Pmtoday - Don't Exist (Official Music Video)

iTUNES: smarturl.it/pm-today
MERCH: riserecords.merchnow.com/catalogs/PMToday
I remember when we were young
And I showed signs of a promising love,
I could hear church bells ringing
But they never rang for us because
I could never learn to trust or commit,
So you wrote that you would carry
All the love for the both of us,
At the time I thought this would be enough,
I'll just wallow in some dying lust,
I remember when I was insane,
When I thought people didn't change.
I thought we were making progress,
But your body language contradicts
Your monologue of pretext so I'll admit,
I'm losing interest and my love was a pretense,
I'm tired of these failing attempts to balance myself
Between what you want and the opinions of everyone else.
I keep rewinding progress. I know I'm a fiasco.
But it's not your fault, we were young and impressionable.
Though the man that you love doesn't love you at all,
He's still a good man. I'm still a good man. I guess.
Well I'll look at all the lonely people.
They say it's all my fault, that I'm alone because
I'm tenacious and I do not care.
So I'll just ignore the lonely people.
To them I know I don't exist.
I'm losing all my best friends, we were all hypocrites.
I'm losing all my best friends and I don't exist.

[@kevinandrewsphoto]

Bought this album about 10 years ago. I was 20-21, and was a serious heroin addict. Still lived with parents because I was trying to do community college for a couple years and still had dreams of making it as a guitarist. I rarely went to class, instead I would drive to Oakland to get heroin or to try and fund my addiction somehow. I would only listen to this album after I was able to score, and always this song first. I would prepare my hit and would wait for the “I don’t exist” part to take it. Then continue on with the album. It became part of my ritual to listen to this song. And even now, 10 years later and 8 years sober, it instantly takes me back to a specific street in Oakland. Or my parents bathroom. My addiction destroyed so much of my life. I had so many opportunities to make it as a guitarist, offers from bands I loved to join. But never could because I wasn’t clean. So many people I hurt from the lies and sometimes stealing. Thinking of those memories is like being told that a character in a movie is you. It feels like a different person entirely. Music is able to laminate memories like nothing else. I may remember those hour long drives to and from Oakland, but when hearing this song I actually feel like I’m doing it. I remember the smells and sensations. It’s very scary actually, I couldn’t listen to music for years after getting clean because I would mentally relapse before the song is over, meaning I already made the decision to relapse. And I put down my guitar for around 3 years. I can’t believe I’m married with 2 amazing kids and an amazing job. I threw away a life with my addiction but in the end was able to get a life worth 10 times more. What I’m trying to say is, this song rips still

[@evanpetelle5669]

You’re not Theo not one holy shit

[@Hedeadz]

This made me cry… I hope you know you are an example to complete strangers that you are an example that we all have the change within us.

[@alanhunt4763]

Incredible story, man. My late best friend had a very similar story and was also the guitarist in my band. Incredibly talented and incredibly lovable, but wrestled with demons and found his crutch. We bonded over music and would always share artists like this. Glad to hear you made it out and made a beautiful life for yourself. I saw the struggle of my best friend while he tried to do so but I can never truly understand the difficulty of what it takes to escape that level of addiction.

[@Iplayfender1991]

I still can’t believe the vocalist is my manager at Best Buy

[@DropDeadChristopherA]

Antonio Jackson wtf really

[@DaleJohnson678]

BROOOOOOO

[@alecdawg11]

If he's still your manager, can you tell him to put out a new Pmtoday album? It's been like 8 years since I first heard them, and I still come back to them.

[@michaelvieregge2257]

Tell you're boss that he has unfinished business and to stop supporting his family so us years longs fans can have our fun

[@alecdawg11]

​@@michaelvieregge2257 I didn't know he'd have to stop supporting his family to make music.

[@user-qx2kh7fp4p]

I'm so proud of these guys. They're one of the best bands out of Arkansas for sure.

[@whoopshey826]

SHAE!!

[@daniel.santos]

Can't believe this album is almost 10 years old. This still feels like new music to me.

[@aarontrudel9947]

Just heard it for the first time and I was blown away. It's like emo/hardcore meets math rock. This would be next level shit today.

[@andrewmaddennn]

This band shouldn't have broken up. They ruled. Super good live.

[@kolbyantonio5964]

Still haven’t found a better ending to a song in 10 years. Will always love this song.

[@houdinilogic1]

so underrated.

[@bvds3084]

Even after all these years I still haven't heard a better song than this. Unreal.

[@alexhall2542]

My former, boss is the bassist.

[@RealAct]

Such a great band, such a good music! they need to come back!

[@xkeldorx]

Pm today and DGD are the only bands to ever be on rise that have classic albums worth buying

[@downbeatdaymo]

DJ Richardson You ever listen to Tides of Man? Tilian was actually in that band before he joined DGD, and I would definitely say they earned that title as well DGD and Pmtoday.

[@musicfortheweak2158]

i agree but Pmtoday only has one album on Rise to buy.

[@kylopat1652]

AA!, TDWP, OM&M

[@kazbaker5011]

tru that

[@mattcoheed2113]

In:Aviate also had an amazing album

[@cemora]

still listening to this day. What an underrated band

[@alecdawg11]

I wish these guys would get back together. I know it will probably never happen since they never got their big break and there's not much to go back to... But still, it's such a shame... They had so much talent. I've only known about them for about 6 months, but I just keep coming back. Their guitar work is amazing, their lyrics are just so real and genuine, and they did something for me that most bands don't do. I don't think I'll ever stop listening to this album, or hoping for a new one.

[@JoelavaJoe]

It's 2019 and I still bump this album too much, fuuuuck I wish they had more :,(

[@philippboetcher9959]

Same here:)

[@erichwashausen4602]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/f3PUmXmhetlnY80 That is their current band.

[@Hedeadz]

I found this vinyl in my stuff this past weekend and just had to put the album on… Straight gold… Glad it lives on. These guys were amazing live… I can’t say I heard a better pitched band… Actually sounded like the album.

[@Daiei808]

interested in selling the vinyl to a big fan who would cherish it? :)

[@SleeperHonda]

These guys are so good that no one can even cover Doctor or Diagnosis on the Drums

[@FreakyFirestorm]

WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM? Ive absolutely loved PMToday since the first day I heard them in 2004. They're from a town not far from me and I remember seeing them live a time or two. I literally would not have made it through high school without these guys. I wish I had the opportunity to tell them how much I appreciate their music. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love these guys. Geniuses. Ive been listening to them so long the EPs I have are from limewire.

[@bootymeat]

they are so underrated. do people not realize how good at guitar they are and how many layers they put in their recordings?

[@NadiahKelsey]

omg, this band.... this song saved me.

[@linkpwns]

I've listened to "In Medias Res" at least once a day for the last few months. No kidding. I love this album more than I can express in words.

[@thecinezen]

its 2020 yet I still comeback to this video. Over and over.

[@Spiritbeast]

PMtoday is one of the most underrated bands out there. It's a huge shame how unknown these guys are.

[@EvilFear]

Fucking great band that Rise Records killed. Been over 15 years and i still hope one day they will release what they were working on before the band stop.

[@Franseed]

They still working but in a way different genre kzbin.info/www/bejne/eJ_ce6CkbbCDrdk

[@Daiei808]

First time hearing this song/band in 2024...god damn it rips. Been on repeat all day.

[@kazbaker5011]

i miss this band so much

[@Destructopancake]

So glad you guys are still around. Keep it up. Mad love from Tulsa Oklahoma. I'll never forget the Tulsa Tree show. Changed my life.

[@BootlegWhale]

out of every band out there, you guys dominate my CD player. i love listening to you so much. you just put me in such a good mood. keep up the good work. you are my heroes.

[@andreweffinstout]

I love this song so much. This album was such a step up and progression from their old cd.

[@npcompl33t]

Ha - did anybody else go watch these guys when they played shows at The Attic in Hot Springs to crowds of like 30 people? My friend and I used to jack change from the fountains to pay the 5 dollar cover to get in and so we could buy their 5 song demo. I think i saw them play at a church with the Wedding once (lol). "This Disease" was such a tight song. Reminds me of 2005 haha.

[@Solared9]

These guys are amazing!!!!

[@fairofbohemian]

what a song !

[@elliottrivera8860]

just found out about them, in 2018 lovely

[@theonlynolander]

Elliott Rivera same

[@MouthlessBobcat]

Definitely one of the best bands on Rise Records. A huge record. This band will go far.

[@PtotheMtotheJ]

The quality of this video is outstanding.

[@Bert439]

They put on such a good show at The Village, Little Rock

[@BerryBebop]

yoooo the village thems were the days. one time a dude front flipped on top of me during a title fight show

[@xsuperstomp]

Musical, technical, and profoundly moving... genius!

[@Kamanberu49]

I prefer when they do this kind of music

[@whoopshey826]

Grew up in the town this band played, went to the the album release parties. Randomly showed up on my shuffle yesterday and I've been stuck in 2006 since.

[@Kesedoesvox]

My friend told me to check out this band months ago. I wanted to, but i never got around to it until now. I think i owe her an apology. This is one the best things i have listened to in a while.

[@sudaknot]

This is my favorite band of all time.

[@joejohnson7924]

This whole album is underrated. Best band Rise ever signed

[@AronX3]

I wasn't expecting this kind of music, but I LOVE it.

[@caueabrao]

One of the most surprising records of 2010. The video is simple but the result is very nice. Cool photography, cool overall mood and great song.

[@8Metaphysicist8]

Dude, I remember seeing these guys when they were just an Arkansas local band. I lived not too far from some of the venues they frequently played. They've come quite far since then!! Another band from here in Arkansas (that sadly never made it) was Heart For A Hand. I have a shirt from back in the day that says "Heart For A Hand says: Listen to PMToday" That's why I started listening to PMToday :D

[@couchpotatotwin21]

I love this song!

[@devsmom081]

So proud of you guys!! Keep it up.

[@RealAct]

Amazing song by an amazing band!

[@TheBillyLee]

I love this song! It's so true.

[@jordanlowe123192]

just listened to this band and there pretty good!

[@brain-inafryingpan]

They are quite possibly one of the most underrated bands on Rise Records. It's a damn shame too, because they're really talented, and need to be heard.

[@Mdrummer2012]

YES!!!!!

[@ibanez76767]

I will buy this band's entire discography solely based on this one song.

[@spoonermcgee]

These guys fucking slay. Very few albums are this rewarding, they are so great. I hope they stay around, they deserve more popularity.

[@dude018219293]

Love this! Damn.

[@kingak1234]

amazing

[@Eitaklane]

I remember when I was insane. When I thought people didn't change.

[@moshimisu]

I'm SO glad I saw them live. They were freaking amazing.

[@samwardo]

im really proud of you dudes, this video turned out great

[@RussellVanderhoof]

from 3:49 on is perfect.~

[@Rasengan0819]

this band is kickass

[@spidertroy4]

wow......this was the first time i heard them...and i was just blown away :O

[@vansskater]

so good live...

[@fcpremix219]

so true

[@HHFan420]

Bros this album is so good.

[@braybud]

it's really amazing that Jacksonville, Arkansas, my home town. These are some really cool guys.

[@watisthiseven]

loove this song+band :D

[@TrishaAmrita]

This band is so pro, love this song

[@thernuocker2]

this band gives arkansas a good name thanks for makin great music!!!

[@MisterHutchins]

I agree completely. As well as the instrumental at 0:45

[@mrkromatic]

Sickkk

[@vandal214]

best band of my generation tbh.

[@EquipmentShedPodcast]

I'm losing all my best friends and I don't exist

[@snusskalle]

cool song!

[@Ianstrox]

IM LOSING ALL MY BEST FRIENDS WE WERE ALL HYPOCRITES

[@chelseafaiils]

I love this, I hope when they get big they stay the same. ♥

[@9am3r]

even I stopped headbanging after several play list, I still think they got skills

[@TyCuda]

They didn't make a dime. This genre doesn't go far considering the small amount of passionate fans they have. I would kill for a second album, though.

[@markerronvincent]

WTF!!!!! HOW COULD I DONT KNOW AN AMAZING BAND LIKE THIS!! ITS MY FIRST TIMETOHEAR THEIR SONG!!!!

[@Skunkworks501]

best band that Arkansas has ever seen...

[@JayceeXD94]

i love this song ! :)

[@iShavargo]

The brothers actual attend Berklee now and have formed a new group called Move Orchestra which is rapidly growing. Some of the most talented dudes ever, and they are growing and deserve it.

[@FreakyFirestorm]

Its my opinion that if they were to reform under the name PMToday and make a new album with the right PR they could recapture their fanbase.

[@araxsius]

we need this band back together.

[@j03T3XAz]

This song+album still make me feel sad.

[@kadamac23]

You do exist... in my heart lol Love this song and yeah this is pretty raw

[@SquarewhiteTV]

I still fuck with this song

[@idreamtofflight]

Tides of Man + PMToday on tour = me attending without a doubt.

[@FoodieYummy94]

10​ year❤️

[@dontwannamakechannel]

Agreed.

[@paxpakspax]

BALIWAN!

[@ArjanFFP]

nice!!

[@bootymeat]

All the Brogans are in Berklee. In a couple years I'm sure they'll be in a new band and if they were this great before they had degrees I seriously can't wait for what they have next.

[@alecdawg11]

This is one of the best songs I've ever heard... I don't really know what the lyrics are about, but I feel like can relate to them. And some of the sections in this song are so beautiful... Why are there so many other bands on Rise that are so popular while these guys aren't? Most Rise bands don't hold a candle to these guys talentwise.. *cough* Attack Attack! We Came As Romans Woe, Is Me *cough* I like most Rise bands, but pmtoday plays music from the heart, and that's what real musicians do.

[@ibanez76767]

The view count on this video is missing a few digits.

[@OhheyLucy]

i love them (;

[@Geekkid20]

go PMtoday FTW!!

[@TheAngieTRS]

This is a really good song! :)

[@adamdeutsch6815]

Makes me so sad they don’t make music like this anymore. Modeling is good and all but its not as soulful as this album came across. A true masterpiece!

[@kevinandrewsphoto]

I used to listen to this song on the hour long drive to oakland where I got heroin. I would play this song over and over. Ive been clean now for 8 months but whenever I hear this song I crave so bad. Its too bad this song is so freaking good or else i would stop listening to it for fear of relapsing hah.

[@brianstill516]

"I remember when we were young And I showed signs of a promising love I could hear church bells ringing But they never rang for us because I could never learn to trust (or commit) So you wrote that you would carry All the love for the both of us At the time I thought this would be enough I'll just wallow in some dying lust I remember when I, when I was insane When I thought people didn't change I thought we were making progress Your body language contradicts Your monologue of pretext so I'll admit I'm losing interest and my love was a pretense I'm tired of these failing attempts to balance myself Between what you want and the opinions of everyone else I keep rewinding progress I know I'm a fiasco But it's not your fault, we were young and impressionable But the man that you love doesn't love you at all But he's still a good man I'm still a good man ...I guess Well I'll look at all the lonely people They say it's all my fault That I'm alone because I'm tenacious and I do not care So I'll just ignore the lonely people To them I know I don't, I don't exist I'm losing all my best friends We were all hypocrites I'm losing all my best friends and I don't exist I don't exist"

[@Matthewplaysguitarr]

To all of you who have been wondering what pmtoday is doing, They told me over formspring that two of them are pursuing music more seriously, (they didn't say who), and that sadly, they are not coming back as pmtoday. However, they did say there will be new music as soon as they feel they have gained enough skill to write and perform and sing again.

[@ColbusMaximus]

I remember them at Vino's. Oh the wonderyears

[@GRiiMaCe360]

i saw these guys live before they got signed.