One Year on Hormones - MTF

[@sarazapien8118]

The fact that you realize and can tell the internet that you've been hurt and you deserve better is such an amazing thing. That takes strength and guts. It took me years and several really abusive relationships before I finally started to realize that. You're gorgeous and you exude elegance, confidence and perseverance. Hold your beautiful head high and keep going. You've got the drive and you'll get there sweetheart. And fuck the losers who aren't good enough to have a spot in your life.

[@midnite22767]

Sorry to hear life has been getting the better of you but we all go through tough patches. Can't imagine all of the struggles you face everyday as a person who is trans but on the plus side you are a stunningly beautiful looking woman. You should be modeling not working at some crappy retail gig, seriously. I wish you luck in your acting career! Thanks for continuing to post!

[@lauraaamk]

Missed you so much, Aurora! It takes a lot of strength for you to open up to us like this and make these emotional videos. You are so courageous for putting these videos out there and educating people on transgender people, as well as people in general, and the struggles they face. Wish you all the best!! xoxo

[@JosephDavidSings]

Keep your head high and stay strong! It's my one year this month too, so I get everything you're going thru! You look amazing and have a brave heart! Conquer, girl. 😘

[@thatonegirl4324]

I'm glad to hear from you! You are a bright spot for me, and I feel much the same way you do about not fitting in. It's hard, but keep being your beautiful self, and together we'll change the world! :)

[@gravedigger1006]

realize that you are a beacon of strength, it is because of you and any other transgender role model on youtube that a lot of people have been able to realize the path that they were meant to walk. what I mean is thank you for allowing me to be who I am as opposed to what others want. thank you for being the beautiful you that you are.

[@HUNGRYEYES75]

truly a beautiful, special lady. my heart breaks to see you sad and low. I admire you for your honesty . Keep strong princess

[@alicialeonard1664]

Hey girl, this is your channel and we will always be happy to just to know you're okay ! And I am so happy for you ! You have worked so hard for your womanhood and it was beautiful seeing your transition, I hope that the insurance shit works out! Xoxooxoxox

[@sylviaviola5795]

aurora! im so sorry you feel like this. you are right, you are special and you will be okay. you are strong af keep going girl i believe in you.

[@lxParamorexl]

Vent all you want and get as dark as you want with us, as long as it helps you feel better. I really hope and pray that you get to a point where you aren't depressed. You're a beautiful soul, and I wish you the best

[@mariojaspers9875]

So glad you shared this, Aurora! You are an amazing and special person!

[@pololover1996]

girl you are beautiful and amazing. things are tough but so are you and you can make it through this rough patch!!! i love you xoxoxox

[@yuukiyamazaki3590]

OMG girl! Please do not cry over these stupid boys.. you are such a great woman and you deserve much much more than them.. looking at you like this just breaks my heart. I'm sure that one day you will find the right one that will treat you well. Just... live your life, be happy. When you are depressed just think about me and all the other trans girls that you helped so much with your videos! Stay safe and happy. Love you so much

[@kassandrawillows]

We all deserve better and I know that life can be hard especially going through a transition. Sometimes we don't want to be in place that we are at but thing will be better one day. Just keep your up high and focus on the positive. Do things that you enjoy like theater. I'm sure that we would all love to see you on that stage one day. But all I'm trying to say is hang in we all love you.

[@MrsMe-pv6js]

You look amazing, keep your head up, you need the rain before the rainbow xxxx

[@Andrew-zv7zo]

stay strong babe! it's worth! you're worth it!

[@danielpapadopoulos6515]

your honesty and lucid presentation are things of beauty. courage... life will unfold well for you, i promise.

[@zachromeo4962]

Not only are you very beautiful but also well spoken , you got a great chance to do big things In life with that combo !!

[@MFierceM]

I just found your channel today and I'm happy I found you, you are inspiring, such a beautiful woman with a great mind, your videos are very helpful in many ways, thank you for sharing all these things.

[@christinabrynn9092]

You look so beautiful! Glad you are back :)

[@ninasavic1951]

You should go out more often, that helped me a lot. If you want to have greatness in your life, surround yourself with great people. Your friends should bring out the best in you and it will help you feel better about yourself.

[@Yourhighnessnona]

Can I point out that you have such grace and poise? It is beautiful to look at.

[@wendycder]

I'm hoping that things are better for you now than when you made this. Yes, you deserve more and you deserve better, we all do. Anyone who things this is a simple life is sadly mistaken. You said you are lucky to be alive, I understand that very much and statistically, there is a very high death rate/suicide rate amongst our community. All I can say, is hang in there, keep moving forward as the world is becoming a better place.

[@themoonlightmaiden]

I wish I could just have someone, anyone, to just hold me close in their arms. I want to become someone I love being, I want to feel beautiful without having to edit my photos or wear makeup every day. I want to be the woman I wasn't born as, but has always been inside of me. Things just take time and I think it's something we all have to realize

[@michaelsherman8443]

For what it's worth coming from some a guy in PA, I think you're a extraordinarily beautiful woman. I truly hope you find a good man that knows how to treat you with the respect you deserve. Best wishes and Merry Christmas

[@thechosenone4881]

I find it very brave of you to vent out sometimes. I personally have this ingrained behaviour of repressing my feelings, and I'm very well aware of the aggravated harm it causes to my overall health, but it's something I have to cope with, and that cannot be changed at all. I really appreciate your honesty in your videos.

[@lynnedumas746]

Hey. You are a beautifully honest person. I can't tell you when it's going to get brighter, but you're strong as shit, and all I can say is that I'm sorry that you're feeling that low, and I'll be thinking of you and wishing you the best. I've had a lot of really black days this year, for different reasons, just wanting to melt away, and it feels like it's quick sand I can't crawl out of and I've felt too tired to fight out of it. Just sending some love.

[@Arachmana]

It takes courage to bear your soul to the world. Your expectations of life are admirable and everyone is entitled to happiness. Thank you for sharing.

[@candikrol]

sending you a big hug! it gets better :) oxo, Candi

[@JAYDUBYAH29]

it must be so difficult to be trans. i can only imagine. it takes so much courage to do what you are doing and to share it with the world in this way. for what it is worth, i don't think you are depressed in clinical terms based on this video -i think you are understandably sad about being lonely and wanting to love and be loved. i say this because you also openly express wanting more, deserving more etc which is super healthy and valid. yea the hormones may be making you more emotional, but there is no separate authentic self somehow distinct from biology, hormones, psychology etc -it's all YOU. :) i hope you don't mind, but re: dating -i think it is hard for everyone, but way amplified for trans people. because you are such a beautiful, open, smart, eloquent girl, i bet many men are drawn to you, but end up being confused if it is a new experience for them. don't give up! there are great guys out there, it just seems like it would be an even more difficult weeding-out process for someone as unique as you. you will find the right person, or a series of great people -i have no doubt. try to keep your friendships strong and keep reaching out for support. thanks for giving me an experience of profound empathy for someone different than me, but with exactly the same humanity.

[@jayathome848]

thank you for sharing so honestly. New to your channel. I'm a mom of a transgender mtf teen just beginning hormones. Your experiences mirror many of my fears, so I hope you could make a video about what parents/family can do that helps or even that doesn't help. You seem a very lovely person and I send you positive energy.

[@AndyZaturno]

OMG AURORA YOU'RE A MESS!!! Please baby girl stop being sad, it breaks our hearts, WE DO KNOW you deserve so much more than you have right now but you're very very very young, you need time, stop rushing things. BTW you are they PRETTIEST trans girl I've seen on youtube, not even TACKY Gigi Gorgeous compares to you. YOU WERE BORN WITH CLASS, you are soooo so so classy, and I love that about yourself. STAY STRONG. Andy.

[@HeyitsJOURDIE]

+Andy Zaturno YOU'RE A MESS isn't exactly helpful. You are just trying to be nice I know but it's very triggering.

[@AndyZaturno]

+Chloe Collins a "mess" as she broke down and started crying! Not like a mess when it comes to her look or whatever! Ok?

[@HeyitsJOURDIE]

Andy Zaturno yeah I know what you meant by it but referring to it like that just sounds kinda mean.

[@theneonchimpchannel9095]

So glad to see you back on here. Sorry to hear that you've been so depressed. I can totally relate to the ups and downs. I've experienced the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, often within hours of each other. I'm so happy with my transition, but I'm miserable living where I live at the moment (and I've signed a 1 year lease so I'm stuck here), but it takes a huge toll on my emotions. I had to move out of my Mother's house because she was uncomfortable with me transitioning at home, so moving out gave me the freedom to transition, but I couldn't afford to get a place on my own so I moved in with a friend but it turns out that we really aren't compatible as housemates. I don't see it getting any better and I often find myself sitting on my bed, staring off into space and just feeling like shit. My transition is what keeps me going. It has made me so much happier with who I am and I've even gained the confidence to take up Adult Gymnastics classes, so that part of my life is going amazingly well and that's what I need to focus on to get through the crappy parts of my life at the moment. Perhaps when the year is up, this place will have just been the cocoon that my male self went into, only to emerge a year later as my true self...I just need to get through those months trapped in the cocoon. Thanks for your videos, they are awesome...and so are you! -Simiana.

[@MyDecember93]

Yaaaaaas queen you're back

[@evepatrello8855]

I'm thrilled to hear you're auditioning for shows. I know you mentioned theatre in your earlier videos and I've been waiting for you to get out on stage. Theatre is something is important to me and something I would never consider letting go of if I ever were to transition. Just knowing someone that is transitioning and that I look up to is in the theatre scene is an inspiration to me. Even if it's not necessarily your passion, it's good to know you're auditioning. For a while I've thought you'd make a wonderful Evelyn in The Shape of Things.

[@marysusansusan]

Aurora you are so special! I started tearing up while watching you because I could relate to your feeling that "depression is you" so well, it was almost unbelievable. We are all here to support you and I hope you realize that and work on doing what you love and loving yourself like you said in the video. *Hugs*

[@jessicadennison5877]

You look great. The world will hear our story! My family, friends, co-workers, neighbors are all so kind and supportive of me, despite none of them truly undersdtanding. You are a great poster girl for what we go through. Keep it up!

[@beccaponticelli3318]

Hey Aurora! I am so sorry for all of the shit you're going through. I totally feel. I was wondering if you could maybe do a makeup tutorial? Your makeup is always flawless and on point, and I would love to see how the magic is made.

[@alisademi6327]

you are making a difference in people's lives.😊 you are inspiring to people going through what you are going through. i am a woman who was so ignorant about trans but now i embrace you. you are beautiful inside and out and i thank you for sharing your experiences and educating the ignorance in the world.

[@96powerpower]

Stay positive hun. It's tough at times, I know, but it's so worth it at the end. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Wishing you all the best! xx

[@ConswaMcGaga]

Do you go to a therapist? not like a gender therapist, just a general one. it can really help to talk about your thoughts and problems. You can realize things you had no idea were bothering you in a way that you can't just thinking about them. and i know you have people on the internet to support you but it's good to have a physical person hearing your problems and offering help.

[@HeyitsJOURDIE]

+Conswa McGaga YES!! this also helped me a lot.

[@vanessafreeman3913]

100% agree. I personally think everyone should see a therapist at least once in there life but I can't imagine a trans person not having a therapist. It's to much to do on your own. And she suffers with depression that's not gonna go away by transitioning it's a chemical thing. Yeah transitioning can help but it won't fix the problems that's have already started

[@mistressanya36ff]

Vanessa Freeman I guess this is your way of offering to pay the therapist bills. Or did you miss the huge cloud above her head, labelled no funding?

[@annabellechrist6403]

I get you girl. Relationships are so unfair when you are transgender. People doesn't seem to care about how great people we might be, or how loving we can be, because the only think they care about is that we are trans. Just believe it gets better, that is what I believe in and I am pretty sure it gets.

[@mistressanya36ff]

Diana Hutínová This so much, all the damn time. It really crushes the soul. Heart breaking to see someone so young struggling with this stuff.

[@Snoootle]

I've been on estrogen for 1 month now and spiro for 3. You seriously inspire me and I hope you find what makes you happy and stick with it!

[@brileighhuffty2644]

Love You Hun! Stay strong. I've been down a lot here lately myself . I'm praying for you & wish the best for you.. I keep up with all your videos . so glad you posted an update video . muah

[@francesimagina7]

I am sorry things are going a little tuff for you right now. You are a beautiful young lady with your whole life ahead of you. It may seem depressing now, but you are in transition and things will get better. I have had a few heartbreaks too; you have no idea how much emotional pain and rejection I have experienced over my life. You just have to struggle through it and become a stronger person. Have a Happy New Year and keep on your transition journey. You are a woman.

[@kimberlywiggin]

big hug aurora im thinging of you i m hopeing things will look up for you

[@zakbilling2504]

Everything your doing is amazing. just keep doing you. your journey is going to have bumps so always keep in mind the fact that nothings ever permanent but every encounter builds you up and molds you into the strong human you are. I think you'd make a brilliant actress! continue to adapt and grow, Try to stay humble and appreciate everyday. make it count. - aus

[@thedubbedmime]

I might be late to the party, but hang in there girl! thank you for all that you do. You've helped me through some stuff.

[@Elnatedawg]

aww don't cry baby girl you're too pretty for that and maybe love will find you I wish you the best of luck in your acting career and I wish you the best in your transitioning. And thank you for finally posting a video. Much love

[@dashah9]

AURORA WE LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH LITERALLY THO

[@hannibelle1862]

I'm so proud of how much you've grown Aurora

[@cheyanabelhunter9613]

So much love to you girl. you are always so inspiring. IMHO you are the most real down to earth trans-youtuber that I follow. I can sympathize with your depression a lot, We are actually in a vey similar situation. Im so glad to see a new video because even when i'm feeling depressed It always brightens my day to see your updates. Thanks for sharing with us, and I hope you start feeling better soon. P.S. If your close to Los angeles you should check out the Trans Lounge it has all sort of great resources, classes and social events, and they're all free. In particular I would recommend the Comic Cure class. Its a stand up comedy class I took and I had a blast. At the end they put on a show at the Hollywood Improv, and you also get a recording of your set. I know its not exactly the same as theater, but its a great way to get up on stage, and its a lot of fun.

[@UTYuetu]

Bless you Aurora. You definitely deserve more, what you want is not selfish in anyway. Please don't let the destructive mental illness of depression push thoughts onto you that you are selfish or wrong. Other people's hardships don't make the pain you go through acceptable. Both you and them deserve more in life. Unfortunately it is very unfair and dark. However with as much shit in the world there is beauty. For every selfish-prejudice jackarse out there, there is also kind-caring open-minded and loving people. It's hard to find these people but never give up looking because when you find them it makes life bearable. I think from what I have seen of you that you are one of these beautiful people and I would love to have met and befriended you if I had the chance. Medication and therapy are very helpful for depression, unfortunately they are not a magic one size fits all. Only a select few medications and psychological therapies can sometimes be effective for some individuals. It is important that if you find medication or therapy unhelpful that you don't become disheartened and abandon the healthcare available. Yes it is unfair that sometimes it is a case of trial and error, but life is a constant struggle for some people. However there's a lot of reasons to live for and while are sometimes hard and painful to find; the elation and warmth when you finally discover them, can make the pain diminish and provide you with a yearning for life. Never give up, as it not until you give up exploring every option possible that you are confined to gruesome state. I have met and worked with people who have had the most horrific lives and managed to pull through and now enjoy life. I don't mean to imply that because they can do it, then it is easy for you or anyone else going through shit. What I mean by that is that there is hope and it is something you must cling onto. I hope that next time we hear from you it's positive and you are beginning to feel better and that progresses with each update until you are truly happy. Sadly that may be a slow process and have its low points but you are such a beautiful woman and I want to see you overcome them. Because I would love to see you happy :3

[@clairefrances7166]

I'm so happy you made a new video! I've missed your videos.. You look fantastic by the way. (:

[@Bluestar-1969]

I just found your videos today and has been really interesting to watch. Also being a trans woman of a little over a year of HRT. I totally can relate about wondering if a lot of the emotional feelings are coming from the hormones or for other reasons. Also That I used to have a lot of skin issues like razors irritating my legs when shaving that don't happen anymore. My skin looks and feels so much better then ever before. Very happy about that. I really do regret not starting H.R.T at a much younger age. Anyways, I wish you happiness and hope you will find someone that will treat you as the beautiful woman you are! I also subscribed to your channel and look forward to your next videos. Take care.

[@madelineelizabeth2026]

Aurora I'm sorry ur going through this! You will be ok, you will find someone. Just stay true to yourself, I'm proud of you & you should be proud too

[@vivitay7285]

Dear Aurora, You are a beautiful woman, inside and out. I am so impressed with you. You clearly have female feelings; which really sucks sometimes. It's part of being a woman, though. I'm a recent Subscriber and watching your earlier videos, the in between videos, and the recent ones, allowed me to see your transformation - physical, emotional, mental, and psychological. It makes me feel better about myself. You are one of the most honest, real people I have ever seen, on the media and in person. Embrace your womanly feelings. I love that you can let your sensitive feelings flow out. I understand you. Love, Vivian

[@staciandrews5529]

Aurora, you are loved by so many people. I know you want that special intimate love right now. Be patient dear. Sometimes when we want things too much or try too hard we unintentionally sabotage ourselves. I'm not saying that is what you have done in this case, I'm just saying take a look. Try just letting love happen by putting yourself out there in the world doing what you love, as you yourself said. The acting thing sounds like a perfect place to start. Hope you feel better soon and that you find your happy place. Love following your journey!

[@AlfaAxel]

[@drouinjohnny9036]

One day at the time. Wanting more in life and say it every day it's the way to go. Now you are in this state of mind and by saying it loud and clear..the first step to the future that you deserve .....be strong you are in my thoughts...love

[@AlexStyromaniacGoven]

I've been emotionally neglected for most of my life. There is no excuse for people to turn a blind eye to those who had smiled the least, but I'm letting you know you're not as alone as you thought. I've demamded someone to step in as a father figure and nobody had done so, like we're all cats and I lack a pheremone for anyone to care, and for peers to be real friends and not just acquaintances. My peers acted just as indifferent to my lack of having lived. I'm lucky to have the people I know now, however. You will find people who will understand your position and bring friendship to the table, and as the years pass, through thick and thin, the emotional scars will shrink, the pain will fade and you will become the most beautiful personality. The emotional rollercoaster will stop once you have the closure you're looking for.

[@byronsuniverse7869]

I love you so much Aurora❤ you deserve an amazing person❤ we all care so much about you! stay strong! I know it may seem hard but when you get through the rough patches in life you will be surrounded by beauty and happiness! you've been so brave sharing your life with us and I thank you for that! You helped me realize who I was and what I'm meant to do! I know I'm not the only person you have helped get throught trans* struggles! I hope you are able to eventually get your srs and that you come to a point in your life where you are happy! I dont just see you as trans*, I see you as human! that's what we all are at the end of the day when the bra comes off! I hope that your journey goes smooth and that you can be happy! Love you❤

[@daltonlepage7751]

I haven't been a subscriber of your for too long, maybe a few months, but from what I have seen from you it's hard to understand why you would be having relationship problems. You have the looks and personality that many men want, so I think you do deserve better. The only thing I can see being an issue for some is how emotional you can get. Going through transition must be hard and emotional, but having a partner that understands and can help you when you feel down will be important. I wish you the best of luck on finding somebody great for you!

[@josephinealexanakachirisky6373]

Move up here to Portland. Transgender friendly and in Oregon transgender healthcare can not be denied. Which is odd, because that should also be true for California.

[@lisaannrivera7529]

please don't cry Aurora you will find somebody who is perfectly match for you we all go through that dating people and they don't work out well lord knows I've dated a bunch of assholes before I married my husband so keep your head held high there's somebody out there for everybody.xoxo,Lisa😊😘

[@Harmon2]

Aurora, you are such a beautiful soul. It hurts to see you suffer like this :( Please do whatever will help bring you peace.. and please don't be afraid to continue reaching out to your followers on here; we all love you very deeply..

[@plantcrime]

we've missed you!! you look great hun and I hope things start picking up soon.

[@jonathancin1004]

i totally support you, i hope you find happiness in your life, and i hope your depression won't get any worse

[@petrieq9373]

Your makeup looks incredible!! Your hair tone is great too especially w/the warm lighting! Btw, all jobs which make money are shitty, it's why it is called "work". Creative/expressive jobs r very, very few. U r lucky to live in Cali.

[@RachelleBeyer]

Yay so glad to see you back ❤️

[@KenzieDashh]

Aurora don't be sad please! Everything is gonna be alright! Things are gonna get better jut keep trying to be positive!! You are gonna get sooo much more than what you have now! You are a beautiful perfect good person! You will find the right person to be with soon enough! I missed seeing you so much!! Thank you for helping all the LGBT people that watch you by telling your story on here! You have helped me a lot! And I appreciate you updating us!! I love you so much!! Ps: Your makeup is on FLEEK! 😍😍

[@melindasummer344]

Aurora, Thank you for making this video. I'm going to start hormones in less than two months, I hope (MTF). I know going forward there will be many ups and downs and I already cry at cat food commercials. Sounds like you are still moving forward (theatre) so that is a good thing. I know my life is going to change so much, things I can't imagine right now. I do know one thing for sure; I will never be as beautiful as you. If I could throw this in; please give yourself and those guys you date a break. I wouldn't know the right way to date a trans person either, but I would start with respect and honsty.

[@SkyeIsonfire]

Oh yeah, you're beautiful when you cry. wish there were some words I could say to make things better.

[@Stephanopoulosdion]

Complacency is a horrible feeling, you see everyone going onto greater things and you feel like your stuck in the same house, job. environment, etc., it builds depression.

[@floranstr_995]

Aurora you get prettier and prettier .. You do the right thing , just stay strong ..

[@urakunt866]

I hope you feel better soon. Life is beautiful ...try to enjoy every minute of it... Things will get better

[@jamesupton6618]

you are a beautiful person and very inspiring you give me strength. Please stay strong and no that you are truly special.

[@eileenstarmen2804]

thank you for the update aurora, I must admit, I was getting a little worried.

[@youtubethumb1463]

I completely understand what you are going through but if you stop to think about it, you've achieved so much at such a young age and you have it better than a lot of people

[@CoolBraatz]

Kinda was expecting the moment when you start joking all around like you did on the Kylie Jenner lip challenge. I'm really sorry for you to feel this way, but I've always had the feeling, and I know, you're so much stronger than you show. Life can be tough, it is tough, it's full of ups and downs and this is probably one of them. Don't go too hard on yourself because most people are shit, you are a beautiful woman and of course you deserve better and things will get better. Remember everything you faced till today, all the battles you won and all the fears you overcome. Stay strong and don't loose yourself, just believe in you heart and what it means to you to be happy, what the other people think, or say, or do, it's their shit. You're amazing, remember that.

[@andersohlson7621]

Aurora, key to good living is expecting less and go by some things you praise or appreciate to see happiness around the corner, maybe little by little before big after another.

[@elleo3244]

Keep that chin up baby girl. You meet and greet all sorts of people. You've come far.

[@knocknocking]

You are amazing and do deserve good things in this life, don't forget that for a minute! So you hang in there...and try to stay enthusiastically mindful of how amazing the insights you'll gain are going to be when you get to the other side of this depression... What may seem like a break down is just what the other side of a break through looks like Aurora! Days by them selves are pretty neutral, though what my reality on any given day is going to seem like will be do in largely part, depend on whether or not I'm using my imagination in healthy or unhealthy ways... Anyways with all that in mind you keep that heart of your's connected to those things you like and love to do, that allow you that freedom to feeling vital, wonderful and alive with spirit. There are people who truly care about YOU keep them close... Do those things you like to do, you'll tap back into your creative wellspring, I just KNOW it believe me... You are a warrior of love!!! ❥

[@914Cbayne]

Cost of SRS really does suck, but I'm in the same boat with you, it's just not financially possible at this point and I've got a lot of other things to go through first before that. Depression is really tough to live with. It never goes away, you really are a great person letting all of us get to see you transition and become amazing.Doing things you love and being kept busy is a great way to overcome depression. If you don't get to think about depression, depression won't exist. I still have breakdowns from time to time, but way less frequently then i used to. But everyone's different. Adding small little things to your life that give you positive feelings will lead to a more positive life :) And online dating sucks, i swear 95% of men on dating sites are looking for nothing else besides sex. The worst thing I get on dating sites is guys saying "I've never been with a trans but have wanted to" like we're not just some sexual conquests guys. Good luck with the auditions Aurora and happy 1 year!!! I'll be looking forward to mine in January :)

[@JudiStench]

I know exactly how you feel darling, when I came out as transgender i lost everything my girlfriend, my job, my flat and my money, i started watching you're videos not long before you start on hormones and you gave me the drive to come out to my family and to be happy with myself, it's been a crazy year for myself as well having lost everything but gained so much as tomorrow is my 6 weeks on hormones, also i wouldn't worry about boob growth i'm a 42 which is great for boob growth but crap for dress sizes, stay beautiful love you

[@LaraCroftDiary]

It's so hard and heavy to see you like this, Please please get better soon. It WILL get better. We love you.

[@Djoodibooti]

Hun, you are life giving. you matter. you are adored. you will move to higher ground. you will get through this. PS, you look lovely.

[@boycottapartheidbds4152]

Dear Aurora, I know it may not be the best help someone can offer, But ever since i can remember myself i've been depress too, Though i am not a transgender, But had a though life in the past 25 years. I can recommend you on what help me to be stronger, which is to be alone and think where i want to take myself tomorrow morning, i chose to be alone as i come to understand most people will not understand that sometimes my "feeling & emotions" are like a roller coaster, and our life is more colorful, and more interesting. I know that maybe now you can not see it, But you will get stronger, you will come over this phase, because this is what it is, only a phase. Wish you all the best, and to wake up with hope for a brighter future.

[@maiaveils6217]

thx for all your videos you do share with us :) don't think to much about bad stuff. you do look amazing and that without any surgery. lots of love from germany Maia :)

[@matthewiylia7459]

Hi Aurora, I really believe that you will do big things in your life.

[@RinoaL]

well, you are by far having the best transition i've seen yet, mines going pretty smoothly IMO, im only at 6 months though and still have elevated T levels, so i'm curious to see how it goes when i start my increased prescription and get a few more months along. its really fascinating to even see how you look after 6 months.

[@Psylent]

+Rinoa Super-Genius I didn't expect to see someone I subscribe to here. I had no idea. You inspired me to make my own 18650 powered electric bike. My version had battery clips and twisted wires, no soldering.

[@RinoaL]

Soylant i'm everywhere, bwahahaha

[@SpyderSlayer20]

Aurora watching your videos for me, a "in the closet transgender" woman is inspirational. You seem to possess a unbreakable spirit, when you reach a hard time you just keep pushing forwards. It is hard to see you cry but people have to be reminded that transitioning is hard. Keep being strong just as you've been doing all this time!

[@miafernandes7012]

stay strong, you're amazing and inspiring

[@iJohnQ]

Your KZbin career is taking off. Don't worry you'll blow up and it will open so many doors for you. Xx

[@poolee77]

You'll find someone, probably when you least expect it. You're a beautiful young woman and you have a whole life in front of you, I know it's hard, but try to stay positive. I don't know you but I do wish you the best in life.

[@jewboo888]

Your makeup looks incredible!

[@PSrecording]

wish you the best Aurora

[@yulayxdify]

trust me it's a struggle worth getting through, but you just have to remember that in the blink of a eyes we all go through it. Don't forget that!💙💙💙

[@AuroraAndrewsP]

[@clairesz465]

My experience with online dating has been much the same. Especially the red flags.

[@teachcaffeinaterepeat9192]

Wow, Aurora. You have always been beautiful but you look MAGNIFICENT HERE!