PTSD reaction to George Floyd protests & media | Quitting Kratom: Day 24

today's video is about PTSD, instead of my kratom taper. it shows how environmental factors and current events can strongly trigger people with PTSD. i'm shown having a PTSD reaction (near panic attack) and being in a dissociated, flashback state.
0:08 - having strong PTSD reaction to George Floyd news and protest rhetoric. i give a little context as to why, and try to convey the inner experience.
4:18 - why i choose to show PTSD footage: to break stereotypes / stigmas, and contribute more relatable content to help others going through similar struggles.
6:38 - went for a run to cope, but still feeling extreme derealization.

[@alegoricha]

Your video is great 👍 thank you for sharing your experience, this was one year ago, I hope you are doing better 💕

[@alegoricha]

Thank you 🙏

[@eckto3]

I've had to deal with a long list of incompetence by the police, I try to understand that they have their lines of inquiry so not to take things too personal, however there just happens to be police who are downright mean and sadistic. This is in Scotland. Being accused of robbing my own flat, I was like 'great job Sherlock, and how would that benefit me?' - Once two men sexually assaulted me (I'm a male, so consider how much shame I felt reporting this) again I was treated with condemnation. - Once I got attacked by group of Spaniards, had to go to hospital for nasty head cut, cuffed to a bed, then in the morning frog marched out through the busy building with cuffs on. Tip of the ice-berg, I could go on and on.

[@RudeulfTheGamer]

fook police scotland

[@DiariesOfaPhOenixRiSinG]

Hey Jessie, wow girl I can relate to you SO much. I live your videos....if you ever want to talk, hmu. Trauma, panic attacks, and anxiety is SO debilitating and crippling....many have no idea.

[@its.jessie]

it's so true... it hurts how alienating it can be.

[@qu3nt]

for panic attack you can use alprazolam but be careful it’s very addictive

[@its.jessie]

i'm prescribed klonopin. pretty much same thing

[@PimpDomingo]

Hey I was hoping that maybe you could go into a little bit more on what caused your ptsd. If you feel comfortable of course.

[@its.jessie]

have def thought about it, but don't think i'm ready to share through video yet. i'm never satisfied when i tell the story bc i don't feel like i do the trauma and horror enough justice, if that makes sense. maybe sometime in the future though. i've written extensively about it though. you can check out some of my pieces below, if you're interested. i still don't feel like they fully convey the shock, but writing them helped me process. medium.com/one-survivor-story/i-reported-my-assault-to-nypd-like-jussie-smollett-i-was-arrested-his-case-is-harmful-3661fabcabfa?source=friends_link&sk=3a20876a9876fee4d46acf70784268c1 medium.com/one-survivor-story/healthier-ways-to-cope-instead-of-drugs-and-alcohol-from-a-survivor-that-arent-cookie-cutter-8c2710958a49?source=friends_link&sk=03df41166d7ffd15651412ff3ed39a65

[@PimpDomingo]

@@its.jessie I am so sorry that happened to you. Also I apologize you experienced how unjust our justice system currently is first hand. That was not fair. It makes a lot more sense to me now why such an articulate person uses kratom daily and is on psychiatric medications. I propose we minimize the trauma you're experiencing from your attack by slowly removing your benzo (via micro taper). I would suggest keeping the anti depressant and kratom as part of your daily regimen until you get to a better place in life. Once there remove the less dangerous medications (antidepressant, kratom)

[@annettejackson2527]

Well said reaction cutie! Do you have a bf? I love your hair Jessie. Hey, can you react to this new rapper my friends like, he's from Seattle. Reply back asap boo 💋 💣😘 The song is called "SIC ILL - Fantastico ft Veronica"