Powersheets Prep | 2019 Goal Setting

[@NamiNaeko]

This community needs you. Your spirit and how you present your views on the planner community is IMPORTANT. There are 50 million cookie cutter planner channels all pg and catering to this wholesome nature that sometimes just is bleh. I come to your channel for the realness. I love it. For me you give me the contrast the community needs. 100% KZbin is a better place with you in it. Yes it won't grow as fast as that person who is doing all the pretty shit and is super bubbly and stuff, but you sure out live any of those people for sure. I'm thankful for your channel it was a wonderful moment when I discovered it. I hope you grow more and more this year and get the notice your deserve. 🍆♥️

[@barbarawest1205]

Well said. Cindy, you are in a class by yourself!

[@sarafitch4464]

I am new to powersheets and bought them with your affiliate link because I love your raw-ness (love the swearing because I see it as you being you).

[@TaleRavenTarot]

Coming to this video late, but your approach to Powersheets really resonates with me, and I love seeing how others set theirs up. I also have chronic health issues, and I like how you've worded your approach to this aspect of your life--you have to deal with it one way or another, and it's going to underlie everything else you do. Thanks for sharing.

[@jaimebochet8102]

I am only 4 minutes into this video, the first I have ever watched of you - I just ordered the 2020 PowerSheets and I'm scared to even receive the book, so this is helping - and your honesty, fearlessness, your "just go for it" attitude and, I'll be honest, your F-bombs are GIVING ME LIFE today. "Let's be fucking extra!" I love you. I don't know you, but I love you.

[@PlanwithLaken]

LOVE THAT YOU SHARED THIS! You are so strong! I can't wait to hear about your goals!

[@SociallyDistantnow]

I’m 5 minutes in and I’m cackling at the multiple mentions of barf. You are the best and so relatable. I’m so glad you’re in the planner community! You inspire me so much :)

[@marcyjrtmom8139]

Cindy please do not ever think you are an ineffective parent. I am an old lady and I raised my son as a single mother. Raising children is like planting a garden. You can use the best soil, the best seed, best fertilizer and you still do not know what you will get. From what I have seen on your channel your kids genuinely love you. Yes they are going to mess up every now and then but they are at that stage in their lives where they are becoming their own person. Messing up is all part of it. I am sure they are concerned with teenage drama and also with your health situation. Just let them know that they can always come to you and tell you ANYTHING and that it will not affect the love you have for them. If they can feel free to tell you what is bothering them that means they trust you enough to let you into their world and are sure of your love. Your kids are loved, well fed, have a roof over their heads and have YOU. THEY WILL BE OKAY. Do not worry about screwing them up. We are all a little screwed up but not necessarily from our upbringing. I greatly admire you and I know many others do as well. Those kids are being raised by a badass wolf Momma! They will turn out just fine!

[@deseraysmith6655]

I have been watching your channel for awhile now. I watch YOU because of YOU. All these other channels don’t have the relatability and realness yours have and it’s why yours is my favorite! Thank you for being yourself and sharing your world with us. Thank you for all the hard work you do. Stay awesome!

[@annemusselman8002]

No words. Just love. Thank you for being you, I know my life is better for having found your little cuss-filled corner of the internet. The good people hang out here.

[@zabethmarsh9384]

I know you were afraid to post this video but your being real helps us address the things that scare us. I know when i listen to your videos they arent going to be edited to only show your perfect self. Showing the real you is one of the reasons we watch.

[@andyhaning-brown6526]

You ARE a badass. Jesse is right. I’m so glad you share reality - not a carefully curated version of it. I feel a better connection to you and your content as a result. I think my word for this year is going to be balance (even though I’d love for it to be NO!). I overcommit a little, but I also waaaay overwork myself, and it’s about 90% my fault. If I can resolve to work on that and care for my body a bit more purposefully, I’ll be a happy camper at the end of 2019. Happy new year!

[@CultivateWhatMatters]

Way to go!! Love that you're taking us along on your PowerSheets Prep process! How encouraging this will be to these ladies!

[@dianeandbrad529]

you totally caught me - I was rushing to write a comment in the beginning of this and then you yelled at me 😂 Thank you so much for sharing and being vulernable. I am sure so many people will reaonnate with what you talked about, and Im sure there are many having epiphany ah-ha moments - you have a wonderful way of taking inexplicable head space feelings and verbalizing them in a logical way that can help anyone who watches this. I wasnt going to choose a word for 2019 but ever since listening to your podcast, words keep coming to me 😂 I finally decided on “synchronize” and I resonnated with your connection word. I feel like this past year with a chronic pain condition that affects my autonomous system, I have become out of sync with my body. And, with chronic pain, I have become out of sync with my goals and some relationships. I want to feel more in sync with my body, with others, and with the world around me. Thanks again for sharing - you definitely help us connect with you through sharing real uncurated Cindy - and your FB group connects amazing people together! 🌸big hugs🌸

[@christinaholland102]

I only just realized that you and your sisters are A, B, and C!!! For real though, I just want to reach through the screen and giving you a big awesome hug. You are worthwhile and fantastic and amazing as you are. You are real and honest. Life is a learning process for all of us and you are on the right track!

[@MsMagnolia3]

I didn't realize workbooks/planners like this even existed on this level. Thanks for sharing all of you life!

[@jenwullstein7908]

This is the most honest and real video that I have seen in such a long time. You are an inspiration to me and SO MANY others. Thank you for sharing your life with us - you are a positive force in the world - even if you don't feel positive - it is SO HELPFUL to see that others are going through hard shit like we all are as well. You are one of my heroes!

[@elahm76]

I’m so thankful for you talking about the real life! Makes me feel less outside. In my brain I know several are struggling with chronic diseases but scrolling thru social media you never see other than happiness and beauty.

[@christinecortese9973]

I'm filling these sheets out too. Thanks for sharing so much of your personal life here. I think many of us have the same fears and uncertainties. "Planners who lunch" - wish I lived closer! I'm sure a lot of us will be thinking of you on your surgery date and sending our love and support energetically. You have strong life force plus a good support system - you have what you need to manage these health challenges well.

[@irishdanielle13]

I'm right there with you with the "do the things" instead of "think about the things." My daughter was very sick a year ago, and so few people understood how hard it was for me when she was done treatment. Going through hell was almost easier than being done because every day was a task to complete, until we were done... then goddamn, so many emotions. I'm so impressed by you for sharing this.

[@karenhakamaki3766]

Thank you for this, Cindy. I was a little teary through the majority of this vlog as it really resonated with me. My word of the year is “ GROWTH”. I chose this word to remind me that I am tired of the stress and anxiety that results from not taking control of my life choices. This word is to remind me to say yes to opportunities, and to let go of old patterns of behaviour that no longer serve my needs. I need to stop being passive and decide to Own It. By the way - out of all of the vloggers and KZbin channels that I follow, you are the only one that I make time for 100% of the time. You are always real and what you share has value (and often validates my own struggles). So keep on doing what works for you - your tribe will find you.

[@heatherjenkins6145]

You are the first (maybe only) planner KZbin channel that I actually like. You’re real. I relate to you. I don’t feel worse about myself when I watch your videos (which is how I feel when I watch all those other “perfect” planner people). I feel like we would be good friends IRL. 😊

[@mandyjones9794]

Love watching you. You seem so genuine. Hearing your fears and more at you makes me have a lot of respect for you. You are a real person which I feel makes a change in the social media world. Hope that everything is positive for you and your health. I will be praying for you. Don’t change you are wonderful 💕💕

[@LeeAnneRMT]

Loved this so much! My word of the Year is actually a 3 word process for my life in 2019. Clarify - Choose - Commit So often I feel like my life happens by default. Last year I was like you and just focused on concrete tasks to get me and my family through because my little brother who is both intellectual disabled and has mental health illness jumped in front of a subway Jan 1 2018. He lived, but with severe life changing injuries. My process is necessary to force myself to look deeper. Can't wait for the next part of this series.

[@sassy_n_sweet7634]

You are enough! You are a strong person. I started watching you by finding your llamas love lettering. I love how real you are and being a Christian myself I still like the fact that the colorful language is part of your videos because that is you! That is part of you and it makes you(to me) more relatable. I am so not a planner person but enjoy watching your bullet journal journey because I was in the same boat. I have tried to do it several times and I got discouraged because mine didnt look like all the ones I saw online and stopped. I have not got myself a travlers notebook to keep my handlettering in and to draw and doodle just for me! You are awesome. Please keep being you!!

[@tryfail_failbetter]

YOU. ARE. AWESOME! Cindy, please stop looking at the numbers. Quality can never be solely measured in quantity. You have so much more to give than all the succulent bubbly often non committal pretty planner channels. I myself suffer from severe comparison syndrome - it is neither healthy nor really helpful. You know your strengths, your WHY for starting this channel. And we all are so grateful for you bringing relatable reality to KZbin! All my best for your surgery and the recovery time. Greetings from Germany!

[@amandamiller6163]

Holyshit friend the thought process of being kind to your body while it is feeling is revolutionary. As someone who is dealing with kidney failure and several other systems not behaving appropriately. That is honest and positive in a very hard balance and that is a wonderful way to put that thank you

[@jamieferguson3131]

First thing you need to know is that I am not someone who says things just to be nice or uplifting, but seriously you are my FAVORITE youtuber, period. I love that you keep it real, & you aren't afraid to do silly things. I personally think that you are more vulnerable than you are giving yourself credit for, it's incredibly difficult to get on social media & be uncurated. My word of the year is REFINE, making small changes to make something more subtle or accurate. I want to workout (& yes lose weight but truly that is secondary to making a good habit), & read more, & connect with more people. 2018 was a shit show & a total roller coaster, & part of that is carrying into 2019 but I want to be more deliberate in accomplishing my goals & making them just a seamless (subtle) part of my life. Figuring out how to make my goals habits, that's what 2019 will be about. There are going to be some big emotions again this year, but if i can make healthy habits then those big emotions won't be such a huge blow to my accomplishments.

[@leeannschwemmer7165]

I think opening up about yourself and your struggles would be scary, so thank you for being vulnerable! I love watching your videos because they are real. The "everything's perfect" type videos are difficult for me to relate to. Thank you for being real and sharing your journey!

[@ttaylor8146]

Talk about being more vulnerable! I’m so glad that you so bravely shared this process with us! As a 23 year old I like to watch you and your videos because they give me hope for the future. Becoming an adult is rough and intimidating but watching your vids gets me excited about life because you’re so honest and unapologetically yourself! I’m so glad to see you take strides in bettering yourself and doing the best you can when it comes to your health because I don’t know what we’d do without you Cindy! Much love from Houston, Texas 💕

[@macfrenzyfrost]

Cindy I really appreciate you. Whenever you are reviewing a topic or item I choose to watch your videos first and typically get the most value from the way you honestly and fairly portray things. I find your content funny, informative, and very authentic. I may buy this just because you had the courage to share the process. It's something I could benefit from but it's A LOT. BEST WISHES FOR HAPPIER DAYS regarding PKD. Every parent who loves their children feels what you do at some points.

[@earldizon8532]

I love and appreciate your vulnerability. I love seeing people plan out their lives and see what progress they make. And I know this is an old video but I hope your year has been more up than down.

[@michellewhite9842]

Thank you for sharing. I've decided I need to do this as well. I have chronic health issues that effect my daily life but others have a hard time understanding because I don't look sick. I do just jump in to new things to ignore it. You've inspired me to give this a real honest try because my goals are normally superficial and easily attained without digging deep emotionally. Love your honesty and I'm so happy I found your channel this year! You're inspirational- I'd rather have someone real who tells it like it is!

[@notamirror]

My word of the year is FOUNDATION. My husband and I want to lay the foundation for creating the life and family we want. Thank you for being so open with this video. These videos where you explore your thoughts on the big picture and your overall planning picture are really helpful as I try to set my own goals.

[@krystal37276]

I can't thank you enough for this video. I am doing mine right along with you and pausing your video until I'm done with each page. You are a true inspiration. Thank you for letting us into your head and being vulnerable enough to share.

[@daniellevonruden7449]

My word of the year is: Commit. To myself. My health. My family. School. My goals. I want to dive dee into the things I have said I would do and don’t follow through. Here is to a great 2019. Thank you for sharing your process through the power sheets.

[@charitylady7389]

Thank you so much for sharing! I have been seeing the power sheets all over the internet and part of me really wanted to get them but I decided that my personal health and life are at a place right now that extreme goal setting isn't going to work no matter how much I want it to because I'm not in the driver's seat of my own life. I have spent the autumn and winter with severe health issues of my own and I am an only child of two aging parents both with severe health problems - so I have to be willing to ride the wave of life and just do my best and hope that the status quo continues. I have never done the word of the year before but this year - after recognizing that major growth in plans and goals wasn't very realistic - I chose the word "rejoice" because I need to focus on the positive things that happen every day no matter how small or "insignificant" they may be. And, of course, because I need to rejoice in the knowledge that God is in control and that He will see me through the current and coming trials of life. Again thank you for sharing this - I want to say that one of the bright spots that I rejoice in every week is being one of your patrons and seeing you put out amazing, beautiful art and lettering, and showing a REAL life woman adulting as best she can! Thanks! Good luck in 2019 and especially with your coming surgery - you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[@maerwynnh]

One of my very best friends finally gave in and became a UU minister in her 40s. She is SO happy and fulfilled now. Not without problems, but she has come into herself in ways that make me so proud to know her. Your story reminds me of her in many ways! The UU "calling" is so different, but still so powerful!

[@hernandzmo]

This was wonderful and raw. Thank you for bringing us along. Can't wait to hear about your progress. My word for the year is wellness. I haven't made my health, mental health or spiritual health as much of a priority as I need to. So this year I will and the word wellness encompasses this. ❤️

[@PowerChordOverlord]

Cindy, thank you so much for sharing this. I'm going through a really difficult time in my life right now, and it is so encouraging and refreshing to see someone on KZbin (especially in the planner community) be so candid and real about their struggles. I've been following your channel and Patreon for a couple years now, and you're someone I really look up to. I am thinking of you and rooting for you in 2019! Thank you so much for sharing your life with us.

[@debrafisher8757]

Your channel is my absolute favorite because you are real. I look forward to your videos because it helps me to feel better.

[@jenniferlarsonjaylaplans]

Wow! Your candour brought tears to my eyes! Can’t thank you enuf for sharing!

[@Carl-nc9su]

tbh one of the things that made me subscribe was the fact that you go to church and you also cuss... resonated with me because i do the same 😂 teens are tough. i’m only 23 and i feel like i just stopped being a little butthead. things will get better, don’t be too hard on yourself!

[@splitreads]

I'm 18 minutes into this video but you are my favorite planner - I enjoy your personality & authenticity. I will finish tomorrow but just wanted to say that!

[@grumpypants13]

I struggle a lot with seeing others pass me by and not understanding the why... but you hit the nail on the head with one of your lessons. If I'm not doing the things that I need to to get me noticed, I won't get noticed. Which is, inadvertently, why my Powersheets is all focused around resetting my life. To get a little personal with you, and your awesome community, I've lived 3k miles from my family for over 12 years. I love my husband, and our time near his family has been great, but each year has been a drain on my mental health. And now that my physical health is starting to take the hit because of that, I need a reset. We're moving back East, and while I'll miss the PacNW, it's for the best. During all this, I'm still focused on releasing five books this year. But that is the bare minimum of putting content out. I'm hoping the reset (which will come in May, hopefully) will open the doors for a bit more. Thank you for being honest and personal. We love you. (PS, I saw book writing on your list... HMU if you ever want to talk shop! I'm a fiction author first and foremost, but I do have a lot of applicable experiences for nonfiction as well.)

[@EnchantedwithPoodles]

Well done, Cindy. I’m proud of you, you’re doing some hard soul searching and I admire you for doing it.

[@aeschultz]

I just love how IMPERFECT (read: genuine/real/normal) you are. It's refreshing!

[@emilyzbytovski2361]

Thank you for sharing! Even if we don't purchase this planner, you gave us direction! Inspiration going into the new year! And sometimes hearing someone else confess failures, success, or short comings opens the door for ourselves to make the connection in our own lives. Thanks!

[@jenwullstein7908]

My word of the year is Intention. I feel like I am floating or going through the motions in my life sometimes and I want to focus on why I am doing the things. I want to spend my money with intention. I want to eat food with intention. I want to spend my time with intention. I want to feel like the things that happen in a day aren't just flying at me or floating by me with no control on my end. I love your videos Cindy. You are one of my biggest inspirations!

[@nonMuggle]

You're a badass even in your vulnerability! 😎 As for words-of-the-year, I've done that in the past and really found it helpful. This year, however, I'm using The Desire Map and letting my Core Desired Feelings take the lead. I think both are ways of drilling down to what's emotionally important to us and keeping that in the forefront of the rest of our plans. Sending you so much care!

[@sandyK808]

Your sharing gave me a chance to think about myself and my journey. I love your honesty and do think it helps connect to others through that honesty. I have enjoyed your channel since recently discovering you.

[@katie662]

Your videos always make me think of the Golden Girls theme song, and then it is stuck in my head... for hours. "THANK YOU FOR BEING A FRIEND..."

[@melonlemonn]

I know this was a year ago but thank you this was super helpful. Your honest, straightforward approach gave me everything I've been looking for to decide whether or not I would get this product for 2020, after already not knowing watching multiple other videos. I wish you the best in reaching your aspirations, and hope your burden is light.

[@mahnogardnash387]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us!! I have two words of the year - Journey and Merriment. "Journey" is to remind me that it's always a journey, even when I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, and "merriment" is to remind me of what the point is. We humans tend to celebrate when we reach "destinations" - goals, deadlines, certain calendar dates. But the journey of my life needs to be celebrated along the way or I won't be there for the party! 😀

[@brandybullockauthor3778]

I love Spaceballs.. and my son went crazy .. "mom.. she knows spaceballs!!! she is the coolest person ever." My word for January is simplify. Because every year I have so many things I "Want" to do but i get wrapped up in the complexities and nothing gets done.. so we are starting simple! Thoughts go with you this week and I hope things go very well!

[@OceaniaOrchid]

Cindy, I just wanted to say I have an idea how hard it must be putting yourself out there, the introspection coming just before a major medical event. You remain in my thoughts and my prayers. I am sincerely hoping for the best possible outcome for you and your family and am so looking forward to how you rock 2019. I’m also sincerely thinking after watching you go through this process I need to somehow get my hands on it and time for some self introspection myself. Last year was my first without a surgery in five years. There is so much I want to do differently.

[@simmile100]

I appreciate that you shared something so private, a lot of which resonated with me. Outside of having my own struggles with my medical condition, I am not so great at maintaining better relationships and I have the fear of not being good enough. I look forward to more videos about your progress and I hope all goes well with your surgery!

[@ashleylowell352]

Just stumbled upon your channel a few weeks ago but I love you so much. You're such a strong and wonderful person. Thank you for sharing this with all of us♡

[@michianamom6343]

Thank you so much for actually sharing what you wrote. It is very helpful for me. I look forward to the follow up next month and your 2020 set up. I jumped in and ordered one.

[@tinabrown6892]

After watching this I'm rethinking my word of the year. Thanks for putting your vulnerable thoughts and feelings out there for all of us. It does make a difference to us. It really got m. e to think about dealing with my own self worth issues. Thank you so much!! Your channel always makes me think deeper.

[@geministargazer9830]

I like looking at the “perfect” content but your content is the kind that’s achievable. We can’t have Instagram perfectness in our lives, real life is messy. I love when creators show us their mistakes, show us they’re human. It encourages us to continue on, mistakes and all.

[@StephanieMRM]

So weird and wonderful that you are grateful for your kids' stepmom!

[@cherylpierson4462]

Enjoy being a band mom. Did the band mom thing with my oldest. Missed a big chunk of eldest grandchild’s band career but made it back for senior year and the seconds freshman year. It’s awesome.

[@joshoemaker64]

WOW...thank you for being so vulnerable. I can't imagine that was easy...but it really helped me and helped me to better understand how to fill out my Power Sheets (since I haven't done anything like them before). I can't wait to hear about your goals. EDIT: My word for the year is going to be COURAGE!!!

[@dallazkatt]

You and I are so alike it's almost scary. This has helped me more than you know. I hope you have a very happy and healthy new year!

[@nikihawkes9950]

I get the negative feelings that come from seeing other youtubers surge past you numbers-wise and how that can be discouraging. But please remember, those people are creating a following, YOU are creating a COMMUNITY. If those others disappeared, I wouldn’t bat an eye because they’re all the same. There’s an army of us here who value everything you share with us - you are AMAZING!

[@MacMoonie]

I feel like COMPARING myself to others is also a HUGE downfall for me. I have lived in my home for 9 years and I have only invited friends in TWICE. I am embarassed by my home -- it is small and cluttered and not pretty. I have 7 people in a tiny condo. Everything is CLUTTERED. I try to declutter, but it never seems to matter, its still THERE :) The last "friends" I invited in were super judgy about my home. Since then I have been afraid to let anyone in.

[@tanjagardner285]

Loved how real and honest you were in this video, and sending all the good wishes your way for your dialysis. Oh, and my word for this year is "kindness" :-)

[@JashiiCorrin]

My word for the year is "improve" :) Same as I chose for 2018 as well. I feel like it's a little bit of a cop-out, but that's really my overarching goal; just to be better at everything :P Doing things, taking care of myself, taking care of others, my career, all of it :)

[@samanthacorkle2508]

I just found your videos not too long ago and I have to say you are one of the reasons I feel more comfortable to be myself in my videos bc I too curse and can be "abrasive" (I call it radical honesty but whatever) just thought I'd let you know. Keep being you, it makes me feel less alone lol

[@carynpatterson8764]

Thank you thank you thank you. I just ordered this. I need to change the way I think and depression and anxiety often stop me. Thanks for sharing.

[@catherinewithrow3025]

Excellent, authentic video. The fear of 'what if' is the kicker for me so I overcompensate/over-commit until I exhaust myself physically and mentally.

[@mariafernandahanje5792]

I cried the entire time, it was a really rough day today and reflecting on your work makes me think of what I need to change

[@amarimai4620]

Wow, so much heavy stuff here. Thanks for sharing and giving me so much food for thought. I may have a go at this myself. Bright blessings xx

[@miss00mayhem]

Thank you for sharing this very personal look inside your mind, spirit and soul. I admire you and can't wait to see part 2. My words of the year are courage and strength.

[@karengriffis2733]

Wow!!!...no words can express this better than THANK YOU!!

[@puddytatpurr]

I really appreciate and admire your honesty while you filled out the 'break the box' page - your self doubt has obviously rung a lot of bells with people. I totally get it! Your down to earth attitude is exactly WHY you have over 45K subscribers. I don't want to sit and watch someone who has a perfect journal, on a perfect desk with a fucking candle! They live in perfect little houses without a speck of dust anywhere - you, me and everyone else here live in a home. You're REAL!! Your life is real and you share that with us on a daily basis. I sometimes watch these 'perfect journal' vids and wonder if they have a life - it's all trackers and pics; where are the notes, reminders and appointments?!? Stay strong, Sweetness xx

[@kneegroe03]

“Touch Me” from SPRING AWAKENING is my favorite from the show!! That made me happy! Thanks for sharing your personal life! I appreciate your honesty!

[@marracatt]

Thank you for being real and vulnerable. I 100% agree that real resonates. My word is balance. While it might not truly exist, I can try my best.

[@skaerup]

Lovely video! Thank you so much for sharing this! My word of the year is grow, rooted in the phrase ‘grow through what you go through’.

[@shewhocraftsandplans7736]

Enough!!!!!!!!!! Seriously if no one liked you or your personality why the he'll do you have 45,000 followers? Your openness is fantastic but seriously Cindy you are fab... I suffer anxiety and am struggling at the minute, your videos are my life saving tool, sitting up at 4am watching them stops me thinking about stuff! xx

[@sha46327]

Thank you for sharing this process and journey with us! Sending the best of vibes with the biggest of hugs!

[@533134]

Cindy, you remind me of me!! My biggest issue is confidence, I never feel good enough for anyone including myself!! You and I would make a good pair!! I love your content!!

[@shirleyburns2623]

You rock and I love your rawness and you have helped me be okay with my own

[@TamaraScrapnStamp]

Thanks for keeping it real. Amazing how I always feel I’m alone in feelings and then I listen to you and others that I’m really not and I need to reach out more.

[@yeoldbooks]

I’m watching this again and I love your honesty. Different issues but I can relate. I just ordered the blank six month power sheets and am excited to dive in. And a bit scared. AnaMaree💜

[@charettebyreddog]

I'm rebinge-ing your PS series in prep for the arrival of my PS. When was the last time you watched this video? 2:26 - it's so awesome how you've done so many of these! thank you again for all of these videos.

[@maggiedominguez4932]

Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing with us!

[@This1sS0Stup1d]

Your fears aren’t irrational, they are normal, love. It’s so hard to be this vulnerable with yourself, let alone the internet! I can’t even write that sort of thing down, like my brain shuts itself off. I think I need to be braver.

[@jenwessleman9317]

I just hit the go ahead button on checkout for this Goal Planner. It’s been sitting in my checkout for at least 2 weeks. I’m excited to get going on making the changes that are needed again. I’ve been in a complete shutdown and stand still in my life for almost 2 years because I quit doing a career that I had chosen and loved, because I didn’t feel like I was ever going to compete with all the younger gals or be good enough. The comparison game completely shut me down. I also felt I had stagnated in my growth overall, not just in my career and wanted a change. Here I’ve sat though for almost 2 years doing absolutely nothing. This year has also been a really difficult year personally losing 2 people I had cared about tragically, and being involved in a really horrific shooting. I am done being afraid and scared. Life is too fucking short and I have so much to give everyone in the world and my good IS actually good enough. Period. There is also a book in my future Cindy, but again, the being scared and not being good enough keeps shutting me down. NO to FEAR for me and my word of the year is Awakening. I look forward to seeing you Cindy at the NYC Planner Masquerade ball. I bought my ticket NYE day and my flight. Just need to find an Airbnb to stay in. There Thursday - Monday should you want to connect and cultivate a new friendship here :) Much love and I know today is your surgery. sending you Reiki healing, and many many prayers doll. ~Jen

[@olinrace8283]

Thank you for pushing ahead even while sick. What an inspiration!!! My word for the year is “dismantling.” I am trying for that minimalist life where things don’t matter very much. I’m in my sixties and simple is where I want to live. The “empty nest syndrome” has hit me very hard. My children are flying now and I need to focus almost as hard as when I was first married so as not to bother my newly married ones. I do not want to be known as the meddling mother-in-law. So I am thinking how to better myself so I can draw my loved ones into my realm once more before I am too old to be forgotten. You are hurting physically, some are hurting emotionally. Which is worse? I imagine it’s the focus. I’m willing to change my focus now.

[@rebeccah9499]

I love this so much. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this with us, I so appreciate seeing you work through some of the same things that I have a hard time with. My word for 2019 is simplify, and so for part of that, I am looking forward to de-committing from some things that I feel no longer serve me or my time.

[@DAppel]

Take care of my body while it is failing... all last year I let myself go because I figured why bother? But you are right, and I should try to do the best I can. Thank you for sharing, that little line alone helped me more than you know 💕

[@NdiNaija]

Thank you so much for sharing. I have similar fears to you and I'm doing what I can to work through them, eg remembering to express gratitude, working out, and looking back at how far I've come in spite of the setbacks. I'm still going back and forth with my word, but I think I'm going to settle on margin. (My considerations were margin, space, and freedom.)

[@stacyh3441]

First of all....Spring Awakenings! 😍 I’ve been wanting one of these planners. I need help getting more organized with projects/goals. Happy for this video!

[@stacyh3441]

Also: I’ve have kidney issues, so I can relate and am sorry. It fucking sucks having chronic illnesses to deal with. 💕

[@jklivin7]

thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing your set-up This was great

[@my.chaotic.life.23]

My word of the year is Balance. Not just work life but all the different aspects of my life.

[@samanthag2740]

Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for being genuine. Thank you for sharing your life with us. I know any words of encouragement will sound hokey and forced and that's not what you want. I just want to make sure you know how much your videos mean to me. It's a fun break in the day to watch your pen and planners videos. You're hilarious. And it makes me take a minute to think about the stuff I'm avoiding in my life when you share so intensely. While you may not have the numbers you desire you have an impact that can't be measured. I have faith in you, lady. ❤️

[@MrsELugo]

My word is today. A new chance everyday to be better and try again.

[@alexisc6450]

Thank you so much for sharing this! My word for the year is patience as I am about to graduate college and really begin my life but I will need some patience along the way as everything begins to unfold.

[@MacMoonie]

I am so SO, glad that you are such a REAL person. If only you lived close enough that you could be my friend! I have 4 teens. My life has SUCKED since the first one turned 14. Suddenly EVERYTHING I did was wrong, and I have yet to do ANYTHING right by them. My son stopped living with me when he was 15, and hasn't bothered to talk to me at ALL in 3 years. He turned 18 and I missed it. He will graduate high school this year, and I am not invited. My older step daughter has been "troubled" since she was 13 -- running away, stealing, defacing public property, truancy. She is 16 and is moving out of our house today because she can't stand the rules (go to school, clean up after yourself, do chores to help out, let us know where you are going, --- things *I* always thought were just basic) so she can drop out of school and work full time> My 15 year old is suffering from anxiety and has been trying to pit my ex and I against each other. My 14 year old step daughter has started to go down the same path as her sister -- skipping school, stealing, talking back to us AND teachers... I feel like nothing i have done as a mother was any good... nothing makes them happy no matter how much I try. I always worry I'm the only person who feels this

[@CreativeDarkness]

Thank you for putting this up. I see the same things I struggle with. Am I good enough for x, y, and z. My fear of what people think is right up there too. I have realized that I let my anxiety and depression run my life. This is why I chose “override” as my word. I want to override my negative self talk, to override anxious feelings when I want to do something.

[@torashies]

Thank you so much for sharing all this, it’s super motivating to see! My word of the year is courage. I think this last year I’ve stayed inside my comfort zone too much and got myself in a rut. I need to break out and do things that scare me in order to grow. It’s so hard though!