My story of Ativan / Klonopin Withdrawal Cold Turkey benzo

[@jackiejames3898]

She is not exaggerating. There isn't a word to describe how horrifying coming off this drug is.

[@seantaylorgoat5104]

My Dr. Put me on adivan .5 mg 2 ×a day. I been taking it for 3 years. I really scared now. I have to get off them.i also take trazadone and lexapro.i have lots of pain in my right back,leg.is it these meds.

[@AMGbrakedancer]

Sean Taylor goat me too 😔

[@bayareadrifter415]

@@seantaylorgoat5104 that's not that high of a dose compared to a lot of people go on KZbin and type in 1% taper and you will be able to get off of it just fine I am down to a 0.25 a day but actually less than that now and for the most part doing fine

[@lesliemarieTX]

How long from the time you quit until you felt normal again? This is so horrible. I have taken klonapin myself and my brother had to go to rehab to get off if it but he was getting off of so many other things all the withdrawal symptoms were thrown in there together.

[@bayareadrifter415]

@@lesliemarieTX don't quit cold turkey. U HAVE to do the 1% taper to not have withdrawals

[@Rick-zw7zv]

In other words, never think psychiatrists know what they're doing.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Bingo!

[@sonofhibbs4425]

YES! They have no f’ing clue. They really truly don’t, then blame the patients for it.

[@maxpower1337]

They are legal pushers imo.

[@nostalgiaman6816]

@@AngiePeacockMSW This just recommended to me. How are you feeling now?

[@marleneholik-ls9wr]

The unshelled naked nerve analogy is accurate. Thanks!

[@toxicyouth94]

"A raw nerve walking through the world" Wow. That is an amazing way to put it. God bless you.. I am two months sober from Xanax. I nearly shot myself to end it all. Never experienced such pain of being tortured alive.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

ToxicYouth it only lasted two months for you?? I had the raw nerve feeling for about 3 years and can still feel it mildly. It’s torture! Stay away from benzos! Forever!

[@metalphobos3632]

Loved it. One of the strongest people I know. This shits happening all too much and nobodies held accountable for it. One good thing is that you cant stop the truth from spreading. i personally believe a lot of suicides(even outside the military)are psych med related.

[@5trezip23]

Drummers Eve you are absolutely right. if someone is going thru agony and no doctor will help and listen about what is going on. they may kill themselves seeing no other way. then they write off that as a weak or depressed person. it is tragic and criminal.

[@sonofhibbs4425]

Absolutely correct Drummers Eve. They’ll just blame it on “mental illness”...it’s easy for them to sweep it under the rug and will continue to do so.

[@gemeinschaftsgeful]

I couldn't agree more. Also, a lot of antidepressants cause aggressive behavior in some people like road rage and other violent acts.

[@stevensullivan5282]

@@gemeinschaftsgeful The benzos even me out, the SSRI'S AND SNRI'S keep me from being suicidally depressed but it makes me irritable and aggressive

[@domestique3954]

definitely! I witnessed many during my „career“,and i witnessed many dying from Hepatitis C/HIV infection and organ failure due to the abuse. It’s just a waste of life,lying around dumb on the bed

[@sdotsamson9]

I just wanted to revisit this. It’s been 7 years since I was on deaths door and saw this video and finally realized I wasn’t broken it was the shit they put me on. This video changed my life for ever and for the better. This countries medical system is fucked. I’ve connected with her over the year since then. But I just want to let everyone know- you can get better. It will just take a while. Slowly get off the meds and just focus on diet, exercise, sleep, personal relationships, purpose, and sunlight lol. It will take a minimum of 6-18 months for you to even feel half normal again. Day one feels like forever. It will be the hardest thing you ever do. But if you’re going through hell. Keep going. But it’s not JUST you and you are not broken. Tell your children and never let them near this shit ever. You are not alone.

[@tamihenderson4500]

No joke I’m going through it now 3months in and it’s rough

[@subversion6066]

I have been though several opioid withdrawals...some from insane amounts of OxyContin and fentanyl...and those were nothing compared to the hell that is benzodiazepine withdrawal. Depersonalization feels like you do no belong anywhere and must end your life because you are not a real person. You become driven to end your life and it’s like you have to constantly talk yourself off the ledge. It’s a surreal world of fear, like a bad acid trip that lasts days and days, not hours. By some miracle this veteran, myself and others survived it, but many do not. If you’re on a benzodiazepine do a correct taper, if you’re considering taking them...don’t. Thanks for posting your pain...it helps everyone.

[@andreaturnquist4855]

It helps me to know that I am not alone! I pray you are doing well 😚

[@OsamaBinDarrel]

Benzo withdrawal is scary with the seizures and shit .

[@ranim7618]

Subversion 6066.... you are absolutely right. This is the way I feel that I am not a real person, and everything I connect with is not real, this place , these people, all fake. It's very frightening. I am 4 months off xanax now Have you recovered, did this feeling of unreality go away? Please help and respond.

[@pigeonsil240sx]

I actually purposly got on my methadone during benzo paws just to bypass it because this took away the symptoms and made me feel pretty good, then i stayed on methadone for years,6 months off methadone today and bypassed the benzo paws. Not saying people should do this, im just saying it was much much easier for me.

[@pigeonsil240sx]

@deathadone88 I'm still in paws from stopping methadone 10 moths later so it was probably not a very wise choice at all. and yes 1 years of benzo will have a hard withdrawal, the longer you stay on the longer the paws it seems too. i did a water titration method when i quit benzos

[@HCM1986]

I am going through benzo withdrawals too. It's the hardest thing I've ever been through. I just got to remind myself when I think anything crazy that it's coming from withdrawal and that someday it will get better. It pisses me off how doctors hand this shit out candy. Stay strong and keep us posted on your recovery. I think we can do this!

[@suevaughan5267]

Hayley Miller

[@touragepodcast1261]

Hi Hayley, It's been one year.. How are you? This video and others on youtube really helped my withdrawal, if at least, because I felt like finally there were some others that knew how I felt. It is a long long mental difficult journey but you can make it. Since this video really helped me, I've started a podcast and in this one I actually talk about the moment watching Ang's video helped me. I'm trying to make a difference through community with this podcast so I'm going to tell a few people on this comments section about it. Hope you're better.. feel free to message me, but you have community here.. kzbin.info/www/bejne/mobUqYNsjpJ8f5Y Thats Tourage Episode 7 - Kathleen Goller

[@enzyme20056]

It’s not candy ..... although my mood stabiliser is berry flavoured.

[@toddlavigne6441]

true but often,they don't warn you about their addictive properties. a good doctor won't hand out a script very easily.

[@backintobalance9542]

Hayley Miller all the best

[@creilly4374]

On October 16, 2011 My husband who was a medically retired Army Ranger, took his life by overdosing on pain meds purposely. He was on Ativan and klonipin and a whole slew of other bs that the VA gave him. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope that this shows other veterans the real issues with all of the meds that the VA pushes..

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

My god I'm so sorry for you loss. This is happening to our entire generation. This was not your husbands fault. All VA and these terrible meds. Weeping with you.

[@BenzoBrains]

I think it's so important to hear your story as a veteran. this shouldn't happen to anybody, but that we are regularly doing this to our is sick. my neighbor had anxiety from withdrawal from pain meds after a back injury. he was given klonipin and one week later he shot himself. a couple of months later my doctor advised me to rapidly withdraw from Ativan. it's a silent epidemic. it's why I speak out about it now online and every where I can.

[@Rezparviz]

littlemissperfect I understand what your saying . But there is no correlation from klonopin and suicide .

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

littlemissperfect I assure you benzos decrease inhibition which leads to suicide. There's research on this. Google it. It happened to me.

[@Rezparviz]

Ang Peabody the same could be said for Alcohol. Anything that decreases Inhibition. Sex could lead to suicide . Oxytocin lowers inhibitions

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

ok- then what is your point. I know about 5 completed suicides from benzos alone, 3 were on Klonipin.

[@Rezparviz]

Ang Peabody I think your doing great on your recovery. Much braver than most .. is there evidence to time frames into how long it takes for a persons brain to return to normal .? I think those who had anxiety would have been better off using street drugs than pharmaceuticals (no pun intended) I just time and time again that the withdrawals seem much worse on these Meds than Cocaine , alcohol or Heroin .

[@tomandjennacali1879]

I’ve never heard someone describe exactly what I went through. So healing to know someone else gets it. These drugs create hell on earth it’s insane

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I'm so sorry you went through it too. Hell is an understatement.

[@andreaturnquist4855]

My own private hell. Sorry you went through it too.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@tyrel hahah you’re really funny. I have boxes and boxes of medical records with all my scripts. I’m also in a movie about it and they filmed me going through withdrawal. Medicating Normal is on Amazon prime for you to watch and you can go watch my 150 videos on their KZbin channel too.

[@jalanG10]

I just lost a close friend who took his own life because of a situation like this. Thank you so much for posting this. I'm so glad that you survived. You are so strong! My friend didn't make it. I am so sad and pissed about these evil, stupid f'ing drugs. This is an important video. My friend left a note, he was a nurse. He said he felt that after a lifetime of antidepressants his central nervous system was completely destroyed, he couldn't sleep, would never sleep again, couldn't feel anything and that he could no longer live like that. So he took himself out with a noose on a tree on the hill above his house. These are Nazi Drugs, and I'm sorry but your doctor was a brainwashed idiot. I hope he has awakened. I've noticed doctors are often way too full of themselves to realize how little they know and just how vast the educational brainwashing they received is. Either that or they're being paid off to push drugs.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I'm so sorry for your loss. We have lost a lot of people in this community of people harmed. I MUST be an activist to sound the alarm. I believe your friend 100% because I felt the exact same way. I am still shocked I'm still alive. The damage is so bad and so real.

[@Rollwithit699]

​@@AngiePeacockMSW Cold turkey w/d from klonopin 1.5 to 2 mg, taken as directed for 28-1/2 years, my doctor didn't taper me. Among the many, many symptoms I had, thought I should try to walk outside my apt to get some exercise, might help. I stayed away from walking in sidewalk near moving cars, I remember thinking I might throw myself in front of a car. The thought that I was actually considering this scared the crud out of me, have never considered suicide before, but I just wanted all the horror to end. I'm 69.

[@incognito595]

THEY KNEW HOW MUCH YOU WOULD SUFFER. YOU DESERVE TO KNOW THE TRUTH. THAT IS THE TRUTH.

[@rosagonzalez4847]

God Bless you Angela for getting this word out! I work where I see clients/guest/residents come in with all these meds- and I have asked many times- to my co-workers and managers---- why are they on these??? ( most do not care because it is not their job to care) I disagree it is ALL of our jobs to care!! It truly saddens my heart- What got me researching today is one person came in because he is off his psych meds-- talked with him for 3 hrs- and like you said he feels at times he is going to die- he has pain and terrors- truly has no one to believe in him. People keep telling him you are mentally ill and you need to get back on your meds. :( I am sorry what you have been through and I pray for God to give you strength to keep going- This is great what you are doing - Do not stop! K? keep getting your story out- You are helping people!

[@laurenashley4078]

I just heard my story... Thank you so much for sharing! 3 months tomorrow & I needed to hear that I’m not crazy or gonna die & it’s not PTSD getting worse.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Lauren Ginter no it’s not Ptsd getting worse/ whoever told you that doesn’t understand benzo tolerance and withdrawal!

[@MeghenFarley]

​@@AngiePeacockMSWptsd absolutely gets worse.

[@blackCrowDeathScroll]

BEWARE!! She is NOT joking about the withdrawal symptoms!! I wish the psychs and docs really took it serious about warning people before pushing these medications on them., smh. My withdrawal was a complete nightmare that I’m just now starting to wake up from! The worst part for me is the depersonalization/derealization, it’s the worse feeling I have ever had..

[@Snowflake1374]

Same with SSRI.

[@cindymitchell6226]

Thanks for your story Angela, I have lost all faith in the medical world with this clonazapam withdrawal. Have not been to a doctor for a year. Take care and good luck with everything you do!!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Same here.

[@angelajackson7079]

How are you now

[@cindymitchell6226]

I'm doing pretty good, enjoying life by getting out more

[@angelajackson7079]

@@cindymitchell6226 how long did it take u to feel better

[@cindymitchell6226]

@@angelajackson7079 About 3 years, it was a very long situation to get thru, I was on clonazapam for about years, and I'm sure that's why it took so long to feel "normal".

[@stevepeters2197]

I could totally relate to so many things you said. I've felt exactly the same way. I took Ativan for about 15 years, not knowing any better. The withdrawal from that was the worst thing ever went through in my life! I'm surprised to survived, but I did. It took me about 2 years to finally get past it.

[@djammer]

How you feeling now Steve

[@stevepeters2197]

@@djammer Hello, I feel back to normal. All of the bad stuff that came with the withdrawal eventually went a way. It took a long time for me but I just tried to ride it out while my brain adjusted to the medication not being in my system anymore. It was tough and really pushed my limits but I got through it. 🙂

[@djammer]

@@stevepeters2197 glad you’re feeling better, I’m going through ssri withdrawal

[@ellaMel4632]

@stevepeters2197 Hi Steve , I want to stop Ativan 1.5 mg at night after 8 months, it’s stopping to work for me anyway. Looking for safest way to quit

[@djammer]

@@ellaMel4632 look up the Ashton manual

[@donhall1834]

I just viewed this and you made this 4 years ago. I pray that you are doing well now. Thank you and all the people who commented on their experiences. Much love to you all ❤️

[@mariocoles]

I know exactly what your talking about. I went through this 3 years ago I really don't wish this on anyone.Thank you so much for sharing your video, this will hopefully help people that are going through this right now.

[@glenn5517]

Man this is hell, only been taking benzos for 3 months and the withdrawals are enough to make a grown man cry. I wouldnt wish it on my worse enemy.

[@robbiePlanetaSano]

I got off a 20 year Valium addiction cold turkey one year ago. It was hell, the hardest thing I ever did. I am just starting to feel normal. My body, my mind , everything had to reset. Thanks for your story. Benzos are the worst .

[@morningwithgracie7870]

Dd u reinstate again and taper it slowly?

[@Thegutsypuls]

how did you do it ? i mean did you took any supplements ?

[@kostasvalanidis7560]

Do you sleep normal now?

[@craig7715]

Cold Turkey after 20 yrs? Are u surprised u had a rough time 😂😂

[@robbiePlanetaSano]

devraaj naastik I took Benadryl at night to sleep. It worked. It’s cheap and over the counter in every country I ever traveled to. I still need it to sleep most nights. I drank myself to sleep for a month in the beginning. I am an alcoholic, I could not sleep . Sometimes I did not sleep for up to 5 days. Hell. I drank when I had to sleep.

[@happytrails699]

Thank you so much for post this Angela. Your story of poly-drugging is similar to my son's and he was also on 3mg of Ativan.Please do a video on your recovery process.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I am doing that today!

[@emenstravels7023]

I feel for you and anyone else who has experienced this hell. I went through a lot of the same situations except I had my S&W .40 in my hand and said oh F*CK NO, disassembled it and called my best friend and explained the situation, he took me in while I was going through it. The whole experience was a total hell. Stay strong sister and anyone else who has or is going through this. It eventually will get better and easier.

[@SurvivingBenzos]

Awesome video girl!I know you're going to help SO many people by telling your story!Love you!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

You inspired me with your videos! Love you back girl!

[@SurvivingBenzos]

Aww i'm glad i can inspire someone lol..You wouldn't believe all the people i have found struggling with these benzos in the past month,by posting on fb.I have a hand full here in my home town that i personally know.At least something good is coming from our hellish experiences!No telling how many people we'll save from ever taking them,or people out here that are on them and need the help that we never got

[@hajjpajj6646]

i was on 1mg xanax 3x daily for anxiety/panic and my doctor shut me off when i told her i drank on a weekend and it put me in the hospital with hallucinations, confusion and paranoia ... we need to hold psychiatrists responsible for being IRRESPONSIBLE in rx the meds

[@ryanwillings6392]

Thank you so much for sharing. I’ve been through the same damn thing and nobody even talks about it.. Thank you for being brave enough

[@Chemicalnotfound]

Thank you for sharing. I’m just now experiencing my first full day of withdrawal after taking klonopin for years. Every single symptom that you described, I’m currently going thru. I tried staying away before, but it makes me so socially awkward because everywhere I go the sounds, the lighting, everything is so sensitive that I just want to run back to bed. This is a nightmare. I’m so glad I’m not alone

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Sofia Mar I’m so sorry you are going through this now. It’s pure hell!

[@Kimmm1984]

I know exactly what you are talking about, it's like your central nervous system is badly damaged. Very impressive that you came off all the drugs, I hope you are feeling much better. I have the same back issues because of valium, very painfull and upsetting. I'm almost 3 weeks done with my taper, but still feel like a raw nerve as you said. It's just terrible... :-( Wishing you all the best and thanks for this video!! I have watched it a couple of times :-) Love from the Netherlands

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Girly Girl love to you!! It gets better I promise!

[@jenniferr5934]

Kim how are you feeling now

[@touragepodcast1261]

Hi Kimmy, the nervous system shit really fucked me up. I am convinced that my "fibromyalgia" is from getting off K pins.. How are you now? How are you? This video and others on youtube really helped my withdrawal, if at least, because I felt like finally there were some others that knew how I felt. It is a long long mental difficult journey but you can make it. Since this video really helped me, I've started a podcast and in this one I actually talk about the moment watching Ang's video helped me. I'm trying to make a difference through community with this podcast so I'm going to tell a few people on this comments section about it. Hope you're better.. feel free to message me, but you have community here.. kzbin.info/www/bejne/mobUqYNsjpJ8f5Y Thats Tourage Episode 7 - Kathleen Goller

[@stephenbailey8409]

Jennifer R I wish mine would. Over 22 years from polly this & pretty disgusting polly that.

[@annettedellapi9047]

Thank you.🙏🏼 I can truly appreciate and understand what you were saying. It’s people like you that give me hope XO

[@touragepodcast1261]

Hi Ang. On December 24th 2016 I thought my world was over. Didn't think I could make it another day. I come to you today May 7th 2018, haven't touched one since, my life is so much better but I come to you to tell you thank you. It was this video and others you've posted that was the start of me getting better, me finally feeling like someone else knew how I felt. etc. etc. Since them I have started a podcast. I am 7 episodes in and on the 7th we talk about the very moment I first watched one of your videos. I have added this (your video) to the time table of contents (as i make one in each episode so you can skip around etc) and came back on to say thank you again. I hope you're doing well! Your story has helpped mine and I hope they keep doing the same for other people.. Much Love - Samson

[@touragepodcast1261]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/mobUqYNsjpJ8f5Y Thats Tourage Episode 7 - Kathleen Goller

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Wow Tourage. This makes me feel so good that I helped a person!! I’m doing much better! I’ll go listen to your podcast now and comment.

[@Humanumikey]

Got me in tears won’t lie. Thank u for sharing! So so true on all of it. I was on Clonazepam for years, lost my meds.. ended up in the hospital for 10 days. Then they drug me up even more meds, I was gone. Benzo withdrawal sucks! Thoughts are simmering down a little but it’s so true what you said about the nerves!

[@danelleo3282]

Thank you for recording your experience. It has encouraged me to continue on my path of taking back my life. You continue to amaze me & I'll always be thankful for sitting next to you in that class at SCCC. You're one of the very few people in life that I look up to. I'm sooooo glad we're friends.

[@RavingDaveOne]

Thank you, thank you for sharing your story with me/us. I needed to hear the sound of your voice, and see the pain in your eyes so badly, right now, at this very moment in my benzos damaged life. You are a wonderful communicator. You have a keen intelligence. You express yourself with such clarity and specificity, naming the drugs, the exact dosages and the physical, emotional and psychological turmoil you have gone through and continue to go through. I needed help and you were here for me. Thank you for your service. Thank you for your courage. "Keep coming back"!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I'm so sorry you are going through it too. Take it one day at a time. It gets better I promise.

[@chunkylover54]

hugs Angela. thank you for sharing. this needs to be heard. I know it's not easy.

[@ariastaria2415]

Thanks so much for sharing. I'm watching KZbin videos on benzo experiences since I'm having an off day in a wave, ughh. I appreciate you!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Hang in there!

[@Suzannes2]

You are so grown up, intelligent, and beautiful now 7+ years off! We do heal! Thank you Angie 💙💜❤️

[@JessiBestiArtLofi]

That's so crazy that so many people have issues coming off. I was on 1mg kpin per day for 2 1/2 years.. I moved and could not go to the same doc and so I had no choice but to go down to .25 mg per day. The first week was uncomfortable and it was hard to sleep. It has been 2 months and I am down to .15 mg per day and have lost 11 pounds of excess weight. I do have anxiety disorder, but I just want everyone to know that just because other people have severe reactions to tapering, that does NOT MEAN that you will.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

That is very true too. Just because some people are allergic to peanuts does not mean everyone is. But also, I tapered just fine too until I got to a lower level and dropped one of my doses. I was fine until I wasn't fine. We are all different and there's no way of knowing if we will have a bad wd or not. We just have to taper and see what happens.

[@stevewatkins5256]

Nicole T I have tapered off benzos fairly rapidly several times. It was hard. Blood pressure spiked. But after about 3 weeks I was okay. I was always on high dose, too. The insomnia was the hard part, too. But my urine specimen was negative within two weeks. A week after that I was back to normal.

[@yingyang1008]

@@stevewatkins5256 Yeah, it's not about urine content - it's about the GABA receptors being downgraded and having to repair

[@denverwalker5723]

I dunno I was prescribed 3mg a day for 5 years and ran out 6-7 days ago and I feel like death I was saying the same shit less than a week ago I don’t get headaches ever and this one I have crawling from the back of my head to my iris is unrelenting The cold sweats are reminiscent of drying out in the desert with no more than a foot of shade to combat the sun Emotional drought and mental gymnastics is the least of my worries at this point because the world flipped it polls in my reality Ever flipped or remained upside down for a period of time? Imagine that feeling coupled with a good ass beating and enough alcohol to drown every pore of yours flowing through your veins It’s hell I’m truly scared of death for the first time in my life thanks to this drug

[@a.b.37-f9v]

@@denverwalker5723 You will get through it. It can be a long process but it's survivable. Did you cold turkey?

[@catswillrue]

I'm so happy I found your video. No one warned me either about what this can do to you. I've been feeling terrible for 4 years now and I couldn't figure out why and realized it was probably the klonopin because I only take it like 3 to 4 times a week and then would go a few days without it because I was told to not take it often but not why... when I realized its the klonopin, everything I've been feeling makes so much sense. I'm tapering off right now but my dr hasn't been helpful with that and just tells me to cut down and take it less....and I'm getting the worst effects and dealing with a lot of what you mentioned. I keep telling my husband I think "I'm dying" "I'm afraid I'm losing my mind" I just feel wrong. Something feels very wrong and I havnt been able to explain it to anyone but hearing you say those things is giving me so much comfort and now I believe I can feel normal again eventually. Thank you

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Here’s likely what happened to you. Also, look in the caption of my video and see the other websites to help you taper. w-bad.org/tolerance/

[@angelajackson7079]

How are you now

[@catswillrue]

@@angelajackson7079 well I was able to get off of it and was free of withdrawal after about 6 months

[@angelajackson7079]

@@catswillrue how long it took for the pain and symptoms to go away at what month

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I’m soooo happy for you!

[@vickiconnor4518]

I went though withdrawl last winter and I swear I was dying. The Dr.s were just annoyed by me. They told me I would feel better in a week. OMG I wasnt gonna make it a week. I was thinking of jumping off the roof. I couldnt figure out how to get up there so I called 911 but didnt tell them I wanted to jump off the roof because I knew they would lock me up. I just told them of all the symptoms I had and they didnt act like I had anything wrong with me. I couldnt hold still, I had shooting electric shocks all through my body, I felt like I had to run or move fast but I couldnt. It was torture going on inside my head. Its so hard to explain how I felt. Its like you are going crazy and there was a numbness inside my head like my brain split in half. Im so glad that part is over, for the most part anyway. I still dont feel right and my panic attacks are worse than they were before I got on the clonazapam. I stay at home most of the time. I can count on having a horrible panic attack as soon as I leave my house. Some days are worse than others. I guess Im gonna have to live like this. I also have chronic pain and at the same time I was taken off the clonazapm the Dr. cut my dose in half of my pain meds. It was double jepardy. Im so miserable now between pain and anxiety. The Dr. wants to put me on depression / anxiety meds. NO MORE! I dont want anything else that is gonna mess my head up. Why donnt Dr.s tell you what this stuff does to you before you get on it. I may have chosen not to take it. Panic attacks are so much easier to deal with than these medicines.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

There is a lot of support out there Vicki. Google "benzo buddies forum" and look on Facebook for "benzo" and the groups will pop up. All this crap will go away. Watch my other videos and you can see the progress

[@gulledfarah3973]

I hope your well vicki

[@hiddentalesofnature4183]

Hi Vick I hope ur well and ur not alone these doctors they don't even consider telling us the major side effects of these drugs ... They don't know how it feels to experience the hell of withdrawal.. I'll pray for you I hope ull do better with time

[@jessy3783]

Omg we are the same! I'm praying for you! I'm 110 days off 3mg xanax quick taper off...and OMG it was horrible! Very blessed and greatful to be alive every day

[@LoveFlatfootin1]

You did a great job of describing the indescribable. The only good thing that comes from that experience is we can say with 100% certainty, "I'll never do THAT again!!!

[@boidlvr]

I kept saying 'Thank you,Thank you' all thru your talk because everything you said was me.I was encouraged greatly! My story results are some brain damage from 7 yr's of Ativan use. Now on the last of an Ashton titration schedule. Like you, at home alone with no support. Been doing the Paleo and see progress. I like all you said, so much help. You could be a Doctor right now with your experience ! Thank you my dear.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

boidlvr glad I could help. Sad you have to go through this too. Heal fast my friend.

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@AngiePeacockMSW my frd I quit alc take benzo clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen for sleep only 15 days then quit feel depersonalization 390 days sober now

[@HalfwayJac]

I think I may be one of the lucky ones. I’ve been getting daily improvements since Wednesday, after being on and off Benzos for the last 9 months. I went through a terrifying 2 weeks of not being in reality, and the most horrible feelings I’ve ever felt. Things still aren’t great. I still have trouble with the concept of time, and poor memory and sweating, but it’s getting better on a daily basis now. I’m NEVER touching a Benzo again. This has been the worst experience of my life. You are one hell of a strong person to have endured this. I hope you are loving life now!

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Jax did u feel DpDR and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 114 days sober

[@stonejackballer482]

Withdrawal is hell. You're beautiful and courageous to make it through. Sent w love

[@paulmark8347]

Thankyou for your service troop. Stay strong and thanks for sharing your story of bravery. I am proud to call you my sister at arms..

[@raybradley4939]

You saved more than just one I’m sure of it because I’m one of those thanks so much.old army here thank you for your strength and service

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

RAY BRADLEY thank you for your service Ray and I’m so glad you’re still here.

[@leahleona9115]

Thank you, I had my first anxiety attack 1 month 1/2 ago and the first medication I was prescribed in the ER was Lorazepam. I was only taking the medication two weeks and it has by far been the worst and most scary experience I have ever encountered. I have crying spells, chills, thoughts of dying, low appetite, migraines, body aches. As you stated nearly everything on the list you saw and felt you were experiencing was the same for me. I am today 7 days into withdrawal from this drug. I have never felt more horrible, but I am pushing. I pray that your journey moving forward is a healthy one , and thank you for your courage to upload this video. It educated me, and I wish I did more research of my own, before listening to doctors.

[@tze1204]

how did it go?

[@leahleona9115]

@@tze1204 it took about 3 months but I am clean. Never again will I take this

[@zanewoodward8994]

I know you are telling the truth because the same thing happened to me .

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

i'm so sorry Zane. How long are you off now and how do you feel?

[@heatherspence3848]

This video has really helped me to understand that I need to see another doctor for the first time in 5 years. Thank you thank you thank you

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Heather Spence be careful. If talking to a doctor about this they will mostly likely not believe you and maybe cold turkey you off. Be careful

[@FaithInspiredWriter]

In 2010, I went through a hellish nightmare with Ativan and Cymbalta. Those two drugs were severely interacting. Why would doctor’s prescribe that combination if it’s known to interact? Most physicians hand out scripts like it’s candy. After experiencing horrific side effects and withdrawals from those meds, I wanted to taper off of them. My true story is on my KZbin channel. Long story short, I experienced protracted withdrawal syndrome and spent many years suffering. Cymbalta and Benzos are poison. I’m fortunate to be alive. Currently, I’m 9 years FREE from Cymbalta and 8 years FREE from Benzos. I follow a holistic approach, which has significantly improved my wellness.

[@aashish551]

I gave severe back pain neck pain head pressure and leg numbness. I cold turkeyed 0.75mg 10 months back. Am very sick . Hell

[@andrewcorcoran5228]

Just wanted say thank you for that. I really needed to hear that someone else knows what this is like. Im very new to benzo withdrawal and never thought I would feel like this. I don't know why but i feel better after watching that. So again thank you

[@kimchi98]

Wow, I’m by far not a social person and I rarely involve myself into commenting videos, until you :-) Your videos are honest, genuine, and I thank the universe I found them. I can relate a 100% (I beat alcoholism and am now entering 3d week cold turkey from SSRI and benzo so yeah, it’s hell especially restless legs, i don’t get much sleep) something worth considering is what nature makes available to us. I’ve been taking CBD (medical cannabis) in either oils, e-liquids or good ol’ fashioned buds and it helping tone down the side effects. A you mentioned, the withdrawal symptoms are worse than opiates or other drugs and that’s what makes us such strong human beings. We endure, we fight so many fights, more than your average Joe. We are special, we are beautiful and we deserve to live fulfilling, happy lives. And i’m starting to tear-up lol, anyways, it is so reassuring to know there are other people out there with similar ordeals. I wish you all the best, you are a strong, beautiful woman and I’m convinced things will only get better from this point on.

[@dianethomas7149]

Daniel Faccini cold turkey on benzo can be deadly. Please be careful!

[@andreaturnquist4855]

I am a recovering alcoholic. Congratulations on your sobriety! The benzo withdrawal is debilitating.

[@doreendodge5571]

In 2013 I went through what you talked about, with no answers and doctors treating me like I was paranoid and dilusional to express that I suspected that it had something to do with the Lorazepam. I was determined to find answers somewhere, so I did my own research. It took many months before I began to find some answers, on the internet and in Benzo Buddies was the most helpful. But still, this video was SO helpful to me to learn even more, as you were on this roller coaster nightmare many years. Thank you! Thank you for your care and for being brave to do this video. You are so appreciated by me and you are and angel. Wishing you much Love and Inner Peace. In Gratitude, Dor

[@elkearnouts7103]

Know the feeling! 8 Months off from benzo ( tranxene). And feeling a lot better! Not that i am all healed, but it is so much better than a couple of months ago. I'm from Belgium. It needs more attention!!! Many people could be saved! Thank you for sharing your story!

[@CharlesSilver-ew3ju]

Thank God you're doing better. And will continue to do better. Thank you.

[@motojesse]

I thought the exact same thing about the 22 vets a day when my physiatrist started tapering me off clonopin! Between the actual effect of withdrawal and how they treat you/deal with it, it wouldnt surpise me if that was a big factor.

[@angeladare3091]

Thank you for sharing. I too am opiate and benzo free....a hell I will NEVER go back to. It’s been alittle while since you made the video.i hope you are continuing to feel freedom from the medication.

[@MrEsEeFe]

Ive never felt fear like i felt when i withdrawled from benzos..good job on getting off nobody knows unless they expirience it

[@joez3706]

How long has it been since you stopped? and are you feeling better now?

[@MrEsEeFe]

@@joez3706 it has been since june 7th 2017 a year and 9 months and yes im feeling so much better especially now i feel about 90% im a completely different the hallucination i suffered from for 2 weeks really changed me for the better i dont know how to explain it but yes i am better.

[@joez3706]

@@MrEsEeFe I'm only now starting to taper down from 4mg Klonopin/day

[@MrEsEeFe]

@@joez3706 take your time if at all possible 8 went cold turkey from 10 years of abuse then i ws prescribed for 3 years 3mg plus a day and it was intense and dangerous but it worked for me. Does anyone around you know your doing this cause it could get weird and scarry especially when you stop. I recomend not doing this alone if at all possible. My journey may have been horrible but yours could be easier or just as intense just be prepared. When i went through it i had no idea nor did anyone around me. My brother knew i was coming off the subutex and xanax i was prescribed but i thought it was gonna be like opiate withdrawl it wasnt. 4 days into it he thought i had been eating shrooms he tried to take me to a hospital out here in cali and they just wanted to give me ativan but i was adamant about no benzos so they sent me home 2 days later my brother drove me to utah and i went into the hospital for 3 days there i slept finally and stopped hallucinating...my story is crazy so just be prepared for shit to get weird. But if i can do it you can to. If you ever wanna chat shoot me a message

[@joez3706]

@@MrEsEeFe Thanks for your input. I'm not going cold turkey, I'm going to taper. The Dr. I get them from is clueless, is sad.

[@jimcollins7052]

Thanks for sharing your story I have there. keep your head up sister! Jim Iraq 03-04

[@tommyt7441]

"a snail with no shell n i was just a raw nerve walking through the world." BULLSEYE.

[@michaeladam626]

100%

[@davisworth5114]

thank you for sharing your nightmare, you are very brave, I pray that you will be touched by the holy spirit and find peace, from a Vietnam veteran.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

David O'Beirn welcome Home brother

[@theroguewriter66]

My husband is a combat veteran. Everything you say is true...❤

[@dragan3290]

Im so happy i came across yours video. I have been on large amounts of Valium for over 25 years.. ive been on oxycodone, tramadol, lyrica, codeine for approximately over 10 years and every symptom you explained is what im feeling!! I had to go cold Turkey off Valium, slow release oxycodone,gabapentin! I don't know what is normal anymore! My memory is extremely damaged. My doctor cannot prescribe anymore!! I tried a doctor up the road but i can't leave the house without sweating and trembling like a jack hammer! Unbelievable..

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

It sounds like you’re in withdrawal. Please watch some of my other videos on how to cope and heal.

[@dragan3290]

@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks for the quick reply ❤️

[@lindadiane8705]

It massively disrupts and disregulates your nervous system

[@eulaliobazan1666]

Do y ou u ever recover from these?

[@stevensullivan5282]

@@eulaliobazan1666 Yes. It takes time and it takes hope.

[@domestique3954]

and you relax your muscles to death! It starts with the leg muscles and destabilizes your walk, the brain shrinks 1-2 % EACH YEAR during abuse. Speech is getting slower and slower also. Withdraw from high doses over decades is mostly impossible as it lasts more than a year that you feel sick and depressed

[@wanderbread4217]

@His Masters Voice you are lucky you stupid little shit. Go fk off somewhere

[@junior.von.claire]

Steven Sullivan Your profile pic shows potential. That’s not the only thing it shows. 🇺🇸

[@heatherinCT]

Thank you for this. The way you articulate the symptoms and experience is spot on to some things I have experienced. Hope you're better now!

[@AdizzleMs]

Thank you. Something like this happened to someone I love too. The only way to save others is to do exactly what you're doing --speak out and share. You are beautiful and very brave to reach out to save and warn others. We must end this happening to anyone. I send love your way on your healing process. P.S my friend who got off Klonopin found that taking crushed up Holy Basil/Tulsi plant helps. You can grow it or buy in capsules at a health food store.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Thank you AdizzleMs

[@ElizaEm86]

You are so brave for making this video. I have been wanting to make one and start documenting what I'm going thru. I am 2 weeks out from a forced ct in the psych hospital. This is my 3rd ct. I have been told by every Dr that my anxiety disorder and have ptsd that I have to be on these for the rest of my life. And I have fallen for it 3 times. This is the worst experience ive ever had. I no longer trust Drs and medical professionals

[@31stoffl]

try cbd

[@Hopium2025]

It was only in the last week of my father's life that I started to learn about benzos. He was on them from Jan. 2019 until his death in Aug. It's disturbing how they do not educate patients on these medication, especially the elderly who are taking 10-14 scripts a day, especially when they are diabetic too. My father kept saying his body hurt, it was withdrawals. When he was in the hospital in June they spiked the benzos. When he came home, they were cutting down the dose he was on for two weeks. He wasn't sleeping much in the hospital or at home, the Ativan/Larazepam wasn't working. Cutting him down was putting him in a low dosage withdrawal. I have read and listened to a lot about benzo withdrawal. That is a lot of what he was going through the last month before he went to heaven. Family didn't know. Did the drs. know, care? They never told us or warned us. Thanks for sharing another story for me to learn from.

[@debrag.3900]

Thank you for your video. Thank God for people like you sharing their story and saving others from this horror.

[@samsongabriel4087]

Thank you for your service in the military & thank you for sharing your story. You're brave and beautiful to humanity for sharing.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Thanks Samson

[@dananthulin8226]

this has been happening to me for twenty years ( being medicated for psy hiatric reasons) i recently started weening myself off some of the meds. went from 9 to 3. and i feel better but not well yet. unfortunately i took myself off klonopin and experienced seizures and more. no one told me about what would happen. of course not. my wonderful guy ive been seeing has been a great support and introduced me to your story and sent me a link for this. im crying right now because 20 years ive thought i was bat s**t crazy...i know i have issues but for a while suspected the meds had something to do with what i was experiencing. im 35. i have a life to live. i want my memory back. my self back. im going to research and figure out what these meds are doing. no more blindly trusting doctors. thank you angela.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

You are absolutely not alone. Search for Facebook support groups by typing in "benzo" in the search bar. This is the website I joined and it helped me so much: www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php unfortunately doctors will blame it on anything other than the meds!!!

[@lokee7]

Thank you. You are incredibly brave. Your story will save lives.

[@Hope_is_Love]

You have dug DEEP!! I truly congratulate you on doing your own research and going beyond the BS at the doctors gave you. Benzos are a whole nother level of hell. I have failed brain surgeries and back procedures been getting prescribed really heavy opiates. I'd rather get off opiates 100 times than getting off Ben's. I had to get back on them because of all the nerve pain and some days when I run out I purposely don't drink water so I don't have to go to the bathroom because the pain I already have is just under terminal cancer pain medicated and its life whatsoever when I run out. I wouldn't even call it existing... Just counting down the days and hours till I can get that script. I've gone really deep in the last couple years doing research and I'm glad I did. I made the mistake of telling my family too much and they basically pinned on my issues on the medication I take when the medication I take makes it so I can do literally anything in life from brushing my teeth to going grocery shopping.

[@BentHeWiLdER]

I suffer from anxiety and adult ADHD and I'm fighting Klonopin dependancy, thank you for the video.

[@jaclynpeters3892]

Thank you for sharing your story. This is so important. Much Love.

[@lockieloxton5074]

thanks for sharing. i went through all the same symptoms as you and im a firm believer these meds are responsible for alot of suicides and unexplained shootings as well. i am a calm and peaceful person and im lucky i didnt hurt myself or someone i loved coming off valium and ADs. im now 14 months free and getting more functional by the month, i have even started working again! Stay strong Angela, time will heal you ☺

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Thank you Andrew!

[@Dudemieser]

Ang Peabody um, I picked them up on the 18th of this month, the fire was the 25th.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

David Norris I don't know what you're talking about.

[@touragepodcast1261]

It is insane man.. really makes me nervous that schools are going to start testing more for anxiety and depression.. I am a believe that should happen and we should be aware but im nervous because of how the doctors will proceed after.. This video and others on youtube really helped my withdrawal, if at least, because I felt like finally there were some others that knew how I felt. It is a long long mental difficult journey but you can make it. Since this video really helped me, I've started a podcast and in this one I actually talk about the moment watching Ang's video helped me. I'm trying to make a difference through community with this podcast so I'm going to tell a few people on this comments section about it. Hope you're better.. feel free to message me, but you have community here.. kzbin.info/www/bejne/mobUqYNsjpJ8f5Y Thats Tourage Episode 7 - Kathleen Goller

[@benzopicnicbasket5817]

Lockie Loxton SAME

[@bacon6118]

I am going through hell right now tryin to detox. It’s the scariest thing in my life. Thank you for your story. It gives me hope and I’m so happy you had the strength and got through this with no problems. I live alone in another state away from family & friends which makes every more scary. I pray anyone getting off benzos safely detoxes. Much love everyone

[@aileenfulgens1909]

You're not detoxing, you're gaba receptors are damaged and may take years to heal. Every nerve cell in your brain and body have been damaged, that's why it hurts so much.

[@tracyharsh1]

Thank you ... Knowledge is POWER..... :)

[@tracyharsh1]

Iam myself am on such said medications and wanting to get off, however Im terrified.

[@warewolfchrisscevert7365]

Yes it is... Don't ever let doctors poison you and blindly follow what they say to do without making sure you find out and learn all you can about all the meds that they put you on or want to put you on . Learnt that the hard way sadly .

[@walkerjoe651]

So glad you pull through!!!! Peace and stay Blessed Boss Lady👍

[@Snide01]

And weed is illegal?

[@utahboxergirl11]

Snide 2 that's how I got off benzos and alcohol..

[@benzopicnicbasket5817]

Screw legalities ..cbd is saving my life

[@toddlavigne6441]

weed is the cure for anxiety and insomnia....far far safer we live in a very corrupt world, big pharma has so much power

[@toddlavigne6441]

your getting the wrong type of weed. there are strains out there that are better than any benzo

[@peacelove5329]

yes

[@jojojeep1]

it's the worst, I pray your even better today then ever. BE BLESSED God love's you.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I'm much better. Click on my picture above to see the update video of how I am feeling now at 27 months off.

[@damonm3]

I’m getting near the end. This is nuts!! God I hope I can make it back to normal... how do you feel now?..

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Damon I have update videos on my channel. One recent. Just click my picture and go to my channel page to watch them.

[@damonm3]

Healingfrom Benzos thanks

[@dylancaldwell677]

Amazing post. Thank you for sharing. very courageous if you for sure. Congrats on breaking free that's awesome so happy for you. Struggling with the tapering phase currently. I'm terrified and you know that feeling. All the best to you

[@colonelangus2596]

You saved my life,you rock,!! No joke,you saved my life,!!!!!!

[@Tinkerbell91280]

I really appreciate that you had the courage to post this video. I’m on ambien, clonazepam and escitalopram. I juse started my journey about 2 weeks ago. My doctor cut my dosage in half. Im experiencing headaches, memory lost, weird out of body experiences at times when I’m out and the big side effect is now I’m starting to feel again…before i was numb by medication. I pray for help me through this journey because i want to be my normal self again unmediated.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

You’re tapering too fast! Look up “inner compass initiative” and read about safe tapering

[@maureenriddell9513]

This is EXACTLY what I'm going through since end of Oct. 2019. You explained how I'm feeling. Noone in my world understands. The phone no longer rings. I'm totally alone. Help.

[@latishaharris834]

Thank you you describe this so on point, 1 year now alone in my car everyone walked away they dont believe I was ct off 1mg klonopin , God is my Healer bc i dont know how im still fighting this.

[@popculturevegan]

I have PTSD and other mental health illnesses. I went off Ativan cold turkey in 1998, it was one of the worst experiences of my life.Thank you for sharing.

[@EEMusicLIVE2]

Thank you for sharing this. My wife is going through the exact same thing as a result of doctor prescribed Xanax. When she started having all these problems thinking she was going to die, I went to the doctor with her and he said EXACTLY what your doctor said, "the xanax is not causing this". He said that she should UP the dosage. We decided then and there to taper off the drug. 3 months after tapering completely off the drug, my wife is STILL having many of the symptoms that you described. She is finally starting to get better, but the process is slow. God bless you and thanks for informing people how destructive these drugs are!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

She will get better. It takes a long time. I am on year 3. Thank YOU for supporting her through this. She needs you.

[@geraldbutler5484]

A doctor prescribed these awful drugs for my wife. I found out and they went down the toilet. My wife is ok.

[@WesleyGravolet]

Know this is an old post but i hope you are doing well...I've been exactly where you were, the benzo withdrawal is like no other!! Explaining to someone who hasn't been there would think you were exaggerating or being some sort of drama queen. Hope you had the right support through all of this.. Take care or yourself!! ❤❤❤

[@msroulakay6492]

Omg I'm sitting here crying I lost my husband 4 yrs ago been on lorazepam all the sudden 2 weeks ago I got so dizzy the whole room spun thought I had a stroke I get shaky my ears ring I feel like I'm gonna pass out for 3 weeks drs say I'm fine and a Dr friend of mine told me I'm having withdrawals even in as little as 8 hrs from last dose I take them all day long to get through my day now to feel OK.. omg thank you I have to get help to get off this poison thank you so much I feel like I'm dying ...

[@ryans7146]

You're lucky you have a Dr who is allowing you to maintain your dose, after moving away from where I was originally prescribed benzos (which I've been on for 13 years now) I can't find a Dr that will give me my script because the Drs are trying to be responsible and not give out dangerous drugs. I've had to start buying my medication from Mexico so I can take .25-.50 mg a day of clonazepam when I take .25mg it only holds me over for about 8 hours at about 12 hours I can't tolerate the migraines so I have to redose, sometimes I can get to 16 hours. I try to avoid taking .50mg a day because I don't want to be on that much of it. It's so hard though.

[@river_dance_500]

Read my comment.

[@AxeLady66]

Thanks for sharing your story. I am 22 months of Ativan and I am having a bad set back. It helped a lot to watch this today. I hate not being in control of myself.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

what caused the setback?

[@ellaMel4632]

How long were you taking it and what was your taper schedule ?

[@wpwentzell]

I cold turkeyed (multiple times, kindled) a Xanax prescription prescribed to me by a country bumpkin doctor in my mid-20's. Every time I missed a dose I felt like I was swimming in a fishbowl filled with adrenaline. I was prescribed the med for anxiety, and I was put on an insane amount for over half a year. To this day, over a decade later, I'm still not right. That doctor still practices to this day. You know, Angie, I relate to your story so much. I'm 39 now, live mostly a great life, have a wonderful fiancée and job, but to this day, I am still broken inside that human greed allowed this to happen to me. I think the biggest takeaway from this experience for me is surprisingly not my broken body, but it is my broken faith in humanity. When I leave this world one day, I will feel relief that no longer can I be exploited. Many, many thanks to you and all you do. I am considering going back to school to get my counseling license. If I can touch just one person who has been through this, it will all be worth it.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

If you ever want to share your story on my channel, you have an open invitation. I can relate so much to what you wrote.

[@719989]

Girl...you are saving lives. Thank God for you. 🙏🏼❤️

[@colonelangus2596]

This is EXACTLY what happened to me!!. Less than 2mg. A day prn. I had a complete mental break.!!!!!! I was horrified.horrified. electric shocks.,no sleep for months.!!!! I was honestly insane from this HORRIFIC, HORRIFIC DRUG.!! I had to be hospitalized 5 times. I thought about killing myself!! I felt like my brain was ripped in half. I am an engineer,I had to leave my job,I cri5 non stop!!! I am tearing up hearing your story. YOU like myself went into HELL.!!!!!! YOU are strong my friend,I will pray for you and may society wise up to the big LIE!!! DOCTORS ARE FN CLUELESS.!!! My God it hurt so much so MUCH. I am so happy you survived,I am so lucky I survived. It cost me my job,my sanity,but thank God we pulled through.!!! Thank you for this video,it is truly causing me to cry!!!!

[@lauriina85]

Hi, did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing and normal life at all? I have it all the time and can't do anything or be with anybody. Homebound and brain shut down all the time. Third time to taper off I wake up to death and brainlock and that truth I'm homebound and can't do anything. Was active, social grateful person before I had bad trauma and panic attacks and prescriped a big amount benzo and no warnings.

[@sandiebroomfield6245]

Brave girl, this will help people thankyou. Wishing you all the best flower 😊

[@smilemor-phony5964]

Angie speaks for all of us psychiatric drug survivors who've been forced by mental health-care workers into cold-turkey benzo withdrawals and left on our own to survive. I did experience hallucination & seizures. While my Effexor, Trazodone & Lithium c/t withdrawal drove me to become homicidal for 8 long, excruciating months requiring my last hospitalization. It's why I wrote a book describing what it's like being psychiatrically drugged w/ETCs for 35 years after being deliberately misdiagnosed as Bipolar, and detailing my multiple cold-turkey withdrawals at the end. I named it 'Psychiatric Iatrogenic Illness & Benzo Withdrawal Syndrome: Why don't we matter?'. I will most likely never be published due to funds. Psychiatric drugs can & do induce insanity. Psychiatric drugs can & do destroy lives. Psychiatric drugs can & do KILL. Thank you Angie for sharing your story. But most importantly, thank you for surviving.

[@trishwright986]

wow ang...our beginnings w benzos are almost identical. ive never heard somebody else's recollection that is so close to my own. you're so lucky you have so many friends who love & support you. im so agoraphobic now i cant go on facebook either, it's been over a year. my ptsd wasn't from the military, but rather a succession of physically/emotionally abusive relationships (2). my husband now is great, but i feel terrible he has to put up with my lows, and haven't been sexual for months. im lucky we're approaching our 40s and had a very sexually satisfying relationship for 7yrs up to this point--otherwise id be terrified of him looking elsewhere for sex on top of everything else! anyway, you've really struck a chord with me that none of these other benzo sharers have. you're strong. you're real. with this i can identify, and i will continue to watch your vids for added support. thank you for putting yourself out there!! i'll be "seeing" you! --Trish

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Hang in there Trish! I will probably post another update soon!

[@sonofhibbs4425]

I WANT SOMEONE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR WHAT THIS DRUG DID TO ME!! This stuff is wrong to give to people!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Son Of Hibbs me too. 😢

[@sonofhibbs4425]

I feel so bad for everyone trusting their doctors.... people are so ill informed and people are so so so harmed by this. It’s no small thing. It’s horrific to the max, but people who’ve never experienced this would have no idea what this is like. I want to cry everytime I see stories like yours that match my experience. It’s been 12 years- I warn everyone, but still people do not listen. Doctors do not believe. I, like you, was told it was my anxiety disorder. Hell, no. This was like 1000 times worse than any panic attack. You can’t even explain how it was. I’m still traumatized by it 12 years or so later. I’m not having the symptoms now, but I am physically ill ever since which makes me question if I was brain damaged. It took about 3 years until the windows got large enough it was tolerable. It took many years to recover, and that f’ing doctor thought nothing of what I reported to him but blamed ME, my body for it. I never in my life had such problems....ever! I wish I could warn everyone. They hand this shit out like candy.

[@randolphnitz4427]

I hope that you are doing well now. That dosage is very high. I am glad that you had the strength to try getting off multiple times. You are very resilient.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

1 mg is not a high dosage

[@larryherrera]

How are you now? I hope everythings fine now 2019.

[@andreaturnquist4855]

I hope everyone is doing well!