[Nijisanji] Kanae's view of life and death [ENG SUB]

[@danse.ra.ph.4880]

Sasuga no rest warrior Kanae. “The only one who can kill me is me” literally.

[@pabnckncykma1297]

1st comment

[@IlDuceAnzaiChiyomi]

Is this gonna be Etika all over again?

[@forgetfulcloud1914]

@@IlDuceAnzaiChiyomi I really hope not.

[@kanekaiiishoyo3378]

@@IlDuceAnzaiChiyomi It's not really a joke there

[@anibalfull]

@@IlDuceAnzaiChiyomi Etika was mental, Kanae is expressing his death as a form of beauty, nothing strange there, there're lots of people who love their beauty and prefer to kill themselves to have to see it banished.

[@mononono645]

"I don't want to be killed by someone else" Makes sense why he's good at PvP games

[@milesedgeworth132]

I remember Kanae also closed his Marshmallow because of mental health. Hope he's doing alright.

[@shroudedinshout]

what's marhsmallow?

[@bibi_999]

@@shroudedinshout it's like japanese curiouscat

[@kaenovama]

any video on that?

[@setoman1]

I'm sure he's a very resilient person.

[@rbsalmon7895]

I always wondered why likes and dislikes were hidden on his videos. Makes much more sense now

[@audioshake6366]

Ah yes, the _live fast, die young_ strategy.

[@thefinalday5858]

Too bad the respawn is buggy, last time it worked correctly was almost 2000 years ago .

[@imca6159]

@@thefinalday5858 yeah took him just 3 days to respawn

[@snek6769]

Speendrunning life

[@memegumin]

Or people also call it The speedrun it

[@Bonechoke]

THE FINAL DAY yeah the devs patched it with an update

[@inoueokaito]

the fact there's a countdown to when he hits 30 makes it feel more serious

[@tyle5594]

THERES A WHAT????

[@remedymybrokenheart]

Holy shit he's counting down?

[@zero9112]

That is amazing!

[@inoueokaito]

to clear up misunderstanding in the comments he's not "counting down" per say but him reaching 30's being a deadline oof

[@remedymybrokenheart]

@@inoueokaito OOOOOOHHH LMAOOO I THOUGHT THERE WAS A TIMER AHAHAHAHAHA I was thinking of a time bomb or something XDD

[@iwant7813]

"I want to die in my bloom" God, Kanae is really good at setting the mood to dark and somehow change it back to normal. I love him lol

[@Kusamancer]

For some reason he vaguely reminded me of Lysandre from Pokemon.

[@randiaditya1126]

It reminds me of Kurt Cobain.

[@serene-illusion]

I understand what Kanae's getting at, but at the same time I'd be pretty fucking sad if he killed himself. I don't even know what's scarier: Finding out he killed himself, or him retiring first and never knowing what happened to him after.

[@MUI69420]

Yeah the second Option was the most Depressing Shit That could Happen, We Can't Predict or even Imagine what Human would Do To themselfes. But i Guess that's his Life and Its his right to choose.

[@hskah7915]

The fact that I can't even picture or imagine him retiring because I'm already too afraid to

[@milesedgeworth132]

That's the mentality of American youth in the 50s. "Live fast. Die young. Leave a good looking corpse."

[@sanderh4600]

Talkin bout my generation

[@zomyaalt6565]

@@sanderh4600 a 70 year old vtuber fan. if this is genuine then please hit me up on discord edit: ZomYa#6289

[@NotASummoner]

@@zomyaalt6565 It's a joke reference to the song "My generation" by the who

[@Crosshill]

was necrophilia that prevalent in the fifties

[@UwU-nb8ho]

2:19 If you have time to fantasize about a beautiful end, then just live beautifully 'til the end. -Gintoki

[@sanbaru]

thanks buddy i love gintoki so much

[@gray-zb7zr]

yo wtf i cried

[@Cerita__Dunia]

He does talk about this a lot... even a few days ago on his 3rd year anniversary. The good thing is, he is concious on how it could affect his fans. He said he still want to die early, it is still his dream, but the age is not really settled to 30 y/o anymore, and he is scared that his fans would follow him to death if they knew.. he hates that thought so he's been rethinking about this again... "let's be together until we're bored" he said :)

[@floatamongstthestars]

I realized how selfish I am, having the same view as him, wanting to die on my own accord but not wanting Kanae himself to die :(

[@Kunoichi4ever4]

its still extremely unhealthy way of thinking. Nijisanji as a company shall get him a therapist, but I doubt they will. I remeber having a same belief as he states when I was extremely depressed, I cannot imagine having mental health issues as a celebrity that has to work almost 24/7 without a proper mental break. I really hope any of his friends would speak about this to him....

[@hskah7915]

Omg I'm so touched and so worried about him I actually cried😃 like, someone please please protect him omg

[@hskah7915]

@@floatamongstthestars same..

[@uooo-w4f]

@@floatamongstthestars your words were like the lyrics of "inochi ni kirawareteiru". you didn't ask for a song recommendation but if you don't know it, check it out if you like :) personally, i like mafumafu's version the most

[@tyle5594]

this whole comment section is stressing me out

[@YuckFart]

I actually got a headache after reading comments saying they relate to him. It's really hurting me ;-;

[@user-xc4lq1zq2x]

yea me too

[@zero9112]

Why?

[@grace4683]

Same I only see like jokes or sth and no one seems to be worried

[@Hanachi707]

Ikr I’m really worried for both kanae and the people who relate to him

[@tinami9194]

this somehow makes me sad. he is such a sweet and bright boy. seeing him thinking like that makes my heart aches. hope everything goes well in his life, I'm wishing the best for him, really

[@kazumiFu]

Everyone is joking about this and I’m so worried, I hope he changes his mind.

[@Dorimefasolatedo]

How can you be so sure that he's a sweet and bright boy we dont know who he is in real life just saying.... no offence

[@chainuser7401]

@@kazumiFu yea same

[@limliping98]

@@Dorimefasolatedo forming parasocial relationships can be dangerous

[@drawingstuff6660]

He is joking

[@amierulasyraf3956]

this man afraid to be wizard

[@nqrseaira]

this comment made me laugh so hard, but somehow i just can't imagine him being a virgin lol

[@IceeFish]

@@nqrseaira Kuzuh-

[@rin_etoware_2989]

i bet he did it already, it's just that Roto wipes his memory afterward. then he'll wake up and wonder why he's sharing his futon with Akina or something

[@kharisgo]

👀

[@90enemies]

Kanae is literally Osamu Dazai from Bungou Stray Dogs. From how he wants to *Die* and just the way he talks and thinks

[@kingallen3178]

Osamu Dazai is a real person tho

[@l_m_a_o_]

@@kingallen3178 The real Osamu Dazai died when he was 38 ^ ^

[@thechargerout]

The real Osamu Dazai is really nothing like the Dazai from BGD at all.

[@dum..]

I hate the fact that 1: You're comparing a real person's suicidal thoughts to a anime character's. 2:I also hate the fact people don't actually know who Osamu Dazai is, since he's my favorite writer.

[@90enemies]

@@dum.. Pfttttttt. 1) Or maybe I'm comparing it to Kanae's "Persona". Sigh. Sure VTubers are real person too, but please don't forget they all have a "character" to play each with their own Persona. This is not to take away they're still a real person but they're playing an Act too like sigh. I know you're trying to be "nice" and "understanding" towards the person behind the Vtuber model but sigh. 2) I don't know who he is in real life like or what work he does, but I made this comment comparing it to the fictional Osamu Dazai from Bungou Stray Dogs, which is really puzzling why people keep bringing up the real person.

[@Cobalt219]

The best would be something comical, so when people remember your death instead of sadness they laugh, like a really good punchline to a dark joke

[@antimony2333]

Kazuma

[@darkmiku2483]

you get what you fking deserve BANG

[@radsimp5710]

knock knock

[@giratius9307]

Gol D. Roger

[@unsanitizedbabywipes6154]

"elon made a neuraltech product and it blew my mind" Proceeds in mindblown.

[@-Raylight]

At first I was like really confused. But at the end, I can agree with Kanae, it was a really nice way of thinking It's like *"Live like tomorrow is your last day"* but much more extreme Kanae is quite a philosopher, that's pretty surprising xD

[@allmostthefrosttea0184]

So kanae trying to speed run life

[@kin8940]

Good one

[@968Taiki]

Thanks for translating this clip! I've always respected Kanae ever since I first saw clips of him, largely because of how good he is a video games. But the more I watch him, I've come to respect him even more as someone who has quite the head on his shoulder despite what he and his peers portray most of the time. And learning more about how this guy is so romantically cynical is probably why he is hands down the vtuber I respect the most.

[@null_100]

i haven't been able to put my finger on it but "romantically cynical" is the perfect way to describe his vibe!

[@Necroneer]

He wants to die in his peak, I think is what he said, never really thought much about this topic, but living on for as long as I can while being healthy would be great. I'd love to see the future of the internet and Vtubers, if I became a vegetable though I'd probably rather die.

[@vtuberkei6884]

You don't want to become the embodiment of kusa?

[@yukirevive2722]

@@vtuberkei6884 Personally I'd rather be the seedbed for future kusas than become a literal kusa that can't go kusa. - A Random Kusa

[@-hello6177]

Now, imagine, if you know you're gonna become a vegetable, for like a few weeks maybe less, of life (in nearly dead state), you can customize your death however you'd like.

[@NoxSuperNova]

Me too, The only reason I want to live a long time is because I want to see how technology improves, watch the anime/manga that I'm reading end, and see Argentina win the football world cup.

[@OneFinalAutumn]

@@NoxSuperNova I guess you'll have to live forever then. They ain't ever getting that cup lol

[@siriusdanenvlade806]

.-. That was a lot darker than i expected....

[@Kim-fi5nf]

At first I was like, eh? But then as I talked he made so much sense. Growing older is scary. It just becomes working, growing older, getting weaker, not being able to jump around like in your youth, suddenly loosing interest in things like sweets and snacks... sometimes games and what’s trending. Then technology would only be growing and growing and at that point we would become old grannies and be the outdated people.

[@blurryface5744]

I always had a feeling that growing old is like losing interest in a game like remember that old multiplayer/rpg game that you always played with your friends but now they've all quit the game so now there's no more motivation for you to keep playing.

[@Kim-fi5nf]

@Blurry Face so true

[@suiren9595]

I'll be sure to tell my grandkids about vtubers in general lol

[@MrBronx819]

There's that old dude that dominated PUBG for a while, so as long as we keep up with the trends we'll be al- Me: *sees valorant, overwatch, and league of legends* Guess I'm dying young like my boy Kanae

[@user-xc4lq1zq2x]

why are these comments getting likes? growing old is a natural part of life, at 30 you are still a young adult, age doesn't show for at least another 20 years, and your body doesn't start to shut down until at least 50 years later if you're healthy. something is seriously fucked up about out culture if you guys, including kanae and the uploader of this video, think that being 30 is being so old you'd rather commit suicide than continue living. honestly, think about your future beyond how many wrinkles are on your face...

[@chariot9285]

ngl that warrants therapy lol

[@qwerty3a]

bruh i think almost this whole comment section needs therapy

[@Graestra]

qwerty for real. Wasn’t expecting the comment section to be like fhis

[@hexfizgamingch]

Life just that hard man. Mental healh issue is complex

[@user-pe5xd3qh7m]

Let people believe what they want to... As long as they can work and be content while there alive it's fine. It's just a different way of looking at life. Suicide isn't always due to mental illness.

[@-hello6177]

Bro people just wanna do euthanasia, but want more customization, I don't have a deadline like Kanae but I want to do it when I get old enough, Y'know There's probably many people who think they'd rather die like in a forest holding a book (not my go to but it is very common in stories so I bet a lot of people like this one) with a knife through the heart instead of waiting for their death in a hospital

[@motionisdead9796]

The more I discover of Kanae, the more it surprises me how much thoughts on certain things I share with him lol. But, roughly speaking, I'm the same. I can see a point in living and learning, but since I don't really feel like living long is that much worth it(or even being buried, since I think my body is just a waste of space for something else to "bloom"), I just can't force myself to live. One one hand, living for the others may be a virtue(especially, if you help around), but on the other I feel like in some parts, it wouldn't be living for myself(since I do not want to, because from the start till now my life was pure shitfest) and that's just suffering in itself. That's why I hate the idea of guilt-tripping people that want to die by saying "but others would be sad if you died" which is just as selfish to say as choosing to die. Mentioning it, I've seen a lot of people criticizing it, because they themselves do not want to accept the idea of early death(something to do with the id, ego and fear in general), so I'm glad that Kanae speaks for the freedom of choice with an open-mind.

[@hexfizgamingch]

I can see and understand the idea... but for me, i dont really want to kill my self. More like i dont care when i will die and hope that i didnt overstayed my welcome. I am currently working in a firld that does help people... and its nice. But, the more i experience it, the more question if really anyone deserve it.. i just hope i can keep diong my most minimal to at least doesnt cause any suffering for other and try to relieve society suffering while i do what i interest to do.

[@Succubus_L0li]

I mean at the end of the day human life is really insignificant we live to die even if we dont have an offspring humans really arent the only inhabitants on planet earth life will still continue even if human go extinct there will be no difference. I also think that it's not worth living past 50 if possible even I want my life to end by 29 years old it's not that o really want to die quickly its just that I dont really care for living for that long.

[@user-xc4lq1zq2x]

these comments are burning me out. do young people really just want to play video games and vape, not doing anything of worth and then killing themselves because being 30 is "being old"? i seriously hope you people find something of value in life beyond sitting in your room watching suicidal vtubers

[@user-pe5xd3qh7m]

@@user-xc4lq1zq2x nice bait lol

[@goldenreapercow7996]

relatable in all honesty

[@Cnnuysseur]

Man, this is actually quite a reminder, that time will pass whether we like it or not, we might reach the point that everything around us becomes faster and faster 'till we can't keep up anymore. It's quite a contradictory, that many of us want to live longer but at the same time doesn't want to be left behind.

[@herman6837]

Never knew that was his way of thinking. The opposite for me, I want to live as long as I can, while witnessing the growth of the world, the progress of humanity. I want to do my best now so that when I am old, it's time for me to lie down and watch what other people will do, what decisions they will make, and what are the consequences of the actions that they have taken

[@NamelessGlasses]

You're fairly optimistic then. Most old folk I interact with are just waiting to die. They can't keep up with what's happening in the world. Their children don't visit. They can no longer wash or bathe themselves. They feel like burdens to those around them and on society. Most if not all of what they've built up in life ultimately means little in the end. It's hella sad but you really can't really blame them.

[@aifnwjuxnehebsicskw4216]

If there ever come a day when i can access technology to upload mind or regenerating telomere on human or maybe reverse oxidative stress, i think i want to see how my distant relatives is doing on the far future and keep seeing how the world changes while not really involving my self with the world or just giving advice that come with wisdom from living for a long time. Dunno but i think thats a fascinating experience Well, if not possible then kanae's opinion is also good to consider

[@kablanq4673]

Choppa9 yo same! I also want to live for as long as possible too!

[@danjoshi]

You're amazing. I'm glad people like you exist.

[@renko7484]

Kinda same with me. I always keep in mind to treat tommorow as the end of your life coz we'll never know when we will die. I always tried to do good things and make the people I love happy before I die someday.

[@denpaclips]

I see where he's coming from and in many ways I can agree with him. I've always preferred the idea of dying on my own terms rather than waiting for some illness or my body to break down in old age. But at the same time, I've been watching Kanae for about 2 years now and, unless I die first, will probably still be watching in the next 5 years. So I would be pretty damn heartbroken if he died, whether from suicide or any other cause.

[@Kunoichi4ever4]

I really hope Kanae gets surrounded by people that will help him, coz he to me seems like one of those people who are extremely kind coz they undergone too much pain and are themselves struggling. He is literally one of the most insiring vtubers i have seen, and its horrible to hear some of hsi own takes on himself coz he doesnt have the viewpoint we have at all.

[@ai_123o2]

Same tbh. I don’t plan to live a long life, growing more tired and uninterested. Life isn’t a competition, it doesn’t matter who aces that one test, who lives the healthiest, who crossed off their bucket list. I used to talk to my step dad about this a lot. We had extremely opposing views. He was afraid of dying, I was afraid of living. I’d prefer to die before I become miserable. The way I’d choose, the time, and by my own hands. It’s a different mindset and many people dislike it. Most people would probably call it selfish but I disagree. Everyone has their own views. Though, I would be sad if Kanae died.

[@ai_123o2]

I think I talked about myself to much in this post so I’m sorry about that.

[@user-pe5xd3qh7m]

@@ai_123o2 it's okay it was a good read

[@-hello6177]

@@ai_123o2 "Life isn’t a competition, it doesn’t matter who aces that one test, who lives the healthiest, who crossed off their bucket list." It looks like that because you're losing noob, at least try to win a bit before dying

[@mordredvonumbra154]

Its normal to hate the game you keep losing at. You can even talk yourself into hating things you dont get good at. Its a normal thing. Only obsessed people can like something they never improve at.

[@lqfr8813]

@@-hello6177 because ppl keep making things in life like winning and losing thats why some ppl who are not eager to be competitive felt pressured

[@Phyrrax]

Well...when you are younger, you always say stuff like that. I sure did when I was in my early 20s. And now Im 32, with some signs of age (damaged back) and somehow Im still going without thoughts of killing myself. XD For me, the will to live and add another year, gets alot stronger the older you get.

[@sen0440]

amen!

[@kei.4085]

I'm weeping...rn

[@user-xc4lq1zq2x]

i hope so, I'm 18 and the idea that someone would want to kill themselves at 30 makes me sick..

[@Kim-fi5nf]

a why are you literally in every comment. If you actually looked at the deeper meaning of what Kanae is saying, he’s saying that the killing himself at 30 is like a deadline. It’s like marking off your age at certain points and looking back. “I did this much at the past 30 years...” and obviously 🙄 feeling the want to keep living. Oh, maybe I’ll keep living until 40 and see what happens and the cycle continues. Some people without a certain goal in their lives have that kind of mindset. It helps them have a focus instead of wildly forging into the future without having anything in mind which to some people, is scary. And you must understand that beneath the facade of the Internet, every single person is suffering from a problem in real life, major or not. Sometimes we have reasons for saying what we say

[@goldenreapercow7996]

@@Kim-fi5nf thank you 👏👏👏

[@yuest]

...shouldn’t we be more worried about this? this definitely doesn’t sound healthy.

[@MUI69420]

Yeah thats the thing, People that Are Genuinely Thinks that Suicide was a Positive Experience Was Already Worrying and Need some More Research wether Mentally or Life-Style Aspects of themselfes.

[@broster_jet]

Really hope his doing well

[@nonsensicalabyss]

Man.. this is grim and kinda bittersweet. But tbh i can understand that to some extent. The feeling of not wanting to die with regrets and end it all when everything is still bright and beautiful. Glad that he seems to be in a better place now though, according to his bday voice pack 🥺 Thank you for translating this!!!

[@hanum6112]

Do u mind telling me what did he said in the voice pack? I'm worried now 😅😅

[@nonsensicalabyss]

@@hanum6112 nah it actually ended in a happier note. He said a lot of things but basically he was thankful for his fans because their presence encouraged him to live longer :3

[@Kim-fi5nf]

@Nonsensical Abyss that’s so sweet... 😭 I’ll watch all of his streams now

[@hanum6112]

@@nonsensicalabyss ahh that's good.. I hope that kanae will always be happy 😄

[@nidgithm]

oh that's a huge relief atleast if he's not lying

[@leenmochizuki5642]

I totally get where he’s getting at. I wanna die once I read my favorite novel ( which is still an ongoing series ) because the thought of growing older, worrying about the simplest of things, not becoming the person you want to be but just becoming a part of the masses really scares me. The future is bleak and unpredictable, I already know that I’m a waste of space and all that. “How about the people close to you? Won’t they be sad?” They would. Obviously. But I’m scared. Always been. “Why don’t you think about it some more? Maybe you’d change your mind?” I’ve already been thinking about it ever since I was a kid. ( I was the type likes to read alone so I knew how the circle of life works back then ) His way of interpreting it as a flower that wilts during it’s bloom is a perfect way to explain things. Like all the other people in the comments. Isn’t it better to die as the “me” who’s still respectable and have “plenty of hope for the future” rather than the “me” who used to be bright with potential but became a total failure?

[@foottoast4235]

Bro ongoing series and husbandos are my only reasons for living ngl

[@henloworld514]

This is just my personal outlook on life but I disagree… if you have hopes and dreams, how will you know if you achieve them or not if you die before you have tried your best? Life is unpredictable, but that doesn’t make it bleak. Unpredictable includes both good and bad, such as exemplified by the yin and yang symbol. Even if you are old, you can still achieve many of your dreams if you are motivated to. There are seniors that go to college, try bungee jumping, etc bc those things were dreams they were unable to accomplish when they were younger. And honestly, being part of the masses isn’t even a bad thing. Many “normal” people lead much happier lives than many celebrities. Everything really depends on how you look at life. If you keep thinking that you aren’t going to achieve anything when you get older, you won’t.

[@feinchan]

you can clearly see how awkward the topic is for Lize, she's too pure for this kind of things

[@Catalistic]

Oh I remember now, Japanese seen death not as end, but a part of life itself, even as an art. But in this case, Kanae know how to end it.

[@otame4771]

The whole video summarised in one sentence: "Live your life like there's no tomorrow"

[@almondmilk8676]

saying "i want to die by my own will" is a power play and i will also be following that ideology

[@MUI69420]

You Can't Follow others ideology or Way of living dude that's just Awful.

[@crimsonphoenix8907]

Man this was dark but I can agree to some extent that growing old is a very painful feeling but then I look at my grandparents and think maybe its not so bad growing old

[@NoxSuperNova]

When I see my grandparents what I think is that I don't want to be like them lol

[@fortidogi8620]

since we're here, please reach out to a therapist, loved one or helpline if youve had suicidal thoughts. seek help. live. watch more vtubers.

[@Viewahh]

Then there's me... wanting to live as long as I can or be immortal so I could enjoy all the anime/games that will come out. I'm still a lazy ass tho.

[@hexfizgamingch]

Well, a little advise here " becarefull what u wish for"

[@NoxSuperNova]

But maybe when you're old you won't be as interested in that stuff anymore. I think the way you do but I've noticed that as time goes by I lose interest in manga, anime, video games and sports. Which makes me wonder what will happen to me If I entirely lose interest in all that stuff.

[@rosl.]

Id like to be immortal, because with time i can do just about anything, learn every instrument, language, eat every food, play every game, watch every anime, study in ad many fields as i want. But i think in the end.. seeing my friends die, even though we're not the close and seeing my little sister die of age before me would just be.. depressing. So I'd like the option to at least be able to kill myself at any time lmao.

[@RhyeSachi]

if he really will go with this plan, then the thought of him retiring and fans just not knowing what happened after is very terrifying

[@CrnaStrela]

I kinda understand and not understand him, killing myself would means that my body realized that I'm going to do it and thus makes the struggle even longer. If I have to choose how I want to die, I'd rather have someone shoot me in the head with a sniper, yeah I just don't want to feel pain. But I do understand why he doesn't want to grow old, it is scary and lonely, one day you probably hanging around with your bros who you've never seen in 20 years due to busy adults life, then when all of you planned some trips or anything in order to catch up, you find out 2 of them passed away next week. Growing old is just a race to graveyard against all of your friends and I don't like that feeling.

[@l_m_a_o_]

A sniper to the head would be okay but trust me when I say a non-heavy duty gun to the head is actually a more painful and longer death than you think. I've thought about this too and I think that if he's going to do it Kanae should consider death by Carbon Monoxide poisoning in his bedroom going to sleep. (＾▽＾) It makes sense that after living your life at it's most highest point, (20-35yrs) and having done everything that you wanted to do, you would willingly choose to end your life story while it still has a happy ending. but; then we won't get to see anymore streams, I'll miss Kanae if that happens . . . (╯︵╰,) - I hope he keeps on living for as long as he can, lots of people care for him.

[@l_m_a_o_]

@yuzuyuzu oops, my bad hahaha (シ. .)シ

[@ShanaNakazawa]

When I first watched this video, I was surprised by how similar Kanae's principal is to mine. I would never kill myself for personal reasons, but lately I've been thinking of wanting to die before I hit 40. I don't want to live old, to become frail and sickly and become incapable of performing simple tasks by myself. I want to die in my peak and be remembered with fondness, not pity.

[@N02cik]

Pity huh...I think if you die young that would be more pitiful. There are so many people who lost their loved ones at a very young age..Just wanting to die because you dont want to grow old is...weak. In my opinion. Being so weak because of the world that you want to die..? That is what I would pity for .Also killing yourself is actually killing a human so you will die as a killer. Im not really a religious person but that is a very. Very huge sin. Just saying my opinion btw Im not trying to convince u

[@mrnt.dw012]

I think I understand what he meant. But hearing him saying that still makes me have teary eyes. Lol. Let's make him the most popular vtuber so that he will feel like to live longer than 30

[@YTDeCarlos]

Here for a good time, not a long time

[@sophialp]

*laughs in concern*

[@certifiedtomba8887]

Man, as much as I jome about it, I really, absolutely don't wanna die. But on some days, I get that one feeling... That one strong feeling that I'm living completely wrong, that I'm never gonna catch up to others, that I'm just a burden... That I can't help but think how good would it be if I could just reset life, or just... Stop being altogether. More than dying, what if I stopped existing altogether, y'know. Free up some waste space that could be filled by someone better.

[@xx-ph5ml]

It is true, I often think about doing it because the future looks very grim (especially during this outbreak). I've only just graduated college last year and started working right away, 10 months passed and I already felt like I was growing old by the day. And now alot of us got laid off for months now. Yeah I don't think I wanna live this way for another year.

[@giratius9307]

He's the exaxt opposite of me, i want to live as long as i can, because both of my parents already passed away without a grandchild, so i want to live happy retired life with my future wife and witnessing the growth of my family

[@Quon]

No one's going to look good when they die, everyone will be eaten by worms so keep this in mind, Kanakana

[@Crosshill]

nah mate cremations the way to go, and i like a good bonfire, gotta roast some marshmallows on the dying embers

[@crystal110698]

After reading the other comments, i have other thoughts. So no matter if you agree with Kanae's thinking or not, he did say that if by the time he reaches 30 and he changes his mind then he'll just set another age target and see what he thinks about it then again. And i think this part that he said is important too, cuz as life goes on, people's thoughts and ideas change as we gain experience. So i think you don't have to be too set on one idea in life, do it like Kanakana does, set a age target and ask yourself again about it then. Also, about not wanting to live and thinking it's selfish of others to ask of you to live on. You might have looked down on how much people actually can care for you, you know... Although, i still think it's entirely your choice, but since you're given the gift of life, why not just try to live it to the fullest till the end? I mean we'll never know when the end is, but i think living it out is the best way to thank the world for giving you the gift of life and also to thank the people who care about you for being there for you. Also, living a life of as little regrets as possible would be great too. If you ever feel lost, take your time to get back on track. See either a professional or a spiritual guide who can help you. This is coming from someone who thinks about killing herself too 😃 I've been both the person asking others to stay and the person who wants to go as well

[@MUI69420]

Yeah Just Its not the End when you reach a Certain Age of your life. Maybe Having a Family Would Made a Drastic change of Perspective wise.

[@henloworld514]

agreed! we don’t know what comes after this life so all we can do for now is live on, so why not live the best we could want for ourselves without stressing too much about death and the afterlife?

[@moonsys]

Let us die young or let us live forever.

[@dingleberry1242]

Death is present for a reason. Life has no meaning when there is no death

[@kuranokyonshi]

@@dingleberry1242 But does it even have a meaning with death?

[@dingleberry1242]

@@kuranokyonshi yeah it does, it is similar to a deadline of some sort. People who just can find meaning in death probably is going through some problems right now and i dont have them for it,

[@foottoast4235]

@@dingleberry1242 no, life has no meaning even with a "deadline" that just sounds stressful even if there was a meaning ngl

[@dingleberry1242]

@@foottoast4235 you do you bud, either way i dont care if some people dont think life has meaning because im taking all my chances to make my life worth living

[@Zei33]

I always told people I had a shotgun plan for 50. I think 30 is too young. 50 seems like a nice full life at the end of the day.

[@pite9]

I can't relate at all. I have so many things I want to do and not enough time. I think putting so much value to youthful beauty is childish and superficial. The prime of your life is not when you're aged 25 or whatever, but it's when you are at your best. Lize was correct in saying that it's the mindset of an actress, because the prime of their career is in their 20's. But even if you're an actress I believe that you shouldn't see this as your prime, but rather as your time of privilege. Just because it gets harder beyond that, it doesn't mean that you can't improve as an actress or find some other passion. Some of us may not reach our prime until 50, it depends. It's important to try our best so we don't waste opportunities. I wasted my early 20's, because I was insecure about being able to do what I wanted to do, rather than just going for it. I deeply regret that. Dreams doesn't go away unless you've given them a proper shot. Tonikaku Yare!

[@NoxSuperNova]

I also wasted my 20's and I kind of regret it, but I'm still not that old so instead of lamenting about it I might as well do the things I need to do.

[@nonelikeearl3554]

This man scares me sometimes

[@MUI69420]

Yeah smh. I Really Enjoyed the content he Provides for his Viewers. and to see such a Talented person Have that Kind of Thought Process Made me Feel Weird somehow.

[@dj.blackstar]

I remember casually texting my youngest sister that if I were to ever become mentally handicapped to just pull the plug. She just laughed it off and said ok and that was the end of a 2 message conversation. I don't remember what exactly was going on in my mind at that time, but I just remember thinking that I have to let someone know "just in case". So I can relate on the whole "being a burden" thing. You're not even really alive at that point imo. I don't agree with everything else though. I'm in my mid 20s and I can still do backflips and other things that people who are younger than me can't and might never be able to do. You don't have to be afraid of being alone when you become comfortable with it. There is so much more to life than just physical youth. I still feel like I'm growing and learning and idk if I'll ever stop. If you peak at 30 then that's kind of your choice. I know some people who didn't find the love of their life at 40, who didn't accomplish their dreams until 40, etc. Age is just a number imo, you're as young as you feel. "I feel 80," says the edgy middle schooler. Edit: I will agree with his "I will do my best for now and not worry about until it comes." It is too optimistic to assume things will get better later. Things won't magically fall in to place, you have to put in effort. And like she said, "you can pick and choose all you want." Inevitably though it's not always up to you though. Tomorrow a drunk driver might cross your path, etc. Thinking about something like that just brings negativity to your mind, not really worth thinking about. Just try your best for now and like Kanae said maybe when you hit that age you'll change your mind. Life is full of surprises. I'm sure you have some stories to tell like every one else.

[@MagiaBased]

I respect that but I don't want to live if my body doesn't work anymore so I understand kanae

[@nemesis9261]

If he dies people is gonna be like *idk if cry or laugh*

[@MUI69420]

Just Accept the way he Wanted to End His Life And Let him Do what he thinks Was the Correct answer for him to Keep on Trying to Solve this Weird Puzzle full of Mystery Called Life.

[@ton4906]

I remember hearing a quote about "Die while being beautiful" or something like that, and Kanae talks remind me of that.

[@rayyymwah]

kanae and i are so similar its crazy how much i can understand and relate to his way of thinking esp with this topic haha

[@winter9348]

aaahhh so that's why i like Kanae, we had the same way of thinking

[@バナナお爺さん]

Actually, I say this kind of mental state is quite ok for me, because it makes you subconsciously strive to live to the fullest when you have the most resources. Meaning that Kanae actually appreciates everyday of his life, unlike a lot of people who only think about living a long life but has actually 'died' in some sense during some stage of their life. I like Kanae's view of life and death

[@celesteee9312]

His eyes feel like it get darken a bit in my mind since he talked about that.

[@shi1883]

Everyone's either talking about how they share the same thoughts or how the mood is dark but all I can say is basically Kanae is speedrunning life lmao. "I definitely don't want to be killed." no wonder he's so good in battle royale lmao.

[@kouen4227]

I'm not saying I'm in favor completely to what he's thinking...specially when it comes to suicide.... it's worrisome but at the same time I kinda feel amazed. He is someone living his life, may be not to the fullest but at atleast the way he wanted to. He's brave to actually think of something what usually people think of as a joke. He's saying things about dying because he's serious about living. i dont know if I make sense. I'm worried but at the same time amazed. I truly admire Kanae and even from the shadows, unknown by him, I wanted go give him my full support. :')

[@venirica4622]

For some reason i don't want him to age now 😦

[@chris-sy6cu]

i thought this was part of his lore and after reading these comments i’m stressed

[@MUI69420]

Same lol I Didn't even know this type of Weeb who was Deppressed as fuck Actually exist.

[@N02cik]

Ikr Im actually scared rn he is in his late 20's 💀

[@Twertyuu]

@@N02cik you know his age?

[@Twertyuu]

@@esmee1865 I think yashiro was around 28/29? And Maimoto & Rikichi was around early 30s? Do it gets pretty confusing. But i guess he should be around the age you mentioned.

[@rosl.]

This is.. the best i saw someone explain it is as bittersweet. Whenever i think of this topic my feelings are always contradictory but they like, i see his point. It's, bittersweet.

[@hombre6604]

I know people think this is a joke but honestly speaking, it’s quite an unhealthy thought to have. As in that kind of thinking might cause someone to live their life recklessly because they’re afraid of being left behind and feeling lonely. I sincerely hope he got the help he needed if this is really what he thought of himself

[@lqfr8813]

viewers might get entertained by vtubers talking to each other until you realized many of them are mentally depressed ppl

[@arneyd1793]

the first time i watched this, i wasn't exactly able to understand what he meant but now i think i can actually understand and relate to it, it's some sort of wanting to preserve your youth, when you're the strongest and healthiest (in most cases), the feeling of getting old is not the best feeling after all, it's the 'want to do fun things now and when i feel old enough i wanna go' kind of thought

[@Criticalcinary]

The weak don't get to choose where he dies so live a happy and healthy life

[@freeexp8233]

it's better to burn out than fade away huh..

[@Toru-desu]

Kanae is really unique.

[@braincellgenocide9553]

Lets be thankfull hes not in a rush

[@iamelevin6432]

Live happy and beautiful Kanae.

[@N02cik]

When you die everything is over you know- I beleive killing yourself is still killing a person so Its one of the biggest sins. I hope as he grows older his mentality changes. This clip made me really really scared TT no matter the age, living is living and the world is the same world kanae !

[@Yu-uk9nu]

don't die young kanae huhuhuhu

[@kharyllenicolas8033]

Hmmm, in this video, we can conclude his real possible age. >From here he was 25 (30-5) >From the 2020 christmas stream he just mentioned to kuzuha (if I have translated correctly) only up to the next 4 years stream. >In the stream with the lie detector machine with Akina (the part where they announced the 800m yen anual salary) he said he's 24. This was 2 months after his birthday. So in 2021 he will be 25-26

[@kharyllenicolas8033]

If he was trolling about his age this whole year i guess he lies within a certain range of numbers, like he lives through it whenever he is within the avatar (eventhough he didn't care much about his character)

[@kharyllenicolas8033]

The english translate has "I'm in my early 20's" that makes things confusing

[@savagetothebones1642]

And that is why family is so important, because it gives you a reason and purpose to live on in this world.

[@persephonepomegranate9652]

When you thought it's just a meme answer but it's actually really deep and makes very much sense

[@heaven.3031]

My man is a pessimist through and through.

[@hangtang1210]

it's kinda despressing to hear him saying something like he wants to commit suicide, though I'm not sure he's being serious or not. Hope he will get over this phase of despression in early 20s (yes, I somehow feel with him too since I used to have suicide tendency around 2-3 years ago)

[@setoman1]

I've never seen another person who shares my view on life. I am surprised.

[@グリゴリ]

wait I just saw date of the clip, 4 years ago, huh

[@thanglongnguyenvu3815]

So basically, this dude is the epitome of carpe diem

[@jisulunn8427]

kanae : i want to kill myself the chat：草草草草草

[@NoxSuperNova]

It's kinda funny how Elize tries to make a joke everytime Kanae ends a sentence to lighten the mood but Kanae just goes on lol

[@metallickandy]

I got spooked by thumbnail but then Kanae swept those feelings away.

[@catpaws1913]

Kinda relatable. I used to set a time limit on my life so that I think that I could just disappear anytime as a coping mechanism, nothing could hurt me since I can just go anytime I want. In the end I found out it was because I didn't trust myself at all. I didn't trust that I could handle the future or handle anything that comes my way. I felt like I could die and just get a new lease on life, dreaming about how I could retain my memories or something so life gets easier :') I didn't know how heavy those thoughts were. I just thought I was fulfilled in life and that I already know this is my limit so ending it within this time would be nice. But It's because my self esteem/ confidence is so damn low and that I was just scared of living.

[@CRAgamer]

Weirds me out that me and him have the same plans but his reasoning for it has a way more positive outlook. Strange world man.

[@omrizubary]

That Lize Avatar is so beautiful I like the blue on the hair it's like the sea and the white is so clean just wow

[@Tactavious]

Can't wrap my head around this one, sorry.

[@l_m_a_o_]

Maybe you're just not depressed enough ＼(＾▽＾)／ ┐(︶▽︶)┌ I'm kind envious of you people who like living so much, if so life must be great, hahaha . . .

[@user-ux4bv9gb5j]

kanae doesn't see worth in living longer,he wants to die freely without anything tackling him(is that how u say it?eng's not my mothertongue)--like "natural death" or sickness due to age.he also said he doesn't want to be killed,that's why he came into a conclusion that he wants to kill himself

[@aouie1246]

same

[@Fenrirknight7]

Extremely dark talk followed by happy outro.

[@mustaqimm2006]

:(( this saddens me

[@zackunme4772]

Ah Samurai Kanae showing his samurai spirit

[@chomco07]

MOOD but like man r u okay? i-

[@yuya5752]

I think in the same way, probably in 1 or 2 years. I really don't want to be older

[@marklll4426]

Ive alays been so afraid of dying of old age *I HAVE FOUND MY PHILOSOPHY IN LIFE* He truly is kanae-sensei

[@lins_z2]

I wouldn’t want Kanae to kill him self :’) But I kinda can relate. I want to do the things that I want to do, draw them stories that I want to draw and then I’d feel that it is okay to die. Even now, I think it would be okay for me to die, but I would much rather finish what I want to accomplish and then die. Reap the results of my hard work? Mmm... I don’t know. But dying that way doesn’t sound that bad. Although killing oneself is hard and requires a lot of effort. I wish I could just die a painless death by that time, kinda hard to ask for xD

[@MUI69420]

Yeah in the end Game There is No Such as Good ways to Death, Both are just The same but With Different Variation of Thought Process put into it. But i Respect his Choices and His Determination to Being Himself is just Amusing to watch and i Enjoy Kanae's content A Lot!

[@dalefredeluces8840]

Yeah It's very Kanae-like

[@xiutie]

Yo mans really spoke my thoughts out there, if I'm going to die it's gotta be by my own hands