My Chemical Romance - The Light Behind Your Eyes [Official Audio]

[@geoff1988]

"If you promise me not to cry" *literally breaks down*

[@autumnmurrie2138]

same bro

[@geoff1988]

That Øne Killjøy Whø Løves Bands Møre Than Peøple It's been 12 days and i'm still crying

[@nicolee9580]

the tears keep coming

[@maabski5308]

Duns for hands true

[@akasuhauwu7447]

it's like a Gerard say you directly, not cry it's imposible

[@sarahbancroft7227]

"Never let them take the light behind your eyes" - (this song) "But even lights can fade away" - fake your death

[@Lotty1709]

Or "Cuz you only live forever in the lights you make" - The Kids From Yesterday "Even lights can fade away" - Fake Your Death. Either was is heartbreaking :'(

[@sarahbeasley7014]

Sarah Bancroft "Leave the lights on when you stay" -I don't love you Why do they like lights so much!?!?!

[@tatindats8996]

Sarah Beasley isnt that from fake your death

[@sarahbancroft7227]

Justine J. Yeah.

[@sarahbeasley7014]

Justine J. There's so many lights I get confused. XP

[@Isabella-jj3bq]

Can we just take a moment to appreciate how beautiful this song is

[@kaitlinm8053]

Omg right it's one of my favorite MCR songs ever

[@Isabella-jj3bq]

Mine too. And one of the most beautiful songs I've heard in my entire life.

[@derrikkharbinger9339]

Fucking yes

[@sofiar8910]

this song is my aesthetic

[@colormycrayon]

Fuck yessss

[@armande777]

I grew up in a chaotic abusive family, my chemical romance helped me get through that. I’m 23 now. To this day Gerard’s voice soothes my pain, calms me down, helps me get stronger when I need it. Thank you my chemical romance. You helped so many broken, beaten and damned people.

[@TinFoilCat90]

Same but I'm 33 and a mom now myself. I can remember blasting mcr to drown out the fighting. I fought to be a cycle breaker and mcr helped.

[@grovemaw]

I really resonate with your comment. I also had a family situation that would also fit that description. I'm about to turn 24 and this band still means everything to me. my music taste has expanded and grown a lot since the time that I found MCR, but they've never stopped being my favorite band. their music has helped me through so much. they've been the soundtrack to my toughest moments, and I have four tattoos to honor that. I am so grateful to them for everything. I am so glad you're stronger now and hopefully in a better place.

[@yeilh]

I feel like 23 by JEW would resonate with you so much

[@anytimeinmyhead]

Exactly me but I'm 33. My Chemical Romance was my saving grace. I'd always have my portable CD player with me. Pop in Bullets or Revenge and turn it up until everything else faded away.

[@laurenbyrnes3574]

You can't spell "I'm crying" without Mcr

[@jossacabriana8029]

+lauren byrnes bless you

[@catherineforbes9649]

+lauren byrnes Nice profile picture :) Cas

[@kilswich1]

You are awsome.

[@kilswich1]

*awesome*

[@gabekahn3221]

i'M CRying

[@jamesm432100]

I've discovered MCR all too late

[@xconorboy]

I know that feel bro :'(

[@Inigo-cu5os]

James m same i just discovered them this year ;-;

[@edilon2118]

James m As have i discovered them 2 days ago :'(

[@maddieheller1079]

Edilon Better late then never..

[@edilon2118]

yep

[@Sonamy12278910]

"Promise me you won't cry" can't make any promises, Gerard

[@ihavenosociallife7826]

Promise not to promise anymore

[@kalia.63]

soooooo true

[@56labrat56]

+TomorrowEve Gerard is a great poet.

[@yolandakouhai_4510]

(I promise)

[@lolgal1996]

yall it actually says "if you promise not to cry"

[@twentynetads1767]

To anyone who doesn’t know, gerard wrote this for bandit in case he relapsed. I don’t think any of us could ever understand his love for his daughter

[@mo2wheelz74]

❤️🥺

[@denofgames5336]

No he didn't he was at a convention and someones mum came up to him and said she tried to kill herself and is in hospital, Gerard immediately went to her and stayed by her side and wrote this song for her.

[@lays5326]

i love this

[@Dani_1012]

That perspective makes it even more heartbreaking

[@metalicrobot66]

@@denofgames5336 I think there can be multiple inspirations for one song!

[@amsclem]

*cries but in a punk way*

[@ihavenosociallife7826]

This is it. The best comment on the saddest song in history.

[@민지야-l3p]

Hi fellow phan

[@benmurray6720]

+Emozebra You weren't crying... You were just giving your face a drink of water. People were looking away cause your face was chapped and faded.

[@bgeoghegan8632]

+Ben Murray Should I call Aunt Marie?

[@benmurray6720]

Bethany Geoghegan Yeah, and help her gather all of their things.

[@i.s.l.4946]

Anyone else get this feeling where you just wanna cry but you can't, and you feel sort of hopeful and yet so hopeless, and you know you are longing for something but you don't know what but u still get a calm happiness when u listen to this song? Or is it just me

[@gia3442]

I know exactly what you’re talking about

[@sabrinareyes123]

oh my gosh yes

[@Icntthnkofanme]

I absolutely agree with you.

[@nl69123]

I think everyone does

[@caitlinstreet3669]

I get ya (and no I'm not just being an 'edgy teen')

[@mybigredsweater7774]

anybody else getting a feeling they can't explain and it can't leave

[@FranchescaDeLaRosa]

Every day of my life bro

[@amberrichard8874]

Ye boi

[@nicolee9580]

yeah as soon as i get the feeling i start crying. this song. i love it to much.

[@nicolee9580]

***** honestly same, ill be listening to their music then this song comes up and i immediately start crying

[@chloeparker2494]

Kate is not in Australia yes

[@mychemicalfalloutpilotsatt6085]

Gee: "If you promise not to cry" Me: *starts intensly crying*

[@Danny-wn1gn]

Don't cry Craft

[@aprilludgate5796]

I was listening to this song crying and wiping away my tears, and then I saw my fingers and they were black because of the eyeliner and I've never felt so emo.

[@meh.jesty022]

did you fall apart

[@c0zy23]

+mr sad XD

[@rileyfitzgerald470]

relatable

[@marietripod141]

same here

[@Aetherspace_]

Your name and profile picture omg 👌🏼💕

[@otsokumea]

So long to all my friends Everyone of them met tragic ends With every passing day I’d be lying if I didn’t say That I miss them all tonight And if they only knew what I would say If I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep Never let them take the light behind your eyes One day I’ll lose this fight As we fade in the dark Just remember you will always burn as bright Be strong and hold my hand Time-it comes for us, you’ll understand We’ll say goodbye today And I'm sorry how it ends this way If you promise not to cry Then I’ll tell you just what I would say If I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep Never let them take the light behind your eyes I’ll fail and lose this fight Never fade in the dark Just remember you will always burn as bright The light behind your eyes The light behind your Sometimes we must grow stronger and You can be stronger when I'm gone When I’m here, no longer You must be stronger and If I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep Never let them take the light behind your eyes I failed and lost this fight Never fade in the dark Just remember you will always burn as bright The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes The light behind your eyes

[@selsig_dwp]

Thank you ♥

[@macydelise]

+Jon Etxeberria Thank you :)

[@cris9851]

THANK YOU

[@FifiAprianiNurukbenj]

Jon Etxeberria love this song so much... so deep

[@Liessssssssssss]

Jon Etxeberria Thank you...

[@clementinewilson3493]

tears tears gallons of this stuff give them all that they could drink and it will never be enough so give them tears tearssss tearsssss grab a glass because there's going to be a flood

[@korilee3145]

Best thing I read in this comments section😂😭

[@theoisnotturtle4382]

You mean grab a swimming pool? A glass isn't big enough 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@fizzahhussain4951]

Chloe Wilson clever

[@sarah_loves_jesus]

Me too.

[@s_o_c_s_2041]

Honest

[@dessyvilla]

i lose it every time when he says "i'll fail and lose this fight", and then says "i failed and lost this fight."

[@ughostite]

I actually full on sob to this. I don't know how Gee did this, but he did. Forever in love with My Chemical Romance.

[@ughostite]

+Allee Childress Are you fucking serious. -_-

[@silvercurvegaming8583]

+KZbinrlw The Koala Jesus, it's just a troll

[@ughostite]

+SIlverCurve Gaming d Don't get in this. We're bffs we say this to each other as jokes.

[@zoeescobedo7755]

I wanna like this comment but it's at 669 so I won't

[@emmaarcaro]

Does anyone else listen to MCR for fun and then the sad songs come along and make you want to cry?

[@민지야-l3p]

All the time. I have a playlist on my iPad called "songs that make you cry". If I had this song it would be with Disenchanted and Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

[@kalia.63]

yeah

[@annal1236]

Everytime

[@almightytallestred232]

NONONO NOT CRY, *CRAFT!*

[@pocketnoose]

DUDE MY FRIEND SENT ME THIS BEFORE HE DIED I CRY EVERY TIME

[@jonathanlopez5769]

😿 im sorry

[@fizzahhussain4951]

pocketnoose that’s so sad. I am so sorry

[@sabrinareyes123]

OMG im so sorry this song must be so emotional

[@lazarusr4385]

Omg I am so sorry

[@joshdunsdrumstick]

I'm so sorry

[@quietartist5082]

all their songs are masterpieces but this one? this one hits home. this one is my favorite and will forever be.

[@1211jinx]

Same 🥺 and been a fan of them since 2009..

[@ricksmith8934]

Danger Days was hard to love. 'Destroya' was my 'gateway drug' and I loved the album in the end, but masterpiece it wasn't. However, it doesn't need to be. The band had bills to pay and we had feels to feel. It worked.

[@releaseyourart8562]

@@ricksmith8934 sorry but... bulletproof heart ? SING ? The only hope for me is you ? summertime ? they are masterpeices

[@lucia-vj2gs]

THIS SONG PHYSICALLY HURTS ME. IM NOT EVEN KIDDING. WHEN I HEAR THIS SONG MY CHEST AND MY HEAD START HURTING.

[@vasilisaradisic1497]

ME TOO. THIS, CANCER,DISENCHANTED AND SING GET ME EVERY.SINGLE.TIME.

[@민지야-l3p]

Same. And Disenchanted.

[@민지야-l3p]

I love Cancer too much to cry. I actually sing it all the time. I really like it

[@krishaunafisher]

+Lucia Gerding YOU FEEL IT TOO? MY CHEST START HURTING LIKE HOW CAN THEY DO THIS TO ME

[@cbasallie]

Right now. As I type this. My chest is LITERALLY burning.

[@Imiluvsnoodles]

This is probably they're most heart-wrenchingly beautiful song they put out

[@Imiluvsnoodles]

Imster cancer is also pretty tear triggering but thisss

[@Imiluvsnoodles]

ok no that i agree omg

[@catherinetramell69]

+Today's Activities and demolition lovers

[@janedoe5836]

+Waifu Doogal Honestly I find this one to be more heart wrenching than disenchanted. This one just seems so much more intense with the melodic guitar in the beginning leading to the dramatic build up.

[@ziegrahlsoul]

Em G C D So long to all my friends, Em G C D Every one of them met tragic ends, Em G C D With every passing day, Em G C D I'd be lying if I didn’t say, C D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 That I miss them all tonight C D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 And if they only knew what I would say [Chorus] Em G C D If I could be with you tonight Em G I would sing you to sleep, C D Never let them take the light behind your eyes Em G C D One day, I'll lose this fight Em G C As we fade in the dark, just remember D Em G C D you will always burn as bright [Verse] Em G C D Be strong, and hold my hand. Em G C D Time, it comes for us, you'll understand. Em G C D We'll say goodbye today, Em G C D And we're sorry how it ends this way C D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 If you promise not to cry C D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 - D - Dsus4 I will tell you just what I would say [Chorus] Em G C D If I could be with you tonight Em G I would sing you to sleep, C D Never let them take the light behind your eyes Em G C D I'll fail and lose this fight Em G C Never fade in the dark, just remember D you will always burn as bright C D The light behind your eyes... C D the light behind your... [Bridge] Em D Sometimes we must grow stronger and C G You can't be stronger in the dark. Em D C D When I'm here, no longer, you must be stronger, and [Chorus] Em G C D If I could be with you tonight, Em G I would sing you to sleep, C D Never let them take the light behind your eyes. Em G C D I've failed and lost this fight, Em G Never fade in the dark, C D Just remember you will always burn as bright. C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your eyes C D the light behind your...

[@tasteimmortality]

i know this comment is from 2 years ago, but i want you to know that you are a hero and i love you for this

[@jazminblaj6418]

not all heroes wear capes

[@ziegrahlsoul]

I did not remember that i wrote this comment three years back 🤣😂 Anyway i still Listen and play this song my accoustic guitar. Its a simple chord progression but its beautiful

[@thelivingflowerpot]

THANK YOU

[@purple.moooon]

OMG THANK YOU, THIS IS MORE THAN USEFUL 😍😍

[@no-hf9hy]

My ex sent me this 4 years ago before she broke up with me and took her life. I’ve avoided this song for so long for it’s haunting beauty. But today as I listen to it I feel a new type of closure.

[@catrocastre8215]

I'm sorry to hear that, but glad u have closure.

[@soundaffects8352]

So so sad.She loved you xx

[@soundaffects8352]

And she wanted you to be ok xx

[@TakenUsernameAuradium]

If you're willing to take the extra mile, you should let her be last one. this is a hard request, so maybe not.

[@drewscherle5266]

0:01 its good, I'm over it I'll just listen to a good song 2:29 *uncontrollably sobbing and singing at the same time*

[@patricklauer4452]

Drew Scherle oh cool another Rush fan here!

[@hikarikakashi7119]

This is the only MCR song that makes me actually sob my heart out.

[@catherinetramell69]

Cancer?

[@catherinetramell69]

+hikari kakashi Demolition lovers is sadder in my opinion. Idk, just my opinion.

[@stephaniesblue7870]

I have like a love/hate relationship with this song for that reason where I listen to it and cry I don't like crying 😔😔

[@janedoe5836]

+hikari kakashi Agreed. I honestly cry more from this than Cancer, Demolition lovers, or Disenchanted. It just is so intense that it gets me.

[@doritokream8492]

Cancer???!??

[@cassidyheath1337]

this is the most underrated mcr song

[@typhlosion7872]

By far

[@onna0325]

Make Room is really underrated too.

[@milagroscabrera5304]

the whole convetional weapons album is!!!

[@i_am_an_idiot_but]

Um Sleep???

[@Sunseekers05]

I am an idiot, but I agree

[@itsthemaggieshow]

“If you promise not to cry” YOU KNOW I CAN’T MAKE THAT PROMISE, GERARD

[@blueberymufn11]

Literally i always start crying at that verse lol

[@matheus1530]

@@blueberymufn11 Sorry fror english, but this music is ever played live since return of mcr?

[@scaramooouche]

​@@matheus1530nope

[@Mychemicalmedia]

REAL

[@MelissaHolanda-lm5we]

@@matheus1530Brasileiro fã de mcr, deveras interessante

[@Emily-es2xf]

This is one of the few MCR songs that actually causes me pain...

[@lilystevens3016]

FallOutParamoreAtTheDisco 387 It causes me pain too... Like, my wrists all of a sudden start hurting... Dunno why...

[@Emily-es2xf]

...?

[@thespiritofadventure3923]

Lol I keep seeing you everywhere. Dan and Phil, bands lol. Rock on! God bless

[@Emily-es2xf]

Alitzel Ortega heheh >:3

[@liannekuijper7119]

FallOutParamoreAtTheDisco 387 soo true.. i realy feel the pain

[@corn_inc.]

*This starts playing* OH OHHH OHH NOO OHH GOD NO PLEASE *Breaks down crying*

[@nicolee9580]

honestly me right now. freaking sh00k

[@dvdmrrtnz]

I’m crying... I’ (m cr) ying :0 ITS A SIGN

[@Lex-cu4ur]

Lays down Tries not to cry Cries a lot

[@PrimrosePetals]

*what about when you put your ipod on shuffle and Cancer comes on after it*

[@averyvaughan7965]

*IM TOO PUNK ROCK FOR THIS*

[@MyoticTesseract]

I'm not crying. _I'm fucking sobbing_

[@annal1236]

Dont sobb, craft

[@mybigredsweater7774]

+Queen Salad Ass *claps*

[@demonia7259]

same

[@captainwolf7372]

Me

[@nicolee9580]

Me as hell

[@dead_ones]

Honestly, one of MCR’s most underrated songs.

[@charlottedunne7539]

This song cured my depression and immediately gave it back

[@iin3328]

this is an underrated comment

[@mychemicalpilots1518]

LOL nooo😭💀😂

[@justarandomperson3986]

it really went, i'll take this off your hands. _for now_

[@PositiveCynic]

This song, it just pulls at your heart just like the "The Ghost of You" video

[@NoName-rk3uq]

and every other mcr song in existence

[@musicscreamer2012]

Oh yes, this and "The World Is Ugly" always get me so emotional. Have to be couple of the best MCR songs. These songs deserve more recognition tbh.

[@messydeskproductions4159]

album 3 is by far the best on C.W.

[@eros4917]

Yes sir.

[@eros4917]

1 Trillion views

[@Dabednego]

To everyone reading this. You’ve made it this far, and look what we have now. You got to see MCR come back. You to get hear them play songs like this live for the first time. You might even get to see them release new music (God Willing.) You get to see them touch a new generation of fans like the same way they did with you. They’re still changing people’s lives with their music, and you get to be there. So stick around. I genuinely believe that the best is yet to come.

[@jennifergonsior8514]

This really just touched me as I'm going through a rough patch in life and just recently got to see them for the first time

[@mrcreepmcpasta2959]

this helped allot I'm currently underage and homeless for months

[@mialeblanc7622]

My girlfriend used to sing me this song before she died.....I cry every time I hear it.

[@robertmoraton2535]

keep your head up

[@baileywhite3299]

Then why are you watching this?

[@bludecember1]

probably for that small bit of remembrance

[@baileywhite3299]

well if the person cries every time he listens to the song then it most likely causes him pain. so I ask you why would you want to cry? and you know not move on and stop listening to a song that causes sadness

[@taeminsant4375]

you can still want to remember someone while still moving on.

[@FoenyxFeather]

What I love about this song most is the emotion he captures when singing it.

[@gimlithedwarf7502]

I'm Syrian MCR was my favourite band 6 years ago..before the war before anything happened there I remember listening to their songs back home and now they have a completely different meaning

[@tarapapapapa]

be strong hun!

[@gimlithedwarf7502]

jinniee awww thanks

[@vanessaybarra1232]

stay strong you'll get through this :)

[@gimlithedwarf7502]

Vanessa Ybarra MCR fam I love you all

[@-svintpvtrick6333]

Gimli the dwarf Be strong Killjoy

[@isabellarichmond5146]

I think part of what makes people cry when they listen to this song is because it’s so powerful. You can hear the emotions even in the instruments. Everything about this song holds so much power and emotion and it’s beautiful

[@mishti3941]

I listen to this whenever I feel lonely. This song feels like someone is directly talking to us, telling us they'll always be here with us. Gerard sings with so much emotion! Also "The World is Ugly".

[@babydragonstudios9098]

a world without mcr.. it just aint living!

[@oyeahmrkrabs1747]

Baby Dragon Studios and i just hope you know...

[@questionablejudgement3137]

That, if you say.. goodbye today..

[@maddylimee837]

No Name is this song not sad enough without adding a cancer lyric reference to the comment section?! 😭

[@gabrielasampedro824]

I'd ask you to be true

[@emma-jp3oc]

But the hardest part of this was leaving them... Sorry

[@marianacorona167]

To all the people in the comments who say they're sobbing because of how emotional the song is to them, just remember the boys don't want to see you like this. They want to see you move on a grow stronger. This song is very emotional if you are a true fan who cared about the band and stayed alive because of them. Just know that they have gone separate ways to start new eras and make others as happy as they made us.

[@abbyinman9501]

Forget crafting, I'm actually crying.

[@SergeantFish]

That was beautiful

[@jayjayjay5086]

Me too oh my gosh

[@chemicalpk2870]

That was the most 2016 thing I've ever heard.

[@Maritzaemerald]

Abby Inman 😂😭😭

[@damiens_]

I see you literally everywhere.

[@nyamdavaamyagmartsooj4788]

There isn’t a single day I don’t think about my friend. My friend of 15 years passed away before turning 21. It ripped one of the biggest pieces of my life away. When someone that important leaves your life you MUST grieve and this song helps me grieve his loss. I will curse myself in the future if I didn’t shed enough tears for my beloved friend. You have to let it all out. To let yourself know you’ll never know someone like you knew him. Rest in peace my friend, I love you. I’ll never not cry after you.

[@professorsong1264]

I need to stop getting into bands I'll never be able to see live...

[@MyChemicalLove011]

I first listened to them in middle school..with hope to see them when I was old enough..and that time never came. It hurts sooo bad. :/ :'(

[@rb13atgm]

***** the feels man, we got em. I loved them back in middle school and I still do. And we'll never see them live again

[@MyChemicalLove011]

rb13atgm But no matter what, i always have some slight hope inside ...that they will pick up their guitars and mic once again. Clinging to false hope.

[@conallharkin5365]

Me too... *cries*

[@kalabenson8591]

lol same i guess i should know by now that when your parents say " I grew up listening to them" most likeley means they arnt a band anymore xD

[@somesunshine4004]

my mom thinks all my bands are so toxic, but everytime i listen to them i feel way better

[@myasproles1136]

Same

[@oogs_98]

Maybe that makes us toxic too 😂

[@izamaj3767]

They aren't toxic, they are just chemical

[@autumnmurrie2138]

if it weren't for this song, or mainly this band on general, I wouldn't be typing this right now. My Chemical Romance has gotten me through so much.. they've convinced me to never self harm, to never think of doing anything to myself. without them, I probably would've done these things. I'm glad I found them as a band. they've made me happy, now its time for us to make them happy. I miss MCR, they've saved me. only thing is I wouldn't want them back if it meant they wouldn't be happy. If they came back, it'd be amazing, since I've never seen this band live. and if they don't, I'll he heartbroken. but this is life. life means growing up. it means that we move on from things we grew up with. like Gerard has stated, MCR is in all of us. they always have, and always will. thank you so fucking Much for helping me MCR. without you, I'd be gone. thank you for the venom :')

[@frnksfrthmmrs2508]

autumn murrie the same applies to me - this describes the band perfectly, glad you got through all that stuff! i completely agree with the stuff about them getting back together, they’ve given us music and hope and every other feeling so we should be grateful, and if they don’t want to get back together, we need to accept that

[@xo18378]

I feel you, this was the band that made me stand up to my parents and stop self harming

[@brylie.myers2028]

I’m so glad that you’re doing well!! I’ll continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers 😊🙂

[@gabygarlez1509]

What a wonderful human you're, I think possitive thoughts have possitive answers so... They're finally back :')

[@cry5979]

Hopefully you're still hanging in there, mcr is back!

[@matthewanakin3689]

I'm laying in my room, crying my eyes out, wishing I was dead. I'm pretending that I don't hear the screams from my family and its just Gerard singing to me.

[@jxmah4112]

Matthew Barbour stay strong killjoy friend. the MCRmy is here for you. you dont have to be alone. youve gotten through 100% percent of your bad days. promise me you’ll never let them take the light behind your eyes. i love you! ❤️

[@maryhenningsen4163]

🥀. I'm sorry you are going through/went through that. 2 years later I hope things have gotten better for you 🖤.

[@nikkic8886]

I hope your here to read this now. Even as the light fades. Some will always see it. Know that you are never alone even though our minds can make us feel that way. Eventually things change. If you ever need to talk find me online. Same name

[@EliseBlackheart]

He'd never sing to you. You aren't special

[@augustyn2.0]

@@EliseBlackheart good god youre a fucking loser man, please touch some grass

[@PixieLovesItAll]

I still think that this song was meant for us, the fans, as support for when they wouldn't be around anymore. Nevertheless, we needed them, but they weren't there. And that's okay. The light may be out, but I can feel it there, ready and waiting. There is so much waiting for My Chemical Romance. So much....

[@lauram6216]

I'm crying blood.

[@dustyjuiceboy]

Laura M Call an ambulance you fool!

[@mackenziefoust6085]

You have no idea how happy reading this made me, thank you

[@itzcindyrella]

congratulations, you made me cry

[@nadyaosman2852]

Yeah, I feel like when they wrote this gerard already kind of knew it was gonna end

[@chrrymndy]

this. this is one of the most meaningful (at least to me) mcr songs out there, it never fails to make me cry my tiny heart out. it's been three years without mcr as of today, never let then take the light behind your eyes killjoys

[@cheezandbees6934]

I won't and I like your username

[@kinglucy2555]

lemon gerard it’s been 5 yrs now :(((

[@leahmckeever6318]

GUESS WHAT....NOT ANYMORE THEY FUCKING BACK

[@Miller-og8ke]

@@leahmckeever6318 Yeah I exited

[@carolinev1704]

Guys I'm crying so hard right now why did they have to break they were so beautiful together but Gerard said their is still gas in the My Chemical Romance Tank please please come back to us you were so perfect *sobs*

[@barfly946]

Just why are so many MCR fans given to incoherent and mentally hilarious displays of melodrama like this ? They sucked,by the way (haha) .

[@zaneshoe2116]

NIGEL PASSMORE you screwed with the wrong band on the wrong song I can't wait till they and I destroy you

[@zaneshoe2116]

Okay so be it bye ur a jerk so I just wanna watch

[@barfly946]

ah ,youre only eleven, that explains everything .Maybe in time youll hear real punk rock and wonder why you ever listened to crap like this .

[@zaneshoe2116]

Im twelve and I have heard real punk and I like this more

[@poesessed_8934]

I don't have mental health problems. I'm not emo or punk. I've never cried while listening to an MCR song. I just find their music really relaxing. You don't have to be depressed or emo to appreciate good music! :)

[@adityamaharaj3262]

Your speaking straight facts

[@jamielyons4961]

100% agree, absolutely beautiful song

[@shinijoker42]

This song (as well as other songs from their records) has helped me get through one of the worst moments in my life. My step dad passed away 10/8/13 and when I felt like no one was there for me, I would listen to this song and cry a lot. It would help me relax and know that without my step dad, I would not have gotten into rock music (or appreciating what it can mean to different people) or be alive today. He also took me to my first My Chem show in Chicago @ the Chicago Theater. Thanks dad :).

[@shinijoker42]

Josh Nelson - Thank you.

[@jacobhuffman3451]

Isauro Valdez I feel u my dad passed when i was six. My mom and dad divorced when i was 3 and he moved to seattle and got into alcohol. He ended it by commiting suicide

[@Jacob-fw4ve]

So long to all my friends.. and goodnight?

[@SLIM3DM]

So long

[@pollyderriese7810]

And goodnight

[@kyragrayc]

😂

[@religiousripoff7738]

@@stinkyman2399 oh my god :O

[@HadesTheMisfit]

Lines That Hit Too Close To Home: "I would sing you to sleep" I used to sing my younger brother to sleep before my life fell apart "One day I'll lose this fight." I never thought I'd live past 12. "If you promise not to cry." I told everyone who is suicidal that it's okay to cry, yet they should not. I would get angry when they cry, thinking about killing themselves. If they even think about harming themselves, I will get angry at them. "I'd be lying if I didn't say that I miss them all tonight." I miss my old memories. My old life. My old will to live. Anyone who is down and reading this, Remember that you are not alone. You will be found. You are loved, even by me. I would sail across the ocean for you, because you are important.

[@eros4917]

You're right.

[@asdfdssasdwerbgczq3263]

you made me cry

[@THEGruesomeGabby]

You are important too. Keep going friend.

[@AJ-de6qx]

I needed this

[@кринжанул-в7н]

Thank you

[@lostgirl7476]

It's funny how everyone is commenting about how much this song makes them cry or how they want MCR back, cause for me it's the exact opposite. Whenever I hear this, I stop crying. I hate people saying "everything's okay" when everybody knows it's not. This is like someone saying "it's not okay now, but it will be. Someday you'll wake up and all this will be just a memory" And sure I would love to have MCR back, but I fine with them being a memory. When I think of MCR I remember a great time, a great band and an even greater idea. I think of all the songs they made, not the ones they'll never do. I remember the good times I had, not the ones I'll never have. Memories are the most valuable thing you have. They stop time for a while. They keep alive the ones you loved and lost. Never let anyone take this from you!

[@angryasfuck6662]

You my friend are the only sane person in this damn comment section

[@madison8710]

See thank you Even though I start crying every time thankyou

[@goodbye687]

Well there back now

[@maxmoreno1698]

This comment made me cry because I felt every single word you said

[@existingdark]

This is why I will never stop going back to Linkin Park. Even if every single time it hurts a fuck ton to do it.

[@wh0resh1pper]

well who needs a heart anyway?

[@vasilisaradisic1497]

We're all going to hell anyways Well exept Ray He's God

[@rei9185]

I'm just letting out all the water in me through my eyes.

[@mikeyway7015]

Mikey Way Makes My Girlhood Tremble YOUR NAME OMFG SAME

[@b.y.v.e.s]

Psh not me *rips heart out and throws it out the window*

[@thelitassasin1084]

NEVER LET THEM TAKE THE LIGHT BEHIND YOUR EYES

[@mxnnlrnt]

I love how open everyone is in the comment section. I wanna open up mine too and hopefully it will encourage someone to keep moving on. 2018: My life was really miserable even before this year came up but everything just went downhill from there. I stopped going to school due to depression, it was getting worse each year. I was so ashamed of myself, I felt like my existence didn’t matter and I’m only a burden to everyone. I had no friends, It’s hard for me to reach out to someone and seek help. I felt like i couldn’t be cured. I was too broken. I’m smiling and laughing from the outside but I’m slowly dying inside. Life was tough and i was weak. I even cry myself to sleep every night wishing I was good enough. I just wanted everything to stop, the pain, sorrow, emptiness. My body was full of cuts. I remember one time, writing negative things about me everywhere on my body. And so one day i decided to stop living. It was just me and my uncle in the house,m that time, the rest was at work. I went out to buy medicines (a lot of them) because i thought about overdosing. I assembled all the pills and laid down. I was crying. I remember how hard it was to breathe. It was so quiet and i didn’t want to be suspicious, so i connected my phone to the speaker and chose my mcr playlist. I remember saying to myself “Just one last song” and closed my eyes. I wanted to at least die listening to what i love. Then this song came on. I was shaking, my hands were shaking as well. I listened until the song is over, I looked at my hands and i immediately threw the pills away. And for the next few hours i was crying and kept replaying this song. MCR made me feel like i wasn’t alone. Every time I’m feeling down i listen to your songs. It helps me cope with reality. And now it’s already 2020 and I’m still here listening to you guys, I couldn’t thank you enough for saving my life. I will always keep on moving forward, no matter how hard the struggles are in life. MCR will always have a big space in my heart.

[@aeron_draven]

I'm so happy you're alive today. I hope i can beat my demons too. And for any time you feel like that remember that you matter. And I'm so glad and proud of you for throwing away those pills

[@97mcarmen]

I'm proud of you that you're still here ♡

[@mxnnlrnt]

reading this again and im crying

[@bryanalpha6716]

Goodjob xin Praying that you can keep your light from now on

[@busybiscy]

i feel like this is something alot of people need to hear

[@iimpliicit]

Dear My Chemical Romance, I know your not going to at all see this comment buried by other more famous comments... But thank you for the years you were active. The world needs you the most right now. But you're happy with your families. Thank you for being a band we could go to even in the most fucked up times. Your music has prevented only so many deaths... Who knew a group of 4 normal people could save lives. We will never be silenced Because we are the MCRmy We are the killjoys. And killjoys always make noise. -Hope and love Another Killjoy

[@leahmckeever6318]

u dont knowwwwwwwww they are active :0

[@notmaddie06]

Well I got great news mah dood... they bacc and redy to attacc

[@fayes2201]

@@SwagmasterSaucy they're having a tour dude

[@anajuliamonroy3299]

they heard you

[@alexmmaynard2958]

HELL YES

[@laurenm162]

anybody else hear this and just think about - friends who aren't your friend anymore - every fictional character death that's ever made you cry - your closest friends

[@Mikenactor]

- Friends who aren't your friends anymore. Such a melancholic song.

[@caitlyncissna3640]

lauren_the_otaku1 I'm here because of ducked up shit that happened to me in my life

[@Someone-qu1jr]

lauren_the_otaku1 i thought it was like a suicide note..

[@helixducotia2348]

I think of my friend harry

[@firstandlastnamehere6201]

snakeofmemeeyes2 f

[@albertpedroza93]

I'll never see my chemical romance live because am a late fan

[@lazarusr4385]

Same child, same

[@abby4684]

Same

[@aitnys222]

same, it hurts

[@nl69123]

same here

[@joshdunsdrumstick]

Same

[@ratdickz9196]

*vent I guess* This is the first time someone has told me too keep going. Even if they know I don't exist, it still means so much too me. Everyone just tells me too suck it up. Ive struggled with self harm and no one does anything. Ive only got two people in my life who know about my self harm and one of them like to rub her hand up and down my thighs, saying that she likes how the scars feel. This is the only song that actually makes me breakdown. It means so much for Gerard to tell you to keep on going.

[@lizardthewizard6737]

I'm just a person on the internet who doesn't know you but I'm also going to tell you to keep going. I don't know what you're going through but I know that you're strong and capable and can get through anything, and you're not alone. Please don't hurt yourself, and know that everything will be alright in the end if you just hold on.

[@elizas1981]

I hope you're doing better now, and if you're not, there's a website called TreverSpace that helped me when I was in a bad place.

[@ratdickz9196]

idealistic platypus holy shit habdydhdjdjdsjsj i forgot i wrote this. thank you for saying this dude, im in a slightly better mental place then i was when i had wrote that. i havent grown out of their music and still love mcr which says a lot lmao

[@donttouchthestove7157]

I’m so sorry, I really hope that things get better soon. Everything will be ok and just try your best to be strong. Strength looks different to everyone and you just existing is pure strength. Things will get better and I’m sending healing energy your way

[@DistractedTomfoolery]

Hey dude, how's it going? It's been a hot minute since you wrote this. Wishing the best for you, love, a random person on the internet.

[@donharmuth776]

If they don't play this song at my funeral I'm not dying.

[@Galaxy_wolf-qe3un]

Same!!

[@balavalbala540]

I just decided this will be part of my funeral Playlist when i die

[@jessemonster7292]

Good luck with that 😅

[@stabbedpeanut1842]

what,me? crying? psh no,there's just an idea in my eye

[@dewydew3681]

+Kaia Grabar same

[@lilduck6365]

+frankiesmemes ME? crying oh no no Gerard I promise I wont cry *sniffs*

[@theoisnotturtle4382]

No I promised Gee I wouldn't cry... a speck of March 22nd 2013 blew into my eye

[@graygris1492]

Or is it the light behind your eyes

[@RubelliteIsHere]

I was casually listening to this song cause i recently got into conventional weapons and these lyrics just hit me straight into my heart: "Be strong and hold my hand Time-it comes for us, you’ll understand We’ll say goodbye today And I'm sorry how it ends this way If you promise not to cry Then I’ll tell you just what I would say If I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep Never let them take the light behind your eyes I’ll fail and lose this fight Never fade in the dark Just remember you will always burn as bright" Its for us, the MCRmy… "Sometimes we must grow stronger and You can be stronger when I'm gone When I’m here, no longer" He's telling us to be strong even when he's gone aka March 22nd… its a goodbye for all of us… i might be wrong but man, it hit me right in the feels ;-;

[@amberrichard8874]

I'M IN CLASS AND I AM STARTING TO TEAR UP THANKS

[@nicolee9580]

cAn YoU nOt. im crying so hard.

[@RIN4.]

Sammi Irwin 卌 you are satan.

[@stinkyzig8964]

N O YOU CAN'T NOW I'M ACTUALLY CRYING LIKE THERE ARE LEGITIMATE TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FUCKING CHEEKS

[@nicolee9580]

LEMON LORD GERARD FLUFFIN WAY The Magestic SAME THIS WAS REALLY PAINFUL

[@emiquintana509]

"So long to all my friends. Every one of them met tragic ends." One of my favorite lines. Puts me in a certain mood, and sets the tone perfectly for this song.

[@ielizabethm2]

Gerard tweeted that this song was meant for his little daughter Bandit, which makes sense because he was reminding her in the song that even when he no longer lives in this world (however, I hope that won't happen soon), the light behind her eyes will never stop seeing the good in the world and will keep shining. Whenever Bandit is depressed, she still shines brightly because people would always care about her. Yes, we can compare it to us MCR fans in the same case..

[@shaina4935]

a b c d e f *gee*

[@anirenart8422]

I love the Internet

[@nxgan1088]

Twinkle Twinkle little star, Where the fuck is mcr?

[@theoisnotturtle4382]

Hey how do you know my math grade?

[@ariellamarmon964]

not sure if this is a g note reference or a gerard reference but i stan anyway

[@Mae_Dastardly]

I read that *gee* as the piano note.

[@eggietime8666]

I would die to go to just "ONE" one mcr concert I would kill sell my soul and any thing to see them all together again i hope in 2019 they do get back together i hope the legends are true killjoys never die but what happens when they have no leadership

[@sarazerhouni3752]

your wish just came true i hear there getting back together

[@anirenart8422]

+Sara Zerhouni they aren't :/ it's just a rerelease of TBP for its tenth anniversary.

[@eggietime8666]

Sara Zerhouni IwillPeeOnYourCat today did you here about MCRX T-T

[@anirenart8422]

+Keelie williams of course.....that's what we were talking about. It's just a rerelease of demos and unreleased songs that didn't make it onto the black parade album, for the black parade tenth anniversary.

[@phantrash2333]

Sara Zerhouni HAHAHA no

[@OKHolly]

This song embodies the feeling of holding onto hope when you have nothing left. It makes me cry, but it's perfect.

[@michahyu26840]

That's exactly how I feel about this song :')

[@yuro7585]

116 people were crying so hard they missed the like button... Seriously, this song is amazing ;n; .....whyy...

[@smelltheroses6]

My poem dedicated to mcr: The light behind your eyes, Oh how we miss you guys, Your memory will carry on, Killjoys never die Now don't you lie, I am not afraid to keep on living But I'm afraid to say bye (That was really lame I know, and yes I did take lyrics from some of their songs okay.)

[@Vruut]

Roses are red, Violets are gay, MCR broke up, and Im not okay.

[@smelltheroses6]

^^^thank you because mine is terrible xD yours is touching though :, )

[@SarahZhou]

GERARD IS A FUCKING LIAR. HE SAID THE BAND WAS FOREVER AT A SHOW. LIES GERARD. I'll be okay though. I will live on...

[@cloudporridge]

smelltheroses not freaking lame *screenshots*

[@roshanfey]

"" lame"" " UM EXCUSE YOU THIS IS TOUCHING AF

[@ShellyHed]

*fills a river with my tears, hops on a raft, sails down it*

[@einsatzweaver318]

i would sing you to sleep

[@isabelle7533]

never let them take the light behind your eyes

[@einsatzweaver318]

lol

[@eutimiagallegos5]

To the black parade

[@neethaii4689]

This probably will be a long text, but let's go. Today is 1/24/20. I started listening to the back parade album back in may '19. I really got into MCR on 1/13/20. 11 days. So. In these days, I heard nothing but MCR. I never felt so in touch with a band before. Everything they did was so well structured, make me feel close to them. The first time I heard this song, it hit me powerfully. From the second time, I couldn't listen to this without crying. Every time. The way (no pun intended) this man sings is so full of emotion. So deep. He sinks into his soul to do it. So soulful. As a singer wannabe, I always try to put the most emotion I can into my singing, so whenever I listen to this, it hits me like a bus. I had never cried because of a song until then. Now this one, acapella of welcome to the black parade, desert song, interlude, romance, early sunsets over Monroeville and sing for Japan hit me in the feels. Sometimes I become so hopeless, not feeling enough, feeling like I can't grow on music and the despair comes. But listening to this song -dude, how can they make such a connection with us? I feel like I know them since always. Once I got into the fanbase, I felt really welcomed. And the more I read about them, more I wanted to know. Watched a lot of concerts, and even through shitty resolution of the videos, even if they were recorded more than ten years ago, I could feel it. This is the purest form of art I can think about. (insert gerard moaning here) I promised myself never to sing this song. This is way too pure. (again, no pun intended.) Through all these youtube comments, I read a lot of people saying the much MCR helped them to get through everything. Anytime I remember their story, I start acting strange (in a good way with no pun intended), because it's too beautiful. The way (-_-) the fans are connected to each other, and MCR with us, everything is too magic. And one thing must be said: it all, in each and everything I said, I can feel LOVE flowing through it all. Through them. Through us. Through all the places. Through the years. Through everything. LOVE is what kept us all alive. LOVE is what brought them back. LOVE is all I feel whenever I listen to MCR. If I, who started listening to them 11 days ago, feel like this, I imagine how the older fans feel about it all. MCR is now one of the most important bands of all time, because of all this LOVE. If I ever got to be at an MCR concert, I definitely would cry my guts out, the energy might be so strong. One day I will be there, they give me hope. They fill me with LOVE. If you read until here, well... Congrats, I guess~ ^w^

[@jxmah4112]

wow that's awesome! ❤️

[@TakenUsernameAuradium]

Its been 3 years

[@katherinema7135]

I'd been in total denial of their break up until I listened to this song again. I guess it's selfish of me to want them back together so much when they're happier separate...I shoulde be more grateful and stop moping; because of them, I feel comfortable in my own skin and happy to forge my own identity. Thinking about them is painful, but their beautiful lyrics are immortal. I suppose that's what really counts, isn't it?

[@jxmah4112]

well, THEY'RE BACK!!!

[@catleaxmas5416]

I can hear and feel gee's emotions in his voice He really mean it when he sing it this song is for us

[@EprilSiDragon]

This song is life. It's so beautiful

[@sarahbeasley7014]

Epril SiDragon It's playing at my funeral

[@pennygillespie883]

This album officially released 3 weeks before someone I cared deeply about was stolen from the world and for me this song expresses so accurately how I felt and still feel, not a year goes by where my heart doesn't break but this song is helping to keep me going as best I can. I miss you Jade, I should have tried harder to be a better and closer friend to you when we were kids.

[@jessf7317]

I hate it when it's this hot outside because like it when it's cold and I can get a blanket and turn off all my lights except for fairy lights and listen to this song and cry. Its not as good when it's hot. Still makes me cry, though.

[@gh0stliboii620]

Same i love the cold in general

[@its__Ev]

am I the only one who doesn't cry????

[@questionablejudgement3137]

+kal axy Yes. Yes you are.

[@fizzahhussain4951]

Jess :D I know

[@fizzahhussain4951]

My Twenty One Chemical Gorillaz I love ur name

[@KickaHippyPK]

Haven't listened to MCR in a couple years. Gives me shivers to listen to them again. Reminds me of a bad teenage hood. So thankful I got to see them live a few times... Wow.

[@blackveilromance2878]

Your lucky you actually got to go to one of their concerts

[@KickaHippyPK]

Gabrielle Kirby I'm sorry to hear that you didn't get to see them. :( Was a pretty meaningful experience to me at the time. Wish more people could've experienced them.

[@blackveilromance2878]

Its ok

[@blackveilromance2878]

They are having a reunion in 2016 so they will play live one last time and if i dont go ill cry very hard…

[@rubyrose9258]

*crying so hard right now*

[@sarahbeasley7014]

Jane The Killer The first time I heard it I was just feeling really sad and I had a horrible day so I started playing music to cheer me up...then this song came on...and I could not stop crying.

[@isaac.aaron.standen]

Jane The Killer me too

[@notsomarvellousannie7306]

+Elena Lavigne dil tho - the phandom is every

[@fizzahhussain4951]

Ruby Rose crafting so hard

[@rawrmscryfrm]

this reminds me of the friends i've had who are no longer living. gosh, i really do miss them :/

[@Yowzaz8]

im 4 minutes into this song as i write this and i have fallen in love... R.I.P. My Chemical Romance

[@Klampek07]

MCR is still in my heart!

[@Yowzaz8]

My Chemical Romance is done. But it can never die. Because it is not a band - it is an idea - Gerard Way Its in my heart too and the hearts of many others... But as he also said, my chemical romance has served its purpose, and i believe it has

[@pcschulte7763]

Today MCR is the most underrated band by far. In 2006 was they really were famous. Besides that blow up they aren't really heard of. This album is also the most underrated as well. I can't believe they didn't release it until later. I have lost faith in almost all of today's music. Who's with me?

[@gabby_not_gabby7050]

Pcschulte me i hate the shit they got on the radio now

[@harryjones8988]

Yea it’s pretty sad how time goes on and things that were big in the past get pushed aside for other things but the good thing is you can always listen to their music anytime you want.

[@THEGruesomeGabby]

@@gabby_not_gabby7050 Same and WE HAVE THE SAME NAME

[@gabby_not_gabby7050]

@@THEGruesomeGabby oh cool! I never run into people with the same name lol

[@appleperson]

today's *music* is just rich brats blabbering about money and seggs

[@cgrsl1]

listening to black parade ,cancer , disenchanted and light behind your eyes is not a good idea guess who is crying on the floor while squeeling .

[@mty_p3145]

me?

[@selinahug5096]

Add Desert Song and Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

[@duggu3721]

+ skylines and turnstiles, the only hope for me is You, and demolition lovers.

[@vic1185]

I CAN'T LISTEN TO THIS SONG WITHOUT CRYING. IT'S DANGEROUS.

[@jchess78]

"This aint for the money or the fame, its for all the bodies I claim" MCR

[@user-tz1sj4uv6s]

****"It Ain't for the money and it sure as hell ain't just for the fame. It's for the bodies I claim"

[@user-tz1sj4uv6s]

Sorry I had too

[@shouryaxalxo6182]

Why would 197 people dislike this, I mean why??? It's so beautiful...

[@everythingmetalrock3887]

This comment will be ignored from everyone i dont care i just wanna say it... Gerard we all love you...

[@dascout8022]

MCR fans look out for eachother bruh

[@fizzahhussain4951]

Everything Metal/Rock of tot comment is there it can’t be ignored

[@nl69123]

true

[@mty_p3145]

i'm mcrying and i gave you the 666th thumbs up

[@skeletonkiss1112]

Hey hey hey, dont forget mikey, frank, ray and bob. They contribute just as much.

[@jamesshoemaker7712]

This song used to make me feel sad (in a good way) but the sadness I felt years ago doesn't hold a torch to the feeling I get now. It brings me back to a simpler time with less responsibilities, less stress, less bs in the world but I'm sad because no matter how hard I think back or how hard I want to go back, I can't.

[@orioncobb3656]

It means this band means a lot when everyone in the MCRmy is crying just because of this song, even after the break up. #MCRmywillcarryon

[@gillianvarela4461]

This is the best song ever. I hear this and I cry, always. Thanks Frank, Thanks Gerard, thanks Ray, thanks Mikey, thanks My Chemical Romance, you are the best band ever. And you will always burn as bright in our hearts.

[@MischaMoo]

This song *I think* is one of MCR's best songs. Literately makes me want to cry but it gives so much hope as well. Beautiful. :')

[@radrat1727]

Everybody tells me I'm obsessed with mcr and I need to let it go but listening to them is like nothing I've felt before it's a happiness that I cant explain to you they saved me and I've found myself again. Thank you for everything

[@TOCOOL4UGIRL]

this song shall be played at my funeral

[@stevenkantrowitz9850]

Me too. Long live MCR, and let's hope Gerard never feels this pain

[@cloudporridge]

If this isn't played at my funeral I'm getting out of that coffin like in Helena and going on KZbin and turning this song on. This will happen.

[@TokyoBlue587]

ME TOO

[@RIN4.]

i clicked this video expecting to just listen to this and nothing would happen, not to sob like a pig.

[@lexiclifford4387]

this song means so much to me when i felt like no one cared and when i felt like i could give up, this song made me feel better. it always does. it always has. this band alone is probably the reason i'm alive.

[@eliten3mesis]

Keep living, I feel the same way

[@lauravturner]

My cousin died in a workplace accident on a construction site recently. He was the same age as me. I'm 22. I was just speaking to his mother about songs she is picking for his funeral. It got me to think about songs I would want if I died without warning. I remembered this song. I practically decided ever since it came out that the song was destined for my funeral.

[@purechaos1091]

I'm so sorry about your cousin. Much love.

[@lauravturner]

@@purechaos1091 Thank you. Much appreciated.

[@1211jinx]

I’m a year late but still wanna send my sympathy and condolences..He’s still quite young to die..So sorry to hear it 🙁😢

[@skeletoneg]

I cry every single time I listen to this and it's legit...i just cry even if I'm in public

[@0348c]

Me too, every time and every night, I'm afraid to listen it in public because I know I won't be able to stop crying