my story: mental collapse, SI, rock bottom, my real journal entries .. & my rebirth.

[@ravenicolexoxo]

Thank you for posing this ❤. I went through the exact same thing in July of 2023. being homeless for 5 months at 21 years old( I had 0 support system, just me and God) I finally got blessed with my new apartment in Dec 2023, but it’s taken me a while to get out of that sad headspace, so I’ve been depressed all the way through March of this year. Currently in May, I finally feel like God has restored me and made me to into an even better women that he called me to be. Finishing up my psychology degree next year so that I can help others! Very grateful to hear your story 💖💖💖💖

[@fatimafrancesa]

i’m so glad you’re on the road to feeling better!!! sending love ✨❤️🥰

[@Brandiisbeloved]

Me too. i just moved into my new apartment two weeks ago after being homeless for over a year. Never really had a home before that because i bounced around from foster home to group homes. Then aging out of foster care. So its so surreal and im still taking it in. But God is faithful and never forsaked me.

[@janel_788]

@@BrandiisbelovedGod bless you 🤍

[@Brandiisbeloved]

@@janel_788 God bless you as well dead. Thank you so much

[@visionvixxen]

Wow- praise God! Amazing and so happy you are on the other side… Ivebeen going through this all y life but especially the past five years so scary and tough

[@AshleyWilliams-f3s]

In 2021 I went into inpatient psych, in 2022 I went twice. I had SI and my body totally shut down. I got baptized and it got worst. I gave my life to Christ and I've learned that in him I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength. You were definitely under a bad attack. To hear that i wasnt the only woman to go through this was so joyful to hear your testimony and it will definitely help someone else. God bless you beautiful woman. ❤

[@fatimafrancesa]

thank you for sharing and this is amazing 🩷 i’m so glad you’re here on the other side!!

[@evelynarias251]

I started to cry after you mentioned God in your journal entry from 10.2020 because look at you right now. You’re here ❤

[@fatimafrancesa]

🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️

[@alexandria9870]

I literally remember you being gone, and being worried about you. I remember not worrying about your platform, but you as a person. I am so glad that you prevailed and are doing so much better! Just SO happy to hear your testimony.

[@donfernander2965]

All my OGs we all remember this time period with her…we love and appreciate you so much Fatima🫶🏾🤞🏾💕

[@AnastasiiaOnatskaia]

Thank you for sharing your story. It’s probably wasn’t easy for you. So I just wanted to thank you for that! I’m a psychiatrist and hearing your story just reminded me why I loved my job so much ❤❤❤

[@ashleybrown1637]

I watched this entire video. I have been watching you since your ICU days & on Snapchat while in my ADN program! I am an NP now❤. Yes, spiritual warfare is real and it always tries to weigh you down before you reach your biggest breakthrough moments. but God ! He is an on time God 😊 thanks for sharing!

[@fatimafrancesa]

thank you for being here all these years !!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@brittanymack802]

It was meant for me to see your comment! I’m going through it right now and I had a mini break down with my mom. I just shared how hard I was trying to chase my dreams and how things were like falling apart in my face! I’m just like what do I do Lord?!!

[@ashleybrown1637]

@@brittanymack802 weather the storm, hun! Trust the process be encouraged. Your breakthrough is on the other side❤️ Let God build your foundation that way no one can tear it down!

[@schaeannsalmon]

Wow. I’m currently going through a depression right now and your journal entry was deep because I feel that way. The numbness, darkness , not wanting to be here etc. this video feels so personal and needed for me . I just started the video but I’m grateful God seen you through and I’m glad to know you kept God in the center of the circumstances 🥰

[@fatimafrancesa]

i’m praying for brighter days for you!! it’s hard when no one understands those feelings & emotions but you’re not alone and will make it out ❤️🥰✨

[@chalikaoliver6960]

Same Situation

[@schaeannsalmon]

@@fatimafrancesa yes !!! I’m honestly terrified to speak about it because I don’t want to be a burden to anyone but even watching the video I’m having anxiety for a situation I can’t control so I’m trying my best 🥲

[@tiarawalker1426]

May is mental health month. God's timing is always so perfect, thank you for sharing. we love you!

[@hiddaiponce8855]

This video made me cry 😢 i went through the same thing for almost 4 years but I had to keep pushing for my kids. You are so strong! And I admire your strength. Thank you for sharing 🤍 god bless you always 🙏🏻

[@paulalangner862]

Girl I have been going THRU IT lately and I was just wondering about your mental health journey the other day because I feel so alone and then boom you posted a video about it! You inspire me so much- I’m currently a bedside RN and my dream is to own a medspa. Thank you for sharing. Keep being you 🫶🏼

[@sharonmarie5468]

I have watched your videos for years! Always motivating for me! I’m sorry you went through all that and disassociation is weird to explain and I have totally been through very similar and it’s definitely hard but I am glad your okay ! like I don’t know you know you but I can relate and I sympathize 😢 I pray you keep doing you because you’re an inspiration to me and others! 😊

[@lanaelovee186]

I just recently started following you..I love your content and love even more, the fact you made this video..thank you for following your spiritual guidance and answering your souls call! The world needs your spirit ❤️

[@red_ruska]

Fatima, I have followed your journey for a while. And to see you flourishing makes me genuinely happy for you. You inspire me more than you know. Thank you for sharing and wishing you the best ❤️

[@myrat.9807]

Fatima, you were a great inspiration to me when I did LVN to BSN but I am probably 25 years older than you. I think when you are young you think the world is a great place, but then as you age you learn the truth. The truth is that good and evil exist. Because you are young, beautiful, and very ambitious …people may feel jealous instead of inspired. I was definitely inspired which I know is your purpose. I was worried when you started the CBD products because many people start them for mental health issues but later spiral down, but I know you didn’t attribute that. I respect people’s decisions for their own health. I am very happy to hear you going to God, because he is the only one we can trust. Take care.

[@infiniteluvira369]

This was so real and courageous for you to share! Glory to God for you finding your way back n receiving so much more 🎉❤🙌🏽 this is a testimony!!! You're beautiful inside n out! you show so much gratitude for your blessings 💫

[@quadetronzz]

I’m halfway through the video. Might I say - you have a gift. You are a great storyteller. I felt every emotion and thought.

[@rj7704]

As an OG I remember the friend break up and I remember most of the drama that was going on behind the scenes. I won’t say too much but those ppl were OBSESSED with you. Soooooooooo happy u prevailed!! U are such an inspiration and I’m so happy you are living your dream! 🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@aylineaguilera1067]

This makes me wanna cry and breaks my heart hearing you went through this and felt this way your a warrior for what you've been through I'm happy and gald you are here and doing better and I've always looked up to you I wanna be just as successful as you!

[@aylineaguilera1067]

Also you are beautiful inside and out! 🫶🏻

[@fatimafrancesa]

thank you !!!! 💕💕🩷🫶🏼

[@SigmaSerenity01]

This was such a personal story, so thank you for sharing and spreading hope for a better future of those who may be experiencing depression and symptoms of what you were going through. I'm thankful that you've overcome that period in your life and I am wishing you the best of everything ❤️. You've always been such an inspiration and motivator. You deserve nothing but the best, Ms. Fatima 💕

[@aeb8101]

Been following u for a few years now and u r truly an inspiration to so many of us out here. From ur business videos, vlogs, to ur raw unfiltered videos such as this one, we r here for all of it. Keep ur head up & keep being the blessing that u r. We love u girl ❤❤

[@fatimafrancesa]

Thank you so much!!

[@theshaniyadaymone]

Thank you for speaking your truth your story. I experienced anxiety & panic attacks in 2022 & eventually fell into disassociation. It was scary & no one understood what I was going through but I know God was with me. I’m doing better now, just taking it one day at a time! I’m proud of you Fatima & just know you are never alone girl! I’ve been following you for a long time & familiar with some of the stuff you had been going through! We love you girl!!!! 💕

[@yessisbutterflyfamily]

Hey girl I am so happy that you are doing much better 4 years ago it's hard to go through those moments in life don't you don't really know why you felt that way I kind of was going through my own stuff to around 2021 well and honestly since 2017 I am gradually working on myself life is too precious to just be focused on the what ifs and why but God is good and we all need to help each other feel better and embrace life take care and thank you for telling your story 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️

[@christinehollowell6567]

Thank you so much for sharing your story I got emotional listening because I too have been through it! I say but God he’s amazing and I am so happy you are where you are! His glory is definitely shining through you!🙌🏾

[@jennyfotang1083]

Thank you for sharing your story Fatima!💗 Been subscribed/ watching you since you were in nursing school doing vlogs. Your journey has been beautiful to watch from the outside looking in I had no idea that any of this was happening but as many have mentioned this video is not only a helpful reminder for ppl like me that we’re not alone in going thru dark times but also a reminder to always show kindness to others cause you truly don’t know what they’re going thru. What an affirming video. You have truly blossomed and you’re glowing! I’m looking forward to pushing thru this dark time of loosing my mom and grieving/being depressed to hopefully one day being able to have my own “Dec.19th”moment when the light in my life shines bright again. I know that’s what my mom would want for my life (omg why am I crying right now just typing this). Anyways just thank you. This is Gods little token to me to keep pushing and He has never left my side. May He continuously bless you and protect you from an evil eye🙏🏾🫶🏾

[@fatimafrancesa]

thank you for being here all these years and i’m glad this video can help you look forward to your revelation moment which WILL come!! sending love and so sorry for your loss ✨🩷🩷🩷

[@jennyfotang1083]

@@fatimafrancesa thank you❣️

[@sherrya1723]

Fatima, thank you for sharing 💕 your testimony will help many. This shows that to be kind and humble to people always.. because you don’t ever know what someone is going through.. Mental health is so important and can affect anyone there’s no one specific person/race/religion that can be affected by mental health. You are such an amazing example of what hard work and perseverance through different pieces of life❤. You are AMAZING!!!!!

[@FayBod]

I am so happy that you pulled through this difficult time. Many people do not truly know what you go through if you don't say anything. I have been trying to catch up on your videos...So much good has happened with me since I started watching your videos back in 2018... when I was in nursing school. Congratulations on your engagement!!! Keep praying and keep prospering. Know that you are God's gift and you mean something to this world.❤

[@ThatGurlSKY]

Been watching you for a while ( before finishing nursing school) and ironically I am now in the process of becoming a Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner. Thank you for always sharing your heart with us and know that through all of your high and lows you are inspiring so many of us ❤ You are so brave

[@EmpathicVibez]

You are so Loved Fatima, thanks for sharing this. Many other people have experienced stalkers, but never had the guts to tell it to the world.

[@anchoredbeautyx3]

Thank you so much for sharing I've been watching you for years now and I've always been inspired by your kind and entrepreneurial spirit. When you read those journal entries I just started crying because those hit home for me. Thank you for sharing 💗💗 God bless you

[@nakiafields1396]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. It can be hard to be transparent with others when it comes to mental health. I, too, struggle during that time period, and it's BEAUTIFUL to now be on the other side.

[@JessieJames89JG]

Thank you for having the courage to post this. I have been struggling with my mental health ever since graduating from nursing school. I really needed this video. Your story encourages me to keep going.

[@aneamanda9]

Ty so much for sharing. Your mind is def strong. Glad you’re in a better state of mind now.

[@bodaciousdani]

Thank you Fatima for this❤ ik this was not easy to reveal about your life. Your vulnerability is showing me that everyone goes through real life struggles. I'm so proud and happy that you overcame all of your struggles by relying on God❤. Jehovah always tells us to put our burdens on him and he will help us but like you said, it's easier said than done. Your story shows that life goes on and it gets better through every storm. 🎉🎉GO GIRL!🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤ YOU R THATGIRL.

[@journeytothemosthigh5021]

I appreciate you being so candid. Last year was the pinnacle of a really rough period in my life. The biggest lesson is that we are nothing without the Most High and we need to trust in HIM. Glad that you’re in a better place now. Look how far you’ve come! Keep on to greater!💕

[@nalus5192]

Thank you so much for sharing this and being vulnerable. I'm so sorry you went through this, I've followed you since your college videos. 2023 was rough for me as well in I went through a head injury & had to go on medical leave, couldn't work which led to financial troubles. I was severely depressed and had SI. I'm just coming out of the fog now. Sending so much love Fatima ❤️

[@IAM_JadeEmerald]

By sharing your story you motivate me to share mine , thank you 🖤

[@cristinamalcolm8111]

Thank you for sharing your story. I just got diagnosed with bipolar one disorder a few years ago around the same time you started suffering from your symptoms. I started having almost the same symptoms as you since 2014. It has been a struggle to find the treatments and medications for me but I’m doing well now and finally found a good treatment plan. I just worry the disorder doesn’t hinder my plans and ability to persue nursing. Thanks for letting us know we are not alone and how far we can go if we get help and get healthy.

[@fatimafrancesa]

def not alone and you will make it through ! 🩷

[@cylaweathersby9461]

Aww, Fatima, thank you for sharing 💖 always remember you're a warrior. Always stay in and protect your queen of sword energy ✨️

[@jmarie5709]

Thank you for sharing your story. So glad you are happy now! I think a lot of us have been through it but esp the last 4 years.

[@estefaniaamador2971]

Thank you so much for sharing ❤ hearing other people story makes me feel not alone and I’ve been watching you since way the beginning and stopped for a while but u inspire me thank you for being raw

[@natashamcrumpler]

Thank you for sharing I was around during that time and I am so glad God brought you out. I can relate all of 2022 I went through something similar. After catching C19 in July 2021 my health went downhill and I was diagnosed with a heart condition in Jan 2022. Life as I knew it changed and being a single mom my mental health went down i suffered with SI and depression. I couldn't take care of myself and I remember looking at pictures of myself wondering when I would go back to her. Present day I am still currently taking heart meds and my mental health is improving. I know that God has something for me and my testimony will be great on the other side.

[@BLULOTUSProductions]

I am sooooo proud of you for sharing your story 🙏🏾🦋 I cried with you when you discussed looking at your old pics & wondering where she went 🥹 She’s here & better than ever 🥳we are blessed that you were able to ignore acting upon those dark thoughts & reached our for help 🫶🏾💕 you inspire so many 👏

[@fatimafrancesa]

thank you!! 💐✨🩷

[@seekingtruth1254]

Thank you for sharing this I actually always thought that that outside of school, everything was always going so perfect for you and hearing this story gives me courage and strength because although not to that severity, I too, went through depression. However, if you do your research on KZbin and ask around, That was definitely signs and symptoms of spiritual attack! Jealousy and envy is real- don’t get me wrong everyone feels it but it is what someone does with it- I would love for you to make a video on this topic because I guess for some people seeing others success highlights their own inadequacies but at the end of the day it’s not your fault and you work hard and you are showing people what God can do! Please continue to move in silence and stay prayed up!

[@queenjerrica3966]

We serve a mighty good God! Thank you Jesus for bringing our good sis out of that funk. Congratulations on all of your success and I pray God Continuously bless you❤

[@MM-mm4ud]

Thank you for being brave and sharing your story, This helped me realize that there is joy at the end of the tunnel.

[@ShneiceB]

LOOK AT YOU NOW GURRRRLLLL....many more blessings....❤😊

[@tashiaalisha]

What a powerful story. I’m happy you’re here and I’m so happy that God pulled you through to the other side. Your testimony is going to help someone. Depression is real, mental health is real, and I’m just glad you’re an example to others that there’s hope. Life is so precious! Wishing everyone peace internally and externally 🩷

[@nicolawilliams7171]

Awesome testimony! You are truly an inspiration ❤

[@ButlerFamilyandFriends]

Girllll I kind of remember that time yet not really. I went through almost the same exact thing you are speaking about. I was pregnant so it was pre pregnancy and the post partum depression 2020 super real. I moved and I can’t remember a thing at that time. Couldn’t eat or sleep, all I could rely on was God to delver me. Thank you for your transparency I have been doing the work since then. Therapy, tried meds wasn’t for me. Just been taking my mental health and wellness so serious to the point I’ve created a business out of it. To God be the glory for your testimony. Keep shining bright sis God bless.

[@MsDivaOneLuv812]

This will reach and help an imaginable number of people. Thank you for sharing.

[@GOkinaGo701]

All glory to God! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your testimony Fatima! I love that u really stressed how different depression can be for each person because it's so true! Im happy to hear that the ppl around you (the worthy ones) took it serious and was there for you! Journaling can make such a difference as well. I journal off and on but recently I've been doing it alot more to control my anger and looking at past entries, it shows me what i still need to work on and how far I've come. So thank you again boo for the reminder that we all go through it and once we get through it, we'll come out better in so many ways. Wishing you nothing but the best!! 🥰 EDIT: forgot to mention that when us skinny gals are stressed out and start losing the weight we barely have ughhhh I could just scream lol

[@shansheaspence4696]

Thanks for this vulnerable story. You sharing this can help someone. Because their is life after certain situations in our life . Because your prove of that . Many great blessing to you

[@leilaromero3362]

Thank you for sharing! Giving normalcy to something so many go through.

[@Sara-zu4og]

It’s so sad how people can be so mean and negative. That’s why it’s best to keep a small circle and say less in general. You just never know. Constantly pray and stay strong. 💪 But the fact that your parents could be so supportive and yet calm in the midst of all of this. Kudos to them!

[@YRSLM]

You are amazing Fatima! I am so happy for you. You are a very well-spoken young lady and a good example for everyone. I wish you all the best in the future. Love from a fan of yours in the Netherlands. 💝💖💚💛🧡❤💙💜💗💓💘💕💟♥😘🥰😻 I hope you'll read my comment :)

[@fatimafrancesa]

thank you !!! 🩷🩷😘😘✨

[@nikkinurse2339]

2021 was the worst year of my life. Lost my mom and another important family member. Anxiety and depression is real

[@queenbutterfly4888]

❤thank you so much for sharing- you are an inspiration to many

[@P_d4321]

@55:02 SIS, WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH WAS NOT DEPRESSION. HEAR ME OUT………I BELIEVE IN GOD but I ALSO believe in the devil. Sudden suicidal thoughts that won’t go away is A SPIRITUAL ATTACK. You said yourself that your business was under attack and you felt physically threatened to the point where you started setting up your cameras to feel safe. You were also at the top of your game just opening your business and closing on your home.That’s because you had ENEMIES. JEALOUSY is REAL and so is EVIL. I’m proud you had the strength to share this and hope you found the RIGHT spiritual cleansing and protection you need. Trust me….there’s some things not even priests can remove. You’re Nicaraguan. I know you know a good Shaman. Blessings and light to you.

[@luzmargiraldo]

Thank you for talking about this. You are amazing

[@ClassyLady3181]

It sounds like you were maybe experiencing derealization. I’m so glad you’re telling your story and seeing you in the other side of it all. It’s inspiring. Thank you❤ I myself am in the process of pulling myself out of a depression.

[@priscillaflores10]

continued prayers for you Fatima, from Texas❤

[@lexi45735]

Maam your so special and I love you with all my heart. Im a 11 year old who loves jesus

[@fatimafrancesa]

😘😘🫶🏼🫶🏼😘😘🩷

[@kertrina3216]

Thank you so much for sharing. I really really appreciate your story because you just told my story for me..🙏🏾..Thank you I couldn’t describe what you referred to as”unplugged” I always said “Something popped”..I was completely transformed and it’s all good now..🥰

[@fatimafrancesa]

it’s very strange to explain! glad to hear someone else can relate to the feeling! glad you’re here and doing well 🩷🩷

[@sharondawilliams7707]

It’s DEFINITELY a testimony!!!!🙏🏾

[@Alicia-gk7gk]

You are a inspiration really you really give me hope I really really really appreciate you❤❤❤❤

[@chalikaoliver6960]

Thank you for sharing this!!!! You are amazing!!!!!!

[@yakeelyn]

It's gonna be alright. It's okay to not be okay but Journaling and other things to help you stay positive helps. Even in getting help... Thankfully you're much better

[@Cassie32762]

I am so proud of u girlie ❤

[@MissesMoniqueD]

I’m glad you shared your story, thank you 😊 you are strong. Meditate on the word of God. There is so much powers in Gods word, you need nothing else but his holy word the holy Bible. Amen 🙏🏾

[@marciaperkins8551]

Your inspiring a lot of people thank you for this vlog🙏🥰❤️

[@steph_steph876]

Thank you for sharing this Sis!❤

[@sheilatrn4633]

I took care of a patient that had gotten Covid that caused neurological issues and he said he couldn’t feel happiness or smile so I was able to get him a psych consult and gave him Ativan. He was so thankful. I wonder if that happened to you. I’m glad you’re ok, depression is horrible.

[@JW-qz4jl]

Yeah mental health issues after Covid is a thing, me and friend both developed anxiety out of no where, hand weird cycles, and may have been pushed into perimenopause, I was 33, she was 37, Covid is a stressor, my doc has said she has seen it as well folks developing new psychiatric disorders

[@antoinetteosborne6976]

💞💞 Thank you for sharing!

[@Kena_sunshine]

Thank you for sharing ❤

[@jessicaaaaaaaaaaa95]

Thanks for posting this I’m dealing with this right now, and have been for years I’m minding feeling S right now because I just feel like shit keeps happening to me My best friend and I had a huge falling out, my parents have split, and I’m 30 and single. I keep going on dates, and so far, nothing It makes me feel worthless

[@fatimafrancesa]

praying for brighter days for you 🩷😘😘

[@kenyam26]

GOD IS GOOD❤

[@ShaniceRichards-wf3bo]

Thank you for sharing

[@nancyyvetterosario8864]

Thank God that your not in that place anymore! 🙌 I remember not seeing your videos for awhile and hoping you were ok. And yes evilness does exist... but God is greater! No weapon formed against you shall prosper in Jesus name 🙏 This reminds me of my daughter she also went through something similar and she was literally in the hospital every week.. from 130 lbs went down to 100 lbs 😢 it was truly heartbreaking to watch her as a mother. God bless you Fatima and blessings to you in this new journey in life❤

[@Charenia1]

I love you tima❤

[@sixteen.candles.4644]

Wow. That is so crazy. This is why I personally couldn't handle fame.

[@theshaniyadaymone]

And to add It’s also called derealization/depersonalization. It happens from panic attacks/anxiety attacks. The doctors didn’t even know what it was they kept misdiagnosing me so I ended up going my own research & found out what it was

[@JW-qz4jl]

Actually 2 months sounds about right for antidepressants to work

[@irismarie6515]

❤

[@Waltaere]

Fatimaaa 😃

[@nycgreeneyes6242]

This sounds exactly like a spiritual attack. Definitely the enemy had a target on you, the best thing you did was calling out to God even in your lowest state, thank God for your healing

[@mariselasanchez85]

God Yahweh literally pulled you out from the stormy waters.

[@Datb2]

Saw this at 444 like

[@mariemia29]

Thank you for sharing ❤