Praying Ahead | Week 4 | ANDY STANLEY

[@BeautifulOnes876]

This is good. And it takes a level of inner development and strength to act in prudence. There are ailments that sometimes we have that impede on our ability to make better decisions and take right actions. I’ve been part of relationships that ultimately offered destructive consequences because they offered loyalty, someone who would never leave, which my inner trauma of abandonment (deep seated fear of abandonment) would not allow me to make the break, as badly as I’ve wanted to, and even when I made the break I was still emotionally stuck in the other person and went back. Actually, never “really” seperated, just made a little necessary space while still being very much involved. Problems (same ones) continued, but he was solidly there, even when he was willing to let me move on, he was willing to stay on board if I wanted him there. I’ve needed to diligently work on this abandonment problem I’ve had for years in order to have the strength to make the hard moves. I used to have terrible separation anxiety. I didn’t need to be joined at the hip in my relationship (I’m paradoxically very independent), but I loved the ideal of having someone special in my life whom I could count on still being there, good, bad, beautiful, and very ugly. I’ve had to take up therapy both in church and clinically to dissect and heal this debilitating abandonment issue that felt like a curse, a bona fide illness. I forgave a lot of trespasses in desperate need to have someone stable I knew wouldn’t leave me, even though he was nuts and needed therapy himself. We were trauma bonded. We still are, but are waking up to each other’s inner turmoil that we must take personal responsibility to tackle and correct if we want a better future, whether together or even apart.

[@BeautifulOnes876]

This is good.

[@icomenotinpeacebutwithaswo7193]

Truth. I'm paying the penalty. I had ears but did not hear. I had eyes but did not see. Do not do what I did, or it will be too late. May God's blessings cover you.

[@dwaynemitchell7242]

what is change without Jesus?

[@alanw1970]

Nice