My Suicide Story: Episode 7 - Kev's Story

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much for all of your supportive and kind comments. I was an honor to share my story here. If you'd like to see how things are going, I have a Mental Health Vlog on my channel.

[@Lua658]

You went through so much and kept fighting, you are an inspiration... Also, very beautiful music... Thank you very much for sharing and I wish you all the best 🙏

[@kevgmor]

@@Lua658 Thanks so much Lua.

[@tekboi1984]

Your story is so similar to mine. I had a good run but I've been struggling for the last year. I've been going downhill since the end of 2019, I just keep digging myself into a deeper hole. I'll be 41 in January and just hope I can find the strength to pull myself out of it this time.

[@Lua658]

@@tekboi1984 You will find strength... One day at time... Focus on small pleasures and conquests every day... Wishing you all the best 💫

[@ashleycool4285]

So glad you are still here. I have had two attempts and now I have three children who keep me alive but it's still a struggle.

[@gary5477]

I get mildly annoyed when people say it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Not all problems are 'temporary'. Some are chronic and LONG lasting, years even or even permanently.

[@kevgmor]

That's very true. Thank you

[@lindorini]

Yes❤❤❤

[@kevgmor]

Thank you so much for creating a space for me to share!

[@hadi20233]

Hi Kev, amazing video. Unfortunately I have reached the end of my lonely, stressful & exhausting story. Live for me & drink a cup of tea for me on that beautiful beach ❤

[@monacoleman24]

@@hadi20233I hope you find peace 😢

[@mattmillaa712]

@@hadi20233please tell me you’re still here!

[@kevgmor]

Before By Kev G Mor I might be tired, but I’ve been tired before It’s not the first time I’ve made my way back from the floor But the harder I fall, I forget what I’m fighting for I might be down, but I’ve been down before It’s going to be a fight, but I’ve been a fighter before It’s not my first time in battle, but now I am at war Where I got beaten down, battered and sore I can be a fighter, where I couldn’t before It might be dark, but I’ve found my way before Though I can see no light, my feet recognize this floor Where it’s weathered and worn is the path that I look for It’s a damn hard time, but I was hardened before I might be down, but I’ve been down before It’s not my first time in battle, but now I am at war And the harder I climb, the more I’m fighting for I might be tired, but I will climb until I soar!

[@alisoncrawford2]

Kev, I am am happy to have met you and am glad you are still here! 💞Beautiful song

[@kevgmor]

@@alisoncrawford2 Thanks so much, Alison

[@yourkarma2250]

wow!!

[@irenedonesa6938]

what a great song about life's struggles and coming out of the dark braver and stronger

[@helennelson5845]

Thank you so much for sharing your story.

[@lesliecano4963]

“Better than stabilized.” Man that sounds really fantastic, to feel better than stabilized again. It sounds and feels so unrealistic. Congratulations on getting there Kev.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you, Les. I vlog about it on my channel if you're interested

[@LiamPorterFilms]

Kev is an excellent musician and he tells his story here with tremendous strength, eloquence and honesty. It's a humbling life story that makes me reflect on my own privilege.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much Liam!

[@yourkarma2250]

@@kevgmor You have let your mess become your message and your story someone else's survival guide ,when the body feels safe so will the mind,EMDR is incredible x

[@debraholz9756]

Do you have any family support? Is your mother in your life?

[@mrl1593]

I can relate to Kev a lot. I think in S everyday. My life style makes it impossible not to think about it. I am trying to be strong.

[@kevgmor]

Hey! I'm sorry you can relate, but glad you found you're not alone; I talk about mental health on my youtube page, which some have been finding useful. I'm happy you're here today

[@MaTT-BLaK]

My mental health at a all time low. Inner strength has ran out. I just want to delete myself out of this this world. No point anymore. I hate life.

[@justmadeit2]

How are you doing now?

[@carolineharrison9288]

I empathize, I may not have a place to live. I would like to take every pill in the house. Honestly, for me, my faith in Jesus is the only reason I’m still here. I still wouldn’t mind someone coming and euthanizing me to get out of my pain and fear. If there’s anything one thing you can hold onto please do! You’re important and you matter!

[@Thatsbannanas-d8c]

Hi hey, hello. You are not alone. It’s ok. I hate life too. Keep going don’t give up.

[@MaTT-BLaK]

@@justmadeit2 Still not good. Still breathing and dont know if that's good or bad tbh. Its like a never ending circle

[@justmadeit2]

@@MaTT-BLaK Depression is a bad thing. I’m struggling a lot myself

[@LinBouthillierCTRC]

I’m a MH professional, too. I’m so glad you are here, Kev. How does one go about being on this channel as a suicide survivor? I would be so grateful for an opportunity to share my story, too. We really need to interrupt the feelings of shame and disapproval that survivors may carry. Many thanks to all who struggle with suicidal ideation and my heart is with every one who has felt that the best option for them was to go non physical. Love to all who see this post.❤️

[@MySuicideStory]

Hi Lin, you can submit your story on our website www.mysuicidestory.org/submit

[@missdeboer6366]

I have CPTSD too. It is pure hell. I am almost 50. Ideations are always there. Hugs, friend. You are brave. You are worthy.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you; I wish you the best as well

[@kerryford4698]

Sometime it feels better just knowing you can leave if you really need to.ive taken overdoses and survived.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks for listening to my story, Kerry

[@raneshreevankrimpen7460]

Hi Kev. I have bipolar disorder and other chronic illnesses. I have been through a lot of childhood trauma too. I'm struggling with bipolar for 33 years and on meds for 27 years. I think of su I cide daily. I just had ECT but it hasn't helped my depression. Your experience is definitely an inspiration . You are amazing. God bless you 🙏

[@IreneGraham-fk3pv]

Kev you should be so proud of you 😊_you keep on going and that is so so fucking hard man (lots of us know that feeling)& you even take the time to help others**be proud of you 😊

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much Irene

[@LoraCorkhill-wm9pk]

My hope is you have found relief.

[@kevgmor]

I am doing well, thank you

[@Sparkl1ngM1lk]

it's really hard finding a reason to stay right now...

[@kevgmor]

Sending love to stay. You've made my day better today; thank you for watching my story.

[@SweetSeraph93]

Same 💞

[@HarrietCraig323]

💪🏻💪🏻

[@puppies983]

How are you going? Life can be very hard

[@philippamediwake1235]

Hi Kev, just to say how honoured i am to listen to your story. You’re so articulate & obviously gifted with great music & creative skills. I’m so thankful that you’ve found your purpose in life. I hope you’re still battling on ❤

[@kevgmor]

Thank you. I will keep on stepping forward til I get to wherever I'm supposed to be

[@veronical.c890]

I'm a musician too. I love your song . Music can help us so much. It's hard to remember how much it helps when one is feeling depressed.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much Veronica

[@MISNM0]

I listened to all of this and it is likely one of the more important things that has happened to help in the last several weeks. Very courageous for you to share your Truth, Kevin. I'm grateful to you and expect you are living a tremendous After today.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much

[@sarahbordeaux9510]

You are super talented. Your song is beautiful!

[@kevgmor]

Thank you, Sarah

[@lovelyeyessee]

Beautiful music, thanks for sharing.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks, so much :)

[@FeliX-gu4dx]

You are a great singer and I love the song. You are a fighter and a light for the other people who lost the path in the darkness. I hope you can feel the joy you bring to other people with your songs. Never give up even it’s difficult. God gives the most difficult life to the people who love the most and the difficulties are no bigger than the strength He gave you to overcome them.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you Felix

[@cutepusheen0]

Thank you so much to the people behind this channel for sharing these stories. It’s helping me tremendously at this point in my life

[@pamlucas7694]

I get it. Got health problems and everyone is preasuring me to work im not sure how --- to live thanks for sharing your story so hard to live when your sick trying to maintain my health i can so relate with the feelings my emotions go all over the place your so brave

[@HarrietCraig323]

Getting out of-especially at a job- is absolutely the best thing you can do for your mental health-and absolutely the most difficult thing to do. Be strong-get outside.

[@Stephishappy]

Wow!!! I really enjoyed listening to your story. Thank you for sharing Kev. You are a fighter and an inspiration. I wish you continued strength and all my support is with you. Keep rock n 🤘🏽them tunes. ☮️💜

[@wendyjones1422]

How sad but its good to talk about these things thanks for sharing your story

[@kevgmor]

Thank you, Wendy :)

[@gingerblossom3774]

Thanks for sharing your story. I first wanted to end everything when I was in third grade. I have thoughts constantly. But I'm still here at 33. Taking things day by day I suppose.

[@kevgmor]

Day by day, for 30 years...I feel that. Keep on, keeping on :)

[@laraoneal7284]

Ty Kev. God bless you.

[@kevgmor]

...and you. Thank you :)

[@Mulejaw]

Hey, thank you so much for your video and i am very glad you are doing well. It hlps to see there is hope. I am 62 and am going through the darkest period having the darkest thoughts. my appointments for help is a month from now. The wait and the darkness feel unbearable. I have no friends and family and there is no one to reach out to so i find myself resorting to watching videos like yours for some solace and it helps. It helps to externalize this and to send these words out even if its only to some stranger in the vast void that is the internet. Your song. I weep. Thank you.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you. I hope things get better. I do have a Vlog on my own channel, you may find useful.

[@delphinawhiles6235]

So inspirational, I reallly appreciated your honesty n opening up with your story n journey dealing with everyday life with a mental illness. Your music, art etc comes under holistic approach. It's more than just taking your meds, it's developing a lifestyle to do your best to keep your mind n body healthy. Loving yourself n self worth. We can't escape childhood abuse done to us n the trauma it does to our brain. Our DNA n our inherited disposition r all contributing factors that shape us. Life is complicated enough for us but add a mental illness onto, we'll I thin🎉k people like u r true superheroes.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you so much, Delphina

[@HarrietCraig323]

Nice sound!!! 👍🏻💪🏻❤️

[@thefriendlyschizo]

Kev you look like you're 30! Glad you're still here

[@kevgmor]

Haha, that made me feel good today, thank you

[@thefriendlyschizo]

@@kevgmor haha you’re welcome! And definitely! What’s the name?

[@kevgmor]

Kev G Mor - Mental Health Vlog @@thefriendlyschizo

[@tulinbeyduz920]

what about ibogaine therapy ? or microdosing mushrooms to reconnect new neural pathways

[@kevgmor]

I have tried microdosing shrooms; it was interesting and somewhat helpful. Thank you

[@cathylindeboo.9598]

I'm so sorry for all your pain Kev. I wish your family had been there for you more. I went through active multi-substance addiction for 22 years, until I had a stroke. I am grateful that I can walk again!!... Thank you for sharing your story, and God bless you!!!

[@kevgmor]

Thank you, Cathy

[@ritamcgovern6012]

How marvelous. You are extremely strong. Been through an incredible journey. Lots of love to you and good luck. Yes, things never stay the same forever. I would love to meet you and give you a hug. I too am struggling having lost my darling angel. Regardless, you still believe in yourself. That says it all. Lyrics are beautiful 😭 you are special. Remember that and someone really really loves you. ♥️ Rita Jhb South Africa.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much, Rita

[@margaretbeard6564]

You are very smart and articulate. I can see you could really help others. God has a purpose for your life..

[@kevgmor]

That purpose keeps me going; thank you

[@llllllllllllll8576]

I want to thank you. As sincerely as I can in a youtube comment section. I dont know you. I wish i did. I have a feeling we would be friends. Your story resonates with me. The world is very chaotic and quick. It takes every ounce of energy just to put my pants on straight let alone navigate my way though the crazy day. Im so tired. Every day is a struggle. Im 46, and it feels like I havent even lived. All im doing is surviving. It weighs on you after awhile. Having no hope is a very dark place to be. Every night I hope I dont wake up and every morning I brace for one more day. Welp, I guess Ill do another day. And I dont know where Im going. I dont have a family. I dont have any friends. I dont have a job. I dont have a purpose. Yet I am grateful, it could be worse. There are many people in worse situations. But If i dont get my act together, pretty soon im going to be in that place. Im just so tired. Thank you Kev. Youve been around the block a few times more than i have and youre still kicking. Thank you. That song at the end touched me. Thank you.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you SO much for this comment. I really appreciate your sharing where you're at, right now; it's a journey. I do a Vlog on MY channel that might be of interest of you. It talks about seeking a life after reaching some stability, and many other random things as I go about recovery. ~kev

[@susanmartin6159]

Excellent voice, lyrics, and guitar playing. Very relaxing and inspirational.

[@kevgmor]

Thanks so much

[@LukeMcdonald10]

Thank you for sharing your story & your music with us Kevin.

[@Thatsbannanas-d8c]

Hello. I’m sorry. Thank you for sharing, that was a difficult life. Very, difficult !!!! You ok, ?

[@kevgmor]

I'm doing well. I've been Vlog about my experiences in recovery on my own channel

[@Thatsbannanas-d8c]

@@kevgmor I always think of this as everyone lived one life and I lived two

[@jenniferroncin4667]

😢 sy to hear that.

[@kevgmor]

[@bigd4115]

Great story thanks for sharing

[@kevgmor]

Thanks for listening

[@debraholz9756]

Beautiful song 💕 I can do relate.

[@kevgmor]

Thank you so much

[@kylekeen3497]

Prayers sent 🙏

[@kevgmor]

Thank you

[@RenaeLu-bd8rs]

Yeah I feel you re homeless. It's the basic human need: SHELTER. I'm homeless now and it is the worst feeling ever. I'm making plans now. Just can't take it anymore.

[@kevgmor]

I'm sorry about your current homelessness; it's so hard I know

[@BEACHDUDE71]

I have a plan if my life doesn't get better in 3 years

[@cristianm7097]

I have no plan, I will just let starvation kill me.

[@MandyStanley-t1o]

your a soldier wow i needed this😂😂😂😂

[@MandyStanley-t1o]

just tried to make us laughter ❤wow your a hero

[@MandyStanley-t1o]

hero 🎉tanks for your story i needed rhis

[@kevgmor]

Thank you

[@thenativist6330]

Are you guys going to post soon?

[@nancygee3137]

I am so sorry you suffer/

[@kevgmor]

Thank you, Nancy

[@konradkowalczewski4406]

I cant commit

[@pattybaselines]

Life is just so damn difficult ❤️‍🩹

[@kevgmor]

I agree with you, today.