My Testimony | Pornography Addiction, Suicidal Thoughts, & How God Transformed My Heart.

[@JaraDouse]

Update: I just uploaded part 2 to this video!! Check it out kzbin.info/www/bejne/sJOunoyulJ2mqrcsi=KakZEYrutt2WXaw4

[@dreamsofturtles1828]

You will never know how many people you have helped in having the courage to make this video. Wow, just wow.

[@ZdravNaukKJV]

She is lost, she can't help you. Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light. (Ephesians 5:14) kzbin.info/www/bejne/hqHcnYh6gNd7m80

[@nestogamezvilla7731]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/eYDNl6OvfdadZrc for those seeking healing freedom truth self love 🥋☀️🌴🎉

[@timeWaster76]

courage to make this video ???? or dumb enough to post it on You tube

[@solaemohamet713]

So true. Thank you so much.

[@sebastiandonis4226]

Thank you so much. I went through the same battle as a man. God bless you. 12 is such a vulnerable age don't shame your past look forward. We go through the battle daily in this degenerate age. I'm 22 and have barely had a months clean from it. Jesus is the only way. 10 years off the same depression. Stay strong.

[@darrenwilkes1462]

I pray for all who are addicted to sexual immortality and trapped in other addictions you shall be set free in The Name of Jesus Christ Amen

[@ItalianClown2003]

Thank you so much for this. I have been dealing with this sin for years now.

[@siegpasta]

Thank you brother in Christ. Amen.

[@LizBrown21]

Amen!

[@kellylouis3262]

Amen

[@neeleshrai8257]

🙏Amen

[@jules_0102]

Please don’t ever delete this video. Sooo many people need to see it! You’re so precious!

[@proudbeachristian1958]

Hi

[@timeWaster76]

That is exactly what they should do you purv

[@katlyndobransky2419]

Thank you for shedding light on this topic. People don’t realize how much sex ruins people. Not love, sex. Whether it be rape, being constantly aroused, or being addicted to porn. It’s awful how something that seems so great can ultimately hurt people and cause them to make decisions that are life altering

[@Dan-di9jd]

It’s bonerificly tragic.

[@BriNicoleox]

This exactly and when I speak up about it I get called crazy and/or that I’m wrong

[@katlyndobransky2419]

@@BriNicoleox nothing wrong with being human and wanting to do better for yourself

[@ace-paidinfull5240]

This is the best and most accurate comment ive ever seen wow. 😰🤯 Just wow… I dno if this girl is into God yet but ima watch and pray after this because certain decisions and mistakes have ravished my life and at 30 ive had enough of the bull crap!

[@redeemedadventures]

Please don’t ever delete this. My daughter is struggling with this and I am working on it with her, perhaps in a few years I may share this with her. Making this video took a lot of courage and I am sure that over the years this video will help a lot of young girls and even some boys. I will pray for you. Thank you for doing this!

[@ronniebattle1310]

Check out Encounter Ministries KZbin page (Mark Hemans). You will find the help that you need there. All the best to you.

[@lancegiltner978]

Don't wait a few years...I wish someone would have helped me sooner.

[@felicitysfunnyfarm3207]

Aww this so awesome. Praying for y'all.

[@azariaget]

an encouragement boaster frfr

[@unidentified1283]

i wish my parents helped me too...

[@CHRISTISKING209]

I'm a guy but I was utterly addicted to porn from a super early age and The Lord completely delivered me from it. It started early and continued into my marriage and it completely hurt my marriage. I hurt my wife so many times. I too have lost alot of people and had severe depression and anxiety and suicidal thoughts and drug addictions. I was a horrible father. Blessed be the name of the Lord for dieing for our sins and being faithful and merciful to us. Jesus is King of kings and Lord of lords. He saved me and my me a new creation.

[@jbloe555]

When I was growing up, porn was a right of passage, handed on by our fathers. I had a good father, but he too had his weaknesses. Jesus rescued me too. You may have been a bad father, but it doesn't stop you from being a good one going forward. I pray that you have that opportunity. God bless you on your faith journey.

[@dmlx4209]

@@jbloe555 I need help with this, I go long periods of time without and then fail several times

[@scatteredseedz9387]

You and I are so similar. I can heavily relate to your testimony as it’s almost like looking into a mirror. Jesus changed my life too and I’m so grateful. God bless you my brother in Christ

[@jbloe555]

​@@dmlx4209 First of all, know that you are not alone in this. I can only try to help based on my experiences. Hopefully, you might gain some insights and be able to find what works for you. The most important thing for me has been understanding the problem and recognizing that Jesus is the answer. Due to the fall of our first parents, we have a tendency toward sin. The closer we are drawn toward God, the more we will be tempted. Satan tries harder, God refines us toward holiness for our greater good and we become more aware of our weaknesses. The fact that it bothers you tells me that you are in the fight. Satan, as a creature, really has no control over us, other than what we give him. I suspect that he is sowing despair because you feel like you are falling short of your expectations. St. Paul, one of the greatest Apostles, felt the same way when Satan was a thorn in his side (2 Corinthians 12:7-10). Jesus said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Rely on Jesus and recall how He handled Satan when being tempted in the desert after His baptism. Also, consider what Jesus did when agonizing over His impending passion and death at Gethsemane. He acknowledged the weakness of the flesh and the strength of the Spirit, and He prayed. Jesus should be your best friend. Bring everything to Him in prayer and contemplation. When I do this, He usually gives me the answer that day or the next. It probably won't come in an audible voice, but as an inner voice, Scripture reading, homily or maybe someone or something you encounter during the day. It is like a moment of undeniable clarity. Bringing these things to Jesus when not actively being tempted will help you to recognize Satan's antics and make you less susceptible. As a Catholic, I have the benefit of the Sacrament of Reconciliation (confession). During reconciliation God is working through the priest in persona Christi (in the person of Christ) to forgive our sins. Through the unbroken, Apostolic succession of Bishops, the priest (from the bishop) is given the charism to bind and loose (Matthew 18:18). Having the priest there allows for some discussion and help, he can determine if we are sincere in our repentance and give us a penance (maybe the Lord's prayer, an act of charity, prayer, Scripture or something else to help heal the consequences of our sin). God forgives us, but as human's we benefit from the human interaction. Anyway, I made it a point to do reconciliation face-to-face because I was tired of confessing the same things. Being face-to-face greatly humbled and embarrassed me, giving me some accountability. I did not want to offend God by sinning and I did not want to say I failed again. It makes me think twice. The priests are very kind, understanding and helpful, so the embarrassment was mine. Whatever works. It takes time to gain discipline, maybe months or even years. If you keep doing the right things, you will fall less often and at some point not at all. When you fall, do not despair or dwell on it. Immediately repent and ask for the grace to overcome your weakness. Keep in mind that Satan will not rest. He will try to tempt you in other ways. I noticed that sexual lust and gluttony were still lust. When I was successful with one, he would attack the other. Right now, with God's grace, I am successful with both, but Satan is trying to tempt me sexually. The Rosary is my weapon because it gives me discipline in prayer. It is scriptural and each mystery is a meditation on Jesus Christ (even the meditations on Mary are Christ-centered and the beads just aid in counting). Meditate on Jesus' suffering and lust will be the last thing on your mind. Figure out what works for you and stick to it. When we take our focus off of the Cross, we focus on ourselves and our minds wander. Sorry that this is long winded. There is still a lot more to my journey. Hopefully, you will find something helpful. Do your best and trust Jesus with the rest. Read the genealogy in Matthew 1 and consider that King David was an adulterer and murderer, Rahab was a prostitute and so on. Jesus also chose Judas as an Apostle. Jesus is perfection, not us. May God bless you with His grace and peace. I will be praying for you.

[@jbloe555]

@@dmlx4209 I forgot to mention using OpenDNS (www.opendns.com/), which enables you to filter out Internet content that you don’t want to see. It is free and easy to configure. Normally your DNS (domain name system) is set to your Internet provider's DNS, but they don't filter out the garbage. I have my OpenDNS account set to block anything porn, sexual, violent, having explicit language, etc. It also blocks a lot of spam and viruses because these type sites are high risk. If a valid site is blocked, you are notified and can manually whitelist it. I thought of another thing...make sure other areas of your life also are cleaned up. If you are cursing, partying, etc., it opens you up to attack where you are weakest. With God's grace, it has taken me 10+ years to chip away at my many vices. Be patient and tackle them one at a time. I was surprised at how much stopping cursing helped. I kept thinking how wrong it was to curse with the same mouth that praises God. After a while, not doing it becomes normal. Giving up cursing, drinking, etc. actually improved my life because they are a crutch for underlying weaknesses. Blessings to you and your family!

[@therealtrabo]

Wow, as a young guy I am blown away by how much I relate to your story and how similar mine is. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your testimony, it was really encouraging for me

[@ZeldaFreak4by2]

This video was calling me because I am currently having a pornography addiction but after watching, I’d decided to delete every dirty video I had on my phone. My addiction if left alone may turn me into something I am not. Thank you, I needed this! ❤

[@channingbloom7125]

I’ve done that too. Over 8 times now. Yet here I am, still with it.

[@Dan-di9jd]

Yeah it’s never a good idea to do the cold turkey approach to quitting especially on a whim. Chances are you’ll bounce back but 20x more strongly this time around. It’s best to reduce it until eventually you don’t think of it anymore. It’s merely a habit is all.

[@bachelorsensei9437]

Jesus. It’s not that hard. Belief is what makes it hard. If you believe it is hard to control your own mind, then it is hard for you. But if you believe in yourself and tell yourself, “controlling my mind is something I learned as a toddler, easiest task of my life.” And guess what, now that you believe in yourself that you can control your mind, you can go cold turkey on anything.

[@ZeldaFreak4by2]

@@channingbloom7125 Can’t say what can help you, brother. Everyone’s situation is different but I can tell you that, I still have faith in you.

[@ZeldaFreak4by2]

@@Dan-di9jd You are right and I will take your advice seriously. As of right now, I am still doing well. Exercise and staying busy has helped me so far. But it’s only been 2 days. Time will tell.

[@djmandyland]

You are so loved and worthy of love! All of this over sexualized stuff breeds detachment from real love and empathy etc. Your strong and amazing, always remember that ❤

[@DalkSarraroZerkulin]

Nah. If you not a virgin you are worthless. If you not a virgin you dont deserve marriage. Maybe a loose relationship. No man true to himself should have the displeasure to deal self degraded disgusting garbage encased in human skin. Intentional laughing at the self damage expecting a great man to pay for it. I only beg god he makes them suffer their human horsish ways. They sexualize themselves , they willingly corrupt their purity. And ruin their beauty. Thats not worth my soul!! Not to exchange it for disgust wasted used discarded sludge thats their nature. Not worth it. Most of them are NOTHING to love or even respect. Truly tragic.

[@aMessIam1]

No no no, she is weak always. Thats what she got to know about herself. Arrogance is not the way to go.

[@sjetong]

God made everything so everything is by definition worthy or it wouldn't exist. Only evil like Själva Fan can't see it🤡

[@KrazyGoodMods]

You're definitely not alone. I'm a 32 year old guy who's dated, but never really been able to have a relationship with any of the girls I've gone out with. When I saw all these people I know finding their spouses, it made me wonder what's wrong with me. There's been times where I wanted to say "enough" and end it all. The problem with that, though, is that you'll never get the life you want if you quit it. Change can happen at any point in your life and the only way to find out is to live it.

[@XTreMeHunTer98]

I’m 24 and I relate to this so much. Been on a few dates, never had a relationship. All my friends have either been in a long term relationship or are in one. And I have thought to myself “is there something wrong with me?”. I come to the realisation I don’t just want to settle for any girl, I’d rather be happy than validate myself by not being alone.

[@goldendays1449]

Lol whamen arnt worth a dirt clod you arnt missing anything stack your money an leave em in the dust

[@russellmxnia]

I’m 28 and in the same situation. The best advice I’ve heard recently, from Jordan Peterson (and I’m putting it in simpler terms) is to not focus on finding the love of your life, but rather focus on being the person who they would want to be with. Hang in there!

[@michaelrullis7501]

No offense at all. But it's hard for us to focus on what matters. So having the life you want isn't necessarily what God had in store for you. Maybe he really wanted to teach you a lesson. Maybe he wanted to challenge what you thought you new and come to a greater understanding. Perhaps you were meant to be a lone. Or have a greater purpose In the coming battle. Either way, stay trucking brother, never end it because it's not about the reward in heaven. It's about the journey here on planet earth. And it's about helping those along side you.

[@guilhermecaiado5384]

If you develop a healthy relationship with Jesus and live for him, if its his will, Jesus will eventually make you get to know the person you will share your life. You should accept Jesus first and find a purpose.

[@kylemccloud9197]

Even though I’m a guy, our testimony is exactly the same. Down to nearly every detail, thank you for sharing

[@snegik]

You've earned your 100th like today

[@raydenbartley]

Good is not real. Poor human

[@kylemccloud9197]

@@raydenbartley There was a point when I believed the same. The things that God has done for me, the circumstances I’ve been through, the miracles I’ve seen with my own eyes. There’s no way I can’t believe now. I pray that God opens your eyes and heart the way he did mine. I promise you that God loves you and he wants a real relationship with you. I used to think it sounded crazy and stupid too. But I promise, once you open your heart to him. You’ll see that he is more than real, and he has been beside you through every step of your life. I’m praying for you! God is so much better than this life!

[@raydenbartley]

@@kylemccloud9197 Believing in god is part of the human experience. we are very aware and it’s scary to think about what it will be like when we’re not here. So many of us choose to believe in a being so that we feel less alone. But the truth is that you can just live and die a human life on earth like the other animals on earth who do the same, and have been for billions of years. We are just colonies of cells and microbes that grouped together to survive: a multicellular organism. I just don’t see room for god. I believe consciousness is the result of the human brain and the human 5 senses combine. before the brain is developed fully, we cannot sense the world. Which is why you don’t remember anything before like the age of 1 or 2. No brain to remember anything. When we die, all of our memories, everything we have ever known, mentally and physically, will cease to exist. Nothingness. Like before birth. When there was no brain. Don’t be scared. Embrace it. We are prisoners to circumstance. No room for god.

[@thecringeprophet]

@@raydenbartley >no room for God You sad soul.

[@daniellevan372]

This video gives me strength and hope. My addiction started very differently but I've experienced all the same feelings, everything. I'm at the very beginning of restoring my life. My acting out behaviors have made my life unmanageable. I'm on the spiritual journey to become God centered. This video helps me tremendously.

[@jaymarcum333]

Great job sis . The devil tempts us and when we fall he fills us with guilt and shame. He also lies to us that we are the only one and we must keep it a secret . Two majors lies . Father bless my sister give her strength from you and give her your joy . At the right time give her a godly husband in Jesus’s Name Amen ! Blessings, Jay

[@harrynking777]

Surely, the guilt and shame of temptations would not be provided by the devil because that would discourage further temptation. If one felt no guilt, one would continue on the same path.

[@jerrylong6238]

THERE IS NO GOD OR DEVIL ,IT IS ALL MAKE-BELIEVE.

[@fernandomariscal8959]

Guilt and shame are two perfectly normal modes of being within us, I think to view these things as the enemy or the devil is almost like viewing yourself as the enemy. You see, these emotions and impulses that are regarded as “evil” by many are actually normal in the biological sense and have there utility if analyzed rather then demonized, You should not view your negative emotions or impulses as separate from your psyche, but instead choose to understand them and accept that they’re innate to you. Only then can you find a sense of inner peace with yourself. This is of course not to say that you should act on every impulse or negative emotion but like I said rather understand them and there true meaning in relation to yourself and reality. Anyways hope anyone who reads this is helped by it in some way, also keep in mind this is all just my opinion.

[@carissaexplainsitall8481]

Pornography ruins lives. I am still recovering from the devastation it inflicted on my life. Thank you for sharing

[@staleydu1]

Me too

[@otherworld11]

absolutely demonic stuff - take it one day at a time.

[@paultrahan3905]

The world would be a better place is Pornography was BANNED

[@ronniebattle1310]

Check out Encounter Ministries KZbin page (Mark Hemans). You will find the help that you need there. All the best to you.

[@warped3018]

true, but even then there is all sorts of ways to access it@@paultrahan3905

[@alymaugeri5340]

I want you to know that you are STRONG in Christ. Don’t let the enemy make you feel shameful. You are forgiven by the blood of Jesus❤️

[@lawrencezortman6786]

Fear not, you will no longer live in shame. For the Lord has called you back from your grief. With everlasting love, I will have compassion on you, says the Lord,your redeemer. Isaiah 54 This was a verse that came to me as I listened to you. And Job 23:10. But He knows the way that I take. When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. I can relate so much to you. And I can see the raw "purity " that you displayed. You WILL become a powerful tool for Jesus. Let us not walk but run...to Jesus. You're doing a great job.

[@reed_1446]

cleansed by the blood of Jesus. Forgiven by Him.

[@kimlangston251]

Amen to that!!✝️❤️🙏

[@luisperes6349]

That’s a lot of Jesus right there

[@HalkerVeil]

Except the only 'enemy' making people feel shame is the church? I really wish the sophism wasn't a thing and I could understand why people go back and forth like this.

[@JaraDouse]

This is your reminder to be kind in the comment section 🌼 My channel has no place for hate or anything inappropriate. If you comment something like that, you will be removed & blocked. Have a great day 💗

[@thetennisprofessional]

Jara this is an incredible video. Please make more content like this. You have helped so many people with this video. You are such a caring and genuine person!❤❤❤

[@jiemileng7745]

🙏

[@ace-paidinfull5240]

Thank you for this jara, im only 11 mins in and the tears having been rolling due to being able to relate to the things you have said so far. God bless from London

[@testimonyreacher7988]

Hello Miss Jara maybe i send ...but here i willshare so you can go deeper in your walk with christ in times we live..kzbin.info/www/bejne/bJbGnXmda9GNa6s

[@sinisterblade556]

Hey Jara, I'd love to ask you for some tips and methods on how to break this addiction in christ and ask what videos helped u (by titles) thank you so much for this video, you just made me even determined to start following God again, and there is an end to this endless cycle. Looking forward for your answer

[@dinsmeteorite5068]

I understand the fear of sharing this, especially on the internet. As a KZbinr myself, there are definitely some rude people on here but I'm happy to see that this comment section has been positive, encouraging, and supportive. If there's anything else God wants you to share, keep these coming!

[@timeWaster76]

Rude people will be the least of her worries predators where .

[@jonasbauer3942]

"I had no value, meaning or purpose", spot on for many. Your testimony is powerful and helpful, for me.

[@ronniebattle1310]

Check out Encounter Ministries KZbin page (Mark Hemans). You will find help there.

[@soendly1457]

That's so sad 😞

[@drozone3658]

This randomly popped up in my feed, hopefully millions of people are seeing God use you

[@nickyanderson5664]

In my past life, I have sinned, I had talked about death and lied. I was living out in the world still the world hated me.

[@chuckanderson2412]

Thank you so much for making this video. I'm a 51 year old man that had been struggling with porn addiction and perverse thoughts for decades. I don't know if it's harder to break the addiction the longer you're in your sin but although I've prayed almost daily for God to help me with my evil thoughts it has seemed almost impossible to stop completely. Your testimony has given me renewed strength to get right with my mind and with our Father God in Heaven. May God bless you now and forever.

[@ferrisbueller9991]

How common are your intrusive thoughts? If you experience multiple hours a day you may have something like OCD. Remember that you have limited control over your brain. It isn’t a sin for a thought popping off.

[@tainoloco2361]

Brother I will pray for you. I’m 19 and I’m still fighting my porn addiction war as well.

[@ODrane]

@@AwRighttttt Are you kidding?

[@ODrane]

@@AwRighttttt uhh your comment.

[@ODrane]

@@AwRighttttt you have a lot to learn my friend. Probably pretty young, I’ll pray for you. Make sure to Listen to God and your family.

[@Queenvvfly]

Wow your struggles are the same as mine. It is like we have lived the same life, and I am so thankful that Jesus Christ helped me change the person I once was 🙏

[@mariahconklin4150]

Oh yeah! Celebrate Recovery has a group called love addiction and I’ve known woman who not only are addicted to men but addicted to porn. Wonderful groups. Miss them

[@carlmorgan8452]

Celebrate recovery is awesome / went for about 8 years. Thank you for sharing your testimony 🙏

[@harrisfreedman5785]

What about Muslims? Jews? Etc? Do only Christians matter? This is an awful take. Are you friends with HItler?

[@odynith9356]

You just made a decision to change. God didn’t do anything. This jesusvtalk is such cringe.

[@adambush9205]

I have battled pornography addiction for the last 20yrs. God is working with me on it. It’s still a battle but with God it’s possible. God will use your testimony to reach people. God bless you for sharing

[@josephzammit8483]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/gKC7eGiNqJlsnqM

[@timfisher1588]

Stay strong brother

[@PhoenixRising251]

Young lady, you are much stronger than you realize! You've got spiritual guts! Even though I'm a guy I went through so many of the same things you went through. I honestly felt your heart in this. Though I'm over double your age now but trust me, I've been there, I'm still a human with feelings!!! Even down to the mental and emotional abuse that came from and old girlfriend that scarred me inwardly. I think the church as a whole has failed us terribly in this era. I'll pray (I mean that literally) the Holy Spirit speaks to you in ways that you understand. As a Christian brother I send you a hug of encouragement. Allow me to suggest spending time reading the entire book of Psalms. You'll see how David had to deal with anger, self loathing and emotional torment. Once again that took guts to make this video.

[@BoganBrett]

@@AwRighttttt bro legit sounds like chav 💀

[@tylercall462]

Crazy how people have normalized P*rn addiction as a guy problem. We, or at least I, haven't really considered that a women can struggle with this just as much as any man. I am grateful to testimonies like these for enlightening ignorance that I never knew I had. I respect Jara immensely for sharing her testimony on her very touching story.

[@sumitKumar-cj6tx]

I have been going through with the same addiction and thoughts. Whoever reads this Please remember me in your prayer.

[@Silentpartner2176]

Heavenly Father please help Sumit find thy son and fill Sumit’s heart so that this addiction can be swallowed up in Christ. This I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

[@paulcarlo2148]

Your not alone, God beat it all for me. God can deliver. Starts with his words, habit setting, prayer, faith, forgives. Jesus Christ

[@ronniebattle1310]

Check out Encounter Ministries KZbin page (Mark Hemans). You will find the help that you need there.

[@midnitespider]

Father I ask you to remove this barrier from Sumit. Let Him walk in peace, and knowthe battle has been won! In your son Jesus name, amen! 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@angelsinthearchitecture7106]

It was simple for me. Pray to God for help and promise him you will never watch porn again. Once you do that you will have the reason to never watch again. 8 months free and never looked back.

[@gustavoarboleda396]

Very proud of you sister. You’re a child of God. Take your mistakes as a learning experience that make you more valuable and strong when you stand up with Jesus and love in your heart.

[@harishrao7944]

You are a child of God and you have made me too feel like one.

[@Gankstomper]

There's no evidence whatsoever that God exists. Stop being so gullible.

[@aMessIam1]

@@Gankstomper But there is alot of evidence in near death experiences that you will meet whatever you belive in down here. Christian, jesus. Scientology, tom cruise hehe you know what i mean. And so on. "You still have work to do" ok jesus i go back to the hell hole called earth bc you say so. Fuck that. Move bitch. You are an illusion based on what i believe. Trying to trick me to reincarnate. A loving god? Nah it seems like this world is a negativity farm. Parasites who thrive on negative energy, war, sadness, violence, eat eachother, poverty, suffering allover. That "god" failed and deserve to be removed, if it was such a thing. No, parasites rule here. Just what i see.

[@Gankstomper]

@@aMessIam1 Near death experiences aren't evidence of anything aside from the fact the brain makes you hallucinate when you're about to die.

[@aMessIam1]

@@Gankstomper i saw your answer. Yes but there is patterns. Why are the hallucinations in essence the same. Why do they see the same "scam" You have work to do, trust me, i love you, go back and finnish your work and we evaluate your life when its your time to die. This is nothing new. The Gnostics talked about this until they got stamped out by the romans, now the vatican.

[@MichaelBWhiteMusic]

"Know your worth...Do not settle" Thank you for your wisdom, thank you for sharing. I wish you the greatest happiness this life may offer. We all make mistakes. Learn from them, then release them.

[@benhall2235]

And then help others. That’s how you’ll ensure that you don’t relapse. The whole twelve step method is based around this. As are many other recovery models.

[@naatukatta4251]

As an addict, being told to know your worth hit me hard and i took a trip down the lane and recalling how low ive gone to satisfy my addiction, I've prayed for help in the past, but failed to do my part of holding back. No more, I'm gonna actively take my life back in control from darkness to prove my self worth to myself, i won't settle for less. Thankyou for the awakening sister, you deserve all the good things that life has to offer.

[@Dilyas_ElmalikiLIVE2]

ALLAH IS THE GREAT. love to Jesus the prophet of ALLAH and to Muhammad the prophet of ALLAH ... Abraham. Noa. isaac..... ADAM. ALLAH is one of the 99 names of GOD. That means that there is one god no trinity. GOD is one in all Abrahamic faiths. I invite anyone who loves Jesus and god to start reading Quran and go to a mosque and ask for infos

[@YeshuaReigns4eva]

You are precious in God's eyes. Unique and loved by Jesus Christ!.

[@yakopro49]

Absolutely

[@guillermogquintero]

Nobody knows unless you tell them !!

[@leoneljuarez3873]

@tomlynn tigard May God bless you ! ☺

[@amargad69]

@Bob Cain Relax buddy

[@haydynnfike9455]

I cried when I saw the pain and shame I know you felt having to talk about your addiction. Your courage is so incredible to share your story. You are so strong and are truly a gift.

[@hayatorpg3896]

You're 19 and is getting this? This is great! Its good to have this reminder of Christ early on so your life can be full of blessings being the person the Lord wants you to be. There are people far older struggling with what you've been through. Thank Jesus he saved you! God Bless!

[@dr.vonslifeinvesting6485]

Yes I’m 40 and just been released from pornography/masturbation/sexual release. Had a hold over me so long but it was the love and acceptance of Christ that I was always looking for. She is most definitely a gift for marriage that is why Satan wants us to do everything outside of it so we have none inside a marriage. How common is that today I would say very.

[@78LedHead]

Hahahaha amen! I wish with everything in me I had this girl's resolve and wisdom at 19. Lord have mercy I was a wild beast, and sadly, little girls liked that (or thought they did). Thank God I'm now 44 with 4 awesome kids and a wife, but MAN that porn thing is HARD. The wife and I seem to have hit a point in our marriage where alone time is super rare, so I as the husband have to be honorable. It's not like I haven't had sex before. I'll live, but goodness gracious, the temptation is great. "Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil!"

[@DS-11]

One day you’ll know just how much your honesty and courage has meant to others. You were loved then, you are loved now, and you’ll be loved forever.

[@GR-nz5rz]

It really touched me when you said “Jesus lives in us”....”What are you making Jesus live through?”

[@harrisfreedman5785]

What about Muslims? Jews? Etc? Do only Christians matter? This is an awful take

[@themonsterunderyourbed9408]

@@harrisfreedman5785 Jesus lives in all of them as well but they reject him. It's as simple as that. Sadly, those that reject Jesus probably won't experience eternal life with him after death unless he grants them a special grace. Other religions are scams. I'm sorry, but that's the truth. There is only one God and he is the Holy Trinity.

[@krunkle5136]

@@themonsterunderyourbed9408 no, you can't accept there isn't one 'true' religion.

[@GR-nz5rz]

But there is one true God, it’s sad how everyone knows deep inside that he is real but some just decide to reject him

[@krunkle5136]

@@GR-nz5rz this is cult like speech. It's like saying everyone is deep down a Sheikh but they don't yet know it.

[@berniecepayne]

I'm in a toxic relationship and I didn't realize why I stayed until now. He makes me feel like I had no worth. No one else was going to want me. He just tolerated me. Made me feel like km s burden and noone but him will be willing to deal with me even if I do leave I won't make it. And don't bother coming back. Thank you for being open n honest. I made this marriage in the flesh. And that's why its so hard for me. he wants nothing to do with God and I do. This marriage was not of God. God is helping me get my life turned around a liberated from this toxic marriage. I'm not going to give myself away. I want to give myself to God and then to the man HE has for me

[@ronniebattle1310]

Check out Encounter Ministries KZbin page (Mark Hemans). You will find the help that you need there.

[@Rachel-rg2dz]

I will pray for you, keep going and know that God loves you

[@jack3927417]

You be strong and steadfast. I’m glad you’re making this change

[@hopeamaryah1635]

Are you married or is he your fiancee'?

[@creative2716]

@BernicePayne Yay! You deserve Gods love and the love of a good man! You are doing the right thing, and starting the right way, with Gods help. Good for you! Stay strong. Sending 🙏🙏🙏.

[@dieselrotor]

Every second, every minute, every hour, every day is a battle. You will win some, You will loose some, fight for Your Glory. Your doing just fine. Especially in this world at this time. He knows Your heart.

[@felipesuarez5382]

So true.

[@faithboost7]

Agreed, winning the battle is always a good thing, but I would like to add to not backpedal and revisit defeats. If you stumble and fall like we all do, don't focus on what you tripped over... Focus instead on getting back up and moving forward. Would you give your time to the stone you tripped on, or stand, and kick it out of the way so others don't need to trip on it either... :D

[@dieselrotor]

@@jackdotblue Well would You look at that, I sure did.

[@Joyjoy-ih1ie]

Eventually it will get better, as you heal. Dont forget to let it go.

[@ronniebattle1310]

Check out Encounter Ministries KZbin page (Mark Hemans). You will find the help that you need there.

[@aichamoustapha8970]

Hi! Thank you for sharing your testimony! It was truly powerful! I struggled with pornography from age 10-21, and it is a terrible addiction to have. I also grew up in the church and had a lot of shame for what I was doing but I never truly had a relationship with Christ. I came to a point in my life where porn wasn’t enough and I was about to step out into the world and try to find that love from guys (friends with benefits/causal sex) but the Lord got ahold of me before that happened. I fully accepted the Lord in Feb. 2021 and God has just done a work in my life! He has set me free from that addiction! I know it’s hard sharing such a vulnerable side of yourself but there’s so much power in your testimony. I don’t know you but I pray that God continues to heal your heart and always lean into Him for your comfort and identity. Thanks again for sharing !! ❤

[@heh8me168]

I love how she talks about the troubles with those addictions with a clean heart.She does have that conviction within her which shows her remorse and repentance.God bless her and God help us all with our sinful hearts 🙏🙏

[@williamwwjd12345]

Very encouraging we are not ashamed of the Gospel it is the power of God.

[@ProudEaglesFan]

If only more people had the power and conviction to be honest. There are so many people out there struggling with the same addictions and, they too, think it’s just them. That’s the beauty of Jesus. No shame. Accountability and learning, yes. But no shame. Beautiful testimony. Stay strong and God Bless!

[@hopeamaryah1635]

Oh to hope in love that covers a multitude of sins. That is gracious

[@lukenath6983]

That common theme of "a friend showed me pornography at X age" is so sadly common, and have seen these issues manifested in my own and many friends lives. God bless you for being open to sharing and bringing healing to those of us struggling with the same pain. Truly has made us all that much better.

[@allanmcelroy9840]

I highly admire your being transparent about this-especially with the difficulty! I'm a man, and yes I struggle, but the woman side is rarely mentioned. Stay strong!!

[@chloenicholls5306]

6:12!!! The male-centered discussion in the church about phonography was harmful to me as well. It is such an isolating way of speaking about it. Thank you for sharing your testimony, friend.

[@ianjones2731]

True, but to me most churches are afraid to hold women to account just like the culture which is wrong and your comment proves this in a strange way. We're all human and sin is sin regardless of gender.

[@xtriggermortisx7881]

@@ianjones2731 Yup, even in churches, most preachers only preach against and call out men for sexual sin.

[@stolearovigor281]

There is a reason why is male centred. Women always have been more about feelings till last decade. Men always have been more about body. I can be wrong but this is how I see the things. I didn't know that women have same struggle with pornography. I believe Disney and hellywood are a reason of hypersexualization.

[@fritzkuhne2055]

honestly never knew females apart from nymphomaniacs could get this kind of addiction

[@CloudWithoutASky]

its probably honestly just because statistically, men on average watch porn more then women. like there is a bigger ration of men on porn, compared to women's ratio on porn.

[@dougcresse]

When Jesus sets you free, you are free indeed!!

[@markandmargie7331]

Porn has ruined many lives. Praise the Lord for redeeming us

[@HowToWithCraig]

I hope I can get my daughter to watch this video. Thank you brave sister! You are God's child and he loves you more than you can comprehend.

[@danielhorton1493]

Thank you so much. I’m a porn addict progressing in recovery through the Spirit of Jesus. Your testimony is powerful; by it you overcome the enemy. You have helped. You have treasure in heaven on my account. God bless you

[@pizzaman1973]

is it jesus or god? tard

[@xxbubblesxx1165]

Watch out for the false light of heaven your going to see the soul trap

[@Slashgibber]

For real? That's so cool. Myself I'm a porn addict progressing through the help of Satan. We should hang out.

[@Gr33n3ggs6ndH6m]

@@xxbubblesxx1165 Matthew 7:5 You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye! Luke 6:42 Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Brother, let me remove the speck that is in your eye,’ when you yourself do not see the plank that is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck that is in your brother’s eye. Luke 6:32 Judge not, and you shall not be judged. Condemn not, and you shall not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. James 5:9 Do not grumble against one another, brethren, lest you be condemned. Behold, the Judge is standing at the door!

[@sully1124]

@@xxbubblesxx1165 you telling me watching porn will make you go to heaven… the anxiety you have to come up with this

[@beingbridgit]

You are not alone! I also struggled with the same addictions & lack of self worth. Much love to you ❤️

[@KendrickRussell-ec5ss]

So Powerful ! This is changing my life . God bless your heart

[@INOMORETHNU]

You are a brave soul and I imagine Jesus is quite proud of you. I am sure you have helped others seeking answers on this subject. Bravo to you sweet sister!

[@MrDyce-zc1wp]

YOU ARE FREE. I aspire to be in your position one day where I am confident to tell the whole about my struggles with porn and heartbreak. Also, it is okay to feel past pain because healing takes time, but FREEDOM HAS BEEN GRANTED TO YOU AND I AM TRYING SO HARD AND PRAYING TO TRULY FEEL THAT FREEDOM. I struggle with porn, self worth, and a lot of the stuff you went through and it just made me realize that I am not alone in this. This is also the first time I am hearing a young female speak about it which is also inspiring. God bless you and thank you for your testimony

[@harrisfreedman5785]

Being a slave to religion is not free. She is using "Jesus" as a means to deflect from her reality. It's unhealthy and could lead to more suicidal ideation. Science > Jesus > Rats > MAGA

[@khalilzed99]

Though i come from different religion (islam) but I relate to alot of what you've said . Pornography is a drug and what is killing me is its availability and accessibility . Like it's really hard to overcome when you become addicted to this behaviour. Like you said by rebuilding my relationship with God and listening to testimonies about overcoming pmo addiction it truly helpe me alot . So I thank you so much for publishing such a courageous video !

[@heyitsmichael6256]

Hi Khalil, People have ask me, so Michael why not be Muslim? Fear, thats why. Noticed that the God of Islam does not say the same things as the Biblical God. The two Gabriel Angels, the gospel and Islam, different . The cross and the Crucification removed from islam. No Savior, no Salvation. How clever i thought that the Devil dublicated Himself to be as Yahweh. Jesus said, my voice they know, my sheep wont follow " Another". Be carefull who you follow because eternity rests and life is based on just one decision.

[@TritiumCupcakes]

No what is "killing you" is your lack of willpower.

[@chucksteiner3578]

Khalil, please take time to consider who Jesus is. Jesus claimed to be God, "I and the father are one". He rose from the dead. He is not a prophet as Islam claims, but is the son of God. Search, for the sake of your soul. God bless you.

[@hakheoyeh]

@@heyitsmichael6256 In the end, it matters much more whether your heart and will are good, not, what kind of religious affiliation you have. (God will surely not check your baptismal certificate) So, a Muslim or Jew and even an atheist, who is good at heart, is much more likely to go to heaven than a Christian with a bad heart. And I say this as someone who absolutely believes in Jesus Christ our Lord. In fact I say so, because He once explained to me how important this biblical word is: "And ALL the churches shall know that I am He which searcheth the reins and hearts."

[@odynith9356]

Statistically most pornography is watched on the Middle East

[@12breacher82]

The random stuff that pops up on social media when you actually need to hear it is wild. A blessing frankly. Outstanding testimony and thanks for being so brave. I’m 39 and this confession has tremendous meaning. I’ve struggled through my life with the same addictions and am finally on the right road but I do fall on my face hard. It took me losing the love from someone I adored, who was sacred, and to witness them go on to have a family and children which is all I wanted, without them atoning for what they did to me, has left me in the same exact place as you for 4 years. Some of those scares will never heal, but must be worn. I was raised right, am devout, but chose to stray and when I had what I wanted most ripped away there is an amount of shame from my past that keeps blame with me. “What are you making Jesus live through”- we all have driven the nails, thorns, and lashes into His body. The agony in the garden is where it started; I try to place myself there but I’m no better than a sleeping apostle. Trusting in Him while atoning for your own sins is the hardest thing, but it is the only way. Keep up the good fight and again thanks for posting this confession. We are never totally lost and we are always loved. You’re doing it right. God bless.

[@jenbrallier]

So thankful for what The Lord has done in your life. Keep on spreading the Gospel, sis! Love you tons.

[@jenniferbrowne4030]

U r a wonderful person God blessed u so much thnx for your honesty n for obeying God

[@markjones2349]

I'm 41 years old and my struggle started when I was about 14 and I discovered my Dads girly mags in his closet. My mom later found one of them under my bed and came to have a talk with me about it but it was seriously traumatic because she was crying and made me feel like I had nearly murdered someone. It was seriously confusing to say the least because I had just hit puberty and my hormones were raging and all you can think about 24/7 is girls and then mom comes and tells me how horrible I am. It's effected me my entire life because the trauma from my moms over reaction caused me to never admit to looking at girls or ever having a girlfriend. It's extremely surprising to hear a girl admit to a porn addiction, it's not really something I ever thought they struggled with too. I asked God into my heart in my early teens but only ever got baptized this past year. Baptism was a life changing moment when I actually could feel God in my life clear as day. And now I'm at a point in my life that all I want is to find a nice girl to carry off into the sunset and care for her forever. But we have this culture today where women tell us men that they don't need us and that they can handle and do everything all on their own. The number of christian women that I know are about zippo, let alone finding one who is single. I've basically given up before I've even began at dating or anything. It's pointless even trying. It's ironic because God made women so darn beautiful and at the same time virtually unobtainable. Hearing your story is extremely surprising. It makes you more relatable. Just listening to you I can tell you have a big kind heart which seems very rare anymore. As far as I understand when we are baptized we are made new. We are not the same person that did all of the bad things that we did in our pasts. I think if everyone could understand what it feels like after your baptized then way way more people would accept Jesus. I was told by my Mom how it felt but I never expected it to feel real. I watch Church service online every week and usually end up in tears at some point because God is real and I feel him in my life. Thank you for sharing with all of us and I wish you the very best in life.

[@johningle1]

Sucks if you are in the U.S. the culture here has created a bunch of women who want to be "badass" and think their value is in their looks and tik tok videos. Go to Latin America and Asia where there are still some good girls looking for a husband to provide for them.

[@mindmy609]

Baptism of holy Spirit

[@markjones2349]

@@mindmy609 Ummmmmm yeah that's kind of a given isn't it? Hehe

[@MarvinBowen]

Don't give up your search for a Godly woman. Wait for His timing. I actually did give up, but what I didn't realize was that I was not 'giving up' but surrendering my will to control my life. I basically shrugged and said, 'whatever you want, God'. Then I met my wife to be. And there was no pressure from me to find romance. We were just friends, which is the only place to start. Everyone has a different story and a different path. Just let God work in you and follow His timing.

[@jeffmcelroy5364]

your baptism demonstrated its power to cleanse you of sin BECAUSE that is whats its designed to do. Once we go down in the water, the old self is buried and a funeral takes place, as we come up out of the water we rise with Christ in newness of life. Paul explains all of this with much clarity in Romans ch 6. Breaking the bonds / chains of sin will have a VERY noticeable and physical effect on us. If we come up out of the water and we are still the same wretched person as when we down under, then we went in for the wrong reasons. soooopp many churches teach that baptism is mearly an expression of ones faith or a way to join a church etc. Its most definitely NOT - in John 3 we learn that we must born again of water and Spirit. Baptism is not a "work" etc as many denominations falsely teach. If it were a work, and the bible clearly teaches that we cant work our way to heaven, then why did Jesus himself COMMAND that we get baptised? He didnt tell us to do it so we would then be condemned for trying to add to the work on the cross etc!!! There is much unneeded confusion surrounding baptism and there need not be. A simple reading of the text and it becomes clear as day. Thank you for your testimony and im glad that God provided a way out of a behavior, that if not repented of, would have had eternal consequences.

[@luceroojedazamora1770]

You are a brave young woman. The Lord will reward your obedience. You are a New Creation. May the Lord continues strengthen you🙏🙏

[@JayPalOfficial]

Such a wonderful testimony! I have struggled with porn addiction and suicidal thoughts in the past when I was a baby Christian. Now as a mature Christian, I thank God that He got me out of the dark place I was previously in. Still on a journey to overcome lustful thoughts. Please pray for me! 🙏

[@si_a_to2086]

I also never taught about sex ,I never understood in a biblical way, I learned about it from KZbin videos 2 years ago and I am grateful for that .This is a very important topic and they should teach about it in the church.Thank you for sharing your story 🙏

[@JaraDouse]

Thank you for watching! ❤️

[@proudbeachristian1958]

Hi

[@lilcay4016]

@@proudbeachristian1958 Yo.

[@KD-ql2mf]

So human.. and yet so brave. You have brought praise to our Lord.

[@kristaniofficial]

Incredibly powerful. Such an amazing story and an amazing light you are. You’re speaking to many!

[@Silentpartner2176]

Very powerful indeed. It was an amazing story.

[@josebosua1489]

Even though I am not a religious person, I am really happy that you found something that makes you feel alive and free again. For some it might be religion, for me it was travel. Finding you own purpose in life is one of the hardest things to accomplish

[@Dan-di9jd]

Problem is you have no purpose in life. If you died you’d just be one of billions that already came and went and the billions more that’ll come and go. So it’s best not to think too hard on the purpose of life. You’re just alive and will be for a short duration before you go. Chances are you’ll have never accomplished everything you wanted out of life and chances are you’ll leave with more regrets than success.

[@johnkaya]

@@Dan-di9jd I understand where you're coming from, but my purpose is self-improvement, and it helps me without the belief in a god.

[@athelstanrex]

@@Dan-di9jd I completely, whole-heartedly agree with you. People need to stop thinking about the purpose of life. Reality is absurd, there is absolutely no meaning to it, but we can assign our own, local meaning to our lives and just live through that. Stopping the search for 'the answer' to everything is such a nice feeling, it's liberating,

[@Kawabongahlive]

@@Dan-di9jd sounds like you're projecting your depression onto others. I hope you get better soon, friend. Cheers.

[@ajgumpper]

@@Dan-di9jd Teenager spotted. I'd recommend deleting tiktok bro, would do you lots of good.

[@dudleyflats5519]

You're a beautiful person. You're already doing God's work, with purpose. I Personally appreciate your heartfelt candor and advice. I stand with you, you aren't alone! God bless you, and all sinners in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.

[@celainagreen24]

So proud of you, Jara. This is something so many girls have went through but never talked about because of fear. I went through this at an even younger age because I wasn’t taught. I was curious faster than most and I struggled until 13 and when I finally was caught by my parents and they truly helped me through and God delivered me! I lost a lot of self worth into my teenage years because I felt a lot of shame and that I was alone. And I was told in a toxic relationship that no man would ever want me because of that and that he was the only one that would ever love me. Which I know now isn’t true. I was also emotionally abused, belittled told I was no longer pure, even though I never lost my virginity to him or anyone. It wasn’t until I started dating my now, husband that I was able to get through some of that emotional trauma and loss of self worth. No, I haven’t been perfect or not sinned since, but Through God, I’m not the same. I relate to this so much. Thank you for sharing!

[@arpitsri9631]

Hi can we share whatsapp number for chat with me

[@hopeamaryah1635]

Thanks for sharing! Overall on these sorts of topics or related things, maybe girls deserve encouragement to work against shame, especially if someone is going to tell a girl that what they are doing is wrong. Maybe we shouldn't just be telling people they are sinning and that what they are doing is "impure," but also encourage them or focus more instead on the love of God -- that maybe he doesn't want us to suffer. It's not (just) about meeting some golden standard or (just) about shame. Even if I didn't always feel ashamed or so wrong, I either did or I let myself be insecure or drill shameful thoughts into my head about my struggles/shortcomings.

[@jeremyryannoel]

You’re definitely not alone. As you stated, God does deliver us from the chains of addiction, depression, etc. because He’s alive and keeps His promises! I was molested at 12 years old, exposed to porn around the same time, and it became a snowball effect up until my 30s. I prayed to God that He’d take away the problems, that He’d deliver me from what kept me bound. It wasn’t until I got married, that it began to dissipate, and I finally declared that I had to be free from it. The temptations never completely left, yet Jesus helped me understand there’s a way out of every temptation. Because of this, there’s victory in the midst of the temptations that happen from time to time. I thought I wasn’t worth loving because I was too shy, and the addictions had me feel so dirty. God knew I needed the strength and broken free from the vicious cycle, that He was progressively using me for His glory. God is good!

[@UnderTheMillkyWay]

I don't suffer with this issue but over the last 25 years I've seen more and more ladies struggle with this and they keep getting younger and younger. Most of the time they get introduced by a grommer, friends or lover. Never live in this regret and fear because now you know the love of God and that's the most important thing you'll ever know in this life. Keep talking because you'll help save lives of men and women from this evil and hopefully expose them to God. One last thing if you fell lead by God then speak on it and it will free you soon. Best wishes. You're never alone with God. Never.

[@KrystalNCMA]

My niece has already been introduced to pornography by one of her friends and she is only nine years old. She now feels a need to be sexy and clearly has no idea what a hurtful and terrible impact it will have on her down the road. As someone who use to seek male attention a lot and thrived off of it, I am very aware of how extremely painful it is to remember and reflect on. It is painful to talk about and you are braver than I am to be sharing your story.

[@JaraDouse]

My heart breaks for the children who have had pornography pushed down their throats by this world. I’ve been there & I know how damaging & traumatizing it is. I’m so sorry that she’s going through that. I would recommend looking up resources to help a child that’s watched pornography, I’m sure there are many books or articles that could be helpful! Thank you for watching & sharing your story as well.

[@carolw2733]

Just need deliverance

[@lilcay4016]

@@JaraDouse hi.

[@paulmartin5424]

@@JaraDouse in also a Christian glad you are still hear sister jana amen ✝️✝️👍

[@paulmartin5424]

@@JaraDouse you have a calling sister amen 🙏🙏✝️✝️ Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus amen ✝️✝️✝️🙏

[@caseydbriscoe]

Hey Jara, thanks for sharing your story. I too was shown porn at an early age. It affected me emotionally for years and still continues to affect me today. Keep your head up and keep praying. God has already brought you a mighty long way.

[@originalmgtow9771]

This video had me, a grown man, in tears ! The fact that this beautiful, sweet, and intelligent young lady felt worthless and unloved says a lot about how pathetic and evil modern Western society has become. She is simply precious and her raw emotions are very beautiful and refreshing to me. It is obvious that she is a victim of society, nothing more and nothing less. I am not a Christian and do not follow any particular religion. But I admire and support her belief in Jesus because that has given her a sense of self worth that she should have always had if our poisonous society wasn't so toxic and irredeemable.

[@LKRaider]

Nothing can replace Jesus, as hard as demonic secular society may try to gain that power and infect peoples hearts with dead things.

[@mrzukunft]

Hey man. You are absolutely right: we are precious and valuable, nothing less than that. And "evil modern western" society, as you call it, is very corrupted indeed. Nevertheless, I would like to open your eyes to something. Judging by your name, I suppose you belong to the Red Pill community. Do you see, in your own message, that you are putting far too much attention on bad things, instead of the good? I used to identify as MGTOW myself, but if we're being frank, that community is just as resentful as feminists. Look at your own comment for instance. Yes, society is mostly corrupt. Yet, I plead with you that you would start being more kind and loving to everyone, just like Jesus did. Even to feminists. Jesus Christ is not just a tool to find self-worth, Jesus is the way of life. If you truly want a blessed life, I tell you, Jesus is the way, because He will enable you to love unconditionally. Please, for your own good: reject the unfortunately resentful mentality that we subconsciously adopt in the Red Pill community, and turn to the love of Christ. I'm praying for you. 😇

[@originalmgtow9771]

@@mrzukunft You are correct that what is called MGTOW today is an abhorrent cult of hatred and brainwashing. But it was simply an embryonic philosophical concept pre 2000. Long story, but I am one of the original philosophers behind MGTOW - hence "Original" before "MGTOW". Old school MGTOW loved and adored women and were very troubled by modern feminism. We never portrayed women as evil but as victims themselves of dark, evil totalitarian fascism. One of my many coined terms (pre 2000) is the "Media Mobsters". The MGTOW movement was infiltrated and coopted around 2002, then "plants" we're installed (Sandman and his ilk) and online hate groups emerged that were we'll funded by the same totalitarian forces that are behind toxic feminism. I am making a very long story short, but Original MGTOW men never had a negative thing to say about women and, to the contrary, deeply loved and respected feminine women and wanted to support and protect them from evil feminist brainwashing. Our biggest focus was to drop out of society completely so as to "starve" the oligarchical fascist demonic system of its' number one human slavery resource. As far as Jesus is concerned, I live his philosophy more strictly and passionately than the vast majority of people that go to church.

[@mrzukunft]

@@originalmgtow9771 All right. Seems pretty fair, regarding "Original MGTOW". However, I think MGTOW, meaning "Men going their own way" is unbiblical, since men and women were created to complement each other. So I hope you do not believe in that ideology. Now, regarding your point about deeply loving and adoring feminine women (which we christians obviously encourage), that is indeed honourable. Yet, I still pointed you towards Jesus Christ, for now you are hating the "oligarchical fascist demonic system" and its adherents. Jesus himself commanded us to love each other, as well as our enemies, and even to pray for them! (Matthew 5:44-45: "But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven.") As I have pointed out, you seem to be quite resentful towards society. Which I used to be as well back when I was a modern MGTOW person. I hope that you see the subconscious impact even your own ideology has had on you. Now, regarding your point about living Jesus' philosophy more strictly and passionately than the vast majority of people that go to church, I would like to remind you (if you have read the Bible) that human works, i.e. following the Moral Law strictly, does not result in everlasting life. For we have all fallen short of God and continue to do so everyday. We cannot compensate for our evil sins with good deeds. What saves us is our trust in Jesus: repenting of our sins, turning to Him and letting Him form our lives, because He has paid for all our sins on the cross. Paul talks lots about salvation in his letters. For example, Ephesians 2:8-10: "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." So once again, I would like to point you to Jesus Christ and the cross. I myself found that the way to live a placid and blessed life is only possible through Jesus Christ, and I hope and pray that you would also see that. If you pursue the truth with all your heart, you will find it. In Matthew 7:13-14, Jesus says: "'Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.'" However, you are free to live your life as you would like to and choose the gate that most people enter through. Either gate will have its good and bad consequences. God bless you.

[@originalmgtow9771]

@@mrzukunft I appreciate your insights and concerns. But originally MGTOW never meant men going their own way and abandoning all contact with women. This is a deliberate distortion promulgated by the well funded fascists that coopted the movement. It is absurd and they thoroughly enjoy promoting a myopic hate filled cult of masochism and self deprication. Jesus promoted a way of life in his philosophy that encouraged the active bold rejection of the immoral and godless society of his time. Having been educated in philosophy and religion at a prestigious Jesuit university, I know the bible and the New Testament like the back of my hand. Jesus, from studying his actual words, was aggressively preaching the uncompromising rejection of the corrupt and morally bankrupt institutions of the Roman and Jewish societies of that time. The original MGTOW movement, philosophically speaking, is to a great extent modeled after both Jesus and Socrates' philosophies. Original MGTOWs hate no one and are very much like Taoists. It was essentially an anarchist passivist philosophy largely modeled after Tolstoy's book "Government IS Violence" where nonviolent strategies are offered to foment a positive and constructive revolution. BTW, Tolstoy was a devout Christian and considered himself a "Christian Anarchist" modeled after the example of Jesus himself.

[@steveland3364]

You are extremely brave for sharing your testimony. Trust me, you're not the only one who has struggled with it. It's also not just a "guy thing" either. Female's struggle with it to. But I am so glad that you have overcame that as well as with suicidal thoughts, and depression. Trust me, you're not the only one who struggles with any of that. So never be ashamed of sharing your testimonies, and struggles. And never beat yourself up over it. God loves you, and Jesus loves you. I know this was 2 year's ago but I hope that you're doing well, and still going strong!

[@Dilyas_ElmalikiLIVE2]

ALLAH IS THE GREAT. love to Jesus the prophet of ALLAH and to Muhammad the prophet of ALLAH ... Abraham. Noa. isaac..... ADAM. ALLAH is one of the 99 names of GOD. That means that there is one god no trinity. GOD is one in all Abrahamic faiths. I invite anyone who loves Jesus and god to start reading Quran and go to a mosque and ask for infos

[@TheKingdomOfHeavenIsAtHand333]

@@Dilyas_ElmalikiLIVE2Jesus is god

[@jack3927417]

It hits hard hearing the testimony of your teenage relationship because I was in an extremely similar relationship. However, I was the guy in the scenario and I was abusive. I was the guy in your relationship. I hurt my girlfriend to the complete degree you described. Hearing you talk about that really cemented the impact I had on my SO back when I was 16. I had, and still do have a pornography addiction which has caused great strife in my marriage. I’m 26 and have a child now. I found god when I was 23 and my life has changed. I’m working out 23 years of sin and guilt and remorse. Chief among my regrets is how I treated my girlfriend from the age of 14-17. I was just so awful and it was a product of my godless upbringing and lack of self worth. I was never taught about what it took to be a real man. I wish you didn’t have to endure that relationship, however, you’re only 19. You could have realized all this after 8 years into a crummy awful marriage as my coworker’s wife is at the moment. That situation is so sad and you have the wisdom you do now so you’ll never have to endure that, so in a sense, you’re lucky you learned this lesson so young. I watched this and felt sad for you but I want to thank you for finally helping me to realize the nature of the hurt I caused. I have a 7 month daughter and I just want to do everything in my power to help her feel loved and teach her not to ever have to endure a boy like myself at that age or the one you experienced. Thank you for being so real

[@Crazymelvis]

Good man.

[@boskaentertainment8050]

the Lord is great and faithful. Your testimony is beautiful and will help so many without a doubt. God bless u!!!

[@efgcreates]

Thank you for your transparency. I saw myself in this testimony and because of your courage and obedience I'm encouraged🥺 Keep climbing sis 💜God bless you

[@stevenchanda4039]

For those who would like to be part of a Christian group as learning from the video is important but accountability, praying and having Bible study as a family consistently or as an individual and with others with no shame or fear really helps 😊. God's loves is unconditional for us ❤. The group's link is below: chat.whatsapp.com/DNhfAHZvGBN8AxIKhiQK27

[@adesertsojourner8015]

Thank you so much for sharing. I spent years addicted to porn & masturbation, and casual sex, as well as relying on recreational drugs and alcohol abuse to socialise. I totally worshipped pleasure and despised Christians for being so repressed! In my late teens, I had a strong relationship with Christ, but gradually let myself get lured away-mostly through porn. The desires were so powerful and I felt like a hypocrite-constantly asking for God's mercy-so I ran away from Him. I let my faith crumble and subconsciously sought out worldviews that let me keep my sin and didn't evoke guilt or shame. I tried being a Dawkins' atheist for a while but was eventually drawn to Eastern mysticism, albeit through a New Age lens, which allowed my hedonism. I partied hard for years and indulged in every desire I could without restraint. I would tell myself: if I could just sleep with this or that woman, or go to these parties & festivals, or find even more messed up porn, or try new drugs, then I'll finally feel satisfied, but, honestly, it was never enough. The high would inevitably wear off and I'd be off chasing something else. This year, my grandma got very sick and passed away. She was devout in her faith and I think she never stopped praying for me. During her final weeks, I think by the grace of God, I decided to pray for her-not because I believed in it, but because I thought it would be a nice, symbolic gesture for her. Praying was very awkward at first, and I could only manage a few seconds. Yet the more I prayed, the more repelled I was by my lifestyle, and the more I found myself being drawn to the idea of Christ. I told Him, I don't even know if you're real, but if You are, please help me. Guess that's all He needed because, the Sunday after Easter, I found myself repenting and weeping for both sorrow and joy! I never thought I'd ever call myself Christian again, no way! I'm all too aware that living the Gospel is impossible without supernatural strength, which is why I'm relying on grace for everything, every day! By willpower alone, the longest I'd ever been able to not masturbate was a few weeks, yet I believe by His grace, I've kept away from all that trash for the last 5 months. I guess if I could make 1 point it's this: never feel we have to run and hide from the Infinite Mercy of Jesus. NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES we have to approach the foot of the cross, He never gives up on us. If we ever fall, and we ALL do, don't believe the lie that it's too hard, or our sins are too great, too many, or too habitual to be forgiven. Just trust in his grace, mercy, and love and keep walking with Him. And please pray for me.

[@Factchecker9111]

Praying

[@Factchecker9111]

Pray for me too please

[@user-rm2hl6pe4g]

Thank you for sharing your testimony this is powerful and so true! The world and the devil will always try to condemn us for our past but God forgives us every time we turn to Him for forgiveness and mercy. He meets us with love even if the world meets us with condemnation and hate.

[@Slov_]

Takes courage to post this and your struggle, even if it’s currently still going on. Respect you for it, big time.

[@mistiehernandez3601]

You’re so brave and God says our sins are now as far as the East is from the West! He sees them no more! He sees us pure and clean covered by the blood of Jesus ❤️🙏🏼

[@theOneThatWas]

Just keep in mind that you must repent and keep from doing sin as best you can or none of that matters to you. God bless.

[@ChiefCedricJohnson]

2 Corinthians 2:11 Lest Satan should get an advantage of us: for we are not ignorant of his devices.

[@e-rizzle]

Thank you for being so brave and sharing. You're right, no one really ever talks about this because they're nervous and or ashamed, but you are helping so many.💜 I'm so glad you've been delivered from this. Praise Yehovah!

[@addictivealternatives]

17:08 “Know your worth and do not settle.” First of thank you for sharing your story, I know it took a special kind of strength to do so. You’re an amazing person. This is so important though like, growing up I felt like it was disrespectful to myself and the girl if we weren’t committed to each other fully. Thankful for Bible School.

[@lightinthedarkness7944]

How do we overcome? By the blood of the Lamb, THE WORD OF OUR TESTIMONY, and loving our lives not into death. Great job 👏🏻

[@chelseaodegaard363]

Wow, that is so so encouraging! Thank you for sharing your testimony!!

[@FRizzo-np3nu]

Yes, what Chelsea said! My thoughts exactly!!

[@bahduhmeghalayaindia4621]

yes you are very true

[@donaldconley486]

Bless you my sister in Christ. Your post was very inspiring even though I’m a senior I did all the bad things when I was younger so please don’t feel bad Christ died so that you have a different life and you can’t begin to believe how many people will read this or see your video and be inspired so I just want to say bless you my sister in Christ

[@HatefYaminiOnline]

This is an incredibly powerful testimonial. Thank you for sharing your story and shedding light on this. You are strong and you will overcome this.

[@sidlove5798]

My heart goes out to you being so brave to be vulnerable enough to share your story..I too am overcoming sexual immorality and depression..you are an inspiration..God bless you and everyone on earth

[@charitymersereau4982]

You are so brave! Mighty little warrior of God! Your testimony is so powerful, this testimony will change the world

[@NanaTheSoul]

This video touched my spirit the type of character you are as a woman to come out and speak on this you are brave and I admire that God bless you 🙏🏿❤️

[@BaNuj]

It's good you found your "kings landing" of peace. Comming out from depression is hard on itself - but you did it! It's a huge success. I support you very much. From my heart, as an atheist I would pray for you and your innocent soul

[@joeJoe-pb3su]

I just started seeking God again. I have been lost in sin. I feel like the people of Israel lost in the desert for not days or months but years...I will pray for my salvation of my soul. Its going to be a uphill battle but I can't stop now. If anyone reads this please pray for me.

[@playlist6093]

Prayers on the way Joe. Christus Vincit! Christus Regnat! Christus Imperat!

[@hawthorneandersonllp]

I am so proud of you. I am old and have been a follower for some time, but I still learned so much from you. You soopened my heart. Thank you!! We are loved!

[@oyepappe]

I admire you for your courage, perseverance, honesty and affection. Take care,

[@winshi123]

Thank you so much for having courage to share your testimony..Your testimony hasn't only helped me but iam sure it helped many peoples too who are going through trials 🤗

[@davidbarnabas2619]

Your testimony was so encouraging for me, let God’s name alone be Glorified-

[@ChiefCedricJohnson]

2 Corinthians 2:11 Lest Satan should get an advantage of us: for we are not ignorant of his devices.

[@user-ek2ms4om7p]

His Name is Lord Jesus - the CHRIST P.s. Brother, your name means "loved one" and you are indeed loved by the Creator Himself, HalleluYah!

[@johnstown2451]

I think this is the best ‘take up your cross’ message I’ve heard. Very brave and very human. So much strengthen and encouraging.

[@JaraDouse]

aw thank you so much!! means a lot

[@michaelashcraft8569]

You are actually saving literal lives, and, touching Souls by your testimony, and, monologue, God has a purpose for you...Never let your past define you !!!

[@yayhoo8848]

I don't think you need to feel guilty about ANYTHING. If your church makes you feel guilty about yourself then that church is unhealthy. I grew up in a religious household that was extremely abusive in making me feel extremely guilty and ashamed of myself in all ways. I was emotionally abused by my church and my family in ways that were EXTREMELY damaging to me. Took me A LONG TIME to realize how evil my religion was and still is and to end my relationships with family members that still participate in spreading guilt and shame and hate. I am truly happy now that I am free of the guilt and shame that was taught to me at a very young age through my toxic religious parents and their toxic religion.

[@evelyncullen645]

I love that you talked about this, I am 19 too and this was very encouraging. The Lord will strengthen your heart. God bless you!!!

[@scotthall1615]

Evelyn Cullen I don’t know if you’ve encountered this but with me and some of the girls updated it’s always been all girl videos and stories and more if you’d like to talk you can find me on Snapchat Magik Man My Bitmoji has blonde hair and a beard and a cowboy hat

[@arpitsri9631]

Hi can we share whatsapp number for chat wit

[@scotthall1615]

arpit Sri I only use Snapchat I don’t have WhatsApp right now

[@arpitsri9631]

@@scotthall1615 ok snap chat I'd or Instagram

[@scotthall1615]

arpit Sri I hope you’re a girl how are you told you my Snapchat Magik Man Read my first response to see which one I am have to look at my Bitmoji

[@damienthorn5185]

I honestly didn’t think that women had pornography addictions. But there are a lot of testimonies here on KZbin that women have this addiction.

[@kattukTK]

Something like 40% of womans and 60-80% of man having those addictions. Between the age of 14- 30 or something

[@DisciplesHeart]

Pornography is a symptom of a very sick Society.... Was enslaved to lust for 34 years... finally set free. Here's how #Repent2DeLIVErance

[@freewaylee]

It takes a lot to reveal your spiritual journey on KZbin. You are touching many souls with your testimony and for this, you will be rewarded! Your rebirth is heart warming, the protection from the enemy is IMPOSSIBLE without the devine intervention of Lord Jesus. You are blessed, a child of God with eyes to see and ears to hear.

[@ethandelwood5700]

AMEN!!!

[@user-ek2ms4om7p]

Jesus is the Mysterious Omnipresent Lord!!! Elohim is TRINITY!!! Praise the LAMB of God

[@deeperwithgod7932]

Jada, that was such a powerful testimony, and it took so much courage to share it! The tenderness and purity of Jesus is so evident in you! God bless you abundantly! James Ponak

[@stevemizar4143]

Thank you for sharing your testimony! Your word is so valuable! You have courage and I know Jesus is living in you today. I'm struggling but I'm learning. God is so good and loves us so much. I know your struggles, im 77yrs old. Been in church all my life. Thank you again for sharing!

[@LizBrown21]

Your testimony is so mind blowing because I have struggled with watching inappropriate adult content since I was 15 since I never knew what’s appropriate when you get married with your spouse. God bless you sister 🙏🏼

[@GG-fi5jw]

It isn't easy to make a video like this and put it out there. Thank you for your testimony and I do think this will help other people! God Bless.