Prostitute interview-Heather

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Heather, a prostitute on Figueroa Street in South LA..
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[@Mrskaseymunzer]

I am looking at all the comments and seeing a bunch of judgment. She just told us she has several mental illnesses and addiction. Let’s show her some support and loving understanding. Come on, we are better than this. I thought this community was here to help and open their minds/hearts. In conclusion; I’m wishing her the best and pray she finds the resources needed to help her. May God be with her🙏🏻

[@Pimp-Master]

She's awful feisty for a girl shooting heroin, haha. Doesn't that stuff chill you out?

[@wishbone11]

Thankyou for this!! People need to recognize that this is a raw channel! no one is perfect...judgment shouldn’t even be a thought when seeing this video

[@kaiserpuppydog7174]

I was sympathetic until she mentioned having kids knowing she had such problems. I couldn't imagine anyone delivering three babies into this kind of a mess. If that doesn't deserve judgment, then I suppose nothing does in this amoral, postmodern dumpster fire of a society we live in.

[@kozy4134]

Agreed!!! This would take so much courage to do... nothing but respect!

[@VickieVale367]

Exactly! Thank you. The harsh comments are proof of why skid row exists.

[@krystal5943]

Her false bravado is her shield. This woman is suffering and hurting.

[@davisx2002]

That sounds fairly accurate...we all have a false self that we portray to the world.

[@faemoney2693]

You totally touched my heart...I would really like to talk to you.please reach back out...one thing some don't understand is if you can relate..real recognize s real

[@nickoh5111]

yeah i see that, she isn't happy with or proud of her reality at all.

[@teenagecaveman881]

That’s called being Mexican

[@Drea_A]

@@teenagecaveman881 huh?

[@KCee-lm3jd]

So many contradictions, so much confusion, so much pain

[@georgemontana2694]

She's traumatising

[@sharonjimenez8097]

She is TRAUMATIZED

[@EuleneWages4644]

Needs to quit meth would be a start it intensifies the trauma

[@donnadonato527]

" I was treated like a queen". I think we have seen her multiple personalities during this video. Being manic is no fun and she will crash into depression. I hope she decides to try medication. There are new meds developed constantly. I wish her healing, both mentally and physically, and certainly emotionally.

[@GeminiMisfit]

She needs love. She’s still that scared little girl hoping and waiting for someone to love and protect her. I think at first glance, this interview to most is off putting. If you really look deeper into it, she’s feeling a lot of pain, she’s in constant fight or flight mode, she’s mentally ill and struggle to keep her head above water. When her kids were brought up, she burst into tears, she’s trying to convince herself she’s ok, that she’s strong, that she can handle herself, but it’s very evident she needs help, her emotions are right at the surface and that’s clear, even if it shows through with anger, aggressiveness and grandiose sense of self. I hope she finds love, because she deserves it. I hope she finds a feeling of safety, because she needs it. I wish you all the best 🖤 We need to do better in understanding mental health, because it shows up differently in everyone, we need to find compassion and love for things we don’t understand, and at least try to understand them. I’m saddened to see negative comments, making fun of her, or putting her down.

[@naturelee4503]

The vicious cycle.. child raised in an abusive home... that child grows up and has children of their own then gives up those children to the very person/people they were abused by growing up. It's generational so many times. Stop the chain.

[@anstaciafucci1313]

true

[@Peenith]

Are you saying that addiction wasn't he fault? Yikes dog

[@nylenyap3933]

Yes, when she said her son was with her parents...I was like WTF!

[@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405]

It's a damn shame.

[@kaiserpuppydog7174]

It's as if she had kids just to have someone to act out on just like her parents. I felt some empathy for her until she said she had kids. It seems like it would be the bare minimum of responsibility to not have kids in her situation--but I guess I'm just a square.

[@emilyingridlaura3419]

she said she used to pray CPS come to rescue her from her own family but yet she takes her children there willingly instead of taking them to CPS. 🤔

[@tinsel-pants]

^

[@jramsey9690]

Addiction changes everything. It destroys not only the addict but everyone around them.

[@MaxBeamer]

meth is crazy shes like “i dont get emotional AT ALL” 2 minutes later wiping tears.. “my mom is a evil psychopath sadistic af and the worst human being ever i hate that b.. “. 10 min later “shes raising my kids also...”

[@croatiancroissant28776]

Man, I dated a girl just like her. She was abused at a younger age, got hooked on drugs early, many psych issues. She had this bad attitude like she wasn’t one to mess with. It’s a defense mechanism. These types get beat down constantly by life, by people, by relationships, but never learn that it’s their attitude that puts them there. Certain men feel the need to show her how tough she isn’t. Abuse follows. Inside, they’re extremely sensitive, very vulnerable. Scared of being manipulated.

[@iambleu203]

Very true

[@genuineletter]

woa there Coratian Don Juan! you're saying it is their fault that they get abused in relationships? if you get in a relationship with a gil like her and you abuse her it is your fault . you should look at your own luggage instead of dating vulerable women to feel better yourself and justify your own twisted relationship dynamics. Don Juan

[@davidwavidshmavider]

@@genuineletter nothing is ever entirely one persons fault. So, often times, the victim is partially to blame for their abuse. By putting themselves in the same situations, time and time again.

[@genuineletter]

@@davidwavidshmavider I wasn't saying it is his fault entirely. But he puts the blame on her psych issues. Somebody puts themselves in the same situations, thats on them- or their compulsion to repeat. But if the other part goes in and does not reflect their part that's even worse because they can always say it is the other person, they bring these issues up.. yea, but you dont have to follow. that's what i am saying

[@angelbaby8472]

💯

[@jejourneclark5870]

So she said all that about her parents just to let them raise her children make it make sense

[@maxine2425]

A lot of people seem to do that. It's the most selfish thing I can think of, but really seems alarmingly common.

[@birdyw3324]

My mother was toxic and I let her babysit and all,, not as extreme as what some people have going on but you have to put into perspective, is foster care SAFER? I was sexually abused in foster care, I wish we all had family that we could be surely proud of but until the foster care system, apparently her mother IS a foster parent- does that make enough sense?

[@VickieVale367]

@@birdyw3324 is she toxic to your kids? It’s sad that we have to make sacrifices but although, I love my parents, I don’t even ask them to babysit unless it’s an emergency. My children are “safe” there physically but not emotionally. I inherently understand that my kids aren’t wanted over there just like I didn’t feel wanted as a kid and I will not put them in a place where they feel that. Being treated that way led me to make many mistakes in my life.

[@maxine2425]

@@birdyw3324 It makes perfect sense. I'm sorry that crap happened to you in foster care. At least you know your family, for better or worse. Strangers... you don't stand a chance. I was raised by my grandparents in the same violent household that my mother was raised in. As bad as it was, I am glad it wasn't FC. If it's people you know, as long as they aren't sexually abusive, you can figure out how to maneuver around some things. Anyway... That's my two cents. Hearts and hugs to you.

[@rockinroberta9925]

It’s a cycle...same thing happened to me. Someone’s got a break the cycle eventually.

[@yousoul7802]

I can’t believe the things she is saying about her mother and then says her mum is raising her kid 🤦‍♀️ moral compass where? The cycle continues

[@monicdavis6150]

They would rather give their kids to family then foster care. Maybe the her mother has changed, hope so.

[@DanielleFoster.]

You'd think she'd stay close enough to make sure he's OK, try getting him back maybe. Not take off too l.a. to walk skid row.

[@emilyingridlaura3419]

Exactly moral compass where? I agree with you this is such a sad interview and it's so delusional

[@emilyingridlaura3419]

@@monicdavis6150 remember she said she used to pray CPS come to rescue her from her own family but yet she takes her children there willingly instead of taking them to CPS

[@cyanide_lollipop3264]

Families like that often treat their boys verrry different from their girls. I'm in no way saying that's where he should be, but I think he's safer than his mom was growing up.

[@claudetteholloway1335]

I am very concerned that the same people who damaged her, are now "parenting" her children...

[@hlwdreina]

I just don’t understand how you can let your son live with the person that you despise and made your life so miserable. I feel so bad for the kids. I hope she gets her life together soon 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@madisonmorris9331]

lol her parents aren’t abusive they treat her son like a fucking god he gets anything and everything he wants trust me. and her daughters are happy and healthy. Heather is my cousin, and I see regular updates of her kids on facebook and see them quite frequently so don’t be so quick so assume.

[@ingridvienings8999]

Not everyone has a choice...

[@savannahwilson9955]

@madisonmorris9331 Just going off what she says obviously. Good for you for knowing it all. Obviously they aren’t that great or she wouldn’t be where or how she is now but ok 🙃

[@NatFRA-ho6ep]

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[@NatFRA-ho6ep]

​@@ingridvienings8999she had a choice. Its called birth control

[@Jewels_8404]

I don’t even know what she’s talking about... it’s just all over the place.

[@carrieplatt1253]

10:59 I'm like, huh? What? We're talking about weight again ...or..

[@33Tiffny]

I’m at 32:54 and I still have no idea what this was about 😂😂

[@sampocock5062]

She's a meth addict, does the lack of coherence really surprise you

[@SirMan48]

@@LilithsCosmicLounge there's more than addiction here. There's clearly a personality disorder here with some psychosis

[@kandyblack485]

I UNDERSTOOD EVERYTHING she was ABUSED as a child. Her mother drank alcohol when she was pregnant with her resulting in her being a PREMATURE baby. She then suffered emotional and physical abuse. People don't want to understand it because they're stuck on the fact that she spoke about her diagnosis. People want to focus on her diagnosis instead of the trauma that caused it. I was abused as a child so I get it. It's not rocket science. People just don't care to get it.

[@Wildmanmercury]

It’s the PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder. When you’re always scared, always in fight or flight mode, it’s hard to be openly vulnerable. She’s scared and needs love.

[@shantelnthomas]

Best comment. Her mother ruined her. Hope she can get better.

[@tomerlin84]

100%

[@starbright9878]

I have the same issue My husband says it’s always fight or flight mode with u And nope I don’t smoke weed and I don’t take medication only because the medication they give me makes me go crazy and I’m not a lab rat. I don’t smoke weed cuz it makes me paranoid. I’m over two years sober from drinking and almost 5 years from herion ans crack is 4 years clean.. life sucks sometimes but yeah unfortunately I have all the disorders

[@kennethhacker1341]

So being scared is a symptom? Wow Interesting.i know a person that's always fidgety ,this person definitely has issues...thank you

[@Earthdogbonzo3]

To accept that love, she will need to trust. It will take an extraordinary man to gain that trust.

[@KM-me6ev]

I’m glad you tried to warn her about L.A .. I visited once and in minutes I sensed I was somewhere else and out of my element .. to be street smart you have to know when you don’t know everything and respect that .. allowing yourself to sense and feel your fear can save your life ..it does not make you weak 🖤 I hope she’ll be ok. I don’t think LA was a good turn .. truly worried for her

[@EuleneWages4644]

As the saying goes I dont think were in Kansas anymore

[@staysea71]

Your interviewing skills are great! You ask the right questions and let the person speak, which allows the audience to come up with their own conclusion, especially with this interview in particular. I don't have the patience you do. Also, the videos and photos give such realism which helps to create a visual with the story line. Thanks for your work. You have made me a better person based on these videos. Keep it up!

[@kimmead3683]

Wow. She's a mess and not believing her. She is a carnival of contradictions.

[@scarrysherry67]

My thoughts exactly 😜 she makes it hard to even breathe in between the contradictory things she talks about. Mark has WAYYYY more patients than me 🤔😜🤫🤔

[@benhead3183]

She reminded me so much of a friend who was a compulsive liar, but not in a manipulative way but as a coping mechanism.

[@denverunderground8046]

@@scarrysherry67 You guys are missing the whole purpose of this chanel. Of course everyone on here is going to have some serious problems. Please take it into consideration that these things you guys are pointing out are what got them here. When this woman reads these comments do you really think she needs to hear negativity? Is that going to help?

[@tsungigudza8803]

@@denverunderground8046 thank you for saying that, you don’t have to like the lying but have compassion for the liar

[@Pampilici]

Agreed! She is lying through her teeth

[@marciabernard3820]

She want to be what she's talking about. Just a talker. Poor woman. Sad

[@elcriticodecuba]

just pray for her soul.

[@dellisianicole]

I was thinking the same thing. How were you spoiled as hell growing up with abusive parents that from her own words barely had a dollar for a loaf of bread ?

[@AaronG72901]

@@dellisianicole i agree. She talked about Her fathers abuse and neglect but also called him a respectable man. She's in denial

[@dellisianicole]

@@AaronG72901 exactly ... she contradicted herself (or better yet lied) a lot !

[@j2thek903]

"I've never been disrespected, BUT when I was disrespected...". Baby girl, talking tough doesn't fix what's broken inside.

[@synexthebarbarian8006]

"Human body is not made for man made bullshit" "What about crystal meth" Mark called her out on her bullshit

[@amberholland5561]

I think underneath the tough facade is a very hurt, damaged soul craving love. Her stories, extremes and contradictions are either a byproduct of the drugs she’s using or a way for her to cope. I see through the facade and see a very intelligent, kind soul. She’s just doing the best she can to survive. It may come across as confusing or harsh but she’s literally doing what she can to stay sane. I see glimpses of the true her in moments and it’s beautiful. She’s very strong and once she lets go of her false self she can reconnect to the truest version of her. A strong, capable, loving and kind woman, who is adequate. If she can get clean, get therapy and learn to feel, all of these stories, extremes and contradictions will become unnecessary. God bless her beautiful heart and soul. I pray she finds her way and realizes that it’s ok to not be ok and it’s ok to feel. Even if it hurts, the road to recovery is truth.

[@caseylynn5976]

Ok Im no psychologist, but my theory is that this woman has in fact been very mistreated by men throughout her life. There's a constant theme in her discussion of men and women. I think her assertions that she's so "tough" and demands respect and has been treated like a queen, are actually her attempts to convince HERSELF that she has power that she's never felt she had.

[@wheresisgod2295]

The most accurate observation!

[@adrianakessler384]

She reminds me of a “pretty” Monsters Ball case in the waiting. Although, that woman could have been fixed up🤔in that movie-Charlize Theron played her-I can’t recall the real woman’s name. She had a hatred for men as well.

[@shantelnthomas]

How many men are not sadist fks?

[@resreality3851]

Ty! I don't think its an "act" more like a persona created from a traumatizing place.

[@jasonsmith9371]

Nothing like stating the obvious

[@billyjohnson9166]

I really don’t understand anything she said. She’s out of her mind. It’s everybody else’s fault. Not her fault.

[@jaggirl]

I understood her perfectly. Yeah, she's probably high, but she's an addict. Most people he interviews are high. I think she is a force to be reckoned with, if she could get her act together.

[@samm3114]

She made perfect sense

[@Thesaurus-Rex]

She said she was taking her families problems into her own hands at 3 years old. What a dipshit liar. Lmao

[@billyjohnson9166]

@@jaggirl you must be on drugs also if you understood her

[@alexandernoviello9557]

@Rich Riascos Watch out, we got a badass over here! Fuck man, I share yor perspective on Heather, but you look like an absolute mong calling a woman a "white knight" that acts "cucky".

[@adrir7426]

I love how everyone is dissecting this woman to an extreme but can’t understand any form of abuse could cause THIS TYPE OF BEHAVIOR. Not one of us here is qualified to speak on her story or how she tells it. She gave us the only thing she has to give..vulnerability. If you’re judging her you’re part of the problem.

[@sharonjimenez8097]

Any one fault someone hates in her, is something they hate in themselves.

[@greysoul8109]

There's mostly two types of viewers on this channel: those that can't use their brain treat it as entertainment, and those that actually use their brain and use it as education

[@vinlennox7658]

I'm trying to explain her to myself. Not judging her.

[@Earthdogbonzo3]

I love Heather, would that I had the power to heal her broken heart and battered spirit ❤

[@georgiathomas8561]

She’s her own problem so she’s gotta be her own solution.

[@farmer1129]

I can't take this interview. This young girl has a lot to learn about life.

[@26monicach]

Well in her favor .. at the beginning she said she has multiple personalities 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@aliciagrajeda9953]

You're right....🤔

[@alyupde9337]

Yeah but usually multiples come out in alters not like this.

[@kandyblack485]

It's sad because once she said that nobody cared to hear about the abuse she endured as a child by her mother. I was abused as a child. Just because someone has a mental disorder it doesn't change their truth or abuse. It's crazy how people focus on labels more than the abuse.

[@oliveoil4380]

Fuck off entitled idiot.

[@cesar5478]

She's dealing with several spirits in other words

[@alejandrocastro3358]

she talks and talks and talks and I still don’t believe nothing she says. Not her fault though, she’s just out of her mind.

[@kimhornhem5399]

@@rival3822 the only thing ive learnt is that i should stay away from meth

[@Lorena-vq7jy]

@@kimhornhem5399 amen🙏🏻❣️

[@donwillis9103]

I got the feeling she is lying a lot too

[@louloulaalee1581]

Yep!!

[@jeffro4kag206]

She a case yo. Oblivious to reality. It's a shame. However, I understand she is a victim of circumstances.

[@cuervochica2307]

The saddest thing is I think most people can see through her act. I hope she gets the help she needs to become a well balanced, healthy and humble human 💜

[@merkloe2635]

LOL she was high and delusional in this interview and felt empowered the more nonsense that she loudly regurgitated out of her mouth. How sad 😭

[@joannemates6367]

This one is really hard to believe. So many inconsistencies. She is on a mighty high pedestal. Cheers, from Country Victoria. Australia. ✌️

[@Grave_Hunter_of_Aus]

Hey from rural vic 😜🇦🇺

[@joannemates6367]

@@Grave_Hunter_of_Aus Where abouts in Vic are you? I’m in Colac. Half way between Geelong and Warrnambool. X

[@sonjawilliams989]

@Joanne Mates , cheers from Perth Western Australia

[@Grave_Hunter_of_Aus]

@@joannemates6367 out past Drouin

[@kristopherbearden590]

Totally agree

[@tonywalker4207]

She is completely delusional 😞

[@chrisvig123]

Her ride is over she just doesn’t know it yet 😯

[@trixiedelight9874]

@@chrisvig123 as she said in 1st sentence: "RIDE IT TIL YOU DIE' but she's doing it in the literal sense.

[@nomedigas7946]

@@chrisvig123 boom

[@c.m.c.2900]

VERY!

[@lf1496]

She's been abused. My God, where's your humanity

[@Earthdogbonzo3]

Heather is captivating for her energy and 'vivaciousness'. I'm going on a third listen, and I'm realizing that her verbalizations approach being "word salad." Everything is a contradiction with little or no focus. Heather alternates between the street smart lingo and toughness associated with her life in the streets to display an educated mind capable of articulating thought processes indicative of greater reflective introspection. It's a good thing she is able to break down and show genuine emotion over the loss of her children. If I come across as wordy, or pseudointellectual, it's only because of my attempt to capture something here that is beautiful . . .and horrifying simultaneously. In the early intro, Heather makes a statement about ". . . Your (our ) moral compass . . .regardless of addiction. Such a statement of awareness means that there is hope. I wish Heather love, success and health in her journey towards a higher consciousness ❤🙏💒

[@voice2skull.]

Well she did say she's HIGHLY INTELLIGENT.

[@keepitreal665]

I like most of your post.Theres nothing wrong with articulating how you see her but then you spoil it by presuming because she says on sentence " moral compass" that that means there's hope she can turn her life around.A huge leap of faith on your part with nothing to indicate that,nothing.I beg to differ on what you think of as high intellect and what I do.Just because she speaks relatively normally does not make her of high intellect and het life choices show poor judgement to swy the least.Many suffer abuse ,neglect but don't because junkies ,alcoholic or prostitutes.

[@Earthdogbonzo3]

@@keepitreal665 She most likely will never turn around and will end up another statistic.

[@kimgarcia8012]

Well put!!!

[@zazawitch]

I’m proud of who I am and what I stand for... leaves her children with her abusers...

[@carolgeorgeson9632]

Leaving her child with her mom ..and she calls her self smart ...I think thats pathetic

[@gsteele89]

What kind of men is she fighting with her 98 year old bones? 👵🙄🙄

[@kennedymeow]

Lol, right

[@bridgieohare8653]

🤣🤣🤣

[@seltzermint5]

exactly. Men 3-4 times her size? All the laffs.

[@daniellabedoya360]

Lmao

[@carlforpresidentanthony4574]

Meth heads 😂😂

[@1FlyGemini]

She TALKS a good game and she believes all of the bs that she's saying. Poor woman.

[@5thdimension625]

Optics how it’s all her mother’s fault? She has a lot of growing up to do before she gains any insight. She’s externalizes all the blame and projects it onto others

[@Thesaurus-Rex]

@@5thdimension625 you're spot on. I bet if we talked to her mother she would tell us she had a normal childhood and is just a hypochondriac and an uncontrollable liar. You can't help someone if they don't want to admit their own problems and help themselves

[@truescotsman4103]

I think it's interesting that most of you people see through her act. My mother was exactly like this person. What happened to my mother was she was molested by her brother and I think her father is well and her mother was aware. What happens in that situation is my mother just like this woman ends up holding her abuse against her mother because her mother didn't protect her. This is actually correct children aren't stupid they know what's going on and this woman's mother did not protect her. She was abused and she expected her mother to be there for her and her mother wasn't.

[@5thdimension625]

@@truescotsman4103 exactly! I’m a retired therapist and I would say you have incredible insight. This woman cannot get to the pain of her mother abandoning her. Instead, by staying angry (defended) she never has to access that pain. She’s trying to play it safe but all she’s doing is re- traumatizing herself and her children

[@truescotsman4103]

@@5thdimension625 and I also noticed she talks about having seizures and some sort of muscle wasting disease. That's all stress and malnutrition. Her nervous system is damaged brain damage she has a lot of serious real issues but she thinks it's just life. She's giving all credit to God she is so delusional and so contradicting. My mother was 10 times as fucked up as this woman I know her better than she knows herself

[@shigggypiggy]

Love your videos man. All the good work behind the scenes that you do. Thank you for the content and helping people in need

[@simplelifeofsusan]

I am in tears watching her. I truly pray that she can fine the peace in her life that she and any human deserves. I really do.

[@whywouldyoucareaboutmyname6610]

She's not responsible for other people's problems and says they need to buck up but she expects everyone else in her life to put up with her problems😑 never thought I'd hear someone talk so much stereotypical crap and trying to upsell themselves as much as Sharp.

[@katherinechase3674]

That does sound like Borderline-

[@Lorena-vq7jy]

@@katherinechase3674 All due respect,it’s what you call meth😢Sad but true

[@blackqueen1382]

She cant keep up with her own story😂

[@danakeith9612]

She knows her story. She can't keep up with her brain. Probably the fact that she is sharing her story publically. It's her body trying to self regulate.

[@NaNa-re3wc]

@@danakeith9612 Obviously meth must’ve fried her brain and she probably has mental health issues besides addiction, but probably not most of the shit she said in this video since some of what she said weren’t even actual disorders. Her mind is probably trying to convince herself of a lot of things about her life to the point of being delusional in an attempt to protect herself.

[@kandyblack485]

Someone who is abused as a child and then diagnosed with a mental disorder because of the childhood abuse and isn't getting proper help isn't going to be able to keep up. I really blame her mother. I was abused as a child by my own mother, so I don't think it's funny.

[@mitchrosario1529]

Thank you

[@cindys2995]

This was a confusing interview - but thank you for sharing your work, sir. Much appreciated.

[@MaxBeamer]

i will say the best thing about this interviewer is he rarely chimes in and just lets them spin these crazy ass stories

[@Thesaurus-Rex]

'My body does NOT take to man-made bullshit' 'what about crystal meth?' 'Thats the one thing' LMFAO 🤣😂

[@DanielleFoster.]

Right, cause the ingredients are totally made for human consumption! Wow!

[@nennie2243]

Ya, that was pretty ironic

[@naturespleasantries]

😂😂 I screamed

[@kaiserpuppydog7174]

It was at this point in the conversation that I expected Cheech and Chong to join the interview.

[@johnfernandez2060]

Rat poison and battery acid is much better than Zoloft

[@timebot000]

Mark your black n white photography speaks like no words can. Just amazing how you capture people💜

[@cpirtle]

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it" -HK I hope she can heal from her past trauma and get well.

[@xoxoxok]

So much chaos, pain and suffering energy yet encouraging coming from this. May she find the love and support she is in dire need of

[@doniel370]

Her: I have been to college for alternative medicine because I don't believe in western medicine. Man-made bullsh_t does not belong in the human body. Mark: What about meth? Me: Lmao

[@miapdx503]

😂😂😂 Mark's been doing this for a minute! He sees beyond their minds, and head games. Just like this lady, they game themselves...

[@Thesaurus-Rex]

Bro, meth is at the top of her food pyramid.

[@killplayz1000]

She tries to sound smart, and tries to brag 🙄but makes herself look more dumb

[@brandonroy9997]

I NEVER do that.... except once!!! Over and over she says this!!

[@mariesandiego5291]

I thought the same.... bunch of crap she spews!!

[@vickifowler5719]

I used to sound just like her!! Damn, I didn’t realize how stupid I sounded. 🤦‍♀️💯

[@heyjessie884]

Same😩been clean for almost 4 years now

[@mrs.nancygancy3321]

@@michaelmorris2623 by Webster’s Dictionary terms, she’s stupid. Your ignorant.

[@westtexasdave2140]

What do you mean by that, her tough talk?

[@rbguerreiro2466]

@@abie4230 delusional

[@karencarney7595]

Omg me too. Alcohol waste worst. I've done drugs years and years ago but I kept replaying my trauma and pretending to be multiple ppl, depending on who i was around (slapping self in face)

[@thecolorfulvegan]

The generational trauma is the saddest thing. The epidemic of mothers hating their daughters is the most sad to me. The rage she still has for her I can relate. You have to heal + forgive.

[@christian_cantarutti]

The false bravado is definitely a defense mechanism, plus the fact crystal makes you feel like you can do no wrong. Hope she gets right before her kids grow up.

[@billyjohnson9166]

What about crystal meth? that was a good one mark

[@yousoul7802]

Haha goood call!!

[@Jewels_8404]

And her answer “oh that doesn’t affect me” ... of course it doesn’t, meth doesn’t affect bad ass hard core females 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@roberthoward7387]

“At 5 years old I was taking care of 4 kids while braiding snakes and having an extreme high metabolism and while wrecking grown men and scaring my mom... I don’t take no crap from no one” who’s raising your kids? Sniff sniff my parents.

[@jdawg3629]

😂I'm sure people are trying to get away from her after a few minutes of listening to her bull

[@kaiserpuppydog7174]

I lost the plot after hearing she's as weak as a 98 year old woman, but has never lost in a fight with any man.

[@roberthoward7387]

@@kaiserpuppydog7174 lol

[@roberthoward7387]

@@jdawg3629 💯

[@AyeDatgurlYvett3]

This is the one!🤣🤣🤣

[@LionheartedDan]

22:20 “I tried to use what my dad was doing with me in a good way” The suggestion is obvious and I think she slipped up and admitted a dark truth that she hoped to avoid discussing. How sad, I hope she finds healing.

[@lauradavis4848]

I caught that too

[@melissasavage6826]

I don't usually comment on here but someone needs to go through and delete some of these ignorant judge-y comments. Imagine having the superior gall of having likely never been through anything like this yet sitting cushy behind a computer, taking the time to make fun of someone in this position. Disgusting.

[@celticwarrior777]

yes i try to but takes time and theres so many

[@heatherkline3048]

Could you imagine being in her life daily?? Damn... I would need naps from how exhausting it is trying to keep up with her lies.

[@patricklary81]

My thoughts are doing laps trying to keep up!

[@heyjessie884]

😂😂

[@seltzermint5]

She sounds like every meth addict I've met.

[@jdawg3629]

That's most meth heads for ya. Rambling on, until they crash for a couple days

[@CheapSushi]

I'm dealing with this now and I'm so drained constantly. I don't even know what to think or feel anymore.

[@esko1one]

this person is obviously very sick and ppl judge her as she was sane and normal. tells more about you than it does about her tbh.

[@Itsunclegabby]

🎯

[@pamelazandarski5868]

Its amazing that Heather believes everything she is saying !!!

[@EuleneWages4644]

Yes cause I dont shes just putting on a front she came from somewhere everyone knew her and here no one does nor will anyone care about her stories or tough way she portrays I worry about her

[@codedresilience5239]

Wow. I’m genuinely exhausted after listening to this video. Poor girl. Thanks Mark, another great video experiencing a different type of human.

[@millonthefloss]

This woman is speaking through both sides of her mouth,,,,or maybe through three sides 🤔!!! Or maybe it's five.

[@emilyingridlaura3419]

Yea.

[@yamomma6479]

Raised in a rural ghetto and a brilliant student in alternative school, and a moral dignified drug dealer 😳 ok

[@nylenyap3933]

It’s those multiple personalities

[@carlforpresidentanthony4574]

Im up to 14 🤷🏾‍♂️😂

[@peacefulness]

I don't get how she can sit there straight up and say that she's so proud of herself when she knows she put her kids in the exact same hellhole she was in when growing up!

[@saeedjahangiri6861]

She had to do and doesn’t want it

[@nomedigas7946]

I do - #selfmedication :/

[@tomerlin84]

That's the saddest part of this story. The cycle keeps on going.

[@abie4230]

Because she’s narcissistic. She admitted to having borderline / antisocial personality disorder and they exhibits some of the same characteristics as narcissism

[@scottandrews947]

She's a moron and a nutjob. That's how.

[@gelilahyoungsun4326]

Honestly my favorite interview so far

[@joyfulherbivore7113]

Wishing you the best. I hope you finish your degrees and start your holistic health practice. You deserve it. I’m so sorry you went through what you did. ❤

[@August_Fields]

This one's really sad because she's trying so hard to convince herself she's a strong, courageous, beautiful woman, but we all know people do what they have to do to survive when the chips are down. I'm sure she's had to do many things that she didn't want to do for money and I don't believe she routinely walks away from turning tricks if she doesn't like the situation for whatever reason. Everything she says seems like BS to me, but I still wish the best for her and her unfortunate children.

[@kristopherbearden590]

Totally agree about the BS…she’s full of it

[@kamaltamber609]

The comments prove that we all still have a long way to go when trying to understand mental illness and physical/mental abuse. She's not boasting about herself at all, I think she is trying to train herself to accept her situation and current circumstance. Unlike some of the comments on here, I wish her nothing but the best and hope she recovers 🖤

[@KatJ3st]

What 'comments'? I see more supportive or at least neutral ones. Stop the shaming it only makes you feel superior. ;-)

[@elaineandrepont]

By the way, there is close to zero proven accounts of Mental disease! Dis-ease is more often the case. Disease is a scientific term for an illness that can be tested and detected on an MRI or microscope and possibly can be infectious. The mental health industry used disease and still try to use disease/illness to cause alarm and instill fear in hopes to draw in vulnerable clients. In my opinion it’s a direct power play and stigmatizing disservice to say illness or disease. It’s all for marketing, patient maintenance, authoritative control, insurance coverage but most importantly for profit. Insecurity, abuse, day to day fear, and youthful vulnerability activates the amygdala-the emotional trauma center in order to store trauma within the limbic system for survival. This aids the child in coping day to day, in order to block out ones trauma and avoid further abuse, they adapt into the please, fight or flight modes of operation. That results from abuse, trauma, fear and pent up anger for which can create space for escapism and dependency on alcohol and drugs in order for one to cope through the arduous process of healing alone whilst suffering within volatile environments. Talk therapy and family therapy should be listening, understanding and helpful planning for safety not labeling for insurance and an easy toxicity-release pill that taps into ones feel good receptors reserves for a temporary euphoric fix; mostly to then maintain client base through medications, control, income and pharmaceutical profits. Awareness brings about change! People need acceptance and compassionate understanding as well as support by listening. Judging is not true to understanding human and family dynamics. Once we place ourselves in their shoes and have endured what they endured and became who they are due to their abusive controlling environment, then our point and feelings will matter. Sharing knowledge with actual relatable life experiences is helpful; and, making a plan for healing is helpful. Getting to her heart on her level of understanding is elevating. Giving her a hand up, her space with loving compassionate acceptance, time and patience; offering her sound solutions, talk therapy and devoted attention and loving support is life transforming. ETA🌹

[@BulkernatorKerb]

Your comment is just virtue signalling to make you feel like you're morally superior to others anyway :)

[@patriciablacklock7326]

I feel so much for this lady, she has so many issues she's trying to cope with alone. I wish her everything she wishes for herself and that she gets the help and understanding she needs.

[@valeriesanchez3074]

Love these. So inspiring!

[@chrstphrluis2206]

It’s such a hard series to binge and such a dark rabbit hole but at the same time it’s such a deep look into the world most ppl don’t see, or do see but just ignore and have noooo idea what these ppl have gone through.

[@henderson1985]

I watched this full video just for her to say she’s been in LA for two days . Yeah like mark said be careful!

[@jetshark970shark4]

All that big talk and the beef she has with her mother did she just say her parents are raising her kids...😂😂😂😂😬😬😬😭 That is super unfortunate. My pride if I had a child would keep me one the straight and narrow. If I had a bad childhood is would do all I could to give them a better life... I guess I'm built different no pun intended...

[@heatherkline3048]

🎯

[@VickieVale367]

It’s really not funny tho

[@explaincauseidontgetit3294]

This is the problem with mental health. A healthy person would say, why would you allow that? You cant relate, you can’t understand how she would let her parents who beat her and were so terrible to her, actually have custody of her own child. She is very unregulated.

[@Dgiztred]

You are built different, because if you were built better, you would have some empathy for these people and their lives you don't fully understand. Don't kick someone while their down. That's not what this channel is about.

[@jetshark970shark4]

@@Dgiztred How do you know what I have been through. I know multiple women like her. There is a certain level of delusion with people like this. They try to find the easy way out of everything. Instead of going to school or getting a job they clown people like that and call them squares. They chase fast money and sink further in to the darkness. Now I saw one woman sinking and after the birth of her second child she got out of TV at lifestyle so she could raise her kids, she had a questionable upbringing and refused to let her kids have the same. The female from the interview chooses this lifestyle, any other mother that cares for her children would risk life and limb to get their child out of harms way, this female wants to live in her own delusional fantasy world instead of working to make her dreams come true. If her parents are the monsters she claims them to be her child is in harms way(dangerous environment) and instead of taking initiative and getting her baby to safety she sinks further into darkness. All of these people are looking to be saved. I feel bad for her, but I do not pity people who don't try to do the right thing. There are so many free programs that can help her, but she doesn't want help she wants pity and for someone to do the work for her. She is over 40, if her motherly instincts didn't kick in and her pride hasn't kicked in at this point she is irredeemable and the process of passing trauma on to her off spring has already begun. Just listen to what she said, she enjoyed selling drugs and wishes she could go back to that.... She doesn't want to do better. She wants to kill herself but doesn't want it to be quick, so she chose slow poisoning

[@JennHawk]

Out of all of the episodes of Mark's that I have watched, I have never felt bullshitted until than this one. She has a rude awakening coming. I just hope that after it happens, Mark can interview her and we can see a less angry more REAL Heather.

[@EuleneWages4644]

👍👍👍

[@essedbl777]

Heather is high AF!! I really wonder... how many years has it been since this woman was sober for two days straight?

[@drbabyraccoon8074]

2 days … try 2 mins …

[@tamekasullivan6558]

This is one interview that I don't believe anything that was said.

[@cindyfitzgerald4500]

I think there’s some truth mixed up with many, many lies

[@rons.6683]

90% of these interviewee stories are sketchy.

[@ABC-os1vk]

M Ok

[@daydreamerz]

I wonder if Mark was as confused as the rest of us. I can't follow.

[@heidimedel]

I can relate with her attitude. Talking like this keeps walls up and oftentimes saves our lives more than once. Our incubators are very similar.

[@L.Marie23]

I hope she can slow down enough to catch up with herself. ❤️

[@natasharichardson3022]

Wait. What? I pride myself on being tough and not crying. Then she starts crying. My body cant take man made drugs but then say she does crystal meth.

[@patrickglennon6834]

you are pathetic

[@alicekranyk4173]

Right?? I could hardly keep up with the contradictions...

[@anchorbayvinny4182]

The only thing I don’t think she lied about is the split personality disorder

[@kandyblack485]

As a survivor of being abused as a child, child abuse is not something that is made up. 3 and 4 year olds don't come here as drug users or prostitutes. If she is doing drugs now, doesn't mean she did drugs when she was abused by her mother and lied on and beaten. Children are not as dumb as people think. Every child grows up and remembers what happens to them. They don't forget their abuse. I was abused so I know. People think that a person takes drugs and all of a sudden begins to tell lies about abuse and that's not always the case. I have an Uncle who did crack and never made up any abuse.

[@dreadheaddavid4207]

This chic is a legend in her own mind , but Noone else's.

[@annamarsch6091]

I admire the strength that you have and if you wanted to, you could use it to get out. That your kids are with your parents now breaks my heart and yours too. You could change that.

[@Xenomorph788]

World leaders need to do more about child abuse and poverty

[@childofyah7907]

They are the ones doing it

[@bradscott1092]

The trouble is that the world leaders don’t give a single shit or thought about the people of the world, just about keeping themselves in their own bubble.

[@Sammysmys]

@@bradscott1092 couldn’t agree kore IMO it’s up to us the people that make up society. It is our responsibility to help one another and not hurt each other. We have become so detached from this idea that’s village raises a child and a village should be turned to in a time of need

[@louisaryan]

She has no idea that she’s landed in the eye the storm. Skid Row is NOT Utah.

[@SoftWhiteUnderbelly]

Heather is not on Skid Row.

[@louisaryan]

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly good to know!

[@AaronG72901]

She's in The Devils Playground now. Those slides have a razor at the bottom

[@patthecat1800]

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly Mark your vid description says she's on Fig. Is part of Fig not skid row or something?

[@jocelynngarcia5782]

@@patthecat1800 no but it is close by

[@sbss924]

Bless her heart and soul. She is a protector when she needs to be protected and loved.

[@martialartsguild6460]

It's a surreal feeling when you see someone you know on here. Heather and I went to school together in elementary and Jr. High ( middle school ). I don't know about her personal life, things could have been rough, but I can say American Fork had/has no gangs. It's a quiet little suburban town. It's growing but still really mormon area. I hope that you have straightened up and are living happy somewhere. Mark I don't know if you have seen her again, but she was only out there for 2 days when you did this one and you warned her about how it is out there. If you see her again I would be interested in seeing how she is doing. Heather I wish you well.

[@madisonmorris9331]

Hey there, Heather is my cousin and just figured you’d like a little update. last i heard, she was incarcerated again. I’m not sure in which state, i’ll have to call her mom to get more details, but i know that she hasn’t been sober in a long time. her kids are doing great though!

[@steves6918]

Well, looks like we have a Billy badass this video.

[@emilyingridlaura3419]

It's really sad because it's just all she wants people to see but it's not true that all

[@carlforpresidentanthony4574]

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@brittaolson6550]

I can believe she’s a badass. With meth, it’s hard to tell, though. I’ve seen a lot of people become gangsters and ninjas on meth and they believe it, so it’s believable. She’s got the right description of a biker gang chick, cause that was my dad and cousin’s scene (no I’m not smoking meth lol). I mean you can get documentaries and see that sh*t too, but she doesn’t seem that hokey to me.

[@breaunabraxton2410]

Crying 😭 I didn’t

[@16ORLvc]

Well, it sounds a lot like she’s experiencing a manic episode. This fast, incoherent and pressured speech is so typical... In any case, she really needs help with her mental health asap. It’s incredibly dangerous to wander around in that state... I hope she stays safe and out of trouble...

[@miapdx503]

Or it's meth...

[@thanos7110]

@@miapdx503 deff the meth.

[@jdawg3629]

She's high on meth and rambling about her sordid life

[@christinathom5528]

Yes, hpe her mouth dosent get her in2 to much trouble!!!

[@brittaolson6550]

I have Bipolar 1 Disorder and the mania and grandiosity fits but, still, that’s addicted people or street people all day (Because I’ve been those too, but I’ve also known people who aren’t bipolar at all who sound similar). Stimulants definitely do that, too. She will have to go to like a dual diagnosis treatment and then see if the behavior persists when the drugs are gone and then, still, wait another year or so to see if it’s just a coping mechanism, before finalizing a diagnosis. Luckily, they did try me on lithium before then (Second week of treatment upon seeing me up and around at all hours talking everybody we’re trying to wake them up and talk to them).

[@charmanderrxx]

I was hoping to view the comments for praise at how resilient and intelligent this woman was, especially given her circumstance. I see so much of myself in her and I go to Harvard. If I were given her life, I would be happy to have her outlook.

[@imogenm5016]

Nobody.... You: ‘I go to Harvard’

[@shainishot]

Inside, I feel like Heather. All of the family dynamics she described happened with my Mexican family growing up in Oregon, even the forced marriage. I never knew other people went through the same thing.

[@rrai-]

-I don't care how big the man is I would fucking wreck him.. I don't care if he has a gun can disarm him in seconds -I'm logical not emotional, I always go to logic. I pride myself in that ._.

[@mickeyoshea2035]

Add to that... the bit about throwing a dresser at her mom and raging, but she is "logical"... as she goes on to trash all women.

[@jacqdanieles]

@@mickeyoshea2035 - not women -- "females". 😁

[@carynmartin6053]

Meth is a helluva drug!

[@skyking228]

She seems to be proud of her drug dealing in Utah. Perhaps destroying other peoples lives helps her cope. Her son is with her Mom. 3 generations of this soon to be 4...

[@sarashakeri6561]

Yeah she was the top dealer in 2 outta 3 counties & racked up “so many felonies” but “has never been caught”. I’ll just stop there...takes too much time to list the rest of her contradictory bs.

[@carlforpresidentanthony4574]

Super proud

[@lashawn20000]

Real shit tho like u said u sold drugs u ain't have a business u hurt people making money ur so rite

[@corabellerowland3182]

I know a person like this. They are exhausting to be around (at no fault of their own, majority of the time) but just imagine how difficult it must be to live with this internal struggle. 😔

[@jamiegrant4917]

Amazed how Heather is so well adjusted considering so many challenges. She didn’t have a great hand of cards to play early in life but somehow managed through and honestly I’m so impressed. Hold your head high H!

[@nick87_]

She said she had to start raising her family at 3, but had both parents there, and was never disrespected and treated like a queen? Something isnt sitting right here

[@carlforpresidentanthony4574]

It just dont add up

[@tonyawright2739]

I live in LA, sadly most of those girls down on Figueroa are right where they want to be, lots of pervs driving around down there, for them its like taking candy from a baby....then straight to get drugs.

[@TB-gq5ne]

@@tonyawright2739 but most wouldn’t be there if they weren’t addicts

[@alyupde9337]

She also said her “mom disrespected the He** out of her everyday”.

[@campbell3282]

She's definitely not all there mentally

[@crutdawg]

"One time I fought 27 grizzle bears and ate them cause I hate bears, but i love them. So I ate them cause I hate men."

[@heyjessie884]

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💀💀💀💀💀💀THIS DAMN COMMENT GOT ME DYYYYYYIN😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@starbright9878]

🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️😳😳😭😭😭😂😂😂

[@starbright9878]

Best one best comment

[@starbright9878]

Omg I keep reading this shit

[@GetTheeBehindMe23]

@@heyjessie884 Op Yes c

[@samanthaharris805]

She's a realist. Understands herself, what shes been through, and how it can effect her future. We expect that someone in her shoes is unable to think and be this well spoken. Much respect, i hope you are doing well.

[@danielbrown1724]

This is more than just interesting from a viewer standpoint, you are providing these men and women with an outlet and therapy. Hopefully by allowing all these fine but misguided people speak on their troubles, they will feel better and try to work on getting out of their situations Great job Mark, keep it up man 🤟😎

[@whywouldyoucareaboutmyname6610]

"I was never disrespected, I HAVE NEVER BEEN DISRESPECTED, **But when I was disrespected**"😑 what is wrong with this girl

[@SocialJusticeDestroyer]

What kind of business are you in, Crunchy Farts Inc?

[@nickoh5111]

i think she's lying to her self, but there's probably more truth in it then most people here would believe

[@carpediem2445]

How daring of her to downsize her mother's childhood trauma. She has some serious festering hate for her mother.

[@mariebernier3076]

She remembers having panic attacks at 3 in response to the mother's abuse of her. My understanding would be that she developed survival skils because she perceived herself as being in danger. If you are raised by a very abusive parent, typically your empathy for them is stunted and other feelings take their place.

[@DanielleFoster.]

You're both correct

[@christinathom5528]

Yeah, who can blame her.

[@missychick1712]

I wish she could have opened up and been honest during this interview. She's projecting the strong person she wants to be.

[@Globaldapperbyenoemi]

I can understand her on so many levels💙🙏🏾💙 wow I truly hope she finds the peace and healings she needs to move forward

[@scuffedvegeta2756]

"ive broke tons of hearts and loved every minute of it" " Id skip class and sell dope" "I have to stick to my Moral compass and integrity" lmao

[@tallentstravels5727]

🤪

[@michaelmaxwell7871]

Exactly...

[@scuffedvegeta2756]

@The Midnight Hour with Carolyn I disagree I've watched thousands of suicide victims state they would never hurt a fly. I think ultimately it comes down to the person. Though I can agree their actions can cause harm to loved ones around them. But she seems like a straight up just bad person.

[@alyupde9337]

Unfortunately that is what happens when people make up their morals. Moral flexibility is very prevalent. You could justify anything even murder.

[@mermaidmama7880]

Lots of judgement

[@andrewb7622]

"Yea I'm a prostitute but I'm above that" 🤷‍♂️

[@truthseeker8615]

Oh man I wanna hug this girl!! as a mom this is killing me😞 She needs validation support and love ❤️