nihilism or mixed episode? [taking all bets...] 004 (cont.)

Having a rough time (and the fact that I've eschewed my lithium in a few days is only a coincidence). No crying on camera, unfortunately, but still pathetic as hell.

[@Azari-Lite]

Wow, your explanation some of what you are going through is really very clear. Although I have never been through the hell you are going through right now. You make it very real and honest. One part of what you said hit me like a lead balloon. It sounded like you might have been getting downloads from (yea, I am going to say it) ETs or EDs those downloads can drive you crazy, they do not stop, they fill your head till it feels like it is going to burst. You do not have to agree with me and you are free to call me crazy. I do not know anything about Bi Polar or nihilism or mixed episodes or any of the Letter Titles the DRs give to people they do not know how to deal with. Because they do not know what that person is dealing with. So they give it a title and fill the person with drugs (which they get kickbacks for each prescription they write) and walk away. They do not realize that some people can see what others can not see, can hear what others can not hear, can feel what others can not feel. That does not make them crazy It makes them special. Because they are seeing, hearing, and feeling more of the universe and world around us then the rest of us are. Most of us if hit with this could not handle it. We would go off the deep end and do some really dumb stuff to get the voices to stop or to get the creatures we are seeing to leave us alone. We would even thing we had seen evil spirits of ghosts or scary ETs when in actuality these creatures are all around us all the time we just can't see them. When you open your third eye you will see these things and auras around everything as well. Cretin drugs like Ayawaska can bring on these same symptoms as well. (Indians say they find meditation works better and has no side effects.) I must say you are very brave to come out and let us into your world as you did. Peace, Love, and Light Be with you always. You are a very special person. Azari.Lite

[@luxallen9630]

um, i'll stick with the current medical science... but your comments are heartfelt and i appreciate them...

[@luxallen9630]

remember that whole "if you can't say anything nice, keep your mouth shut" thing? doesn't apply here. any response is a cause for celebration. hell, i'll throw a party and get a pinata shaped like a lithium capsule...

[@Azari-Lite]

Just a side note... I see that you are bent to the side to talk in to the mike. If you are having back issues, as you said. That position will start giving you some real pain and cut off your circulation on the one side. Hopefully you can get your mike adjusted properly, for you so you are much more comfortable. Sorry, It was almost painful to watch. Az