On the Sofa: The saddest news.

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[@cynthiafisher9907]

I remember your sister in a video you did about a holiday you had together, somewhere near the sea, I believe. I remember I thought she was beautiful and you had such fun together eating chips, as you call them. I’m sure you have many lovely memories of her and of spending fun times together. I feel your sadness and grief through the screen and I’m so sorry you lost such a wonderful, dear friend. You seem to have an extremely healthy mental outlook on loss and the process of grief, so I won’t give you any advice. I will just say I’m feeling your pain and I wish I could bring her back for you.

[@wyyeti4004]

Oh Vivi, I am so sorry to hear about your sister’s passing. Please accept my deepest condolences. It had to be extremely difficult for you to make this video. I realize KZbin is an income stream for you…but take the time you need. I know I’ll be here when you return. Many blessings to you & prayers for your heartache. Kind regards.

[@susanward2085]

❤As an only/lonely child, now older than dirt, today I learned from you what having a sister is like. How blessed you were and how blessed you will continue to be, with Combined Sister Day now every day in your heart.❤ Live each moment in the moment, just being you. Let Life continue to express itself through you, whether through words, action or silence, as raw and honestly as Life itself is. Those of us who took the time to click on our first video of yours, and took the time today, are all sending you our love…

[@nataliecolbert5790]

Dear Vivi, There are no words to express how sorry I am for your loss.😢

[@willowgrove631]

Oh Vivi, I’m so very sorry to hear you lost your precious sister. Please be extra kind to yourself over the coming days, weeks & onwards. Sending much love to you ❤️

[@deannaczernon3826]

My deepest condolences VIvi. Take all the time you need. We can be entertained by your older videos until you're ready. Take care ❤

[@samanthal562]

Oh dear Vivi. I’m so so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful friendship you two had and lots of memories that no one can take away. Sending you all my love xx

[@traceyelliott2902]

Beautiful Vivi, I'm so deeply sorry for the loss of your sweet sister. Take good care of yourself, physically and emotionally and know that we, your fan base, will be here when you're ready to continue. Many hugs, prayers and good thoughts to you!

[@portiabrown2913]

So sorry Vivi. Please look after yourself now. Prioritise you and your family, we will wait and wish you love and strength. xxx

[@donnalafleur574]

So sorry for your loss, Vivi. Big hugs

[@RN-mn3jn]

God bless you as you grieve the loss of your beloved sister. 🙏 She is no longer in pain & that is a blessing. Loss of a loved one is a difficult journey. Your sister, I'm sure I was so thankful for all the support & love you gave her. You take the time you need... talk about her...mention her in the garden....we got you! We will be here supporting you in any way we can.

[@tonisaylor1507]

Oh, Vivi, I’m so sorry for your loss. Hoping you find comfort in all those sweet memories of your sister. Sending you hugs and lots of grace as you learn your new normal. 💔💞🩷

[@debchoate4510]

Oh Vivi, my deepest condolences. Hearing your grief in your voice is heartbreaking. 48 years ago today my brother was killed an accident, we were both in our teens and “fric and frac” in our shenanigans. A pain that is revisited each year on this date. Sisterly love is a blessed love, only sisters understand. My sister and I are extremely close even in our senior years. Please take care and take the time you need in walking through your grief, I’m sure you feel lost in the “what next” without her to talk to. Love and Peace sent from my heart ❤️

[@antoniaparsons7457]

oh vivi my heart breaks for you! i am sending you so much love.

[@fionasmith4368]

Dear Viv I am sorry for your dear Sister. How brave you are for sharing. Give yourself all the time you need and will see you again when you're ready ❤

[@primrozie]

Oh Vivi 😞 I'm so sorry you are going through this. It sounds like you were a huge support for her. Sharing someone's suffering is a very precious intimate experience but one that demands all your strength. Please take extra special care of yourself now and take the time you need. Prayers for comfort and God's peace.

[@Txnative7]

So sorry to hear about your loss! I too, lost my only sister, then 3 mths later, lost my brother, 3 mths after that lost my dear mother. If that wasn't enough, 2 mths after all that, was diagnosed with cancer. I'm now 6 yrs cancer free. I wish you and family the best. One day at a time.

[@WhatVivididnext]

Oh my goodness lovely, what an incredibly hard, horrible time you have been through. I really hope you have been surrounded by the best of friends to support you. 💖 I am sooooooooo glad you are free of it now. XXX

[@alisonaustin7299]

So very sorry to hear this, Vivi. Don’t read any messages that start out to be unpleasant. Just “Block” “block “block”. You don’t need to read them. Remember to live the life your sister would want for you xx

[@sunflowermarcia7277]

Hugs and prayers.

[@sally-anndelf6453]

So, so sorry Vivi, for your sad news. Much love to you ❤

[@alisonwheeler8929]

So sorry to hear about your sister Vivi. You are very brave to talk about this. Your words at the end about finding time to be happy are important . My husband died when I was 48, 8 years ago . Me and my daughters, then 13 , talk endlessly about him with great happiness. You are quite inspirational. X

[@helengraham6896]

So very sorry to hear of your loss. Glad you had that time with your sister before she passed away. My younger sister died very suddenly last September, I hadn't seen her for a while and it was so sudden I didn't even get to see her in hospital before she passed. Memories can make us sad but are wonderful for keeping the love alive. Thinking of you during this very difficult time ❤

[@foggidew]

I'm so sorry,

[@ansievicente]

Big big hugs Vivi. Losing a sibling was the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. May you find peace xx

[@acolourist1798]

Sending you lots of Love and a hug Vivi.🙏 may you find peace as much as you are able through the grieving process. ❤

[@teresa9613]

Oh Vivi, you have my deepest condolences. My mom died 1 day before my birthday, so I understand you feelings on that. I had breast cancer and a double mastectomy shortly before, and it was all just too much. July is going to be a very hard month for you now for some time, until the sharpness wears off, and that will take a good number of years before you won't feel like you are gasping for air. One of life's sad ironies is how a time you looked forward to so much as kids (birthdays-yay!) can cause so much pain now. Much love to you from USA.

[@Early100]

So sorry for your loss ❤️❤️❤️ take care Vivi, don’t forget to “just be” x

[@khamalianawawi7915]

My condolences to you and your family, Vivi. May your sister rest in peace.

[@juliahawthorn3122]

Viv I'm so sorry for the loss of you cherished sister. All my love julia

[@paulinehughes8548]

Tell them it’s none of their bloody business and flock off…xxx

[@JAYNEmM1962]

Im so so sorry for your loss! Hugs

[@chorky2]

Oh Vivi, I am so sorry to hear of your sad loss it’s so brave of you to do this video. I’m sending you my love I lost my beautiful husband to cancer it’s such a cruel disease. Your in my thoughts. Heather

[@sarahshuff5537]

😊😊😊

[@kerrybyers257]

That deep love was her final gift to you…..a truly precious gift.

[@joanrevell5767]

There are no words to express how sorry I am to hear your sad news. Your life is now going to take a different path. But you will find peace again. Your sister will remain in your ❤️. Nobody can remove love and memories.Big hugs coming your way from me. Xxxxxxxx From someone who has lost husband and son xxxx

[@lydiabehar4465]

Vivi, I’m so sorry for the enormous heartache you’re going through. But as you said your sister is no longer suffering. My mother passed in 2004, my husband in 2015 and my father this past January. So I understand what you’re experiencing. Sometimes people feel uncomfortable when you talk about a loved one passing. But we need to be able express what we’re feeling and going through. And definitely talked about the one that’s passed. This is part of the healing process. If you need to do videos talking about your sister, please do so. Those of us that understand will listen and be there for you.

[@kathywood1994]

I am so sorry Vivi. Your in my thoughts lovely xxx

[@patrycjas.9725]

I had a feeling the last time you took a break from YT - it was about something serious. I just want to write you that I hug you from the bottom of my heart. I, at the age of 20, lost my mum to cancer. And I know that feeling of relief that she won't suffer anymore. I hope your suffering is at least a little relieved by the fact that good, warm thoughts and words of support are coming to you from all over the world. Vivi, we are your tribe. A little strange, because it is a virtual tribe - but it is true. Remember this and let us know how we can support you. Hugs from Poland. ❤❤❤

[@dogshowlife575]

You owe no one an apology. Your videos are a gift and when you send them out to the world we are grateful. This is one of the most fundamental human experiences and affects you forever and you are allowed to live this exactly the way you need to live it.

[@mariadaly4673]

I'm so very sorry to hear about your sister my heartfelt condolences to you and your loved ones ❤❤❤

[@jennyconroy1658]

So sorry for your loss,sending my sincere condolences to you Vivi. Please take care of yourself xxx

[@gillyjaynes8558]

So very very sorry Vivi. ❤

[@jennifermartin6917]

I'm so sorry for your loss, thinking if you and yours at this sad time ❤

[@kathylester651]

I’m so very sorry to hear of your loss. My father and I shared a birthday (one day apart), and losing him was difficult even more so on our birthdays, so I can relate to your extra sadness at this time. They say great grief is the price of great love. What a blessing to have shared the love. You and your family will be in my prayers in the days ahead. ❤

[@DottieandSqueak]

❤ So sorry for your loss. Look after yourself and your family. X

[@lindacribbin6119]

My heart goes out to you Vivi. We lost our youngest sister suddenly afew years ago and her first grandchild was born on the date she died a year later . xx

[@michelesmart4799]

The silver lining in all of this is that you and your sister had the blessing of feeling and receiving unconditional love. That is a priceless gift and I’ll be thinking of you, Vivi ❤

[@mysticmom616]

I am so very, very sorry. You are under no obligation to us to explain anything about your life and I’m sorry people have made you feel that way. Take as much time as you need to start to heal emotionally. We will be here. I am praying for you and your family. 💔❤️(((hugs)))

[@beckyalberti8823]

Love to you Vivi. I feel your loss. My Mothers BD was the 3rd, she had cancer & has been gone over 30 years. My brother died in the middle of the night of the 4th and 5th from heart failure a few years ago. My sister passed a few years ago. My family all gathered on the 4th for for most of my life to celebrate the our Independence Day celebration with parades and fireworks and food and cousins etc. Being from America here, it was out time to gather. Hard days ahead for you. I feel you. A roller coaster of emotions. Do you as only you can do you. Allow yourself happy moments as the sad moments will come unexpectedly. We never really move on and get over it. We learn to adjust. Grieve your way of grieving, it will never look like someone else's way. This is a tough one. Hugs across the pond. Tell someone to squeeze you tight for me.

[@helenprocessofgrowing8007]

How heartbreaking for you and how brave to share this very sad news.I can only try to imagine how this must be so hard for you to do. Sending you heartfelt condolences ❤

[@lindafaywhite776]

So sorry for your loss vivi my heart is with you ❤❤

[@marionbyrne9765]

Oh Vivi im so sorry. So brave of you to share this sad news. She’s peaceful and your love and memories will be with you forever. ✌️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@deannastmarie4121]

So very sorry for your loss Vivi, your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I know you are cherishing the memories. 🙏❣🙏❣🙏

[@kathyroberts5870]

I am so sorry for your loss. Glad you took time to spend time with her. I have lost many of my family due to Cancer . My sister just got her daughter ,my nieces headstone today. My niece fought a brave battle and she told her Mom she was tired and wanted to go home, so she went into Hospice and died in October.

[@WhatVivididnext]

Oh Kathy, my heart breaks for you and your family. x

[@amandaneale5180]

Sending a big hug so sorry for your big lose xx

[@marilyndenler1370]

Dear Vivi, when my husband died this past Dec 27th a dear friend told me this “ death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal”. Hold fast to your precious memories of your beautiful sister❤. Sending caring hugs to you🌹🌹

[@jackiehiebert7064]

My heart breaks for you. Oh Vivi.

[@barbaraford8153]

I'm so sorry to hear Your Sad News Vivi, I feel for You. My Sister also passed away from secondary Cancer back in 2013 & by a strange coincidence it was on the Day before My Birthday! She was My Rock & always there for Me in times of trouble, right from when We were small Children. Take Care of Yourself.

[@jennil7797]

Thinking of you, dear Vivi. It IS important to be happy, but any followers that are here for genuine reasons will understand if you have a wobbly moment in the weeks to come. Take care of your emotional needs and do what is right for you.

[@gillianmeehan3206]

Oh dear, such sad news, I'm so sorry for your loss. You had enormous strength to record this

[@lynnlaw7770]

Vivi I'm so very sorry to hear such sad news. Although I know I don't actually know you please know that you're in my thoughts. Sending love to you x x

[@christiegrows2022]

I’m so sorry 🫂

[@DaisyDreamer72]

Oh Vivi, I'm so incredibly sorry. Unfortunately the incredible pain you feel is the price you pay for the incredible love you had for your sister 😢 Take time out and be gentle to yourself. Sending you love xx

[@bigmama2135]

Dear Vivi, I am so very sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you. I lost my darling Mam 7 months ago and still the grief ebbs and flows and yes, life does go on but never in quite the same way. Death reminds us of the brevity of life and as Charles Dickens wrote in 1843 "we are all fellow passengers to the grave" so carpe diem and enjoy our brief moment in the sunshine. May your peace be in your cherished memories.

[@akkedegroot4883]

Sending you love and the strenght to cope with your huge loss. Loosing someone so close hurts like mad.

[@carolynbakers2777]

Vivi, if we could wrap our arms around you and say how very sorry we are for the loss of a special sister we would.Glad that your friends Paul ,Richard and Gary are there for you at this sad time. As for the people who are writing about the moving issue it's nothing to do with them it's your life and they need to grow up and get a life themselves Take care of yourself.💌

[@christinekeay8456]

So very sorry for the loss of your dear sister 💙

[@sandrinefresne6575]

So sorry for your loss . Last month My husband has just lost one brother too . Sad times indeed. 😢

[@atwoodan]

Oh, Vivi. Sending love and deepest sympathy. Anne

[@marcyjrtmom8139]

Vivi I am so very sorry. So glad you had such love and happy memories with her. Take care.

[@jacquiemoppett2391]

I am so sorry for your loss. Cancer is a dreadful thing. I lost my Mother and ny Husband to it. I know it us not much solice to think at least the are out of pain. I was grateful for that. I am sending you all my heartfelt prayers 🙏 🙏 🙏 and as big a hug❤ as i can. I know the loss of losing an only sister. You will be in my thoughts these coming days. Take all the time you need we be there for you.😢

[@shamancarmichael5305]

I very proudly helped with a fundraiser for McMillan Cancer Care back in March, so I hope some of that went towards comforting you and your family Vivi. Much love, ❤❤🤗🤗

[@LittlePinkPiggy1]

I clearly remember your videos where you talked about the wonderful relationship you had with your sister and this news is beyond sad. So sorry for you Vivi.

[@HortiHugo]

Ah that's v sad news, look after yourself there, Hugh 🤗

[@monicaram2379]

There are no words of comfort I can offer to you as I don’t believe they can exist when losing a loved one. I do believe that the best way we can be remembered is with a smile and a laugh- because don’t we all want be a beloved memory. Happy to know that your sister is a beloved memory.

[@omfug7148]

My condolences Vivi, I lost my sister 40 years ago when she was only 25, we were almost twins, I think of her often. Your sister lives on in your love of her, and the time that the 2 of you had together.

[@sandrabryan9106]

Oh Vivi, my heart goes out to you. I too have been dealing with two unexpected family deaths the last few weeks. It's hard time but hold onto the happy memories. Next week, I will be reunited with my children and grandchildren and we will be taking some much needed time in the mountains for the peace we all need right now. Take care

[@soulexplorer76]

I'm so sorry for your loss Vivi! 😢Sending you love ❤

[@sherriec4411]

She'll be with Aunty teapot watching over you Vivi xxxx

[@kirstenlind-pedersen5184]

Dear Vivi, I am so sorry for your loss. My heartfelt condolences to you and your family.

[@annpearce97]

So sorry for your loss, I lost a sibling to it a few years ago he was 52😢 there's always an ache but in time the good memories push the sad one's down ❤ give yourself time and be kind to yourself

[@jacquelinesanders2539]

At the moment your grief will feel huge, to overwhelming to cope with. But each day it will become infinitesimal smaller. It never leaves us but will become part of us. You heart will smile again.❤

[@escapepatch]

Condolences Vivi. Horrible, horrible news. Thank you for letting us know. Thinking about us (viewers) at this time is very considerate, very caring, very you. A trait I'm sure your sister loved about you too. Take care of yourself. ❤

[@stormyweather2807]

God rest her, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss Vivi. You were blessed to have one another, and if you feel led to talk about her in the future I think we'd all love to hear your stories.

[@dempseykful]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@carolineduncan1674]

Dearest vivi I'm do sorry for your sad news You bring so much companionship for me, just being there,chatting I do hope you know how much your 'followers'are here for you, wish I could do so much more Gentle steps lovlie x

[@kathrynmaxson6907]

Peace to you, Vivi and to your family. Siblings are often the longest relationship we have in life so the loss of one hits hard. 💐

[@MsSherrydarling]

I'm very sorry for your loss😪. You take the time you need to grieve and we will be here.

[@annecasillas5402]

Dear Vivi, I am sending you as much love and strength as I can to you and all your family during this tender time. May the healing be gentle and flow continuous to you all.💜💜💜

[@vixxcottage]

We all have challenges to deal with and no one knows our personal struggles. For anyone to criticize you for " not moving fast enough" is ridiculous. I have learned we can only do so much. We need time to process and make decisions. Your sister was a priority andthat is normal. Never apologize for living your life. Videos are a bonus never expected. I am sorry you have had to go through this terrible loss.

[@jolostinEasbyAbbey]

I'm so sorry Vivi. Love & hugs to you.❤

[@carolwhite6979]

dear Vivi, Please accept my most sincere snd deep condolences on the passing of your sister. I am Lifting up you, your family and all those who know and love her and are missing her today. . May she fly free! ❤️🙏🏻🕯🙏🏻❤️🕊 These days are so hard and so precious. grief is such a hard hard journey.... Sending you love snd support and big big hugs from the prairies. 🇨🇦 yes life goes on . Let us be grateful, make this most of our days

[@Emily-xf8vh]

This really is such sad news. Genuinely heartbroken for you. Sending so, so much love to you and all of your family. Please take care of yourself ❤❤❤

[@TaterFarm]

Oh, Vivi - heartfelt prayers and deepest condolences for your loss! Wrapping you up in virtual hugs and love from Georgia, USA! Take your time and take good care of yourself!

[@lynnoorman2144]

So sorry for your loss. I'm sure she is very proud of the way that you are stoicly carrying on. Look after yourself and thank you for being brave enough to share your sad news. Your viewers will wait for you, when you feel you can communicate again.

[@mariagillinson8527]

Just amazing how we can feel the love through all the pain. She’s at rest and would want you to be ok and carry on.

[@shirefinds6585]

Vivi, I'm so very sorry. I just want to hug you and tell you - in time all will be well. Your sister was blessed to have a wonderful, caring sister like you. Really, you were blessed to have each other. Take time out Vivi and feed back in when you're ready. Sending you a big hug 🙏💚.

[@lyndsaywilliams2540]

So sorry for your loss sending you so much love xxx

[@janetraine4883]

❤ So sorry for the loss of your sister. x

[@kerrybyers257]

I just felt something was happening 😢. I’m so very, very sorry. Your pain is palpable. I wish I could give you a warm hug. A true genuine hug from across the pond. 🙏🙏❤️

[@han1660]

So sorry to hear about your sister. My sister also had breast cancer in 2015 and she has now found another lump. Blessings to you and thinking of you at this sad time

[@WhatVivididnext]

Oh no......ach, I do hope it can be dealt with quickly and completely. So much hope and love to you both.