내가 영어를 두려워했던 이유

[@danica1610]

Was it even a problem? I mean she works hard in every videos she makes and put subtitles for us international fans. In my opinion when she revamped her content and switched to korean, is when she found the right style and confidence. She grown and glowed up beautifully.

[@Teddybearkitties]

you have no idea how happy this comment made me🥹

[@user-23ufbdi18e]

영상보다가 진심으로 울었어옄ㅋㅋㅋㅋ... 하 저도 잊고있던 어린 학창시절 떠올라서.. 그때는 진짜 아무것도 모른채로 난 그냥 동양인이라서 당연한거구나.. 하고 한없이 작아진채로 살고,,, 점심도 거의 매일 거르고 사과나 과자같은거로 때우고 집가기 전에 허겁지겁 먹고 들어갔거든요,, 엄마가 싸준 밥은 그와중에 너무 맛있고.. 전 심지어 그때 담임 선생님까지 음식보고 찡그리던게 진짜 10년이 넘게 지났는데 아직도 생생하게 기억나요.. 지금 생각하면 다 큰 어른이 그랬다는게 너무.. 역겨운데 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 하 진짜 그때 그 시절 생각하면 그냥 마음이 너무 아프고.. 어쩌다 영어 이름대신 한국이름 불러야 하는 상황 (출석같은거 부를때) 생기면 쪽팔려서 그냥 죽고싶고.. 제 이름은 서연인데 seo 이거를 다들 아예 못읽어서 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 하^^.... 진짜 너무너무너무 쪽팔럈아여... 심지어 보리차까지 진짜 개공감...ㅋㅋㅋ 전 그래서 10년이 넘게 지나도 아직도 좀,, 인종에 대한 열등감이 솔직히 마음 깊게 굉장히 크게 자리 잡고 있는거 같아요... 그래서 그 옛날 시절에 teddybearkitties 보는게 진짜 삶의 낙이였는데.. 카메라 한번씩 보실때마다 진짜 옛날 영상들이 훅!하고 머리에 지나가네욬ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 암튼 영상 쭉보다가.. 도시락 얘기에서 저도 모르게 눈물이 주르륵 흘러섴ㅋㅋㅋ 댓글달아요...ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 남들도 다 이렇다는게 더 마음 아파요.. 그럼 지금도 어딘가에서 도시락때문에 부끄러운 동양 친구들이 있겠죠..? ㅠㅠㅠ 요즘은 그래도 좀 나아졌으려나.. 암튼 마음이 너무너무너무너무 아프네요 보는뎈ㅋㅋㅋㅠㅜㅡㅜㅜ

[@sereimony]

Hi Angela. I never really write a comment but I just want to say that I’m very proud of you. It’s not easy to be honest with yourself and try to deal with a trauma. It’s crazy how I started watching you when I was 13 back in my home country to now being 22 and living in Korea. I attended uni in Korea for the past 5 years and now working here so I could understand how people would strive to be normal here. Koreans wear similar clothes, hairstyles, act the same way so it’s very hard to not stand out as someone with a different background. I would love to see you ramble more!!! So good to see you so confident and happy now!

[@Teddybearkitties]

thank youuu for taking the time to write this🥹🫶

[@IsouDMI]

I am thankful for your eng subtitles, and I do remember your teddybearkitties days haha but it’s life, you grow up and evolve

[@cocoapeach]

Aww… This was nice. I remember when you made that announcement and I remember feeling sad about it because I liked your channel and personality. But I also understood that you were a young girl, finding your way (I’m an old lady who found your channel randomly by watching one of your fashion videos). It is good to “hear” from you and see that you’ve grown up well, and are beginning to embrace all the parts of you that make you unique!

[@유나-u8j]

안녕하세요. 저는 고1 딸아이를 둔 엄마에요. 폴란드에서 태어나고 자라서 ,한국을 방학때 들어가면 다시 출국할때 많이 서러워하며 외국살이를 합니다. 이 영상을 보고 정말 공감백배했네요.이도저도 아닌 회색이라는 표현이 완벽한 현실상황인거죠.밝은성격과 긍정적인 사고,값진청춘의 시간을 수놓고있는듯 보여 저도 덩달아 밝은기운을 받습니다.응원합니다😊

[@Pramaythessa]

Been here since teddybearkitties❤ i love when you collab with mintlaces back then but i love you now too. It’s like I’m growing up watching you and feeling proud as an older sister. Keep going❤

[@gmldus0414]

작년부터 영상보기 시작해서 영어를 잘하시는 이유가 궁금했는데 이런 배경이 있었군요!! 영어쓰시는거 너무 좋아요!!! 영어공부하려고 영어가 모국어인 교포분들 영상을 보는데 약간 유머포인트?가 이해안될때가 있어서 그런지 은정님 영상이 더 웃기고 취저입니다....두 언어에 능통한것 부러워요!! 그리고 자막이 개웃김 편한대로 많이 만들어 주세요 이런 팟캐스트 스타일도 재밋습니다.....

[@saeyeonbudgets]

Been watching ur videos since 2013 i swear & I’ve never once unsubscribed/ still kept watching you after you switched to Korean speaking video. No matter what, I will still watch your videos & appreciate all of them! Because you are being you in the videos, and I really enjoy watching your videos ❤️ I’m sorry you had to felt that way thinking about your childhood & I hope you’ll be a person you want to be 🦔 Stay happy always!

[@saeyeonbudgets]

hope you can bring back the ‘ What’s in my phone ‘ videos or a newer ver to it bc that was my fav LMAO

[@norabkth]

Missed the English but hey you do you! Been watching you since 2012 glad you felt comfortable sharing your thoughts! 🫶🏽🤍😊

[@chubbeebabyz]

teddybearkitties때 연두색벽지의 방에서 뒤에 옷서랍(?)같은 가구를 두고 깜찍한 앞머리를 하고 영상 찍던 은정님의 아가 시절이 선명해요🥹🥹 은정님 영상 처음 볼땐 저도 캐나다로 유학간지 얼마 안됐을때라 맨날 락커 앞에 앉아서 영상을 보며 이 아기(저도 어렸지만요...ㅎㅎ)는 내가 부러운 두가지를 다 가졌다고 생각했어요 영어도 잘하고 한국에 살고있고! 그런마음으로 보기 시작했는데 그게 정말 벌써 10년이 훌쩍 넘었군요...😭😭중간에 학업때문에 자주 영상이 올라오지 않았을때, 과거 영상들이 모두 비공개 됐을땐 얼마나 슬펐는지 몰라요..하지만!!!지금의 은정님또한 너무 너무 소중합니다..! 메이크업 제품을 모으고 모으다 아쉬워하며 화장대 정리하는걸 보여주던 귀염둥이가 이렇게 멋진 유튜버가 되었다니...❤쓰다보니 주접떠느라 말이 너무 길어졌네요...ㅎㅎ여튼 결론은 뭘하던 언제까지던 은정님을 응원할거란 말입니닷ㅎㅎㅎㅎ따랑해요♥️♥️

[@chubbeebabyz]

지금 생각해보면 벽지가 연두색이 아니라 조명과 화질탓에 그렇게 보였나 싶긴 하지만요..😅😅

[@Teddybearkitties]

흐옹 감동이야 아가 은정 우는 중 ..🥲🫶

[@user-23ufbdi18e]

저도 진짜 아직도 선명하게 기억나요,,, 진짜 시간 너무너무너무너무너무 빠른거 같아요 그런데도 불구하고 아직도 제 머리에 딱 남아있다는건 그만큼 제 인생에서 재밌고 영향이 있던 분 같아요

[@renkiim]

thank you so much for your video! as a korean-american, i really relate to a lot of what you were talking about. to be honest, i still feel uncomfortable at times being in the grey area so it's relieving to hear that i'm not alone in feeling that way. please post more talking videos! they're very interesting to watch :) and as always, thank you for the subtitles whether korean or english.

[@Dearest_y]

팟캐스트 느낌 좋아요 은정님! 다이어트 강박에 대한 영상도 그렇고 은정님 생각 들을 수 있는 영상들 좋아요🤍🤍 얼굴 공개하고 내 생각 내 얘기한다는 게 되게 용감한 건데 은정님은 멘탈도 건강하신 게 멋있어요.❣❣

[@shownusburger922]

Have been following your content since your teddybearkitties days, and I honestly feel so happy for you with doing what you’re doing and reflecting about it (and on top of that being open and sharing that with us!!) which is never easy. You just keep doing you! I really do look forward to every single video that you bring out 💕

[@Anne-ru3ho]

I totally relate to what you said about English classes, growing up my English was always better than my peers to the point where even the teacher would ask me if the sentence is correct, and I kind of hated that attention so I started making mistakes on purpose to avoid situations like that. Thank you Eunjung for sharing your story ❤

[@RenWall80]

I started watching when you still spoke English and I never minded you shifting to speaking korean. As long as there is English subtitles I'm happy. You do you!🧘💃

[@ginchan11]

Thank you for always putting English subtitles. I love watching your videos and have been since teddybearkitties days 🥰

[@adriannamartin5992]

You are so real for this!!!! I know it was hard but thanks for taking the time to explain. I will still watch your videos no matter what

[@stephanielim7197]

i enjoyed your video regardless they are in english or korean=) just do what you are comfortable with

[@abcd-fy1di]

I have been following you since the very start of your first video. Do whatever make you happy!

[@kjooni]

I just wanna say, You do you ^^ I'm happy that I got to watch your videos before and that I stayed after you made that transition cuz, I did get confused one day as to why you erased/privated old vids I thought you stopped making vids, but there's just something relatable in seeing the mundane things as someone grow. I'm glad you're still making videos and I hope to watch more in the future, whether in English or in Korean or even both. ^^

[@claudinenaz4666]

I've been a follower since teddybearkitties days, I do admit that I miss the english videos, but I love the korean videos as well since your comfort and happiness is much more important above all :)) I am happy you can express yourself freely now. Thank you for being open and honest about this. You do you!! Love lotssss🫶🏼🫰🏼

[@April-zh4gd]

I also just realized I have been watching u for so long , since Teddybearkitties ❤ Always rooting for u🫶

[@Watermelonsony]

영상이 14초 같은 마법,,, 영어로 생각 말하실 때 마다 흡입력이 장난아니에요...넘 멋있고 재밌어요☺️

[@Teddybearkitties]

말 잘한단 소리 처음 들음 핫핫 감쟈함다😌

[@5dette]

Been a longggg time fan and just been happy to see you grow and constantly evolve. I’m sure you can see from the comments we here for you! Whether that be in English or in Korean, we are enamored by u as a human!!! Thanks for putting your heart and thoughts out there

[@진-b6j]

아 넘조아요ㅠㅠㅠ다음편….빨리..

[@ytjennalam]

more "podcast" like content plssss Love your voice, your vibe and the way you think✨

[@Dayary]

하 언니 이번 영상 진짜 너무너무너무 공감돼요.. 전 언니가 한국 왔을때 즈음 미국으로 가서 학창시절을 미국에서 보냈는데.. 막 도시락이나 이런거 예시드는거 보고 격공... ㅋㅋ큐ㅠㅠ teddybearkitties때부터 괜시리 친근감?들어서 구독했었는데 ㅎ 계속 유튭해줘서 너무 고마워요🙈🤍

[@nicolelow4661]

I like both your English and Korean content, still rmb you introduce me to etude house, that bling bling icing cafe eyeshadow. Watching your videos is always enjoying, so pls enjoy making them. Don’t be stressful

[@Duckling-b9y]

응원해요❤

[@curator_circlee]

우와.. 저랑 비슷한 생각을 하고 비슷한 경험을 한 분을 만나서 너무 신기하고 반가워요. 저는 해외에서 중학교&대학교 생활을 했는데 나중에 한국에 돌아오고 직장생활을 시작했을때 튀는게 너무 싫어서 영어를 안쓰려고 엄청 노력했어요 😂 한국어를 잘해야 인정받을 수 있다고 생각해서 눈치도 엄청보고 한국에서 계속 산 것처럼 예의도 차리고 그랬네요.. after 5 years living like that I'm realizing there was no need for trying so hard to hide the international background. I feel a loooot more comfortable now that I'm working at a foreign company and most ppl have similar background as me that I can show my accents and use English whenever I want. Thanks for sharing your story. It's amazing 💕

[@Hyerivlog]

Lots of things to relate to as a Korean in the UK! Love you being you✨🤍

[@lagegel45]

Thnak you for this video. It's so nice to hear your feedback on your choice !

[@dkanrjskclsrjdla]

다보고 나서 알았는데 영상이 14분이라구..? 14초인줄.. 유튜브든 뭐든 언니 하고싶은대로 하면서 지내시길 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 난 영어쓰는 멋찐 언니가 좋으니 알람뜨면 닥치고 영상볼꺼니까 (동갑이지만)

[@Teddybearkitties]

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ동갑인데 웨 언닌데~!~타랑해요😌

[@Neocalex]

I actually didn’t know all of this about you! I subscribed after discovering you via TikTok. Maybe because I’m Korean-American but I always found your content and style relatable. Keep doing you! ❤

[@Teddybearkitties]

ahhhh it's so interesting seeing subscribers come from different platforms hehe hello from tiktok world

[@samdee8826]

i really don't mind the korean speaking videos. And thank you for working so hard on the subs😭

[@sarahyang777]

subscriber since 10 years ago I CAN'T BELIEVE SOMEONE DID THE SAME SHIT IN ENGLISH CLASS OMG it's bringing back so much childhood anxiety frl frl

[@Teddybearkitties]

trauma bonding is real💀😭🤍

[@indrianikurniawan7048]

Has been following you since teddybearkitties whats in my bag era and omg how time has passed 🌚🌝

[@solgikim1136]

다른 맥락으로 비슷한 경험 한 적 있는데! 무슨 맘인지 너무 공감됩니다

[@midnight-we7zv]

영어쇼츠로 유입된 팔로워로서 영어영상이라 좋았고 많이보고싶어요!!어떤방법이든 올사람들은 옵니다ㅎㅎ편한대로 올려도될거같아요😊🎉

[@Teddybearkitties]

헉 맘이 너무 따뜻해진다 ......🍂🤎

[@ayakantra1325]

Hi girl!! You do you okay! Do whatever makes you comfortable, you putting english sub on your vids is DEDICATION GIRL. But- OMG your voice is so soothing?! 👁👄👁

[@seo8i]

팟캐스트 중독자 나자나,,,, 은정님 시드니 혼밥 기록 마지막에 이런 식으로 얘기하신 것도 너무 공감가고 ㅠㅠ 좋앗는데 이번 영상두 넘 조아요,, 😻🫶💕❤️‍🔥☘️

[@Teddybearkitties]

🙈🤎

[@원재-q9r]

굉장히 재밌게 봤어요!! 이런 사연(?)이 있으셨군요. 옷도 잘 입으시고 인싸셨을 거 같은데 감회가 새롭네요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 유튭 잘 보고 있습니다!😊

[@Hailey_zip]

영어 쓰는 교포언니 style에 반한 사람 .. 1

[@Lyn-ny9gu]

Love your vids since your highschool days

[@Aaina]

can't believe i've been watching you for THAT long goddamn lmao post whatever you want in whatever language you prefer, it seriously doesn't matter... as long as eng subs are available, it doesn't really matter lmao (tho tbh i understand enough choppy korean to survive a sub-less video ooop)

[@chickennerd2085]

Im one of the old sub, from you still slept on the floor until now, LOL. I bought some make up because of you at that time .. gosh felt old. I felt like we grew up together btw. Honestly, when you made video in korean and then decided to speak only korean, i felt nothing, lol. I guess because you still provided eng-sub, so I still understand what you were talking. Anyway, i missed your chaotic vlog lol.

[@김김김-n7o2v]

ㅋㅋㅋㅋ너무 귀여우시네요ㅋㅋ

[@nsve7282ia]

미국 가본적도 없는 나 왜 눈물,,,,멋져잉,,하고싶은거 다하세요.

[@nsve7282ia]

자막만 부탁해요...

[@Teddybearkitties]

당요나죠 한국어영어 둘 다 포기모태.

[@ekdus2012]

뭘 하든 응원해요 어떤 모습이라도 조아요

[@ekdus2012]

진짜 사랑해 은뎡!!!

[@Teddybearkitties]

타랑함다 !!!!💃🕺💃🕺

[@vip5hawol-deehirota]

Will always watch no matter what ♡

[@lili1548]

Hello , i'm a french subscriber who watch you since the beginning of your channel and i love it , do what make you happy 😁

[@Teddybearkitties]

that's so cool😭thank youuuu

[@jukx5892]

I literally just asked about the old vlogs on another video. Thank you so much! Having a bit of clarity is really soothing. Would you consider unprivating the old videos now that you are fine with ppl knowing you speak english? Or maybe you could just create a playlist for them so they wouldn't show up on your youtube channel but people can still seek the playlist to rewatch your old stuff.

[@user-pq9or4vs9m]

이영상보고 구독해요 찐원어민 영어 공부하려고요 감사합니다

[@lalapurplelala]

Been a teddybearkitties subscriber!

[@hellozeus]

Thank you for being you ❤️

[@SimplySarahKimmy]

I've been really considering moving to korea but nervous I'm going to be discriminated against as a 교포. Did you experience anything like this when you moved back to Korea?

[@Teddybearkitties]

I was so fortunate enough to never have been discriminated/bullied for my background, I think I've always been my worst critic🥲I believe as long as you show an attitude where you're open to immerse yourself in the Korean culture rather than stick to your 교포 side, everyone will be happy to help you blend in👼🏻

[@krissyoh5262]

Been here since teddybearkitties days!

[@morningrain13]

I will watch the videos even if it is in korean or english.

[@ElkeFung]

Love it❤

[@keeyana]

omg i miss your old old ooollldddd videos

[@Lana-iw6eo]

Happy for you

[@yangsarah2000]

I just want you to know that whatever you’re doing is amazingly already! You’re doing great and it’s nice to reflect on ourselves here and there. Since we’re about the same age, I think just one year or couple months lol I feel as though we grew up together since i followed you since the beginning as well! Though you don’t know me 😂 anyways, keep doing you girl ❤ much love !

[@AleesyaSmudgysmudge]

is okay up to you where you comfort love you no matter what because i can learn a new slang korean word by watching your video #teddybearkittiesfan

[@chandanilimbuVlogs]

🫶🫶🫶 🥹🥹🥹Omg Nature Republic’s Aloe Vera Gel video

[@ytjennalam]

im soooo happy to see how far you've come and witness your progress of healing🥹 wish you all the best no matter what (love from hk, i watched your vid for at least 10 years no joke