【Original】 This Life is Not Mine 【NIJISANJI / にじさんじ】

[@MillieParfait]

Holy this is so good, it reminds me of Hamilton musical especially on the rap, but your voice is so good AAAAAAA REZAAAAAA

[@RezaAvanluna]

omg thank u millie! totally didnt expect someone would stumble upon this 😂😂

[@karatori6509]

新曲嬉しいです！ 日本語訳を作りました↓（長いので誤タップ注意！） 翻訳に自信がないためDeepLを使いつつ作っています。 間違いあれば指摘お願いします。 This Life is Not Mine/Reza Avanluna この人生は僕のものじゃない/レザ・アファンルナ I spent my life feeding on all lies 嘘にまみれた人生を送ってきた "if I ever try enough one day my soul will survive." "努力すればいつか魂は生き残る" Dream that I strive for, gleam that I'd die for 努力する理由である夢、それのためなら死んでもいいほどの輝き only made me realize I'm nothing but an eyesore. 自分が目障りでしかないことに気づかされただけだった I spent my life feeding on all lies 嘘にまみれた人生を送ってきた "if I ever try enough my day will surely arrive." "努力すれば、必ず良い日が来る "と。 Well, nothing came to be. まあ、何も実現しなかったが Only regrets came to me. 後悔だけが僕に残った How dare you to even question how long have I been よくもまあ、僕がいつからこうなってしまったのか尋ねようとしたものだ running through this oppression. You don't know what time-loop means? この抑圧の中を走り続ける 君にはタイムループの意味がわからないのか？ I was born and dyed. You wore a lie, ignored a cry. 僕は生まれ、染まった　君は嘘を身につけ、叫びを無視した Circles of life? I'd say backstab with a knife. 生命の輪？僕はナイフで不意打ちしようと思う This imperfection doesn't last so I found myself lying この不完全さは続かないから、気がついたら嘘をついていた to a reflection of the past who can't even die trying. 死んでも死にきれないような過去に They have been spiraling down to the abyss. 彼らは奈落の底へと螺旋状に落ちていった。 With the last of their existence they cried "you made a promise." 彼らは最後の存在で、"君は約束をした "と泣いた。 How could I find the heart to say that I'm powerless どうしたら無力だと言えるだろう to the child who wished so hard to express 表現したいと強く願っていた子供に what a dream is? Such a disease when a hope is 夢とは何なのかを　 beginning to help him cope with realities. 希望が現実を受け入れるための手助けを始めるときになんて病気だ Remember what my brother used to say 僕の兄がよく言っていた言葉を思い出して "we're not born for greatness" and somehow it's okay. "偉大になるために生まれてきたのではない "と、なぜかわかる気がした I resigned the mind who thrived to shine in line. 僕はまっすぐに輝こうと躍動する心をあきらめた I'm out of rhymes. This life's not mine. 僕はリズムを外れた　この人生は僕のものじゃない Somebody, HELP ME! 誰か、僕を助けて！ I shouted, knowing that no one will even care. と叫んでみたが、誰も気にも留めないだろう Just a sitting duck, I'm out of luck ただ無防備で、僕はついてない lost in the dark, in this hell I'm stuck. 暗闇に迷い込み、この地獄にはまる Somebody, SAVE ME! 誰か、僕を救ってくれ！ So I screamed, knowing that no one will even dare. そう叫んだ、誰もそんなことしないとわかっていながら I'm sick of all this play pretends この芝居のフリにはもううんざりだ in this loop of contempt. この軽蔑のループの中で Somebody, END ME! 誰か、僕を終わらせてくれ！ OH SOMEBODY, END ME ああ、誰か、僕を終わらせてくれ

[@lunasaffron556]

thank yoouuu so muuch

[@tehanget9325]

Oh wow thank you!!!

[@misakiiirinuki0229]

ありがとうございます😭💜

[@bommucos]

Me before the premiere: i will watch and then sleep Me after the premiere: UWEEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEU😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@bommucos]

Otsukarejak😢

[@usn7WT2Byw6Vw6zva]

Angsty song? In the middle of the night? Goodness ejak

[@misakiiirinuki0229]

-Harmony part ? 0:07 0:15 0:23 0:35 -Rap part 0:30 -growl 🔥 1:33 1:53

[@evternity]

AAAAAAAAAA EJAK BOBOK EJAAAKKK Bukannya bobok malah bikin masterpiece , gimanasiih >:((

[@ericsouzap.4174]

Otsukarejak, I hope you continue expressing yourself.

[@999Ykseo]

ORANG GILA (AFFECTIONATE + RESPECTFUL) you can't do that, you can't do this poetic, sad, edgy lyric with that firey rap, sir, it's not fair. your rap improved tho. dammit. I really imagine K rapping this hard, mic drop, shut up you're so good. thank you for dropping another banger.

[@arsyasnipman2330]

EVERYONE NEED TO HEAR ABOUT THIS, LITERALLY EVERYONE 😭😭

[@arsyasnipman2330]

I TRY TO REPLAY THIS WHATEVER I CAN

[@K4ZESHAN]

relatable, especially hearing this at 5am (i haven't slept)

[@HEYHEY-ur5vg]

new song in midnight😮 What a surprise

[@PunEnthusiastBoi]

Dang this song goes hard

[@モモレモン-l6y]

どんな気持ちでこの曲を書いたのか考えるとひたすら辛い rezaのこれからの人生が実りあるものになるように、本当に応援しています

[@blackbloodcell5147]

Ayo now i get it

[@TLOGN]

Otsukarejak. Hands down emg

[@misakiiirinuki0229]

好喜歡這麼有節奏和力道的旋律啊啊啊啊🔥我要聽一整個月😭但歌詞 Sincerely love so powerful darp and melody 🔥 I will loop this all a month, 😭but the lyrics I do really love this song so much TSKR,Thanks you ejak

[@Namika_Elysian]

Man, this a peak fcking rap that surprisingly so relatable ngl 😭😭 Otsukarejak!

[@かに-s9m]

声が…いい…えろい…（語彙力）てか根本的に歌がお上手…すごい…なんというか強弱のつけかたも、拍の取り方（詳しくわからないけど）なんかすごい上手！！！！！すきだ〜〜〜〜〜

[@arsyasnipman2330]

THE HECC EJAK, THIS IS BANGER OUTTA NOWHERE 😭

[@robonoaware]

The quick rap, harmonies, and pure emotion behind this are all so good! It cuts deep...

[@mauricioaguilar7227]

SHEEEEEESH! Reza singing is always excellent like i listening to a super VIP musician/singer for free and today was not the exception. Thanks for dropping this original banger in the middle of the night for you best Worlds' Chronicler in the world, now have the perfect song to let live rent free in my head for the rest of the night. o7

[@maiii9]

damn the lyrics😢

[@kirschblute]

Almost cried listening to this song while eating sahur 😢 hits a bit too close to home. Thank you for the song, Ejak. I hope you have a great day ahead.

[@ikkizy6527]

Guys, close your eyes while listenin this.... a true heaven and deppresion

[@ashleyyyyy1871]

full of emotion and an empressive expresseion😭😭😭😭😭

[@mmxxx]

OMG！ Surprise in the midnight!!!!! So good man

[@TruckSans]

deep down inside, this is how we feel everyday

[@snxwflakes]

Relate banget sih sama liriknya dan bener bener lagi dalam keadaan yang buruk. I feel that "somebody end me" well i'm tired of all of things that happen in my life and thats not even what i want. Thanks for the song jak! :'D

[@zag7067]

obsessed with this i will share it everywhere

[@ayuyu_uyuya]

Waaaa rilis tengah malam

[@blablabla5966]

Jak dikit lagi sahur, kenapa lagunya angst sekali 🚶 Otsukarejak!!! Liriknya amat relate dengan kita plus rap mu itu lohhh, it's not fair for being that good 😔

[@BioRimawal]

lit barssss

[@sparo_splat]

Holy actually fire sheeeeeesh🔥🔥🔥

[@KeiP_Touka]

This is soo good jak....... I love this

[@karini42631]

Whoa literally just woke up and looked at notif, instantly wide awake after realizing that I missed the premiere. And omg what do i even say, this song really hits hard. The lyrics are impactful to the point it made my heart hurts ;v;. Can’t believe this sudden OG song just drop and i’m glad i got to hear it (gonna loop this). Otsukarejak! Good work Ejak and thank you for sharing this song with us 💜

[@eph8370]

LFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!11111 SHIVERS CAME DOWN TO MY SPINE LISTENING THIS

[@matchanome]

THIS REALLLLLLLY GOOOD AND UR RAP IS IMPROVING ISNT?? OTSUKAREJAKK THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS MASTERPICE

[@nila_havet]

damn thanks jak seems like all of us aren't sleeping any time soon 😭💖 also otsukarejak!! 🙌👏

[@anourallyn]

I want to pat pat Mr. K :" Great song as always. Usually I'm not fan of rap songs, but this is still enjoyable for me. The beat, the harmony, the lyrics, everything is so good!!

[@erlinda5420]

Otus jaak💕

[@kuroen97]

sheeesh!!

[@Mirko.D.]

REZA! Dayum! This is song is amazing!

[@CL-qz9dp]

Another GREAT WORK from Ejak, slaaaaays as always. But the lyrics are too real and relatable, hence it hits so hard (pien....) Hope you have a good night sir, oyasumi.

[@lunasaffron556]

otsukarejak!! thank you for this amazing and angsty song

[@natanya4674]

Ejak this was so good!! I love the harmonies in the rap parts and it feels like you really pour your emotions out in this song. I hope you're okay.

[@carina4026]

Whoa, this is sooo friggin good!! The harmonies, the shouting & how aggressive the rap is. I just feel like all of the emotions overflows through the song. Late for premiere, but glad that I didn't sleep yet. Otsukarejak!!

[@khzch]

Still crying over this 😭

[@asa_hira]

Abah dia jam segini weyh djxjdjhdhe the lyrics hit hard “we’re not born for greatness” 😔😭 Otskarejak. Thank you for giving this song for us to listen jak. I am grateful to be alive. I am blessed to listen to this. The lyrics,the guitar. Its all so beautiful and the messages you deliver in your songs always somehow comforting. Thank you jak!!💜💜

[@davidtitanium22]

more than a year later, this song is still fire 🔥

[@rosanna9868]

Comming back to this knowing you'll be graduating hits different. I hope you can still pursue your love for music and allow more people to hear your voice even if you stop being an entertainer. Please don't leave anymore regrets in your life and enjoy your life to the fullest. I will forever love your singing :D

[@yosglory]

bro, tengah malem loh bro

[@derpedfox]

OI KEBAKARAN JAK TERLALU FIRE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@ryugamineyashiro2544]

The song's vibe.. reminds me back to campus life.. This really COOL jak ❤

[@aruru198]

this is so good and sad

[@ppuyyyy]

another banger as always, the lyrics hit so hard i don't even know what to say aaa ; ;

[@Kari_._]

Didn't expect this song to go so hard SHEESH And the rap part? That was fire right there!!

[@StelraEtnae]

This is so beautiful 😭 The raw emotion of the lyrics, singing and rap + the harmonization blend so gorgeously

[@reenraa]

what a nice thing to wake up to, thank you ejak u never disappoint

[@felmothowlova]

Sigh... The emotion in this one way too real that I hurt my heart the more I drown deep into the lyrics.

[@divaaoct]

this is so good 😭

[@tomelock]

Awesome.

[@triiyk]

Otsukarejak 😭😭👏👏👏 Lagunya bagus trus liriknya bikin meweeeek 😭😭😭💜💜💜

[@gokbay3057]

Damn Ejak. This one hits nice and hard. Love it. Man I continue to be sad that your originals are not in Spotify.

[@yon9533]

i didnt expect to cry the moment i wake up but here we are

[@fairyklee]

thank you reza!! the lyrics made me tear up a little bit. it deserve more recognition!!!

[@maoo_mao]

so good daisuki!!

[@Lutrisraven]

This is beautiful

[@sunrisevalley5561]

this is lit🔥

[@ciciry_obelia]

This is amazing! I love it!

[@Chloe-gd8jc]

buset, bener bener buset ini mah

[@ayuayu7645]

I love this song 😢💜

[@renapundarika2135]

Terima kasih ejak karena telah memberiku lagu untuk aku tangisi sambil sahur Bagus banget, you really are very talented!

[@SaltySakana]

omg,ini bagus banget T^T

[@trisyiya5418]

damnnn!!! jakkkk baguss bgttt !!

[@hirari2731]

Amazing！

[@galaxysilver69]

This is so amazing, great job Jak 😭😭😍😍👍👍

[@merregarden]

damn~ reminds me of Hamilton, this is crazy.

[@Honeychips30]

Wahhhhhh so coooooollll 😍😍😍😍

[@ezryna_2236]

Amazing as always,tskr Ejak!

[@yueyuemai]

It's amazing seeing you make this kind of songs! I really love it. This kind are always my favourite. This song reminded me of musical, when the harmonisation (?) or back vocal came. When the main character stood in the middle of the stage with the light on him, while the other characters spinning around the mc, singing their part as if they're the voices that drown him. So much tense build up and beautiful finale. These songs i mention are my personal favourite and reason why i love this song so much. Dear Evan Hansen - Good For You and fin - Ship in a Bottle. They have so much bitterness and rage like This Life is Not Mine. I love, love very much, songs that has anger in it. I can go on and on of how i appreciate 'This Life is Not Mine' so much. Another song added to my collection. Splendid work, Ejak! (And i share the sentiment of always questioning what is it im fighting for, except for the dream that my young self has. The idea of disappointing her is dreadful. Would I end her decades of living in suffer, for a moment of release in a peak of despair? I am unworthy. And yes, still waiting for something to end me. it's just another day of [If i ever try enough, my day will surely arrive].)

[@aun7106]

Suka banget ama style lagunya Ejak 🥺🥺

[@tehanget9325]

😭😭😭😭

[@kinya2997]

Thank you for the song！ it's so great and especially the rap. But the lyrics make me want to cry😢

[@sc_endlessdreams]

I love this. Thank you.

[@mikochin_]

Reza... this is so amazing. Thank you for the great song, as always.

[@manuel_7778]

Wow😮

[@kenarami5473]

I love the way you put those raging emotions into the song, it's done very well 💜 That's said, I wish you a good day Jak!

[@popatsurii]

I missed the premiere but ahh it's amazing and I am trying not to cry 😭😭

[@minagunbear223]

I lost my words....I like this so much.

[@fwithelle]

amazing as always💜

[@カイ-y7h1o]

Damn. This is so lit 🔥

[@afiicena4705]

This is fire 🔥🔥🔥

[@smalltin921]

So amazing! Thank you ejak🥺

[@tandatanya8834]

Jak, sehat? Edit: kinda remind me of the band "Matchbox twenty"

[@Deedee-kg5ec]

Thank you, Reza 🥺 my god the lyrics feel so real

[@yoshintachristabella6932]

Ejaaaakkk 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@774の人]

いつ聞いても素敵な歌声です✨

[@lemesh3122]

NANGES DI MOBIL AAAAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭

[@TomAllThumbs]

Damn dude...

[@Galynw]

I can't stop listening to this song, your music is so amazing!