our sweet jess.💔 | VLOGMAS 2021 | Vlog 528

It's been a journey. But thankfully, I think we are on the other side...
Thank you for being patient with me while we worked through this, and found the words to share with you all.
A reminder to listen to your body.
Be your own health advocate.
and when something feels off, don't be afraid to get it checked.
To the moms and dads out there with a sick child...
I feel you. the waiting, the unsaid, the unknown... and maybe then the known.
I'm sorry. No kid should ever be sick. No parent should ever have to feel this pain.
And to the health care professionals...
thank you. you are seen... and appreciated... and loved.
and I'm sorry you aren't told this enough.
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[@KMcKee-qn6bo]

Speaking as a doctor I always like hearing when a patient is going through heavy ‘sleep’ in recovery periods. The body does 90% of it’s healing while it sleeps. So, that’s a good sign. A really good sign.

[@QueenSloan]

Yea. But today's surgeries are mostly outpatient. They cut you and kick you out.... some are not too bad to recover at home ... but some really suck doing it all alone at home.

[@TheBettagurl]

Agreed, my own father is a retired nurse and he always tells me that rest when needed can be helpful. I personally finish meds fighting two infections . I’m still in pain n have a misplaced iud and an obgyn that is doing her best to get me well again. Sometimes I really need a nap and blessed with family to help out as well. Sandy and the flock always gets me through.

[@MamiesDream]

There is strength in sleep. And a loving home helps the sleep come.

[@shadowkissed2370]

@@QueenSloan it is better recovering at home. Almost all infections that happen after surgery happen in the hospital.

[@QueenSloan]

@@shadowkissed2370 I agree to a certain point. Afte I had my first baby I was so scared to go home and I was 27 so all the nurses and etc just assumed I knew what to do. I was scared shitless and I asked the doc to keep me a day or so longer and he agreed that woman shouldn't be leaving in less than 24hrs.. its the insurance companies that make these kind of rules tho. Thats the issue I have. Insurance companies seem to be running things. Oh and the vaccines companies have more power worldwide than anyone else

[@erintoal2018]

Jess is a strong woman like her mom. I hope she recovers and is back to her quirky self.

[@barbbarlow7427]

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[@joannecarr6649]

@@barbbarlow7427 That is a bot, just report it and move on. I reported almost 2 dozen on another of the channels I watch yesterday.

[@marygracehoward9137]

@@joannecarr6649 I just saw that the bot commented on my comment as well and I feel icky 🤢 definitely report bots like this

[@w056007568]

@@marygracehoward9137 I'm so in agreement with this statement. I immediately report this absolute trash as soon as I see it whoever the KZbinr is.

[@Neverquit...7]

@@joannecarr6649 How can you tell when its a bot? thx

[@barbarab.8613]

Quite a number of years ago I told my daughter "When I'm 42 (OK, don't laugh, go with me here) and you're 79 you'll still be my baby girl" A couple of months ago, I heard my daughter say to HER daughter "When I'm 50 and you're 83 you'll still be my baby girl" Yeah, I had a tear in my eye as well. Jess has you, and she'll always be your baby girl.

[@barbaralent5559]

I can relate to this I am 74 and my last child is now 48 and I’m always telling him he is my baby, he just rolls his eyes lol!

[@aimeepennington3932]

I'm confused. The ages are backwards 😂

[@beverlyarcher3744]

I would more then likely say that to confuse ppl

[@christyefuller6346]

Yeah I get it. All 5 of my kids are now adults passing me up in age, but they will always be my babies.

[@dahlia4976]

"Her eyes are bright... she's eating well..." Kind of a reminder that we're more like the creatures we keep than we usually realize. You're a good momma to all of them, Sandi. Hope Jess is fully mended very soon!!

[@peachmelba9333]

Angels We have Heard on High"- sang it in choir Many Many Times.

[@Dee-jq2ob]

I am 59 and 6 years ago my mom was in her final days of parkinson's. I was tired, emotionally exhausted and not eating. I collapsed and ended up in the hospital, my blood pressure went down to 63/28. My husband called my parents to let them know and my mother got out of bed to come to the hospital. I don't know how she did it, but she said her baby needed her. She hadn't been out of bed in awhile, but mothers and their children, always win. Sadly she died a few weeks later, but the strength she showed, going to the hospital, reminded me of the mom I had before parkinson. Take care Jessica, you're amazing and come from good people.

[@arelismorales1157]

God bless your mum.

[@inkedmomblu1510]

I have a daughter with chronic kidney failure. You truly don’t understand it until you go through it, and I don’t wish it on any parent. I am always grateful that it’s not worse. I know full heartedly that a lot of the other children won’t leave that hospital. I support you and your family. I will be praying for your daughter. Sending you so much love and strength 💜

[@paullong4471]

Shalom..Praise the Lord. Jesus lives children and us also. When we pray to Him earnestly, God will look to us with love and cipcompassi.He heals.Amen!😊❤ .

[@IzzyWoolrych]

Sending so many thoughts and prayers to you and your family Sandi. It definitely seems to have been a rollercoaster few weeks, but we're all here to support you! ❤️❤️

[@mandywhitton1292]

Sending prayers to you all and prayers and best wishes for Christmas xxx

[@adelecohn6423]

Sandi, . Thoughts and prayers go out to you, mark, jack and especially Jess. you have brought us in to you family and we support you 100%. Family comes first and your audience family comes next after the sheep. Jess is strong and she will kick a** on whatever got ahold of her.

[@karinbfrombavaria3909]

Huge prayers and many many hugs for you and your whole family ❤❤❤ love from Bavaria in Germany 🙋🏼‍♀️ ❣❣❣

[@bjsf24]

Sandi the best thing about social media is that you let so many caring people a look inside your family's lives that it feels like we are all allowed to be part of the sheepishly me extended part of your family. Whenever your upset and feeling stressed always know that your sheepishly me family is a click away and know you can talk to us and get things off your chest because we care about you and will pray for your family.

[@diannebass2744]

When I pray for someone in need, I don't need to know what challenges that person is facing. However, God knows and hears our prayers. I feel as I am part of your family. I have been watching your channel for over 2 years recovering from 3 back surgeries. Sandi, you have pulled me through many difficult days as I watch each vlog you share. God bless and Merry Christmas

[@sandramessenger2044]

Sandy, sorry to hear your baby Jess is going through this I can tell you as a parent and now a grandparent that no matter how old they are their always your babies! Sending prayers for the family and tell Jess she's a strong women and she's going pull through just fine, call the counselling at university and get her exams deferred till Jan. I had to do it with my daughter at Waterloo university they'll just ask you for something from hospital. Take care. Sandi from Kitchener Ontario

[@BuckLG333]

Be them hoomans or fur babies... they are our world.. sending you the warmest of hugs, love and comfort.. your farm and home life is an inspiration to all.. we reach to you through this media, but you touch our hearts by sharing it all.. we love you for doing just that. Speedy recovery to Jess.. Lx From the Island of St Helena, SAO UK

[@dorcaswatson4873]

Many blessings farmers alwaysxxxx

[@smith3329]

Wishing you good tidings from Hamilton

[@wendyhumphreystebbutt5782]

Sanra, thank you for being able to let Sandi know who to contact at the UofG re deferring Jess's exams until the new year. What a great community Sandi has. Yours in Gratitude

[@kikibalser]

I almost lost my son when he was 37 yrs old. I still can't talk about it w/o tearing up. I hope everyday Jess gets a little better, and a little stronger.

[@lisabayley1234RN]

As a RN of 31 years, I had to leave the ER…Though I never got covid……it destroyed me…watching people suffocate took its toll. I’m so sad because I love being a nurse and I know I made a difference…I’m so sad that I had to leave the ER…So thank you Sandi for the thanks…it means a lot. Glad your Jess is ok too! And thank you for you channel and ALL you do! God bless!

[@brendafaithlanelane7914]

I'm grateful 🙏for your 31 years of helping folks heal. I'm sorry for the Covid hitting and folks suffering that u had to deal with. God's Blessings for you always for all the years u were there. 😇

[@lisabayley1234RN]

@@brendafaithlanelane7914 ..Thank you so much!

[@ElysetheEevee]

Thank you for your service! As someone living with a nurse in the household, it's a scary thing. They work in a more detached setting thankfully. We hear this said for cops, military, and emergency service people, but you don't hear that much for nurse and medical professionals (more since COVID started, but still).

[@maryannewebster4278]

Hi Lisa bailey its Maryanne here well done and thank you for your good job I've always wanted to be a nurse myself but because of my long term health conditions that i was born with that dream of being a nurse is out of the window but i did do st johns ambulance cadet and i passed 4 exams there to xxxxxxx 😀😥👩🏽‍⚕👨🏽‍⚕💜🩺🩹 i can't swallow solid foods its my food pipe it doesn't work like other people dose so im on a liquid and a mushy type of diet only and my doctors have put me on milkshakes for my weight because im only 8 stone in weight and I've got a hernia all so to and its been courseing me loads of pain to and my heart has stopped 2 times at Eastbourne hospital one minute i was sitting on my bed watching cartoons on the tv and then i went of the bed head first and the 2nd time it happened they told me that they were going to call the time of death on me then i came back i saw my big brother spirit and he me to go back because its not my time yet im a very religious girl myself ❤

[@katherinekelly5380]

Thanks so much for all your hard work, Lisa 🤗 I didn’t catch COVID (🤞) but I broke my wrist and needed surgery in June, 2020 and got shingles in Dec, 2020 and I really appreciated the compassion every health care worker showed me. It wasn’t a fun year for me, so many had it so much worse, but the 100 little (and big!) acts of kindness helped me tremendously. So understandable that folks are burning out, the demand and the need has been overwhelming. Thank you for everything you do, you make a big difference ❣️🇨🇦

[@amywhitney3353]

Sandy, as a nurse for 31 years I have worked in many different parts of the healthcare system, from ER to ICU trauma. I have worked with all ages. It matters not what age a parent is, when it comes to your child it's so darn scary. I have been on both sides, but it's heart wrenching to watch parents go through the powerful emotions when everything feels out of control. We try very hard as nurses and healthcare workers to make that process as bearable as possible. Many times the outcome is great but in my career I have lost many who are someone's child. I have cried my way home more then once. I hug my kids extra hard somedays. I am very happy to hear that Jess is on the mend. Thank you for the kind words about our profession, it's been a very hard time with Covid. But this is why I have Sandy time! My peace and joy I feel like I share with you, your family, and your community. Merry Christmas!

[@dianagarcia165]

Took the words right out of my mouth! Thank you for all you do and getting up the next day and going back the next day when it seems like there is no light in sight. Hope, faith and love comes in the darkest of times and are the greatest gifts He has given us! ❤ from a physical therapist (even when u love to hate us 😉 )

[@sandrathomas2145]

Thank you for what you do. Sandi is so right that the Healthcare workers many times get so many people who yell or try to hurt them but yet they go to work everyday. Many of us do appreciate you and all of the Healthcare workers.

[@wendyrossman3756]

Bless you Amy for your strength and compassion. Our world is better with selfless people like you.

[@callmeneutrino7136]

I work in hospitals as a Sonographer and I get to see up close what nurses deal with, fairly regularly. A good nurse is absolutely priceless and I agree that they don't get enough credit for the unbelievable work they do. They are the leaders of the care team and hold everything together. Each and every dedicated nurse is a blessing to the world!! 💜

[@CJxLuvly]

Thank you so much for all that you nurses and health workers do! You guys are the underdogs and truly some of the very best heroes. I can remember so many nights being alone and scared in the hospital when my parents needed a break and my nurses were the only people who could comfort me. From taking an extra few moments out of your shift to come say hello or to come back and bring a midnight snack because I missed dinner from being so out of it, to helping with some crazy embarrassing situations lol you nurses are truly heaven sent. I'm quite sickly and have had way too many hospital stays sometimes for months at a time and you guys truly become a friend and someone to laugh with and a shoulder to cry on and someone to express your emotions and feelings with. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all that you do☺️💕

[@hilareeek]

I did part of my training to be a Laboratory Technologist in London at LHSC. I'm so glad that Jess was able to access the care that she required there, and that she got treated by some of the best staff around! Thank you for the kind words about medical professionals, Sandi. We're out here just doing what we love and trying to give as much compassion as we've got to those in need. The last two years has been really hard for us - our compassion banks are pretty low. But kind words from wonderful people make all the hard days worthwhile.

[@westzed23]

Thank you and all the health care workers and the support staff. The last two years you have been through some difficult crises, which is still ongoing. As they say, you are on the front lines. You have had to help patients and their families within a bubble to keep everyone safe. So, thank you again. Have a Merry Christmas. 🎄❤☃️

[@pj89-96]

Thank YOU🙏💞

[@morrisrichard50]

I have seven health care workers on my family. Plus I have had cancer, I would not be here without them.

[@wendyhumphreystebbutt5782]

Hilary, I'm so glad you responded to Sandi's vlog. It's important for everyone to realize that our health care workers need our thoughts and prayers, too! So I, for one, will send up a prayer for everyone in the health care system every morning and every evening. Do remember to take care of yourself. Yours in Gratitude

[@kikibalser]

Where would the world be without people like you? Thank you for all you and your colleagues do, and put up with, on a daily basis. Truly.

[@sombrs44]

My kid sister went through Open heart surgery at just 13 years old. Months of doctors appointments and tests and planning I can't imagine what our mom went through during that. At 13 she's the one that weaned her own self off the morphine and even limited herself with it during her first day. Crazy how tough the good ones are

[@Bailey-gc5es]

“I see you.” We see you too Sandi ♥️. We see you and your whole family. We are praying for you, loving you, crying with you, and rejoicing with you every single day, but especially through these last few weeks. I am so relieved to hear of Jess’s recovery, as I’m sure we all are. Much love and millions of prayers from your KZbin family, Bailey

[@simplymeconnie4003]

Sandi, you just made allllllllllll my memories come flooding back from when I found out I had a brain tumor. I went to the Dr alone. I drove myself there. I was stoic as can be. I got to the car and broke down. I beat my steering wheel up. I wiped those tears away and drove myself home. On the way, a van full of senior citizens blew a stop sign in front of me and in my haze, I managed to slam on those brakes and stop within an inch. It was at that moment I knew, I was NOT going to die. No matter what. I was NOT going to die. I came very close waiting for surgery. I was told maybe 2 weeks left, but that was 6 years ago. I come from a long line of strong women, and I know, the ones who have passed, were there protecting me. Jess is the same. She WILL live to be a grandmother herself. She comes from a long line of strong women. Now, I gotta go get my angry face on again instead of these tears. For Jess. For you. The mess in the kitchen from last nights cookies that were an epic fail is awaiting me... P.S. God Got ya.

[@jamesbruister37]

Connie a word of encouragement, my brother in law had a brain tumor...surgeon only able to remove 60%. He is now a 26 year survivor. Blessings to you.

[@simplymeconnie4003]

@@jamesbruister37 Thanks "bro". Haha! Mine was 60% removed and I had Gamma Knife radiation on the remainder 2 years ago. Now I help others with their journey. That's how I found KZbin. Mine stopped me dead in my tracks work wise.

[@dawnstudley6296]

I love being part of Sandi Brocks “Ewe-Niverse,” and enjoy reading all the wonderful comments from around the world. The amount of love and support which is shared here is unparalleled in cyberspace! What an amazing neighborhood we share! Thank you for all you do!

[@katherinekelly5380]

“Ewe-Niverse” has got to appear on some merch ❣️ please, please, please, with whipped cream and sprinkles on top 🍨! 🤞

[@mjgbabydragonlet]

When the thumbnail has you drop to your knees in prayer for someone you only know through KZbin...that is powerful. Praying for Jess, for you, your husband, your entire family and flock! Loved the music in this one!

[@stephanieledbetter7550]

My son was born with HLHS with Coarctation of Aorta. First heart transplant as an 11 week old baby, second at 14 year old, and kidney transplant at 16 year old. He was doing well as far transplants. He got sick in December 2019 and in January 2020 he got sick on top of it with another illness which started that morning. He coded on me that afternoon in route to hospital. I started CPR. He did not make it. He died on January 19. I miss him everyday. To all of the donors and donor families, your gift is precious and thoroughly appreciated. I want to Thank all of the donors and donor families for all of the precious second chances at life. Bless you all! To everyone Happy Holiday & Happy New Year!

[@tfgrrl2042]

To have such a weight of grief and still find a way to show gratitude is so moving. This comment was a blessing for me today, ty♡

[@melissawolfenstein8174]

I wish you and your son the very best and Many Blessings. Sorry for the hurt and sorrow but glad you got to experience the Love to hold on to in those trying times. Again, Many, Many Blessings on you, your son, your family, and friends.

[@melissarecord7102]

I am sorry to hear about your son’s death. Mine has the same heart defect as yours. I worry about him but so far he has been doing well. I wish your son could have stayed with you longer.

[@ladonnaknowlton7131]

Sandi when we don't know what to pray about it's called a special unspoken prayer.

[@doubleglfarms9750]

Thank you, Sandi, for sharing! We are sending prayers out for Jess…and for all of you! We cried with you! We laughed with you! That’s what makes you so special to your Sheepishly Me community…you take us along with you through the good and the hard. Have you all noticed how calming, relaxing, and joyful a little lamb’s bleat is? And the chirping of the birds in Sandi’s barn (even though they are probably quite annoying to Sandi when they leave their mark on everything)? Thank you, again Sandi, for the shoutout for our channel! Because of you and your dear KZbin family we reached our goal of 1000 subs and watch hours! Maybe someday we will be like you! Blessings to all of you!

[@doralevitt2879]

Why did Jess have surgery? I'm glad she's doing better 🤗

[@topperhatschire]

Most every mom (and so many dads) know exactly what you mean. Your baby is your baby from the moment they come into your heavily, and we would do anything to see them healthy and happy.

[@jsharik2466]

Being a mom of two grown men, I can say with absolute certainty that no matter how old they get, it always difficult to deal with the pain, the heartbreaks, and the emotional days! My younger son is dealing with a lot of health issue and he is still searching for solutions. I pray that Jess recovers fully and that she succeed with her studies as well as I pray for my younger son to find the best treatment to help him regain his life of vibrancy. Those lambs are adorable. I love the part where you figured out which ewe the lost lamb belonged. Very observant of you to notice the ewe’s behavior of circling which indicate her thinking, “where has my lamb gone to?” ❤️

[@paulprigge1209]

One of my blessings is my mother has since passed away and does not have to see me deal with my neuromuscular disorder. She had a daughter Pass away at the age of seven To a congenital heart defect 1962.

[@melissaandrews1603]

My goodness! You’d think if the poor girl was in emergency surgery the school would make an exception and reschedule the exam! It’s not like she just overslept or something! 😱 Praying 🙏 for Jess and for you, from one mother to another. ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

[@lauracasey6061]

Positive thoughts for you and your family through this tough time! Sandi your a rock star for managing your sheep and your jess. You are an amazing woman ❤️I hope you have a warm Christmas with love ones! Lots of love from Ireland ❤️

[@jeancortright9039]

Dearest Sandi....Thanks for sharing what you've been going through. We lost our son suddenly in 1995 & there isn't a day we don't ask ourselves "What If". He left a 5 month-old baby boy who just became a father himself. Because of circumstances beyond our control, we are not in contact with him. I loved the end of your vlog as it shows us that life DOES go on. Love Jean from Michigan

[@michaelwilliams7481]

Sandi, I am so sorry to hear about what Jess has been through, she has the most loving and caring mum there is, and with the love from all of us video watchers she will be on a full recovery before Christmas. Give her all our love, and Sandi, stay strong.

[@chriskrishudson1064]

Sandi, I commented yesterday telling the story of how I found you when I was in the hospital with my 3 year old with a ruptured appendix and how you and your videos helped me through that week of hell. From one mother the another I see you and your pain and fear and know that your baby and your family are in my prayers.

[@jenniferregoord3769]

It’s so hard to watch our kids hurt, but not be able to help them. Praying for Jess and the rest of your family.

[@kerrythurlow8037]

There's nothing that ever prepares a parent for "that call." It doesn't matter how old you are or how old your child is...the protective momma bear comes out. Jess is a tenacious young woman. Her course of study, her determination and her self-advocacy are signs that she is as strong as she is confident. Your care, compassion, concern are all like merit badges of motherhood...and are part of the legacy that you have passed on the Jess. Your strength may waver. You may feel like your knees will buckled under the weight of the emotions that you feel right now. Just know that you have the thoughts and prayers of your local family and friends, yours followers, and your business connections surrounding you, Jess, and your entire family. To you and yours, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! P.s. Call her dean and student advisor about the exam, if they doubt Jess or you--just show them this vlog.

[@spontaneousun]

That’s a scary one, so glad Jess pulled through and she had such loving and awesome support 💛 Had a few scares myself in the last 6 months and had to move back in with my parents at 30 because living alone wasn’t safe for me due to a condition that’s been causing me to be in constant pain/ vertigo and pass out up to 20x weekly. Honestly not sure if I’d be here without their support, I felt so silly asking my mom to come with me when the first bad tests came back and the doctor said we needed to talk. I saw how hard it was for her but she just hugged me and said “I love you, you never stop being a parent, we’ll get through this.” My dad is a little more reserved about his emotions, but drives me to all my appointments and encourages me to keep going. I am eternally grateful for my parents support, I’m sure Jess is too 💛 Still hauling the long road to full diagnosis and recovery, but the most likely cause and surgeries won’t be a cake walk. I cannot put into words how much your videos mean to me because they give me something to look forward to and ground myself with in all the waiting rooms. Keep being the amazingly kind, hardworking, and empathetic human you are! EDIT: I never expected such an outpouring of support from this comment. Thank you all for your kindness, thoughts and prayers. May you and yours all have a happy and healthy holiday season! 💛

[@piraipirai73]

Your comment made me cry, but gave me a good feeling too. You seem like a resilient Person, i wish you all the Best.

[@debbydennis5295]

Sending hugs and love. Don't forget to keep talking, it helps so much xx

[@dawnbeaver726]

Love and prayers to you.

[@dawnsnyder216]

Prayers out to you

[@robbiemarcum8878]

I am praying for you. Life gers hard. I am so glad you have your parents to learn on and that they are there for you. I am glad you recognize the way your Father loves you.

[@suekeane]

My heart goes out to you Sandi, My daughter was 21 when she was diagnosed with breast cancer I have never cried as much as that day yep an adult but always my baby.

[@sherrymay5243]

It wasn't depressing, it was uplifting. I'm so grateful to hear that Jess is doing better and will be well. If nothing else, that is a true Christmas blessing.

[@lydiawarren5547]

Praying for Jess! The whole Brock family is in my thoughts and prayers. ❤️

[@mem518]

My son spent 15 years suffering with brain tumors, age 11 to 26. My heart goes out to you. I’ll pray 🙏 for Jess and her recovery.

[@alicecain4851]

That wasn't depressing AT ALL! Sandi, it was beautiful. Family is everything and you share that with us. It's a blessing. Just like those little lambs you shared with us at the end. 🐑🎄🐑🎄🐑🎄🐑

[@westzed23]

Well said. We followers share the ups and downs of Sheepishly Me. We love watching the care you have for your sheep and family. We are with you in spirit. Everyone, Have a Happy and Joyous Christmas. 🎄🐑🎄🐏🎄☃️❤

[@sherylbrandt310]

Sandi I’ve had serious medical issues since I was a teen, more surgeries and hospitalizations than I can count or remember. I’m now 63, my Mom is 85. I can still hear in her voice or in her eyes when we are together that she she is deeply saddened when it’s a bad day/report. On the flip side, her cup overflows when I’m doing well. When you’re 85 and only counting sheep in your sleep, Jess (and Jack) will still treasure the immense love and support you and Mark have given them throughout. I watched on your channel 18mos ago for the lambing. I’ve stayed because of you and this supportive community you have created.

[@Beautifully_Broken]

That was such a lovely comment, you are so very eloquent. I hope your health is better now. ❤️

[@monicamac2122]

What a beautiful post. You put how I was feeling, but far better than I ever could. Big hugs to both you and your mum. Being a mum, it never stops. I remember my grandmother fussing over my own mother when she was well into her 60's. My two "children" are 35 and 26 but they still remain my babies as well. I love animals of all kinds and I love watching the lambs being born, but also I have learned a lot from watching the challenges that the Brocks face as farmers. I also stayed because of Sandi and her genuine love and care for everyone in her orbit, animal and human alike. And this community xx

[@timberdoodle2]

So thankful that Jess lives somewhere where she has access to healthcare and the common sense to go to the Dr. when needed. Wishing her well and you peace of mind.

[@lucieholmes1601]

I really hope that jess feels better. When I was 22 I got diagnosed with a disgermernoma (ovarian cancer) and had to have surgery and chemotherapy. My mum was my rock and I'm sure jess would say the same about you. Sending healing prayers to you all xx

[@donnas9599]

I was the same age when I was diagnosed with the same thing. That was almost 40 years ago, and I've even survived a round of breast cancer in the interim (6 years ago). Sending big hugs to all survivors, and big healing hugs to the entire Brock family from Maine!

[@lucieholmes1601]

@@donnas9599 I'm 35 now, and still have effect from chemo, they said it's a very rare type and I was the first in 8 years in the town I live in. (Torquay England) I'm glad you beat both! Xx

[@tashabellows6273]

Sending so many prayers.. Jess and you are so strong and she got this.. when I was 21 yrs old I was diagnosed 2nd stage kidney cancer in my only kidney.. my mom was my rock, I was in so much pain and I told I will beat this.. today I'm 32 and 11 yrs cancer free, I still have health problems, but my mom helps me and my amazing husband now helps too...

[@courtneyyoung7775]

I see you!!!! We were there 3 years ago with our college age daughter. We almost lost her to sepsis from a very rare turn of events with mono. She was dying and was saved by a young PA who recognized what was poisoning her. I KNOW that rush when somehow I knew she was going to live! I couldn’t leave her side. It was the absolute worst nightmare of my life trying to help cool her body with bags of ice because her liver couldn’t handle any meds. The nurses and my husband I worked to cool her down for emergency surgery. God bless you ALL! Jess get well, baby!!!

[@pamtait8717]

Sandi, I was shedding tears right along with you. I'm sending you and Jess a big hug and loads of prayers and good wishes🤗🤗💗 Thank you for trusting us with your worst days as well as your best days. 💓 Hurray for Carissa, the Lamb Hero!!! 🎉🏅 So glad Mom and baby are together at last. Sheep are smart! They just don't show it all the time. They're bashful😆😂

[@Saffie19]

Would you say that the sheep are....sheepish? 😆

[@KarenM2012]

I lost my daughter almost exactly a year ago. She was only 3 months old so I'm sure the experiences are different but, despite that, for us, our Christmases will be the same. It's all about family this year. I had my son just two weeks ago and spend lots of time watching your channel with him. I hold him oh so tightly now that I know how fragile life can be. Thank you for being a source of calm and peace in our house. I pray for that same peace for yours.

[@eron5605]

Lord bless you. So glad you will see her in heaven one day!

[@lovemesomeslippers]

I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@donnac.3268]

💕 God Bless you, snuggle your beautiful son. You know the heartache we wish on no parent. May you find your angel touching your life's in unexpected ways.

[@nancydunlop4991]

Sending you love hugs and healing energy and peace for your daughter 💖

[@sandramessenger2044]

So sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of peace and love for your family.

[@janetf9076]

I just have to tell you Thank You. This is from a retired CT technologist. Drs and nurses always get the praises but, just like a family, it takes a village to care for patients. My heart would always ache so hard for the parents that would have to trust me to care for their child during the scans I did. Children can be of any age and the parents are always overwhelmed. I loved my job but am lucky to be retired. God bless your family and so glad the healing has began for you😊

[@crocheting-around-the-planet]

Just the intro got to me…..🥺😊 when u have children no matter their ages, when they are sick/ill or in pain, you as their mama feel it too & want to take it away ☺️🥰 Sending much love & gentle hugs for Jess & u too Sandi, Mark & Jack 🤍🐑🤍 Two yrs ago in Jan, my mama witnessed me crawling in extreme pain 2 weeks post of having a hysterectomy, 2x hrs later taken via 🚑 to 🏨, I felt for my mama cos I cud tell she was helpless to remove my pains! Prayers & well wishes from across the big ocean that separates us (am in UK) 💖

[@Beautifully_Broken]

Sandi, I know that this is a really tough time right now, which makes me wish that there's a way to reach through the computer & give you a big hug! I am in complete awe of your strength, compassion, & concern for so many people & animals in your life. (even for total strangers, like us, & not wanting to let us down.) I hope you know that you have your own ARMY of people, who care about you & are sending prayers/healing thoughts to you, Jess, & the rest of the Brock family! Not a lot of people can say that they have more than half a MILLION people thinking & praying for them. But, YOU DO, & that's because of your kindness, strength, & GENUINE love for all of the people in your life! You are so loved, Sandi, and so is Jess! Many prayers coming your way from Massachusetts! ❤️❤️❤️

[@Beautifully_Broken]

Sorry for my novel length comment! 🤦🏼‍♀️

[@Beautifully_Broken]

pinces bella what is wrong with you? Do you have no shame, whatsoever? Reported for offensive content.

[@piraipirai73]

@@Beautifully_Broken i think it's a bot, Not a Real Person, that posts those comments. I reported it too. Wish you the best!

[@Beautifully_Broken]

@@piraipirai73 thank you! It's been a hectic day, so it being bot spam didn't even cross my mind. I get so irritated when trolls or bots spam a video with serious subject matter. A few years ago, a troll left some horrible & heart breaking comments on a photo slideshow, that I made for my mother in laws wake. I reported them right away & made the video private after that. It's really sad that people have absolutely NOTHING BETTER to do with their life, than to post hate & vulger speech on a memorial/legacy tribute video. 🤦‍♀️Take care of yourself, and thanks again for letting me know! ❤️

[@jlit1336]

As beef cattle and hay farmers daughter, never thought i would be so invested in sheep. Cute critters. Your videos are awesome. Your family is awesome. Blessings and prayers for health for you and yours.

[@LolaRyck]

As a kid who is sick … I wanna say thank you for loving Jess and taking care of her. Sometimes that’s all we need to get through things. We just need love. You may have felt helpless but you weren’t. I ve had major surgery and woken up alone. I’ve also had to stay in London during c19. It’s awful and scary. You are amazing. Jess is amazing person. 💜💜 Be kind to yourself. You’re going through all the feelings you couldn’t the past few weeks. Merry Christmas to everyone 💜💜

[@westzed23]

What wonderful words. We followers of Sandi do feel the need to support her and her family. And of all the wee sheep. Merry Christmas to all. 🎄❤🎄❤🎄

[@pj89-96]

@Lola those are precious words to Sandi. I am so very sorry that you had to endure so much alone. I'm glad you're here💞

[@LolaRyck]

@@pj89-96 thank you for your love 💜

[@c.hansen3139]

The beauty of prayer is we don't have to know. God knows. Praying for continued healing for Jess. Big mama just looks how I felt the end of my pregnancies- fat, miserable and over it!!

[@cyndizebra6119]

So, as I dry my eyes and take a shuddering breath, know that I know. As a nurse who struggled with severe health issues all through nursing school, then a Nurse that eventually became a full time patient ( had to retire due to being diagnosed with several genetic disorders and severe endometriosis, to then at one of my weakest points, became A MOTHER TO A SICK CHILD ( he was diagnosed with MY GENETIC DISORDER 😭😭😭-absolutely devastating guilt) watching my 12 year old son be bedridden in constant pain and hardly leave his room for 18 MONTHS, I see you. He’s 20 now and it’s been an excruciating road but he’s able to function more normally now ( not completely normally unfortunately, there is no cure for what we have, nor a real good treatment plan.) When he got sick, a part of my soul just curled up and went dark.To be sick myself was hard but to watch him suffer….knowing his pain acutely….was, is still, almost too much to bare at times. From one mom to another who know this pain, I am crying for you. I hope and pray that Jess recovers fully, and her pain is gone for good. And I am sending so much love to you Sandi, because I know. I know. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@erinturner6219]

I read a lot of the comments on each of Sandi’s videos and I have to say yours touched me deeply. I have one child, a daughter, who is now 16. I planned on having 3 children at the very least but my own health tanked more and more each year so I was only blessed with my one precious baby. I can’t even begin to imagine what you have gone through and continue to go through watching your son suffer like you have!!😟 Especially because you know the suffering intimately and know how painful it truly is! That must be pure agony and I’m SOO sorry you guys go through that! I do want to say this though ….I don’t know wether or not you chose to have children while aware of the risk of passing along your diagnoses but even if you did and regret it now, I can promise you that punishing yourself with that guilt and regret and self-loathing and letting it grow and fester will not ever produce positive outcomes! For your spirit OR your son’s! So if you’re feeling in any way guilty for passing this along it’s time to forgive yourself(if that’s what is needed inside of you)and let go of all the “if only’s” and “if I could go back’s”! Give yourself a break for being human(which generally translates as “selfish”), leave your shame/guilt/regret at the foot of the cross, for Jesus is far more capable of handling our negative emotions than we are, and be set free! Free to love your son AND yourself uninhibited by any negative feelings about past choices! I’d be willing to bet your son has said there’s nothing to forgive and has probably even thanked you for giving him life a time or two! So if you ARE harboring feelings of un-forgiveness for yourself it’s ok to let them go now.😮‍💨😪😌 Maybe this doesn’t apply to you at all; maybe I’m way off base here but I just felt like I was supposed to tell you that. God bless you, Cyndi, and your family!!! P.S. I lost my own mom when we got in a bad car accident when I was 7 and her name was Cindy(Cynthia) too!✝️💟

[@loritipton5800]

@@erinturner6219 Your beautiful heartfelt words to Cynthia (or cindy) made me cry . I lost my son 10 days before his 33rd birthday! In a little over a week it will be 4 years since he passed. He was an amazing son talented at all he did . He had a huge heart and I miss him every single minute of every single day . You're not supposed to lose and bury your child it is supposed to be the other way but signing his death certificate Damm near broke me. His father and I aren't together yet we've talked about him . My ex husband told me he can't stop thinking about him . We both have alot of guilt about did we do the right thing . My ex felt he turned his back on him and regrets it deeply . But our son understood his dad and felt he failed his dad. I wish with all if my heart not to have lost my child he's the 2nd child I've lost the 2nd was a little girl who had neural tube disorder and no one ever explained to me she could be born dead .I was devastated. I remember feeling her struggling and kept begging the doctor to do a c section so she didn't have to fight to be born .39 hours of labor and she passed 6 hours b4 she was born . Not too many people understand what I feel but I pray my son and daughter are together in heaven waiting for me to breathe my last breath ! Sorry for that but I really wanted to thank you for your beautiful words to another mother who definitely seems to carry around guilt that only eats at your soul so God bless you for your kindness to her .

[@katylynn1692]

So glad to hear Jess is on the mend! It’s always scary when something unknown is happening to you, and it’s not easy from either side of it (parent or child). She’s blessed to have her family around her. I’ve been in her shoes, and my parents in yours. You will all heal with time; feel less of your heart jumping in your throat; less fear. Love and prayers to your family. ~SleepyBri

[@The.Bees.Knees.]

Get well Jess.

[@mandywhitton1292]

Get well Jess love xx ❤️

[@brendahubert7916]

Sandy, as a nurse and a small farmer the emotions can be similar as I love my animals and hate to see then sick, Hate seeing my kiddos sick, when they were young and now as adult. As a nurse I am thankful I decided to help those who are not feeling well and provide treatment and emotional support. All three jobs,-momma, farmer and nurse are such an honor and emotional roller coaster but thankful God has allowed me to ride along with HIM. (hope this makes sense). You are an amazing women giving back to all of us in the form of food to eat, Farmers are never given enough credit. You are loved as I feel like you are a dear friend and I have learned lots from you in the small animal industry. Prayers continue for Jess as she heals and the whole family. God bless!!

[@ElysetheEevee]

We could use more nurses like you in my area! The people here treat it as a paycheck and don't even do the bare minimum of their jobs, let alone have empathy.... Wish all the awesome nurses here would migrate to where I'm at haha! :)

[@sheilawallerseibert461]

Sending my prayers for Jess' complete healing, for your and Mark's hearts and minds, and for Jack as he tries to be the strong support for all of you. Jess has excellent role models and knew how to take charge and take steps to find the cause of the problem. Thank you for your words of praise for the medical community also. I worked in hospitals as administrative support and saw first-hand how hard these people work to get answers and relief for their patients. Sometimes as patients/family, we forget that they are people too and that they hurt right along with us while they seek the healing we need. Thank you for sharing your family and your business with us. I know that farming is hard work that benefits the public more than some of us realize. It's not just getting to play with the babies and riding around on a tractor. It's long days, short nights, frustration, and a lot of planning, all in addition to tending to your family and your home. Thank you for all of your hard work!

[@kellyfoster8903]

When I was first born, no one was aware I was in bad shape. After going home, my mom said I got very sick and about eight days after, I ended up having life saving surgery. The doctor said if they would have waited another day, I would not be here. I have also been in two car incidents that could have been fatal. Also, in 2019 before all the world collapsed, I ended back in hospital in critical.I pulled through three weeks later, just as the toilet paper crisis hit. My main thought was, before hospital I was about out at home and needed some. Life doesn't always go as planned, but it is amazing what we all can go through and survive. It makes one heck of a story one day when you are old in that great rocking chair with the grand or great great grand babies on your lap. God bless and take care to everyone.❤

[@smilinwolfette1978]

I just found out today my bladder cancer returned after 7 years cancer free. I totally get as a parent how hard it is to watch your baby girl as I just watched my mom go through breast cancer surgery just yesterday. Am I scared sure but I have Sandi time to make me laugh, cry, ugly cry, and feel so much love it is my safe space!

[@marilyngardner2332]

I look sooooo forward to your vlogs every day. I did look at your post on instagram and completely understand your fear. I’m a labor and delivery nurse and have seen that fear in many parents eyes when facing medical issues with their newborn. I have cried with parents going through it all. Hope that Jess is doing better and that the treatment she had takes care of the issue. Reaching through my phone to give you all a big hug 🤗. Also wishing you all a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR.

[@doloreswilliamdyke3954]

Sandy... Watching your child going through anything like this is devastating to a parent.. With not only going through the farming but you have Jess struggling would make any parent stressful and on edge. Blessings and prayers to you Mark Jess N Jack . God bless n. Blessed Christmas and New Year

[@marygracehoward9137]

Sandi, I'm so sorry to hear about how much pain and discomfort Jess was in. I'm glad that she's on the road to recovery now. I'm sending positive and healing thoughts to you and your family ❤️

[@sherriwood5100]

Our prayers are with you. I am not a farmer never have been a farmer but I love watching you and your sheep and your Lambs and your family. You make me feel good everyday. Thanks,

[@Lara-gj1du]

Absolutely amazing how we can pull ourselves together in front of our kids. I remember the time we thought my son would not walk again, and how I kept it together in front of him. How did I do it? God himself only knows. It's good that you were able to break down and cry while Mark kept was driving. I hope Mark has a chance to let down as well - just because things are looking better, doesn't mean you're still not feeling all the feels. Feel them, thank God for the miracles that our children are, and hug your babies. I will hug mine in honor of Jess. xoxo

[@BexxiM]

When I was 22 I watched my momma go through watching me battle a blood disorder. The amount of strength that Moms have is so amazing. I will keep you guys in my prayers, and honestly good job for raising such a strong woman.

[@marygibson1854]

Glad you are ALL doing better! We must all learn how to stop and give many thanks for what we are blessed with!!! Love and Hugs to you all and Merry Christmas!!🎄🎄

[@MichaelSuddard]

Thanks Sandi for sharing your sheep and family with us. Glad you have help during these trying times. I certainly didn't mind the video delay. You need to take care of family and your sheep first. Hope things look up from now and into the new year.

[@lesleyyoung5730]

My 3 year old granddaughter is just finishing her chemo treatments of 18 months, not knowing how her brain tumor will react is soul-shakingly frightening. Thank god for you and the distractions you create, not just for me but for so many in situations that need that. I can only hope you too have distractions, besides your beautiful sheep. I am happy and grateful Jess was smart enough not to let this drag on, but seek help, must have gotten that from her mom. We can never know how long we are here for, all we can do is the right thing, sounds simple but honestly, it applies to everything, just do right by everyone, be there when needed, and even when you're not. Don't walk away from a situation and find yourself saying... I should have done this or that. You never know the depths of pain, sadness, or desperation someone is going through, we need to be understanding, patient kind, and helpful to one another, and not just around the holidays. Thanks Sandi.

[@cindybrodie9769]

What a wise and beautiful comment. ❤️

[@patseemore5019]

Prayers for your little granddaughter, and your whole family. May you see God's work in each day!

[@bcgrote]

Many hugs to you and your family. We are blessed to have the Brocks sharing their world.

[@charlotterockel-kennedy8913]

Sending you prayers, love and light and a lot of strength 🙏❤💫

[@kikibalser]

So glad your grandbaby is finishing up her chemo. I pray she has a joyful life. I'm sure she will as she has such a strong family.

[@karmavalley]

You have a guardian angel, that bird that hit the window is your strength. Your not alone

[@yasminreid3036]

Been waiting all day for this. We love and support you and your family so much Sandi, just like you support us through our lives without even knowing it. All my love to sweet jess xxx

[@24tiaan]

your tears got me in tears. my daughter is 10 and she was born with glastoschisis. i can totally relate to you. good luck for you guys and now its also over the feztive season. from South Africa

[@deblawson1575]

Prayers.....have been said. Parenting there is no owners manual, yet God is always with us. You are loved God Bless you and yours

[@arlenehildred7504]

Sandi, I want to thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. This is one of a slew of reasons I CHOOSE your channel to watch. You celebrate the good and don't hide the not so good. I love this because this is true life, ebbs and flows. I am grateful for you and your family sharing the REAL life on KZbin. It is refreshing and worth sharing.

[@JeremiahsLot]

I'm so HAPPY to hear Jess is doing well after such an ordeal. I know she's an adult but they are always your babies in your ❤ heart. No matter how old they are mine are still - the little sweet things I first held in my arms.

[@NanaVicki1]

Not depressing dear lady. Being under that much stress, no words can help, sometimes you just have to cry or you'll spin apart inside.

[@kirwanqueren]

Sandi, you are such a strong loving person. I never cease to be amazed at your capacity to love a sick lamb, worry about them, and love your kids. I cannot imagine, or I can a bit, because my daughter is injured right now, and it was scary, how much you have gone through and kept it all in. I am also amazed, at how you share, and allow us to care for, and be a part of your life and your heartaches and joys. I have watched you now for 4 or 5 years, and you have been one of those people I watch as soon as I now a new video is out. I love how open, how honest and how real you are. Yeah yeah, I fangirl a bit, but most of all I watch you share your life, and it makes me feel good that there is someone out there like you. You teach us about farming, a little about crops, a lot about sheep and loving them, and quite a bit about how to be a strong person. I am so happy to hear Jess is recovering, and that hopefully the road ahead is clear. I am hugging the both of you in my heart because I know how much our strong independant daughters can be a worry. Thank you Sandi. Thank you. And all the love in the world to you and your wonderful family! We love you!!!!!

[@donnakytle6595]

God knows all needs,we just ask him to be with Jess.As a nurse for 40 years in Operating Room,I never felt unappreciated by my patients and their families, by hospital administration I sometimes felt unappreciated. My daughter is a nurse batting stage 4 inflammatory breast cancer with 3 metastatic lesions in spine.Last scan showed Cancer free ,praise to our Lord and Savior who is seeing her through ,along with her wonderful doctors,and nurses.She will get Chemo rest of her life.Her husband is a nurse ,and so is her brother. God Bless you Jess ,and your precious family.Our babies are our babies till we pass.

[@westzed23]

Special thoughts and prayers to you and your family. It is difficult at times to have the strength to see you through. This community of followers is so caring. Have a Happy Christmas to you and your family. 🎄❤🎄

[@donnakytle6595]

Thanks,and God Bless you and your family.All prayers are appreciated.

[@mariapietrangelo3145]

The power of prayer and supporting one another is the ultimate gift we can give to one another. Wishing Jess a speedy recovery, Sandi us Mamas got your back. Hats off to the medical staff especially during the last two years. Hooray to the surgeons, GP's, nurses, technicians, anesthesiologists, OT, PT and rehabilitation staff!!

[@SuperKristinG]

Oh Sandi! We just went through something similar with our daughter. You are right, Doctors and nurses especially are amazing people. I see you. I understand how hard it is to watch your babies be in pain and feel helpless because you can't fix it. You are amazing! Thank you for sharing. Hugs, prayers and love sent! ❤

[@karendunn3590]

Sandi I cannot believe you still cared enough and took the time to sat up a video for us❤️ you should of givin yourself more time but that our girl 😍 you are always pushing and putting everyone else and your beautiful lambies first! I just wanted to say thank you for all your hard work and caring sooo much about us. People you only know through your videos and comments. You really really touched my heart ❤️ We are really really feeling your pain Sandi. Your Jess is in good hands. You can tell right away when your child is feeling better by there beautiful eyes. It really hurt me seeing you so emotional unless you have a sick child no knows how scared you are for them when they are so sooo sick. I so happy that everything is going better 😍 but please please give yourself some time to rest also we see how truly tired you are and still emotionally what it did to you. God bless you and yours and we know Jess will get through this and her Exams in school we know because she draws her strength from you 😍 🙏

[@westzed23]

Well said. This community of Sheepishly Me, is so caring to all the followers. To everyone, have a wonderful Christmas. 🎄🐑🎄🐏🎄

[@aquabloom6620]

Wow Sandy, I sobbed so hard hearing you describe Jess in pain. From age 15-24 I had over 20 invasive surgeries that was a result of endometriosis that spread and I now have bilateral neuritis and two implanted neurostimulators. Seeing Jess bought back a wave of memories and please tell her that if she needs any support, to reach out. I'm disabled now but try advocate or support where I can. Jess hang in there and please don't put your health off over studies. You're so strong and I'm sending you the best wishes to heal.

[@terrimccullough724]

Big ((HUG)) from a Mom to another Mom. And yes, no matter their age they are still OUR babies always. I hope you get the best outcome for your Jess.

[@trenarexroad4083]

Prayers for healing for Jess...it's Thursday and my 32 yr old son just had a horrible seizure and fell back and hit his head on the counter... I managed to move his head away from hitting anything else and he has recovered but it's hard to see our babies (no matter what age) be in pain and illness...😢 God bless you all 💗

[@susanshikowski2024]

The best years of my nursing career was my time in pediatrics. Learned early on…you do not mess with someone’s child. The parent of the parent is part of their history, the parent is the present BUT their child is their future. Having to turn your child’s care over to the medical staff is the hardest job a parent ever has to do. But when you have good nurses your child is being cared for just as they would take care of their own children. Will continue to pray for Jess’s recovery. Pray the appointment with the doctor brings reassuring news. God Bless all of you. And thank you for sharing your world with the sheep. I am addicted to those beautiful animals and their oh so sweet babies.

[@bebekind9455]

We love Jess…and all of you!! I feel as if it is a privilege to pray and to even be asked to pray. To those of us that believe in prayer there is no greater privilege!! So thankful that Jess is improving but continued prayers for healing, for comfort for all of you and for her doctors and caregivers to continue to give you the hope and answers you need. Love to you all… ♥️🙏🏼♥️

[@shanp132]

Totally shedding tears with you lady!! 😢 Your kindness and love for your children and family truly touched my heart ❤ Continued prayers for Jess, a speedy recovery and back to health 🙏

[@belindamenzies7620]

Sitting beside our kids in hospital watching them in pain is so excruciatingly hard. I have 3 kids, all have chronic medical conditions. I have handed them into the care of surgeons 53 times, with another booked within the next 2 months. I have spent weeks at a time sitting and sleeping beside them in hospital. No matter how old they a re, they will always be your baby. My eldest is 20yo and had her first baby 2 weeks ago, i spent 2 nights in hospital with her and grandson helping care for them. I pray Jess fully recovers and you get the news from surgeons that everything is ok. You are an amazing mum Sandi

[@kalimobley9038]

We see you momma. My girls are small still but each day they grow and I miss the tiny babies they used to be. Jess is strong and with a powerhouse of a mom like you behind her there is no doubt she will get through this. Staying strong for your babies is a different level of strength that only a parent knows and you are doing an amazing job. Sending love your way ❤️

[@lauraisenburg9390]

I know what you're going through and I pray for your family my daughter two years ago at 25 had cancer and we still don't know she's going to be okay just put it in God's hands

[@melissawalker3874]

I'm 42 years old and in kidney failure. My mother is taking it harder than me. Glad Jess is doing better now. Hope the exam people can show a little mercy. I knew something had happened when you didn't vlogmas one day. Thoughts and prayers for all of you.

[@juliew1589]

Sandi, you are such a wonderful mom and person. I am an RN working in Ontario hospitals. I had a tough day and yes we deal with all you said and more. Your videos and beautiful smile are what I put on to decompress and take a break. Thank you for these videos and your beautiful babies. I absolutely need these lately. All the best for Jess and her recovery.

[@monicamac2122]

I am an RN working in COVID vaccination clinics, in Australia. I come here to decompress as well, I am not sure how I would go without being part of this community, to be honest. Hugs to you, Julie.

[@Canuckmom128]

Hey Julie - this Retired Unit Clerk just wants to say Thank You to you and ALL your Colleagues, for putting your own health at risk, to care for others. Not to mention the burn out from this Pandemic. Things were tough BEFORE Covid hit, so I can’t imagine how tired and just spent you folks are, and then to have the Nut-Job Anti-Vaxxers showing up at Hospitals and Clinics …good grief. Anyway…take care, and Thanks for all you do for your Community.

[@sylviahunt9818]

I totally understand what you’re going through. Ten days after my great-grandson turned a year old he was diagnosed with stage 4 neuroblastoma (cancer). His parents kept telling the doctor that there was something wrong with him. His eyes were black and blue as if he was beaten up. The doctor blew it off as if it was nothing to worry about. Another doctor ran tests and the cancer was diagnosed. He turned 2 last August and is cancer free!! Thank You Lord!! He’s had 2 scans since then and is still cancer free!! He’s dealing with some PTSD because of all he went through but the specialist he is seeing thinks that he’ll overcome it because of being so young. Praying for your daughter and your family. God Bless.

[@juliaweatherford9269]

My daughter was 16 and diagnosed with medulloblastoma tumor on December 15th 2015. It’s the hardest thing to go through especially when your child is saying their head hurts and the nurses and doctors said she needed to drink more water! She’s always been healthy and I kept going from one doctor to the next until I finally got help. I’m so glad your great-grandson is ok. My prayers will stay with you for him to remain healthy.

[@TheYangnyin]

You're a good mom. Very glad to hear that Jess is doing better! The ewe getting doggie kisses was adorable 😊

[@beeholtzclaw7935]

Dear Sandi, I cried listening to poor Jess's story, and glad to hear she on the mend. I'm 58y/o and have a 28y/o son with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis CFS and has become very server where he is bed-bound since Feb. My hubby and I take turns with his daily care. There are days he is so severe and sensitive to light and sound, I can only whisper softly questions he can nod yes or no. And yes it doesn't matter how old your child is....I cry a lot to. I found you right after my son became bed-bound , what a blessing you have may in my life! I am also horse crazy and take care of a small farm, I love to see the farm side with the big machinery in action too. I start my day at 5am to feed horses and get home for my son's needs, my favorite part of the day is to watch your vlog with a cup of coffee . Your honesty and hard work for your sheep and family is what draws us to watch your channel. Stay strong and Merry Christmas.

[@amystone6511]

Sandy I literally just went through the same type of scare, worry and then breathing again. My worst and best were 8 days apart. So I see and feel for all of you. It affects the whole family when someone we love is sick. And it's always great to be able to walk away saying, that was close, but here we are. Sending love and prayers from Indiana U.S.A ⛄🤍🎄

[@hsaurid]

Sandi, speaking as a retired healthcare professional, I agree with what you’ve said. Sometimes it is the most frustrating thing not knowing what is going on and as a result having limited options as to what the best course of action to take. Emotionally, your clinical judgement is affected and one needs to put emotions aside to calmly, rationally think through the situation and direct appropriate actions towards a good outcome. Good to hear Jess is doing better. Make sure she is taking her medications properly and, if any unusual occurs, talk to your community pharmacist about the situation with a mutually respectful dialog. They will be able to offer suggestions as how to deal with issues. Pharmacists are a good resource when used well along with other members of the health care team. On the sheep front, I see a lot of things happening, mostly good. Sandi, I would prescribe daily quality time with your sheep, lambs especially. If Jess is feeling better and there are no contraindications, have her feed some of the bottle babies while you and Carissa do other chores. Merry Sheepmas!

[@theresameske7594]

Seeing the babies and their sweet little faces seem to take the edge off of the seriousness of things

[@janw491]

It will never matter how old your kids are. It’s will always be horrendous when they are sick or injured. My two are all grown up and apparently I still “fuss” too much and as a nurse I can really fuss! I’m crying with you. We fall apart until we are with the kids then you hide it until you are alone again. Not depressing because Jess is feeling better, get well soon Jess 👍

[@amyspeers8012]

I totally understand that. I’m a pediatric nurse and my son-now 27-said I did fuss a lot.

[@vondalaffin4051]

Got ya girls. Retired NICU nurse here. I have two grown girls and still fuss and fret whenever trouble is brewing! Mom's and nurses are special people. Merry Xmas all!

[@traceyburgin6646]

I'm glad Jess is doing better now. I'm so sorry she's going through so much. The hardest thing is seeing them in pain and not being able to do anything about it. We are thinking of you and your family. My husband and I love your videos and look forward to seeing your vlogs. I just subscribed to Jess's channel and Marc's channel. Thank you for all that you share with us.

[@dianehookham]

Hi Sandy, you probably won't see this as u have so many comments! I'm a mum in New Zealand, and watching this my heart went out to you. My girl is 23, and it never changes, they are still your babies, my girl will ring me when she's sick, she's at university and I'll be there as soon as I can with what ever it is she needs at the time. I think I'll find it hard when she marries, but I'm the same, she's my baby till the end no matter what. It's what makes you so good with these ewe's and there babies. Stay real, love watching what you do, your a amazing women!

[@vergieclark131]

Praying for complete healing for Jess ! As a mother I’ve been there life throws us curves but we have an awesome God, hang in there many prayers coming your way ! 🥰💜🙏🏼

[@sunshineash7322]

Seeing the feisty little lambs always makes me go “awww!” I’m a school bus driver and the week before we are out on Christmas holiday is always pretty rough because the kids are so ready for their break. Your vlogmas videos have helped so much to ease my nerves from driving a rowdy group of kids.

[@jenniferp5916]

Kudos to all our bus drivers and teachers! Kids have tons of energy and can be a real challenge, God bless all of you for fulfilling this important position!You are teaching manners, patience and grace, while simultaneously learning the same lessons yourself from the kids. 😉😘

[@jamip1727]

I love you and your family so much! Big hugs!! When I was 17 my family had a similar experience. I went in for abdominal pain. After many tests and finally an ultrasound they called me to come in the day they reviewed all the results. Emergency surgery scheduled the next morning to remove the tumor. I experienced a lot of physical pain over the course of a week but my emotional state was very detached. Now that I am a mother myself, I look back on the 2 weeks full of testing leading up to my surgery and the aftermath. All I can remember is the terror and pure exhaustion written all over my mom’s face. She tried to hide it, of course, but I can only imagine the emotions that ripped through her. My heart aches for you as a mother and experiencing that helplessness of not being able to protect your baby from everything possible. Remember that our babies are stronger than we will ever know. We taught them how to do that, momma. My body remembers the pain and I hope that it passes quickly for Jess as well. It will be a distant memory in no time. Take care of yourselves. Love from Ohio🥰

[@glissy1961]

Oh Sandi I know how you are feeling. No matter how old they are, they are still our babies. It hurts us when they hurt and we can’t take it away. And the unknown is terrifying. I’m glad she is doing better. Thank you opening up to us. I’m sure it takes a load off your shoulders not to carry that around. We all love Jess! I love her attitude as it’s a great combination of her parents!!! Take care❤️❤️❤️ remember we all love you!!

[@gooberfishy4444]

I was crying with you. I'm sure like most of your other viewers we all see you as family. Your sheep are our sheep your Jess is our Jess. I'm so glad she is doing so much better and you were able to share this with us. Your family is so strong to go through the things you do and still handle school, sheep, and everything else. As always you and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.

[@OMGitsaClaire]

I get where Jess is coming from. I had emergency or fairly urgent surgery three times as a teen, and the third one was exploratory because they couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me or why I was in pain. The pain gets to a point where you just kind of go “I don’t care what they do to me; I don’t care how many needles they poke me with; I just need this pain to stop.” But having your mom or dad there is really nice. Having somebody to bring you toast or a heating pad or your pain meds when you just can’t drag yourself out of bed after surgery is very nice. And having someone to sit with you and hold your hand before you go back for surgery and you’re feeling so nervous is also really nice. I can’t imagine what my mom went through during all of that. The multiple ER trips, doctors’ visits, sitting in a hospital waiting room. But I’m glad she was there and I’m sure Jess is glad you and Mark were there too.

[@kimboop]

Bless you xx

[@nanabethscreations725]

Sandi You have my whole heart!! My youngest had some issues in Jr High school that turned out to be cardiac in nature and as a mother I was just like you! Cry when I was alone and put on that brave front for my daughter. So please know you are an amazing mother as well as Shepherd and I am so honored I get to watch your every video!! Still Praying for Beautiful Jess!!!