realizing she wasn't getting anything. When I was 17 years old, I wrote again, secretly, and hid the notebook in another book's cover so my mother wouldn't find it in my room. I wrote at one part th t the way Christians treat Gay people is not good. I did not say that I was bi, though I am, or even dare to write that people should be allowed to love who they love. I only wrote that Christians swearing and cursing at Gay people was not a very Christian thing to do, and it would not do what Christians wanted and make them listen either.. For some reason, my mom raided my room, went through my books, and found the notebook with the false cover, and read my entire thing. Most of it was harmless. It was just this one paragraph. Even at seventeen, my mother beat me for what I wrote in my diary. Its been almost ten years and I still can't write in a diary. Even trying makes my pulse rush and I fêlé afraid. It's dumb, because I can write comments like this, poems, even daily posts no issue, but the minute I try to make a diary entry, my heart starts racing.
@johnramirz15642 ай бұрын
Do you still talk to your mother?
@melon_the_cow2 ай бұрын
@@johnramirz1564i hope they dont
@ishikagupta73242 ай бұрын
I hope you heal from this trauma
@Wishbuggy2 ай бұрын
I hope your okay and I know you know this but not all Christians do that to the Lgbqtai+ community
@europeangardenflower98122 ай бұрын
My mother read my dairy too and confronted me with it. She didn't get angry but spilled my secrets with her family, friends and mothers from classmates. My classmates learned about it from their moms and bullied me at school. So, I never wrote down a single word and realised that everything I'd say in private would be shared with anyone. So I kept my mouth shut. Her: "Why are you so distant? You never tell me anything"
@jellyystarz2 ай бұрын
When I was younger I had severe anger issues and had bitten my sister, my grandpa hit me a bunch that day, I don't remember how many times he did I just remember his rough hands. I'd always been uncomfortable around him since that day, he cried and apologized countless times and about a year ago from today he died. And I feel so guilty for never loving him like I should have because I was so afraid.
@helgardhossain9038Ай бұрын
Don't feel guilty about your beating grandad. He wasn't worth your trust or love ... 😘
@sithilasenath2783Ай бұрын
Depends on you, you know you did something wrong and there was a very hard consequences for it he might have done it but if you said was true he might have regret it. I know the feeling cause I was a kid I had the same issue which lead to someone getting hurt really bad and my mom beat the ever living shit out of me but i didn’t hate her for it
@REXIRO_Ай бұрын
@@helgardhossain9038wtf is wrong with you
@suy3287Ай бұрын
@@helgardhossain9038 maybe he had anger issues too but anyways rip grandpa
@Nightshade2412225 күн бұрын
@@sithilasenath2783 but beating you probably didn't help though, she should've taken you to therapy or something...
@fatenizhoni-kh1xu2 ай бұрын
This is sadly relatable, and I’ve been in this place, as the step child to my abusive step dad.. and saying abusive is putting it lightly. Every day I was picked up from my first kindergarten school, my stepdad would turn, stare at me, ask me what I did wrong for today, because he said he was going to end up beating my ass by sundown. Every time he beat me, he never held back; he took his leather braided belt off, pulled my shirt up off my back, and my pants down to my ankles, and he would beat me with the buckled side exposed, and it took me years to realize where all these tiny little dotted scars on my back, sides, bum, and legs.. it was only in the last few years my mind let me remember, and I was 2 1/2 years old when it began. He’s show off to his friends how easy it was to order me around, his tiny terrified little soldier. My mind never healed. And I still can’t sleep right, and I have to get some vertebrae removed and replaced, as it’s “much more deteriorating “ than someone at 35, almost 36, like me. It’s horrifying. Sorry to spam.. If you see this, and were hurt.. it wasn’t your fault. Ever.
@jayalakshmijayatheertha542 ай бұрын
Are you ok 🥺
@shawnycoffman2 ай бұрын
😢🫂
@fatenizhoni-kh1xu2 ай бұрын
@@jayalakshmijayatheertha54 I am. I’ve made it this far! 🥲🫂😅
@fatenizhoni-kh1xu2 ай бұрын
@@shawnycoffman 🥲🫂🫂🫂😮💨
@circesercy21902 ай бұрын
What did your mother do? Was she abused or just not care?
@Hei.K.Itty.2 ай бұрын
Storytime: When I was in the psych ward I got a diary from one of my relatives. I appreciated it a lot, so I actually used it to write down everything that came to my mind while I was there. One day there arrived a new patient. I told my roommate I thought he was cute, so she told me that I should go outside with him, since he can't go alone, and that she would go out too. I was writing in my diary when she told me, so I just left it on my desk, because there was no other person in the room. When I came back inside my diary was gone. I was panicking, because my diary was very personal to me and I didn't want to be embarrassed. I told the nurses and also asked the other patients. They were all in the same room and acting really suspicious and wanted me to go away. I knew they had my diary, but I just couldn't realise that and didn't want to confront them. When it was time for lunch soon after, a nurse walked out of the kitchen with my diary and all the other patients behind her. The patients read everything and they were all so mad at me. I just went to my room and balled my eyes out.
@stefaniebraun3319Ай бұрын
That was confidential medical information. Sue them. It will teach them a very important lesson and the compensation will provide a nice little nestegg for your future.
@Hei.K.Itty.Ай бұрын
@@stefaniebraun3319 thanks but I am not from the US in my country I can't do that but thank you for answer
@Chaotic_ObserverАй бұрын
One thing i resent more than anything are parents that tattle tale to eachother and tagteam to hurt someone. I legit cant stand it. My experience is not as bad as OPs, but ive felt that level of betrayal
@DatKaylieKatАй бұрын
My grandpa tattles and tells family secrets. She told all her friends and family members about my abuse, and she keeps them updated:/
@anzeejensheed34582 ай бұрын
I feel this generation trust is at the lowest.
@melanie18252 ай бұрын
I think about this a lot. My parents were the type that would have punished me for having any emotions at all. I never wrote in a diary after my first one was read by my mother. But when I was frustrated, I'd go silently freak out in my room. Mouth some words and flail. Everyone has ring cameras all over their houses now. My parents would have absolutely punished me for letting out frustration. I feel sorry for kids today with parents like mine.
@rotinasemroteiro2 ай бұрын
With parents and other old people, absolutely, but we also have more trust in our friends to open our hearts and tell things that old generations would never share with anyone. I guess it's a win.
@Whatjusthappenedfffuck2 ай бұрын
And whose fault is it exactly ?
@icantevenpretend2 ай бұрын
We have no interest in being punching bags for our parents or society's failures. Which is a good thing because it helps us to do better.
@camillacollins56802 ай бұрын
Same happened to me, told my diary about being happy and not wanting to oof myself for once, it was really all a blur, really, food thrown at me, crying and screaming, ended up with my dad telling me to oof myself anyways and that no one will miss a quitter.
@Some_random_lesbian2 ай бұрын
That is horrible I hope you're okay don't listen to what other people say I bet you're a wonderful person I hope he regrets everything he did and said you didn't deserve that
@Only_Dego_YT2 ай бұрын
That's just disgusting... I hope you're doing alright now...
@yeshuabullock202 ай бұрын
Lots of Hugs and Love to you, that should have never happened too you 😢
@varsega2 ай бұрын
I am so sorry he did that to you... I hope he realizes/realized where he went wrong. But even if he never does, please know that you never deserved that. Please live your happiest life with or without him in it. Sending internet hugs!
@camillacollins56802 ай бұрын
@@varsega you guys are all so kind! Yes he did realize what he did was VERY wrong, he bought be a new phone because of it lol, but I don’t think forgiveness can be bought, because in the end I’m still traumatized. That won’t ever go away I don’t think. But thank you all for the support!
@SammieKCIAFFFLLTGF03032 ай бұрын
My mother gave my diary to the family members who mocked my SA. Then she allowed them to call the house and yell at me expressing how they made me feel in a book no one was supposed yo read. The last thing I expected after that horrible night was more violation from those closest to me. Took me years of therapy to cope with this trauma and even longer to open up to or even partially trust anyone. I take great solace in the fact that I am not the insect that she was.
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
They didnt want to be held accountable foe the SA. Most likely it happened to them, but they never wrote about it.
@JaneSmith-im8ij2 ай бұрын
The fact that the father beat his own daughter till blood came out of her mouth is disgusting because she wrote something in a diary. And you wonder why she doesn’t forgive you or trust you with anything, waits fuck up that relationship “dad”
@bishara30622 ай бұрын
He is not a dad he is a psycho path
@DexriderАй бұрын
She can press charges for child abuse
@Cinnamon-roll-PlushlyАй бұрын
He only hit he once but that's how you know it was hard
@unknownuse.rАй бұрын
I think it was a guy bc of the profile
@thatoneguy9816Ай бұрын
Did you listen to the story?
@Mmannk2 ай бұрын
I’ll never respect anyone who reads someone’s journal or diary without permission. This is long, don’t read if you don’t want to. I was in basic training, got injured and went through a shitty corrupt company (that has since been shut down from what they did) and was forced into being a holdover until i even made my in service time to qualify for being a disabled veteran. Being in that status, phones weren’t allowed and i was a rule-follower so i never got contraband. That meant nine+ months with less freedoms than a prison was very hard on my psyche, and i wasn’t even allowed a phone call or even a piece of candy. They even held my mail. So i spent the time writing. My journal was filled with stories i wanted to write, song lyrics i remembered, and the experiences i went through in that first company. I wrote about the laws they broke, the way they targeted me and everything, and i even wrote about being sexually assaulted by one of the drill sergeants. I always kept my journal on me, or locked in my bunk. One of my new drill sergeants from the company i was placed in noticed, and she was determined to get her hands on my notebook. She ordered me to do something time now and wouldn’t give me the time to lock it in my bunk, so i hid it under my pillow (which i know was a mistake, but i didn’t think she’d try to violate my privacy like that). That drill sergeant read my notebook. I couldn’t find it during PT, and i was stressed about the fact someone took it. Until i was called in to first sergeant’s office, and told that she read my notebook, but because she wasn’t the sharp representative(sexual harassment/assault response and prevention), she was required to report anything involving it. I was scared to report it, because i knew what happened to me in that company could easily happen again. Since she wasn’t she sharp rep i wasn’t given the option for it to be anonymous. That meant he KNEW I reported him. He would face legal consequences and I wouldn’t be able to do anything to protect myself if he got angry i reported him. He was the type of man who bragged about committing war crimes on deployment. He was the drill who started an underground fighting ring in the company and, as i found out later, was very likely the person who convinced my platoon to slock me and incited my treatment as a scapegoat. It was horrifying and i lived in constant fear even after getting discharged because i was going to live in the same state he was in if he got kicked out. I was so scared of being disabled and having a violent man with a personal vendetta against me coming to my home and harming me when i couldn’t fight back. I don’t even know the outcome of the report, and i hope he was prosecuted, but i was horrified to be forced into reporting it. My privacy was violated once by him, and my privacy was violated a second time when i was forced to recount it and report it to men who scrutinized every single word i said and treated it more like an interrogation when all i wanted was to keep it to myself or have someone supportive to talk to. And yet, that isn’t even the worst thing I went through during those times. I’m glad I’m out of the military, I’ll suffer the results of my mistake of joining every dey for the rest of my life. Mentally and physically, i will never forget the shit they put me through, and i never even got the chance to go to war. I didn’t have to. Turns out your own friends can take the use of your dominant arm just as easily as the enemy, and your own superiors can take your freedom even easier than the men we’re supposed to fight in the name of freedom.
@janmarie39762 ай бұрын
I had a very similar problem happened to me when I was overseas in the army they were part of the good old boys group and when I brought it to somebody's attention they had me write it all out and then literally before I realized what had happened they had signed me out of service you don't get over something like that you put it in the Box you put it on the Shelf in your mind you hope to hell it never opens itself up unfortunately it always does and it always hurts
@dlsetaro2 ай бұрын
I went through a situation where a male coworker on my watch section turned all of our other male co-workers against me. He made my life hell because after a few weeks of us hanging out together I realized he wasn’t that into me. So I broke it off thinking it wouldn’t matter since he didn’t really want to date me. Apparently his ego couldn’t handle it (he was the one who always dud the breaking up 😒), so he took it upon himself to make my life miserable. This went on for four months or so until I moved away to go to my next duty station.
@J_M592 ай бұрын
I am so sorry you had to go through this. I hope you'll be able to heal from this. You are truly a strong and amazing person and you deserve the world. Please do not blame yourself in any way. ❤
@Mmannk2 ай бұрын
@@J_M59 thank you ❤️ It’s been over five years now since all this happened. I’m still physically disabled and I’ve got a high rating for mental illness caused by it, but I get by. I’ve gotten a lot better mentally and physically since then (relatively), though I don’t think I’ll ever not be disabled again. The fears of him retaliating have stopped, and nightmares about him stopped maybe two or three years ago now. I’m doing the best I can ❤️
@J_M592 ай бұрын
@@Mmannk You're truly an inspiration for being this strong and amazing. I hope you the best for the future.
@MysteriousMrSixАй бұрын
My mother: "I tryed my best to raise you Me: "And you still failed.. your not a good mother but unfortunately you are my mother" We've never talked since
@Pratibha125.2 ай бұрын
When I was 12, I used to write novels. One night, I was working on a romantic story-not vulgar, just pure love. The words flowed effortlessly onto the paper. I shared my drafts with my classmates, and they loved them. Even my seniors eagerly awaited the next episode. To stay focused on my studies, I only wrote on Thursdays. One Thursday, my little brother saw me writing and told my mom. My paternal uncle and aunt were visiting, and they ridiculed my parents. I watched as my mom ripped up my drafts, and my aunt scolded me. No one defended me. My parents are really nice, don’t get them wrong. Later, I tried to write again, but my brother would find my drafts and give them to my mom. One day, he gave them to my aunt, who beat me. That was the last day I wrote. When I joined college, I tried writing again, but it felt unfamiliar and artificial. I regret stopping, but I just can't seem to write anymore.
@Little_NightLight_Oreo2 ай бұрын
That’s just unforgiving and f#cked up for your brother to take away such an amazing talent you seemed to have, you could’ve created books with that talent!! He better had apologized for taking away a talent you seemed to have loved so dearly, I’m so sorry this happened to you 💔
@carolinecharly46822 ай бұрын
F your brother, he seems to be a brat😡
@ShaggyakaCalikzz2 ай бұрын
Probably all this trauma made you repress your storywriting skills. Try thinking outside of the box or use some of your own experiences and start again.
@dzanegullesАй бұрын
this makes me angry for you wtf??? I am struggling with writing right now too, has been since 2019 but its about another reason but my point is that I kinda get the can't write like before, STILL What's wrong with All those people??! I'll pray things are better for you now and will get better. 💪💪💪
@darkcrystals4574Ай бұрын
What about rewriting the stories you wrote before but in a different way or combining different stories into one that may give you a starting point
@Blizzard48952 ай бұрын
My dad threw me down by my neck and attacked me a few days after my birthday, I have PTSD, and can't look him in the eyes anymore without having a panic attack.
@milkaimoana2 ай бұрын
I feel so bad for u 😢
@thepast57902 ай бұрын
I am so so sorry, you deserved none of that. And from what I’m assuming he wasn’t punished or was given a light punishment. Either way, please stay safe.
@Idk_lmfaooАй бұрын
Im so sorry for what happened to u i hope u heal and feel better,but i dont wanna sound rude or wanna act rude but may i ask why ur dad did that to u?it's ok if u dont wanna answer cuz u will prob feel uncomfortable but if ur ok with it then pls share some! and Sorry again for asking.
@Blizzard4895Ай бұрын
@@Idk_lmfaoo he is bipolar and schizophrenic Update, we just moved away from him a week ago, he sent us threats at 10 and attempted to run my mom over with his car
@BitzerDogTaylorsVersion13Ай бұрын
that is severe, severe, severe af child abuse. all children deserve parents, but not all parents deserve (a) child(ren).
@zeroart16412 ай бұрын
When i was little i noticed that my step mom went shopping a lot but she was retired, do as a kid with no clue what a retirement fund or social security was, i thought she was using my dad's money and while talking to my mom it was a passing comment that we didn't linger on and i didn't think much of it. Next time my dad picked me up we had a four hour drive ahead of us and my step mom immediately turned to me and asked me why i thought she was using my dad's money and was very upset with my and she would bring it up randomly throughout the drive and even made me cry a few times. She would also bring it up for years to come. So instead of just explaining that she has her own money and didn't need to use my dad's, i got trust issues with all four of my parents in one fell swoop. I've never told my mom something like that again and my parents don't try to explain anything to me, so we have a lot of misunderstandings and problems, not solely from this one story. I have trouble going around the adult world because I've never been taught how to adult by anyone, so i act quite childish in some people's eyes and it has lost me a few close friends...
@RatTheCh1ld2 ай бұрын
What are you DOING STEP-BRO!!
@Itsmialolzz2 ай бұрын
@@RatTheCh1ldyour not funny
@MilenaOstrowska-iu4mb2 ай бұрын
To stop being friends with someone because they're childish (and they knew you're childish from prob a long time) is a shitty behavior so don't worry. Be glad you found out who's worth your friendship and who's not. Besides I think being childish is a beauty, don't worry dear, if you can be responsible then you should be more than happy to be also childish ❤❤❤ Even tho the reason is bad it doesn't change the fact that there's nothing wrong about your inner child, it really is beautiful.. ❤️
@DeepthiR-y4b2 ай бұрын
This happened when i was 7, i wrote something bad about my parents when i was super mad at them. When he read it......he made me stand on one leg as long as i could. My grandma tried to stop him but couldnt. He slapped me at least 80 times. Next morning, he acted like everything was fine and never apologized for causing me extreme pain....
@tobiasglass76532 ай бұрын
Dude disown him
@lucosta1752 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry that you had to face that with the person you should feel protected and safe 😢 Hope you could've healed from that ❤
@A380_Aviator2 ай бұрын
Sue your father for child abuse and take him to court. People like these don't deserve to be parents rather be jailed for life
@melon_the_cow2 ай бұрын
@@A380_Aviatorcan minors sue people??
@mrunique90292 ай бұрын
Which country are you from?
@VergeXTАй бұрын
I have a feeling that this family is a Family of Peace, very peaceful. So peaceful.
@bozieduble854127 күн бұрын
Their apparent definition of peace is so broad it crosses over several state lines 😑
@Ozz13For3v3r2 ай бұрын
Parents shouldn't gothrough children's diaries, they deserve to have privacy with what they think.
@teridoster58402 ай бұрын
My father beat me so badly after my stepmom found mine, that my night ended in the ER with an overnight hospital stay, where I had to tell them that a couple of girls jumped me. I had a pretty severe concussion, 3 broken ribs and a broken wrist, along with a split lip & eyebrow and bruises everywhere. I was 13, the only thing “bad” in my journal was when my friend & I spent the night backyard camping and snuck out of the tent to roam the neighborhood, I also wrote about the boys that I had crushes on, but it mostly consisted of the truth about my parents and how they made me feel and how much I hated living. Their reaction that night didn’t help, but I never wrote down my feelings or things I experienced again 🤷🏼♀️
@TeaMi1042 ай бұрын
That's absolutely horrible, and the fact that they made you lie is worse do you still speak with them or have you cut off all contact with both?
@teridoster58402 ай бұрын
@@TeaMi104 I was no contact with them after I escaped when I was 16, but after I graduated they contacted me & convinced me to move back home bcuz “things would be different”. They weren’t, I only lasted about 2 months before moving in with my late husband’s family and went low contact with them. We rarely went over to visit them but when our son was about 5, my dad lost it and screamed at him while approaching him very aggressively, so I cut off contact for good that day. That was 30 yrs ago. I don’t have any contact with my mother either, she abandoned me with that monster at 18 months old knowing full well what he was like and what my life was likely going to entail (I had already barely survived a near downing a few months earlier bcuz he got angry at me while I was in the bath), she just moved on and started a new family with someone else. I tracked her down when I was 19 and getting married, but she didn’t seem interested in having a relationship with me, so we haven’t 🤷🏼♀️
@BelovedofChrist5812 ай бұрын
Im so so sorry 😢
@dantefreeman46062 ай бұрын
How old is your dad and where does he live? I'm asking to have a little talk with him
@carolinecharly46822 ай бұрын
Where do you live?
@shanimee328022 күн бұрын
Got a diary on my birthday, my mom told me i could write anything in there and she wouldnt reaf it unless I wanted her to. One day i went to my room and she was there reading it. And critizing me for the things i wrote. That feeling of betrayal never left me
@ryniecullendp75582 ай бұрын
A similar case happened to me.. it was a diary me and my friends wrote our fantasies in. My mum snooped through my backpack and read it. She showed it to my dad, the next thing ik that after coming back home from my coaching classes i get beaten up by a stick until broken. And dad screaming at me. Mum said she was disappointed in me, like- can't a teenager have her fantasies? Was it that i was watching porn? Was it that i was smoking and drinking like other teens? Was it some smut i wrote? No.. just fantasies about our future. The diary was torn into pieces like my dreams (as i am pursuing something my parents want me to rn). I lost those friends because of that too. I also had some very important photographs of me and my friends in that diary. Gone. I was beyond devastated and started keeping more secrets. Moral? If i want my children to be frank and truthful with me, i need to chill tf out and be actually friendly and not just show that i am! Teach them the way they will understand and not just beat them up!
@helgardhossain9038Ай бұрын
Please DO NOT DO THAT professionally what your parents want ...! Do something grand else ... much nicer, much bigger. They just want to stick you into a mold which they thought up in their little (devious & dishonest - because snooping out one's kid's secrets is theft of thoughts) minds ...
@Rap111unzel2 ай бұрын
When your parent is a narcissist, you learn to never write anything down that you would not tell others. Narcissists will always find a way to violate your privacy and then punish you.
@thatonebich4382Ай бұрын
This is absolutely DISGUSTING! Not only did she violate privacy, but caused ABUSE and didn’t even stop it!!! I wouldn’t care for no apology, I would be calling cops!!! Diary is privacy, and is for NO ONE ELSE, than the person it belongs to!!!
@Xvinlmfao2 ай бұрын
I really hope that man is in a retirement home wondering why he hasn't gotten visited. There was NO reason he needed to do something like that. That reminds me of the time my stepdad punched me for touching a kitten. A KITTEN. AND THE GUY IS STILL WONDERING WHY I DONT TALK TO HIM.
@DatKaylieKatАй бұрын
FOR TOUCHING A KITTEN??? UNecCePtAbBLe..... *Hits you multiple time for touching a cute and innocent creature*
@All90sKidsNeedTherapy2 ай бұрын
I’m 32. When I was about 15-16 my family read my diary and I still haven’t recover. I don’t truest anyone at all. I don’t even allow anyone to stay over at my place. It completely shatter my trust in others. It wasn’t just my mom. It was my whole support system.
@goas45Ай бұрын
Human beings are the most disgusting thing on earth. Id rather not live at all if it means no human is alive. We do nothing but destroy, betray, hurt, cheat and take more than we give.
@Cat.The.Cat.Therian12 күн бұрын
I've never been physically abused. I've never been abused in general, to be honest. My mum can be very self-entitled and quite often goes overboard on punishments, but never once has she beaten me. And I'm thankful for that.
@ashburn59052 ай бұрын
now people wonder why kids lie when confronted..
@m.c.36402 ай бұрын
This shit happened to me as well, only it wasn't a diary. I always wanted to be an author. Starting in the 10th grade, I took creative writing classes, AP English Lit and History, you name it. Extra curricular classes were focused on anything that would contribute. In one of my EC classes, at the beginning of the year, we were to write a novel, any type, topic, etc. My notes and ideas were always written in a blank journal- which could have been a diary. Granted, I could have used a notebook, but I got a box of journals from a neighbor when I helped her clean her home. Anyway, I was well into my novel, a beautiful, and widowed mom, a stepfather who was really an evil interdimensional demon, the orange tabby is a familiar and talks to the children, ghosts, the mambo on the next block, the children are both mediums, etc. I used my family to build the characters and my life and imagination for world building. Each week I turned in a hard disk with my final edit on it. Then, my mother found the note journal. She lost her shit. She refused to understand that my notes were fiction. She thought anyone who read what I wrote would think she was some stupid desperate woman, that our stepdad was a horrible person (he was a wonderful man by the way), would think my brother and I were crazy, etc. She beat me with a belt. My stepdad got home and I heard him question why my mother was burning the pages of my journal. He saw my busted lip, all the welts, where she ripped my skin and hair out (I had braids), all the bruises on me, and lost his shit- no, he never touched her. She was forced to look at what she did to me. He took me to the urgent care to make sure I was ok. Later, I found our her absence was because he and her doctor had her admitted to a Psychiatric facility. A different doctor had put her an Prozac and a few other meds and psychosis and mania were just two of the side effects. Unfortunately, her reaction still affects me to this day, and I'm 50. I've always discouraged my daughter from helping a diary, but allowed her to decide. And I stood fiercely for her when her when her dad found it and read it, and didn't like what he read. He's still breathing, by the way .
@juliaswims3 күн бұрын
Omg that father is the absolute best father ever!!! Yk slapping your child for letting out her feelings bc she thinks there’s no one to talk to was the best father move ever! Also going through her stuff when she seems like a fine kid is the meaning of a good father! And not listening to your wife is just chefs kiss husband behavior… wow guys have you ever seen a better father 🤩🤩🤩
@ziyad18593 күн бұрын
bro WHAT
@bearlovesmelanie2 күн бұрын
@@ziyad1859 obviously satire
@ziyad18592 күн бұрын
@@bearlovesmelanie What is satire
@hibaworld9262 ай бұрын
I went through that too. I am quite suicidal and have many suicidal thoughts so to cope I used to have a dairy to write my suffering in since my parents always called me dramatic. I used to hide it under my bed like far in the dusty dark corner so that they don't find out. They did find out and I got beaten by Mom then when she told dad he slapped me and mom broke down saying that all I do is complain and cry while they are doing their best to make me smile. I now smile to make them happy, I feel awful for making them feel that way and I know I am a piece of crap who never gets happy no matter what you do for me but the thing is I wish I can. Something is terribly wrong with me I can't sense happiness like at all and all I feel is emptiness.
@Doggypaddle82 ай бұрын
There is a way to find happiness for yourself. Not for anyone else. It took me yrs, but I learned to be happy when I stopped pretending I was happy.
@May-yp4we2 ай бұрын
I'm sorry that happened to you, people should not be having kids if they're only going to guilt trip their kids that how much they " Sacrifice " or how hard they work for them. I hope you truly find your happiness one day when you don't have to pretend to be happy.
@irisbiersteker51872 ай бұрын
You are not a peace of crap. I bet you are kind, smart, brave, and a wonderful friend. And if you ever read this, I hope that one day you think that way about yourself.
@hibaworld9262 ай бұрын
@@theatrequeen9274 Thanks. I am a Moroccan teenage girl. We girls don't have much freedom to have hangouts and extracurricular activities. Especially with my parents since they're the type to watch me 24/7. But I picked a long time ago drawing as a cooping mechanism. They never understand the symbolisms in my drawing thus I created a new of expressing myself without much fear.
@salmaelmoussadak47142 ай бұрын
@@hibaworld926 wel at least our hours school are long so just take lesson after that in the evening and for sometime skip the classes and go to mall or cafe's ps do this for little time as to not damage your studying as you know Moroccans put so much pressure in studies especially national ai feel you and I hope you become better😊
@fionna_cool_girl2 ай бұрын
My mom betrayed my trust like that. This is a long story. I was depressed my freshman and Junior year of highschool. My freshman year, I was so depressed, missing family, had no friends and missed my home in Illinois. My dad was the sole reason we moved and the reason for my misery. My counselor deemed me a danger to myself and wouldn't let me leave. She called my dad to come get me. He came and the counselor told me "tell your dad what is making you so depressed" I knew better than to tell him the real reason. We left and my dad was angry, furious at me and told me I should be grateful we moved to a new place with new opportunities. When we got home, he gave me a knife and told me to cut myself if I'm so depressed. It fucked me up for the longest time. No I didn't self harm. I never wanted to commit suicide or self harm but because I was depressed, I was automatically deemed a danger to myself. Anyways, fast forward to my Junior year, I'm depressed again, feeling the same feeling I did before. The new counselor I had also deemed me a danger to myself and I begged her to not call my dad. She called my mom, she got me the counselor recommended a place to get me diagnosed or assessed and we drove home. My dad was furious I was at the counselor again. Yelling and screaming. My mom took me to the place the counselor recommended and I was diagnosed with mild to severe depression and told that for treatment, I'd be pulled out of school and it'd be a bit expensive. I knew my dad would be angry if he heard this and I begged my mom not to call dad. Tell him I was fine. She called my dad. I could hear my dad shouting on the phone, saying that this is ridiculous, I need to suck it up and that I'm lucky I'm not in foster care and that I have a family that actually loves me. I sobbed so much on the way home and my mom said "why are you crying?" I felt so betrayed by her and the counselors that made my home life even more dangerous. Thankfully in college I met an amazing counselor that had to keep what I said to herself. i finally felt safe to talk to a professional about my issues. Usually my mom and I cope with my dads abusive behavior by joking about it like "oh dad would be so mad if we forgot to get something at the grocery store" or "dad would get angry if you did this". This isn't normal. I know it isn't. It's just so hard to get out of when the parent being abused is dismissive and doesn't do anything to defend the child. Recently for Father's day, my dad yelled at my mom saying she ruined father's day, she ruins everything and that he hates her and that her and I are lazy pieces of shit that don't do anything. They were looking in the fridge for something to cook for dinner and he got a package of meat, I think a package of sausage links and smacked her on the head with it. My dad looked at me and said "don't look at me". I'll never understand why my mom doesn't leave him, worst of all defending him. I know if my boyfriend did any of those things, my dad would rip him apart. My boyfriend has been around when my dad takes out his wrath on my mom. My dad has even shouted at her a few times that he wants a divorce, but it's nothing more than an empty threat. Honestly I wish they would divorce. It's disturbing and I'm hoping to move out soon, but I worry about leaving my mom alone.
@Luciawilson2 ай бұрын
Move out as soon as you can,you need to worry about your own mental health and safety. Your mom made her own decision to stay, which is extremely unfortunate. But there's nothing you can do about that. Especially if she's defending him. I Hope one day she leaves him . But for now Just forcus on getting out of the toxic environment. Maybe look for an apartment or stay with a close friend. Because your mental health and physical health is definitely in danger if you don't leave.
@milkaimoana2 ай бұрын
If you don’t leave you can harm yourself even more you need to get out of the house as soon as you can. I wish you good luck and hopefully you get better just remember there is some people that could help you. I hope you have a good life
@ktg38112 ай бұрын
You can't save everyone. make sure you get out of their first
@jada10772 ай бұрын
Sorry to say it but you need to save yourself. If your mom had plans to, she would have done it while you were still young and vulnerable. Build something for yourself first and have an honest conversation with her later on if you can. Wishing you the best
@helgardhossain9038Ай бұрын
This sounds REALLY bad. Your mum cannot leave your dad, because she is co-dependent to a malignant narcissist ... This means in plain language that your mum has internalized (is used to and knows ONLY this kind of behaviour from a partner). Your dad is a person who is fond of (and only derives energy from) humiliation, degradation, wreaking fear & havoc, spreading lies & false rumours and guilt-tripping your mum and you. Malignant narcissists are humans possessed by demons. DON'T ENABLE THEM ! RUN !
@sw636918 күн бұрын
diaries are a healthy way to vent. For kids it teaches to look deeper and work through what you're feeling and know why. people reading it betrays the writer and harms the belief of security to be vulnerable with themselves. I had someone read mine. I don't do them anymore and am a little paranoid about bring my vulnerability into any written or physical material form
@VioletsvisionsCat2 ай бұрын
My parents did this to me too. Cut open my diary, which was hidden well. They really had to search for it. I was belted with the leather belt. They took away my furniture. I will never read my kids diarys. I would rather torture myself than torture my kids with distrust.
@ruthgriffiths73652 ай бұрын
As a mother of four adult children, I have never touched a diary, listened to a message or layed a finger on a cellphone. The trust between parent and child is sacred and fragile. Once trust is broken, nothing can erase the betrayal or restore the relationship. Respect your children unless you are certain they are in danger... even then, speak to them first.
@Las6452 ай бұрын
Sure there’s trust but at the same time you’re supposed to be a parent, diaries are fine. But messages and technology does need to be monitored to a certain extent. Because if a child ends up raped and murdered by a predator they talked to and met up with I BLAME the parents for being negligent. My unpopular opinion is that your kids safety is more important than them liking or trusting you.
@ta-rd2xk2 ай бұрын
@@Las645And I feel like if you have a good relationship with your child your child will tell you if you’re worried about your child to that extent then I’d say check rape and murder and kidnapping doesn’t all the sudden happen because they’re texting it also happens when you’re being a bad parent and they’re seeking something that ur not giving them
@Enby_monarch082 ай бұрын
My step dad read my VERY PERSONAL diary and got angry when saw a note of me trying to ask a girl out (I was a female at the time) and ever since that day I always felt the need to hide stuff from people. Diarys are not ment to be looked at. It's meant to be personal for a reson
@riaghasripour48942 ай бұрын
Wdym female at the time
@Enby_monarch082 ай бұрын
@@riaghasripour4894 I'm non binary, this happened before I was openly non binary
@Mesmerizer_Teto2 ай бұрын
@riaghasripour4894 I’m assuming maybe they’re trans or non binary or something like that🤷♀️
@Enby_monarch082 ай бұрын
The reason I said "female at the time" is because I am currently non binary and wasent when that story happened:D
@user-wk8sc3io8tАй бұрын
You are still a woman and always will be
@Thatpersonisyou12 ай бұрын
And they still ask us: “whats wrong with you?” “Why are u like this?!”
@Redditrstoryzz11 күн бұрын
For this who are wondering what happened in he diary she wrote a poem about losing her virginity her father took it the wrong way as she was actually sexually assaulted but never spoke up about it
@mamabear96462 ай бұрын
If this were my husband, he'd be awfully occupied with trying not to die
@abigailaltland39412 ай бұрын
That's awful. I have been in therapy for four years, and one of the ways I let all of my negative emotions out is by writing. So he told me to keep a journal, and whenever I needed to write about how I was feeling, to go ahead and do that. My Stepmom, when I told her what he asked me to do, she said that she would only allow me 30 minutes, and I was only allowed to write positive things, which completely defeated the purpose. And every night, she demanded to see my journal, and she saw that I wrote about my negative feelings, like I was supposed to, and then would spend an hour screaming at me and throwing/breaking my things and threatening to hit me
@abigailaltland39412 ай бұрын
@WeIrDcOrElAnD677 Lol, really, it's just another day in the life of me. Now I'm 18, going on 19, I moved in with my grandparents to escape ALL of my parentals. I got medication for my mental stuff, and an trying to do better. I have a lot of trauma and bad habits to get over, but I'm getting there slowly but surely
@Itsmialolzz2 ай бұрын
@@abigailaltland3941I hope you’re okay luv💗
@Mimi-li2ll2 ай бұрын
@@abigailaltland3941good I hope it gets better and easier for u ❤❤
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
Your mom knew that she was doing bad parental things and didnt want to be exposed or be held accountable. Its NOT your fault even tho they will try to blame you.
@Mimi-li2ll13 күн бұрын
@@abigailaltland3941 that’s good to hear pls take care
@Elilala-c2u5 күн бұрын
That is evil. Those parents should’ve heard a little something called privacy. They should’ve just left it and the fact that the lock was broken was a sign that the mom had broken in, not found it unlocked.
@StoleSomeCookies2 ай бұрын
My mom and dad snooped through my phone contacts a few years ago. My dad came bursting into my room, yelling at me and dragging me out of the top bunk of my bed by pulling my hair. He dragged me to the living room where my mom was looking at a message I sent to one of my school friends at the time. It was an "I hate her", not even meant in a serious way, but that's no way to act to a parent ig...
@milosloth99132 ай бұрын
Sorry you had to go through that. I hope things are better now.😢
@mariamatmos45062 ай бұрын
“Silence on the way home making my heart race” I have felt that horrible fear SO many times during childhood. That alone leaves a wound that never really heals…
@maudnd4492Ай бұрын
Silent care rides are my nightmare. I immediately assume something is up and I get so hyper alert
@evangelinekhumalo511725 күн бұрын
The fact that my siblings and I are not the only ones who got beaten for writing in diaries is trash. The resentment never really goes away
@Idkhowgodletmeliveanotherday2 ай бұрын
What a wonderful way to teach your child how to ignore you, keep secrets, feel unsafe around you and overall lose trust🙂
@Hismajesty12342 ай бұрын
Fr but also what type of Supreme human strength do you need to have to makes someone bleed out there mouth just from one slap?!
@Mimi-li2ll2 ай бұрын
@@Hismajesty1234it’s probably not just a slap maybe he was holding something
@dayvid60van2 ай бұрын
Your father should be locked up
@doodeedude2 ай бұрын
Nah, imagine that in the diary she said that she smokes pot and fucked her cousin. Without context ofc it sounds bad
@vincenzopolimeni35612 ай бұрын
Ita not real
@Nuclei_Breaddo42 ай бұрын
@@vincenzopolimeni3561it happened to many commenters, I don't think it's fake-
@Whatjusthappenedfffuck2 ай бұрын
@@vincenzopolimeni3561found the father
@dolfacelondon32 ай бұрын
@@vincenzopolimeni3561 You must not be seeing these comments saying they agree , Even if this exact story is fake all parents like this should go to prison
@vanessas.960511 күн бұрын
Yeah had pretty much the same thing happen with my parents. That and I also had a teacher read my diary. I have never and will never keep a diary since. It’s crazy how much people don’t care about the concept of personal thoughts and are just BEGGING to find something they don’t like about you.
@Soulmate_4eva2 ай бұрын
Trust can be shattered in an instant and the scars from betrayal last a life time
@charlenerussell8732 ай бұрын
What was in the dairy.i need contents
@Autumn-iy1rb2 ай бұрын
Fr
@mermaidlagoon2 ай бұрын
she wrote about how she wasn’t a virgin because she was r*ped “I wrote the attack in my diary, but disguised it mightily, as a young writer does.” and included song lyrics in the end to credit how she was feeling. “So blow, blow, blow out the candles Make my bed wide and long Tell all my girlfriends Not to wait for me Daddy, I’m no virgin I said I’ve already waited too long.” long story short her dad thought the lyrics were mocking him and since she didn’t write she was r*ped in her diary. Her dad apologized and so did her mother over and over even decades after.
@Autumn-iy1rb2 ай бұрын
@@mermaidlagoon that’s horrible af..
@ccsweetypie2 ай бұрын
@@mermaidlagoonWhere can I find the whole story?
@T1mburtonfan2 ай бұрын
@@mermaidlagoon and he slapped her because she was raped? I hope she’s okay.
@wolflinggon566413 күн бұрын
I wasn’t even allowed a diary growing up. Apparently my mother assumed I was always doing something wrong because I would sit in my room all the time. I was reading… all the time. But she would slam my bedroom door open suddenly to try to “catch me doing something wrong”. Anything that I wrote down (stories, song lyrics, etc…) was always found, read aloud by my father (while he laughed the whole time) and then burned. I’m almost 40 now and have so many issues
@charlotteembrich96032 ай бұрын
My sister stole my diary once, so i told my dad and he beat her with a belt and he gave it back to me. It was the one and only time he stood up for me. I was 11
@Itsmialolzz2 ай бұрын
W dad damn
@Uzui_SumaАй бұрын
@@Itsmialolzz fr
@nancyfancy9825Ай бұрын
Bro wtf? Beating her with a goddamn belt, isn't it too much? What the fuck?
@bandmiddle7542Ай бұрын
You’re an awful sister if you just let that happen. Truly disgusting. Your logic is basically, “my sister stole my dairy so my dad beat her. I’m proud of him.” Like what!?
@NightShadow-kp7ml2 ай бұрын
This is why every time I write something in my diary, I burnt the page or I cut the page up. It's the way I release my pain, but it's also the way I protect myself and my soul.
@K.a.t.0611 күн бұрын
I told my parents every mental illness my doctor and therapist said i might have (at the time it wasn’t fully confirmed) so I told my parents and they yelled at me saying extremely hurtful things and a few days later I told them about it again cause I’m fucking stupid and both my parents beat me. My dad slapped me sending me to the floor with a bloody mouth and nose and other stuff I’d rather not say. A few months or like a heat later my doctor told them that I truly did suffer from a few illnesses and they kept apologizing. It’s now been 2 years and I will never forget that and I will always feel so sad looking at the scars on my body. I know this is long and not like my moment but I feel like I can finally get things of my chest.
@not_aish2 ай бұрын
When i was 10 i went to my home country for the first time. At that time i was really depressed and wrote in a diary since my parents hit me often and i didn't want to share anything with them, the same day of arrival i went to my "favorite" aunts house to stay for a day or two. When i left i forgot my dairy over there and came back a day later to retrieve it, little did i know leaving it was the biggest mistake. That aunt saw my diary, not only read it but send pictures of it to almost EVERYONE in our family. You'd think my parents would treat me better but they abused me even more, They don't know till this date that i know everything about them seeing my diary. I never talked to that aunt since and i have trust issues to this day. i hate living knowing that people saw and talked about my diary behind my back.
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
They hated being exposed for abuse. All told your Aunt probably went thru abuse too…cuz where did they learn this behavior. They just couldn’t face it.
@ryleighbanks24192 ай бұрын
Comparatively it’s nothing, but my father always hides that he smokes. I can smell it on him. He smells like Mountain Dew, denture glue and cigarettes. He has a bad habit of taking my money to buy them so his girlfriend won’t know. I once hid my money in a pair of socks, inside one of my Roller-skates, inside the bag for them in the back of my closet behind multiple huge dresses,(ball gown style dresses that were my stepsisters for prom and they are huge, but I do love her a lot, she’s amazing) and he still found my hundred-fifty dollars and used all of it. He always claims it’s for gas and stuff but this happens way to often for that. I’ve hidden my money in my underwear drawer, in a vase I have in my room, in a gallon sized ice cream tub with loom bands(rubber bands j use for loom creations) in board game boxes, in my pillow case, in my night stand and a ton of other places and he ALWAYS finds it and spends it. He has probably taken five hundred dollars from me and I’ve got very little back in comparison. He is mentally abusive, manipulative, a literal narcissist, and I’m pretty sure he has hit my brother before. He help me by my wrists above the ground trying to take me to an emergency dentist for a loose tooth I didn’t want him to pull and I had bruises. My wrists hurt for a while. I was six. I let him pull it but to this day, almost a decade later I still freak out over anything that has to do with teeth. Really bad. I was having severe panic attacks because my dog who was quite literally my best friend had been killed by our other dog and he would never help me with them and he was an a hole about them. I would always have to call other people to help me with them. He sent me back to my mommas (who is amazing and whom I live more than anyone in this world) when she had a deadly infection that wasn’t quite gone yet. He has thrown my little brother and j onto our beds(quite roughly). He won’t help me when I’m so dizzy I can literally not walk and tells my little brother, who is only 11 and tiny with almost no muscle, to help me and I’m 150lbs. My little brother is afraid of his room because there is a shadow that looks like a person and he has completely gone off on my brother just for telling him he was scared. My little brother now has problems telling people when something is wrong and almost always comes to me. While I’m beyond grateful he trusts me enough to come to me I feel like he should be able to go to his dad when he is scared. He has screamed at me to the point I was in a chair in a corner curled up into a ball having a panic attack and he was standing over me with his fist clenched and wouldn’t stop. I honestly thought he was going to hit me, but like I said, I’m pretty sure he HAS hit my brother before. Him and I both flinch when people move to fast at us. He hardly lets me talk to my mom when I am at his house and she is one of the only people who can keep me calm. He has taken my phone and gone through private messages between my and my momma. He is legally not allowed to do this, my mother and I are legally allowed to have private conversations. He watched his brother tear his family apart and didn’t change in the least and even got worse. I’m only 15 now and I will have to deal with all of his crap until my brother can choose if he wants to see him or not, but until then, I’m stuck with him. My little brother gets so scared at his house he sleeps in the floor in my bedroom and his girlfriend is thinking about taking his bedroom and making us share. As I’ve said, I’m 15 and he is 11. We each need our privacy. I don’t mind at all that he sleeps in my room but sharing a room is another. We both need privacy and we won’t get it then. He has told me that I need to at least act like I love him when he is one of the only people I truly trust and can make eye contact with(that is a big thing for me because I have a hard time making eye contact and can only make it with people I would literally trust with my life. Once we were at a restaurant and he made me eat when I was taking vyvance, an adhd stimulant that would rid me of my appetite completely. I was on the verge of tears and my step uncle and step cousin did everything they could to help me. My cousin even took my food without my dad noticing because I physically could not eat and he knew it wouldn’t be pretty if I didn’t eat. I was on the verge of tears all night. I know this was a long comment and I apologize and if you have read it thank you. J can’t talk to too many people I know because he has caused me to have severe trust issues.
@milosloth99132 ай бұрын
I hope that you're able to get away from him. Good luck and stay strong.
@Whatjusthappenedfffuck2 ай бұрын
That's alot of words
@RAY-zn2vu2 ай бұрын
this is pretty severe...I hope you have safe adults you are able to talk to like a teacher or a school therapist. having experience with emotional abuse, talking to trusted school staff while in highschool about my general feelings and some situations had helped me feel less hopeless. about the money, do you have a friend trustworthy enough to carry it for you? maybe a locker at school or a secure place outside? I seriously empathize and hope for the best for you both. I hope you can find solice in community and get away from him soon
@ryleighbanks24192 ай бұрын
@@RAY-zn2vu thank you, I really appreciate it. I stay away from him now as I live with my mom but I don’t have a friend there to trust with my money. I do have trusted adults I can talk to about all of this.
@dlsetaro2 ай бұрын
This sucks! I wish you could live with your mom. She sounds like the much better parent. Stay safe and try to confide in another adult in your life about how you’re feeling, like a teacher or counselor.
@Rascal_mamapapercut2 сағат бұрын
Lying to parents is normal, not telling them everything is NORMAL everyone should have a personal space and intimacy
@cxystzll_v2 ай бұрын
This is unfortunately my life. I'm not allowed to have a diary and every book gets checked by my parents and they'll always punish me for every bad thing I had in my books or diary so I live with bottling up my hard moments in my mind. My mind is my diary.
@dantesantini6168Ай бұрын
Have you tried apps to use as a diary? On most phones you can put an app lock on pacific apps so you need a code/pattern/thumbprint to open them
@cxystzll_vАй бұрын
@@dantesantini6168 they check my phone and force me to tell them the passcode/code/password/ make me use my fingerprint on every locked app 💀
@REXIRO_Ай бұрын
Have you ever tried talking to someone about it our yk, reporting it
@cxystzll_vАй бұрын
@@REXIRO_ nah my country would’ve said it’s not serious
@CharliMatokАй бұрын
Have you tried art?
@kellysorensen14192 ай бұрын
This is so sad. Children vent in their diaries. They often write about hurts, fantasies hope dreams! Her father betrayed her by reading her private thoughts that belonged only to her! Shame on her father and mother! It took her mother years to apologize?
@MyDTIYTOfficial7 күн бұрын
All kids deserve parents, not all parents deserve kids
@nochill59962 ай бұрын
That's why I always wrote down my feelings or secrets on a peice of paper and burnt it with a lighter immediately, I did this till I was 16 and then used the very same lighter to smoke my first cigarette. It helped with my anxiety but bad for my lungs. Now I've stoped smoking and moved out.....never been happier. ❤
@SarafinaSummers27 күн бұрын
I used the same lighter I torched my prom dress, old birthday cards, and diaries, etc.… With, to light my very first bong rip. 🤣
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
Congratulations 🎉 on your great escape. They are troubled people…its is NOT your fault!
@StickingToAWindow2 ай бұрын
I read the rest of the article and her writing was so heartbreaking. The absence of clarification on whether or not she forgave her parents was so gut wrenching. Unspoken, but so clear that she never did. And having to kept that hurt forever even as she wrote her story.
@sreshthabanerjee66682 ай бұрын
Where to read it?
@Iwannaa_07179 күн бұрын
To all the future parents out there if you ever wanna be a perfect exemplar of failure , this is a good way .
@wolfiegirl832 ай бұрын
Throughout my teenage years, my mom proved multiple times that I could not trust her around private information. One prominent instance is that I'd texted my best friend, griping to her about my mom. It was about small things, like chores I didn't wanna do. Literally something every teenager gripes about. My mom looked through my phone, found the texts, and berated me for it. She got mad at me because she read something that was meant for someone else. There are multiple other instances but they're far too personal for me to put on a public app.
@alfrescoAllegory2 ай бұрын
My roommate/churchmate read some of my several journal notebooks without me knowing, later that week, examples of things I have written were being used in the message by my mentor/pastor on that Sunday service in the small house church we had. They did not name me, but it was obvious to some guys and my mentor they know who was it. The betrayal lead to so much mistrust, unforgiveness, depression, hatred, rebellion, all spiraling down on my life. Everytime someone mentions journaling, I always mention my unfavorable opinion about it, to the hearing of parties involved, in a very nonchalant way. They never admitted and I did not confront them. I see in their eyes they misjudged or did wrong, or perhaps that's just my pity. Though I know they also are proud enough, and felt self-justified. I may have forgiven, but I will never forget. I warn people if they insists in journaling, make sure to hide or at least don't write everything from yourself in it.
@margiestevens2384Ай бұрын
Pharisees read journals and cast stones. Always remember this.
@amyangell557227 күн бұрын
you can break something so quickly, but healing it can take so long... parents should know that when they hurt their child in anyway, it can effect the child so much, and the child will remember everything...
@user-vg4oc8xr8i2 ай бұрын
Reasons why I keep all my secrets in my head:>
@littleredgaminghood39432 ай бұрын
Exactly 💯
@Grace-it3sl2 ай бұрын
✨️Same✨️
@May-yp4we2 ай бұрын
Ikr I'd die of paranoia that someone would read it.
@Axo_Axolotl-Deku_Simp2 ай бұрын
✨frr✨
@RumbleRush14792 ай бұрын
Agreed, this comment is underrated.
@BloodStarWcue2 ай бұрын
I didn't have it like this, but somehow i feel fathers are worse than mothers. My father, for example, while is mostly loving and caring, has told me am useless and has insulted me, but luckily my mother has reasoned with him engough to not beat me up that much, but they've telled me several lies, and am the only liar to them, but i've never trusted someone again since i was young because i wasn't beat up, but instead when i was very young i was excluded from others and my friend abandoned me from the girl that insulted me because of something stupid. Also, the worst part is that i had a crush on my friend, and then my friend leaves me for her? How can that possibly help me? Since my friend left me, i've never trusted no one more again, and started suffering from social anxiety as my mind is flooded with the irrational tought of "i hate myself, and i think everyone hates me too"! It's stupid, and luckily one of the worst things i've suffered is how everyone forgets my suffering and wounds, how i've suffered worse things like, once i was on the hospital for 6 hours because i hadn't drinked on all day, and when i remembered my mother, she said "when?", she didn't remember the time i suffered that. Also, if you haven't suffered from dehydration, it's like a headache, dryness, soreness, dizziness, and a feeling of regret and guilt on most of cases. I suffered that, and my mother didn't even remember. Now don't get me wrong, i love my mom, but sometimes i feel like she only remembers stuff that benefit her, only her. The only one that comforted me when my cat died was my uncle, and that's how i got laughs and my new cat, she also died but now am happy knowing that Sol (my current cat) is everything i need to know am not alone on this. To distract you, here's a list of stuff the cat my uncle gave me did! 1- stole my brother's food, and when my mom called her attention, she jumped to the chair, but grabbed the food my brother was eating and took it 2- she was resting, and someone gave her food, so she dragged herself there and started eating while she laid down. 3- i was petting her and she flipped, then bit my hand a bit (she was like 3 months old) And more, CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE
@MisakiBlossom28 күн бұрын
"Why are you putting me in a home?!" "Why don't my kids talk to me?!" "MY kids need to answer when I call" "what did I ever do to you?!" The questions I will NEVER give you answers to.
@robinbrown22562 ай бұрын
What a horrible father. To go through something like that, to be violated like that and be punished in such a cruel way. Thank god my dad was not like that. I could have left my diary open in front of him and he wouldn't have read it. Not that i kept a diary.
@furinafurever2 ай бұрын
@@nfvsy-hei16877what do you mean “what do you mean”?
@furinafurever2 ай бұрын
@@nfvsy-hei16877 the father is a horrible father because the daughter had to go through something like that, being violated (she got raped) and punished (her dad beating her up for it thinking it was consensual). Then they appreciated their father for not being like OP’s father.
@caitlinmccloud74312 ай бұрын
My mom read my diary even though the only thing in it was that my cousins came over and I liked a movie I watched. My mom was so mad that I thought I could have secrets she wanted me to read out loud from my diary every day but I ended up just throwing it away saying I didn’t want to write anymore. This started the awful habit of bottling up everything until I explode. Weird she was mad I might have secrets when she actively neglected me and never wanted to talk to me. And no we don’t talk, haven’t in years.
@USE_CODE_RoyalPearАй бұрын
It’s like a cop saying if you tell the truth you’ll have less time but when you do you face more time instead 😞
@Morgan24_72 ай бұрын
I remember in Jr. High this girl had written me some letters. In one of the letters, this girl asked if I had ever kissed a boy. No, I hadn't. These were HER letters to ME. They were in a jumper I had worn way in the back of my closet. It was hung up amongst the rest of my clothes. I came home, and my mom had the letters on a coffee table. She...was...MAD. Mad because someone asked me if I'd kissed a boy before. She had my dad there, and he sat silently. He knew I'd done nothing wrong. I pointed out that she had to dig for those letters. My dad knew she was wrong.
@jazzerzzz222 ай бұрын
Sounds like my mother. Its gone well into adulthood. Im nearly 32 and still grt crap for things in my diary. Difference was my father shamed her for it. 7 years ago i beat a heroin addiction, daily she will still call me a junkie. Hard to want to stay clean when i did it for my parents, dads been dead 3 years this October and my drunk mom is this. Having a son made that all not as hard to bear tho.
@SupHapCak23 күн бұрын
Bro literally just block her. Tell her she shouldn't hve to talk to a junkie.
@jazzerzzz2223 күн бұрын
@@SupHapCak would if I could, actually would love to. But I made promises to my dad before he passed, and I've broken enough promises for a lifetime. I've gone low contact. I've got one of those moms who hated me just for being a girl. Really wasn't much I could do to change that lol. I had come close to no contact, but my brother up and moved 13 hours away to West Virginia (apparently ppl actually do decide to move there) so I'm technically all she has. I also have a guilt complex, so I'm a push over.
@Remi153220 күн бұрын
I'm proud of you for beating your addiction! Don't let the harpy get to you and ruin your success! Since she's an alcoholic, there are many names you can call her! Wino, drunky monkey, alkie, Tippy the Tippler, Karen, and Lushy Lucy. But I'm also a petty bitch.
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
You MUST set boundaries. Every time she calls you a junkie walk out. Tell her it will continue if she doesn’t correct her attitude. Stay strong to your words.
@lauranminney779313 күн бұрын
@@jazzerzzz22 i’ve seen it before it’s almost like they want you to fail so they can have something else over you. Her not having someone really is not your problem. protect your sanity.
@Greece_Is_Pro17 күн бұрын
The diary said something like: "HEIL-"
@Queenofsarcasm2 ай бұрын
If my father EVER put a hand on me he would be arrested, no doubt about it. My mom would actually throw him out if he ever went through my things without my permission. So glad to be in a family who understands boundaries
@p0prox2 ай бұрын
this happened to me once and i havent written anything in it ever since. i havent trusted my mother at all since then. having your trust shattered like this in an instant, especially by someone who you should always be able to feel safe with, is unfixable. i relive that moment constantly