'My periods make me suicidal' - BBC News

[@ragazziita]

It's crazy how sad and suicidal I felt all week. Then, all the sudden, I was fine again. It's interesting how I know why I feel like I do and I know the feeling will be gone in a week, but at the time it's so real I can't help it.

[@transspiritindigo27]

I’m so sorry 😞 You described it perfectly. That’s exactly how I feel every month too. ❤️

[@anonymousanonymous-tw3wm]

I have to work and i don't think in can make it 😔

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 3 a day a week or 2 before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer. Ask Dr for Valium just for that time of the month Oh and other days I take evening primrose 1 a day If I feel like it. It’s great for skin nails arthritis anti inflammatory etc

[@icu33]

I’ve been researching what the hell is wrong with me and this comment describes it perfect. I know what’s happening but I can’t help it and I’m desperately trying to find something to help my mood when it comes because I have 3 kids and I feel so bad for them. They don’t deserve this. It’s every month and it’s so difficult. When I feel good I do as much as I can with them because I know I have a limited time before I become a monster again 😔

[@karencanispeaktothemanager5340]

I go through this and it makes me feel extremely guilty because I put my loved ones through stress and worry only for me to be fine after 1-2 weeks.. It doesn’t feel as serious as chronic depression and PMDD is not as well recognised as the typical mental illnesses like anxiety. People just don’t take me as seriously because they view it as a “phase”. I just feel “crazy” and “irrational” even though i’m usually not this way.

[@deborahstagg3978]

Every month like clock work, suicidal idolisation, mood swings, teary. Tears just streams down my face, cant concentrate, noises are extremely painful , irritating And panic attacks. We will get a cure some day !!!

[@Tanaconasaperson]

Me too, I hope we all get better soon ❤

[@deborahstagg3978]

@@Tanaconasaperson I found out I was severely b12 deficient. I have paneceas anemia and am having loading injections twice a week. It has helped! Its still hard but am no longer suicidal. I dont think everyone is b12 deficient who has pmdd. I do feel it should be looked into though x

[@zyra4497]

Hoping for that day to come 💜

[@bellatrix4937]

Me too.... 🥺

[@smiley1958]

Same thing just different month

[@caoimhedoesstuff9293]

When will people realise that drinking water and going on walks won’t magically cure PMDD

[@queenieburgers50]

True. I find alcohol is what keeps me alive during that time. It stops this loneliness pain in my chest and I turn on funny videos and can sometimes laugh. Otherwise water and walking does nothing, and I like that I'm not present really with the alcohol. Since alcohol is a dissociative, I've looked into ketamine infusion clinics, nothing in my area, but maybe something in your area, you'd have to google it and ask for a doctor referral. I hear it's expensive though.

[@MariaPerez-xe9bu]

Thank you for saying that. I can walk 2 hours per day and drink water like crazy and I am still horribly depressed every single month. Otherwise I am pretty normal and I wish people understood how difficult living with clinical depression and this is….

[@astridjaye6224]

@@queenieburgers50 if have any doctor who can prescribe ketamine troches from a compound pharmacy might be better than nothing. Getting severe pmdd and just started it. Infusions are better but I can’t afford that. If this doesn’t work I feel hopeless. Might need to be a psych or naturopath, I don’t know. I hope you find relief.

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 3 a day a week or 2 before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer. Ask Dr for Valium just for that time of the month Oh and other days I take evening primrose 1 a day If I feel like it. It’s great for skin nails arthritis anti inflammatory etc

[@italktoanimalsliketheyrehuman]

For real!! I'm tired of being told that sticking to a regular routine will make this big magical difference. Getting out more, eating differently (funny how there's always a better way to eat), taking care of myself, socializing, getting outside, being involved in something.............if only it were that simple. I've even heard "just try taking a shower, everyone feels better after a shower". And I'm answering silently in my mind with "You can't even begin to fathom how much effort it takes to even change an article of clothing, let alone take a shower, during this time." And seriously the less time I spend in the bathroom the better lol. Mirrors trip me up. And being naked trips me up. I'll have these episodes of skin picking that Idk how long they take but they can especially siderail me during the 2 weeks, & the shower honestly just gets put off till the next day because it's 3am it's time to go to bed not get in the shower. It's too late try again tomorrow. It legit feels like insanity at times.

[@bipbeedippy3954]

And other people don't take our depression seriously because "we're just being emotional girls". It's a shame.

[@Comeback180]

We need to get in the habit of teaching kids about it before they go intonmiddle school which is timing of puberty coming through. Society needs to drop the taboo of periods. Schools need to get a grip too and teach it to students especially the boys to differentiate between a girl who's experiencing high emotions and another who's experiencing high emotions cause of periods. Periods are normal, they're not going away and the stigma needs to droo and more girls and women would feel more comfortable coming forward to talk about her specific period.

[@bipbeedippy3954]

@@Comeback180 yes! Precisely!

[@royaldiamonds1]

there’s medicine you can take to stop periods from happening but unfortunately it can be too expensive for some people, you have to take it every day, and there can be serious side effects….. I wish I was a boy lmao 🤣

[@MariaPerez-xe9bu]

It’s horrible not being able to talk about this. I just have to suck it up and smile. Especially when working for obvious reasons. Ha! I wish I could put that in my resume as a proof of how f… resilient I am (among other non resume friendly truths)

[@ttyyuuiiei]

Then again if anyone says you’re acting different due to a period, we’re just sexist boys. Can’t win lol

[@kenicke579]

It’s bittersweet that I’m not the only one that deals with this. I thought I was going crazy at first but then I started tracking and realizing that the depression and suicidal thoughts come when I’m on my period. Hang in there, we can do this ❤️

[@zyra4497]

We will ♥️

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 3 a day a week or 2 before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer. Ask Dr for Valium just for that time of the month Oh and other days I take evening primrose 1 a day If I feel like it. It’s great for skin nails arthritis anti inflammatory etc

[@lilibililili2320]

Same here..

[@Alexe829]

Get thyroid checked as can be a cause afaik! This condition is very real and extremely serious. Please don't suffer in silence.

[@stardusmarina]

Same!

[@YaMammaWarnedYa]

THIS IS IT!!! I FINALLY FOUND MY TRIBE!!!!! SO IM NOT ALONE IN THIS!?? I LOVE Y'ALL ALL SO MUCH, SORRY WE GO THROUGH THIS 💔

[@Boundless500]

Thank you...I don't know you but I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

[@FuturFab]

Right

[@rdwrer1331]

I love you too. You are victorious, you're still breathing. Those who've succumbed and been murdered by this insane process are INNOCENT. God will not be throwing them to hell. God is LOVE. Keep saying, this will pass... it's RIGHT I relax. You wouldn't expect a person without legs to walk. This is same thing.

[@stardusmarina]

Love you!! 🫂 🫂 🫂

[@RR-hn2tb]

Finally found a video that talks about this. Its not easy. Its ridiculous having to feel it every single month. .every cycle....you feel miserable....you feel so depressed...you feel so alone yet no one can understand since its not widely discussed or people are not aware...people don't even believe it exists!

[@nataliafernandez8482]

I started a business for this exact reason! You can search PMDD Minute Monologues and if you connect with it, I encourage you to share it! We have to get the word out on PMDD.

[@Alexe829]

Oh it exists! It's a serious life altering condition and don't underestimate the symptoms. See an endocrinologist if possible but doctors in general more aware, may refer you.

[@Clover_9777]

I learned this today. I thought I was just depressed, apparently not. Once my period starts off, everything goes back to normal. Before the period, I wondered what was happening to me that I couldn't have control over it--I cried, experienced insomnia, lost appetite. I hope more women can learn about this.

[@HalaKaBoomBoom]

Wait i got insomnia too :/ It Makes me Sad And also Suicide thoughts:/

[@kuroyamisuji]

same.

[@Nowhere9]

Me too, all these symptoms + physical pain.

[@MarianaFerreira27gatoslindos]

Me too it’s happening to me

[@GoAwayThankYou]

Always thought I was the only one like that, didn’t know it was an actual diagnosis until now

[@GoAwayThankYou]

Nope no kids and not planning on any for a while yet

[@laurieanne9179]

Paul Gibbons What garbage.

[@travisbickle2789]

Childbirth and chocolate.

[@rowellahdeguzman]

Me too!!! I only found out about this today 😞

[@navydecay]

Me too 😔 I’m sorry

[@ninarose3801]

It’s actually such a relief when my actual period starts even though it isn’t painful because the depressive symptoms ease and acne clears up !

[@beehungry6190]

same here

[@TheBellaLuna94]

It’s the only time I feel like myself again!

[@dear6341]

Same.

[@tessietrue7485]

Same here! I almost always get relief when my period starts, although physically I don’t feel great because I’m on my period, but the emotional aspect of it gets much better.

[@sadepayne]

Exactly 💯 💯 💯 💯

[@mvndies]

Does anyone ever feel like their anxiety kicks in before their period? I always feel like my heart is going to pop out of my chest. And sometimes its at random times of the day. I’m not even stressed or worried. I can be at a party, having a blast & all of a sudden I’m having an attack I have to leave. Then I’m crying for not enjoying special occasions when I’m menstruating. It’s horrible! I hate this. I can’t imagine being suicidal every month but I believe it.

[@AjahsWrite]

PMDD happens in the luteal phase of your hormonsl cycle so yeah, leading up to your cycle and the first few days are usually when symptoms peak.

[@hanac5586]

Yes, I get so anxious I start to feel nauseous 😕

[@fificore]

I lose hope whenever I'm on my period. 😿

[@paulgibbons2320]

Consider child birth. Could be the most natural remedy. You would not even need to visit the Dr.

[@travisbickle2789]

Fifi, all you need is good seeing to my dear.

[@aziza4654]

Same

[@karine8738]

@@paulgibbons2320 which one ?

[@paulgibbons2320]

@@karine8738 ah just ignore me. This is nothing to do with men. I should stay out of it thank you x

[@diankristy]

The suicidal thoughts that I have before and during my first day of period are the worst. My normal self would never think about killing myself because I love my life, but suddenly before the period I feel like a worthless person that don't deserve anything, that it will be better for anyone if I'm gone

[@ishajagadi7508]

Oh my god! I feel the exact same way! Did not know about this like a month ago but then I was so mad at my mom and sister for the slightest thing and my mom was like maybe your periods are coming up and I was like my depressive mood has nothing to do with my periods! Got more mad and shut myself in but did think it over, thought when I last felt this way and suddenly realised that everytime I feel this way it's always like 8-9 days before my periods. Checked my period tracking app and bam! 10 days to periods and this time realised that after the first day my period started I was feeling all fine again! Like I was not depressed or suicidal at all!

[@shackeramilesqaa9409]

I sympatise with you.... im going through this right now, im so scared. I dont know how much longer i can hang on.

[@seenukjoy]

How are you feeling now? Better ?? Going through that now....​@shackeramilesqaa9409

[@KittyPepperPhd]

My aunt used to be miserable every single month for about 10 days, crying and screaming, cursing god for abandoning her.

[@KittyPepperPhd]

@Richard R I just stated the fact that my aunt had this disorder. I made no statement as to what I believed caused it, or what it meant, or if it should prompt people to draw any conclusion at all. YOU are the one that did that. You are clearly the idiot, getting all hysterical over a statement by a stranger. You may want to go calm down, maybe have some chocolate or pet your cat.

[@lastthingsministry]

I hope she is alright now. I have had this for 30 years. If it wasn't for God, I wouldnt be alive today. God never abandons us. I know things can get really tough but it is a lot harder without God in your life. I hope your aunt still has faith. Losing God is the worst thing that can happen to a person, worse than dying or living with PMDD.

[@mikeshoults4155]

Did she accept responsibility for the damage she caused to people while on PMS

[@rdwrer1331]

I fully believe and KNOW God exists... but SAME happens to me!!! I'm near perfect in righteousness, keeping the commandments and then boom... every other word f this f that and Lords name in vain. I do repent anyway but in you'll find after this life that God is Merciful. All is recorded. We love in asick polluted, evil, corrupt world. Near all the food is s*** for us and partly CAUSING this! F everyone who thinks this is not real!!!!!!!!!

[@catheriner6675]

@@mikeshoults4155 misogynist YUCKY

[@laurynricho1539]

i cried as soon as i read the caption because i thought i was just crazy. literally every month, a week before my cycle i find myself fighting to not think about unaliving myself. it’s comforting knowing this is “normal” and i’m not alone.

[@taetae-bw2ou]

i have suicidal thoughts too before my periods and theyre very intense should i visit a doctor ,because theyre actually too intense and im scared im might do something

[@misshantrope]

babe, it's not normal. u need help. as someone who have pmdd, we really need help

[@AjahsWrite]

I have PMDD and all I can say is...same. And sadly there are 16x more studies on erectile dysfunction than PMDD.

[@letsRegulateSociopaths]

there are so many women who don't know. Help your sisters. You are definitely not alone, there are so many women dealing with this (around 10-12 percent).

[@zenagray4847]

I am 67 I suffered like yourself with my periods and will not forget those years easily. It was terrible. ♥️

[@sonyasever7625]

@@paulgibbons2320 my mom still have the period pain. she gave birth to 2 children

[@rdwrer1331]

My God....is there hope? Does this end after the horrors of menopause????? I'm 39

[@HibouRondo]

@@rdwrer1331 Yes. It can end with menopause. That was my experience. I am 68. I am so sorry for all of you still on this awful rollercoaster. All I can offer as advice is boost all your B vitamins and take plenty of magnesium. It helps. My menopause was surprisingly symptom free, by the way, and I’d been dreading it!

[@nh8589]

I feel so much solidarity. I have had violent and intrusive thoughts, genuinely suicidal, depressed, angry at people, anxious... Every damned month. Every single damned month since I started my cycle at 12 has being a really confusing fight for survival. On top of this: when I get my period it's extremely painful, heavy and severe and leaves me completely drained and fatigued. I would genuinely consider removing my uterus.

[@WeAreNot4Sale]

Yep me too. There are so many of us! So dont lose hope please xx

[@aliciamull4882]

Same for me! And the Problem is the other half of the Month you can't be just Happy.... I mean we are immobilized for two weeks...for me it destroys everything

[@kash7585]

I understand this. Living with PMDD is debilitating. This disability, and it is a disability, needs attention in the world. Women quit their jobs, file for divorce, have suicidal thoughts and do things that are impulsive during this PMDD period. We need more people speaking out and you may help someone else who doesn’t realize they suffer from PMDD. ❤🇺🇸

[@lyca6857]

Stark difference to the comments directed at videos covering suicide (ideation, loss, bereavement, recovery) and struggles with self harm. Add female hormones to it and apparently it's nonsense. To some

[@caoimhedoesstuff9293]

Literally just blatant sexism. Some people just want all woman’s problems to be marked down to female hysteria

[@yokuyoku4067]

This happens to me too some days I'm good but days right before my periods..I feel extremely anxious, depressed and also suicidal..I feel like everyone hates me..I feel very misunderstood by myself or people around me that I end up feeling very alone

[@melicah2479]

You are not alone. You are me sis. I love you. We will get through this.

[@yokuyoku4067]

@@melicah2479 loveee you too🥺🥺... let's always stay strong ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 1-3 a day a week before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer

[@jazzewalker]

Less than 40 minutes ago, I was overwhelmed with thoughts of suicide and I can't seem to stop crying. It's baffling because my life is generally great, but I couldn't understand why I feel so depressed. Unlike many of the women I’m reading about my issues last from the start to the end of my period. Watching this video reassures me that I'm not alone in this struggle. Thank you.

[@Doit_becomeit1228]

I’m newly self diagnosed, and my symptoms also end near the end of my period. I’m in my mid 20s and these few months have been debilitating. I just been on a rampage trying to figure out how to help myself because I’m normally happy but it seems like some decisions added a mess to my life.

[@betajes3196]

i live in africa literally no one can understand ,its hard living with PMDD

[@rdwrer1331]

I live in USA and even HERE no one understands. They say things that drive me to the brink even worse than I already have it. Thank the Lord we have the comments section!!! I love you❤❤❤

[@curlynightmares8291]

Im from Spain,same here

[@rominiyi1385]

I totally agree with you ... we so need science to be the foundation on which modern technological societies are built over there. Will it ever happen?

[@MiSt3300]

We men, need to be more understanding of women. Ignorance is the worst thing ever.

[@johnmoore9862]

Absolutely 100% spot on. Now we will both be called snowflake soyboys virtue signallers by the right wing intelligentsia.

[@MiSt3300]

@@johnmoore9862 I couldn't care less about what these arrogant narcissists call me. I have compassion for people, and they are self serving morons.

[@rdwrer1331]

Where the **** did you come from? This one sentence gives HOPE. Thank you! My husband has NO IDEA his insane comments drive me even more to end it all, yet I'm strong and haven't. Hes SO sick. Hes addicted to p***. He has one of the most amazing wives who exercises daily, sacrificed career to fully raise our kids and keeps home so beautiful. Sings, gathers family for prayer. This **** loser of a husband of mine WONT have me in the next life. If it weren't for him being an attentive father, he'd be out. I lose my mind. I don't go searching for other men. Yet he P*** watches other women, then goes to Church. I've been possessed by demons because of his addiction. He's a f***n monster with a nice sounding voice and good looking face. His inner spirit is s*** though. I don't deserve this, no woman does. Thank you. God bless you for even considering us.

[@southpawjinx1]

Yeah here to learn more about this to help my wife, or at least be more understanding

[@rominiyi1385]

That's true, however, it's taken the internet and the massive science and technology infrastructure of contemporary times to put us in a position where we can: 1. Learn some of the science behind this which is still rapidly evolving, and 2. Hear what the effects and consequences are directly from those affected as upposed to reading a list of symptoms from a textbook. A lot of money is now being invested in all aspects of women's health. I hope we will see the fruits of all these efforts in this century ... maybe it will be next. But these problems will eventually be solved as they have deep and wide ranging societal implications and consequences ... and future generations will be much better off.

[@ashantitubbs1068]

Im on my period right now and i have to say ive never felt as weak and stupid in my life i seriously feel like i cant do anything right and that im weak because every women goes through this but i am just sitting and crying because going to the doctor has never helped me before seriously just bawling my eyes out in bed feeling sorry for myself

[@tessietrue7485]

I’m suffering from this right now. I feel like I am going crazy with the anger and the irrational thoughts. I feel irritable beyond belief and had a panic attack for no reason. I cant handle my day to day when I’m suffering from this. I pray for my period to start soon as that will bring me some relief.

[@TheCollectiveProtective]

The fact that this video is out there, makes me have hope. We need more support like this

[@indigo8817]

My periods are such a pain. Im takin magnesium, calcium ( often) and advil when Im menstruating. It helps

[@indigo8817]

@Richard Ralph Roehl yes, its supposed to help too but lead is not as easily available like magnesium or calcium that I can get pretty much everywhere.I think with the price too ,lead is going to be more pricey than very common minerals

[@whoglows]

I get intrusive thoughts that bring me to tears...

[@jazmineapodaca4423]

Same 😫

[@issabradshaw2877]

Same here - I hope you have a support system around you and praying for you ❤

[@lindadei-awuku5664]

😭😭😭

[@user-ti1rb9lu1b]

I'm literally fearful of it.

[@beehungry6190]

I wish I had a support group around me. I have felt so alone and crazy for years.

[@piroshk1968]

its worth looking into the link between PMDD and childhood trauma/ adverse childhood events. Chances are if you inherit generational trauma or have been abused for a long period of time in the past, your chances of having PMDD are significantly higher.

[@MarianaFerreira27gatoslindos]

I already suffer with depression but during my period im suicidal

[@moniquewrites9046]

I thought I was the only one Lord heal us all.

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 1-3 a day a week before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer

[@yumtaco7376]

Whats so horrible about PMDD is that it could disguise itself as expected emotions, what I mean is that it doesn’t happen suddenly but instead it builds itself slowly using all bad experiences you could be having and exaggerating them to the extreme. It’s true that bad things can happen to us, but PMDD makes it seem as if there is no way out whatsoever!!. I have developed this just recently and it keeps getting worse. I am currently experiencing it, I’ve been having very depressing thoughts

[@bows2wony]

same I jst woke up I feel like killing myself I hate it

[@mywrongopinionslol7096]

Never heard of this. PMDD... Maybe that's why I feel so damn bad every month. Horrible cramps and being in a horrible sad mood for 5 or 6 days. I get told to "get over it, you're a girl this will happen every month for decades, deal with it." Sad 😥

[@ghoste_girll]

Just earlier i wanted to scream and cry for help because i was contemplating my purpose in this world and how much i am burden to everybody in my life, but it hurts that i have to hide all this and pretend to be fine but this is just not normal it feels so real in the moment. Ive had such weird urges to hurt myself but i think im doing really good at handling myself but it truly hurts how lonely i feel sometimes

[@lastthingsministry]

Just know that it is the PMDD talking not you. You are NOT a burden. You are loved and a precious life. I know what it feels like I have had it for 30 years and I have been very stigmatized. You are not alone and we understand. God bless you and heal you.

[@tammymac6268]

Everytime I tried or was on the verge of unaliving myself, I would start my period the next day. It took me years to piece it together that this was a thing. Please educate the world about this.

[@carolinespence15]

I just experienced this on my last cycle and it is scary. The world needs to know what some women are going through every month. And they should be given personal days to deal with this. I find it even hard to function properly at work. I'm glad that at least BBC is catching on.

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 3 a day a week or 2 before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer. Ask Dr for Valium just for that time of the month Oh and other days I take evening primrose 1 a day If I feel like it. It’s great for skin nails arthritis anti inflammatory etc

[@leeloo9402]

What difference does it make if they know they’ll just say we’re making it up or it can’t be that bad.

[@cassie8844]

Then don't work

[@WizPUGBM]

​@@cassie8844And get fired? No thanks

[@gfphoria]

i thought i was bipolar

[@christinaclarke6974]

I had no idea until this minute that suicidal ideation is not normal pms.

[@iqranadeem9837]

Whenever I get it, I start having such bad panic attacks and mood swings to a point where I break down into tears. It’s hard but now it’s kinda comforting knowing It’s nothing abnormal

[@shelbykoon8272]

I didn’t know what was wrong with me, I tracked my symptoms which occurred exactly two weeks before I start menstruating and subside once bleeding starts. I always thought something was wrong with me (in my head i had obsessive compulsive thoughts about myself and practices I had to do to calm myself or to fulfill my needs along with the anger issues and outbursts on things I should control) which always made me think I had bipolar disorder or ocd or something in my brain just did not feel right... and my family would say it’s just my personality but I’m 24 and I couldn’t go on like this I was scared for my life. Because PMDD is on a cycle of it’s own, I do feel back to normal and feel a ton of guilt after the bad weeks end, I have about one week of peace before the cycle starts again once I start ovulating, That’s when the anger and outbursts happen, which progressively get worse over a period of days I can feel myself getting more irritable, until sometimes a blowout occurs and I become suicidal and uncontrollably crying, like legit I cry out of Nowhere every two days before my period starts. And I warn my family and they already know me so they fine lol. The ones I love happen to be the ones I take out all my obsessive compulsive thoughts out on and I take things to heart that I typically wouldn’t on a normal day. Also those extreme suicidal symptoms usually occurred around death in my life which I unfortunately have had way too much to even begin, but I have always had anxiety unknowingly but can control it when I’m Normal and calm myself down myself. Like I’m legit a normal person and understand emotions and how to control them and how and when to say things but not when I’m cycling through PMDD...

[@Jennifer-tn7ex]

100% this - you're not alone

[@wockyslush666]

I feel you. good luck on your journey

[@letsRegulateSociopaths]

I don't think people realize HOW CLOSE these women are to actually killing themselves. It has been described to me as circling an actual black hole and just not wanting to be...thinking about driving into a tree. This is a massive problem and it affects everyone in the family. It occurs around age 26, well it happens earlier but that is when it gets overwhelming. Be on the look out for those you love.

[@littlefrog9553]

Yes!!! Thank you for opening this discussion!

[@mintybirdy3850]

I didn't even know this existed and it totally explains what I feel, what I go through, why I go through it, and that I am not alone or crazy. Knowing I am not the only one that feels this way, makes me feel better. Maybe I might speak to my doctor about this.

[@joanridgeway3674]

There is nothing worse than feeling like this and someone say oh it must be that time of the month.

[@bipbeedippy3954]

Nobody takes women with depression seriously :(

[@Davieon1230]

I was in a relationship for years and we broke up because of this and me not knowing what was happening to me. He finally got tired of it and left. It’s been devastating because I love him.

[@rosec.manalo1227]

I have been plagued with the very same thing since I started my period. Take NIACINAMIDE (no-flush Vitamin B3) daily and double the dosage 5 days before period. It's what, along with nutrient dense diet, what delivered me from this condition.

[@MariaPerez-xe9bu]

You are so right. I need to go back to taking this. I think I remember not being so depressed when taking niacinamide during my periods

[@JCPatrick]

I’m extremely emotionally unstable when I PMS.

[@xo7499]

@@paulgibbons2320 smh paul. why dont u find something else to do

[@abigailknox-leet6949]

I get u

[@SalmaKhatun-ow6bf]

@@paulgibbons2320 Yes then get Labour pain. Either way you go, you need to feel the pain.

[@mariah1362]

@@paulgibbons2320 where is your compassion? You don't have a clue,

[@AlexSmith-qw3nl]

@@paulgibbons2320 didn’t ask.

[@anifdks]

I got prescribed sertralines by my doctor because of PMDD. I thought it was just another episode of PMS. But it lasted for weeks and I am super tired of myself for having the mood swings and ill thoughts. I can't function properly. I lost motivation, I lost opportunities and fell into depression. It really helps alot when you figured out what is wrong and get the help needed. Just wish I could knew it sooner.

[@skinney9542]

100%

[@dear6341]

Took me 13 years to discover it was PMDD and was prescribed sertraline.

[@hottestfeedmedia]

Yep, I’m now in zoloft because of it. I feel a lot better.

[@ZiondeCastro]

As a professional in this field I find it very sad that this issue is labeled as a mental disorder. Also, just because science hasn´t cached up with women´s health it doesn´t mean there is no way to "heal" this, there absolutely is, I´ve done it myself and helped many women do the same , to the point of even enjoying their premenstrual phase. So if you´re struggling with such intense emotionality know it´s for a reason and you CAN turn it around. The premenstrual phase connects us with our subconscious deeply, unexpressed emotions and thoughts, unhealed trauma and negative conditioning that causes us a lot of inner-conflict, all which surfaces during premenstrual and/or bleeding days usually. All these emotions are very important, so don´t minimize them just because they come up while you´re on luteal phase. My recommendation would be to do emotional healing work and to work with a womb healing facilitator. Sending you all much love.

[@Miooooou]

I was so scared. I thought I could just cope with it as usual. But it came so suddenly ー and so strong too. I wanted to just suddenly end it so bad. It was crazy and sudden.

[@chantrvll]

it's extremely exhausting and debilitating

[@alyannan2845]

It happens every month yet I’m always caught off guard when the symptoms hit. I feel out of my mind and it’s so hard not to just want to give up on everything. I want children and I am so afraid that this is a sign I’ll experience postpartum.

[@kendrajordan6405]

Girl yes the whole comment & definitely the last part. Because that too is something people do not talk about often

[@gypsywoman9140]

I only in recent years learned about PMDD when looking up to see if BPD (which I've been diagnosed with) makes PMS worse. It was through a YT comment that I learned about it and many women being misdiagnosed as having BPD or being Bipolar. Anyways, I did experience postpartum with both my children. With my eldest, my doctor dismissed my concerns. Years later with my youngest, I went to a walk-in clinic and said "I don't want it to morph into postpartum dysphoria" because I didn't want to be dismissed again. A few hours later, CAS showed up with police parked in front to take my baby away from me. The only reason they didn't is because the father screwed me out of our apartment so I was living with my mom at the time. I told them "This is ridiculous! I went for help for postpartum and you come to take away my baby? All this does is tell women that we need to suffer in silence!" They didn't care and I still didn't get any actual help. Instead, I was stuck dealing with CAS for months, which only added more stress, fear, and pressure. Pressure to be a perfect mom or I'd lose my baby to The System. It's so stupid. There's all this Awareness for mental and emotional health issues, encouraging empathy and reaching out for help. But then stuff like what I went through happens and it sends the complete opposite message. If you do have children, try to have a strong support system around you, friends you can trust. Or join forums for postpartum. I wouldn't trust doctors again after what I went through, but maybe other people have had better experiences. I don't know.

[@LegendoftheGalacticHero]

@@gypsywoman9140 That is outrageous. Of course they "care" for the baby and don't give an F about the mom. i'm sorry you had to go through that.

[@wambamalita2561]

To me its only the voice that came to me saying"but you know you are not alone",and the more it i keep hearing it i feel relief,i believe its a voice God and he made me a woman for a reason

[@blt4life112]

Look at all the self-proclaimed "alpha males" crying about how victimized they are by this. 🍿

[@unvaccinatedAndPureBlood]

How do women survive with so much pain in their lives? As a man, I'm so heartbroken.

[@terminsane]

They dont. They're just overblowing it and msking it seem far worse than it is. People love being victims these days.

[@terminsane]

@@dailymaria yes they do. And the women i know agree that it's nowhere near this bad. And dont assume my gender. How do you know i dont have pms? Because i have a beard? Transphobic bigot!

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

@@terminsane 😑 oh really?? You think we overblowing?? You don't know period pain that's why you comments it. I hope in next life you get born as girl then you will understand how much fun and relaxing it's is to be a girl.

[@terminsane]

@@Jivi_Galaxy really? And just get handed everything for free? It would be nice. Have you seen the joke on artist subreddits lately? An artist uploads a piece of art, gets a few upvotes. Nothing spectacular. Then they upload a photo of themselves holding the same piece of art, and it gets TONS of upvotes. Because its a female and females get massive encouragement and praise, no matter what they do. I'd just be an e-girl and collect money from guys by broadcasting myself playing videogames for a living. Women become millionares on Twitch by doing jumping jacks. Men on the other hand, have to work incredibly hard to barely get by.

[@terminsane]

@@Jivi_Galaxy i am a woman, how dare you suggest otherwise. Just because i have a beard doesnt mean i cant be a woman.

[@schowdhury8243]

I thought I was the only one :/

[@ThePayola123]

Find a Sexy 'Eager' Boy Friend; it may be a Good Short-Term Distraction.

[@NatalieCWilliams]

Girl it's just about all women yes. Symptoms vary too 🤦

[@schowdhury8243]

A friend everyone has different symptoms. Some women feel really low during that time of the month.

[@NatalieCWilliams]

@@schowdhury8243 Yes they do. Depression is very possible. I've heard from women how severe their symptoms can be; almost unbelievable! But we are all different and so we will be affected differently to some degree. I doubt no woman who claim depression or other symptoms that may seem far fetched. I'm not judging any woman dealing with this.

[@monicacornejo6850]

A friend you are clearly not a woman or a doctor. It starts after ovulation. Can last for about 2 weeks or more and get relief after you bleed. Please do some research. It’s like a body’s allergic reactions to hormones.

[@John_Bradbury]

Nature is brutal.

[@priyankasoni3753]

We are brutul not nature.

[@John_Bradbury]

@@priyankasoni3753 Yes, us as well, even more so.

[@priyankasoni3753]

@@John_Bradbury I am real physical person all physical things and surrounding are temporary anything which is temporary are bad me you even world

[@John_Bradbury]

@@priyankasoni3753 Sounds like you are sort of an idealist - you think ultimate reality is non-physical. You can believe that story if it comforts you.

[@priyankasoni3753]

@@John_Bradbury if I say I have evidence Lord Buddha saying physical existence is root cause of pain and suffering.

[@alfiaarshad3111]

On my 2nd day of period crying on bed, with cramps, depressed and lose of hope and this video is a relief for me ❤

[@darmela]

I suffered severely for decades with PMDD. When I finally reached menopause, I was given a new lease on life. The fight was finally over. Now I'm faced with trying to come off antidepressants, which were prescribed for my condition, and it's a whole other battle in itself.

[@VennilaAndy]

So, I'm not the only one who has felt like this...

[@PMDDwithC]

Absolutely not!

[@rozalizattflowerpower4998]

I started taking the yasmin pill and it’s changed my life for the better!! I barely get any of the symptoms I used to get with pmdd. The only problem is, I got acne and have to take antibiotics because it’s so bad and has been with me for 5 months. I am now left with scarring, but it doesn’t affect my mental health like pmdd did. Mentally I feel amazing!

[@Godisfirst21]

Last night I wanted to die. This morning I started spotting. Add in perimenopause and I feel DONE!

[@jacintatate]

This is a huge comfort to see other women are experiencing the same thing!

[@alexandralydia4362]

This is me for atleast two weeks but the second week is worse. Then i get extreme cravings and i knows for sure my period is coming the next day. It’s horrible but atleast knowing what it is and how to cope helps.

[@81Miranda.]

once upon a time I never knew my period was arriving. slowly, slowly, as I'm getting older . its getting worse. half way through my cycle , mood swings , nothing seems good , dont want to see no1 . feels like the end of the world . cry very easily. take it out on my partner . sometimes even feel like killing someone.

[@EchelonPandora]

I know I am not alone but I feel immense shame that I go through this every single month.

[@abovethesky5601]

I feel very very sad, alone in this world and hopeless approximately 3 days before and 2 days after the start of my period. I also cry A LOT

[@bows2wony]

omg same but it’s when I’m on my period I get seriously depressed

[@DontMindAnythingFromThisAcc]

@@bows2wony SAME like I'm depressed as a whole but when I'm on my period it gets even worse than it already is....😭

[@bows2wony]

@@DontMindAnythingFromThisAcc fr

[@bows2wony]

@@DontMindAnythingFromThisAcc also do u have Snapchat or anything so we can text

[@DontMindAnythingFromThisAcc]

@@bows2wony Oh yeah I do. I have Snapchat ☆(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*

[@jessicaribeiro8928]

I'm getting scared... Before period and the early period days I literally want to die and I feel unloved. After my period I'm the happiest person but when my period is coming I isolate myself. I don't know what to do anymore

[@raisethevibes719]

Keep a diary of your symptoms and thoughts etc and go to your doctor please 🙏💖

[@nowbestillandknow]

When period is difficult, you must take it easy. Do as little as possible, quiet down, take better care of yourself and take whatever medicine helps.

[@61shirley]

Imagine a world without sanitary towels. You just imagined 99.999% of history. Man-up, ladies

[@CDN_Bookmouse]

Perfect advice for women trying to live normal lives. Take time off work. Stop raising your children. Cease all hobbies. For two weeks a month, every month, for decades. Thanks for the tip!!

[@VivalaryMan]

And avoid men at ALL COSTS! You're unbearable at that time and it's easy to say "be more sympathetic", but you try being treated like that and be sympathetic, its not easy.

[@CDN_Bookmouse]

@@VivalaryMan Getting serious Poe vibes off you, my dude.

[@VivalaryMan]

@@CDN_Bookmouse no idea what you're tripping about fella, but regardless, have a great evening!

[@megs0777]

I've been dealing with this this since I was a teenager and I've noticed that it has been getting a lot worse. I hit 30 this year and it is really getting harder to function for 10 days out of every single month. I'm so tired of it and really hope there's a better "cure" for this someday.

[@jazmineapodaca4423]

You’re right. I just turned 30 last month and now my PMDD symptoms have gotten worse. 😫 Currently going through them now 😭

[@AjahsWrite]

I am 38 and for the past 6 years I've been having two cycles a month. So double the PMDD. I'm literally fighting for my life 14 to 20 days a month. My heart goes out to you, we are in this together.

[@treering8228]

Praying for menopause

[@kerrybob1149]

I feel this to every month around my period being due , everything in my life feels heighened at the time..hopeless pointless un salvageable..worthless..like a big hole and then it passes ready for it all again :(ci never realised it was around my hormonal time until I reached my later 20s some months are harder than others

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 3 a day a week or 2 before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer. Ask Dr for Valium just for that time of the month Oh and other days I take evening primrose 1 a day If I feel like it. It’s great for skin nails arthritis anti inflammatory etc

[@caitx8067]

I literally self medicate by smoking pot during my period otherwise I’m so depressed, upset and have horrendous irrational thoughts.

[@roadlesstraveledm9248]

Cait X , pot is addictive, take bio identical progesterone + antidepressant

[@nohemy84]

I hope there is more research and support soon. I hate it. I feel live I've lost years from my life.

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 3 a day a week or 2 before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer. Ask Dr for Valium just for that time of the month Oh and other days I take evening primrose 1 a day If I feel like it. It’s great for skin nails arthritis anti inflammatory etc

[@deckhead33]

@@Ohkeh640 you can try all these things and others but for some women, nothing will work. My symptoms are so bad that I’m looking forward to the menopause which I also know is a tricky time for many women.

[@tntworld1819]

To the person who is reading this.. You're amazing stay blessed,stay safe and have an amazing rest of your day!!....

[@boycottbollywood2127]

You must see this, US Cops treated women the same way as George Floyd 👇👇 kzbin.info/www/bejne/oKvQg3WLaMmNa6s

[@PLATECLUB]

@@boycottbollywood2127 well i will click the link and pause the video as soon as i click on it because if are lying you dont get the view

[@Greenpoloboy3]

downrate spammers

[@boycottbollywood2127]

@@PLATECLUB check now

[@PLATECLUB]

@@boycottbollywood2127 okay

[@katygreenwich]

If anyone is suffering please try antidepressants, I was fluoxetine and most recently Citroplam and it has helped so much. I still get feeling of sadness and irritability around my period but is no where near as debilitating as it was. Lots of love xx

[@carissaexplainsitall8481]

So glad I’m not alone 😞

[@auralangst6177]

Thanks for posting. Pretty sure I have this. I also have an autoimmune disease, so I'm looking into testing for hormone allergies - apparently, hormone allergies can cause severe PMS?

[@karine8738]

Was it hormone allergy ?

[@indiamecca]

I feel so alone on this…I just kind of suffer in silence most of the time - IF I can contain it… it truly is a Battle before the bleed..and just not worth it trying to explain.

[@deliqueen62]

Nothing helps literally no medication helps with cramps and I’m so depressed I have hate feeling uncomfortable with a pad I’m so suicidal when I’m on my period I hate if it continues to be like this I don’t think I’m going to make it out alive

[@SalmaKhatun-ow6bf]

Do you know what's after you die? Exactly we all don't know. You may believe in different things but we don't know what's after death. What if killing yourself doesn't end your pain and give you more pain? We should have patience and try to think for a solution.

[@deliqueen62]

@@SalmaKhatun-ow6bf yes there’s a heaven and hell I’m an evangelist myself that’s why I haven’t died yet cause I’m only living life for Christ not because I want to

[@lfeb]

I'm epileptic and I really only have seizures these days when I'm on or near my period. It's also the only time I argue with my partner

[@christineuk8266]

The week before my P has officially been named my "mad week" I suffer, self harm & just 2 nights ago took a massive OD. Not sort help just stay 😶😶 crisis team are useless.

[@ella17734]

I can relate. Hope you find something that works for you. Hope you're doing better today...🙏

[@rocaez2143]

@TheMetalGuy852 So r u Doctor Who? Waste to meet u. 🖕🖕🖕

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

@TheMetalGuy852 😑😑 fuck off dickhead. When you don't understand something don't comments negative things.

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

I can relate I do self harm too. I get scared when my date is near 😢 I know I will experience that pain again.

[@CDN_Bookmouse]

Don't give up. You're not alone. For what it's worth, my friend and I have the same problem and hormonal birth control on continuous use helps a lot. It costs money and had health risks, but so does this bullshit. It can be hard to remember when you're in it that it WILL end, but it will. It's so hard, I know. Please take care of yourself. It can be treated. There is hope.

[@staceycameron4157]

Okay, I have PTSD, depression, anxiety, and Bipolar Disorder. All my life, I have had suicidal thoughts. Since I was a young girl. This makes me feel like I have been misdiagnosed all these years - and this is actually what's going on. It always involves a fluctuation in my body's chemistry. I know because I cannot control it, and it makes me passionate. Heated. Wanting to fight others, wanting to kill myself. Always during PMS or my period. Like, most months I will have at least one huge blow-up fight with someone. And, I know it's my fault for overreacting, and I will have to shamefully explain - yes again I was PMSing... I'm sorry. After a while the apologizing -and having to be friends with me -feels to them like a shit show. Only my close family and friends accept me. I cannot sustain a job. What the heck is happening to half our population on this planet - where there is no research for this. The one-sided sexist research that has been done in the past considers periods a blind-spot. Well - we need to SEE this blind spot - not avoid it!! We need to dissect it, and help the millions of women suffering. Including me.

[@kjb17]

I feel that way too. And it only gets worse. I have a whole load of traumatic events in my life starting with childhood trauma. And each time I get PMDD, all these events seem more and more catastrophic , bringing more pain than before.

[@ahasiikuyu8001]

Women go through a lot Wet dreams don't even hurt

[@deckhead33]

It shocks me that so many men are transitioning into women as men are so privileged biologically.

[@bevganley3492]

My diagnosis took 31 years I’m now in perimenopause and it’s pure hell battling both

[@prodigy1016]

i was diagnosed with this at 18 nearly 2 years ago and I'm still no further along than I was then, I've had people tell me to control my hormones

[@maggieseger7159]

I thought it was just me because on my period I always feel like committing. I hate it it’s Terrible but my thoughts take over and I think about the future who I’m leaving and it doesn’t faze me...sadly its like I don’t care about anything

[@notion14]

It's the reason I started a PMS Support Group years AGO for the most serious sufferers and now known as PMDD.. It angers me that by today's date, PMS/PMDD are not taken by the horns to alleviate suffering... Now, One of the things I would encourage my ladies to understand and learn is that its the Progesterone that causes this and you can still have it after hysterectomy so don't even consider that. For 2 weeks before onset of a period, cut sugars, alcohol, salts back. It will help. There are some extra measures but at least do this OK..do it now..

[@maggieseger7159]

@@notion14 thank you for your help I really appreciate it!! Stay safe!

[@notion14]

@@maggieseger7159 no problem, best wishes x

[@ilainzeni6057]

I found this video by searching( aggressively) how to smash my uterus! Periods sucks the symptoms even more. Its my first day today and i woke up throwing up, I ve been feeling like shit for over a week, struggling with face and body acne, sore breasts, diarrhea and crying every single night. I threw up thrice today, haven't eaten nor drank anything cause I DON'T wanna throw up again. My sense of smell is at its peak and EVERYTHING smells disgusting to me. I had horrible cramps, diarrhea, was bleeding and peeing at the same time and the smell killed me and i started throwing up again. All of this took place at the same time, not a rare thing it happens every single month. I sat on the bathroom floor cried for over an hour. I feel like absolute shit. I know it's gonna go in 6 days, but this is torture every month.

[@riiann4498]

I feel this every month and im just tired 😫

[@peanutpaula3100]

PMDD is debilitating. The week before my period, I would feel like my job, my relationships and my own life were at risk. I found a lot of relief with the following supplements: Allegra, vit B6, calcium, and CBD oil.

[@leo-rp1ps]

i’m so glad people are speaking about this. i’ve generally struggled with depression since i was a child. i’ve been suicidal since i was a child. but when my periods came a long, it was like there was a grace period where i felt sad or down, then a week before my period, i suddenly feel a wave of depression, hopelessness, and suicidal ideation. i have been hospitalized three times, and every time it was because of my period. it’s exhausting to live like this and feeling like there’s nothing you can do about it.

[@mandlin4602]

I get really anxious and often suicidal for a week before my period, I’ve actually self harmed and was within an inch of hanging myself. Doctors don’t care. Most of them are older men who poo poo it away to me being a hysterical woman. I’ve got the heavy feeling now, we where going on a weekend break I told my husband I’m due on and he got mad at me. Yes, for bodily functions. Now I’m suicidal. I’m overwhelmed with everything to be honest. Have a tight feeling in my stomach of anxiety and want to hurt myself. 😔

[@Shamrocknails89]

May God be with you! 🙏

[@SpacestormBice]

It's not just cramps, the bloating, the cravings and the intense mood shifts I've dealt with, I've also had the thirst for blood. I've went undiagnosed until I i was in my late teens to early 20s. My almost left untreated PMDD almost cost me my relationships with those who actually cared about me. I didn't know I have it until I was older. Now I know and I'm learning how to cope with it. PMDD is a tornadic supercell blowing in leaving nothing but devistation in its wake. No wonder why I'm so hormonal and misunderstood, its due to people's lack of understanding.

[@lilibililili2320]

Just Googled my symptoms, Why do i always have suicidal thought and emotional breakdown, depression, hopeless during my periods..and here I am.. I always had thoughts and used to questioned myself that, why I'm this different and weird, why I have changed? Am I having depression,anxiety or bipolar? Many times I tried to attempt to do suicide... Now I'm having the flashback of my teenage time the time I suffered the most, time I used to make a plans and ways just to end my life.. Don't know how to react but it's kind of relief that I'm not the only one...

[@natureisthebestshine5348]

Yeah I totally understand why these women are feeling this way because I too am one but what I don't get is why some women have periods when they don't even want to have babies? Wouldn't it be better if we had a choice whether we wanted our period or not? I just wish I wasn't a girl , I would not have to go through this much would i?

[@paulgibbons2320]

Giving birth would change that entire outlook. You have the ability to create life. Your body is literally miraculous. You are designed to make and raise more amazing humans. That's something which men literally can never do. It's literally incredible that you resent such a gift. The choice to be childless is not part of nature. Nature and your body does not understand that choice. A fish can't choose not to swim.

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

Same.

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

@@paulgibbons2320 it's her choice to be childless. Not every woman wants children. And that's okay.

[@paulgibbons2320]

@@Jivi_Galaxy I agree. But certain idiologys promote that kind of spinster existence. That I don't agree with.

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

@@paulgibbons2320 cool then 👍

[@hobbytreyi]

I'm 23 it started since i was 22, mostly since the pandemic.. I don't know how to live in that one week anymore . Even after the knowledge that it'll pass after the periods yet it's so difficult to deal.

[@Ohkeh640]

Ask Dr to prescribe you Valium to keep your depression sadness at bay so u can take only through your few days of your period. Also try evening primrose oil capsules, I take 1-3 a day a week before my period till it finishes. Helps with pain mood and boob pain. Of course u might still need to take pain killers etc. Don’t suffer

[@aliciarosemusic]

It started at the same age/time for me. It's a living hell and completely destroyed my life. Like completely...

[@MsMC4Real]

This... It is so, SO important in terms of mental health to have a community. I was diagnosed earlier this year with no idea what it was, and when I did find out, I felt weak, embarrassed, and alone. These women are so brave for sharing their story. Videos like these save lives. Watching people speak about such a misunderstood and less widley known disorder helps to validate fears, encourage growth, as well as break the barrier between myth and reality. This is a real and valid disorder, if you suffer from it you are NOT alone, and even when it's such a secret sort of disorder, you deserve help. Thank you BBC for this accurate and empathetic look into PMDD ❤

[@AD-fz6rq]

My Pmdd i get hallucinations, severe mood swings, crying, I just want to die 2 weeks a month I have been told its related to child hood trauma and obesity if anyone has gotten better losing weight please let me know

[@roadlesstraveledm9248]

A D , take bio identical progesterone + antidepressant + diet