OFF TO THE PSYCH UNIT!

[@chriswills1985]

We’ve got you Pixi. We will be right here when you get back. Take as much time as you need. *To all Crewmates: PLEASE keep engaging with both channels. Rewatch everything, go back and like them all, comment, share. All hands on deck guys! *

[@anidiquaojala1804]

got it mate, well done 😊

[@Sharon-Carrell]

Will do!!

[@thecrapgoth]

Thankyou SO much!!! This means more than I can say

[@NRJIID]

Pixi. You and Kori are Warriors. I didn't realize 'til after he passed - he helped to build a Tribe to walk with you after he left this planet. We are here to support you in every way possible. Love and Light.

[@stephaniesyck5507]

That's beautiful! And exactly right we r here for u Pixi!!!💜💯

[@rscholastica]

Yes! Kori's light will continue to shine through the lives of those he touched. And we'll keep lighting your path, Pixi - just like you helped Kori to light ours.

[@thecrapgoth]

You all have no idea how much this means to me honestly. I don't know think I'd have come this far without you all x

[@oceanpier]

There's no time- line for grief, unfortunately the failing NHS set these unattainable criteria because there's so many people needing assistance and /or just ignorant policies. Of course, it goes without saying you should have a safety net with everything you've been through with Kori over such a long period of time, ESPECIALLY,as you have underlying trauma and mental health issues. You SHOULD have,without doubt,NOT have to fight for help or highlight how difficult life is right now. It's inhumane to treat people like they don't matter, or are not as unwell as they say they are, or gaslit etc etc. I hear you and I'm glad you are getting support. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@grmpEqweer]

Being in a hospital kind of sucks, but if you need to go, you go. You're a sweetheart. The world needs you.❤

[@thecrapgoth]

I definitely don't feel like a sweetheart but thankyou for being kind x

[@LittleSuzi86]

Yes Pixi you are loved!💜we care🩷Warm Hugs🧸

[@amberandrews6842]

​@@thecrapgothyou ARE a sweet heart. You are going through very difficult painful experiences. I am thankful you are seeking help.

[@GlamourGirl1045]

Yes! Pixi’s sweetness shines through her eyes and you can literally hear it in her voice! 💗

[@miss_b_and_my_pack]

You are a sweetheart, and ur beautiful inside and out. We're here for you Pixi. Sending mahoosive hugs and love. Thank you for sharing. I lost my ruby on the 5th July 2023, and I've cried everyday since. She was my special doggie, and I miss her so much. I've had a lot of loss this past 6 years, mainly doggies but also my dad ( I'm a dog walker so lost 9 over the rainbow bridge since I started my business. Stay strong my lovely. Big love 🐕💕

[@megsmith549]

Dearest Pixi, you have been living in Survivor mode for so long, and now that you have survived your brain doesn’t know how to adjust. I’m so glad that you asked for help when you needed it. I am sending you so much love, light, and healing.

[@susanketchen5755]

Absolutely agree with this x

[@thecrapgoth]

Thankyou, I had a HUGE cry last night and just broke my heart all over again. It's such unchartered waters and I feel utterly lost without my little Captain to guide me x

[@Sharon-Carrell]

@@thecrapgoth awww sweetie I can’t even Begin to Imagine what you’re going through! And There Are no Words that’s gonna help you right now and I know that so just know that you’re very much Loved and I’m continuing to pray for you! I’d like to send you a Huge Virtual Hug 🥰 right now bc I know words just don’t help sometimes but you Are Loved and just Know That!! Hugs and kisses and prayers from GA 🇺🇸 USA!!

[@loriru3135]

@@Sharon-Carrell Maine USA! We have a lot of love to share! 💞

[@Sharon-Carrell]

@@loriru3135 Yes we do!!

[@jughead8988]

I spent most of my career working as a mental health crisis manager for my home state that specialized in schizophrenic individuals. That with all the other issues you deal with on a daily basis I can't imagine how hard it would be to deal with loosing a child! Do what ever it takes to make you better. Your family needs you and you and Kori have changed so many people's lives. We love you and look forward to your videos. I pray you get all the help you need.

[@nonyasghost420]

You are so brave n tougher than you know! This proves it, bravo for taking the steps to care for yourself* All of my love to you and your family. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers* take all the time you need, love you and we will be here when you get back❤❤❤❤🫂🫂🫂

[@pearljan-A113]

Just because someone is strong doesn’t mean they don’t need to be taken care of. I’m glad you decided to get help. I hope you get better soon. Hugs and never give up.

[@heartscapesreiki1496]

"I have chosen myself..." Yes, thank you, sweet one, for choosing yourself, and for letting us in. My daughter (now 25) went through serious mental health struggles and suicide attempts when she was a teen. When she first asked me if she could go to a mental health hospital, I thought she was just attention seeking, and refused her. I was afraid, and just wanted her to snap out of it. But I was WRONG to not take her request seriously. Luckily, her therapist DID take her seriously, and sent her to hospital against my wishes. I am grateful to him for believing her when I failed her. She ended up having several stays there, and ultimately got the support she needed to choose herself. By sharing this story, you're helping others to choose themselves, and to support their loved ones to choose to be brave and supportive. I am so grateful to you, and I love you, and I am breathing with you as you choose yourself. We'll be here when you return.

[@anidiquaojala1804]

absolutely agree and thank you for putting in to words what I'd like to say to our beautiful Pixie 👿

[@offtarget1758]

Both of you have spoken the words in my heart. Thank you 🙏🏼

[@deelite27]

choosing yourself also means choosing your family. It's not selfish to put yourself first as you're no good to anyone if you're not mentally well and grieving and don't get support it will just get worse in the long run. We tend to compliment people who have been through trauma who carry on as normal as possible as being so strong, which almost implies often without meaning to that not being able to cope is somehow weak. Nothing could be further from the truth. True strength is realising you need to step back and get help. Give yourself grace and love Pixi you deserve it ❤

[@ivechang6720]

Thank you for recognizing and acknowledging when you failed. You having courage to share that can only help others more than it could harm imo. Thank you.

[@PattiGarner331]

There is that old adage “being alone in a crowd”…..and it’s very fitting at times.

[@waxhawcreek1717]

Wish I could give you a great big hug from across the pond.

[@greatlakesgirl7601]

Oh Pixie you sweet soul. You devoted so much of your life to taking care of Kori, now its time to take care of youself. Sending prayers for healing and comfort.

[@janet-leeedsuk2024]

You should, in an ideal world, be entitled to counselling from day 1 from your 12 year journey with Kori!! You're f'ing amazing sweetheart, a true warrior! Anytime that you struggle, take the time that you need. We want you to feel better, or at least as better as you can be under the circumstances! I used to see psych nurses, I called my fav, my Nutty Nurse. Humour is different for everyone, mine's quite dark from being ex Army. You do you!! Take care my fearless leader (lol!) and we will see you when you're ready!!xxx

[@sugarsore]

So interesting. I've been thinking about checking into a Psych unit, as well. I lost my mom to cancer in October 2023. The last two years of her life, I was her primary caregiver. Now, I'm alone. The last week has been awful. My anxiety is the highest it's ever been. I've barely eaten in five days. I haven't showered. I have no motivation to do anything. I'm going to call my doctor today and see if there is any medication that will help. Thank you for sharing this video. It helps me feel less alone.

[@brittanyphillips9157]

Sending you lots of love 💕

[@80sgirl9]

You have the right to be healthy & as happy as you can be. It's incredibly tough to be a caregiver for a loved one who is dying - your world shrinks down to you & them & their needs until they're gone. Then poof! It's rough - do what you need to do take care of yourself - you matter❤

[@KKonYouTube]

If you are thinking about it go ahead and talk to the hospital . You can trust your gut

[@kateashby3066]

I’m right there with you dear. Glad you reached out for help. I just made the call a few days ago too.

[@sugarsore]

Thank you all for your responses. They help.

[@KKW607]

That's unreal! When my fiance died, I started therapy after a month. Even if all you do is cry at the therapist you're doing something and it makes you feel like you're progressing and it gives you something to hold on to so you don't fall off the cliff. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. It would be unimaginable to lose a child.

[@georgia19801]

My best friend has been sectioned 9 times with Bipolar so l am familiar with mental health problems. I am so sorry you are struggling right now but you are such a warrior. We all have a point when we can’t take anymore and there is no shame in asking for help. Remember It doesn’t mean you are weak or a failure, you have lots of people around that care for you. Sending you lots of positive thoughts.

[@inlovewithhealth]

Sweet Woman!! You have shared so much with us. We love Kori, you, and your family. Thank you for the lives you are saving with your brave candor. Sending you lots of love and healing energy. Wrapping my arms around your heart.

[@wayner9765]

Pixie, you poor darling, nobody is making fun of you. And you are right. There is NO timeline for grief. I think you are the bravest, most caring human being I have ever met. Love and hugs to you from New Zealand. In my thoughts ❤

[@b_hartling]

thank you for sharing this Pixi. there is such a stigma around seeking in patient mental health care, even when it's needed, your openness can only help in breaking down those barriers. we're here with you.

[@thecrapgoth]

Thankyou SO much. I hate it here already though 😞

[@Rose-jz6ix]

@@thecrapgoth you need my D-I-Ls departed father. Very short & worked with seriously ill patients, he helped so many, but not himself. Rotten system gave him well over the limit for electric shock treatment. He sent hubby a remote controlled spider 🕷️ (before fostering my wonderful KL) & I received a spider in resin. At least he helped soldiers & emergency people to feel better. You don't have to like being where you are, you just have to get well. Pixi perhaps we put too much pressure on you. You are like a much younger sister or daughter since you are my son's age. You have let us love Kori & cry with you, love you & feel helpless to take away your pain, love John & see the love & caring between you two & share in Ebony & Ostarra as they grow & thrive. Bl**#y awesome parenting.

[@TheLauren87]

​​@@thecrapgoth I'm so sorry. I hope it's not horrible there. I hope you're not there long. ❤❤❤

[@amberandrews6842]

Amen.

[@paolausai6910]

So sorry that you hate it there, try to be strong , you are not alone. Love you❤

[@SquidgeTastic]

nobody could be stronger, and this is another kind of strength. like you said, no shame, only love. Sending you so so much more. Huge hat off to you for taking what you need. xx

[@amisguidedgh0st]

❤ true!!!

[@maryfreyre3170]

I am so glad you have support. You have been through so much……

[@emiliajanus4328]

Darlin’, you are completely done in! No one can sustain this level of cortisol and not shut down at some point. You are a warrior mum and you will continue to be, but you also need help to carry on. Just listening for two minutes on this video, I am blown away by all you have seen and experienced. The fact that you are still standing is incredible. Please take that brave step to put yourself first, get treatment and do your best to carry on. You have thousands of people sending you such good will and healing energy. Use it to keep going. We love you!

[@tinaevans6311]

Get well soon Pixie 🌹🙏🕊😊❤🙏🙏🙏🕊💕

[@ellenpapuga7469]

It's the best thing Pixi. What mother wouldn't be at their breaking point after what you've been through. I'm so glad you're getting help. Love and hugs to you!❤

[@JSpoto-gy1qg]

Pixi, I admitted myself to hospital 4 times.. I took bunch of pills. You will be ok. I give you credit, for realizing, you are feeling well! It is scary, takes courage to get help. You MUST take care of you! I know, it's a difficult journey. But, you will be ok I think, its brave, to get help. Please, go to hospital, for bit. It won't be too long. It is best thing. Your other children need you! Love & many hugs from U.S. Thank you, for sharing. You will be able to cope. Much ❤ love ❤❤❤😂❤❤

[@Kinypshun]

I can't begin to imagine your pain, or what it must take to process this loss. I do know this: You are a beautiful, beautiful soul, who is loved.

[@MaryMary.247]

Sending you so much love and light, strong lady. You got this! Thank you for bringing awareness. Focus on getting better. We're all be here waiting for you. 🙏✌💜

[@thecrapgoth]

That means SUCH alot honestly x

[@mindydyer7483]

You are so strong and beautiful, and you are a true warrior who inspires people. You are in many peoples heart. We are behind you 100%. Sending love and prayers to you and your family.❤

[@soniasurija8880]

Dear Pixi it takes a strong person to ask for help, now it’s your turn to be looked after, take one day at a time, we are all sending you lots of healing thoughts & vibes ❤

[@valorieh3919]

@Pixie, as past grief therapist, I 100% agree that therapy is optimal to start when you learn the diagnosis. much love to you! sometimes people find the horrible emotional pain can be transformative as we move through it as gently as possible. wishing you to find the inspiratoin you have given to so many. peace to you.

[@ArtisticallyArranged]

My Dad was killed in a motorbike accident too, when I was 15 and I have never recovered from it and I have also lost friends to suicide and most of my family have passed away. Depression, anxiety and suicidal ideation are always part of my life, so I understand to some extent what you are going through. Whenever I reach that kind of low, I try to remind myself how much it would hurt my daughter if I left her. It's not easy to stay, but it's what we have to do for our family. Sending you loads of love Pixi and I hope that this time away will be a huge help to you in the end. 💗

[@wendychloe]

I am so, so sorry you are struggling, am very thankful you recognized you needed help. Now is the time to take care of you, and heal yourself. Whatever you need to do, however long. What is amazing to me is that even during your worst times, you were thinking of helping others…sharing your story to even help one person who might be going through similar circumstances. YOU AND YOUR VOICE MATTERS, PIXI.

[@traceylynne158]

Sending you peace, love and strength 💕🌺

[@singingwordwright148]

I wish you the best, Pixi. I know it's not the same, but my teenaged son has been going through some severe psychiatric issues the last year. There's been self harm, sometimes done to punish me when he gets angry with me, other times just being very verbally and emotionally abusive, and not only have I been his primary focus when he's lashing out, but a lot of the heavy lifting with regards to managing his care has been on me. As a result, I'm really struggling and traumatized, and a few days ago after he had another meltdown and behaved abusively toward me, hacking off my hip-length hair with a pair of kitchen shears at 4 AM was the least destructive of my impulses. So, my hair is now shorter than it has been in my life. I really frightened by spouse, and started wondering if I needed to be in a therapeutic setting and away from home. There's no way I could get that at my current level of risk here in the U.S., but it was a wakeup call for me and my spouse that we needed to make caring for my mental health a higher priority than it has been previously. Good on you for taking the steps to get the treatment you need. I know Kori would be proud of you.

[@SheCat1964]

That has happened to so many of our teens since covid. My youngest daughter 14 at the time, also became a stranger after i nearly died from covid. Part of me thinks she shut her emotions off so she did not have to deal with what she thought was going to be a loss. I am now evil in her eyes. Im pretty sure she has BPD. Yes it all started with self harm too. Wishing you luck and strength.

[@susanketchen5755]

My mum went through the same with me unfortunately, it can get better though, it has a massive impact on family members, sorry you're having to go through this x

[@nanna-allday6910]

Love you Pixie, So proud of your strength to ask for help ... And your Strength to share .. Here for YOU Girl..💕

[@syllabub511]

To speak out so openly on this topic when you yourself are in a crisis is admirable. My mum has similar mental health issues and she struggles to accept help. You're doing the right thing. Hang in there and do what you need to get to a better place ❤❤❤

[@ABCbandgeek]

Wishing you and your family the best during your journey of grief and healing. Please know that strangers around the world care about you.

[@sj6546]

Sending love, strength , and healing ❤❤❤

[@cjcurtis8944]

I am so glad you have support! You have had way more than your share of hard shit. You are such a gift to this world and you’re changing the world and helping people more than you could possibly know. You are literally saving lives with this video and Kori would be so proud of you. I cannot imagine any one of your followers, or Kori’s, that would dream of laughing at you for your mental health struggles. You are correct that people should be able to get help for grief immediately. Sending so much love.

[@dawnchute7449]

Oh sweet Pixi .. I am sending so much love and light to you! Please know that you are loved.. gentle hugs..

[@silverghostcat1924]

It is such BS that some system somewhere in it's infinite wisdom, thought leaving you and your six year old daughter with your grief for six months was a good idea😱🤯. I hope now that you've both passed their arbitrary time line, you can both get the much needed mental health care you need. Sending much LOVE&LIGHT from TX 🖤🩷🦇🩷🖤 I'm so sorry you've had to live such a long term trauma Pixi. I'm so very sorry you lost your Darling Captain Kori. I wish I could reach through the screen and give you the biggest hug. I'm so sorry that John and Ostarra have had to feel such grief as well. May you all find help and peace. 🩷🩷🩷

[@alishac5096]

Honestly it’s just CRUELTY especially in a case like this with prolonged progressive illness and a prolonged grieving process. This blows my mind that they couldn’t see past the written rule to Kori’s family enduring their grief before during and after his passing. Pixi is strong but they’re taking that for granted like she should have to endure at the level she did for Kori’s sake so he could have his Mum every day of his life. She did that, for HIM, to expect her to sit with it for six months alone without exception is insanity. I hope they see this video and read the comments because it strikes me that losing anyone under the age of 20 is also going to be particularly acute for any parent and minor siblings as well.

[@sleepytigress4535]

So sorry for your suffering love. I have many struggles myself. You don't have to be strong all the time. You have so much grief and trauma to deal with. Light and love.

[@eirintowne]

You are such s fantastic role model, Pixi! Asking for help is extremely hard, especially when the reason is that your mental health is too overwhelming to handle on top of the bottomless loss you have suffered!

[@ChimeraTruely]

Mama, you & your family have walked the fire coals over the last years & these holidays. I'm so impressed with how you have gracefully handled this. I am in awe of the strength it took to understand that you needed help, & are kick ass enough to say "I need help!" If there is anything we can do to help you fight for the help you need. Please let us know

[@piesusan17]

❤❤❤Much love, Pixie. Reiki healing, light, and love sent. ❤❤❤

[@thecrapgoth]

Thankyou ❤

[@bessieknox]

​@@thecrapgothJohn, if Pixi needs anything you let us know right away and we will make sure you get what you need!! We are sending nothing but prayers and best wishes your way to you and your family!💞💞💫🙏

[@Velvetnoirestar]

Sending you good health and love.We’re right behind you, we’ve got your back ♥️🇦🇺🌻

[@christymalloy2421]

Thank you for sharing. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of love and care to you all.

[@nataliegraham9552]

Pixi, you're always in my heart along with John and the kids, but especially now. My family has plenty of experience with trauma and serious mental health challenges so I feel for what you're dealing with. I'm so proud of your strong, determined spirit that has brought you this far. You may not feel like that describes you, but anyone who can nurture and reach out to the light of another day has my gratitude. It's so overwhelmingly exhausting to make that choice to not only stay, but ask for assistance. I will be praying that your impatient stay will get things lined up for less struggle and an even keel navigating your days after you are home. Big virtual hugs to all of you from here in Summerville South Carolina. 💞

[@thunderrage1]

Applause for you Pixie! You are brave. You are strong. We are all proud of you for taking this step. Thank you for sharing your journey. I will never know your pain as I do not have children but I can appreciate what you are going through. Prayers to you, your family, puppies and Kori and know that he is with you every step of the way. Much love!

[@glo3139]

What parent can HONESTLY live through that, and come out “ok”? I know for a fact, no doubt in my mind, that I couldn’t deal. God Bless You and your family darling. My heart, my prayers, my thoughts are with you. I completely understand the grieving process. I’m still enduring it, losing 2 immediate family members in what will be 5 years. You have not only lost the one you love, but your daily routine and sense of purpose. There is NO SHAME in reaching out for and seeking help. The only shame, would be NOT TO DO Just That!!! Others rely on us. Others still need us. I know. I understand. No one can experience and FULLY understand YOUR pain. That is unique to you. God Bless you sweetheart. Prayers and Peace, my Dear!! ♥️🙏🙏♥️❤️🥹♥️🙏🙏🙏

[@leehamilton8344]

💜💜💜🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻Sending you love, hugs, prayers and wishing you peace and comfort. Love and hugs to the family.

[@kateashby3066]

Pixi I am in recovery from borderline PD, and I’ve recently had a setback after making good strides. And I can’t seem to pull myself out of it. Thank you for you ur video. You are not alone honey and it reminds me that I’m not either. I feel like I should also be checking back in… but I’ll see what happens. I at least found a therapist to walk me through this crap. Sending you all my love. I’m proud of you ❤

[@Bythaway564]

Keep being strong. You're doing amazing things in your recovery. Sounds like you have a wonderful support system. I adore you 💛

[@mosaicgirl4002]

Darling “ Nutty Cow” you are SO wonderful. Such a brave, brave woman. You relax now, Darling & get well❤❤❤🌞

[@mommabetts5914]

I am glad you are getting the help. Be gentle with yourself

[@dilafng]

Sweet Pixi, I am sending you so so so much love!!! I’m glad you are getting the help you need, and I hope you will get out of hospital very, very soon. You have thousands of people praying for you, and you have angels in heaven looking over you. Be brave, sweet mum. 🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@Evaleastaristev]

Pxi, I have been so very worried about you for the past six months. I am so proud of you for taking care of yourself. So much love to you, and I hope that you can find what you need.

[@justlaura6007]

💚Pixi, you do have an important purpose. Your shared experiences and openness reaches others who maybe wouldn’t seek help. Love to you. Keep pushing on and filling this world with your love and grace💚

[@bellememorie]

Lots of love and healing to you Pixi. 💜💜💜💜

[@cheryl83]

There is no definitive grieving period. You've been through an enormous amount of trauma, and I applaud your honesty and your decision to see to it with professional help. Blessings to you, Pixi. You have lots of people behind you, wishing you nothing but the best. 💙

[@kathrynimhoff344]

Aww, Pixi. You have always amazed me with your beautiful spirit and strength. Go and take care of yourself. You need to heal. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[@christinedavis2728]

Thank you for sharing all this with us. You are so brave and strong. All my love is with you through all of this. ❤

[@NursissisticOfficial]

I'm so glad you reached out, love. You are stronger than any person should ever have to be. Sending so much love from across the pond.

[@liserjones8465]

I have just come out of crisis so my heart breaks for you and your loved ones! One of my nurse angels told me I was at the bottom of a deep, dark pit and their job was to throw down a ladder and help me climb out - each rung was a different therapy. I have that picture on my desktop to remind me that there is always help if I need it so I don't think of the S word. Thank you so much for sharing this - you are a hero x

[@jenniferballswitchhouse37]

Sending you ALL so much love!! ❤❤❤ We’ll be here for you. ❤️❤️❤️

[@stephaniegentryart]

Pixi I have so much admiration and respect for you and your message to the world. It absolutely is ok to ask for help. Thank you for sharing this with us. Sending you lots of love and well wishes.

[@lenaonmealways4193]

My prayers for you Pixi...wishing you love and light. 🙏❤️

[@katjathefranknfurter2374]

Dear Pixi, it's actually a superpower to be able to ask and accept help. You take care of yourself. I've been there and I know how important it is to be able to do that. I'm glad you have have a support system to turn to. You've been fighting so much over the years. Now take the all the time to take a much needed timeout and let someone else help carry you through this. I hope you find yourself a life of your own and with John. You got this and please take the piss anytime you want. All the love to you and Spanky and the rest of the Crew!

[@Lurkey-Loo]

Go rest and heal dearest Pixi! We will be right here when you are ready. Love you girl!

[@michelegaeta-stolz]

Sending lots of love & hugs!

[@waiting4teatime]

You’re so important right now. You need to take care of you. Will be thinking of you and sending light and love. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🥰🫶🏼

[@chesneymigl4538]

Sending love from Texas, USA. I know it doesnt mean much but you help. Just existing on youtube, talking about the reality of mental illness, helps me to feel less alone.

[@Deneen-ey2zh]

We love you Pixi! I'm so glad you're taking care of yourself. You deserve all the best! Sending love and healing energy.

[@jenniewren9351]

Well done for being so honest with your true feelings. So much of social media is a facade with ‘instagrammable’ backgrounds etc. I’ll be praying for you. I don’t think there’s such a thing as normal grief.

[@stevedodge3816]

Hang in there Pixie. You and your family are always in my heart.

[@NicoleHasADHD]

You are SO brave. The epitome of strength is knowing your limits. Thank you for sharing openly and honestly. It matters. Love you and see you soon!

[@katyarb5745]

Prayers for you Pixi!! Thank you for sharing! You are such a bright light, keep shining!!

[@charmzpix]

Take care of yourself, you've been through a whole lot. Hang in there girly. You are loved.

[@AlleGratilla]

Sending all support ✨️🌙❤️‍🩹

[@thecrapgoth]

Thankyou x ❤

[@AmandaPaige71]

Much love and many prayers for you Pixie! 🙏 💖💖💖

[@connys.1970]

Thank you for sharing.😢 It's absolutely understandable. Take care of yourself 🤗🥰

[@Theravenwhiteone]

When grief is deep, it floods when left to flow. It carves its own path through each of us. Thank you for taking care of yourself and sharing with us. You are much loved.

[@DelilaRodriguez]

Oh Pixi mama, my heart is with you. I’m here to send hugs because words are not enough.

[@musomiss]

Well done for reaching out. I can't imagine what it feels like to go through all the things you have. I wish you nothing but inner peace and happier times ahead. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@e.koala-tea777]

Thank you so much for realizing you needed help and getting help. Thank you for sharing this with us. Sending love to you and your family.

[@harleygem5049]

You have been living behind a shield for 12 yrs. Holding back, covering you pain, release it as best you can. You are stronger than you know, sharing your experience is healing for you and us. Thank you.

[@erinwillard1042]

You're in our hearts and minds and prayers Pixi!!! We love you and will ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!! BLESSINGS MY BEAUTIFUL FRIEND!!! You should be proud of yourself Pixi you are getting the help that you need!!!

[@missmandy67]

No one is laughing at you. We are in awe of you. We admire you. We pray for you. We ache for you but we will NEVER LAUGH AT YOU. Only ever with you.

[@thecrapgoth]

Oh my gosh thankyou xx

[@missmandy67]

@thecrapgoth I hope you're starting to feel a bit more in control. Prayers for you always.

[@liss72]

Thank you for sharing Pixi❤And its not a shame to ask for help.You are SO strong❤Just wanted to send you a BIG hug❤❤

[@harmonydesroches]

Anticipatory grief is something that's addressed very little. Added to the grief that comes after... nasty combo. I'm so proud of you for asking for help. The brain is a tricky tricky thing. Bless you.

[@sandrahunt4436]

Thank you for sharing ❤. You are in my heart and prayers darling girl. I hope you will get all the help you need ❤❤❤

[@martarosener7779]

Blessings to you, Pixi! You are in my prayers! ❤

[@Aerdran]

You are in my thoughts and in my heart. I hope this helps you. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I've lost several people I love in the past several yars, but never one of my children, and my heart goes out to you. It says a lot about you and your big heart that you offer help to others even while you're going through this yourself. You are pretty amazing.

[@jodiallgood1788]

Love you Pixi. Sending you so much love, so many prayers and complete healing. You have so much support waiting for you. We’ll be right here when you need us. Take as much time as you need. Your health comes first. You’ve been through so much. xoxo

[@annanimity5466]

OMG! I can so relate. Prayers to you, thank you so much for sharing what you are going through. ❤😢❤Sometimes we need a break from reality because it becomes too much to bare. Take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing.

[@bonnies84]

Sweetheart... You've been grieving since the day he was diagnosed. It breaks my heart to hear you're struggling, you of all people deserve nothing but the brightest sunshine & most beautiful rainbows. You 100% still have a purpose, and things WILL get better. I know Cory will be looking after you as well. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. Please take the time you need for YOU, give yourself the space to heal. Cory's story touched all of our hearts & we are all behind you, wishing you all the support you need to become the next incarnation of Pixi. Much love ❤ xx

[@JonComyn]

I understand how you feel. I spent time in the hospital back in October. There absolutely is no shame in asking for help. You are an amazing person with a huge heart full of love. Please stay safe and we will see you soon. Sending you and your family all the love. ❤❤

[@judytx580]

My nephew went through something kind of similar. My sister wasn’t ill like your son, but she was diabetic, had high blood pressure, was a recovered alcoholic, in a severe depression, was a hoarder and in pretty poor health. After her sudden death, my then 25-yr-old nephew (who found her) didn’t know what to do with himself. It took him a long time to finally realize that it was ok for him to just live his life. He’d spent so much of his life in hyper vigilant mode, caring for my sister and trying to anticipate what could go wrong , not really being able to be a kid, that years after she died, he was still so unsettled and didn’t know why. He’s in therapy now, and doing better. I hope you will find peace, Pixie. You are so level headed and have so much to offer. Sending you tight hugs from Texas.

[@DianaECohen1224]

My prayers are with you. I've been in that state of mind a time or five. So take care of yourself and don't be hard on yourself. We all love you.

[@brionyhall4250]

My dad has been in twice (depression, ptsd, trauma, panic attacks). He is ashamed of his time in them but he doesn’t realise how proud I am of him for going to them. He’s still alive now. That’s what I needed from him, to be alive. Just like your daughters needs you x.

[@delirium6510]

Thinking of you and sending all my love. You have people who care from all over the world. There is no shame in getting help and I hope your stay is smooth and peaceful and we will be there for you no matter where you are.

[@GwynnyBly8256]

Huge hugs gorgeous! Nothing I say can magically help, even if I want to. You are loved. You are amazing, you are worth fighting for! Look after yourself. Let your loved ones love and support you ❤ There is no ‘natural’ timeline for grief. Please know that you aren’t alone! Please find your way lovely, sending so much hugs and love from 🇦🇺