This song brings me back to my first year of highschool. I had known the song before, but it wasnt until my freahman year that i really understood the meaning. Ever since i moved to my city, i had been the subject of bullying. I had to cut my hair after some kid cut a chunk out with scissors. I got hit a lot, and the name calling didnt help. Its not like i just took it, i fought back, but i had no one to side with me. My first year of highschool though, it just stopped hurting. Maybe spending time with the "damaged" kids gave me a sense of belonging, as we had all taken a beating. I remember i got attacked by one of the nasty girls on the way up the stairs near the top, and i just swung on her, and she fell down them, like a sack of rocks. And i didnt feel bad. It took until lunch when it finally hit me that i probably should have at least felt afraid of getting in trouble, or if i really hurt her. Maybe i should have felt good about putting her in her place, but it was empty inside, and i knew that was wrong. It took until a year after graduating to finally reconcile my feelings, and "save my heart from turning cold", as the song so aptly puts. Its been two years, and i found this song again recently, and it really resonates with me now.
@SenkouNoMahimeEne4 жыл бұрын
@Geoffrey Pellar I really get that, my little brother is in a similar situation; he too is on the spectrum and getting through highschool with help. Its tough man, but it really does make you stronger. Dont let the world alienate you though, you've made strides past who you were in highschool, and if people are gonna treat you cruely and act like they are still in highschool, you don't need them! Also, congratulations on college! Thats an exciting thing, and even though i dont know you, im rooting for you, man!
@animelife20244 жыл бұрын
Senkou No Maihime Ene wow dude that’s great and all but I don’t remember asking
@lazyorange32934 жыл бұрын
@@animelife2024 then don't read it stupid
@smolsoutashotadragon73264 жыл бұрын
@@animelife2024 This person is getting bullied and here you are, being mean? I mean are they even talking to you in the first place? If it's none of your bussiness then just go leave them alone, they're just venting what the fuck is wrong with you.
@SenkouNoMahimeEne4 жыл бұрын
@@animelife2024 and I dont remember talking to you in particular, lol. Did your mother ever teach you that of you dont have anything nice to say, to not speak at all? Have a nice day.
I’ve been trying to learn Japanese, and now I’m able to mostly understand some Japanese comments. Although, English, Japanese, etc., I’m glad that we can all enjoy this song together.
@Raydiat0r4 жыл бұрын
Infernal watermelon, teach me your ways-
@tropicalsploon4 жыл бұрын
What?
@クオーツ-n9m4 жыл бұрын
@@Raydiat0r study instead of being on youtube
@fukurotokai3 жыл бұрын
Learning Japanese is the easiest thing do to if you are a weeb. 👁️👄👁️
@qwertyuiop.lkjhgfdsa3 жыл бұрын
@@fukurotokai or if you play a shit load of japanese video games!
I enjoyed reading that! I also first listened to this song in elementary school and it moved me greatly. Im in high school now too and it reminded me to become a kind person-the kind that can conquer the world!
@仁郎5 күн бұрын
何であんな真面目にやろうとしとったんやろうか後ろから頭蹴っ飛ばすぐらいやればよかったわ
@egglet5354 жыл бұрын
i genuinely think that some of us, including me, wouldn't even be here without neru's music. these songs filled with so much bitterness and anger really kept me thriving when i was at some of the lowest points in my life. this and countless other songs from that era of your career - and i've only come to love your music more as you develop and grow as a musician. the journey of your music from what could be called rock ballads or anthems to the cynical, clever, lyrics of your newer songs hidden behind a catchy tune and a flashy pv is so fucking awesome? and it does feel like as i've grown, your music has as well. thank you for your work neru. i don't know where i'd be without you, seriously.
@inplane99703 жыл бұрын
The meanings of these songs also change as we grow. When I was younger, I only saw this song as a rebellious anthem that described the bitterness that outcasts felt. Now, I understand that bitterness will pass and we can't let it take hold of our lives no matter how bad it gets.
@saucyluis72494 жыл бұрын
Me reading the lyrics: yay they found happiness and they metaphorically dominated the world. Me watching the video and seeing they have guns in there hands: ....oh my god they shot up the school
@slytherinlady39074 жыл бұрын
Killerxxx47 // Luis S the fact that rin and len sing this just makes this comment better
@hidee46123 жыл бұрын
I'm not sure if what you said was sarcasm (sorry in advance) but in a way you are fine that they achieved their dreams and metaphorically dominated the world, but, the change was that they they stopped lying to themselves and made their dreams, the haircut is a sign of rebellion and that in general the Yakuza use, hence the clothing and the guns, the eyes are threatening for the same thing. (sorry for bad English, or if something doesn't make too much sense)
@Aadhitiya_Murali3 жыл бұрын
@@hidee4612 no, you make perfect sense. i wonder why the people who put "sorry for bad english" always have perfect english.
@novinraushan83 жыл бұрын
@@Aadhitiya_Murali There's lots of grammar nazis so yeah
@roryg92203 жыл бұрын
When you realize that Rin and Len might actually be American :O
@pojo7649 Жыл бұрын
This song is very poignant and dear to me. The tale of a person’s struggles with unlearning a toxic mindset and realizing that they have to let go of the emotional barriers they built for themselves to be able to live the way they want to… despite their descriptions of how lonely and sad they are, you can tell that there’s a sense of hope and determination even though the obstacles they have to face haven’t changed. They know what they have to do, what they NEED to, but they struggle trying to live “correctly.” There’s these reminders to themselves throughout the song of them trying to improve. (Example: “Singing a song about wanting to die just drives the stakes in deeper” meaning that the more they focus on how miserable they are, the more miserable they become, and that they need to focus on what makes them happy.) This isn’t a spiral, it’s more like a refreshing acknowledgment of the feelings they’ve had and still continue to have. This is a song about the hardships of self growth.
@kurorotops Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing! I feel I can relate to some of the things you're saying
This song is somehow relateable... Because part of my life was me assuring myself i wanted to be kind and part of it was a rebel kind of life, there were parts in my life where i didn't understand the perks of kindness, i was so blinded by the sadness, pain, and suffering i had gone through, i forgot to remind myself that what i wanted was to be kind... So the last part, "I have to become a kind person before my heart grows numb from the cold." Really really hit me hard... But now my life is in order, i want you all to know that "Violence is never the way, but if you're oppressed because of the loneliness you feel, don't let it stay that way. Strive to become better no matter if the future doesn't turn out right at all..."
@kitaisuru4 жыл бұрын
bruh that's so lame can you go grab a gun and try to dominate the world please? :)
@matthew_natividad4 жыл бұрын
@@kitaisuru I prefer a death note
@cyb3rl0v3333 жыл бұрын
Idk but this is the best comment- relatable, accurate to my life, made me nearly cry
@estern16992 жыл бұрын
Even if we've obviously been through different things, I can feel what you mean, the constant strive to keep going and be a good person even with sadness and loneliness present.(sorry if bad english)
@scriptwriter43282 жыл бұрын
@@estern1699 No, it's fine actually, you're English is very decent! Most of the times in our life we try to be nice even when the circumstances are always against us, and ends up only hurting you. And the urge to just destroy everything grows bigger. But you know that it's wrong and that you'd also end up hurting yourself. This was a great song overall, I could feel the suffering and the pain this song has.