MY STILLBIRTH STORY - Devan Luka Jane

I wanted to share my story of my birth experience to keep the memory alive of my baby girl and to help any others thats may have experienced or are going through the same thing.
Please be kind in the comments.
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[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@Mscoloraturakae]

I’ve been watching stillbirth stories after losing my son at 33 weeks two weeks ago. It is the most devastating thing ever. Nothing prepares you for losing a child.

[@S4FX]

Sorry for your loss 💔 i too lost my baby boy a couple of days before he's due less than 3wks ago. When i was pregnant i would watch all the lovely birth stories, but like you i search all the stillborn birth stories. Just trying to make sense of it all or trying to relate to people with similar experiences...the the pain is still raw.... I wish you all the best hopefuly you get thru this heartache and find strength. Stay strong ❤

[@Mscoloraturakae]

@@S4FX I'm so sorry you lost your son as well. It's a terrible sisterhood to be a part of. It has helped me significantly to know that he's in heaven, having a much better time than we are having down here. Can't wait to see him again. I hope the prospect of you seeing your son again one day provides some comfort as well.

[@gayleleier8115]

I am the greatgrandmother - I raised my grandchild from birth so it is if she was mine. When she lost her baby 2 weeks before delivery I wanted to die. I have never had anything hurt that bad. Then terrified that my grand was going to do something drastic to herself because she could not handle the pain. And her boyfriend who was so strong for her and suffered his pain in silence. People don't realize how bad the father feels also. There is nothing else in this world that could hurt worse.

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@agasthiyac505]

​@@S4FX how is ur lifeee...I lost my baby 20days before at 36weeks 4 days😭

[@jojozep7820]

I send you hugs. I cannot begin to imagine your pain. It breaks my heart that you were treated so poorly in the hospital.

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@jc_1789]

This is so heart breaking, the hospital staff was so insensitive and quite frankly useless. Love and light your way, I bet she was so so beautiful x

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@gavincadwallader827]

So proud of you ❤️ Literally the strongest woman I know and the best mummy

[@DevanLukaJane]

thanks babe 😘

[@rochelleaslett2866]

I know and understand what you are going through. I lost my little boy when he was 10 days old. My life has never been the same. My thoughts are with you. These angels can never be replaced. They remain deep within us.

[@DevanLukaJane]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending lots of love xxxx

[@agds91078]

I’ve never experienced anything like this before so I can’t say I understand how you feel, but as a mother I don’t want to even think about the heartache the loss of a child causes so my heart breaks for you and my prayers are sent up for you and your family. I’m so sorry this happened to you and to any other mother that’s dealt with this. ❤️

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@brandyf1985]

I'm so sorry for your loss and it burns me up that when you sensed something was wrong when you heard the heartbeat so weak and no-one would take you seriously and the baby was alive at that point and if they would have done a fraction right then you would have your baby... Heartbreaking truly again I am so sorry that happened to you prayers

[@aijab5129]

I am so sorry for Your loss. Had my beautiful angel girl born in 23 weeks and it broke our hearts, it was just 9 months ago, but seems like yesterday.. Your experience seems so familiar, when was in hospital, waited for my 2nd child, also was placed in ward with a girl,having pre-term labour (now I know that she lost her child then) and could even feel she was almost dying of pain.. Sending lots of love and hope to You! Good bless! ❤❤❤

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@morganeamphlett7849]

Thank you for making This Video, I lost my little girl almost 3 weeks ago. this is the first video I have been able to watch my heart aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss. it really hit home for me when you said I didn’t want to be part of this club. all I ever wanted was to make friends with other mommas .

[@DevanLukaJane]

sending lots of love your way ❤️

[@Landis_Grant]

My wife had two scheduled C-Sections at Week 35 to avoid the pain of labor. She and I closely monitored the fetus’s movement (kicks) and heartbeats every day of the third trimester. The first C-Section went smoothly. Two days before her second C-Section, she told me that she felt fewer movements the night previous so I drove her for an ultrasound. The screen showed the umbilical cord being wrapped around the fetus’s neck. She was rushed to surgery. Our son was born alright except he had jaundice.

[@ScaryBoomBoomGun]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing with us all. It's good to know that we're not alone, there are other families who have gone thru this. You're right, it's a club none of us want to be a part of.

[@DevanLukaJane]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@AnikaL0vesCotton]

Sounds like medical neglect. So sorry for your loss. Did they ever give you an explanation?

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@clairelaycock2892]

I’m so sorry for your loss. We have recently lost our daughter at 34 weeks. The pain and emptiness is indescribable. Everything you said I felt… :(

[@DevanLukaJane]

Sending lots of love ❤️

[@lm3049]

My loss is different. I come from a family of 6 kids…5 girls 1 boy. My brother died in a tragic accident 8 days after his 23rd birthday. I can relate when you talk about people asking if your daughter is your first…people do ask how many siblings I have when it comes up in conversation and it’s been 27 years and I can’t bring myself to speak only of my sisters…I mention that I had a brother…but for a very long time I couldn’t because I just found it impossible to speak about and also didn’t want anyone to feel guilty for asking. It took me a very very long time.. I know my loss is different but I can relate a little to how you feel about mentioning your beautiful daughter. And you’re right…it doesn’t get easier but somehow we make it through because as you said, we don’t have a choice. Thank you for sharing your story and helping me to realize I’m not alone in my feelings…..

[@DevanLukaJane]

Thank you so much for your lovely message. Sending you so much love ❤️

[@kimberlyjohnson6352]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sounds like your professionals / midwife dropped the ball and missed you screaming for help many times thru the process. My prayers are with you and your family. You never get over this. We just learn to deal You take all the time you need to Greive and your little angel in heaven is watching down on your everyday. Prayers and god bless and give you strength. Xoxo

[@mandymetcalf689]

I just found your channel is so sorry..I lost my 1st little girl. I want in at 39 weeks and 6 days and told my doctor I didn't feel her last night. They then did a scan and I heard there isno heart beat. I then was told I could wait to but I couldn't wait I then had her. 5lbs 3oz.

[@ladym1035]

I agree wat you said , you never know the pain till you go through the same. I lost my son at 40wks few weeks ago and this pain is unbearable. Sorry you went through it.

[@agasthiyac505]

C section or normal..

[@BitterSweet1888]

I'm so so sorry to hear about your beautiful angel 😞 I can't even begin to imagine the heartache you must feel 💔 no parent should ever have to deal with this kind of pain. Xx

[@katieelogann]

I’m so sorry for your loss I wish I could take the pain away. Thank you for being so open. Praying for you🤍

[@michellehomick6761]

I'm so sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby girl. It's so heartbreaking, fly high sweet baby girl you are a angle. I know you are sitting g on goda lap playing. RIP lil one.

[@schatzfarms4471]

This is the saddest stillbirth story I’ve ever seen. You went through so much trauma. They were wrong in what they did. I hope that you can find peace some day.

[@TheMissymoo100]

I'm so sorry for your terrible loss. It's more than anyone deserves. She has such a brave Mum. It sounds like a right bunch of bloody amateurs looking after you. I can't understand why they let the labour drag on SO long when you already had symptoms of pre-eclampsia.

[@annaclaire9927]

My thought exactly. She shouldn't have lost that baby. Careful monitoring, especially after signs of pre eclampsia. She was already in the hospital and should have been delivered much sooner. 😢

[@KatiefromCanada]

Thank you for sharing your story. I lost my son Zayn at 38 weeks due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. It is so so hard. I would love to see a video on pregnancy after loss and your experience.

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@LizAkyxll]

Thank you for this video. This is why I always trust a mothers intuition! C-section earlier on would have avoided this - but I don’t want to hurt you. I’m so sorry you had to go through medical neglect. When I had my miscarriage at 10 weeks, I remember the worst of emotions. My heart goes out to you, I’m praying for you 💓

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@momo43momo66]

I have the same narrow pelvis issue, so i had 3 c sections, which I was very happy for, and i said to my midwife can i order my delivery and she said you cannot order it like McDonald's, and I said ok now, if i have the narrow pelvic issue! So they did the inducing pill , my water broke, but dilation for almost 10 hrs only, 1-2 cm and no more, and the Doctor came in and was mad that they had me that long, and it was affecting the babies heart, instant C-section, so for three days that was wrong, they should have taken your little one after the first day , knowing the issue you brought to light before that.❤

[@Thegirlcalledlauren]

I just want to say, you and your family are absolutely incredible❤️ I admire you so much for speaking about what happened to your beautiful baby and you are so strong❤️ You are amazing❤️xx

[@DevanLukaJane]

Thank you so much for you kind words. Lots of love xxx

[@ann1260]

Deal with people in whatever way is most comforting to YOU! Don’t ever forget that! Myself, as a mother, I know how I would react, if someone suddenly told me this story of such unimaginable and devastating loss! I would be crying with you ... I’m crying now for you and your beloved Quinn. I don’t believe that you should feel you are denying Quinn if you choose to not walk into that discussion with random people; I’ve randomly talked to someone about something, but only because I chose to ... and I just felt an unknown sureness about the person, and the conversation, where I was comfortable sharing the story. Random and rare. I’m truly so sorry for your loss and for your continuing heart break. Be well, dear girl and I hope your heart will heal. Sending much love from me, in Kansas City, Missouri to you and your family. ❤️

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@intheam5236]

Thank you for sharing, you are very strong for doing so. Beautiful angel babygirl is. I am sorry you and your family went through this pain.

[@DevanLukaJane]

Thank you so much ❤️ so kind x

[@UnderneathHerSkin]

I can say I understand your pain because I too had a still birth in 2019. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I find that getting into new hobbies is helping me. I actually started my youtube channel to help other women who suffer some of the same things we have gone through in silence. Its okay to cry and own that pain because the experience was very real. Sending you hugs ❤

[@julieannemichelle]

You can never replace a child.

[@TheOKkittyfarm]

Thank you

[@quinfrog]

So sorry for your loss....I know no words can help ...

[@emilydavey3979]

This is awful I’m so sorry! What a strong lady x

[@demarpalmer2264]

I am sorry for your loss. I know the pain of losing a child as well. I recommend this book, "Lessons from a Place of Pain" on Amazon. Its a good read and I am sure it will give you a extra dose of strength.

[@DevanLukaJane]

Thank you so much for the advice! I will look it up!

[@baileybuie56]

You waited there for days to give birth to your baby, the baby was kicking. You need justice and I believe they could have saved you and that baby. I hope you do something about that hospital because someone could have a chance to be listened to and I felt you weren't... God bless you and I want to say you are loved.

[@iyakida2053]

It felt like my heart is frozen in time.....

[@bethanderson397]

I’m so very sorry for your loss.

[@S4FX]

I lost my baby boy a couple of days before he's due date less then 3wks ago 💔 i wanted to ask you how you felt in your next pregnancy? I crave to hold a baby and nurture it..same time i feel like how will i cope during pregnancy, thinking the worst etc. Also don't feel bad about not socialising with your daughter more, take your time and do whats best for you. I also don't get out much and hate going on my own even to the shop's...its like i get anxiety and everyones looking at me i feel so vunerable, so i don't go anywhere unless its with someone or if its necessary. Wishing you all the best, time is a healer hopefuly you and i get thru it with ease. Xxx

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@nikisu1539]

Did they ever find out why it happened? I am so sorry for your loss 😭

[@julieannemichelle]

I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@lauragrace4388]

God bless you and your family God only takes the very best.

[@phumezamzomba5447]

I've just recently gave birth to my stillbirth baby boy on the 30june 2021 and before watching this video I thought i was the only one who went through this........i don't know if i'll eva get over this

[@DevanLukaJane]

Sending you all my love. Always here if you need to talk xxx

[@phumezamzomba5447]

@@DevanLukaJane thnx

[@voutoo7899]

People just don’t talk about it..

[@dawnroberts8316]

I am in this same boat. I lost my boy last November 2020. No darling you're not alone. I thought I was alone too until I started searching KZbin and found so much other similar mothers with their stories. It gave me a bit of comfort. Sending love to you

[@phumezamzomba5447]

@@dawnroberts8316 thnx alot for your encouraging words.....

[@naomicarvalho1093]

Thank you for sharing!

[@robynholliday4794]

This is such a sad story Did you sue the hospital?

[@angharadlocke]

I am SO sorry for your loss. Xxxx

[@courtneythorsby1641]

Sending you all my love

[@DevanLukaJane]

thank you ❤️

[@Ih8ketchup]

I have never ever had a MW push on my stomach!! Wtf! I'm so sorry that you went through this, and I hope you sued for medical neglect. I'm speechless for you 🥺

[@mary_iln]

yeah, that’s just doesn’t feel right!

[@DevanLukaJane]

It was the consultant not the midwife. ❤️

[@lasaundrawashington348]

Sorry for your lost🥺

[@user-cv2ee4wt6x]

I'm not through this yet but it sounds to me like the nurse pulled the placenta away.

[@123vantung]

😢I am so sorry

[@juliegrant5905]

came across your video today sending a hug so sad

[@cruelad1075]

Im so sorry😭🖤

[@moneysports1793]

Why did they let you go so long. 🙏💕

[@schatzfarms4471]

In the United States any baby that is being induced has to be on a monitor. I hope you sued the midwife and the hospital. Never use a midwife. I’m so sorry you lost your baby. 😢

[@justmeashley7923]

Why in the actual F did they not have you hooked up to the baby heart monitor the MINUTE they checked you in! I would literally Sue them! If she’d been on the belly monitor they’d have seen when she had fetal distress and could have taken her out immediately. I’m so angry for you! I know it doesn’t change anything, but that is unacceptable. Totally! She should have been monitored the entire time you were in there. I’m furious!!!! And to NOT notice you had pre eclampsia and needed to deliver immediately. This is medical negligence period!!!! In the US they send a grief counselor to help you through. My heart is shattered for you.

[@hawraahmed6204]

اختصر الكلام

[@jessydb2]

I hope she sued them

[@DevanLukaJane]

More follow up videos to follow but here’s an update. kzbin.info/www/bejne/nWXOYpeHbpt0mdE

[@sunuman4454]

Bless you. Xxxxxxx.

[@engeltjelief9180]

👶🏻🌺❤️Devan🐥🧸🧡 cradled in Jesus arms 🌌🙌🏻🌈🌹💫🕯️💚

[@wendywardashley]

God bless you. Its a Pennard stethoscope not a tourniquet. Also blood pressure is always the high number over the low one. Thank you for sharing your story xx

[@popchinesemusic2023]

The person reading this comment: I wish you great success, love, health, and happiness! ❤️ Stay connected 🎅🎅🎅🎅

[@orlindaalla4618]

You need to sue the hospital.Terrible service

[@voutoo7899]

Your story is horrible, I hope you can find some kind of peace in life after this traumatic experience. 💜

[@michellehomick6761]

I did comment once sorry. But I missed spelled a few words, she is sitting on God's lap playing. I'm sorry for your loss...

[@DevanLukaJane]

thank you so much for reaching out. so kind of you ❤️

[@julieannemichelle]

You could have had a stroke!!!