The Birthday Massacre - The Night Loop (Long Version)

[@Silentevil7]

Let's all meet up in that dark purple twilight world we all have secretly fantasized about all our lives when listening to TBDM.

[@xlink316]

I mediate to this and try to imagine I am there

[@caitlinthetoad9517]

@@xlink316 same!

[@caitlinthetoad9517]

and have done for the past 10 years

[@vallisdaemonumofficial]

🐇💜 *see you there* 💜🐇

[@tokyopp]

Awesome

[@Karoteeni]

I was there when this site launched. I was there when we had like 50-100 people listening TBM in my country and I was making shitty wallpapers for our very, very small community. Oh man this brings so many great memories.

[@GreenElixir]

I use to just sit on the site to listen to this. Such nostalgia

[@KryzysX]

Oh Lord... after all the years, this drags the past back from its grave, pulling me into an emotional whirlwind I can't escape.

[@angeltellez5276]

When I was younger my sister had a friend on myspace who had killed herself. I did not know this girl at all, but when I heard the story I cried for her. This was her last profile song and it will forever remind me of her existence even though I did not fully know her. I connected to her in spirit which was truly a beautiful thing. I never understood why someone would want to just leave like that, how they could slay themselves in a bathtub and wait for someone to find their empty remains. I was puzzled and confused at the idea. As I look back at my youngerself, it was really beautiful for me to be so confused with the idea, so bewildered and astonished. Now as I am growing older, I know pain and I know how it feels to want to end your life. I get bitter when people say it is selfish for those who are sad and dying within to kill themselves. It is truly selfish for us to ask someone to stay when they feel so hopeless, uncomfortable, depressed, lost, and alone. It is truly selfish to be angered instead of concerned or afraid when they feel suicidal. This is who they are. I never really thought about suicide until I was about fifteen. At a young age I had experienced a lot of things I could not deal with, death and sexual harassment, abandonment, etc. The time I really almost did it I cried so hard, partially because I was sad because I had to leave my home but also because I was extremely joyful that I was going to be free from all the pain this earth had caused me. If it wasn't for my friend at the time phoning me, I would have followed through. I think about it often and although I am happy outside, I am incurable within. This song makes me not only remember the sweet soul that has been lifted already, but it makes me remember mine. I am existing, I am living and I am trying to take in as much life as I can before I really can't control when I leave. I know someone will read this and feel the same way. This song gives me hope and makes me believe that both life and death are very beautiful things. Continue living, and try your hardest. Breathe in all of this wonderful life, all of these wonderful things. You know what life has to offer, but as for now you only know death offers silence. Take care of your precious little souls.

[@lovercraftmusic6214]

Some songs are perfect for deep rooted emotions. Suicide is tragic result of an illness and I'm sorry this beautiful song reminds you of an illness that led to demise. I truly am. I have this and so do many.. I also lost many this year to over doses, suicide, cancer, shit my best friend's sister was murdered this year... It's been hard to grasp a hold of. It has been the hardest year of my life actually. But we push on, you will push on. And we will all let the ones we love know we love them and try our best to be empathetic. I don't know who you are, but I am empathetic to you because we are one. And as old rock kid, I say live to make someone smile. It pays off. :) With love and empathy, WPC.

[@ASWV]

+Angel Tellez I'm really sorry for your loss. Sadly I've been also through it, I tried to leave this world multiple times, but in the end, when I grew up, when years passed by and all I saw was dark, I realized all that lay ahead. That I was not the problem in this world but the rest, that I can be able to do many things and to be better person for myself first and for the rest, and realized the value of small and simple things. Such as this piece of music. You realize of what you enjoy listening to it, while you're lying on the beach, in the forest or anywhere away from humanity and noise. You're in peace while seeing the stars, listening to this music or any other that makes you feel the same. It's pure magic. It takes you to another dimension, it relieves pain, makes you forget any problems, helps you find yourself... I know there are many difficult obstacles in this life that make you doubt if is worth it or not to go forward. But no matter how serious it is, you have to always think, this life is worth living to yourself, no matter why, no matter how long, just with everything around us, people who value us, no matter how little we have, It's enough. Or even be comfortable with ourselves, alone, that's already an accomplished goal.. The stars, the sky, clouds, trees, wind, birds, the sea, the universe... With all that, with all the beauty we have around us every day and we don't realize... I just trying to say that no matter how bad, sad, depressed we are, if you see that your life has no meaning, look for it in mother nature. She will find you and you will find yourself. For real. Use your time to see all that, to enjoy all that, and find the peace within yourselves. I think that this music really expresses it.. Life is worth it, thanks to music, to me at least :)

[@deirdreryan9289]

My brother killed himself six years ago. I had a nervous breakdown after that. My boyfriend really helped me heal through that. I know what it means to be so depressed that your worth is subverted in place of a haunted emptiness.

[@deirdreryan9289]

My only brother killed himself six years ago. It was one of the most difficult and sad times of my life. Sometimes a darkness sweeps over me until I lose all my senses to utter nonsense.

[@ianmata1998]

This is how the world is? A "night loop"?

[@Rye_]

Takes me back to a familiar place. Dark, but warm and beautiful and comfortable.

[@Bhethar]

When I was in my teens I used to suffer from insomnia and depression. I somehow managed to get the mp3 version of this song and would listen to it while walking in the park alone at 4 in the morning. There is something almost supernatural about this song.

[@Mortensenx]

I also did something similar 😊

[@Fire-Toolz]

oh its supernatural alright.

[@Mortensenx]

@@Fire-Toolz yes :P

[@livialancini3211]

Still here in 2021, remembering how much time I spent on The Birthday Massacre website around 2008, dreaming about the Universe, the Cosmos, and leaving this reality for a while.

[@ud0ntevenkn0wme]

Still here in 2024

[@livialancini3211]

@@ud0ntevenkn0wme Still here💜

[@JaimieRain]

I'm happy to see others have a strong nostalgia to this, I thought it was just me being weird. I didn't have internet at home in 2006, and would now and then stop at an internet cafe on the way home from work, and I would go to this site and leave the tab open for about 2-3 hours with this loop playing. I used to walk out of there and through the city afterwards like I was floating and had just been in heaven or the world from never ending story. It used to make me feel warm and make me misty eye'd. I'm so happy this is here now with those same visuals :)

[@Mortensenx]

[@ud0ntevenkn0wme]

Great reading music

[@ketchupkatsup9805]

i feel so warm listening to this like i have found home after wandering lost forever

[@NeinFeline]

Still grateful that this is around... I fall asleep to this, still, most nights where my mind is racing.

[@ixnexus]

This is beautiful. It's a shame most don't understand true beauty. This song explains the night.

[@codydutra7893]

This song is beautiful. I know that it eventually became "Red", "Black", and "Nowhere"...but it's better as one track in my opinion. Out of all their songs this one evokes the image of that perpetual violet twilight world with the most clarity.

[@tokyopp]

I remember leaving the website open for this song, I love everything about this band.

[@1113jace]

This is the best possible thing to listen to while reminiscing about the past.

[@MiaMooreViolin]

For those who didn't know, this song is named "Nowhere". It is a instrumental on their EP "Looking Glass" :)

[@cassetterescue2692]

This is still beautiful years and years later. Instant transportation to being up at 2 am discovering so many things online. The internet and modern life are very oppressive places these days. I yearn to be young and curious, wide eyed at 2 am.

[@devilscharmangelspray6547]

This music always makes me sad and cry thinking of the happy memories , the Autumn and winter nights listening to this 😢😢😊

[@inactive1205]

I'm 14 and only found this band around a year ago, so it's really a shame I wasn't able to see the website up and running. It seems amazing. Something about this particular loop just provokes a feeling of longing. It makes me want to be the silhouettes in those photos, wandering around in those purple forests unraveling whatever mysteries the world holds. Personally, I think this would be an AMAZING aesthetic for some sort of game. Simplistic and haunting.

[@bryanharrison3889]

And I remember, you could click the flashing stars!!!! Oh this is still the nest website after all these years.... tbdm really know how to capture the child's mind at any age and convey innocence with the simplest of music/visuals... they should win a Grammy an Emmy and an Oscar for this website and music.

[@ASWV]

To me, the best website for musicians that I ever have the previledge to enjoy it.. And I though it well about thinking about recording that... maybe was my intuition.. idk.. xD but the later year, they shut down the page, so.. I was lucky...to record it before the shutdown. I wish I could record more time of it, but even if its just 11 minutes, better this than nothing... for the memory and nostalgic ones like us haha.

[@bink]

Well they could've technically won a Grammy for this (although it's on a website, not an album) but Emmys are for TV and Oscars are for movies so that isn't possible.

[@JennhasADHD]

My bestest friend who lost her life to depression showed me TBM when I was 19. I used to listen to this on repeat on the website and draw! I miss my friend so f*king much. Im the keeper of us now. Thanks for uploading this.

[@mooseman1071]

I'm very happy you recorded and kept this. It's a beautiful piece. The Birthday Massacre is THE most underrated band ever to exist.

[@stuffedmannequin]

I'll never forget this website. I still remember going onto it all the time, my freshman year of high school in 2004, and just find myself escaping into its visuals and music. So beautiful, and so nostalgic for me.

[@KryzysX]

Hey, how are you...

[@stevez4975]

I can not wait for autumn i am going to play this in during a cool evening in a park or open field look up at the sky and think of my childhood

[@deirdreryan9289]

I will remember the good times I had in the past with my dead brother.

[@amber41202]

I remember four years ago I saw how many comments about this song being nostalgic were and moved on. After four years now, I feel the nostalgia so much now.

[@witchcandy3671]

This music lets me feel a place in my heart safe from other people, like a home I could wander there forever until I've forgotten my life altogether and became a part of it like the wind gently pushing through the trees

[@Shimamon27]

Every single thing that I encounter from this band just makes me love it further more! I hope I'll get a chance to say "hi" to them at least once in my life time.

[@VertegrezNox]

Thank you for saving this. Really miss the old website. & I still come back to this years later ^_^ love me some TBM ❤

[@ASWV]

U're welcome! hope you enjoy it as much as I do :)

[@Mimmyissocute]

@@ASWV do you have this backed up? Would be a shame for it to become LOST MEDIA

[@leahography1303]

I AM SO GLAD YOU HAVE THIS! I'm almost crying. I used to listen to this late into the with my first boyfriend, and it brings back so many memories :)

[@YusefRhymer]

Music like this is seems rare

[@michaelmcglowhawk8175]

Even more awesome is how so many people have the same reactions to this!

[@starwinksbackfromtheskypit6790]

Love the fact we all feel so much of the same from this beautiful sacrament of a song. Love you all.

[@kerzwhile]

Thank you SO MUCH for putting this up! You have No Idea how important and amazing this is to me... And a lot of us... This was hands down the best web site I have yet seen... and this was years ago...

[@JustGabe]

One of those songs with such a DEEP yet INTENSE beauty that you just can't help it but enjoy.

[@NICHOLEWILLIAMS123]

nice to hear something soo beautiful and relaxing..felt like i was really under the stars or meditating :)

[@stuffedmannequin]

This music and website make me nostalgic as hell. It transports me right back to the autumn of 2004, when I first discovered this band through this website

[@Arelae]

I was listening right now a ripped version of the web I made on those years...Then I thought, maybe....maybe someone uploaded it to the internet?? Oh yes, pure bliss... Thank you sir/m'am who did this. We're still connected. Have a nice day ;) P.D: Dieron un conciertazo en la Ritmo&Compás, recuerdas?

[@Irisfall7]

Ack! I'm so sad this site doesn't work! I never got to experience it as I was still inexperienced with delving into TBM's stuff. I'm sooooo glad you rec'ed and uploaded this!

[@stryker1999]

Thank you for sharing this. It drives me crazy that Birthday Massacre themselves or some fan group don't have the files to restore that site to its full glory, as popular as it was. I was crushed to find out that it was gone. This is the next best thing, and I can finally enjoy Nowhere - The Night Loop once more.

[@tubeloobsxo]

I naturally have trouble sleeping, but this sends me to sleep without fail. It's so peaceful! It makes me so nostalgic too :3. G'night :)

[@bryanharrison3889]

Is it odd that this has always been one of my favorite birthday massacre songs?

[@Mortensenx]

It is also one of my favorites 😊

[@TheAstradyne]

This is just great. It wasn't long enough on the album, and the added effects just enhance the track to the next level.

[@kpepisodes826]

TheAstradyne This was on an album? I thought it was one of those rare b-side tracks or something.

[@ASWV]

KPepisodes This song don't appear in any of their discs, was an background music that they put on their old website, which many people loved. I think they have an instrumental song with touches of this song, but is not the same.

[@kpepisodes826]

Ammy Wongraven Thanks, I'm aware it was background music to their old site, but that person said it was on an album (which was news to me) - as for the instrumental having touches of this song, I *think* you're talking about 'Nowhere' or 'The Spooky Loop'.

[@TheAstradyne]

KPepisodes It's on the expanded version of"Nothing And Nowhere". It's track 16 (last track on the CD. Sadly it only runs for 2:17.

[@TheAstradyne]

KPepisodes Having compared "Nowhere" and "Night Loop" they're both rather different mixes to one another. Both excellent, but I feel "Night Loop" is the more atmospheric of the two.

[@justingreilick5230]

Thank you for this.... And the extended version. 🎶✨💖✨🎶

[@ASWV]

Welcome :)

[@dacianavanprice]

This reminds me of my first appartment, back in 2004, I would put this website up while I would clean up. Best time ever! I miss those days, I wish I could feel like that again!

[@sockstorm]

Because when you’re alone you’re with everyone.

[@joshuadull4192]

I wish this could go on for an hour. Creates a perfect trance

[@lottie524]

Bless your soul 💜 I'm so happy you uploaded this!

[@Skybaby79]

This is so beautiful, my heart sings inside, closing my eyes, I feel such calm. Thank you so much.

[@Kyosume]

ahh i love you! i would sit on that site and just listen to hours and hours as it transported my mind and soul into a comfy place. Thanks for digging this treasure up.

[@AdrianSanchez031580]

To this day, this loop sets my mind at ease, late at night, when I use to be overstimulated by work and health issues. I hear it now and it triggers me the right way. I've missed it. Now, I am married and have a daughter, and this song brings a new meaning to my life... Let the night loop...

[@iannumanfanwright1743]

Miss this so much :(

[@Ratamahataable]

Yeah..yeah man, for my, i has my first big Love, exgirlfriend in 2006, when ive remember, i am always sad!!!!! And with my second love in 2010 to 2017. Jesus, love is immortality in our memories. \m/ Now think ive lost in this fucking crazy life, everebody are crazies!!!!! Like a stuck in the life......That melody is like a truly slowly dying in living....

[@sofacroproductions9213]

i was in high school. this website felt so secret and magical, an easter egg. a land we all fantasize about. i wish i we could all go back to simpler times.

[@joeytrevino7809]

Been looking for this! Thank you so much :)

[@GrimellaBlackrose]

I was just going to ask if there was an even longer version and there it is! Thanks for offering it as a download!

[@teacupalice]

I used to come to this website a lot during the myspace years, I’d have it going in the background whilst talking on msn or some shit

[@Maulyr]

You have 110% made my night by preserving this. Thank you so much.

[@CynthVoX]

Much agreed... this is one of the only pieces of music that I can constantly fall asleep too... a very Imagica inspired lullaby.

[@KrissieFox]

I love listening to this...takes me to such a peaceful place...reminds me that i can feel...for lack of a better word.. that "magical" feeling still, even after all the anxiety attacks, depression, panic, guilt, and emptiness resulting from that terrible experience a couple of years ago...

[@ragnarvankarel6139]

I really hope you're doing well, now...

[@spirktrekker362]

This is one of the most beautiful pieces of music I have ever heard.

[@cosmicmoon2012]

Ever since I heard it on the n&n website main screen, I always come back to this song for art inspiration 💜💙💜💙🌌🌛

[@x-menfan5581]

Ethereal and unworldly. They sure got 80s childhood fantasy music down, i think.

[@hersha6761]

Shakespeare, wrote A Midnight Summers Dream. This loop makes me think of it.

[@VashDraven]

You're a legend for this AS WV.

[@darkangelss6sic6]

One of my most favorite and beautiful songs ever

[@ahsophie09]

i really love this, you did amazing work with it. i cant find this song anywhere. thank you, just wish i could download it

[@spydercold]

And BTW...what a fantastic job you did with the vid and effects!

[@Mortensenx]

Thank you so much for uploading this so beautiful!

[@TheAlakayLion]

Phew... Can't get enough of it. It declassifies all my inner feelings, either bad or good. ~Alakay

[@StatikV87]

So relaxing/nostalgic.

[@ASWV]

No problem ^^ they're one of my favs too

[@davidsinatel]

they're so creative, this is very very relaxing

[@saraha1903]

One of the most beautiful things i have ever heared !!!!

[@KRY5ALIS]

Totally entranced. I find myself staring out into the cosmic void.

[@vaastdovahkiin635]

When i listen this song, i feel powerful again, in my soul, on Earth with each other and inside all the fucking cosmos of mine. I know it's strange. I'm ready to die, inner peace, fear of nothing, ready to afterlife if then...

[@mindrelaxation7590]

this is so soothing!well done!

[@SunsetGirlify]

Thank You for instrumental version very much!

[@AndyMcKagan]

Thank you for this great Track!

[@rafalserafin9655]

beautiful

[@you8786]

This music made me feel so emotional that i almost cried i went to text my aunties because i havent texted them in a while lol I think i want to let all my family and relatives know that i miss them and love them more than often Maybe more than usual This song is really dark, it reminds me of the past, i don't want the loneliness of the past to follow me to the present. I'm tearing up 😞

[@ASWV]

Yeah, It's so relaxing...I love it.

[@elbastardodeltitan7111]

My beautiful nightmares i live with you... 💜

[@morbid2657]

Beautiful, dark, mystical....amazing song.

[@lottie524]

This music is like my security blanket.

[@pitrat03]

I use to turn this on all fall asleep also, glad to see I wasn't the only one. Is this site gone now? It's been years.

[@SimplyFelix]

Thank you so much!

[@davidn7sr352]

God I love this so much!

[@hellogary11]

Have always loved this music...

[@lottie524]

This is something I wish I could wake up to every morning...

[@DavidWheeler85]

I miss going to this site, when nobody knew about this band. It was like my own little secret treasure. I miss their old sound :( . I know bands have to evolve but i think they put out too many albums too soon, and they lost what they had with their first 3 albums. They lost the fantasy, soundscape aspect that made them original.

[@thatguynamedfausto]

After pins and needles they went too much into metal in my opinion. Don't get me wrong, they're good and it's not like I don't like metal, but it dosn't have what their first albums had. Don't know, some magnetizm or something

[@AnakaStar]

I miss this website. It started my love for TBM.

[@shineliveanddie]

God, loved this website. :)

[@galileo]

I'll never forget you, Johnny.

[@OhHeckNono]

Guys! the page is available again in all it's glory!

[@Akutikun]

Oh the memories.

[@HunterRemington]

Best sleeping music ever.

[@Myhorrorstory55]

Love this

[@luisbonilla1734]

2020.... anyone?

[@ASWV]

2020 and always

[@JuneWestfield]

@@ASWV same 💜

[@ASWV]

Thanks ;)

[@titoalvarez7137]

hermoso más que perfecto

[@pinkThund3r]

i remember when i first when on their website, i would leave it on that page and let this song play...

[@HalcyonxTeatree]

The sound of midnight rendezvous somewhere secret 💙

[@malchiem]

still vibing in 2024