Nathan Wagner - Depression

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Song written by Nathan Wagner
All Instruments Performed and Programmed by Nathan Wagner
Mixed and Mastered by Nathan Wagner
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I remember what it's like to go years and years and years without feeling anything. Numb and jaded. Absolutely vacant. If that's where you are, I love you. And I'm sorry. It can feels so hopeless. But please keep fighting. I thought the best life experience I'd have was just making it through the day. I thought I'd never be able to genuinely "Enjoy" anything. But, it got better. It took years. But it got better. I love you all. Don't give up hope.

[@nathanwagner762]

I remember what it's like to go years and years and years without feeling anything. Numb and jaded. Absolutely vacant. If that's where you are, I love you. And I'm sorry. It can feels so hopeless. But please keep fighting. I thought the best life experience I'd have was just making it through the day. I thought I'd never be able to genuinely "Enjoy" anything. But, it got better. It took years. But it got better. I love you all. Don't give up hope.

[@amberfitz-randolph392]

Thank you for that I don't want to articulate how much I needed to read this right now! Yesterday was difficult woke up triggered by night terrors and immediately got into verbal blowout with roommate. Flipped out enough that I abruptly punched several walls and doorframe the way you might slam your fist down on the table when you're pissed. Your comment describes better than I could how I've felt in the weeks leading up to that. We absolutely can't give up it's just so damn impossible to believe and feel like anything will ever be okay again during those dark moments it's very difficult yes. Talked everything through and calmed down a bit slower than I've been able to before but yes calmed eventually. I'm not sure how I got this much swelling bruising and such yet I promise y'all I didn't feel a thing when I was swinging and punching. No medical attention needed nothing like that and definitely safe mental health wise but that left me rattled it's the first "self injury" incident in years. Same way you totally lose hope emotionally get numb apparently you can get numb enough to break your own self and not feel anything. Well over an hour and a half passed by before I realized that my hand wasn't feeling very normal lol.

[@hhswerewolf9628]

most of the time I feel that way, I used to have someone who made me not feel so alone but they passed away a few years ago now i feel alone even though I'm surrounded by people.

[@awardlosingmovies]

Really needed to hear that because i live my life numb and in constant pain of lonliness. ❤️‍🩹

[@neerajl.5945]

Song of the year

[@Lisa.359.]

Thank you!! This song is just amazing and it means so much. It's a great feeling to know that you are not alone and it means so much more if you get this feeling from your favorite artist. I don't know for how long I am listenig to your music but I know that I do it every day for some time now. Your Songs are a safeplace where I can go to when things get rough or even if I had a good day. All of your Songs make me feel good because I feel understand and safe. And listening to your beautiful voice and music makes me very happy. I'm so greatfull for every Song you write and for every Story you share with us. Thank you so much! I really hope that you are going to share your music with us for a long time and wish you and your loved ones only the best. I normaly don't coment on videos but I just needed to say this one time. Thanks!!!

[@nathanwagner762]

DEPRESSION Tell me will you miss me when I’m gone If I’ve fallen to the enemy Will you keep me in your memory Tell me will you save me from the dark If I let you see a little glimpse Of what living’s like inside my skin Oh I’m drowning and nobody knows Oh They never listen Don’t wanna let the light burn out But all I see are stormy clouds And They say it’s gonna be okay I’m trying to keep the faith But every thing keeps passing by Years’ll go still black and white Seems nothing ever turns out right It’s hard to be alive Tell me what’s the meaning of it all When the sunshine loses it’s coloring Seems like all I know is suffering Tell me will you catch me if I fall Even deeper in this underworld Will there ever be a hand to hold Oh I’m drowning and nobody knows Oh They never listen Don’t wanna let the light burn out But all I see are stormy clouds And They say it’s gonna be okay I’m trying to keep the faith But every thing keeps passing by Years’ll go still black and white Seems nothing ever turns out right It’s hard to be alive Tell me will you miss me when I’m gone If I’ve fallen to the enemy Will you keep me in your memory Tell me will you save me from the dark When the sun loses it’s coloring Seems like everything is suffering I’m so afraid I’m so afraid I’m so afraid I’m so afraid So lost within the dark Keep praying for a spark A guiding light to Rid me of this suffering Free me from these troubling Shadows shouting Oppressing my mind Craving their Bounty won’t Leave me behind Can you hear me? Can’t save myself Not from this hell Is no one listening? I might need help I see her trembling in the dark With the weight of the world in her scars I’d lend hand if there’s anything she’d need I know exactly what it’s like to feel so weak So I’ll run out with everything I have Pull her out up from that deadly sinking sand You’re not alone you’re not alone Don’t give up hope don’t give up home You’re not alone you’re not alone Don’t give up hope don’t give up hope You’re not alone you’re not alone Don’t give up hope don’t give up hope

[@haidirstephen5442]

Tell me will you save me from the dark.If I let you see a little glimpse of what living's like inside my skin.

[@flatdepth]

So much accurate mate

[@Anx10203]

4:51 - 5:21 THESE VOCALS. GOOSEBUMPS. This is absolutely insane!!

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh thank you! I wasnt sure if it was a bit too much but went for it anyways haha so glad you liked it!

[@tmoon9297]

Yeah it perfectly expresses the desperate cry of someone drowning in hopeless depression longing for rescue. Thank you as always Nathan! Your songs are lifelines for so many 🙌

[@ChntalX]

Absolutely insane part!! ❤❤

[@djillusioner]

So damn relatable. Got me teary. Absolutely haunting and beautiful ❤

[@waaaintresting913]

Just wanna say Nathan I think you have the best voice ❤ and wish you grasp your meaning in this world Thanks for everything

[@petersahyouni]

Dude...all your songs are good, many are great, but a few of them are literal masterpieces. This is one of them. So is anxiety, innocence, and when man meets God. Worth all 9 glorious minutes...amazing job

[@nathanwagner762]

Too kind! Thank you Peter🙏

[@LUFFP-om6zw]

Hatred is the best!

[@MettlingMiles-ps9pc]

“I’m drowning and nobody knows” gets me everytime😢

[@nathanwagner762]

🙏🙌🙏🙌

[@thegregitto]

I'm sure there are many songs under the same title but this song *deserves* to be the musical emblem of depression.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@JaronLindow]

Some people don't understand depression because they've never been there. They don't realize how fortunate they are.

[@Gamingfox543]

I have Depression and its really hard some time. 😢🥹

[@vivine3824]

My spouse goes through moments of depression and despite my omnipresence, I remain powerless. I share your beautiful song with him so he knows he is not alone. Thank you Nathan, we feel a little less helpless

[@nathanwagner762]

Im really sorry to hear that. I hope it blesses him 🙏 Sending all my love. Thank you so much for taking the time to listen. Means the world

[@samwagner762]

Gosh. Guys, get this one to a million please

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@sunshineunicornfart]

I can't stop crying while listening to this. i have never had a song that i felt so connected to.

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love!

[@sunshineunicornfart]

@@nathanwagner762 ❤

[@ItsmeYuuki]

I‘m in tears. I‘ve been struggling with depressions since my teenage years and this song just hit me. Thank you so much for this amazing piece of art!! I really needed that.

[@saraoverkamping8143]

I hope you are better now, I truelly do. Dealing with it at a young age can take you so many beautiful memories you could look back to when you have grown old. But perhaps this will only make us treasure each memory more in the long term.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course😊

[@Heisrisenindeed]

You are not alone, we all have our struggles, you're not the first person to feel this way. Know that God is always waiting for you with open arms. Jesus is always willing to take you in. If you turn from your sin, which kesds to death, to Him, He will save you. I hooe you read this message and take this good news to heart.

[@Sweetieallycat]

I don’t think it’s possible for you to put out a bad song. Every song you put out is amazing and powerful. Absolutely speechless.

[@nathanwagner762]

Means the world! Although I've definitely written plenty in my day haha Thank you so much for taking the time to listen.

[@facubraxxd6506]

I expected a song of hope, after so much suffering, so much sadness, so much loneliness, this song is a true musical, literary and emotional masterpiece. It is simply a song for me and for many of us it reaches our souls, it gives us that breath we need from the constant struggles with ourselves, with our internal darkness, with our emptiness... Thank you nathan for doing more than just music and giving us that break, you went too far, you reached more than just our ears, you managed to reach our soul. Thank you again

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@pressaltf4forfreevbucks179]

beautiful comment

[@user-xd2lg1uo6y]

Nathan, to be honest, i'm getting back to listen to all your songs and it's... just what helps me all the time... Every single time it's like "Oh, my man released a new song! it deffinetly makes the whole day or week much better and calm for me, thank you..." A few sleepless years (3 hours of sleep per night and then i was listening for your songs on repeat) Sometimes then you think that you're just a freak with the broken soul full of scars from the ones you love most, with tormented thoughts, but no one knws it, cuz you don't wanna cause them any pain and you dan't wanna be the reason of their tears, anger, shame, all that stuff, i think you can understand me somehow, and after all things said... just big thankses from my heart to you, you're some kind of a hero, it's complicated for me to say any of this... to put it into words... but i think you can understand what it's like to feel that way, i'm good at holding on for the right amount of time without showing anything, but your tracks... your soul that you put in it, helps me in the hardest times.... I would like to talk about it with anyone to be honest...

[@hihungryimcam]

Nathan, I've listened to your music since I discovered "Lonely" years ago. I'm a 21-year-old musician and composer. I have been analyzing music since late elementary school and playing instruments (piano, guitar, and drums) and singing most of my life. I also have struggled with severe and treatment-resistant depression and anxiety (starting around 13) and OCD (my whole life). I had to medically withdraw from college in 2022 for 8 months due to the severity of my depression, and I stayed in a psychiatric unit for a few weeks. I 100% mean it when I say that this is, truly, potentially the best song I've ever heard. It is so powerful. The lyricism captures the hopelessness and feeling of being ignored by those around me. It highlights how incredibly painful it has been living on this planet and trying to get through each day. Your voice is just...unbelievable. The distorted E5s around 4:50-5:50 are insane. The score is absolutely beautiful and so full and dynamic. You've been refining your craft for years, and it shows more than you know. I've also noticed how encouraging you are in comments on your videos. You are truly amazing. This is wild.

[@SurviveUntilSunrise]

Some of your songs just go so beyond “striking a chord” with the soul that it’s hard to describe it in a phrase that exists, it’s like it deserves its own new word.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙏🙌🙏🙌

[@JhadeSagrav]

This is not a song. This is a journey. 💖💖💖

[@nathanwagner762]

Thanks a ton. Means everything. Thank you so much for listening :)

[@corrinabrown7611]

Im feeling exactly this way right now. I feel so heavy. Demons surround me and oppress me each day. I feel like my broken heart is killing me inside. If it wasn't for Jesus being my Rock, my refuge in time of trouble i would drown. This is a beautiful song. I been playing it over and over.

[@pressaltf4forfreevbucks179]

Stay strong. We're with you

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love

[@corrinabrown7611]

@@nathanwagner762 God bless you and your family ❤️

[@DarlingMythos]

I have dealt with depression for a long time and I often find comfort in your songs, Nathan. This song is so beautiful and meaningful to me. This song, to me, feels like a sad embrace on a lonely night. Like someone who knows how your suffering feels and is there with you to deal with it. Thank you for bringing me and all other listeners comfort with your songs. They mean so much to me and I'm not quite sure how to fully express it. I love this song so much. Excellent job

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love

[@TenheadLife]

This song… no this symphony of sadness is your best work man! It screams out loud everything I feel when I get in this place. I’m better most the time now but still look forward to the end of it all. No one has ever made a perfect masterpiece of pure emotion in my opinion.

[@bobbistarklauf5]

Wow ..i relate to these lyrics ..thx u so much.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course😊🙌

[@samwagner762]

"Worth all 9 glorious minutes" What a perfect comment. Incredibly well said Peter.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@pressaltf4forfreevbucks179]

One of your best vocal tracks

[@nathanwagner762]

😊🙌

[@Vioduss]

All these years I've been listening to your music, I've not felt a level of understanding that comes close to what your lyrics echo to me. Thank you Mr Wagner, from myself, my best friend, and everyone else who listens to your music... your impact is more than words can express. Keep on walking this artistic journey, as you keep giving us all the push we need to reach the next day

[@nathanwagner762]

I appreciate it! Thank you so much Vioduss

[@TherealSakuraKei]

❤ Ever a more perfect healing song... like magic

[@katie.iv51]

Thank you so much for sharing this song with us. Lately, it's been feeling like I'm slipping back into that dark place, and so hearing this song was really something I needed. I've struggled with depression and self-harm for a while, and as of today, I am 8 months clean, going on to 9 in a few weeks. Your songs have provided me comfort and helped me through the worst times of my life, and I truly believe that's what helped me get this far. I remember hearing your cover of "Would Anyone Care" by Citizen Soldier, and I absolutely fell in love with your voice. Since then, I have been listening to your songs on repeat, especially when going to sleep. So, thank you, Nathan. You never fail to impress, and I look forward to hearing what else you have in store. ❤️❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love!

[@Da_868]

Wow, that hits hard. And nine minutes too? You're spoiling us! I wanted to pick it some vocal highlights, but I can't, I love how you sing the whole thing! The vocals, the cadence, the arrangement of the music, the whole things just flows so brilliantly. That's not even mentioning how you have once again nailed the emotional expression! I really love how your longer songs take you through a whole experience or thought process. A lot of it is so relatable that it can hurt, but by the end I'm full of hope and feel really good! Towards the end reminds me of a time when the only time I believed I'd be okay is when I was convincing others that they'd be okay. The entire song is really powerful, but there's a special kind of power from 7:51 onward. Thank you Nathan, your songs are a blessing. ❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Thank you

[@Da_868]

@@nathanwagner762 You're very welcome Nathan. Can't let you forget that we appreciate you. 😊

[@infingirl8488]

Not even a minute in, I burst into tears. Not because I have felt this, but because of the empathy I have for the people who live and breathe these lyrics. I want to help them... I want to see that they are not alone. I have to remind myself that empathy is so very important, that even the glimpses of encounters with depression, either firsthand or secondhand, are immensely valuable to the people who you are trying to reach... but it's all so hard, for both the depressed and the one who loves them, to see someone and know they might be feeling these things. It's so very hard... thank you, Nathan. I don't even know what to say, but I needed to be woken up again to those around me. Thank you.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love! Thank you for listening!

[@KatWarhound]

People like you are so valuable to those of us going through depression. When we're going through it, it feels like everyone in the world must being going through the same thing b/c everything feels so hopeless and like there's no joy or strength left in the world. So it makes it seem like it's not ok to ask for help b/c you can't ask another broken person for help and put more weight on them. But when people like you speak up and say they are not going through that, it's such a source of hope because it makes us realize that not everything is basically dead; that there are still people who feel joy and hope and are happy to share it. Thank you!

[@infingirl8488]

@@KatWarhound Thank you for sharing, friend! It warms my heart. As a chronic empath and someone who knows people who struggle with depression, it can be a challenge sometimes to continue being there for them when I know there is little I can do to fix the matter. But that is not my job to fix things, is it? I can't fix everything wrong in this messed-up world. I instead try regardless to still be there for the people who need me, even if at times I wonder if I should give up. I haven't yet, and it has been an uphill climb, eventually. There is always hope and a way out of the darkness, no matter the struggle. Keep clinging to that truth!

[@KatWarhound]

It's so interesting to hear your perspective! My husband is also an empath and although he still struggles to keep giving into situations that seem to have no fix, he's found the best solution is to never expect anything in return. He just does everything b/c it feels good to give and remembers that the people he's giving to are broken and can't give him anything back and that's why they need help in the first place. I guess real love doesn't expect you to pay it back, right? He's become a much happier person b/c of it. So, keep being a hero! People desperately need a true kindness and love, even if they're too broken to say so. Your kindness makes a huge difference! @@infingirl8488

[@infingirl8488]

@@KatWarhound "Greater love has no one than this, that one would lay down his life for his friends." Much love to you, Kat!

[@Emanuel-hh4uu]

Wait, I never posted here? Seems not, but I love this song. As someone who has been struggling with depression the past recent years, this is such a perfect description. I get goosebumps at the "I'm so afraid" part, especially how it repeats as if to point out how afraid one can be when depressed of everything and of oneself. I love this song and how it touches my heart. I love you Nathan and all your songs. When I feel like nothing is left for me to fight your music heals me and gives me hope. ❤

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love🙏 I’m glad my music has been able to help😊 keep staying strong

[@GamingWithEdou]

Again a masterpiece. Thank you so much Nathan for this beautiful music❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

I’m honored you enjoyed it! Thank you for listening!

[@ThunderCore]

"I might need help" is hitting hard..

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@randifaye]

Wow… 💖 This song explains what I’ve been going through my whole life but especially the last few years and even few months. All of life was compiling and it got to a point where I was about to take my own life. Luckily I had intervention and ended up in the hospital for a month. Now I’m relearning how to live in the way that I can and hopefully enjoy life.

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love🙏

[@Ballistic_Blue_Hoss]

There's soo much power in the words of all your songs that your amazing vocals impact everything with such feeling. It helps me, I feel like I'm losing my heart and mind everyday, just wanting to fade away. My heart has been so jaded lately, but your songs remind me that things do not have to be so dark and cold. We are not doomed to be this way forever. So thank you for having such a impactful voice and music and being the person you are.

[@nathanwagner762]

🥹 Thank you so much. So sorry to hear about the struggle. Life can be so difficult. Im really glad the songs could shine a light. Sending all my love

[@wildfang2384]

This isn't just a song it's an experience! It is now a new favorite of mine!

[@nathanwagner762]

Honored!

[@nateheskett333]

So crazy I’ve been around since lonely your whole 9 yards from vocal to production has grown so much

[@nathanwagner762]

Been such a blessing to have you. Really do appreciate you. I remember you back on the first premiers I did. What a blessing

[@josephd4391]

I remember you too! You're awesome, Nate! God bless. :)

[@kozak1993lk]

if all i did today was breathe, that is enough

[@jessecas]

Thank you for this. It's really and truly appreciated. 😢

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@enricomildenberger5690]

Damn.. I'm literally speechless. It's so rare to have such masterpieces in the musicindustry. So glad to have you!! Really.. rarely heard so deep and great song. Love it❤❤!!!

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh I'm so glad you liked it. You're so kind. Thank you thank you thank you for listening. So grateful

[@BellaJeanette24]

BRAVO 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 This is a “Masterpiece” ❤ Love the lyrics “Your Not Alone” There is Hope, Don’t give up 🤗 Thank you Nathan, for sharing this Heartfelt song ❤️🙌❤️ You inspire everyone “You Are Loved” ❤️💕❤️💕❤️ All my Love to everyone ❤ so happy you are here 🥰 🥰🥰🥰🥰 Much love Nathan 🙌❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh thank you Bella! Appreciate you listening! So glad you liked it! What a blessing :)

[@BellaJeanette24]

@@nathanwagner762 ❤️

[@actuallydemo]

This hits home for me so much. I suffered from depression some years ago, trying to make it through the day while forced to sit at home each and every week. I self harmed, locked myself in my room and denied all the symptoms I had. It was finally that I had the courage to tell my mother what had been happening to me that I finally was able to seek help. This song brings back so much of those memories, but in a good way. It reminds me how I was able to overcome my fear of death and that I always will have friends surrounding me that will support me. Thank you for your music Nathan, it has saved me.

[@nathanwagner762]

So sorry you had to go through that, but honestly, stories like that are honestly inspiring and liberating. I remember I thought I was the only one. Was so afraid to tell anyone. Thanks so much for taking the time to write and taking the time to listen. Sending all my love.

[@berserkingtheburgerking9805]

You put so much emotion and power into your songs, and each one is just beautiful in their own right.

[@nathanwagner762]

So glad you like them! Thank you so much for listening!

[@oscargomezmurado6115]

The song that a lot of people need ❤❤❤

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@jessicabeca1234]

Other thing I love about your songs is that they are long (which nowadays they don’t make anymore) and with amazing transitions.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️

[@FluffinWolffox105]

I've been in the absolute worst place of my life the last few weeks. It's been nothing but confusion and anxiety, an existential hell. I'm at a point where I don't feel like figuring anything out, I don't know who to listen to or go to for help, and I don't know what to believe. I just feel so burnt out. Each time I feel anything good, it just collapses, and everything I believe just turns to doubt. I'm just so tired because it's either anxiety, or worry or something else, and trying not to sink or crumble to it is exhausting. And I'd love to figure things out, move on, feel good again, but I'm just not near that point. This song just embodies that entire feeling and strikes that indescribable feeling inside. I can tell you know the feeling by experience because it's something you only can understand or feel from going through it. I'm hoping that I can get to the other side as well. I want to thank you sincerely for the song though, I haven't been able to get out how I feel in a while, but I legitimately cried this time. One of those torrential vile feeling ones that just washes out all those unspoken things. It really made the weight fall away. Keep doing what you're doing

[@walkingalone365]

Not sure you believe in Jesus Christ but i hope you do not take offence to this but he loves you. He will give you peace if you ask. Just call on him he is waiting for you to ask. Hugs to you. Hang in there.

[@windsorsdreamer1915]

There are people going through hard times and this song can help and let them know their not alone

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@briarrr__]

I was having a hard time, but then I discovered this song. I've been loving your other music as well. I've never felt this close to a song before. You're doing great help to people, and I hope you know that. ❤

[@lisaeij2176]

Great to have been here during the premiere! This song is so beautiful. The music, the background, the lyrics, they all come together to create something authentic, a true "Nathan Wagner song", something only you could make. I can't thank you enough for the music you create. I sing your songs all the time and they really help me express my feelings. When I'm sad, they make me feel lighter, because somehow they express the sadness inside of me. Same when I'm happy. I can't imagine what it'd be like to be without your music anymore. I'm so glad you managed to get out of your depression and that you're able to do what you love and to be with the woman you love. You're a huge inspiration. Much love, Lisa

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you! I appreciate you joining the premiere!

[@comictitan4509]

I love the longer song format. Just like Anxiety Extended, by the end of the music you feel like you've just finished a journey, or a whole story, told in only 8 or 9 minutes but more profound and deep than many longer tales. I also tend to try and imagine characters I've made up, played, or written going through stories matching with the lyrics of the song whenever I listen to more dramatic music, and Nathan's voice and songs are just so perfect for that. I thank both God and you, Nathan, for your music. You are... unparalleled in talent, writing, and pure raw emotion. Some people's voices just carry *so much* of what they're feeling, and it makes the song more than just music; it makes it something that connects to your very soul. You are one of those people.

[@samwagner762]

Amazing comment- couldn't agree more!

[@nathanwagner762]

😊🙌

[@80fcollins]

You reached right in and touched my soul. Glad I stumbled onto your channel...amazing!!!!

[@fandujapon]

Your voice could heal anything. It sends us high in a sky full of colors and birds flying around ☁️🪽

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh I'm so glad you like it! Thank you so much for your kind words. So grateful for you

[@fane6154]

A new song from you is exactly what I needed after a hard week

[@nathanwagner762]

Hope you have a great day as well!

[@jenniferlewis-spears6847]

The high voice note got me like 😳🤯 WOAHHHH

[@nathanwagner762]

😊🙌

[@restlesscow2137]

Every time man, your music is something else! Thank you yet again for making and uploading, it's an honour to listen to each one

[@nathanwagner762]

Means a lot!

[@dragonwithsocks5112]

Holy crap! The emotions hit me hard with this one. The instruments mixed with the vocals are so powerful. I'm so glad I found your music

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhhh thank you! I gave this one all my effort! So glad you liked it!

[@drogan4932]

All of your songs are absolutely amazing, but, man, this has got to be the one that hits me hardest. It just fits how I've felt for the last 3 years.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌

[@drakenangelus2]

Always managing to put the feelings of so many into a song, almost like you sing what thousands cant find a way to say. Thats how strong your words are, you make people feel them but most importantly relate to them and see that at the end of the day, and how you say it here, "we are not alone" in our struggles at least for how i see it. Anyways another great song from your part, so thank you very much for creating it! PD: i love how you always "cheer" things up at the end with this kind of powerful songs.

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you

[@alysstreaty6794]

My soul starts to pour out of me when I hear your voice. Shivers all over, just wooow ❤❤😭

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@jasminechavez7653]

Amazing song Nathan yeah I was depressed a lot for many months after my grandmother passed away of breast cancer in 2013 yeah it took me many years of healing my heartbreak and coping my loss of my grandmother it was extremely hard you know music is still my therapy of course I actually feel my greatest late grandma’s spirit in my soul when I hear this song you know my grandmother was my inspiration when I started music since I was 10 years old I remember performing in front of my grandmother when I first sang I wonder why by Curtis stingers my grandmother said to me “you are a phenomenal talent performer” I was blown away it was awesome you know music started to inspire me when my grandmother was alive it was great times I miss her so much you know I turn to songwriting for a few years after my grandmothers death it took me tears to let go of my pain of my heartbreak 💔 I knew music is always there on my heart whenever I performed at home on stage it lifts me up such an amazing song my late grandmother would love this song is dedicated to her with love love you Nathan ❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

So so so sorry to hear about your loss. There's nothing more painful. But it's beautiful you were able to take that pain and put it into art. Thank you so much for listening Jasmine. Could not be more grateful for you

[@jasminechavez7653]

Awww thank you Nathan love you 🥰

[@misawar1335]

Another song that blessed my day. Every song you make is filled with so much emotion, and I love it. I wrote so many scenes of my book on your music, and it always helped me be a better writer in terms of transposing the feelings across. Thank you for all the work you are doing and for the art you are sharing with us. I do believe God gifted you with a special power: to be a comforting shoulder for those in need of support through your music. Maybe not everything makes sense in the present, but at the end of the story, everything makes sense, and everything is worth it. It is a fight after all. Fight on beautiful people. Thank you for your music, Nathan :) Please stay healthy and safe, both you and your wife ( and family). You are lovely people, and I pray for both your happiness and passion for your music.

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you! Keep up with the writing!

[@trentongetz5778]

I found your music about 2 months ago with spotify. All your songs are beautiful and mean a lot to me since i have OCD, anxiety, and depression. This song hits home. Thanks for making the song!

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Thank you for listening!

[@tamaramilner3948]

Once again, my friend, your courage amazes me- you have become the light and the words for so many. Love you!

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love!

[@djillusioner]

I can't even begin to find words to express how deeply i relate to this right now. Ifeel hopeless yet, i don't want to lose hope. Hanging by a thread... This ws too good...❤

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@gracemcomber6374]

This one hits a little too close to home.... Thank you so much for blessing us with your talent. It's truly a God-given gift, and I am inexpressibly grateful for the music you release. Again, thank you

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you!

[@rancenazierjoshuasolatorio6581]

Absolutely brilliant. This song brought large echoes to my soul.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙌🙌

[@darlenestanhouse2452]

That was definitely, one of your best songs. I love them all, but that one is absolutely my favorite. Depression is running rapid in the USA !! So many people taking there lives and these massive shootings every day has made it worse. I'm a person that has suffered extreme depression in my past and I thought there was no hope. I told God to please save me and he delivered. My family life today is awesome and I've been happily married for 27 yrs. If anyone is struggling, Nathan is right and there's always hope as long as we're still breathing. Thank you Nathan for the beautiful masterpiece...love to you 🐨🌺🙏

[@saraoverkamping8143]

You literally all warriors in the U.S in your daily lifes. So many threats in your country all around you and not all is something you could try and influence. You all in America deserve so much respect for still fullfilling your daily duties, inspite their is always the worry of safety in the back of the mind, for your children and yourself. I thought someone should say that for once, how you all as civilians are so brave every day.

[@darlenestanhouse2452]

@@saraoverkamping8143 God bless you and thank you for all the kind words. It's nice to know, that they're people in the world as wonderful as you. 🐨🌺🙏🇺🇸

[@saraoverkamping8143]

@@darlenestanhouse2452 Not more or less wonderful than anybofy else. Just a ninetheen year old who is deeply saddened by thinking of so many innocent lifes taken for nothing. And the fear you go through I will hopefully never endure in my country. And you are a very kind person as well, I can tell. I hope to make all the beautiful experiences you made, beside my broken spine. (And that is not a metapher, I am partily paralyzed from a suicide attempt and cannot work more than a few steps). I am telling you this cause I want to promise you, that I'll follow your advice. I am not a religious person, but I believe in fate and destination and that I have to give my all to find it.

[@darlenestanhouse2452]

@@saraoverkamping8143 My heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry that you're going through such horrible pain and tragedy at such a young age. I'm already praying for you. I know you say you're not religious and that's okay, but please just give God a chance. He listens to everything you say and he will never leave you. He loves you and will always be there for you. I'm 62 and have been in a wheelchair for years now. I can't even imagine being 19 and being in your shoes. Can I ask you what country you're from? You sound like a beautiful person that has so much to live for. Please don't ever give up because you matter and you got this !! Depression sucks, but we have to go on, no matter what. Please do me a favor and I want you to check out a friend of mine in Florida. This man helped save me . His name is Josh Louis and he is at Hope paranormal on KZbin. Just tell him that Darlene Stanhouse sent you to him. He is amazing and so sweet. God bless you and remember that I'm cheering for you. Much love & respect to you 🐨🌺🙏❤️

[@saraoverkamping8143]

@@darlenestanhouse2452 Thank you, Darlene. I am from Europe. I have scandinavian roots, but live in Germany as you might see by my family name. You are living in Florida right? Isn't it very sunny all around the year? And don't be sorry for me, just because it happened to me at this young age. You are 62 years old, but share my fate as being bounded to the wheelchair and this kind of pain does not differ from two persons different ages. I learnt my lections the hard way, but at the end it counts that I learnt them. I became more passionate, more patient, more measure, but before everything I became more happy. And in the end this is what will stay... I can do a few steps by now. I really hope I can try and believe in a mercyful God, I have a friend up there in heaven who died with 17. It is for people like him I hope there exists a heaven, cause he never thought of himself first. And to learn he passed away so shortly after being released from hospital, I noticed what it really would have meant if I were gone that age. What I would have missed. I thought I was ready and maybe I was, but I am not anymore. I hope you and I are granted so many more beautiful years on this earth and keeping our deceased loved ones forever in our hearts.

[@eliferguson3422]

You deserve millions of followers!!! Your lyrics are so powerful, and your voice. ❤

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@SizzlingSolaris]

Cant wait to hear another masterpiece of yours, Nathan! 👍😁❤️ Always love and enjoy hearing new stuff from ya!

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you🙌

[@eiderj975]

Viejo, tu música salva vidas ❤❤ gracias

[@nathanwagner762]

Ah, te amo. Gracias por tus amables palabras ❤

[@Val-uu9rf]

Concuerdo

[@Phenrex]

I just want to say that your music resonates with me and inspires me in a way that little else manages. I just want you to know that six or more months after my first comment I remain listening to your songs on repeat whenever I need to process and feel. I know the words on most of them now, and yet they remain something close to me. I try to recommend them whenever music comes up, its just.... Beautiful. Eery, honest, raw.

[@nathanwagner762]

I appreciate you continuing to listen! Thank you!

[@NWM-cv4zl]

I saw this on the spotify and immediately keep it on repeat on my drive back and forth hospital. Thank you always for the beautiful pieces. ❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course!

[@remonagrubbs9787]

Is mom or dad sick?

[@NWM-cv4zl]

@@remonagrubbs9787 haha no I’m a physician, this song keeps me going after tiring shifts.

[@evy_nataria]

This song is so powerful,heartbreaking and very true. Can really relate to this text and song,and the way you sing it conveys it beautifully.

[@nathanwagner762]

I’m glad that this song can resonate with you😊

[@zkantor8107]

Love this song Nathan! Calming yet haunting. The words really hit hard. Thanks for making this song man.

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahh thanks for listening! So grateful for you

[@shivaniraju791]

I don't understand how you outdo yourself everytime Nathan...EVERYTIME! I have goosebumps everytime and I can confiidently tell you I'll have goosebumps forever. You're soul is so beautifully gifted to be able to give us something like this to listen to ..... All my respect and love forever . Thank you for this song. Thank you so much

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love!

[@jakeup0118]

Another amazing masterpiece of a song. You do such an amazing job on every single one of these. Keep up the amazing work.

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you so much. Means everything. Really really appreciate it

[@squisshhiieeee]

Every song you make, puts everything I'm feeling, into words.. It makes it a little easier.. And lets me know that I'm not alone. Thank you.. Truly. I feel like your songs save me. ❤

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love!

[@davidbourg5333]

I don't think I've heard any band or music creator that has such captivating songs. It really makes you think about your place in life and what you and others are going through. Absolute masterpiece.

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you

[@arlodurham2040]

This is… incredible. Thank you so much for it. I’m sure I’ll be listening to it for a very long time. As someone who is there, it expresses something primordial that’s really hard to find words for. You are amazing. Thank you.

[@nathanwagner762]

I appreciate it

[@NerakH.-wp2of]

It's incredible how your music, the lyrics, the feeling with which you sing it can touch a sensitive chord within. If many people listened to your music, they would feel heard and grateful. There should be more people listening to your music, it's amazing and beautiful. Thanks Nathan.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course!

[@itteneva]

Nathan, you don't know how much your music has helped me. The messages into your songs keep me going, and I know that someone out there who also listens to them, feels the same as I do. In moments when I feel lost, alone and not understood, I just remember that there is you - the creator of such masterpieces, whose music will support me always.

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love!

[@mischasteen8262]

Dear Nathan, I don't comment much, but I listen to your every song and am following your journey since the beginning, when I came across your song Lonely. I appreciate your songs so much. The music, lyrics, emotions. Everything. It makes me feel things and most of them are very relatable to me. This one especially, because I've been dealing with depressions basically since I was a kid. I just want to tell you how much you've grown since then and that I'm proud of you. You deserve many more listeners and views, but at the same time I have a feeling that living in a spotlight as a big star might destroy this honest, sensitive and artistic side of you, because that kind of world is too cruel. I'm looking forward to your other songs and when you finally release the album you spoke about in some comments. I wish you only the best and I will keep supporting you. Lots of love from Czech republic.

[@nathanwagner762]

Hey! Thank you so much for your kind words. So grateful you took the time. Sorry to hear you've struggled with depression. It can be so unbearable. Sending all my love. To know you've stuck around since lonely means everything. Bless you

[@mischasteen8262]

@@nathanwagner762 I even made my mom your fan too during those years haha. She says hi lol. We both love your music :)

[@yousrarose3079]

wow! your song is so powerul, you catched all the untold emotions very well. and all your songs are masterpieces they are beautiful. keep going the great work. thank you

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you thank you thank you so much. Means everything. really appreciate you taking the time to listen and comment

[@christineengland9160]

Thank you so much for this. Love the lyrics and the length. Amazing.

[@nathanwagner762]

So glad you liked it. Means the universe. Thank you so much for taking the time to listen!

[@dalewikfors9194]

Living in a suicide loss. A year and a half today since my son took his. I feel his pain every minute. Your music is therapy. Helps me keep on track knowing many others are suffering. Keeps my eyes off myself and my pain. Stay strong my friends. Much ❤️. Thanks Nathan.

[@nathanwagner762]

Sorry for your loss🙏 much love

[@zet2920]

Had to come back here...I just find this piece relatable right now, after all the words I just received. Specially from my family..."I might need help" really hits the spot...

[@Anew_Returner]

Thank you for always making these beautiful songs for us, for comforting us, and for speaking up for us♥

[@nathanwagner762]

Means so much!

[@Aziracon]

You have something magical in your vocals and sound making, I get shivers every time, with every song, every piece of art you release into this world, I'm so grateful to follow you and your growth, it's such a blessing to listen to your music.

[@remonagrubbs9787]

Yesssssss!!

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you😭🙌

[@JosephFigueroa3904]

I have been listening to you for more than 4 years and I have never felt so encouraged since I started listening to your music, you helped me with your voice on many occasions, what you do is beautiful, a dear fan from Venezuela, I love you Nathan

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love

[@ghostriderkickass]

Depression is literally the worst feeling I've dealt with since high school, but I've put on a mask. But my dads passing only made it worse he was my best friend. Nathan I'll say this man,Your music makes that empty feeling vanish in the worst of times I really do appreciate you man.

[@saraoverkamping8143]

I am sorry about your Dad 💔 My deepest condolences. So glad I am still having my Dad and I promise you, I will treasure every memory with him if I did not do it before.

[@ghostriderkickass]

@@saraoverkamping8143 thank you and yes please do treasure those moments. My dad kept the darkness away from me for such a long time. But unfortunately since his light is gone, the darkness is slowly creeping back.

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love! Sorry for your loss🙏

[@ghostriderkickass]

@@nathanwagner762 thank you man appreciate it ♥️.

[@ariefdanialmohdpradik8839]

another golden piece that speaks

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you

[@sjanemail]

Oh my god this is amazing! I am literally gobsmacked. I don't know how long i am going to be able to be on your patron for but so far i am loving it. Your vocals are on point. You are starting to remind me of Chester bennington. You can sing like an angel but then proper go for it. Its amazing. I do love it when you scream and then sing calmy. Probably why i like paranoia. But god i love everything about this song. Its spectacular!

[@nathanwagner762]

Means the absolute universe. Thank you thank you thank you so much for checking it out. Chester Bennington is my favorite of all time! Could not be more grateful to have you as a patron!

[@J_BiggityBar]

Sometimes it seems like the only way I can feel seen is through media and songs like this.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@Maca494]

"will you keep me in your memory?" *slams fist on the table* bad Nathan. you knew what you were doing with that sentence beautiful song as always. your voice always takes us on a journey...

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you

[@VIgHtMe]

Dude, I’m simply in love with your voice and creativity!😍 This is so meaningful and congratulations for this masterpiece!🧡

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you!

[@Magorgames]

Absolutely amazing song...not only the lyrics, but the melody itself describes perfectly how it feels like being in that dark place. Sometimes it gets better, sometimes gets worse and in those moments of weakness remember that you are not alone. We all fight together through music like this. Keep fighting and who knows, maybe one day you might become a shining beacon of hope for the others just like Nathan. ✨

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@kvt1842]

Astonishing as always!

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you!

[@andreluizzacarias4332]

I never felt this way to a song! I'm on a bus right now just tearing up on a verge of crying. This is one of the most beautiful songs i ever heard. Thank you Nathan! You are surely a gift from heaven!

[@nathanwagner762]

Means the world!

[@naturannaturan5646]

amazing as always

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you so much!

[@BertoSensei]

Regardless of whether you feel the sky falling or not All I need to say is Your work is deeply appreciated & loved. Keep on going because we’re here to support your journey. God bless 🙏🏻

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you thank you thank you Alberto!!! I'm so glad you like the work. God bless you!

[@jeffwilkerson1145]

Well done, your voice is so distinct and when you open up , pure gold. Deep lyrics that hit hard. 💯

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you so much!

[@Idtsme]

It's just a masterpiece. Your songs remind me that I'm not alone who feels this way. Thank you ❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahh so glad! Bless you! Thanks a ton for listening!