Our GESTATIONAL SURROGACY JOURNEY Has Come To An End // Infertility SUCKS!

#gestationalsurrogacy #ivf #infertility
Our GESTATIONAL SURROGACY JOURNEY Has Come To An End // Infertility SUCKS!
---------------------------------------------------
Hi friends,
Finally sharing a long overdue update.
Thanks again for your kind support and love.
xo
------------------------------
For more regular updates head over to INSTAGRAM ~ @tim.celeste.x
------------------------------
Link to PURCHASE MY CHILDREN'S BOOK,
"LITTLE DREAM" [ a story to be read to a longed for baby ] :
www.darlingclo...
---------------------------------------------------
INSTAGRAM: @tim.celeste.x
WEBSITE / BLOG: timandceleste.co/
EMAIL: [e-mail]
---------------------------------------------------
We love receiving snail mail from you!
PO BOX 117
Bacchus Marsh VIC 3340
Australia
---------------------------------------------------
LIVE PREGNANCY TEST RESULTS | IVF FET #3 // Infertility + Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• LIVE PREGNANCY TEST RE...
RAINFOREST GETAWAY In The TWO WEEK WAIT | IVF FET #3 // Infertility + Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• RAINFOREST GETAWAY In ...
SECRET Frozen Embryo Transfer Cycle | IVF FET #3 // Infertility + Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• SECRET Frozen Embryo T...
MISCARRIAGE AT 6 WEEKS | IVF FET #2 // Infertility & Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• MISCARRIAGE AT 6 WEEKS...
PREGNANCY TEST RESULTS | IVF FET #2 // Infertility & Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• PREGNANCY TEST RESULTS...
Q&A WITH GESTATIONAL SURROGATE // PART 1
• Q&A WITH GESTATIONAL S...
LIVE PREGNANCY TEST & HCG BETA RESULT | + Testing Out Pregnyl | Infertility & Surrogacy Journey
• LIVE PREGNANCY TEST & ...
"Little Dream" | Infertility Book Reading + GIVEAWAY!
• "Little Dream" | Infer...
Ask Me Anything Pt. 1 | INFERTILITY, IVF + SURROGACY Q&A!
• Ask Me Anything Pt. 1 ...
DAY IN THE LIFE Of The TWO WEEK WAIT | IVF FET | Infertility & Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• DAY IN THE LIFE Of The...
The PERFECT Frozen Embryo Transfer Day! (IVF FET) | Infertility & Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• The PERFECT Frozen Emb...
Gestational Surrogate Takes HCG Shot | + WE HAVE AN EMBRYO TRANSFER DATE! | Infertility Journey
• Gestational Surrogate ...
IVF FROZEN EMBRYO TRANSFER... NO LONGER CANCELLED?! | Infertility & Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• IVF FROZEN EMBRYO TRAN...
Shocking MRI RESULTS + FROZEN EMBRYO TRANSFER Update | Gestational Surrogacy Journey
• Shocking MRI RESULTS +...
GESTATIONAL SURROGACY HEARING OUTCOME! + WHAT'S NEXT?! | Our Infertility Journey
• GESTATIONAL SURROGACY ...
IVF STIM CYCLE #5 | EGG RETRIEVAL + TESE
• IVF STIM CYCLE #5 | EG...
---------------------------------------------------
Music by Epidemic Sound (www.epidemicsou...)
---------------------------------------------------
OUR TTC BACKGROUND:
~ Married - May 2013
~ Conceived naturally after a couple months trying, ended in missed miscarriage at 9w4d - Oct 2014
~ D&C
~ Laparoscopy surgery after 1 unsuccessful year of TTC following first miscarriage - Nov 2015
~ Surgery revealed blocked tubes due to infection following D&C
~ Conceived naturally prior to starting IVF, ended in another missed miscarriage at 7w6d- Feb 2016
~ Another D&C
~ Conceived naturally again prior to starting IVF, ended in chemical pregnancy- March 2016
~ IVF egg retrieval #1 - April 2016
~ Fresh embryo transfer ended in chemical pregnancy with 0 embryos frozen
~ IVF egg retrieval #2 - June 2016
~ Fresh embryo transfer ended in chemical pregnancy with 1 embryo frozen
~ Conceived naturally, slow rising HCG & ended in blighted ovum - Sept 2016
~ Yet another D&C
~ FET #1, never happened as our 1 frozen embryo didn't survive the thawing process - Dec 2016
~ IVF egg retrieval #3 - May 2017
~ FET #2- September 2017 - Heartbreaking BFN with PGS normal embryo...
~ Another Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy surgery - November 2017.... TUBES NO LONGER BLOCKED!
~ DQ Alpha gene partial match - unexplained infertility FINALLY explained! = alloimmune implantation dysfunction
~ IVF egg retrieval #4 - June 2019 - total fertlization failure
~ IVF egg retrieval #5 - September 2019 - 2 PGS normal embryos frozen
~ Gestational surrogacy process started - Nov 2019
~ Gestational surrogacy application hearing to get approval - March 2020
~ FET preparation with gestational surrogate - March 2020
~ Gestational Surrogacy FET #1 with PGS tested embryo - April 2020 - chemical pregnancy
~ Gestational Surrogacy FET #2 with PGS tested embryo - August 2020 - miscarriage at 6w
~ Gestational Surrogacy FET #3 with untested hatching embryo - Oct 2020 - BFN
After 8 pregnancy losses, 11 surgeries, (including egg collections), & 6.5 long years of receiving constant bad news, we are so ready to finally hold our longed for rainbow baby in our arms!

[@sj2451]

So sorry for these years of endurance Celeste. And the toll this is taking. Having watched every video you have uploaded it is so disheartening to see that your much wanted baby is still not here - and I know we will never be able to fully comprehend all that you and Tim go through. It's heartbreaking. I'm so glad you are looking at other options to become the mother you so deserve to be - and not just to your precious angels. Truly, words cannot express how sad this all is. I know you don't, but never lose sight of your beautiful marriage, friendships and inner strength and beauty. I know these have all been tested and it is not always easy but I truly believe we will see this journey have such a positive turn of events and this current upset will not endure forever. Lots of love. X

[@TimandCeleste]

Thank your so much for your beautiful heartfelt message ♥️

[@patriciarodriguez7376]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Taking painful lessons learned and sharing with others is making it a little bit easier for others to navigate the same journey. ❤

[@ainonykanen1811]

I can't fathom the sheer number of hurdles the universe has erected in front of you. I hope you and Tim find peace in whatever you decide. Wishing you strength (and I think you also already have so much strength!).

[@TimandCeleste]

I struggle to fathom it, too... seems never ending! Thank you for your kind words ♥️

[@dianepacifico8886]

I went thru years of infertility (many, many years ago) and you never forget that journey. Praying that 2021 is your year!!

[@MomminonaBudget]

Wishing you nothing but comfort and clarity at this time💕 Love and healing sent yalls way❤️

[@ericabaltayan5493]

My heart hurts with you celeste... Prayers and hugs for whatever your journey looks like next year ❤️

[@emilygarlinsky2069]

I hate that I’m mourning with you instead of rejoicing. I wish things were different. You deserve all the best, Celeste. Don’t understand why things can’t go right. So incredibly sorry. ☹️

[@TimandCeleste]

I’m so exhausted by it all... wish things were different too. Thanks so much, Emily ♥️

[@emilygarlinsky2069]

@@TimandCeleste sending love, always ❤️

[@rltr6146]

What a lovely comment Emily 😊 xx

[@xunicornskiesx7591]

I’m so sorry this chapter has ended for you guys. I’ve had such a bad week this week with continued infertility bad news and genuinely one of my first thoughts was to come to your channel and seek some support from your videos as you have so generously shared your story over the years. Although it of course isn’t much consolation, you should know that you continue to help and support others in bravely sharing your story. It certainly helps me to feel less alone. Praying for your next chapter, whatever it may be. 🧡 wishing you all the best xx

[@TimandCeleste]

This means so much to me, thank you. I’m sorry you’ve had a terrible week. Wishing you all the best for the coming year, too ♥️😘

[@natashaharris89]

You give so much to so many by just sharing your story. Thank you Celeste ☺️

[@alycebayeh9286]

I’ve shed so many tears for you Celeste. Your strength and the way you carry yourself through all the heartache and sadness is truly incredible. I think of you and your journey often and hope one day you are blessed with your rainbow so very soon. Keeping you in my prayers always ❤️

[@Raspberryswirl8]

Thank yoy Celeste for your video. My heart weeps for you and Tim. You are a courageous woman for shedding a light into the infertility world that many, many people don't understand. You have been my strenth in this relentlessly heartbreaking journey. Please take the time to look after your mind and body.

[@AprilBaby2011]

My heart hurts for you so much listening to you share such personal and vulnerable experiences with your subscribers. My husband and I have been TTC for a year and a half and this journey has brought such emotional pain upon us that it now feels physical. Not something anyone could understand unless they’d also been down the road of hundreds of negative tests - and then in others cases, IVF, loss, and more. I’m so upset for you. To want something so badly, to do everything in our power to try and make it happen to come up with let downs is just some of the worst pain imaginable. I’m so sorry you’re having to go down this road. I’m praying for you.

[@pinksinger224]

I’ve been following you for several years now, but I’ve never commented. I found you after I had a miscarriage, and I’ve had you on my heart since then. I check every few days to see if you’ve updated! Just know you have friends all over this world that are fully supporting you and your journey and to ignore the negative people! You are such an incredibly strong and amazing woman! Hugs ❤️

[@feliciarivera4297]

Teared up hearing all you've been through. I have so much compassion for women and couples that are in the ttc journey. I wish you didn't have to endure these heartaches. Sending you a virtual hug, and wishing, hoping, and praying for you.

[@adieface]

I cannot imagine the pain that you are going through and have endured, but more so I cannot fathom the bravery and strength of character it takes to meet these hardships and continue to fight for what you want. I am in absolute awe of you. In many years, when your heart has healed through motherhood, I hope you consider a new career/niche of infertility liaison/advocate that works on women’s behalf to understand, interpret and push for appropriate treatments and diagnostics. I,like you and many others lost so much time because I followed the drs orders instead of my own judgement and instinct. After two years of treatment, my husband finally insisted on a specific test that led to my diagnosis and we were ultimately successful because of this knowledge. I was so angry that I had been ignored for 2 years.

[@TimandCeleste]

Thank you for your very kind words! There’s definitely a hole in the process and lack of knowledge so many couples have to navigate through - it’s heartbreaking... so much time lost 💔 Glad you finally had success 😘

[@theQuietRebel]

Hi Celeste, I'm in awe of your strength. It's not like you have a choice, but you are a fierce warrior. How you got through the video without crying, is beyond me. Sending you lots of love and strength, thank you for reminding me I'm not alone. Here is your reminder that you aren't either. ❤️

[@hairbysteven7773]

Hi C. I’ve gone thru infertility since 2012 and after so many treatments and procedures our rainbow baby arrived this year so pleaseee. Stay positive and keep on moving forward the way I got thru it was with the attitude of okay what’s the next step and kept on moving forward and not looking back. Praying you find the answers and become the mother you deserve to be. Also all the pain and tears I went thru I don’t remember because the love and joy will overcome allllll of what you’re going thru right now. God bless.

[@cindi.wm34]

That is so true. As years pass that is the only way to survive it. One foot in front of the other to keep moving forward. We do not have luxury of time. But when success happens (no matter how one finally gets there), you realize that the baby you have in your arms is the baby you were always meant to have. I never could have imagined my steps to motherhood. Never. Crazy enough I am now grateful for what I went through because if I didn't have the courage to continue, I wouldn't have my exact children. And being without my exact children is unfathomable. They are my everything.

[@crystaljackson3233]

Oh My heart ❤ new subbie here. I am so sorry for all you and your husband and your friend have been through. I can hear your heart cry through this whole video. I know this has been emotionally, physically, and mentally overwhelming. I can't believe your question wasn't taken with the seriousness needed to prevent the results you guys have been receiving, that's crazy! My husband and I have been struggling with infertility for 7 years and we're doing our first embryo transfer in January 2021 and I am learning to trust my gut and my voice in this process too. Infertility sucks man....

[@maxinedawson5825]

I’m so sorry to hear this recent news about your surrogacy journey not succeeding. I sent you a comment maybe last year.. but listening to your recent situation with natural killer cells and the MTHFR mutant gene with not being able to absorb folic acid this is indeed my exact case. I also have ca for 2 blood mutation which is a clotting disorder. I had immune blood testing and killer cell testing too from the ARGC clinic in London under Dr Taranissi and after also starting my infertility journey in 2014 I know it’s been a long difficult path. I have a two year old now and about to embark on my remaining embryo transfer this year. I also had extra progesterone and stripes and aspirin and clexane... but I also had the intralipid infusions iv drips to lower the killer cell level. And it worked for me. If you could even have a zoom chat with this clinic doctors I honestly believe you would be on THE path to having your own baby like me. I honestly see your pain and it breaks me to watch you guys go through this failing journey so far xx Pls pls even just take a look into it.. I wish you all the best of luck and I also want u to know I am trying to be very delicate with your situation. I understand I have been through it myself xx sending hope xx

[@KatSolovei]

I'm so-so-so sorry! It's so devastating. I'm 100% sure that you will have a baby, but it's so frustrating that you can't have it now. Sending my love and positive thoughts to your way from NC, USA!

[@lindsayb1215]

I hope one day you are gifted with more than you’ve ever dreamed or imagined! You truly deserve it! 🌈

[@LJTsMum]

We all wrap our arms around you in the biggest, warmest hug Celeste. xx

[@MommyWalrus]

I am so sorry for all you've had to endure. I so admire your strength and selflessness in sharing your story. Your videos help me feel I'm not alone in this endless IVF struggle (recurrent implantation failure, 7 failed transfers/miscarriages, no children, etc). I deeply relate to the pain in your voice at the mention of not hearing from your clinic. The quietness after a failed transfer is utterly heartbreaking. Infertility is painful and unfair and it steals so much from you. Whatever you decide to do moving forward, I truly believe it will bring you the success you so badly deserve. Until then, I will be in your corner supporting you, wishing you strength and sending all the positive vibes your way. Xx

[@TimandCeleste]

I’m sorry for all you’ve had to endure also... and it is utterly heartbreaking. Sending all my love & best wishes for the new year ahead ♥️🙏🏼

[@charliewade6859]

I’m someone who has had a infertility and ivf battle .. I do understand what you mean when people try and tell you what you shouldn’t do. Our journeys are all so unique and different. I hope you guys get your miracle x

[@A_b-c_d19]

I am really admired. I don't know anyone who would have such a difficult path to motherhood. most people would have given up on the way. I admire you for your persistence

[@Happyliving757]

I cant ever imagine being in your place... you and tim are so strong all this time. I can only send love and prayers 🙏

[@madonnastamey5295]

Sending all the love and prayers to you and Tim.

[@crecine45]

The fact you’ve shared your journey and continue to do so is amazing. I’m certain you’ve helped so many just by your experiences and others knowing infertility is unfortunately common. It took my husband and I 8 years, back in the early 90’s, and I wish I’d had support throughout those days, months, years. Despite your heartache you still share. Bless you and your husband. You are always in the back of my mind and definitely in my daily prayers. From half way around the world. 🥰

[@alieshapratt6004]

I'm so so sorry.. I'm not going to EVER tell you what you should do! Your so right it's so sensitive and so HARD to go through loss so many times over! I had 7 miscarriages and everyone being sweet or not try to tell you what you should try and what worked for them and you do get so regrets and wished you pushed harder! Please give yourself some grace and just love on each other x I do have two miracle baby boys and I just want you to know I know what the loss and regret is like.. just please please give yourself grace.. it's not easy but you and Tim need to love on each other too x

[@amandagesch1202]

I am so sorry that you're dealing with all this! Infertility sucks so much! I just want to wish you the best of luck no matter what you and Tim decide!

[@fairywings55]

I'm so upset for you guys, I've been following you since I started IVF in 2018 & was inspired by your strength & honesty. I was rooting for you every step & it's awful that things have gone this way :( I hope next year opens the door on a fresh idea that you're happy with & will finally give you that precious rainbow baby xx

[@katherinesmith7198]

I'm so sorry surrogacy didn't work out for you Celeste, it breaks my heart how much you've had to go through 😢 Sending you and Tim lots of love and hugs 🥰🤗💖🌈 Xxx

[@joseyspraggins6114]

I am so sorry for all that yall have gone through. My heart hurts for you guys and I am praying so incredibly hard for guidance, comfort, love sent, and for acceptance of his great plan.

[@nancymandle5215]

i, too, have been following your journey for years now. Attention must be paid to honor your continued diligence, focus and courage as you have faced such heartbreak. Please know your journey is understood by many - one follower of your channel might have known the anger, another the continued loss, and still another possibly the heartbreak of not yet being a parent. Please know that this “club” of which many of us are unwilling members cares, supports and reaches out to you and your dear Tim with hope and comfort.

[@TimandCeleste]

Thank you so much ♥️

[@roxieeyeleers4465]

First off...you are SO beautiful. Your eyes are extraordinary. Secondly, I am very sorry that your deepest desire has been thwarted so many times. Thirdly...admiration. I would have become a ranting and crying mess on video. I admire your ability to explain things calmly. Finally, I wish you love and peace in 2021. Roxanne Taylor, California

[@soniapb7456]

Thank you for continuing to share your journey with such generosity of spirit. I know so many women have found strength from your strength. I’m so sorry.

[@melissabriggs1444]

My heart breaks for you and Tim. I am sending you prayers for peace and clarity and most of all success on your journey in the new year!!!

[@amandayarbrough4599]

Uggh my heart breaks for all of you. Infertility drains you to the core. I am so sorry for all you have been through. I am thinking of you and Tim as you work towards the next step in your journey. Thank you for being incredibly brave and sharing your story

[@beckyboo343]

I've been following your story for a long time now and I'm so sorry that surrogacy hasn't worked for you ... Life can be so un fair and I am honestly rooting for you ... I can't wait in the future to see you with your baby ... It will happen ❤️ xxx

[@AndyWandyDotCom]

I’m so sorry this path hasn’t worked for you both. It must be incredibly difficult battling so many unknowns. Thinking of you both as you embark on 2021, and this new journey. Sending love and light. 🤍

[@corinneashley5090]

Prayers for peace and clarity in whatever path you decide.

[@TheIVFChapters]

You are one strong woman. Keep pushing forward; the right road will emerge. Sending love from the U.K. 💕

[@vivianorgill4109]

❤ love and support from Canada ❤ I started following you during our 5yr infertility journey and I wish I could tell you that what worked for us would work for you but your journey is your own. I wish you and Tim all the best in 2021, no matter what direction you take ❤

[@heatherlafferty7419]

Celeste and Tim you have been through so much and you continue to persevere. Always hold onto your dream to grow your family. Just know you are surrounded by so many people who love and are praying for you. I will not stop praying for you two. You are a blessing to us all and we treasure your openness. You are strong and loved. I pray for the journey ahead.❤️🙏🏻

[@moniquef4737]

I’m so sorry. All my love ❤️ please never give up hope, you are going to be the best mum and Tim will be the best dad Keep pushing for answers xx

[@butterfly4787]

I’m so sorry Celeste. This journey for you and your husband has not been easy. You will get your miracle baby. Just know we are all here with you.

[@aussiemummy2676]

My heart breaks for you all... Infertility not only affects the couple at hand but all your family as well. I only hope that at some point things finally work in your favour. Wishing you and Tim a Happy Christmas 🎄 even though 2020 hasn’t been the best for you. 🌸🐨🌸

[@meetingthemiones]

Sending you so much love and prayers. This is heartbreaking. Im currently going through secondary infertility myself. Your so strong for what you've been going through, always remember that

[@cassiforest9191]

Sending you love and light. Whatever comes next for you, thank you for sharing your journey with us thus far.

[@TimandCeleste]

Thank you xx

[@Trish32974]

Sending lots of love to you and Tim! Found your station shortly after we started our journey! I too failed every time! I have three pgs tested abnormal embryos left, in my 40’s now and I’m just mentally stuck! I know your pain well!! Sending lots of love!!

[@Bobobaggins93747]

So much love from me to you ♥️♥️♥️ You are not alone. The endless sea of feelings and emotions is difficult to navigate... You are such a beautiful, strong soul girlfriend ♥️👌🥰 I am wrapping my virtual arms around you. With love from a friend in Canada 🇨🇦

[@TheTeaIsReady]

I’m so sorry you’ve all faced these struggles, but thank you for sharing 💗 I still believe without a doubt you will look down at your little one one day and know this pain was part of the journey that while you hated you’d do all over again...

[@kayceeleigh159]

I’m so very sorry. It took us 10 years to have both of our daughters and it literally does seem never ending. My youngest is an embryo donation baby. I truly want this for you and will be thinking of you and your husband.

[@staceyannejohnstone]

My heart breaks for you , may next year be better and the future bright regardless what path you follow. Big hugs

[@holly8698]

As always sending you love. So truly sorry this journey has not been the ending you hoped for xx

[@melissaswartout1772]

In 2016 I listened to your updates on the way to so many IVF appointments. You kept me going and I thought if she can get through this so can I. That year I did 3 rounds of IVF and finally got my second miracle baby in the Summer of 2017. I don’t know what I would do in your shoes now! So many hard decisions have already been made. I hope so much that whatever route you choose you get your baby in the end. I feel like you deserve surprise twins or something !! 👶🏼👶🏼 You are in my thoughts and prayers...fingers crossed that a miracle is just around the corner. ❤️

[@ljcl1859]

I'm so sorry this path did not work out for you. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I'm praying that your little one comes home to you soon, however, he/she comes into your lives, they will be so loved.

[@klimtkahlo]

I understand you so fully. I wish you strength to accept what you cannot understand. Why are there Mother’s that don’t appreciate their children and those who want to be mothers can’t? Wishing you all the best. We are both childless mothers, for whatever sad reason. All the best to you! You are a wonderful person that deserves all she wishes for.💞

[@TimandCeleste]

Thank you. All the love and best wishes to you, too! ♥️🕊

[@amym7753]

Oh Celeste. My heart is shattered for you. I know how badly you want this. I hope you always remember no matter what path you take, that you are still a mother ❤️ Sending you so much love!!!!

[@Nicoleisbudgeting]

Wishing you all the best ❤️ there is so much to consider in this infertility journey and I hope you find peace in your decisions for your next steps.

[@MamaBear_2629]

I’m so sorry surrogacy wasn’t the answer for you guys 💔 I am so sorry for all you are going through currently! I truly understand on the deepest level what you’re both going through! I went through 6 and 1/2 years of my own fertility journey and I’m so glad every time that voice in my head said “just give up” I quieted it and said “No! I won’t!” Because if I listen to that voice I wouldn’t be holding my now 10 month old beautiful baby girl! Just don’t give up! You’re time is coming! And I’m praying that 2021 is the year of miracles for you and your family! Much love 💞🌈🤱🏼

[@chasingrainbowschannel]

This verse came to my mind..."The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18 ....may God hold you close and give you both comfort, and guidance as you consider next steps. So heartbroken for you! Praying for answers and clarity.🙏💜

[@emu9520]

After my second miscarriage I wonder why a god would put me through this

[@chasingrainbowschannel]

@@emu9520 I am so very sorry for your losses. I know that is something a lot of people struggle with is "why does God allow suffering?" I have been through 3 miscarriages myself, so I have been there at times. But I also know that we live in a broken world, and the way things are now, were not God's original design for us all. People having free choice, and sin, is what brought death into the world. I promise you, whether you believe it, or feel it, God does love you, and he hurts with you. If you need to talk or have questions feel free to reach out💜

[@INikija]

The most beautiful words have already been written here. I can only add that I have no doubt that one day you and Tim will get your miracle baby. You will find the way. It will be okay. Sending lots of love✨❤️

[@kimberlywilliams3008]

I am so so sorry for the disappointment and losses. My heart aches so for you and Tim.

[@claireharris3131]

You truly are amazing , wonderful things will come your way because you deserve it - thank you for your videos ( you do them so well) . All the very best xxxxccxx

[@CuAnge1]

Celestial you and your husband have been so strong. I know you would be amazing parents. You deserve your miracle child. Best wishes to you and your family. I do wonder, if waiting and taking a break would be best , just because of covid. But I am sure you and Tim will decide what is best for your family.

[@lisawelsh4490]

I admire you so much Celeste you are one gutsy woman and truly an inspiration to all women.. thanks for sharing your Journey.. I am very selfish in hoping you continue pushing for your dream.. ♥️

[@bethanyhedberg1993]

I'm so sorry and heartbroken for you and your husband and that this didn't work. I was so hopeful with you. Prayers and love and wisdom for the future. Will never stop hoping and praying for your future baby. 💗

[@BellaBella284]

This video breaks my heart. Thinking of you both and wishing you all the luck in the world with however you choose to move forward ❤️

[@sandyjessop7300]

Hey lovely, I’m 4 years into my journey also. I’m in my 2 week wait on our 3rd IUI, it’s a long heartbreaking road but I’m sure it’ll all be worth it in the end, sending all my love and prays to you and Tim 💖

[@christinemiron]

Sending you so much love. I pray you can find clarity to make the best choice and finally hold your baby in your arms. ❤️

[@unad6426]

Wishing you and your husband all the best in whatever you choose to do. We support you guys 😉. All the best

[@anniegonzalez8544]

I follow every video I think about you and Tim and Live continually. And, also now lately thoughts of your mother in law who you have told us was so tied to you and Tim her abiding strength has come forward in a steady way. For what it is worth my heart while breaking is for some reason telling me you will get your baby and you will be the one to carry it to term this coming year - and I feel this when I think of how much you and Tim miss her. I am sorry if that is too much to be saying right now. Sending you the renewed hope that I am sensing.

[@nonineveryoumind4314]

OMG, I have only just tuned into your videos. I haven't jumped forward yet to see how your journey has gone, but everything you are describing is so similar to what my daughter is currently going through as at 10th July, 2024. She and her husband found out that her husband suffers from Azoospermia - the genital type of cystic fibrosis where is was born with no vas deferens so he has had to have his sperm surgically aspirated. After 4 attempts at IVF where her husband's sperm is actually injected into my daughter's eggs they have had relatively poor results from the resulting egg quality and embryos, where over the course of 4 attempts now, she has had not many decent quality eggs and not many eggs either for that matter. However, over the course of that time they have had grade 2 to 3 quality embryos overall. One grade 3 quality blastocyst was transferred - no luck; next round a grade 2 quality embryo, which really didn't look all that good was also transferred - no luck; next, no blastocysts. At that time, it was time to investigate what could be going wrong. Her bloods identified that she has a double mutation of the MTHFR gene, as well as grade 1 to 2 endometriosis. She was operated on to clear the endo. which was mainly located around her ovaries. Then she was put onto the MTHF supplement to address her MTHFR double mutation. Prior that finding out that she suffers from the MTHFR double mutation, she was taking folic acid supplements, which was the worst possible thing that she could be taking (unwittingly)!!!! Ok, so now she's up to round 4 this year - hoping, soooo hoping that having these things addressed would produce better quality eggs🤞. At the time of the endo. surgery, she had her uterus checked for any abnormalities, as well as have her scrapings checked for killer cells and all other potential embryo-destroying issues. All was normal and cleared thank goodness!!! So, after her round 4 egg (most recent) collection, she produced 9 eggs, 5 of which were not mature enough, 4 were fertilised, 1 didn't progress and 3 were still developing - of the 3 still developing, 1 didn't make it to day 5, 2 made it to day 5 blastocysts and both were grade 2. They froze 1 and transferred the other one, which the Specialist commented looked a fantastic embryo - structure-wise. After waiting the dreaded 2 weeks, my daughter's hCG result was 165!!!, 3 days later it was 980!!!!, so we can't believe she is now pregnant👏!! We are now so nervous and anxious about the next step, being the viability ultrasound, which will be happening in 2 weeks. My daughter is now 6 weeks pregnant. Every day is a nerve-racking wait. All the bad stories you hear, just fill you with dread. My daughter is staying well away from social media and anyone outside her close circle of friends and family, who are the only ones who know thus far. There is no room or tolerance for negativity or stories of terrible outcomes. As you would know so well, Celeste, they do not help and only serve to add to the terrible anxiety levels already being experienced by the hopeful mother. My daughter is more than well aware that it is early days yet and 'things' can happen, however, I have said to her to please live in the moment and that tomorrow is another day. I have advised my daughter to enjoy the pregnancy ride and that she has every reason to be hopeful. All possible screening tests have been done and passed; all fertility issues have now been addressed and resolved and now it's up to destiny. All she can do is to try and manage her stress levels as best she can under the circumstances and keep eating healthily and exercising moderately. I was crying while watching your video when you were talking about your transfer that didn't work...the one where you received the call from the fertility clinic in the car to advise that your hCG levels weren't progressing as they should have been. I felt so sad and sorry for you, and yes, it really does feel like the world is teasing you and being so cruel to you, that you should be having to go through this awful time. It's just not fair and hard for some, yet comes so easily for others. I have been there with my daughter who has gone through this terrible and very expensive journey, like you have, so I felt every part of your pain as you were going through the video😢. I am now going to skip forward in your videos and am hoping that you will eventually be rewarded with your own beautiful little baby - you and your husband thoroughly deserve it. I wish you both the VERY BEST of luck in your future rounds. 🩷💙🤗

[@aprilbradley-stewart680]

I agree, infertility does suck! I personally have not gone through it, however my best friend in the whole world has and still is after getting married in 2006 and trying around a year later. I have listened and watched her heartache, and watched her back away from others because she is hurting. I have also watched your channel and saw so much hurt for the both of you. I want so much for the both of you. You deserve everything after all you have gone through.

[@remmary100]

You’re so brave. All you’ve been through will serve as a love letter to your future child.

[@rltr6146]

Oh Celeste. My heart aches for you sweetheart. I have so much hope for your future. You and Tim are such an amazing team. You're such a lovely person and I pray that this happens for you both

[@kenellenonoda9213]

I’m so sorry Celeste. Sending so much love and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Will always support you ❤️

[@alisonorigel573]

You and Tim continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Although it’s great to see you on I wish you had better news. I am so sorry. You and Tim have to do what’s best for you no matter what anyone says. You are such an amazing lovely lady. Wishing you the best!!💜💜

[@_riddlemethis_5583]

I am so sorry. I wish I had words to bring you comfort. I wish I had words that could show you the window to a future full of love and fulfillment in spite of the current heartache. All I have are the wishes of a fellow infertility warrior that has also lost so much. I wish you love to fill your heart and your life. And I wish you wisdom to realize the end of a path does not mean the end of all roads. Good luck

[@EnglishVirgo]

I am so very sorry that you have had to go through this whole thing. It truly does suck. No words will truly help anything, so I will just say that you are in my thoughts.xx

[@laurafitz3868]

Life can seem so cruel sometimes 💔 You and Tim have been dealt way more that your fair share of hurdles and disappointment. Glad to hear there are more options in the pipeline. Christmas wishes to you both 🎄✨

[@HouseJamisha]

I so appreciate your transparency and information through all of your videos. Our hearts are with you and Tim 💛 xoxo

[@emilypeterson1393]

I'm so sorry you have had to go down this path in life and all of your losses. I think about you and Tim often and I wish there was an answer to this all. 💕

[@sarahkokura6349]

My heart hurts. I’ve been praying for years for you and Tim. You are still in my prayers. Especially during these difficult times.

[@soulandiasaab8727]

Thank you for sharing this with us. I am so incredibly sorry that you and Tim have to experience this difficult journey. I am hopeful for you two still as it seems you have options planned out for yourselves for the new year. You have so many people rooting for you and praying for you 🙏🏻 Sending you so much love and baby dust 💕✨

[@cindi.wm34]

Infertility does suck for sure. Sending all 4 of you a gentle hug and healing energies for your hearts & mind.

[@rosieposie8978]

Always here cheering you on! I’m sorry you’re in this situation. It’s a total mind $&@#!!

[@sarahmc888]

You are so strong Celeste. I know the decisions you make going forward will be difficult, but we wish you nothing but the best ❤️

[@elizawolfe6347]

I'm so sorry I will continue to send love and light your way for wherever your journey goes from here. ❤

[@ItsKelsiesLife]

Loving and supporting you ALWAYS. ❤️❤️ You said it best - infertility SUCKS.

[@TimandCeleste]

😘😘😘

[@helenball360]

My heart is breaking for you. I believe everything happens for a reason, a bit of a cliché, but the time might not be right just now. Your baby is on its way, just not at this moment or by this method. You are going to make the best parents to a very very lucky little one, just keep the faith. Much love sent to you x

[@ksharm777]

My heart is just breaking for you and Tim and Liv.....you've all been through way too much. Sending you all cyber hugs. There's just nothing else to add, except to agree with you....infertility SUCKS!

[@laurencushley8428]

It’s heartbreaking watching this video. So wish you and Tim could catch a break. Such heart ache you’ve both endured for such a long time. Thinking of you both xxx

[@kierzkowska]

I have been following you for many years and throughout my IVF journey. My son is my worst quality non PGS 6 day embryo but I truly think I was just lucky. I also got pregnant naturally earlier this year but sadly miscarried at 11 weeks. What I am going to say will probably sound strange but every time I take a pregnancy test I think about you and Tim, because if me not having another baby would mean you could have yours, I would give up all my chance in a heart beat. My heart breaks for you, I don't understand why you have go through this but I hope that there is a reason and I am sure you will get to hold your precious baby one day. All the love. Kate

[@SoapGirlASMR]

My son was also my worst and last embryo. Its such a tough journey

[@kaytiemyers2698]

I feel the same way. 😪

[@jacintawatts9457]

I’m so sorry this journey into surrogacy didn’t work, infertility certainly sucks. It’s the same here in the UK, they don’t test the natural killer cells and we ended up paying a lot of money privately to do it during our recurrent miscarriage journey. Thankfully it was ok but couples struggling need to know one way or another. Sending you only good wishes and thank you for sharing this - I have my rainbow baby after 5 losses but still find it hard to talk about xx

[@leahmondezie1722]

I was waiting for this update. I really thought liv was the solution. So many questions, so many unanswered. Infertility does in fact suck but I’m hopeful because you haven’t given up.... prayers are with you and Tim.

[@Xitchee]

I’m so sorry! 😥 This most be so hardt for you and Tim. I wish you all the best in the new year, and I hope with all my heart that this is the year your dream becomes true! ❤️

[@citticat2]

My daughter-in-law was dealing with the same problem for years and for years her and my son did everything possible to conceive. Finally they decided to adopt. Soon after, they adopted a two year old little girl then a year later they adopted another little girl at 4 months and they thought their family was complete. Then one day she got a call from the social worker who told her that the mother of the 4 month old presented herself in the Delivery room and were they interested in adopting this child to keep the siblings together and my daughter--in-law jumped at the opportunity to bring a newborn home. So they bought a few newborn items and rushed to the hospital. And when they left they took their newly adopted little boy home. God moves in mysterious ways and with faith He will see you through this painful but challenging time.

[@northerngirl4924]

Nice to see you Celeste! I have been thinking of you, hoping you were okay. The killer cell information is a kick in the guts. I’m so sorry to hear that. I agree with you about all possibilities should have been covered. Even as a lay person you suspected this so it makes me wonder about the medical community!? They failed you, at your expense. So you are on pause while you reconsider and think things through. You’ll know when the time is right. I wish you nothing but the best.❤️

[@Star-eyes7]

i think of you often, and i can see how exhausted you are. There aren't words, but looking forward i hope you find the light at the end of the tunnel, whatever that looks like. so you can heal and be happy with your family. xx

[@zasasd1613]

We had our first baby via surrogacy, I think it was the best decision we could ever make. I tried for a long with IVF, but it just didn’t work out. Anyway, I am really happy we had such a possibility. Long story short, we signed the second contract with that clinic right after the birth of our baby boy. Our waiting time (a year) is almost over - two months left before the start of a program. Now we think that one child is enough for us. Maybe it will be useful for you if you are looking for surrogacy in Ukraine. We propose to give you our position on a waiting list. I don’t know will it be interesting for people or you may think that I am out of my mind… Anyway, our clinic is Biotexcom, based in Kyiv, the capital of the country. We’ve signed for a Standard package of services, surrogacy with own eggs and sperm. In Ukraine, surrogacy is allowed only for married couples please note that. I can tell you more about the services if you are interested. Well, if somebody is willing to exchange, please pm me. We decided to take a fee of 1000 euros for it. The program cost is 40k euros. With unlimited attempts! Thanks for reading this, hope this would help somebody.