오랜만에 돌아온 빵티시에!👩🏻‍🍳 수강생 5명과 함께 배워보는 오레오👩🏻‍🍳 케이크 Zoom 베이킹!ㅣ제빵왕 오탁구ㅣOhhabbang

🙋🏻‍♂️ 하영님이 제일 행복하게 했던 베이킹 클래스! 출연해주신 5분 감사 드립니다!
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[@ohhabbang]

매번 혼자 베이킹하다가 같이 하는 빵다들이 있어 정말 든든하고 힘이되었어요😭😭 그리고 어찌나 귀엽던지ㅠㅠㅠ 다음에 또 같이 했으면 좋겠네요 🥰🥰 참고한 레시피는 kzbin.info/www/bejne/o2jcfZagnruipdU 이 영상입니다😎

[@syp8799]

쪼물쪼물 다같이 빵만드는 거 보니까 힐링이다요. 역시 오하빵… 덕질과 힐링이 공존하는 채널임에 틀림없다요🍞

[@user-be1nq8ci1n]

진짜 재밌었어요!!! 이후로도 오레오케이크 종종해먹었는데 선물해드린 지인분들 전부 반응도 좋았어욥💙 다음엔 꼬옥 대면으로 만나요!!!!!💙

[@user-ev8iw9sq6j]

오프로디테로 채널명 바꿔도될정도..!

[@user-hl8ft5qr8g]

여기 참가했던 수연이에요!! 부모님께 드렸더니 완전 취향 저격하셨어요!! 이런 기회 주셔서 너무너무 감사해요 ㅜㅜ 그리고 하영언니랑 같이 대화도 나눠볼 수 있어서 너무너무 행복했습니다..🥺💗🫶🏻 그리고 진짜 맛있으니깐 꼭 한번 만들어 보세요! 저는 이거 끝나고 한번더 만들어 봤는데 여전히 맛있었습니다 💗💗

[@ohhabbang]

우와우와❤️ 반가웠어요

[@user-kl1pj8gs2e]

성주님 빵다들에게 너무나 친근한 이름 ㅋㅋ 이번 줌베이킹에서 같이 하셨네요 넘반가웠어요 ㅎㅎ 빵다들에겐 스윗 실친한테는 단호한 하빵💛 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 실친케미 넘웃겼어요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@Eunjiskyflower]

빵다들이 오랫동안 원했던 오탁구의 라이브 클래스로 팬분들에게 소중한 추억을 선물해줘서 정말 고마워요💛 덕분에 당첨된 분들이 대화도 나눌 시간도 있었고 빵만드는 것도 배울 수 있어서 다음에도 기회가 온다면 꼭 도전해봐야겠다고 생각이 들어요!! 항상 우리 빵다들의 이야기를 들어주고 소중하게 대해줘서 진짜 고마워요💛🙏

[@Markhaowen]

오탁구 선생님의 온라인 베이커리 수업에는 참석하지 않았지만 이번 영상을 통해 맛있는 오레오 케이크를 만드는 법을 배웠어요!😆하영누나가 다른 베이커리 선생님보다 훨씬 쉽게 배울 수 있는 베이커리법을 가르쳐주네요!👍하영누나는 제빵왕일 뿐만 아니라 훌륭한 베이커리 선생님입니다!💛

[@bdc.19]

언젠가 하영선생님과 함께 베이킹을 하고 싶어요 ㅠㅠ 하지만 너무 떨려서 못 할 것 같아요 ㅋㅋ 이상한 분장 + 망한 콘텐츠 제일 좋아요!그런 사랑스러운 모습을 어떻게 안좋아유??! 😁 인디안밥 블루투스ㅋㅋㅋ 진짜 INFP의 창의성 수준은 TOP 😂 오늘도 고마워요 하빵💛💛 언젠가 집에 돌아가면 이 오레오 케이크를 꼭 만들어 볼 거예요!

[@lazypanda0419]

Hayoung (+ Chorong) and Pandas are cute. I love you Apink 💗

[@Markhaowen]

하영누나 베이킹도 잘하고 잘 가르친다고!👍오탁구 선생님한테 오레오 케이크 만드는 법을 배우는 걸 봤는데 정말 좋았어요!💛오탁구 선생님 학생들이 하영누나만큼 훌륭한 베이킹왕이 되었으면 좋겠습니다💛하영누나도 세계 최고의 베이커리 선생님!💛

[@Markhaowen]

하영누나의 베이커리 영상을 볼 때마다 정말 많은 베이커리 노하우를 배울 수 있었어요!💛하영누나 줌라이브 수업으로 베이킹공부를 할 수 있다면 좋겠다!😆앞으로 오탁구 선생님께서 이런 베이커리 수업을 많이 개설해 주시길 바라며, 점점 더 많은 사람들이 오탁구 선생님에게 베이커리를 배우러 갔으면 좋겠습니다!💛

[@Markhaowen]

베이킹을 배우고 싶은데 어디로 공부할지 모르겠다면 오탁구 선생님의 베이커리 수업을 듣는 게 맞다!😆하영누나의 베이킹 수업이 가장 생생하고 재미있고 배우기 쉬운 베이킹 수업이에요!💛하영누나는 최고의 베이커리 선생님, 모든 오탁구 선생님의 학생들이 맛있는 베이커를 만들 수 있기를 기대합니다!💛

[@albertsawing7054]

My Favorite Maknae..yeahhhh..so Sweet Lady Hayoungie..🥰🥰🥰🤗🤗🤗❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍

[@TV-mt2jj]

오레오 케이크만들기 네요^^🌷🌷🌷😊😊😊💟💟💟♥️♥️♥️

[@balancejohn8795]

여지껏 본 제빵왕 오탁구 중 역대로 재밌었어요. ^^ 역시 팬들과 함께 할 때 더욱 재밌어지는 그대는 진정 본투비 연예인 입니다. ☺️.

[@korean_kch_414]

카페에서 볼법한 오레오케이크 맛있겠다 역시 제빵원탑 하빵누나는 가르치는것도 잘하시네요

[@TV-mt2jj]

잘보고갑니다~오하영누나^^화이팅!!🍎🍎🍎😊😊😊💘💘💘❤️❤️❤️

[@Ckngummand]

Hope Apink's members all keep healthy and happy. Happiness for Apink and pandas!

[@JT-zf5hx]

Your smile is making my day better, saranghe Ha Young

[@user-gj5cx9tg9j]

13살때 luv 듣고나서 좋아했는데 유튭으로도 하0누나 매일보니 좋네요ㅎㅎ

[@Apink_ChocoRong]

빵이가 알려주는 베이킹 선생님이 잘 알려주시니 학생들도 잘 따라하는 느낌이네요😊 오늘도 좋은 영상 감사합니다💛👍

[@metalllized]

하빵이도 귀엽고 빵다들도 너무 귀엽고 착하네요ㅎㅎ 모두 수고했어요~

[@user-vj6bu2pn2z]

우와! 사랑둥이 오하빵이 만든 오레오베이커리가 케이크같고 정말 신기하고 맛있어 보여요 나도 만들어 볼래요 오늘도 참 유익한 시간이었습니다. 고마워요 오하빵!

[@Markhaowen]

하영누나의 베이커리 수업은 정말 저의 꿈의 베이커리입니다!💛오탁구 선생님이 알려주신 베이킹 방법은 알기 쉽고, 또한 수업 분위기가 아주 활기차서 지루하지 않다!👍오레오 케이크를 만드는 것은 어려워 보이지만 오 선생님을 따라 배우면 쉽게 만들 수 있어요!😁저도 나중에 하영누나의 베이킹 수업에 참석해서 베이킹 공부를 하고 싶어요!💛

[@user-ug4mo7yo1j]

줌 베이킹은 이런 느낌이군요..! 다들 좋은분위기로 잘 만드시는걸 보니 저도 기회된다면 꼭 해보고 싶습니다!

[@jmyoung1520]

이 콘텐츠 너무 귀엽다!🥰 영상통화를 통해서도 팬분들과 함께 케이크를 굽는 모습을 볼 수 있어서 좋아요💗 앞으로 더 많은 세션이 있었으면 좋겠고, 다음에는 꼭 참여했으면 좋겠습니다 ㅋㅋㅋ 항상 고마워, 하영아!💛 몸조심해! 포옹!🐼🤗

[@TV-mt2jj]

오하영누나~완전 너무예뻐요^^😍😍😍💞💞💞❤️❤️❤️

[@dinchtchang7028]

Like a baking class, so much fun!

[@korean_kch_414]

선생님이 너무 예뻐요!!

[@Markhaowen]

하영누나 베이커리 수업에 참여하지 않았지만 영상으로나마 하영누나 베이커리 수업이 정말 재밌을 것 같아요!😄하영누나는 다른 베이커리 선생님의 수업에서는 나오지 않는 MBTI에 따라 수강생을 가르칩니다!💛모든 오탁구 선생님의 학생들이 베이커리왕이 되기를 바랍니다!💛하영누나가 전 세계에서 가장 사랑받는 최고의 베이커리 선생님이 되었으면 좋겠습니다!💛

[@user-mr5fp2xs4x]

빵티시에 오랜만이에요ㅠㅠ 선생님이 하영언니라니ㅜㅜ 저도 하영언니한테 수업 받고싶고 배워보고 싶어요!!ㅜㅜㅠㅠ

[@user-wi9ys5bc1z]

ㄹㅇ

[@cocolau9487]

What a pretty baker❤️❤️

[@user-df2yx8su9f]

5:25 여신 포스 작렬 👍 + 다이어트 천재 🥸

[@user-zc8rk6rt4s]

항상 혼자서 베이킹하는 오탁구 영상만 보다가 직접 베이킹도 가르쳐주면서 오탁구를 진행하는 모습이 너무 멋져보였어요💛오탁구 베이킹 클라스 한다는 소식듣고 어떻게 진행할지 궁금했는데 하빵이 차분하게 하나씩 설명하면서 잘 가르쳐주네요💛같이 소통도 계속 하면서 하빵이가 행복해하는 모습이 너무 보기 좋았어요💛💛찐친도 한명있어서 친구랑 티키타카도 재밌었고 결과물도 예쁘게 나와서 좋았어요!💛너무 재밌었고 이번 오탁구 컨텐츠 재밌었고 앞으로 이런 소통의 시간을 많이 하면 좋겠어요💛💛수고했어요💛💛💛

[@user-qe1ek9ub3q]

하영언니 베이킹 영상 보면서 저도 베이킹 해보고 싶다는 생각이 들었어요! 다음에 또 기회 생기면 같이 해보고 싶어요❤️

[@21duck]

작년 제 생일에 제빵왕 오탁구 아이스박스 편 보고 따라 만들면서 자축을 했는데 올해는 오레오 케이크를 한번 만들어볼게요! 찐친 성주님과 티카타카도 꿀잼 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 오늘 영상도 고마워요 💛💛 늘 재밌게 보고 있어요 💛💛

[@user-wi9ys5bc1z]

ㄹㅇ

[@user-tc8ls4ly1f]

오늘은 오레오케잌이당 !잘보고갈게요!

[@dnjslxll]

우왕,,베이킹 선생님이 언니인게 진짜 대박이에여💛 나두 언니한테 배워보고 싶당..💛

[@user-mr5fp2xs4x]

저도 학교에서 매주 제빵 실습해서인지 빵티시에 넘넘 재밌어요! 케익 너무 맛있을것 같아요😍❤

[@greenara0091]

실친의 리액션을 아주 극혐하시는걸 보니 찐친이 맞습니다 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@user-dq2qq3dx5g]

이런 시간이 점점 많아지길 ^^

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

베이킹하나로도 컨텐츠 다양해서 좋다 😋😋

[@meykeith]

2편엔 저 나오는데 !!! 영상 얼른 올라왔으면 좋겠어요!!!😆❤️

[@user-gj3hk3lw9v]

하빵 누나랑 수강생들과 같이 빵을 만든다는게 참...신기해...수강생들은 오탁구 선생님을 잘 모시고 잘 따라서 한다는게 참 신기할 따름..하빵 누나가 수강생들을 잘 가르켜주네요 ㅠ 수강생들도 열심히 배워요!!👍👍👍저분들은 얼마나 행복할까?? 에이핑크 오하영 이 눈 앞에서 같이 베이킹을 한다는게 😭😭😭저도 같이 배우고 싶네요 ㅠ😀😀😀왠지...하빵 누나가 잘 가르켜줄꺼 같아 ㅋㅋㅋ

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

11:27 훈훈하다 ~~

[@user-kl1pj8gs2e]

6:11 빵다분들 단체정지 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 양손까지 멈춰버린 리얼 반응 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@user-mm1eb1fy9r]

Bbangdas' dream finally come true. Congrats for Hayoung's baking class. Hope we can meet Hayoung in real baking class in the near future.

[@user-de8rv6pq4l]

팬분들이랑 줌 베이킹하며 즐거워 하는 모습 보니까 제가 다 행복해지는 거 같아요😉 제가 베이킹을 많이 해보진 못했지만, 다음에 기회가 있다면!! 꼭 언니랑 줌 베이킹 해보고 싶어요☺️ 언니가 너무 친절하게 잘 알려주셔서 저도 언니랑 같이 하면 완전 잘 만들 수 있을 거 같은 느낌!!🍀

[@Dura2030]

약은 약사에게 빵은 빵사에게 사먹는 빵이 젤~ 맛있음 =ㅅ=

[@SeoulClass]

줌으로 빵만들때 생각보다 대혼돈은 아니었나보네 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ (제빵왕 오탁구로 2년차인데 삼립 광고 한번 가야지 하영양)

[@user-vb4mp8cg4g]

알파벳보다 맛이 훨씬 중요합니당. 😆💖💖💖💖

[@syp8799]

하빵!! 너무너무 재밌는 컨텐츠다! 보는 내내 괜히 내가 수강생 입장에 대입해서 보게 돼서 더 재밌어!!ㅋㅋㅋ 그리고 오래오빵 뭔가 고급진 벗겨먹는 고오스? 같은 비주얼인데, 맛은 훨씬 있겠지? 뭔가 따라하기에도 쉬워보여서 나도 주말에 도전해야봐야겠어! 우리 하영이 베이킹도 잘해 강의도 잘해. 못하는 게 없오. 다음 번엔… 베이킹 뉴비 대상으로 진행한다면, 꼭 나두 참여하고 싶어! ㅋㅋㅋ 컨텐츠로 인프피 빵다들 또는 같은 엠비티아이의 빵다들만 모아놓고 강의해도 재밌겠다. 컨텐츠마다 분위기가 다를 것 같아. 다음 추천 빵으로는 요새 핫한 소금빵이나 올리브치아바타도 재밌을 거 같아. 🥖 그리고 레몬집 이름은 레모레모빔 추천드립니다.ㅋㅋㅋ

[@H.Poirot]

팬들과 함께한 베이킹~

[@Catpinkvelvet]

💕💕💕

[@legend3485]

hayoung, can u put eng sub in ur video with chorong?

[@user-cr4eh9tw3h]

베이킹 초보들을 위한 배이킹 클래스가 생겼으면 좋겠어요!언니가 베이킹 하는건 사실 뭔들 안좋을수가 없는데 초보들도 같이 해볼 수 있는 시간이 생긴다면 베이킹에도 관심을 많이 가질 수 있을 것 같아요ㅎㅎ 이번 영상도 잘 보고 갑니당💛빵튜브 대박나자💛💛

[@user-my6cz4dn6d]

하영언니가 행복해보여서 저도 행복하네요!!💗 앞으로도 화이팅💗

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

근데 진짜 빵다분들 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ귀여우시다 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@gracekim5871]

오하빵♥♥♥♥♥

[@buneguzellikeunjiunnie2409]

TURKISH PINK PANDA 🇹🇷🇹🇷🇹🇷🐼💕

[@charityzemkebambaji2052]

You are so fun to follow - love your cooking - Thank you Hayoungie 💝💞

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅌㅌㅌㅌ와 중학교 친구 ㅋㅌㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@y1s2k]

나 오레오케이크 너무 좋아해!!🥰 하빵선생님하고 함께라면 잘못하는 것도 잘할수 있을것 같아요

[@Markhaowen]

하영누나가 베이커리 초보에서 베이커리 선생님이 돼서 너무 좋아요!💛하영누나가 잘 가르쳐주네요. 수강생들도 열심히 배워요!👍오탁구 선생님을 따라 베이킹을 배우는 모든 친구들이 마지막으로 베이킹의 명수가 되었으면 좋겠습니다!😊

[@Eunji.]

💞💞💞💞❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@user-bh1vz4rz7b]

하영 언니 낭자해요！

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅌㅋㅌㅌㅌㅌㅌㅌㅋㅋ빵다들의 재산을 지켰어요 ㅋㅋㅋㅌㅋ 자막센스

[@everydaymeiday1]

와! 나는 와빵언니가 빵 굽는 것을 정말 좋아해요~~~

[@everydaymeiday1]

제가 빵집 이름은 아이디어 있어요, "밀키바", "머핀방", 재밌는 빵집 이름 아이디어도 있어요 "크레이지 베이커" ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 근데 카페 이름을 어려워요, 아이디어가 없어요 ㅠ.ㅠ 맘에 들었으면 좋겠어요, 언니.... 💛

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

롱 또나왔넹 ~~~

[@korean_kch_414]

Zoom으로하니까 왠지 대학교강의느낌이 물씬 나네요

[@adelynjamero1693]

We love you, Hayoung Unnie ♥️

[@user-ub4fr5yf5v]

3:50 아 ㅌㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅌㅌㅋㅌㅋㅌㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@user-qr1vm1up4z]

와 드디어 줌베이킹이네 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 여기 심각한 요리치도 다음에 부탁할게... 근데 이제 오븐도 없고 계량기도 없는...

[@pandatillidie8156]

Luv ya

[@user-fr5xt9hb8k]

fresh 레몬 빵 (카페이름으로 좋을것 같아요) 나도 하고싶은데,......, 오븐이 없다.ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ 우우우우우~~~~우우우우우~~ 저도 mbti infj예요.

[@user-sg4nk8js5r]

익숙한 이름이!!!?

[@user-zq3if1ox1d]

화이팅

[@mmh9686]

와 진짜 맛있겠다요

[@pinknatalie6594]

me too ✋️

[@hersilaastari1983]

Cute

[@lowjiawen6032]

Saranghae Eonni ❤️

[@minsookim941]

니가 더 귀여워

[@user-nr5pk3fc5v]

🥰🥰🥰🐼🐼🐼

[@TV-mt2jj]

1등

[@pchunter168]

I love you

[@kimloveagain.]

먼가 DIY생크림본드이용해서 디저트파츠이용해서 디저트그립톡 디저트폰케이스 디저트필통 디저트에어팟케이스 만들기함좋겠다🥰😍😘💕💕💕

[@itkwon33]

3:37 알고보니 제빵 교실이 아닌 제빵 동아리였다.

[@itkwon33]

7:04 알고보니 다 은근한 개그 콘텐츠 였군요?

[@user-bv1xr1uz8t]

카페 이름 레몬트리 어때요? 뭔가 감성 카페 같고 레몬빵하니까 딱 떠올라요!!

[@user-be1nq8ci1n]

와 진짜 좋아요!!감사합니다ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

[@user-bv1xr1uz8t]

@@user-be1nq8ci1n 오 영상에 나온 분이세요?? 레몬트리가 딱 생각났는데 저 영상 찍은 지 꽤 된 것 같아서 이미 정해졌을까봐 고민하다가 올렸는데!! 신기하네요ㅎㅎ 카페 잘 되길 바랄게요!☺️

[@user-be1nq8ci1n]

@@user-bv1xr1uz8t 맞아요!! 아직도 못정했어요....ㅎㅎ 의견감사합니다ㅏ💙💙

[@user-bv1xr1uz8t]

@@user-be1nq8ci1n 아 그렇군요!! 나중에 기회되면 한 번 방문해보고 싶어요!! 빵다의 카페ㅎㅎ 응원할게요🥰

[@aikomasumiie4019]

Where english subtitles? 🥹

[@hanaaerr_]

Can you please include english subtitles?

[@Tronda550]

Eng subs please

[@user-vr8uv7ro9g]

Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Piano.. as I would walk into the room.. I look at your Picture.. wishing that YOU can see what I just got.. even though YOU may be far from Me.. at least send me Your Heart.. if I can have your Heart.. I will keep Your Heart safe here with Me.. looking at the Empty Glass jar.. I would Place the Empty Glass Jar on the TOP of the Piano.. and I wish that I can Place your Heart inside this Empty Glass Jar.. even though YOU are far.. Knowing and Looking at your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART is close with me.. I pull up the Piano Chair closer to the Piano.. and I would sit on the chair.. only if I can get You here.. will YOU ever come closer to Me.. How do I get you closer to Me.. and I would look at the key bars of the Piano.. But.. I can't play the tune.. I can't even sing with my voice.. just sitting here.. it seems like it be better if I was Not here at the first Place.. But.. I can write YOU a Letter.. I know that I can tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. I can tell YOU with the Words.. with the Lips.. with my voice.. What I truly feel deep inside my Heart.. I put all my time when I grab the Pencil.. when I grab the paper.. and I grab the piece of paper.. I know that for sure I can write and tell you.. How I feel.. How it feels to be me here on the Other side.. as long as the Letter is able to get to YOU.. will you please receive the Letters.. will you please unfold the piece of Paper which be folded when I give it to YOU.. will you please open your Heart.. hear the words of Mine that comes from my Heart.. how much I love YOU.. How much I adore YOU and admire YOU and How much I miss YOU too.. you are wondering.. what is it about the Piano.. why am I bringing UP the word Piano to YOU if I can't sing.. or can't play tunes of the keys of the piano to bring Music alive.. why am I telling YOU or sharing you about the Piano.. because I want YOU to know.. I want to Place Your Heart.. I want to place your Heart on this Empty Glass Jar.. which is on top of the Piano.. so that when I look at Your Heart.. I can learn How to play the Piano.. it make take some time for me to Know How to Play.. but when I look at your Heart.. when I look at your Heart inside the empty glass jar.. I would look at your Heart.. it may inspire me to say I love you in a way YOU never felt before.. I would think of many different ways to tell YOU.. that I love YOU and that I want to say to Your Heart first.. I would like to tell Your Heart first so that YOU can truly trust me with Your Precious Heart.. without any trust.. there is NO way I can love YOU where YOU are able to love me back One day.. that is why I need Your Heart first with Me.. I remember when I was Young.. my Mother wanted me to Learn something new.. and bought a Piano for Me.. I wanted to learn something New.. wanted to tell a story through but when my Mother bought the Piano.. it was just too complicated for me to learn.. I would watch the Teacher come.. and she would play on the Piano.. I wish that I learned at that time because Now.. when I look at you.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. and I would say WOW.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I would stand by the Piano and say.. YOU are as beautiful like the Piano because Now.. I want to play and make a Music for YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I want to step Out of the comfort zone and tell YOU what YOU means to me.. when ever I look at you.. through the Picture.. I would regret when I look at the Piano sitting in the Room.. because.. Now I want to play and make music so that I can tell YOU.. even though I may Not be able to sing YOU a SONG.. I would bring a recorder.. and would record my voice.. as my fingers would press on the key bars of the Piano.. I can at least speak to the recorder.. but before I would play on the Piano making Music to come alive.. I would be sitting in my bed room.. taking Out the Piece of paper.. I would write YOU a Letter first.. telling YOU my Heart.. speaking from my Heart.. and writing that comes from My Heart to let YOU know.. the Letter is Not the Only way I can tell YOU my Heart.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. regretting because I did Not learn at that time.. I had the chance to learn when I was young.. but I only watched the teacher play.. looking at her back as she played and making Music.. pressing the Key bars.. to the sound of my ears it tingled because she Played so well.. if I only learned from that teacher.. only if I took the time to be more serious about learning the keys.. composing and writing the music Notes.. the keys.. I wonder what could of happened Now.. if I learned at that time.. which My Mother would say.. It be wise to learn this kind of instrument because when it is gone.. YOU will regret it when TIME passes by.. I would stand by the Piano.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. looking at the key bars.. pressing the key bars.. only sounds but weird sounds will hit.. and I feel so terrible Not because I wish that I learned.. so that I can play for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU.. there is Much more ways to Tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I would even take the Piano out side.. even looking at the MOON in the Night.. when I miss YOU.. when I know that YOU are so Far away and I keep on missing YOU.. at least.. with tears in my eyes of Not able to hold YOU.. unable to be close to YOU and It hurts some nights.. I can play the Piano in the Night.. telling YOU.. looking UP at the MOON.. as my fingers hits the Key bars bringing music.. I would be pulling Out the Letter that is written for YOU and tell YOU a story of How much I love YOU.. if the neighbors would come out telling me about the Noises.. I would turn to that person and say.. DID YOU ever miss someone.. when it hurts.. it just hurts so much when YOU start missing.. I needs to say.. I needs to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. there are times that it feels so painful.. it hurts.. I see tear drops out of my eyes.. so to take this anger out of My Heart for Missing YOU.. I needs to play YOU a SONG.. this Piano is my friend.. helps me to express what I feel when I am dealing with so Much sorrow in me.. that I love YOU but I miss YOU more.. why.. why do you keep on making me feel this way.. when YOU are so far off.. what am I suppose to do when I miss YOU.. and only thing that I can do is taking out the Picture.. the only thing I can do is pull the Picture out of my pocket.. and LOOK at YOU.. do YOU know How it feels when YOU just can't do nothing.. but only thing I can do is look at you in this Picture.. but I needs to tell YOU that I needs to be with YOU.. I needs to get this Off my Chest.. Off my Heart that I needs to be with YOU.. and it hurts me so much because I am dying right Now without YOU in my life.. and to keep my Anger and this pain.. this suffering away.. if I look at the Piano.. and I am able to pull the Piano chair closer.. and able to play the tunes of the Piano pressing on the key bars.. I know that I can tell YOU what I have written.. pressing the recorder.. as I am in the ROOM.. I would open up my Heart and say.. I miss YOU.. I am not sure why I am missing YOU so much right Now.. and I be asking.. do YOU ever feel the same as I do.. I don't want to hear the answer that is going to KILL me up inside but to ask YOU.. DO YOU miss me the way I do.. I have brought the Piano Out side.. the neighbors are telling me to be quiet and they needs to sleep.. but when I am sitting Out side.. with the Piano and the Chair.. I am able to look UP at the MOON and let the Moon hear my Voice.. asking the MOON.. do YOU hear me tonight.. even though I have the Recorder recording my Voice what I AM saying as the Letter is in front so that I can read it out Loud.. with tears of sorrow.. with My Heart be hurting.. I am missing YOU.. I am missing YOU so much right Now that I need YOU here.. can YOU Hear me.. I am out side.. can YOU hear the Piano Playing.. it is Me who is playing this Piano so that YOU can hear Me.. so that YOU know what I am doing right Now.. I want YOU to hear me.. that is why I have decided to buy another Piano.. a smaller where I can take it out side so that YOU can hear the key bars.. when you hear the sound of the Music coming out of the Piano.. YOU know that It is me.. which I am telling YOU.. I am hurting right Now.. I miss YOU right Now.. where are YOU so that I can tell YOU my Heart.. Please come Out.. come Out and hear this Piano playing.. making the Music to come alive.. only if YOU knew this

[@user-vr8uv7ro9g]

I am sitting on the Couch.. on my Lap is the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. Next to me sitting is the Other baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. I am smiling.. looking at the Picture.. and on my Lap.. the Little Son.. the baby Teddy Bear is looking at YOU.. and I am missing YOU.. asking when YOU are coming.. I want to show you the Two Little Ones.. the children are getting better as the days go by.. I haven't heard them be crying.. and as I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. I see you holding the Little Son.. the baby Teddy Bear.. and YOU are sitting on the couch and next to YOU is the Daughter.. who is smiling sitting next to YOU.. it is the same situation.. My finger touch over your face.. and I hear the Little Son.. asking for Mama.. and I would show the Little Son.. and Show the Little Son.. the baby Teddy Bear.. the Picture of YOU and as the Little Son looks at you through the Picture.. and I would say.. yes.. I miss too.. I want to see YOU.. but It seems like it is going to take a little Longer.. I remember few days ago.. a Phone would ring and I answered the Call.. Hearing your Voice on the Other Line.. telling me that YOU are going to stay a little More Longer and will delay the flight.. I could not tell the two.. the Two Little Baby Teddy bears.. I know that if I tell them.. they are going to cry for YOU.. and I do not like it when both children sits and cries for YOU.. do YOU know How much that Hurts me because they are hurting over YOU.. the way I feel about YOU.. so I asked YOU.. if I can keep it a secret and not to tell the Daughter and the Little Son because I know.. you do not know how it breaks my Heart.. when I have to stand still or sit.. watching them cry.. when the One starts to cry.. the Other joins in to cry along side.. and they both be looking at Your Picture.. and turns to LOOK at me.. asking where YOU are.. asking where is MOMMA.. and what am I suppose to say.. I had to watch both looking at the door.. both sits next to each other.. and they are looking at the front door.. and LOOKS at me.. keeps looking at me and I know what they both are saying.. where are YOU.. I have to say.. YOU are going on a long meeting.. I think for a business trip.. MOMMA needs to go to make Money so that YOU can buy good things and I would try to explain what the good things are.. but of course they do not get what I am saying at all.. They are too young to understand or knows these things.. as I would sit on the couch.. putting the Little Son and sits on my Lap.. I would give the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear the Picture.. of course If I give the Little SON a picture of YOU.. I would look at the Daughter who looks at Me.. and wants to have a picture of YOU.. she keeps on looking UP at me which she is sitting next to Me.. I have to have a picture of YOU.. so I asked for three pictures to be sent.. they be fighting over Your Picture which the two would always cry over.. taking my picture away.. I remember calling you on the Phone.. I asked YOU if YOU can bring and sent three pictures.. so NO ONE fights over or cries.. or fusses.. Now.. there has been a great peace and Joy in this House.. as I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. I miss YOU.. when I have the two baby teddy bears.. which they are Your Children.. it seems like I miss YOU more and More.. because they came from YOU.. and so Beautiful children.. and I would hear giggles from the Daughter.. she points and shows me YOU.. and I hear the word MOMMA.. and asks me.. where is MOMMA.. and I would look down at the Daughter.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. and I would tell her.. working.. and the Little SON turns and looks.. and asks me the same question.. and I hear I MISS YOU MOMMA.. and it hurts.. I have to hear these words out of these two children.. why is it that I am hurting more.. I am hurting much more when the Two.. the Daughter and the Little Son.. they would look at your Picture and tells me.. MOMMA.. I miss YOU.. and Keeps on showing the Picture of YOU to me.. and tells me I love YOU.. and I miss MOMMA.. I am sitting on the couch.. they are expressing what I am feeling all of the Time.. I know that I can truly relate but the problem is there is Nothing I can do.. what am I suppose to say when YOU Miss.. and has NO answers to what I am feeling because I know How it is hurting me More.. I feel like for myself.. but when YOU can the children involve.. I feel like I am taking more loads on my Heart.. why can't you come Home.. why cant you come sooner.. the two are always missing YOU.. asking me where are YOU.. and they sit on the floor.. LOOKING at the front Door.. and I know if I try to pick the two UP.. One will cry because.. and I have to hear the other One cry too.. and it can get to YOU sometimes.. I wish I can find a way that NO ONE gets hurt and I just don't have to be hearing more cries.. as I walk out of the room.. I would watch the two Baby Teddy Bears falls asleep.. I had to give the two a Bath.. putting the Bubbles into the bath tub.. the two enjoyed taking a Bath in the bubble.. I had to put them into the Crib because It was the bed Time.. I grab a Book and started to read them and I saw the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. they both started to sleep while I was reading a children's book.. as I watch the two sleeping.. I would smile looking at the two children.. they are so Beautiful.. of course they are Your Babies so it makes it more beautiful for me to see.. as I would walk out of the room.. I go into my room and sit on the chair.. with the desk.. I am looking at Your Picture.. and it is the Picture of YOU and the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Little SON sitting on your Lap.. and the Daughter.. she is sitting on the couch next to YOU.. with a Yellow Bow on top of the Head.. My Heart moves.. LOOKING at this picture.. My Heart screams from the Inside.. and I have bought an Art.. the GIANT SKETCH BOOK.. and I would sit.. wanting to draw the Picture of YOU.. with the two Children.. am I loving YOU more.. I can't stop looking at Your Picture.. with the two children.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. why did you have to come and introduce me to the two.. when ever I look at the two.. I am only seeing YOU more but my Heart just loves YOU more.. when the two sits next with me.. and I watch them smile.. it kills me inside because they make me smile.. my heart lights UP on fire when I see the two.. I am holding the hands of the Little SON.. I try to get him to walk.. but He sits and cries instead.. trying to teach the BABY TEDDY BEAR.. the Little SON to walk.. I remember I called YOU on the Phone.. and I wanted to face time.. and I saw YOU on the Phone.. with my two hands.. I held the two hands of the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. trying to get two legs to get UP.. and through the Face time YOU saw your SON.. and he falls and starts to cry.. and the Daughter starts to cry with her Brother.. and I had to let you go on the Face time.. and I am sitting on the chair.. looking at the Picture and thinking of these little flashbacks.. and I grab the Pencil.. which it is use to draw.. but I just could not draw.. I know that YOU be coming soon.. when YOU come.. I know the two Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears are going to go with you.. that Means.. it is going to break my Heart.. not just going to be missing YOU but also the two Little ones you brought.. I know that I needs to do this.. so I would look at the Picture of YOU.. Looking at the Little SON sitting on top of Your lap and LOOKING at the Daughter who is sitting next to YOU.. OH MY HEART.. these precious Little Ones.. MY Heart.. what are you doing to this Heart of Mine.. why did YOU have to bring them to Me.. so that YOU can Punish me for doing you a good thing.. but Look what is going to happen to My Heart.. and I grab the Pencil.. the Art pencil and starts to draw on the Piece of Ark sketch Paper.. what if I just can't finish because of My Heart.. LOOK at the Precious Little Ones.. the Little SON.. and the Daughter.. and I would think about.. Holding the Book.. and I am sitting on the floor.. the Two baby Teddy Bears.. the brother and sister.. the children.. they are holding hands and I am reading the children story.. and I be reading Out loud so the two can hear the stories.. and I asked the two.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. do YOU like stories.. and I see the heads goes UP and down telling me Yes.. they love stories.. and I would say to the two children.. I love stories too.. and I would hear the Phone ring.. and On face time it is YOU who was calling.. at this Hour.. before going to Bed.. YOU would tell me that the two Needs to be read.. that I needs to pick a children's book and starts to read or they will Not go to sleep.. so I would look at the Phone.. and I would see YOU.. and the two baby Teddy Bears.. they know it is MOMMA on the Other side.. and I would give the Daughter the Phone.. and I see her looking at YOU and with a Big SMILE.. waving hand at YOU.. and I would open the Book.. and I would start to read the sentences.. paragraphs it becomes.. and I can hear YOU on the Phone telling the Two LITTLE ONES.. and the Daughter would hand to the LITTLE SON.. and Looks at YOU.. Looking at MOMMA.. and I can hear YOU on the Other side asking the two Children.. what is the story about and to explain to YOU.. as I would read and Pause.. I hear answers coming out trying to answer the questions.. and I sit still.. the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both looking at YOU through the Face TIME of the Phone.. trying to tell YOU the answers.. Fussing and bumping into each other.. of course.. after a time.. I would watch the two Letting YOU go on the Other side..

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Heart.. I do want to draw YOU.. and looking at the Picture.. the two Baby Teddy Bears.. Not just YOU but with the two children on the Picture.. but My Heart just won't let me do it.. because I know it will shatter inside because I love YOU.. My Heart will shatter into pieces because I know that the two will be leaving soon.. of course I wish that the two Little Children can stay more longer.. but the More longer they are with me.. More I feel like it is Hurting me instead.. what if I would say to YOU.. don't let the children leave me.. I would be crazy before Your Eyes and I know that they belong.. they came with YOU and that is why I know they must go with YOU.. My Heart just can't accept that the two Baby Teddy Bears be leaving me soon.. and it is hurting me right Now because I know this.. of course they must go with YOU.. as I sit still in the silent.. I receive a Message from YOU.. and YOU have sent me something.. it is a New Picture of YOU.. and YOU are showing me.. telling me where YOU are.. and as I would look on the Phone to take a look at the New Picture of YOU.. and I know that the Children.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will love this Picture of YOU.. of their MOMMA.. which YOU are smiling in this One.. that YOU are doing so GOOD.. this is what I wanted to see.. what I wanted to hear.. and I hear the phone ringing.. and I picked UP the Phone to hear Your Voice.. and I would tell YOU.. after the face time.. I know that the children.. the two Baby TEDDY BEARS would be arguing and they would fuss at each other because they wanted to give YOU the answers.. and Yes.. I had to let YOU go to get this issue solved.. did I finish reading the children's BOOK.. while I was reading the stories to them.. I saw the eyes.. the Daughter first.. the eyes grew tired and I saw the two eyes would close and She lay on the floor sleeping.. I would keep on reading the Children's book and I would look at the eyes of the Little SON.. which he grew tired too.. both eyes started to close and He lays on the floor sleeping next to his sister.. I would keep on reading for at least 30 more minutes.. as I close the Children's Book.. I would pick UP the Daughter first and Put her in the Crib.. and I would go over to the Little SON and Pick Him up next.. Putting HIM into his crib.. and I stood watching the two sleeping.. holding the Daughter.. the BABY TEDDY BEAR in my arms.. I hear I miss MOMMA.. as I would walk out of the room where the two are sleeping.. I would be thinking of YOU and I go into my room.. sitting on the chair next to the desk.. I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU with the two Little ONES.. BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the Daughter and the Little Son.. the Little SON sitting on your Lap and the Daughter sitting next to YOU with the Little Yellow Bow on top of her Head.. I wanted to draw picture of YOU with the two children.. and I kept on looking at Your Picture.. trying to draw I just could Not.. then YOU called Me.. all I wanted to say is this.. that I miss YOU and that I love YOU too.. missing YOU so much hurts me right Now.. so Please come Home soon.. My arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I am looking for YOU.. I heard this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. asking me if this Bear can go to YOU.. as I am walking.. I am walking into a Room.. and I stop.. there is a Square box.. on top of a stand.. and I am looking at the Square Box.. Inside is the Big Heart.. I just can't believe it.. Is this Your Heart.. I want to know if this Big Heart belongs to YOU.. because if this Big Heart is Yours.. I want it.. and can I keep this Big Heart if it belongs to YOU.. I am looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would say.. DO you see that Heart.. It is so Big.. I love when a Heart is this Big.. do you know why.. LOOK at my arms.. My Arms loves to HOLD and Snuggle.. just like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I was trying to sleep.. this Giant Teddy Bear was sitting on top of my Bed.. this Giant Teddy Bear kept on waking me UP.. telling me She misses YOU.. that She wants to know where YOU at.. and Calls YOU MOMMA.. I am wondering.. WHO is MOMMA.. is it MAMA.. or I am not sure and I would turn my Head to look.. I tell this Giant Teddy Bear.. I need my sleep.. I need some rest tonight.. I just could not sleep the Other night.. and I would look at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I saw Your picture.. when I saw YOUR picture.. I just could not wake my eyes off of YOU.. and I would be having the Picture underneath the Pillow and I pulled it off.. holding in my hand is Your Picture and I showed this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. do you see.. take a good look.. like a Flower.. the Most beautiful Flower.. do YOU see the One whom I love.. take a LOOK for me.. and the Giant Teddy bear looks at your Picture.. and starts to say.. YOU are her MOMMA.. and starts to cry asking me to take her to YOU.. I am wondering.. what Have you done to this Giant Teddy Bear.. she is crying for YOU.. like YOU are her Momma.. and I would lay and turn on the side.. closing my eyes.. THIS Giant Teddy Bear keeps on crying.. she keeps on crying for her Momma.. and I open both eyes.. I need some rest.. I need some sleep.. and I turn and I sit UP looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. what if you are not her Momma.. and the Giant Teddy bear cries and cries.. looking for YOU.. both arms opens to me and says.. YOU are her Momma.. I would wrap my arms around this Giant Teddy Bear.. lift and I would walk off of the room.. going into.. I am not sure where I was going.. am I sleep walking.. or am I walking in the right direction.. and the Giant Teddy Bear leads me to the ROOM.. I have never seen this room before.. so I must be sleeping right.. I must be dreaming or something.. and I see a DOOR opens before me.. and I stop.. my breathe is taken away.. looking at the Square Box.. sitting on top of a Stand.. I see a Big Heart.. I want it.. Now I feel like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to Cry with this Bear.. because I do not want to drop this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I do want to Hold that Big Heart.. I want to know.. why is this Big Heart inside a Square Box.. who has put this Big Heart inside.. and why would YOU Leave this Big Heart behind.. it just don't make any sense to Me.. because If I want it.. I want this Heart so Bad.. I want it that I want to walk to this Square Box and Beat It.. what happens if the Square Box starts to rock and it can Hurt this Big Heart.. as I would lower to Put the Giant Teddy Bear on the Floor.. I would raise UP.. and I would walk closer and closer.. I step so close.. placing my hands on the Side of this Square Box.. I can see Your Heart.. It is Your Big Heart.. is this Your Heart.. can YOU hear me because if this Big Heart do Not belongs to YOU.. I don't want it.. I want it because it is Your Heart.. I would pull the Picture from my back pocket and I am looking at You through this Picture and I would say.. I have brought some thing.. but has become some one.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. this Bear cries.. and she be saying.. YOU are her Momma.. will you accept her as Your Daughter.. because I can't put her with me any more.. the Giant Teddy Bear.. she tells me she has lost her Momma.. I showed the Giant Teddy Bear a picture of YOU.. and she says YOU are her Momma.. I am not sure how this became to Be.. but.. I came here because of this Giant Teddy Bear.. I guess she belongs with YOU and Not with me.. so I am going to leave this Giant Teddy Bear behind.. but before I go.. I want to see that YOU would accept her.. and I turn to look back and I lower too look at the Giant Teddy Bear.. I see her crying.. wiping the tears with two small hands.. saying She wants her Momma.. misses her Momma.. wondering where YOU at.. and I turn to look at the Square Box.. looking through the Glass.. looking at the Big Heart.. How can YOU leave your Daughter behind.. why would you let her cry like that.. I feel so sad when something like this Happens to a SON or a Daughter.. can YOU not hear this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. I hear MOMMA.. and I hear crying and tear drops.. and I would look at the Square BOX.. I would hold the Picture and I turn to look at YOU through the Picture.. of course I too want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU IN my arms.. just the way I would hold this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I wish that it be you.. I rather be YOU instead.. but I don't know where YOU are.. I only can see you through this Picture.. but I can't find YOU anywhere else as I would turn.. looking at the Square Box.. I am looking through this Glass and I am looking at the Big Heart.. and I would get closer to the Glass and I would look at the Big Heart.. I do love Your Heart.. I love how beautiful your Heart is.. the shape of your Heart.. I wish that I can take this Square Box.. am I allowed to lift this Square Box.. can I carry it away and go to my room.. will you please let me take this Square Box.. because right when my eyes saw your Big Heart.. something inside of me just froze.. I felt like my feet were glued to the floor and it was very Hard for my feet to move forward.. my Heart just kept on telling me.. to GO.. walk forward.. but my eyes.. when both eyes saw what was inside this Square Box.. it told my feet to stay glued.. for a moment.. I wanted to step back.. not to enter the room.. to turn around and to go back.. but the Giant Teddy Bear kept on crying.. telling me it is MOMMA's Heart.. that is MOMMA and made me realize that I was at the right place.. in the right room.. I just fell in love with the Big Heart because this is the starting point I wish to have.. I can say many wishes on a star.. it may never come true when YOU make too make wishes on a star.. but when I look at this Big Heart.. I know that One day my wish can be a true reality.. means it can really happen.. I came so close.. I can't turn back and cannot walk off.. I am able to look at this Big Heart so Close..

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The Square Box off the stand.. the Giant Teddy Bear started to kick and scream crying and looking at me Not to take it.. then what am I suppose to do.. she is crying.. I want the Heart.. I did not come all the way here just to look at the Big Heart.. should I lift the Stand.. maybe this stand can go with me because I want Your Big Heart.. tell me.. why can't I have it.. I want Your Heart.. do I must beg.. I am not a beggar to beg for your Big Heart.. but if I must beg.. I can be a beggar just for YOU.. but please.. tell me.. I want Your Heart.. I want this Big Heart.. I want to hold Your Big Heart in my arms and my head lean on your Heart and I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU.. waiting for this Heart to come to Me.. like my Pillow.. I want to lay my head and sleep on top of your big Heart and say to YOU.. I love YOU.. I would hear steps.. I am thinking.. where is this sound coming from and I hear the steps.. walking steps and the sound is coming from the Back.. and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Giant Teddy Bear crying and crying.. and I am wondering.. it must be YOU.. because when the steps stopped.. YOU lowered yourself and the Giant Teddy Bear stops crying.. arms would stretch out and I hear the word MOMMA.. and I see you wrapping your arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. as I see YOU lift up the Giant Teddy Bear.. my Heart starts to beat.. I am wondering.. where is this Sound coming from.. Is it my Heart and I turn around.. LOOKING at the Square Box.. through the Glass.. I see your Big Heart.. and I am not sure.. I am hearing the beating of a Heart.. I would get close to the Square Box.. putting my ear on the side of the glass of the Square Box.. But I do not hear any sound.. and I would turn too look at YOU.. I see the Giant Teddy Bear smiling.. arms wrapping around YOU and snuggling.. I want that too.. I want to be held by YOU like the way YOU be holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. maybe we can switch places for a Day.. I want to be the Giant Teddy Bear.. and she can be me switching shoes.. I want your Heart.. I want your BIG HEART.. but Now I want to be held by YOU.. can I please be a little Boy.. I want your arms around me.. and holding me tight and I get to snuggle in your arms.. Please.. YOU know how much I want Your Love.. to be loved by YOU because I love YOU..I am sitting by the desk.. I am looking at the shot glass.. and grabbed the Bottle of whiskey and poured into the Shot glass.. placing the whiskey down.. picked up the shot glass.. opened my mouth and take a shot.. I am trying to forget YOU.. but I just can't.. I have placed your picture on the top of the desk.. I keep on looking at this picture.. I tell myself I needs to stop.. but I feel like I needs to keep on looking.. I would look at your picture and say.. why are you doing this to me.. why do I have to keep on looking at you.. of course I have a pencil and a clean white sheet of paper.. I want to draw.. looking at your picture.. I want to draw the picture of you.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. but I can feel.. this whiskey starts to kick my head.. I feel light headed and buzzing.. I know I drank so that I can forget you.. but why is it that I am missing you more now.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. as I am looking at your picture.. why can't your picture talk back to me.. I want to hear something from you.. but no matter how many times I am going to tell you looking at your picture.. I will not hear anything from the Other side.. but I want to hear from you.. Please.. tell me something so that I don't feel the light headed I am feeling at this point right now.. YOU know that I love you.. I can tell you many times that I love YOU.. can you tell me something.. can you hear me say the words to YOU.. I love you.. and I grab the pencil.. starts to trace and starts to draw.. of course I am looking at your picture.. as I stopped.. putting the pencil down.. I have drawn a picture of a Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. and I am looking at this pieces of paper.. looking at the Heart.. this is suppose to be your Heart.. so that I can touch it.. as my hand touches the paper.. my hand touch the Heart.. can you feel my hand.. I am touching your Heart.. can you please tell me that you can feel my Hand touching your Hand.. as my eyes would look at the picture.. it is YOUR Heart I drew.. maybe you would tell me that Heart does not look like yours at all.. I told you that I am not an artist who can paint or draw pictures.. but I know that I can try to draw a Heart.. it is only Your Heart I want to draw.. I want to touch your Heart too.. How about me write my Name on this Heart.. and can I take this piece of paper and give it to YOU.. telling you that I have wrote my name so that YOU know that it is me who loves YOU and asking you to remember my Name.. so that you know that I love you.. I belong to YOU only.. so please.. tell me that I can.. as I grab the bottle of whiskey and pour into the shot Glass.. and place the bottle of whiskey on the top of the desk.. I grab the shot glass and open my mouth and take a shot.. I can feel it burning.. it feels like it wants to burn my Heart instead.. why.. I don't know.. you tell me why.. because I want to hear from you saying that I am allowed too.. as I am sitting down.. looking at the piece of paper.. looking at the Heart I drew.. I turn to look at your picture.. and I would hear a Crying.. I am wondering.. who is crying at this time of night.. is it my Heart.. is My Heart crying from the inside.. is it because of the whiskey.. the shot glass.. the shot of this whiskey.. I don't think my Heart would cry because of it.. and I would sit still.. maybe it is this Heart.. the Heart I drew.. which it is suppose to be Your Heart.. so is Your Heart crying.. and I would sit still trying to figure out why I am hearing crying.. and the Cry I am comes behind me.. and I would turn to look back.. and when I turn to look back.. I see a Teddy Bear.. the arms are stretching out.. and keeps on crying.. and I am wondering.. when did this Teddy Bear got here.. it is smaller and wearing a blue shirt.. must be.. and I would stand up from the chair.. and I hear from the Teddy Bear crying.. MOMMA.. and I stop.. I just can't.. I see tears in the eyes of this Baby Teddy Bear.. and He is crying for Momma.. and I am thinking.. why are you asking me for MOMMA.. I am trying to get over and I grab the Picture and I walk to the bed.. the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on the top of the bed.. and I would sit next to the Baby Teddy Bear and I show the picture.. and I would point.. is this Your MOMMA and the Baby Teddy Bear head goes UP and down telling me that YOU are.. I am wondering.. I am trying to get.. How come now.. and the Baby Teddy Bear wraps the arms around your Picture.. I think you must be a Son.. I am very confused.. so YOU are looking for Momma and the Baby Teddy Bear cries and cries and cries looking for YOU.. and I am sitting down.. what am I suppose to do.. and I start to feel my tears running down.. if you keep on crying.. how about me.. you are going to make me cry with you and I would grab the Picture.. I want you to let go so that YOU don't cry no more and I pull the picture away from the Baby Teddy Bear.. I hear the cry getting louder and louder.. I would get up from sitting on top of the bed.. I would be walking and I stop.. I turn to look back.. the baby Teddy Bear keeps crying and crying.. arms are stretching out.. CRYING FOR MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do.. I do not think your Momma is here.. I am here on my own.. and I just stand there.. I am looking at your picture.. I can't stop my tears running down.. I am here looking at your picture.. wanting to talk to you and wanting to hear from you.. I don't even know where you are.. there is a baby Teddy Bear.. a Son.. who is crying for YOU.. asking me where is MOMMA.. how am I suppose to answer the Baby Teddy Bear's question.. I want to know where YOU are.. but only thing I have is your picture.. I want to hear from you as much as this SON in the room.. crying and crying.. I thought that something was wrong with me.. I thought that My Heart was crying.. crying because I miss YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I want to see YOU and that I want to be close to YOU.. I heard this cry.. but it is Loud cry.. and I turn to look at the bed.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at me.. and I see the tears keeps on dropping.. wetting the bed.. and starts to cry and cry.. I am getting more emotional.. I am trying to get drunk.. but this Baby Teddy Bear is not helping me at at.. and I go over to the Bed and I sit.. I show the Baby Teddy Bear.. this Picture.. is it your Momma and the head moves up and down.. and I give the baby Teddy Bear the picture.. He wraps his arms around your picture and says MOMMA.. and I ask him.. where is your Momma.. please tell me.. and I would say.. I will take you to her.. I would wrap my arms around the baby Teddy Bear and I would lift him up and I get up out of the bed.. Tell me where is Your Momma.. so I can take you to her.. the Baby Teddy bear does not answer.. and I would walk out of the room.. and I am walking down the hall way and I stop.. I see you Holding the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and I see you turn around and you looking at me.. and I am holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. my arms wrapped around.. and I look at you.. I think you have left this.. He is looking for Momma.. and I would see you placing the Other Teddy Bear.. wearing a pink shirt.. and she starts to cry.. Arms stretching out towards you.. and I see you walking closer to me.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. and I look down.. the Baby teddy Bear.. arms are around your picture.. I see you kneel and arms stretches out.. and I would lower myself.. opens my arm.. the Baby Teddy Bear walks slowly.. arms around your picture.. and falls.. starts to cry loud..

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This.. what am I suppose to do at this point.. and how about me.. can I be a part of that circle.. I want to hold YOU.. and I want to be held by you the way you are holding the two Teddy Bears.. I see smiles and giggles.. but I want to be a part.. I want to smile and giggle along side.. holding YOU close in my arms.. and holding the baby Teddy Bear.. and Holding YOU to tell you that I love you.. as I am sitting on the floor.. I just want to be with YOU.. I want to be a part so that I can feel the love.. loving YOU will be the most happiest times.. just to love you and to say I love you.. would you let me love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. as I am looking.. I see you holding the hand of the Other Teddy Bear.. the other arm wraps the baby Teddy Bear the son.. and I am watching you walking off.. can I please be a part.. Can I join in that circle too.. Let me be a part of that family.. I know that I can love you.. so Please.. stop and see.. I am sitting on the desk.. Looking at the Piece of paper.. I see the Heart.. the Heart I drew thinking that this is the shape of your Heart.. next to the piece of paper is Your Picture.. I just can't take my mind off of YOU.. I can't take my eyes off of your picture.. I go crazy when I tell you that I love YOU.. as I see the shot Glass.. and I grab the Bottle of the whiskey.. and I pour into the shot glass.. putting the bottle of the whiskey on the top of the desk.. I grab the shot glass.. open my mouth and take a shot.. I can feel the burning again in my Heart.. it keeps on burning harder as I would keep on drinking and taking shots.. and I hear.. Do not tell me I am hearing again.. I am hearing the crying of the Babies.. I turn to look back.. I am hearing cries.. I look back.. I see two Teddy bears.. One is wearing pink the Other is wearing Blue.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. I want my Momma and cries get louder and louder.. I am trying to draw Picture of YOU.. grabbing the Pencil and Looking at the sketch paper.. the Picture is in front of me as I am sitting by the desk.. as I am smiling looking at the Picture of YOU.. I just can't believe I have your Picture.. YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Just too beautiful to be true.. and the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on my Lap.. The most Beautiful Baby Boy.. I am trying to concentrate drawing.. the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on my Lap.. I see the hands trying to grab the Pencil.. losing me to Put the Pencil Down.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. this little Son.. starts to cry.. wanting to hold the Pencil.. I tell this baby Teddy Bear.. I am trying to draw a picture.. why can't You just sit on my lap and just watch me Draw.. I am looking at your Picture.. and I just want to see YOU.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at my eyes and turns to look at the direction I am looking at.. This Little Son looks at your Picture.. and hands wants to grab your Picture.. and tries to get closer to the Picture.. But.. I would pull the Baby Teddy Bear away.. and He looks at me starts to cry.. saying that is MOMMA.. and I just can't believe.. this Baby Teddy Bear knows the Picture is YOU.. knows who his Momma is.. and as I would pull away.. I want to draw.. I tell the Baby Teddy Bear.. Please.. let me draw on the sketch paper.. I hear another Crying on the back.. it is His Sister.. and they are twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. One.. the sister is sleeping on the Bed.. the Daughter.. and I can hear a crying and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. she has woken UP from sleep.. and Looking for MOMMA.. and I turn around.. as I get up.. the Little Son.. He starts to cry as I am holding.. I turn away from the desk.. holding the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. Now I hear both crying.. Both crying for their Momma.. and as I put the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear on the Bed.. next to His sister.. both are crying as I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. I just don't know what to do.. when Both are crying together.. looking for Momma.. and it breaks my Heart because I do also Miss YOU as well.. I want to see YOU.. then I wonder how these two Baby Teddy Bears be feeling.. when they belong to YOU and being that part of family.. I am watching both crying and crying.. hands are asking to be Hold.. and I am just standing here.. ALL I wanted to do is to draw picture of YOU.. sitting by the desk.. looking at the picture of YOU.. and just to draw the picture.. to know how much I love YOU.. and I wanted to show YOU and to give it as a gift to YOU.. but it seems like it is Not working at this point.. What am I suppose to Do.. the two baby Teddy bears are crying.. they are looking for MOMMA.. am I suppose to call YOU.. because they will not stop Crying.. I can't even draw picture of YOU any More because.. they are crying.. I can't concentrate with Two babies crying.. as I would look.. I would pick up the Phone.. but when I picked UP the Phone.. it was YOU who was calling.. and I would hear your voice on the Other side.. I smile because I was about to call YOU.. and YOU have read my mind.. asking about How the two baby Teddy Bears be doing.. and YOU can hear the two crying.. the twins.. Baby Girl and baby Boy.. both crying for MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. and I would tell the two.. It is MOMMA on the Phone.. and I see both stops crying and I would give the Phone to the Daughter first.. and I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. hands grab and pulling away from His sister.. wanting to hear the voice of their MOMMA.. and I am just.. my Heart.. My Chest.. My Heart.. How much these two are missing their MOMMA.. wanting to see.. I see both ears.. trying to listen to the Voice of their MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. they are so Beautiful.. both.. the twins.. the Baby Teddy Bears.. both so Cute but so Beautiful.. I would turn around.. and I do remember.. I was sitting down on the chair.. by the desk.. Looking at your Picture.. I would look and say to Your Picture.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me hold YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. I know I can love you the way YOU want to be held and want to be loved.. I know that I can love you in a way you would never felt before.. I can tell YOU.. tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. How Much I love YOU.. but.. YOU have to give me the permission.. allow me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and I would be looking at your Picture.. when will you come around so that I can see YOU.. My hand grabbing unto the Pencil.. looking at a sketch of paper.. My hand starts to trace.. using the pencil to draw.. and I am looking at your picture.. to draw you on this sketch paper.. and right when I was about to go deeper.. I hear a knock on the door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I am wondering.. who be knocking at the front door at this time of hour.. it is getting late.. and I am thinking.. maybe I am just too tired that I am hearing things.. so I would begin to use my hand to draw.. I hear another Knocking at the Door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I know this time I heard it right.. so I put the Pencil down.. on top of the Desk and I get UP.. pull out of the chair and I would walk to the front door.. I hear another knocking.. DOK DOK DOK.. I would unlock and Open the Door.. I see you standing there.. and I see you have brought companies.. it is the Twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. and I am wondering.. why would you bring the two Babies here late at night.. is something wrong.. but.. YOU be telling me you are leaving on a vacation.. and wanted me to baby sit the two Baby Teddy Bears.. but I have No children.. and I have NO experiences with kids.. or babies.. why would you bring them over to my House.. and YOU are asking me that it be for few days.. but looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they are the most cute and you have brought what I can use for the two.. what do I do if the two Baby Teddy Bears starts to cry.. asking for MOMMA.. and if they start to miss their MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do then.. because I have No experiences at all.. and I see you get closer.. trying to hand me over the Little SON.. and as I would hold on with my arms.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son starts to cry.. and I see the Little SON.. arms stretching out to YOU.. because He does not want to come to me.. the Cry gets louder and louder.. and arms stretching out to YOU.. wanting to Go to YOU instead of Me.. and His cry so Loud.. hurting my ears.. and I am not sure.. It is so hard for me to control.. and I would ask YOU to come inside.. I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter starts to cry too.. both being very loud cries.. I just don't know what to do.. why are you leaving them with Me.. they are both crying loud for YOU.. asking to take them with YOU.. My Heart hurts.. it hurts because I know How it feels to be in a pain when YOU leave.. as YOU would try to give me the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. She is even more worst.. YOU had to hold Her close.. and She would sleep in your arms.. Would not even come to me.. kicking and screaming when YOU try to get her close to me.. and what happens when the Other Baby Teddy Bear wakes UP and knows YOU are not in the House.. but has left her with Me.. the Other Baby Teddy Bear will find Out that YOU are gone.. but for now.. she may sleep.. if the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter did not come to me when YOU were here.. I know she is Not going to come to me when I am alone with Her.. I feel so Bad.. My Heart breaks as I would watch the Little SON.. He sees you walking.. the BABY TEDDY Bear starts to crawl after you.. I am watching.. my eyes.. I feel my tears going to pour out.. as I see you walking fast.. going to the front DOOR and the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear crawls crying after you.. as I watch YOU leave the front door.. and the door closes behind.. the Little Son.. baby Teddy Bear sits and cries.. and sits by the door waiting for YOU as He keeps on crying for his MOMMA.. I am standing behind.. just wiping my tears.. It hurts.. this Pain.. it feels like a sharp pain has entered in me.. It hurts watching the Little Son

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And look at the Heart pieces falling apart.. WHY do I have to be the one with the Broken Heart.. it hurts me more than It hurts YOU.. as I would walk.. closer to the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son.. keeps on crying.. pointing to the Door.. wanting to go with YOU.. but.. I know that I can't take this Little ONE to YOU.. and I am just standing here.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do at this Point.. because I can't help this Little Son.. even though I want too.. but.. YOU be telling me you wanted to be time alone.. you just wanted so time off.. to refresh Your Head and that is why YOU are leaving and has made me to be the Baby sitter for the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I know you have brought all that is needed for them.. so that part I am ready to do what I was told me to do.. but.. I just can't take the pains of the two baby Teddy Bears be crying.. Now.. I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both sitting on the top of the Bed.. with the Phone in their Ears listening to Your Voice.. Both looks at each other and smiles knowing that They are hearing their MOMMA on the Other side.. so I am getting closer.. and I am wondering.. few days.. but when is that the few days end.. so that I can focus on drawing picture of you on the New Sketch Paper Book I just bought from an Art Shop.. I want to draw a picture of YOU and to show YOU when it is all completed.. I be drawing YOU.. for a long time I wanted to draw a picture of YOU.. I know that I am Not good in drawing.. but I do want to try so that I can tell YOU.. I can show YOU this is My Heart.. Not Just My Heart.. but it is My Love.. this is a way I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but I need a time alone.. I need my own time.. if the two Baby Teddy Bears are here.. I know that I can't draw anything.. so I would get close to the Two baby Teddy Bears.. I am asking if I can have the phone Back.. so that I can talk to YOU.. but it seems like the two Baby Teddy Bears does Not want to give me the Phone.. they want to hear their Momma speak on the Other side.. I see the smiles and giggles together.. it look so beautiful.. how the two are so Beautiful when they smile.. just like their MOMMA.. YOU are the most Beautiful when YOU smile.. as I would watch the Phone being hung UP.. and the two sitting on the Bed.. looking at me.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do now.. they just looks at me.. and both starts to cry.. crying loud wanting to see their MOMMA..I am looking at your Picture.. just thinking about YOU.. if I am sitting here.. and just missing YOU.. I wonder about the two Little Ones.. the Baby Teddy Bears be feeling.. I am looking at the Son.. and I am looking at the Daughter.. Both so adorable and so Cute.. and I want to see YOU.. of course both are in the cribs and they are sleeping.. I just came Out of the room.. and two rooms in this House.. as I am thinking about the Long Day.. I would be hearing crying.. Just crying for Momma.. and I would be showing the two Little Teddy Bears Your Picture.. and I would see the Son.. I would say.. this is Your MOMMA.. do you see her.. which I am speaking about You.. and the Little Son.. He would grab your Picture with both hands.. and Looks at the Picture.. sitting on the Couch.. and I am looking at him.. standing UP.. I would see the two tears.. lines of tears running down the cheeks.. and I am thinking.. what am I suppose to do.. This Little Son is crying for YOU.. and I see the kiss.. kissing the Picture of YOU and saying.. MOMMA.. MOMMA I miss YOU and I am just standing.. am I suppose to call YOU on the Phone.. of course the Little Son is more quiet.. but the Daughter.. has a pink Bow on top of the Head.. wearing Pink shirt.. I know that this Daughter is Hungry.. I remember you calling me on the Phone.. and I would hear the ringing.. so I pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOU on the Other side of the Line.. and I am looking at the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. I would sit Her on the Diner Table.. and she Sits on the chair you brought from your Home.. I would be trying to tell YOU.. why doesn't the Daughter Eat.. I know that she must be hungry.. but I am looking at her.. the Daughter.. sitting on her chair.. and I see the head turns to look at me.. and crying.. I can hear the weeping loud.. asking where is MOMMA.. I miss MOMMA and I would just stand there.. what am I suppose to do.. and I would be walking to the Diner room.. and I would stand by the chair the Daughter is sitting down.. and I would lower myself to look at the Little Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. and I would ask.. Can I face Time YOU.. so that this Daughter can take a Look at you.. she has been crying.. and I would ask if she wanted to eat.. the Little Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter would tell me No.. I just fed the Little Son.. did Not cry at all when I gave him some bowl of rice.. as I would face time YOU.. and I am looking at you through the Screen.. I really miss YOU.. of course I am not just going to stand here and cry like these two little Ones are.. but I want to see YOU.. if I am missing you a lot.. then I wonder how these two be feeling.. and I would show the Little baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter the Face time.. and I see that She loves to see YOU.. and wiping the tears for her eyes and looking at you.. I hear the voice.. words.. I miss My MOMMA.. Where are YOU.. when are YOU coming Home.. and I can feel my Heart be shaking hear those words.. and I see you on the face time.. YOU are smiling looking at the Daughter.. I hear the words from YOU telling the Daughter.. I love YOU.. and I miss You too.. and My Heart.. my hand touch my chest.. did YOU hear that.. it is my Heart just woke UP to those words.. I am looking at you on Face time.. I wish that those words be said to Me.. I wonder if YOU would ever tell me those words.. I know that YOU love the two Baby Little Teddy Bears.. your Little Son and the Daughter.. both staying at my House.. but.. I want you to come soon.. I never thought it be this hard to be missing YOU.. but when I am looking at the two Little Teddy Bears and they are missing YOU.. and watching them both crying.. and Looking for YOU and waiting for YOU.. it breaks my Heart.. especially every Night.. I would watch the Little Baby Teddy Bear the Son.. He would sit on the floor and Looks at the front door.. and Just looks at the door knob.. and just stares for a while.. waiting for YOU.. and finger points at the Door Knob and turns the Head to look at me.. asking me.. MOMMA.. take to My MOMMA.. is MOMMA coming home tonight.. and turns the head to look UP at the Door.. as I would stand behind with few steps behind.. I do not want to go pick him up.. the Little Baby Teddy Bear.. the Son.. when I go and share the bad news that YOU are Not coming Home.. I hate to see because when my hands reach and arms hold the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little son.. right when I pick him Up.. He starts to cry.. and Loud and Loud cries I hear.. I hate it because He would Not stop crying.. I don't want to say to HIM.. MOMMA is Not coming home tonight.. and When I do.. the Cry grows louder and louder and screams for MOMMA.. my Heart.. I can feel my Heart be shaking because I want to scream and cry too.. because It breaks my Heart.. after few minutes of crying.. I see that He goes to sleep.. in my arms wrapped around.. I see the Baby Teddy Bear sit still.. and I go into the room.. where the two cribs are.. put into the Crib where he sleeps.. I know that YOU told me about a week YOU are going to stay away.. going on a vacation but I am wondering.. why did YOU not take these two with YOU.. and had to leave them with Me.. Now as I am looking at YOU.. on the Face time on the screen.. I would look at the Daughter smiling.. waving the hand at YOU.. and giggles and wiggles.. and I hear you saying to be a Nice baby girl.. and telling the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter that She needs to eat.. if she is hungry.. to eat.. that I am Not a bad person.. but there to be here for the two.. so I am smiling as the baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter sits on the chair.. and saying Yes to your words.. I have already prepared for the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. I have her Bowl with rice and Meat.. I have set it on the table where she is sitting.. and I would take the Phone away from Her.. and I am looking at YOU.. I hear the crying starting after I took the Phone away.. as I am looking at YOU on the screen of this Face Time.. I would hear YOU say to me.. I am suppose to feed Her.. that she loves it when I sit next to her.. and I feed her with the Spoon.. the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son is more like On his Own but She is different.. like a baby.. and I hear more crying from Her.. and so I would pull the chair.. the chair I sit to eat and I would sit next to her.. and I give the Phone to the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. I would pick Her up and let her sit on my Lap.. as the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Daughter sits.. I would look at the Bowl of rice.. scooping with the Spoon.. putting a Cow meat on top.. I am looking at the Little Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. she opens her mouth Wide.. and she is looking at YOU on the Phone screen on Face time.. and I see YOU looking at the BABY TEDDY BEAR.. the Daughter.. and I hear you smile.. and saying.. GOOD JOB.. and I can hear her chewing and eating.. I was truly scared that this One may go starve.. I tried to give her the same Bowl of Rice and the beef meat.. had to cut the meat into smaller pieces.. but would Not eat when I tried.. But now.. I see the main reason why the Daughter.. the Baby Teddy Bear would not take it from a strange person.. I see How delicate this One truly is.. I would see the Daughter.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. showing YOU her teeth and showing how she is chewing.. as I would scoop another bowl of rice.. putting a smaller pieces of beef meat on the top.. I see the Baby Teddy Bear

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Oink Oink.. I am wondering why did YOU want to break up with Me.. Did you not told me that YOU loved me.. One night.. when we were sitting Out by the park.. you were inside the front passenger of the car.. I was sitting on the driver side.. I saw you unlocking.. opening the door.. and YOU went Out.. telling me to come out side.. I have never heard the excitement of your Voice.. I do remember unlocking the driver side of the door and I went out side.. YOU are the One who told me that YOU loved the night.. of course I am truly Opposite because I love the new Day.. love watching the Sun in the middle of the day.. YOU are looking UP toward the sky.. finger Points and I turn to LOOK toward your finger pointing.. telling me that YOU love the Moon.. and looking around the sky are many stars shining across the sky and telling me.. if I have the camera.. please take the Picture of the Moon for YOU.. and I am wondering.. why do YOU love the Moon so much.. why are you telling me these things when I love the Sun.. in the day.. but.. I did not say a Word to you because I saw that big smile on your face.. YOU looked so lovely.. so Beautiful.. so wonderful this very night.. I just did Not want to say.. I brought the Camera which was in the back seat.. so Opening the Door behind the driver's door.. I would take the Camera Out.. when I look at the camera.. I think of you the Most.. because I am most happiest when I get to take a picture of YOU.. when YOU are smiling and when YOU are at the most happiest. just watching you smile.. makes me smile inside.. because I don't like to see you sad at all.. as I showed you the camera in my hand.. I see you turning.. Looking UP towards and finger Points at the MOON.. telling me to take the picture of that Moon.. but.. I want to take a picture of YOU instead.. because YOU are so much prettier.. much beautiful than that Moon I see up on the sky.. of course I did what YOU say.. I would look UP.. putting my eyes close and looking through the Lens.. and I press the button and it click to take a Picture.. and I would look at you after I taken the picture.. Can I take a Picture of YOU too.. I know that this camera is crying for me to see through the lens o this Camera because I love taking pictures of YOU.. when YOU smile.. the Picture comes out just too perfect.. and I see you telling me yes.. I would move back.. walking few steps back and I stop.. you are standing by the Door.. the passenger door.. my eye get closer and looks through the lens.. and I am Zooming in closer.. looking at YOU.. and I see you smile.. that is when My Finger presses and it clicks.. taking the Picture of YOU.. and that very Night.. I just found something More about YOU.. that YOU love staring at the Moon and loves the Night.. and I remember you be saying.. the reason why YOU love the Moon.. it brings true Peace in your Heart.. everything is silent.. everything is still and that is just the way YOU like to live.. of Course.. when YOU told me this.. I did not want to bring any problems to YOU.. but No one is perfect.. I am Not perfect.. and I am standing in the Room.. all by myself.. after I heard from YOU.. on the Phone telling me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. I would stay still.. walking into my room.. looking at the desk.. there is two pictures on the top of the desk.. and the first picture is the MOON.. and the second picture is YOU standing by the passenger door of the car.. with that Big Smile.. I just could not hold my emotions In.. so I started to cry.. tears kept on running down my eyes.. what did I do.. what did I say to YOU.. when was the last time we fought or argued.. as I am wiping the tears from my eyes.. next to the two pictures is this One Book.. and I know that I must return this Book back to the Library.. even though I want to read the Book.. I am feeling so much pain right Now.. I am feeling so much Hurt.. why does it hurt so Much to Love YOU.. why does it has to hurt so much.. did YOU ever loved Me.. that Night.. I remember after I took the two picture.. I went closer to YOU.. and I asked you.. can I hold you and wrap my arms around YOU.. would you please let me feel you close.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. as I would walk closer.. I see you walk closer to me and My arms fold and wrap around YOU.. and I just could Not breathe because My Heart kept on beating so fast.. I know that It must means that I really really love YOU.. I remember you be telling me in my arms.. YOU can feel and hear my Heart Beat.. and I would turn to your ear and I would whisper.. because I love you so much.. and from the words of YOUR lips I heard.. I love you.. and it just melted my Heart.. I wanted to fall down.. making my legs grow so weak.. because hearing this from YOU.. like my Heart always wanted to hear.. and Now.. I am in the room.. thinking about the Park.. and How you told me these things.. and even realized How much YOU loved the MOON.. many nights I would walk out side at Night now.. after knowing these things about YOU.. I would walk out side alone.. looking UP toward the Sky.. I would come across the Moon.. some days I will Not see it.. but from time to time when I do see It.. I would point my finger at the Moon.. just thinking about YOU when YOU did It.. My Heart.. OH My Heart.. and just going back when My arms.. Holding YOU close.. my Heart kept on racing and Beating.. and I just wanted to be still and stay still for a Long time.. it was not even too long ago when this happened to Me.. But Now.. I am starting to like the Moon.. and it became loving the MOON and I realize.. it does bring Peace because of the stillness of the Night.. quiet and silent.. and I would be staring at the MOON.. and whenever I see that Moon.. I think of YOU.. I think of YOUR smile.. I think of the camera.. and taking the picture of YOU with your Smile.. and Now.. it is heart breaking.. It hurts me so bad because I still love YOU.. why did you tell me that night that YOU loved me.. I heard from the words of your lips that YOU too love me.. when I held you and wrapped my arms around YOU.. I meant those words that I have spoken to YOUR ear because it came from my Heart.. I felt it that Night because it was the Night when you shared something that YOU told me you never told before.. and knowing that I loved to take pictures of YOU.. even what you loved the Most.. you have expressed your Heart to me.. I felt your words when YOU told me holding you still.. underneath the Stars and the Moon.. but.. why are you telling me now that YOU want to break up.. why don't you tell me the reason for the breaking UP.. is it because of Me or is it because of someone else.. or you never loved me in the first place but just wanted to say it to make me feel good at that moment.. my hand grabs the Picture of YOU.. smiling.. standing by the passenger car door.. and I am looking at YOU through the picture.. I am aching so Much right Now.. I feel like YOU have torn my Heart into pieces.. why is it hurting me so bad.. why are you hurting me like this.. and I would starts to close both of my eyes.. My Heart.. WHY does it feel like my Heart is tearing from the Inside.. Like I want to grab this BOOK.. and tear the pages into pieces.. why does it hurt me so Hard.. and I open both eyes and tears runs down from both eyes.. It hurts.. It hurts me so Bad.. these tears.. is it turning to red.. it burns my Heart as my tears just running down.. and I would pull out the chair and sit.. putting the picture on the top of the Desk.. why does it has to hurt me so Much.. I know that Night.. I told YOU because I really do love YOU.. my Heart hurts.. and I feel these tears from out of my eyes.. this pain that is killing me and eating me from the inside because I love YOU.. and I wanted to call YOU on the Phone to explain.. but I am Not going to make myself look so dumb.. maybe I do deserve this Pain.. maybe there is something I have been holding back.. I am still wondering why do you have to tell me those two words.. Break Up.. and Now it hurts me deeply.. so trying to get YOU off my Mind.. I would grab the Book.. and I would open the front.. the first page and I would look at the first chapter of the Book.. and I start to read the sentences of the first Page.. but I just keep on thinking of YOU.. My Heart just can't read.. my eyes just don't want to read right Now.. only thing is that tomorrow I must go to the Library.. I know that YOU will be there.. a project with friends.. so I know that if I go there tomorrow.. I may find you working on a project.. but I am thinking.. I am not invited.. so I would get UP on the Chair.. and I would go to the Bed.. and just sit on the top of the Bed.. I know that I won't be sleeping through the Night.. I am thinking of YOU just too much.. so I would get Out of the Bed.. and I would walk out of the front Door.. and I would be walking Out side in the Night.. and as I would turn to Look UP.. I see the Moon.. I don't want to see the Moon this very

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I am looking at your Picture.. looking at you smiling.. I just wish I can remember this Place.. I am wondering.. who is the One who has taken this Picture.. I know that someone had to stand on the Other side.. and had to look through the lens of the camera.. and just focusing on YOU.. and had to click to take that picture.. as I am in the second room.. looking at the Vase.. the empty Vase.. and looking at your picture.. I wish that It was me.. was it me who was standing on the Other side.. was it really me?? YOU told me that I was with YOU.. and that YOU asking me if I remember any of all these things.. why is it so Hard.. it is so difficult on my part because I want to go back and remember all of these things that has happened.. but the More I am trying to think about YOU.. the more it seems harder to remember these times.. and the Voice.. Your voice I hear when I am talking to you on the Phone.. when YOU call me.. and I would answer.. I am wondering How did I get into this House.. because I just don't remember.. I even saw few people walking in.. the Movers with their truck.. putting all kinds of things into this House.. how did these people got here.. I have so much questions.. but I know that it is you who are putting all these things through.. I am standing in the second room.. looking at your picture.. the only One thing that I can look through.. but I just want to remember YOU.. How did we meet.. How did I fall in love with YOU.. what happened.. I know that YOU told me I got into the car wreck.. could of died in the accident but I guess just the Life that is still in me.. I should be truly thankful to be even alive.. as I am looking at your picture.. I can hear the Phone ringing.. and I see your Picture I have put on the Phone.. and it shows me who is calling me.. as I would pick up the Phone.. putting against my ear to listen to Your Voice.. I wonder.. are you ever going to show UP.. are you going to stop by to visit me.. can you please Help me to remember more about YOU.. because YOU are still a mystery to Me.. I needs to know more.. I needs to ask More.. I want to find out more about YOU.. but.. I know that YOU don't say too much.. why are you being like this to me.. YOU are the one who calls me.. but never say too much.. WHY.. Please tell me what is holding you back to say.. I know that YOU want to say something.. please tell me.. Please tell me because I too have an ear to hear your words.. only if YOU can share and express what is deep in your Heart.. I really wants to know.. and I am looking at another Picture.. this Picture is a Heart.. a red Heart.. why did YOU place this Picture next to Your Picture.. what does this Heart Picture means.. what are you trying to tell me.. Are you telling me that YOU love a Heart.. or trying to tell me that YOU have a Heart.. or are you asking me DO I have a Heart or do I love a Heart.. I must know why.. why put it next to your Picture on the second room.. as I am looking at the two picture on top of the desk.. my hand holding the Phone.. I can hear the breathing.. can I ask YOU something.. WHY is there a picture of A Heart.. who has taken this Picture and why did it be placed in this Desk and I would hear you say.. that I would Love the Heart.. and I am standing here.. with a Question Mark.. that I love a Heart.. does that Means it was me who has taken this Picture.. I know that the first room.. it has a Bed and on the top of the Bed.. I saw a Heart.. it was a pillow Heart.. and It was Me who has taken that picture.. but why can't I remember.. I don't remember taken any picture.. and I would think back.. a little flash back.. I see you sitting on the Top of the Bed.. your arms holding around the Red Heart Pillow.. and I would hear you even tell me the same thing on the Phone.. that one night.. I came into the first room.. and YOU were sitting down on the top of the Bed.. and I would stand and I would watch YOU.. your Arms around the Red Heart.. telling me that YOU love red Heart.. and would smile as you would squeeze it.. and YOU put on the bed next to YOU.. and I would walk closer.. hands holding the camera.. and I would put my eye close to the Lens of the Camera and ZOOM closer.. and snap Shot taking a picture.. and as I put the camera down.. I would turn to look at YOU and I would say.. I want this Heart.. But I want your Heart like this.. can I please have your Heart.. would you please give me YOUR HEART because I truly need it.. I want to have It.. Have your Heart.. and I would see you smile as I would turn to walk away from the first room.. as I am standing still in the Second ROOM.. I am able to get or catch a glimpse.. I think little by little.. things are coming that I am beginning to see something.. Still I can't remember but the little pieces of puzzle like.. I feel like YOU are truly helping me to find YOU back to my Heart.. I know that I loved YOU once that is before the Car accident.. I still can feel inside that I still love YOU.. when YOU are telling me these things on the Phone.. YOU are helping me because without YOU.. How can I know.. it is what YOU know that is bringing things back.. but slowly it is taking a long time.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. only YOU can bring my Heart to be alive.. Only YOU can help me to love YOU once again because I never stopped loving YOU.. as I would turn away.. my Hand holding the Picture of the Heart.. the red Heart.. I would walk out of the second room.. I wonder if I can see Your Heart.. I want to know the color of Your Heart.. would you let me see the color of the Heart.. does it look like this Heart.. the red Heart in the picture.. would you let me see the Color of Your Heart.. because I love this red Heart.. as I would walk out the front door.. it is very cold outside.. and I am standing.. with the Jacket on.. I walk to the front.. LOOKING at the flurry of snows falling from the sky.. and my Hand.. holding the picture of the Red Heart.. I would lift up my arm.. and I can see the Picture.. I lift to see the Red Heart in the Photo.. I want to see your Heart.. I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to know and want to see the color.. can I take a Picture of Your Heart.. I means your Real Heart.. so that I can put this away and look at your Real Heart.. the shape and the color.. and get close so that I can tell your Heart something.. that Maybe if I can see the real Heart of Yours.. I can bring the memories I have lost and can remember everything about YOU.. I really want to know.. I want to be the One who can tell your Heart.. as I have the Phone on the Other hand.. I know that YOU are still there.. because I did not hang UP.. I wanted you to hear my voice.. I wanted you to hear my words as I am speaking looking at the Picture of the Red Heart.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though I don't remember much.. I know that IN my Heart.. I still be loving YOU.. because looking at the Red Heart.. it is making me share and express How my thoughts.. that I want to see YOU.. I want to see you visit me.. even though I may not be able to go to you.. I wish that YOU can come to me because I am waiting for YOU.. when are you going to come.. I don't want to take the picture of the Red Heart because it is only a Pillow that is laying on top of the Bed.. what I truly want now is to look at your real Heart.. to see the color of Your Heart.. to take a picture of Your Heart.. and I want to ask YOU about the Vase.. the empty Vase that is in the second room.. I have all these Questions that Only YOU know.. only the answers you can give.. but I do not want to hear Your Voice.. even though I love hearing your Voice.. I want to see you in Person and to hear from YOU.. so that I can be near YOU.. only if YOU can come.. come visit me.. help me to know what this is all about.. because Only you have the answers I am looking for.. Only if YOU were here.. if you were close by.. and if YOU can come out side.. there are flurry of Snows falling from the sky.. it is so beautiful here.. it is so beautiful because when I see the flurries of Snows falling.. I am thinking of YOU.. wishing that It be YOU who is here and looking at the Picture of the Red Heart.. just imagining that this is You.. I am missing YOU.. only thinking that I wish YOU be here with me.. and looking at your real Heart.. I want to see your real Heart.. love your Real Heart.. can I take a Picture of Your Heart.. so that I don't have to look at this Red Heart anymore.. let me take a peek of Your Heart so that I can love and tell you how much I love you.. as I would walk back into the house.. all I wish is that YOU are here.. all I wish that YOU can be in this House with Me.. helping me to know what I am losing.. because I do not want to lose you.. I know that if I can't get the memories back.. what I am afraid is of losing

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Link.. if YOU can come.. come and visit just for one day.. so that I can take this one Picture of YOU.. I want to take that picture.. your arms around.. holding and squeezing this Red Heart.. and What I will say.. DO I love YOU.. the More you can hold your arms around the Heart.. the red Heart.. I will say that I do Love YOU.. please squeeze my Heart.. Please Hold My Heart.. if you don't.. then I am going to be the one to hold and squeeze your Heart and I will tell your Heart.. please love Me.. Please can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. Please just love me.. love my Heart so that I can tell your Heart.. that I love YOU.. Now I am missing YOU.. missing this One picture.. YOU are holding the Red Heart.. only YOU can hold it while I take the picture of YOU holding it.. I just bought a New Home.. Leaving the City life into the Country side.. I am walking over the Mountains.. into the Hills and to the valley.. a Small Log House in the woods.. as I am walking through the Snow.. I stop to see.. the Flakes are falling from the Sky.. I am very close to the Log Cabin House.. Finally.. I have been waiting to get Out of the city life.. as I stop.. I am able to see the Snow flakes falling from the Sky.. as I unlock the Door.. and I enter the Small Log Cabin Home.. as I look into the Small Two bed room Home.. I am wondering.. why did I even buy a House with two rooms.. I have no one coming over.. but I know that If I prepare the place.. Maybe.. some one will show Up.. I have never met the person who use to Live in this Small Log Cabin house.. as I walk into One of the rooms.. There is a Desk.. I wonder why someone has left this Desk Behind.. something stops me before I turn to walk away.. I see something on the TOP of the Desk.. what is It.. I am wondering.. what is It.. SO I would walk closer to the Desk.. there is a Written Note.. and Next to the Note is a Picture.. of course I can only see the back of the Picture.. I am wondering.. maybe it must be the Picture of the Person who use to live in this Small Log Cabin House.. But why would some one leave a precious Gift behind.. if I lived in this House.. I know for sure I will Not leave anything special.. or Precious to me behind.. But.. should I turn the Picture over to see who this Person is.. I am standing there.. thinking of.. but I know that this is Not my picture.. WHY would I turn it over to look if it is Not for Me.. I am sure.. maybe the Person was in a rush.. and has forgotten to take this Picture.. but.. WHY would YOU write a Note for me.. I know that the written Note.. it is telling me.. giving me an instruction.. but why would you tell me something.. I can just live whatever I want.. I see the Note Next to the Picture.. Both are facing where I cannot see.. as I would stop.. maybe I should take a Look.. must be very important if YOU have written for the New Home Owner.. which I have purchased this Small Log Cabin Home from YOU.. I have never met YOU.. but Of course I do remember before the Contract.. YOU called me on the Phone.. and Got a chance to listen to Your Beautiful Voice.. Now.. I am very curious.. YOUR voice.. truly felt like I was listening to an Angel.. I know that If you sang a SONG.. I bet it would melt my Heart like the Snow Flakes.. I would stand Out side.. before I came to the DOOR.. to Unlock.. I would LOOK Up to the sky.. My hand opens.. I would watch the Falling snow flakes.. when It touched my hand.. it just melted and maybe Your Voice.. if YOU sang to Me.. My Heart can melt the way the Snow Flakes can melt into my hands.. I was smiling because I been living in apartment for a Long time.. just paying rent to rent monthly.. But.. Now.. able to purchase a new Home.. Out here in the Country side.. walking and climbing on the mountains.. just enjoying the fresh cold air as I would be walking through the Snow.. never felt so Alive in my life.. But Now.. I am here.. inside this Small Log Cabin Home.. and I just walked into a ROOM.. YOU did not take the desk.. there is a Picture laying on the TOP of the desk face down.. with a written Note facing down.. I am just wondering.. I remember when I picked UP the Phone.. and hearing your voice on the Other side.. on the Other line.. Your Voice.. it truly touched my Heart.. I begin to wonder more about YOU because of this Sensational touch.. Your Voice moved my Heart.. I felt it kick inside of Me.. and never felt that way before.. so I would start wondering.. I wonder How YOU would look.. as YOU were so happy to sell the House and even telling me Congratulation on the purchase of the New Home.. as I would share with YOU how I lived in rents all my Life.. but able to get a house means everything to me.. giving me a great deal in the purchase.. of course I wanted to ask YOU.. if YOU can sing.. because I wanted to know if YOU can sing.. can YOU sing a song so that I can listen to Your voice with my Heart opened.. but of course I never asked.. YOU probably think I am a crazy person.. as I am standing by the desk.. My hand grabs the Picture.. I wanted to turn it over.. I wanted to see the person who I just spoke with ON the Phone.. YOUR voice.. I just want to hear again.. can I listen to Your Voice.. would you let me call you on the Phone so that I can listen.. My Heart wants to listen to Your Voice again.. before I want to ask YOU.. I want to know how you look.. why are you so Nice.. why are you so kind to me.. I want to know who YOU are.. WHY would you leave this Picture behind if YOU have never met me.. if YOU have never seen me in person.. why leave me Your Precious gift.. Your Special gift.. I am nothing but a stranger to YOU.. what if I am a weird person.. some crazy person.. would YOU not be afraid of Me.. As I grab the Picture and turn to LOOK at it.. I see YOU sitting.. and My Heart jumps.. My Heart skips missing that Beat.. Just like Your Voice.. soft and beautiful.. I see your picture.. I see YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful too.. YOU are so Lovely.. feels like YOU can take my breathe way.. then what happens to my Breathe if you take it from Me.. what are you doing to me Now.. WHY leave this Picture behind and when I see this Picture.. I can feel my Breathe.. it wants to be released from Me.. I can't breathe.. my eyes wants to say I can't breathe because YOU are so Beautiful.. as I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. YOU are sitting down.. and I am wondering what is it that YOU are holding.. Why are you holding a Vase.. is it a vase for flowers.. I am not sure why YOU are leaving this Picture with Me.. what does it means.. why are you showing me this Picture for.. I have no clue.. I have no idea.. but why are you letting me see this picture.. and making my Heart to say I want to cry.. I have never met you before.. But How is this possible for Me.. why do I feel like I want to love YOU.. please tell me how can this be true because I have never met you before.. as I am looking at your arms holding this vase.. why is it empty.. are YOU not suppose to put something into that Vase.. it is an empty Vase Your hands are holding.. Please.. OH Please tell me what is the meaning of this because I want to know.. I have no clue.. I have no idea why you are showing me this.. I don't see any empty Vase.. but only this Picture.. with a Note.. so I would go over.. my hand grabs the Note and flips to look.. and YOU have written to me about the Picture.. and telling me about the Vase.. an Empty Vase.. and YOU have left it on the Other Room.. and I am not sure why YOU would tell me this.. what am I suppose to do with the Empty Vase.. I don't have any flowers.. and all it tells me to take good care of the Empty Vase.. and Now.. YOU are letting me to keep it.. so I am standing in this room wondering.. YOU are giving me this Empty Vase.. but I have no flowers to put in it.. so what am I suppose to do with this.. SO I would turn around walking out of this room.. the Other room is next on the right.. as I enter the second room.. There is another Desk.. and ON top of the Desk is the Vase.. an empty Vase sitting on the top of the Desk.. am I suppose to tell you something about this vase.. am I suppose to share with YOU what I want to do because it is Not making any sense with me a this Point.. I feel like I am Not the Owner of this House anymore.. since YOU are leaving things behind for me to take care of It.. I am not a male servant.. and NO.. I am not here to clean this House either.. I just purchased this House from YOU.. but WHY do I feel like there is a person who Owns it and maybe I am just renting this Place.. that is how I am feeling because.. I have to watch over things that does Not belongs to me.. I have brought my own bags and luggage so that NOW I can live in this house.. and I stand on the second room.. Looking at the Vase.. has water inside this Vase so it is Not completely empty.. but still looks empty to Me.. so I walk over to the second Desk.. 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Am so Confused because why would you show me these things if YOU don't know me.. and there is a Note also.. it was next to the Picture.. My hand goes over to grab the Note and I turn it over to take a LOOK.. and I would read it.. it says.. Do you remember Me.. when we were YOUNG.. because NOW I remember YOU is what the Note been written ON.. and I am thinking.. Have we ever met before.. DID I see you when we were YOUNG.. I don't really remember meeting any one when we were Young.. but it seems like YOU know me.. why would you tell me this.. Maybe YOU are writing to another person.. but then knowing that it is I who just purchased this House.. It has to be for Me.. who else lives in this House.. I am the only one who bought this House from YOU.. so I know that we met before.. and telling me when were young.. HOW long was this.. How old was I when I met YOU.. Please tell me.. and I am thinking about calling YOU on the Phone.. But.. I am Not just going to call YOU and say I don't remember YOU.. so How am I suppose to answer this question because I don't remember.. I am trying to go back.. way way way back to see if I do remember you.. I am closing both eyes.. Both.. Nothing I can see back then.. why.. when did we ever meet before.. I am looking at Your Picture.. the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the Empty Vase.. and I would look at the Picture.. WHEN was it that we meet.. I have No clue.. Please give me a Hint.. I feel like I am a crazy person.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU and just talking.. knowing YOU are Not going to answer back from It.. that is How crazy I am becoming because Now.. I am wondering.. when and where.. what age.. what school.. was it in the apartments.. NOT sure.. but Please tell me when because I truly want to know now.. I hate it when things are so mysterious.. I want to know.. YOU are the only one who knows that is why YOU are asking me.. what am I suppose to do and how do I say this to you if I tell YOU I don't know.. it can hurt you as much it will hurt me not knowing.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. I open the door.. comes into the House.. I see large boxes.. two Large boxes enter the first room.. and another two Large Boxes places in the second room.. I see couch.. I see tables chairs.. More boxes comes into the Log Cabin home.. on the Diner room and the living room.. into the kitchen.. I see the Movers walking in and Out of the home.. as I watch the movers walks.. they enter the truck and it goes.. I would be out side.. it feels so good when it is cold.. with my jacket.. I am standing out.. I watch the SUN goes down.. still the SNOW on the ground and I am looking UP to the Sky.. Night Comes and I am looking at the Moon.. I don't know why I think of YOU the most.. especially when I see the Night.. when I look at the MOON.. I start to think of YOU.. do I miss YOU.. I am thinking right Now.. Do you think that I miss YOU.. if you ask Me this question.. standing Out here in the cold.. watching the SUN setting.. as the Wind starts to blow.. the wind chill makes me shiver.. that is how I feel when I think of you.. I get these cold chills.. sending shivers down my spine because I do miss YOU.. feels like when I walk Out.. and I look Up at the Sky.. looking at the MOON.. it is how I feel when I miss YOU.. that I want to see that MOON because I know that down in my Heart.. I think of you the most when I do see that MOON.. do I smile.. I want to smile.. because all I do is smile when I know that YOU are in my Heart.. that you are IN MY MIND and in my soul.. just can't stop think of YOU.. I would look at that MOON.. I am trying to think of the past.. when was the last time I seen YOU.. that I do miss YOU.. I miss YOU more and more.. as I turn to the direction.. I am looking at the door of this Cabin Log Home.. my hand grabs on the door knob and I am wondering.. I have lost my memory.. but I want to know.. I want to know how much did I loved YOU.. YOU would not tell me how much.. if YOU knew me before I lost my memory.. would you not tell me because I asked YOU.. I asked you on the Phone.. How much did I love YOU.. I would wait for your answer.. I just don't remember because I do want to remember.. I asked YOU.. but why can't YOU answer me.. YOU told me that I did Love YOU.. I asked you the question.. DID I love YOU?? there was a short paused.. and a breathing I heard.. I asked YOU the second time.. DID I love YOU?? Please tell me that I loved YOU well.. did I love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. I wanted to know.. I kept on pressing to ask and asking YOU.. I was holding onto the phone.. just waiting for YOU to answer.. there was a short pause and I heard you telling me.. I did love YOU.. and I do remember I just could not say another word.. My Heart.. for some reason it started to Beat faster.. Like I would be running and slowing down trying to catch my breathe and when I stop for a break.. My Heart would beat as like the beat ran faster.. that is HOW My Heart felt when I heard YOU telling me that I did Love YOU.. of course I want to love YOU.. I want to keep on loving YOU.. and I asked again.. How much did I love YOU.. can YOU please tell me.. if YOU answered the first question.. I know for sure you can answer this One.. Please tell me so that I can hear my Heart beat faster when YOU give me the answer.. I heard YOU not say a word.. but why.. YOU told me that I did love YOU.. why couldn't you tell me More.. I want to know.. if YOU can remind me.. maybe I can know.. maybe my memories can come back to Me because I did hear my Heart beat faster when YOU answered the first question.. I really Really want to know.. as I am standing by the door.. MY Hand grab hold unto the Door Knob.. ALL I need to do is turn it and open the door.. I can go into this Log Cabin House.. this New Home that I brought.. before the Movers came.. I do remember One large Box came before the Movers brought many boxes.. smaller and larger into this New Home.. One Large box.. I placed into the ROOM.. the first room.. I do remember opening the top of the Box.. I saw a Picture frame.. it was YOU inside the picture frame.. YOU were sitting on the Couch that just came into this New Home.. I don't remember YOU sitting on that couch.. but YOU were holding the vase.. placing on top of YOUR Lap.. the same Vase that was in the Second room.. but there was a Stem of a Flower.. YOU were smiling and I looked at it.. I don't remember any of it but tears.. there were two lines of tears falling down from my eyes.. as I would look at the picture frame.. inside the picture of YOU siting on the Couch.. I felt so sad because I.. I want to know when was this taken.. I want to know who has taken this Picture.. was it me who was holding the camera.. It must be me because I do know that I loved YOU.. and if that couch came as the Movers brought them into this New Home.. it must been a previous time.. which Home.. whose apartment.. if that Couch belongs to me.. then was it at the old apartment.. was it at a Home.. I just can't remember.. Please help me to remember where and when.. from WHO.. I know that it must be me.. because this One Large Box came yesterday night.. and I brought it into the First ROOM and I opened it to see.. So I know that it belongs to me.. I started to cry when I saw the Picture Frame.. My Heart was shattered because I want to remember.. I want to know when and where it happened.. I know that It was me who took this picture.. why would the Picture frame with YOUR Picture comes inside this Box.. but who had this is the Question on my mind.. was this Box with YOU.. are you the one who send this Box to me so that I can remember.. I did Not want to call YOU.. I knew that YOU wanted to know something but right Now.. I just can't tell YOU because I don't remember.. as I would reach.. my Hands grab onto the Picture Frame.. I am looking at it.. my tears kept running down my cheeks.. I want to remember.. I want to know.. But I do not want to tell YOU anything because if I don't know.. the way My Heart is breaking right Now.. you can feel the say way too.. I looked at the Phone.. I wanted to dial.. but I told myself I am not going to call YOU.. if I don't remember and has NO answers.. I just can't.. if Tears are flowing down my eyes.. I don't want to imagine Your eyes with tears.. If I loved YOU and My Heart still loves YOU.. I just don't want to hurt YOU.. I rather be the one who is hurting.. I want my Heart to be breaking and

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End UP asking YOU.. YOU told me that YOU are NOT going to give me any answers because it is ALL UP to me to figure that OUT.. WHY would you put this Vase.. an empty Vase in this room.. why not in the first room.. why the second ROOM.. have I been here before.. so much un answered questions I must know.. But YOU would not tell me.. as I am looking next to the Vase.. I put the Picture Frame next.. beside it.. and ALL I am looking at is Your Beautiful Face.. Your Smile.. how this same Vase sitting on top of Your Lap.. with a SUN FLOWER inside.. I want to know.. when and where.. that Couch is in the living room of this House.. I just can't remember.. I want to remember.. why don't you call me.. I don't want to call YOU because YOU are going to wonder do I remember anything yet.. because right Now.. I just don't remember anything at all.. but I do wish I knew.. I wish I know now.. but right Now.. all I can think of is when and where.. I know that I must loved YOU.. the more I keep on looking at the picture in the picture frame.. I want to love YOU more.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. but How.. How can I tell YOU that I love you if I don't remember but my Heart is burning within me to tell YOU that I do.. only thing that I want to tell YOU.. I do still love YOU.. but I don't think you would believe anything at all.. because YOU do know that I don't remember.. but something in me tells me that I do.. How am I suppose to express this Love.. the word and to transfer the word to YOU.. that Even though I may not remember.. and has a memory loss.. something keeps on telling me that I do still.. that YOU did not lose any hope because I never stopped loving YOU.. WOULD YOU believe me.. I want YOU to believe these words of mine.. but what If YOU don't.. you may think that I am lying just to make YOU feel good at the moment.. but.. if I loved YOU once.. and YOU knew that I loved YOU a lot.. or More.. that Love will never just leave without a trace.. I know that if I loved YOU.. I will never stop loving YOU.. but.. would YOU believe in this truth.. would you believe me at all.. I am afraid that YOU would Not believe because I am at lost.. BUT Please.. know that I never stopped loving YOU.. YOU are only going to hurt me if YOU just don't believe my words because ALL I can say is that I do.. Thinking about WHY am I here.. and why am I looking at this Empty Vase.. what am I suppose to do with this Empty Vase.. I did received the Note in the first room.. and also got the chance to look at you through the Picture you have left behind.. I know that I am not suppose to have this Picture.. but why do MY hand keeps on holding onto the picture for.. I am trying to leave the Picture behind.. I should of left it in the first room.. on the top of the desk.. but for some reason.. My hand just could NOT let go.. it grabbed onto the Picture.. telling myself.. Just let it go.. I needs to let it go but My Heart says.. telling my Mind.. I know my hand will not let your picture go.. so I have decided to take the Picture with me to the second room.. I am standing here by another Desk.. Now I am very confused about this desk.. why does it look a like.. is it the same desk because I did NOT buy any desk.. I do remember.. when I was talking to YOU on the Phone.. YOU have mention to me that YOU are leaving something behind.. and I am wondering.. if it belongs to YOU.. why don't you just take it with YOU.. why do you want to leave something behind.. and if it is something precious.. something precious to YOU.. I do truly understand that IF YOU MUST need to take it.. Please take it with YOU.. it won't hurt me or bother me if YOU DO.. but.. listening to your Voice on the Other line.. YOU telling me that IT is a bonus for buying.. purchasing this Lovely home.. so I did tell YOU.. thank YOU.. if it is a gift from YOUR Heart to me.. then Yes.. I will receive it.. I will take this gift.. of course YOU never told me that it is going to be two desks.. a Picture with a Note.. and an empty Vase.. But.. I want to know.. what is the Use of this Empty Vase.. why did you not put a note what comes with this Empty Vase.. am I suppose to put flowers inside this Vase.. but it has half filled water.. so.. I guess you should of told me because.. I am looking at this Vase.. not completely empty but has half filled waters.. so I am looking at the CELL PHONE and I do dial your Number.. and I am waiting as I am hearing it ring.. I wait and I hear a Hello on the Other side.. and I tell YOU.. I am the One who just bought this Log Cabin Home from YOU.. and just wanted to ask YOU one simple question.. there are two desks.. one each in the room.. I have a picture of YOU.. am I suppose to have it.. can I please have this Picture because NOW I am the New Home Owner.. the Other Question is this.. what am I suppose to do with the Empty Vase.. it is half filled.. and I am waiting for you to answer.. and I hear your voice telling me.. It was not YOU who put the two desks.. and Yes.. the Picture is Yours.. and the Vase.. Not sure what that is.. but the vase Means Love.. I am just standing there.. thinking.. the Vase means Love.. what does that Means if it is Love.. YOU know that I am Not sure what YOU are talking about.. and I am waiting for YOU to answer.. and I don't hear anything.. and I hear.. DO I not remember.. I pause thinking.. remember what?? am I suppose to remember something.. and I hear.. I don't remember YOU.. and the Phone hangs UP.. It made me jump because you asked me do I remember YOU.. which am I suppose to remember some one and I am thinking.. I am holding a Picture of YOU In my hand.. why is it so hard for me to Let go of Your Picture.. and YOU are the One who left the Picture for me to see it.. and I am thinking.. was I suppose to stand still until I remember you.. until I do know who YOU are.. and then I was suppose to call YOU on the Phone to tell YOU that NOW I know.. and with this Vase.. I know that it must means something.. YOU have left it behind so that I can remember.. But.. why do I feel like my Mind is stuck.. I want to know.. I want to remember.. if YOU are telling me that this Vase means Love.. it has to do with me and this Empty half water vase.. I am suppose to know YOU.. the person YOU.. the One I am looking at this Picture.. I can't remember though.. on the Note it did say I got into an accident.. I was hit by a car so I must went to the Hospital and Blacked Out.. because I was told that some of the memories I won't remember.. How can I lost YOU.. How can I lose someone like you.. and I am looking at the Picture.. I was close to face my own death.. I do remember laying on the Hospital bed.. one of the doctors would say that I be calling Out your name.. of course the Doctor did Not know who I was calling Out too.. But I do remember when I woke UP from the coma.. the Doctor tells me some one came to visit me.. and was crying while I was sleeping.. in a deep coma.. holding my hand.. asking the doctor to save me.. to save my life and begging the doctor.. the doctors all came to help out.. of course the doctor who was the main care taker told YOU.. that I am going to have a loss of memory and I would not remember much.. I do remember sitting UP on the Hospital Bed.. the doctor tells Me.. I was very close to death.. and he did all he can and for some reason.. I would be calling out your Name.. and that is HOW I got UP.. the doctor would look at me asking me.. who is the lady I keep on calling out too.. I was saying a Name.. but I sat there just puzzled.. a NAME?? the doctor said.. because of her Name I was able to get UP.. able to open my eyes.. able to come back to Life.. to breathe again.. if I did not call Out your Name.. I think what this doctor means.. I would of been dead.. I am wondering.. the Name.. I keep on calling Out your Name.. for the longest.. I am here trying to figure OUT who you are.. because I know that I loved YOU.. I keep on looking at your picture and I would say to the Picture.. Is your name I LOVE YOU.. because that is the only Name I can think of.. to tell you from my Heart How much I love you.. what am I suppose to say.. I want to know too.. but I am going through some hard times and that part is trying to figure OUT about Us.. this mystery about what happened.. I want to know because I came to this New Home.. with two desks.. YOU told me that it was not Yours.. then whose desks are these if it is Not Yours.. if I bought this Home from YOU.. how come the desks are here.. and it looks so familiar too me.. as I would look at the vase.. I am not sure if I should keep this.. the Phone rings and I pick it UP.. and I hear your voice.. it feels like I heard your voice before.. I think even before I called to buy this New

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Suppose to do.. put fish.. How about goldfish inside.. I don't even like fish.. and I hear your voice.. it is Love.. and I should not get rid of it because in due time YOU be telling me I will remember.. that One day.. some day soon.. if I love YOU very much I will remember.. and I stood there.. speechless.. my words did Not want to say no more because I know that YOU are right.. yes.. I will remember YOU because I know that My Heart really really Loves YOU.. How much if YOU asked.. I don't know because I have lost count.. when YOU go outside in the Night and count the stars.. and if YOU can't count no more.. I know that it is more than those Numbers you counted and lost counted.. that is How much I love YOU.. I would try to count the stars.. I did lost the count.. just too much.. too much to count.. as I would stay on the Phone.. I would hear you telling me.. the House is a nice place to live.. and that YOU loved it.. and I would ask.. WHY did YOU sell this House.. if YOU really loved it.. and not much YOU would say so there is a true mystery about this Place.. about this Vase.. about YOU.. about the picture.. and I don't remember much.. as I am looking at your picture.. I would say.. will YOU allow me to see YOU.. will you give me the permission so that I can know YOU in person.. will you give me the chance to remember YOU.. because right Now.. I don't remember anything at all.. all I do remember is your Voice.. YOUR voice sounds to familiar like I have known you for a Very long time.. that is the only feeling or thought I am getting when I listen to Your Voice.. it moves My Heart where I want to see YOU.. will you allow me to see YOU.. and I hear.. YOU live very far.. and that right now is Not the good time.. and it breaks my Heart.. because I want to see YOU.. I want to know YOU.. so that YOU can help me to remember How much I loved YOU.. will you let me stay a little longer on the line.. I know that YOU are going to tell me something.. that YOU needs to go.. but what If My Heart does Not want to let go.. just like my hand.. holding to YOUR picture.. it just will not let it go.. I think because I know why.. it is like looking at this vase.. it is love.. loving YOU still.. just loving YOU because My Heart remembers loving YOU.. even though I don't my Heart just knows.. YOU and that you wanted to keep it forever in your Heart.. I have the picture with Me.. YOU told me to bring the Camera Out.. when we were at the Park.. YOU told me if I have the camera.. if I can take a Picture of the Moon.. I saw your Finger pointing UP toward this MOON.. I have taken the Picture.. it is Not my picture but Your Picture of this Moon.. can YOU please come and get it.. YOU told me when I get this picture to give it to YOU.. you wanted to keep it forever.. what am I going to do with this picture when it is Not mine but Yours.. and I turn to LOOK UP at the Moon.. Please come and get your Picture because I love YOU.. I asked you to love me.. I even told YOU that I love YOU.. you told me that you loved Me.. then why are you not getting this Picture.. YOU told me how much YOU loved the Moon.. Here is the Moon that YOU love.. I just want to give it back to YOU because YOU can hate me.. but I will always love YOU.. I will still love YOU until you know that I love YOU and that YOU know in your Heart that YOU love me too.. I open to look.. Is the Letter here.. inside I don't see any letters from YOU.. of course I never asked for you to ever write me back.. but maybe.. just in case.. maybe you be surprising me with a Letter.. I would wait for the Mail Man.. but for some reason on this Very night.. I do not see the truck coming.. as One hour goes by.. all I can see is the Moon.. I am looking UP at the Moon.. my hand waves at the Moon.. only the Moon knows my Heart.. I guess NO one understands how much I love YOU.. but does that MOON sees my Will.. I am so determined to let it Out.. to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. do you even see my Heart Yet.. only times when it is Hard.. I will go out side.. standing by the Mail Box.. waiting for the Mail man to come.. Of course I have the third Letter.. In my hand is the envelope.. with your address and Your Name written on the envelope.. looking to see if the Truck comes.. I am holding.. the Letter has been written last Night.. and I been waiting all through the day.. hoping that this Letter.. inside the envelope gets to YOU.. I was so happy.. when the Mail man told me.. He saw YOU.. when He was driving the Mail Truck.. on the way to your House.. he saw your mail box.. stopping by the mail box.. the Door opens and the Mail Man waves his hand saying Someone has written a Letter to YOU.. and He opens the mail box and puts the envelope inside the Mail box and he drives away.. Just thinking a glimpse of YOU.. I would only look at your Picture.. but I am so sad because I wish I can be the Mail man who drives that Truck.. only if I can get a glimpse of YOU.. just to even stop by the Mail box.. just to see you stand by your Door.. and to see you Smile.. even if I can wave my hands at you and give YOU that smile.. it means everything to me.. I would say.. here is another Letter.. I know that I would not get close to YOU.. but the Hope to dream of Love.. the Hope to even ask if I can put a Letter in your Mail box.. that Hope to say I love YOU even though YOU may be standing Far.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. even the distance between YOUR mail box.. sitting on the Truck.. to Put the Letter inside the envelope there is a HOPE to say I love YOU.. I kiss the envelope.. seal with my Heart of JOY and Love.. but to tell YOU what it means to write you a Letter.. because YOU KNOW it is the Hope of just loving you.. when YOU have a Hope.. it means I can dream of something Bigger.. something greater that can happen one day.. I am not asking for YOUR hand right Now.. but I can still have Hope and Dream to love YOU.. this Letter.. I would kiss the Letter after I wrote.. folding into halves and Placing into the envelope.. writing your name and Your Address.. when I look at the Truck.. the mail Man comes with a smile.. and I give him the envelope inside is the letter I wrote and I tell HIM.. you know who this is too.. Please take it to YOU.. and He smiles and knows.. But now.. I know that he tells me that YOU are receiving the envelope with the Letter I have wrote.. I would be sitting on the Desk.. sometimes I would write so fast.. I make mistakes and I have to use the eraser to erase the Letter I marked wrong.. but knowing that the mail man is delivering to the right Mail Box.. to YOU.. I know that I can put my mind at ease.. Last Night I had a drink of wine.. of course I am standing by my mail box.. I am holding the envelope in my Hand.. the Letter is inside and I am still waiting for the Truck.. Looking at the MOON.. I had a drink last Night.. I wanted to cry.. I had a drink last Night.. I started to miss YOU.. I wanted to see YOU.. but I know that I just can't right Now.. sometimes I am wondering.. How long does this wait must be.. am I going to be here by the mail Box.. I don't want to just stand here by my own mail box.. I would like to be the One to able to go to YOU.. to stand By your Mail Box.. with my hand.. I be holding the envelope.. with the Letter I wrote last night.. and I would love to turn.. look at your door and I walk.. I would like to see YOU open your front door.. and I am able to hand YOU the Envelope and to watch both eyes.. your hand holding the envelope that I give.. and when YOUR hand hold.. I want to tell YOU.. looking at your eyes.. I have loved YOU for a long time.. can you please accept my Heart.. Can YOU please accept my Love.. will you let me Love YOU now.. since I am standing here meeting YOU face to face.. and My hand holding your Hand.. I will touch the envelope and I would tell YOU.. I did Not want to come earlier because I don't want you to be bothered or disturbed.. I been waiting for YOU to Love me.. can I ask YOU if YOU love me.. because if YOU don't love me.. How can I keep on loving YOU.. I only want to accept if YOU are able to open your Heart so that I can love YOU and YOU can love me back too.. I want to be brave.. I want to be bold and have courage to Love YOU more.. but I can't unless YOU open your Heart for Me.. please tell me if I can Love YOU.. as I am looking at my Mail box.. I would lift up my Head to look at the MOON.. I am only talking to myself now huh.. But I know that This letter.. it needs to go to YOU.. it needs to get delivered to YOU so that I want you to open the envelop so that YOU can read.. My Heart knows how much I want to be with YOU.. How much I love YOU.. I am standing here.. by my mail Box.. waiting for the truck.. WHY is the Mail Man Not coming.. I have this