The Desire to Not Exist

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Pursuit of Wonder

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@lcmarina Жыл бұрын

It’s crazy to think how some people are so ok that they don’t even think these types of thoughts

@eddystylez Жыл бұрын

I find both portals appealing, its why i love life so much. Life and rest, pleaure and pain, best of both worlds. Duality is awesome.

@maxhagenauer24 Жыл бұрын

Everyone has these thoughts, but 99% of the time, people aren't thinking about it, it could either be because they are ok with it which is an absolutely amazing thing to have, or because they don't want to think about it, and the people who don't want to think about it but don't like it, can't get it off their minds. If you are not ok with it and can't find a way to be ok with it, that is truly the worst and saddest thing that can happen to anyone in my opinion.

@nvmffs Жыл бұрын

@@maxhagenauer24 Be ok with what exactly?

@maxhagenauer24 Жыл бұрын

@nvmffs Being ok with accepting the truth even though they don't want it to be that way and we can't do anything about it. Some people don't want it to be over forever after death, some people want an actual purpose and meaning to fight for and not just to know everything will be over in the end.

@Chaos_God_of_Fate Жыл бұрын

@@nvmffs Existing in a Body that can't experience the real World directly, instead hallucinating everything. Knowing the real reality is right there, so close yet there's no way to know it, or real truth. Knowing I'm in a Cave watching shadows. Life is a giant Metaphor. A lot of insane People are wiser than they appear. But these are a few words replying to a reply in a YT comment, it'd take a Novel to explain all of why so this comment is probably pointless.

@semi_enigma Жыл бұрын

Honestly after living life, nothingness sounds like true peace

@EmeraldView Жыл бұрын

It's perfection

@arlert1638 Жыл бұрын

@@EmeraldViewno , perfection is an existence , nothingness is much better than that

@EmeraldView Жыл бұрын

@@arlert1638 You can't get any more perfect than pure nothingness.

@hart_tru_tess Жыл бұрын

Can't wait

@julius43461 Жыл бұрын

If only we could get away that easily. Nature created you once, and given enough time it will do so again, and since you will be dead it's going to happen in an instant. I used to fear death, but now I am more afraid of perpetual existence. More and more I think that ancient Greeks were right.

@Anubis.6256 Жыл бұрын

I remember as young kid ( 6 or 7) I would hold still and let reality wash over me, the feeling was "how and why am I here?, how did I get here? Where was I before this?" The feeling would pass in just a brief moment and the older I got the less it happened.

@reich4858 Жыл бұрын

“This is living huh” -8 yo me just standing in my family’s old house living room middle of the night alone. Idk what I meant or discovered. But vivid memory.

@wildestdreams7721 Жыл бұрын

When I was younger, sometimes I just suddenly stopped whatever I was doing and thought, “Who am I, really? Why am I here? What is my purpose? Or is this just living?” Thought I was the only one who did this but turned out I’m not alone.

@RandomGuy041 Жыл бұрын

@@wildestdreams7721 bro I still think like that today. Just me??

@shlokagurav5436 Жыл бұрын

Same i remember having that feeling it felt very overwhelming and wierd in the perspective of the universe im so minute why was i even put here who is controlling is why is life I dint knew a word to describe this feeling

@shlokagurav5436 Жыл бұрын

The feeling numbed down as i grew elder...

@MarySchipke Жыл бұрын

Given the choice and knowing how much pain and misery I would suffer, I would choose to not be born. Life has been too cruel.

@loverrlee Жыл бұрын

Same 💔

@itwasaliens Жыл бұрын

Living a carefree privileged life doesn't change that feeling. Even the prospect of a wealthy, lavish comfortable life I'd prefer just not existing.

@EmeraldView Жыл бұрын

I'm sad when I realize I'm awake again in the morning.

@ajsims1996 Жыл бұрын

@@itwasaliens sadly even non-exsistance is not freedom. Peace and freedom do not exist

@peppino3609 Жыл бұрын

It couldnt have not gotten Better. That's how It was supposed to be like

@clairewilliams9416 Жыл бұрын

If I could choose between being reborn and returning to the void. I would run toward the void. It’s not that I’ve had a bad life as such nothing truly terrible has ever happened to me, but I’ve never been happy either outside of just the briefest of moments as if just give me a taste of what I can’t have.

@rockuncleproduction2229 Жыл бұрын

Those few and far between moments just aren't worth it are they....

@itwasaliens Жыл бұрын

@@rockuncleproduction2229I personally wouldn't even choose a life full of nothing but the best experiences.

@julius43461 Жыл бұрын

Tough luck, because most likely you will live forever.

@commonsense3921 Жыл бұрын

Being happy is a moment in time not a permanent state, What makes you think being happy is necessary? Contentment and accepting life for what it is brings peace and transparency to the soul.

@ITIsFunnyDamnIT Жыл бұрын

@@julius43461 Science has no proof of an afterlife. No one lives forever. We wont get a choice after we die to choose whether we want to live again or cease to exist. When we die we cease to exist anymore. All any of us have is what we have now till we are no longer and cease to exist. It's human arrogance to want to live forever

@delaney5721 Жыл бұрын

The part about “no one really understood you” got to me

@nacho_business Жыл бұрын

same

@shaytokyo782 Жыл бұрын

No one ever REALLY understands eachother, its just how it is

@suraya_ Жыл бұрын

it's sad that we all can't fully understand each other...

@reesetwist2290 Жыл бұрын

So true

@nvmffs Жыл бұрын

@@shaytokyo782 I like to think I understand everyone but no one can understand me. Or wants to.

@zayr Жыл бұрын

My mom just died on the Mother’s Day and I’ve gone through this thought process a few times myself and seeing it so beautifully portrayed makes me feel better.

@conorplunkett7398 Жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@zayr Жыл бұрын

@@conorplunkett7398 thank you

@preetisridharan7196 Жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@halliegreen Жыл бұрын

sorry for her loss, may she rest in peace 🕊️

@davidchin7721 Жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@renepassa1969 Жыл бұрын

I would never choose to go thru this again. I can't wait for this to be over. I am exhausted. I am done.

@XO-Jungwonie-XO Жыл бұрын

I agree

@TiredOfAllOfThis Жыл бұрын

I have similar feelings

@cobruh836 Жыл бұрын

same here

@JenniferRusso5 Жыл бұрын

Same.

@whenlostgoingtothenorth Жыл бұрын

Weirdly when I said "I am done" and stopped trying, I felt at peace and light. Bounderies, let it go, it's not mine to carry. I pray we all heal emotionally and physically

@stevedriscoll2539 Жыл бұрын

I have come to the conclusion that it's not the suffering I have endured that makes me conflicted about having existed, it is the suffering I have caused that makes me not want to have existed.

@lmazza816 Жыл бұрын

Wow, this is so true for me too. I despise myself.

@freddiemossberg7204 Жыл бұрын

Same

@quellepls2568 Жыл бұрын

In this World there will be always more suffering then non suffering and the worst think is that it is by Design. Because it is so easy to suffer everything evolves so Quick. Life dosent do Breaks. Humans are maybe in a better Spot then other animels but those other animels are getting crushed. Imagen being Born as a rat

@stevedriscoll2539 Жыл бұрын

@@quellepls2568 yeah, rats die horrible deaths by humans, so do many other species. It seems like suffering is similar to entropy.

@quellepls2568 Жыл бұрын

@@stevedriscoll2539 thats a nice analogy. 👍

@dirkdiggler2430 Жыл бұрын

The character in this story had a very meaningful life because he was lucky enough to live somewhere where he had the opportunity to live a life where he was in a country where he wasn't oppressed and that's why he chose to be reborn. You forget that not everyone has a comfortable life like this character. There are people that died not ever knowing anyone that gave them love as kids or adults or a mother that kissed him and told him or her that they were beautiful or a father that didn't beat them or people that didn't beat them or even tortured them. A lot of people would choose to go into the darkness instead of risking living that life they did before.

@fanban2926 Жыл бұрын

I would probably choose nothingness since really both choices lead to the destruction of who I am. Not to mention if I get to that point I've already lived life once. I also can't say the final choice won't be nothingness- it will. One time one of my future selfes will choose nothingness, that's statistically what happens if one choice leads to the same choice while the other ends the choices. That choice will probably come after they've been reincarnated into a horrible place, in which case the question would be why I should choose to be reincarnated when I inevitably will end up not enjoying it and inevitably will choose nothingness eventually.

@dirkdiggler2430 Жыл бұрын

@@fanban2926 Exactly, there's always a big possibility you will end up reincarnated into a life of torture, hunger, hate, pain or sickness.

@ericp1139 Жыл бұрын

@@dirkdiggler2430if you take account the world population, your odds of returning poor and suffering are quite high.

@CatwomanMeowz Жыл бұрын

Yup yup. I would rather have never been born, but now I’m stuck and entangled here. This shit sucks.

@LetsPatchItUp Жыл бұрын

That's exactly what I was thinking. That nothingness sounded amazing because there was no desire and no pain. I feel they must have been loved and had a good life to choose to go back. I long for the relief and hope it IS this all knowing pain free nothingness.

@GamingRoadkill Жыл бұрын

My mind was blown when you said “if that’s heaven, give me hell” this was such an emotional and beautiful video

@frozentspark2105 Жыл бұрын

I would always choose not to be born. I was born into a cult. Lived it for 18 years, and spent the next 10 looking for answers, and the last 10 realizing there are none.

@Patcherr77 Жыл бұрын

And truly, if you were able to choose whether to live a life or not, how could you have known what your life would’ve been, how would you have known the struggles, and pains you would go through before choosing. You simply, wouldn’t, or you would value the experiences you may get from a life over the pain and suffering. Because at the end of the day, that is what it is. That is why we are here. To experience shit.. the answers we seek, the answers we find, they don’t matter. None of us do.

@frozentspark2105 Жыл бұрын

@@Patcherr77 in the grandiose of it all, that's correct

@frozentspark2105 Жыл бұрын

@@fourteendays544 I wish you all the best

@frozentspark2105 Жыл бұрын

@@fourteendays544 you had it much worse than I did. I'm so sorry

@irenehuxter9733 Жыл бұрын

The same thing happened to me. I wish i had never been born.

@edwardvigil5891 Жыл бұрын

When I had major surgery, I was completely anesthetized. I was completely unconscious, unaware, had no feeling and no existence. It was pure bliss. That is what I imagine death to be like…

@mags9024 Жыл бұрын

This reminds me of a near death experience I had. I was in the ER and couldn't breathe, meds were not working, and they weren't doing enough fast enough. I was absolutely convinced I was going to die and at first I was very scared, but at some point I realized I had no control and this acceptance washed over me and it's the most peaceful feeling Ive ever experienced. They then managed to anesthetize and intubate me and I woke up halfway through the madness while they were putting a catheter in and it was like going from a blissful void to a traumatic alien abduction scene. They said my adrenaline overpowered the anesthesia or something. I had nightmares about it for a long time afterward. But the takeaway is that I was much less afraid of death after that.

@Thatsbannanas-d8c Жыл бұрын

Yes and no one says the world earth

@derAtze Жыл бұрын

@@mags9024there is a word for that, it's called medical trauma. It's way more common than people believe. Many people get PTSD from experiences like that (reoccuring nightmares being one of the main symptoms)

@redbunny22 Жыл бұрын

@derAtze A few professionals have tried to say it was made up and no on can wake up during anesthesia. I knew they where full of it. I don't think people get PTSD and traumatic nightmares for no reason. I've always been scared that will happen to me one day.

@oldladytrexarms 10 ай бұрын

It pretty much is, in a sense, in terms of what my mom and dad and I and others who have had near-death experiences can remember. It's all darkness surrounding you. You know you can think, you know you have senses, but you cannot move or speak or do anything, but it's not scary. You hear those around you but muffled. Essentially it's nothingness but calming and peaceful. Then we were bought back and our brains panicked and we hallucinated in all sorts of dreams from nightmares (my dad seeing himself surrounded by aliens) to happy dreams (me seeing my family as sunflowers dancing around) to sad stuff (my mom witnessing us dying). Everyone we talk to who has had near death experiences seems to have the same or a similar experience to us.

@lenaburkett4444 Жыл бұрын

I know it's a trap, but I'm so completely in love with it. As someone who often desires to have never existed at all, I feel extremely called out. This is beautiful, and well done. Thank you for the reminder.

@dianelipson5420 Жыл бұрын

Being born, existing - it has all always been a marvel to me. I’m terrible at the mundane - I can never seem to find it. I have found much meaning in pain itself, and I don’t mind it so much anymore. We stay on the wheel til we are done learning. I love learning. And there’s always a path to understanding desire and suffering - and that banishes all petty terror. This is beautiful, but it leaves out one bit of context. The universe is evolving. Things are getting better. And we can do better if we evolve along with it.

@emesssea Жыл бұрын

I joined the Marines right out of high school and went to Afghanistan and Iraq as a rifleman. It's something, even all the years later, that people look at me with wonder when they find that out about me (probably bc I don't look anything like what you'd expect a Marine to look like), and yet I've endured the physicals pains and continuous PTSD which included over 15 years of alcohol abuse. I'm proud of that accomplishment, but would I do it knowing what I know now? I'm not sure. I had a colleague who got their PhD but ended up working in the same position as me (someone with a bachelors). He's said he's proud of his PhD but knowing how he ended up professionally, he's not sure he'd have done it if he had known. It easy for us to have two scenarios presented to us and defiantly say "if one is heaven than give me hell" but once we actually endure it, if we're honest, would we do this all over again?

@kimsherlock8969 Жыл бұрын

If I was able to remember the wisdom and teachings in my next life I would give it another go. But we don't get to choose anything in being born or at the time of our death. I am still learning at an age many others didn't, dying 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉. before me and living so healthy. ❤

@kuyab9122 Жыл бұрын

I seldom comment but I can't help it this time. I just want to thank you for your narrative. I don't know but I felt pure honesty and genuineness from you. It's simple yet impactful. It's something I am more than happt to ponder about. Cheers.

@datboidominican Жыл бұрын

I also appreciate the perspective you provided here. Fills in a picture of what a decision like this would be like with color. I'll be another among many to dig deeper into this. It makes one ponder over the two choices but I do feel there are many more questions we aren't asking and wouldn't even know to ask that would help us determine our ultimate choice. Would you immerse yourself into pain again to contribute to a spiritual energy that would end any emotional/physical clashes in the world so that we could see the ultimate gift that God has promised we would see on the earth that he created; besides just the illusion of an enlightenment we reach in our own reality? (would we be able to ever see the end-game of what God initially wanted?) [the order that God has established through commandments are meant to create and provide much more than other animalia species in the kingdom of living things, see spiders and other mammals that have order for ex.]

@ninorac6264 Жыл бұрын

That’s very profound, thank you for sharing your experience

@tutornick Жыл бұрын

In The Doors of Perception, Aldous Huxley describes walking down a long hallway with a series of doors. The beginning is birth and the end is death and you can go into many different rooms. When you open a door, you can say: “That’s not for me” or you can go in. Sometimes you never come out. There are always opportunities to go down a different path by opening another door.. but as your life goes on, there are less doors to open.

@ChillOut1716 Жыл бұрын

This s life has been a constant reminder of how I’m not good enough. I’ve lost so many times and lost people I loved. I pray for what I have left and am grateful It’s sad , but the answer is Nothingness.

@ootenyafoo6935 Жыл бұрын

Being born is like being kidnapped. And then sold into slavery. - Andy Warhol

@Nacreous01 Жыл бұрын

Consciousness is much more than the thorn, it is the dagger in the flesh. - Emil Cioran

@ahbarahad3203 Жыл бұрын

@@Nacreous01 noo not the emil cioran quotes , i consciously chose to not read his "The Trouble With Being Born" it was way too depressing💀

@TheSimArchitect Жыл бұрын

Brilliant

@mikirAttt Жыл бұрын

Shit.. I'm being here. What should I do?

@virtualalias Жыл бұрын

Some people think being dour makes them seem smart.

@animallover4955 Жыл бұрын

I used to be afraid of dying & not existing, having cold sweats at the thought. Now I am afraid of existing after death.❤ No I wouldn’t have chosen to be born.

@drghadaroshdy2811 Жыл бұрын

Me too😢

@m3kbeatz Жыл бұрын

Same

@infinitejest441 Жыл бұрын

I love animals too. I wish for a world full of humans that live in harmony with other species. Because we are all animals. ❤

@kendrickjahn1261 Жыл бұрын

If it's any comfort at all, at least there is absolutely no evidence for existence after death. Everything currently points to death as being the end of it all. When the body is dead, there is no evidence that there is something alive and survives other than the atoms that make up your body. But that isn't you at all.

@akfnfmmwlwlslfnwm Жыл бұрын

If you were afraid of dying doesn't that display how much you love living. Being afraid of death is normal and necessary. Yeah there is pain and suffering but why would you choose not to be born. All the great memories all the fun, all the joy would be non existent.

@rose5566 Жыл бұрын

I would definitely choose not to be born again! In fact, if newborn babies could think rationally, I could see myself thinking “Oh crap! Not again!”

@kevincrady2831 Жыл бұрын

Why do you think they're bawling their eyes out the second they can? 🤔

@siriuss_ Жыл бұрын

@@kevincrady2831you know what's the truth? The babies have the memories of their past life but after a certain period of time they are unable to remember that, that's why the older you get, fader the childhood memories get. Alright please don't take this seriously-

@UnstableYT-u7k Жыл бұрын

The worst thing my parents ever did to me was bringing me out into this world. I was enjoying my life not existing until they had to drag me into this life. I’m always mad at them wishing they could delete me already. I have even begged my parents to kill me.

@turtleanton6539 Жыл бұрын

Thats why they cry

@chriswise7978 10 ай бұрын

@@UnstableYT-u7k This comment seems almost impossible to believe. Why would you say these things and yet still be able to say them?

@robbobstone Жыл бұрын

When I was a kid I thought about not being, dying and having nothing being there and cried and was frightened. As I got older I got more comfortable with that and have been striving to enjoy what I have here right now as much as I can.

@teraphIl1000 Жыл бұрын

*I would somersault into nothingness* and I'm sure I'm not alone. If you've ever truly suffered, especially if you haven't had any good to balance the bad, there's just no contest; this version of Heaven, however dark it is depicted (I mean that literally, like, in terms of the absence of color), sounds truly blissful.

@stevedriscoll2539 Жыл бұрын

I can relate to your comment but what wouldn't nothingness be simply feeling or thinking nothing at all? I am in "auto pilot" in this mode. I have to work hard to think of reasons why I would choose to exist.

@EmeraldView Жыл бұрын

@Steve Driscoll Pure nothing. Perfection.

@loverrlee Жыл бұрын

Same. At this point I’d gladly pick darkness and nothingness. I only continue life because I’m too afraid to end it all. 💔

@itwasaliens Жыл бұрын

Check out the cabin in the woods if you haven't. One of my favorite endings of all time.

@ajsims1996 Жыл бұрын

@@loverrlee most of us are in the same boat. But even death won’t save you. Nothing will. This is hell after all

@oldskool1977 Жыл бұрын

I'd absolutely LOOOOVE to go back to how I "felt" before I was born and ever existed... Ohhh the sweet sweet relief from this existence of extreme pain, heartbreak, control, conformity, mindless repetition, societal expectations and pressures of all kinds!!! Please please please take me back to that place of bliss.

@akfnfmmwlwlslfnwm Жыл бұрын

I really don't understand how somebody in their right mind could say that. If you really hate your life as much as you said in your comment, you wouldn't be here anymore. You still love living even though you don't seem to be aware of it. Saying that living is pointless is the same as saying that all the love, joy and happy moments you were able to experience with your friends and family are fake and nonexistent. Imagine your mother reading that comment of yours. Do yourself and the people that love you justice and don't say such pretentious things.

@oldskool1977 Жыл бұрын

@@akfnfmmwlwlslfnwm you're reading far too much into it dude

@aheimdahl5201 Жыл бұрын

@@akfnfmmwlwlslfnwm He/she can feel the way he/she wants to about the issue. Whose to say that even if her Mother did read what he/she said, that the Mother would even care, because some don't. No one has the right to someone else's Existence. I see nothing wrong with OP's wanting to revert back to a state of what he/she perceives as Bliss.

@spearcat710 10 ай бұрын

@@aheimdahl5201 yea but it's like saying that it would be bliss to be a dog, or a star, or a rock. How do you know something so confidently that you have never experienced? It's just another form of idealization, made up mumbo jumbo in ones head thinking that the grass will be greener in some fictional scenario, but you have no actual idea if what you perceive to be better, actually is. The void might be pure torture which is why people come back to the living. It may be a fate worse than life (or apparently second worst thing, death) to be a rock, we know nothing of their experience. To "see nothing wrong" with somebody wanting to unalive themselves is the banality of evil in my opinion, you may want to keep an eye on that in yourself. It's pretty often that when someone does that to themselves in a way that they have time to regret it (jumping off something high or whatever) they usually realize they don't want to. How many times has something you've built up and been excited about in your head has been a complete let down? The person you responded to is right, nobody in their right minds would think like that, you totally can think whatever you want, doesn't make it right. My advice for the OP here is responsibility is the road to the salvation you seek. The problem, as I see it, is nihilism, the solution, in my opinion, is to be responsible for someone or something outside yourself, even when it hurts, maybe especially when it hurts. Quit trying to find meaning in isolation and mean something to someone else. Be someone that someone else depends on or looks forward to seeing. Quit looking for your own joy and create it in someone else. Let the obstacle(s) become the way. Good luck out there!

@jomel23h Жыл бұрын

From ages of 8-14 years old I rememeber I was able to imagine what nothingness or non-existence would feel like. It was like a black hole in my mind where there was no sound or thoughts and if I really focused hard enough I could almost blink out of reality, it felt good. Im 27 now and I try to do this now when I meditate and I can't no matter what get back there 😢 Reality forms the more you grow old, but imagination deteriorates.

@a.39886 Жыл бұрын

it´s better than a child experience the most or the least pain possible should we aim to they born cripple, or without basic necessities like food, roof and care or he would be better if he suffer all that needs. if you know with 100% certainty that if you have intercourse with your partner you will produce a child that will be all his life in the most horrible pain and suffering would you decide to have intimacy and bring this child to the world? a

@CatwomanMeowz Жыл бұрын

What kind of maniac would consciously choose a cycle of pain and suffering? Gimme the void. Now.

@truthseekingfreethinker5214 Жыл бұрын

I think everyone would choose to be born if they didn't know the outcome of their life, but if the outcome is just vaguely known, I think most people would skip being born.

@Nonamesspls Жыл бұрын

@Ra Booyah666 what💀

@Ginger_Hrn Жыл бұрын

@Ra Booyah666 Not if you're being born as a son of a multi millionaire tho

@jaylucas8352 Жыл бұрын

For real if I’m born into millions then let’s do it. If I’m born to be an indentured servant or wage slave then nahhhhh I’ll pass thanksss

@antonyjh1234 Жыл бұрын

I think there would be plenty who know the outcome even if it was good wouldn't want to be born into a world where so many other people suffer.

@Patcherr77 Жыл бұрын

@@jaylucas8352 Perhaps in a different life, you were. And perhaps you chose to live a life of struggles, a life of pain, or a life that is painfully normal. People want what they don’t have. Perhaps you chose to be where you currently are.

@MRttbrlo Жыл бұрын

"No one ever really understood you, no matter how hard you tried, and how much you said. And you knew this." Gosh that's deep. Some might view this pessimistically, and conclude that people care too much about themselves to care enough to understand others. I, however, interpret this to mean that each of us is truly unique. It is wholly impossible to live through someone else and know what life is like for them. We are each one of a kind. Accept that you can't understand anyone, and no one can understand you. Put your thoughts down in a journal or meditate with them is the best advice I can give.

@canchero724 Жыл бұрын

We're fated to eternal solitude. Only a few date to accept it and instead spend their entire lives immersed in distractions

@cyberneticbutterfly8506 Жыл бұрын

@@canchero724 I'd say it's more like partial solitude. Perfect understanding of one another isn't required. Some understanding is a good thing. Is it really a total disaster that understanding isn't absolute?

@cyberneticbutterfly8506 Жыл бұрын

I think this is an appeal to perfectionism; If someone doesn't understand you perfectly then they "never understood you". Well yes if that's the standard. Does it really have to be though?

@kelleycavan6911 Жыл бұрын

We can’t even understand ourselves so why do we expect others to?

@louisj2256 10 ай бұрын

@@kelleycavan6911 Lol the synthesis of both commenter's opinions.

@newone5262 Жыл бұрын

I still remember when I first watched "death, a guided experience" and I had to watch it multiple times because somehow I couldn't feel anything watching it, it was like my mind went blank everytime, and in the end of it, it made me reach the conclusion that there is no free will. And that destroyed my desire to achieve anything in life, and made me give up in a lot of things. Now I just feel stuck in my mind, I don't have the courage to "leave"( not my fault) and don't have the desire to change( also not my fault). How I wish to enter the dark "portal" dude

@larryhaug71 8 ай бұрын

These comments speak volumes on the mindset of today. It saddens me because I understand the sentiment. As a child I would often ponder the end of existence to the point of sheer panic. The nothingness was so frightening to me. I am now a 53 yr old husband, father of 2 Who has found himself seeing the nothingness as maybe not so frightening. I’ve watched the world around me evolve into something almost unrecognizable, things have changed so much and not for the good (or so it seems) To not have the burden of existence is very tempting. But… I believe it boils down to the life you live. The joy and happiness I have experienced far outweighs the sadness and sorrow I have felt. Which I have definitely had my fair share of. But.. I know that everyone’s experience is unique to them “There is nothing outside of yourself That can ever enable you to get better, stronger, richer, quicker or smarter. Everything is within. Everything exists. Seek NOTHING outside of yourself “ (Miyamoto Musashi)

@3nthamornin 8 ай бұрын

fantastic comment. hope you're well

@larryhaug71 8 ай бұрын

@@3nthamornin as well as could be expected 😁

@shiuli6161 2 ай бұрын

The only comment I was looking for. I am still 30 and spent all my life cursing it and waiting for it to be over. But when you have truly experienced everything - extreme joy and extreme sadness - like you said you would understand that joy and happiness far outweighs the sadness and sorrows of life. And I feel very happy to say if I had given a chance I would choose to experience life all over again.

@xenjanobody2097 Жыл бұрын

I’m really not sure what I would pick, life is hard, really hard at times but also.. I like making friends and talking to my friends, I like to draw, I like eating foods people have made, I like the stupid little jokes me and my boyfriend make and laugh at, I like making the people I love smile, I like seeing my cat every day of his life, I like the feeling of anticipation when I see my favorite video game is putting out a new one, I like going back and playing other games I’ve already played a thousand times, taking care of the important people in my life… but the painful feeling of losing things or people you love, the times I really mess up or break something of someone else’s I didn’t mean to, the bad mental health days, getting hurt either mentally or emotionally, the stress of not knowing if you will pay rent, the feeling of being a burden to those around me, the low self esteem and low confidence level hitting me daily, the people who only keep you around for their own benefit and abandon you the moment you aren’t of any use, loving a pet and knowing one day you will have to deal with the pain of them not being around anymore… I’m not sure which overweighs which. To me, this is a conflicting topic, as much as I love the beauty of life, I’m not sure if I would want to go through the pain of life again, I’m not sure yet

@ulalalalala9099 Жыл бұрын

I like how almost everyone says no. Makes me feel good that deep inside people have enough sense to understand how stup1d life is.

@ajsims1996 Жыл бұрын

You efilist?

@boysteacher3818 Жыл бұрын

@@ajsims1996 Not everyone who is suicidal automatically subscribe to life-rejecting philosophies

@ajsims1996 Жыл бұрын

@@boysteacher3818 I was ( and still kinda am) suicidal, and I relize that those people are right. I’m surprised your don’t. I don’t mean to disrespect you or any other suicidal people, but I suggested those philosophies because they literally talk about and embody those ideas

@boysteacher3818 Жыл бұрын

@@ajsims1996 Just like many other ideologies and philosophies out there I do not completely accept or reject efilism but in general I sympathize and agree with the community about their stance on sentient suffering but I do not agree with many of the ideas and thoughts that some individuals and the founder immendham has regarding efilism. Have you heard of suffering focused ethics like negative utilitarianism (NU) and/or wild animals suffering (WAS)? I tend to go in with those communities than Antinatalist/Efilist communities.

@ajsims1996 Жыл бұрын

@@boysteacher3818 sure, but once again, it makes more sense to follow these ideologies. Life on this planet is never going to get better. There is no reason to help others when that peace will not last

@Rex_resurrectiion Жыл бұрын

I would choose never to have been born... My dad searched for blessing of children over 18 years with his first wife before meeting and marrying my mom who opened the door of children (blessing) to him...i ain't suicidal, I just wished I never have to go through all I have been through (Pain, Joy, Betrayals, friendship, Highs and lows) all in all I feel like a stranger in this world. I am going to be 30 in a couple of month time and I feel like I have been here for Centuries

@CorbinB-Rax 2 ай бұрын

Children are the antithesis of a blessing dude. Please stop calling the single worst thing that could ever conceivably happen as some charming positive.

@jac6255 Жыл бұрын

For me taking ssri antidepressants for a year was similar to the void. I felt like I was in an emotional void. It was so nice to finally breath and live life without overthinking and the volatile spikes in happiness, sadness, fear, excitement and love, that were once so intense. But eventually it grew old. I missed the feeling of feeling. New experiences felt the same as old experiences. Moments with loved ones felt like moments with strangers. It wasn't unpleasant at all, I just knew deep down that it wasn't right. It seemed like a waste of life, I began to miss the good and the bad moments. Now I'm back how I was, life is intense, but I find myself more content with the craziness, the volatility. I almost enjoy it now, like lifes a rollercoaster, it's just a matter of perspective.

@HaiyvnDestiny 10 ай бұрын

I love the duality of the very end! Absolutely love it.

@MOONCAT666 Жыл бұрын

The friendship bit made me tear up, apart from my husband i never did manage to properly bond with others and have been friendless over a decade now. Thank fudge i have my man or id go mad, he makes the darkest days a bit lighter

@WheelMarks Жыл бұрын

That was fantastic There were sentences in that piece that really spoke to me. Thank you

@reign9093 Жыл бұрын

This is definitely one of your best videos yet, it's amazing that you can cover one of the oldest philosophical questions in such a beautiful manner that it still provokes thought and self reflection in a new and interesting way. I truly appreciate your use of language, every word is meticulous and planned and it really shows

@TrueNeutralEvGenius Жыл бұрын

One of the worst.

@rsi4561 Жыл бұрын

such a well written comment. reading it made me smarter. thx for posting it.

@jimmynovak7913 Жыл бұрын

In what new and interesting way did it make you think and reflect about it exactly? How did this vid change your thoughts and reflections on this topic from your previous ones??

@TrueNeutralEvGenius Жыл бұрын

@@jimmynovak7913 Infant or kiddo is just yapping, don't try to ask serious questions, this npc can't answer.

@LeanAndMean44 Жыл бұрын

Really shows… what?

@lisamarriott4732 Жыл бұрын

I didn't want to be born. I was born dead and was forced to live. My life has been extremely difficult, I had a lot to work out. Now I have worked it all, I realize how immense my mission was. I am glad to be alive now. My mother never loved me I was always alone. I have learnt how to love by having my own kids. Now I have finished my mission of breaking generational curses. Now I love life and enjoy being here.

@1588jul Жыл бұрын

What she said

@cipnumber123 Жыл бұрын

Thats amazing

@Dianna-pm2hv Жыл бұрын

Lisa, you are beautiful. I also was shattered mentally, physically, and emotionally by my mother. I'm glad for your happiness and enjoyment of your kids. I am off to be near my 12 grandchildren and see another born!

@jasonwismer2670 Жыл бұрын

Good for you Lisa!

@fatimaqasim6222 Жыл бұрын

I’m so happy to read this. I hope you continue to love and be loved.

@noromoanimates5015 Жыл бұрын

There are things I’ve experienced that i keep living for, for i know there is so much joy in life. And likewise there are things i can never forget and never stop feeling. I will always have nights where i stay up wondering if continuing to live is truly the right choice for me. I will continue to have flashbacks and i will continue to dissociate but i will also be in awe at how much i can love a single person, at how much joy something so small can give me, find wonder in all the story’s i read. Life is full. Of suffering and joy and everything else. And it doesn’t cancel out, it doesn’t make it worth it or not, it just is. I will continue living my life and make it the best i can with this terrible start because i am not ready to experience nothingness and abandon all that im attached to. But i will never do it again. My choice will always be to return to nothingness.

@iantanner7579 Жыл бұрын

I was born in a state of withdrawal, addicted to a certain substance, but never treated for the addiction. By 3yrs old I had retreated into a completely isolated world, utterly withdrawn, and diagnosed with mild autism, and at 5yrs old I was put on a high dose of amitriptyline for my severe anxiety. The darkness throughout my life, drugs, medications, OCD, anxiety, depression, panic attacks etc, has shaped me in such a way, that I wouldn't change it for the world. Mind expanding substances, art, music, clubbing, and occasionally even sex. I just stayed away from alcohol and nicotine, from around the the age of 18, both terrible drugs, IMHO, much more damaging than any other really, if one knows what one is doing. I'm now retired, I retired very young, have a high end, personal recording studio centred around my collection of vintage analog synthesizers, etc, no kids, I think, and no wife. Solitude truly is the nurse of wisdom. The great thing about having a difficult life from the start is one doesn't like to over complicate it any more than is absolutely necessary, I don't tolerate low empathy people, as soon as someone starts to get moody or they try to start drama, I'm out, never had time for that shit. One life, live it, - don't do what all my mates ended up doing, that is getting married and living someone else's life, honestly out of all my friends only two are happily married with kids, the rest are all just shells of their former selves. They've essentially become their parents, it's sad really. Funny thing is, it's often my confident, cocky friends who seem to have the nervous breakdowns, and mid life crisis, - I guess if you sail through life with nothing holding you back, when something does go wrong it feels like the end of the world, - whereas people who have to struggle from the start, learn much more about themselves, developing unique coping skills along the way, and are therefore much better prepared. I guess what I'm saying is, - there is nothing wrong with daring to live the life others dare not live, if you have a plan. My plan was the studio, and nothing else, - I guess the autism helped keep me focused. But yeah, I'd choose suffering every time, - it definitely made me more empathic, compassionate and understanding. - love to ALL, feel no hate "I am nothing, you are nothing, - but we are God."

@louisj2256 10 ай бұрын

👏👏👏 I would say 'no words', but if I just left it at the clapping emojis someone might interpret them as sarcastic. They aren't, lol.

@dd1278 Жыл бұрын

I dont know how I have stumbled upon this gem of an account (and its been over 2 years) but i will forever cherish and thank myself to take the time out to go through your videos. Thanks for everything. You've changed lives.

@rkh7904 Жыл бұрын

This was so well executed...It made more sense than much I have heard over my lifetime.

@jasonwismer2670 Жыл бұрын

For anyone out there who's going through trials, I would do it again. I'm male, not tall, horrible skin disease for years with nasty scars. I don't experience anything through physical touch, so intimate relationships are out for me. And yet, I've lived my life to its best. I pursued my dreams and desires, and through hard work and some help from others, obtained them. Just don't give up. Stay nice to others. Live right. Understand that pain will pass and there will be moments of peace and sometimes even happiness. Just don't give up.

@biggstravels1851 Жыл бұрын

God bless

@varunpratapsingh8405 Жыл бұрын

LoL

@caylin20 Жыл бұрын

Thank You 🙏

@stevedriscoll2539 Жыл бұрын

What a story of triumph!

@WarrenPeace007 Жыл бұрын

I’m seriously ill with severe pain everywhere. Your comment has given me the will to carry on. Thank you

@huntersavok9811 Жыл бұрын

Coming from years of pain and abuse then only recently finding God, in my young age, I would likely do it all over again if thats what death was instead of the heaven i hope and have faith in. Im a firm believer that as humans, its our nature to endure and push on forever, however i know this does not apply to everyone. following my ideals at this young age and my measly 3 years of knowing happiness for real and finding comfort in a God working to fix what broke in me and learn to help others in life, i at least need to push on. i may have had 18 years of hell and heartbreak due to the circumstances i was born into, but in 3 years i can confidently say despite the large difference on joy and suffering, that it is worth every bit of happiness that can be milked out of a life, and that if life was only pain and suffering after those 3 years, i would still think its worth it to come back given this dilemma.

@huntersavok9811 Жыл бұрын

mind you i am young and may change my mind as i age, but for now at least i have hope to continue on no matter the pain as i feel the joy i felt thus far is worth more than a lifetime, and even without certainty, the possibility to be joyous again is worth every bit of suffering.

@joshuajuezan6259 Жыл бұрын

Weird how I've pondered upon these things when I was around 5th or 6th grade. I started questioning my purpose and had existential crisis and that I'd been living "trying" anything or everything because I had became too conscious and just lived like a zombie, trying to act like I'm supposed to but felt like I was detatched to everything... It's like floating inside my own body, hella scary.

@cybersloth2467 Жыл бұрын

He had an easy, normie life. Of course he chose to return to the material realm and repeat the cycle. Some people out here are truly suffering and they would jump into the hole of nothingness without hesitation.

@kindredspiritt Жыл бұрын

@truthandthelight4041 Жыл бұрын

Amen

@jaylucas8352 Жыл бұрын

I feel that

@jaylucas8352 Жыл бұрын

I feel that , it’s like going on a vacation and asking if you’d like another one. Obviously the answer is yes. Versus the opposite. Ugh

@reich4858 Жыл бұрын

I’d choose the nothing. Peace. Finally.

@aspensmusicandrestoration Жыл бұрын

I wish I could just press a pause button and the world around me comes to a halt. I want to sit down on the ground and look around me at everything everyone has accomplished and think to myself, "It was worth it." I want to cry my eyes out during that pause for the beings I've lost since I never got a chance to. I want to think over all of my actions and look for something behind it, if anything at all. I want to place my hand on the concrete of a road and feel every detail of the mix of rocks and sediment. I no longer want to be bound by the stress or loneliness or emotional weight of this world, I want to be happy. I want to be free.

@spjs1996 Жыл бұрын

I think I'm in love with you!

@AgentK-im8ke Жыл бұрын

That is my deepest desire

@lkb08 Жыл бұрын

try sensory deprivation

@louisj2256 10 ай бұрын

Can you not do that right now?

@cmmc3400 Жыл бұрын

I died. I wasn't aware of anything, no sound, no feeling, no thoughts, nothing. Then they brought me back and my physical condition shocked me into knowing I was alive and so now....my constant pain reminds me I am alive.

@zercev5922 Жыл бұрын

What i am experiencing is the passing of time and my potential going to waste, i am already 25 years old, i am done with school, i followed a field that will not lead me to a comfortable job, as i am a introvert and meeting and talking to new people or interacting with others in general is a great source of anxiety for me, i am destined to become a teacher, i do not want that. I was a neglected child, i had to fend for myself, i had to be by myself alot, lonelyness is hardest when you do not know how to do stuff and nobody is there to teach you, life was very frustrating, i was ashamed to ask, because i always thought i was too ignorant and i was going to be laughed at, which led me to isolate myself even further. I found comfort in the abscence of judgment, of people. Which is not the answer to my issues, i have to go out there, face judgment, be better, be more confident, blend in, and find hapiness.

@invisiblejaguar1 Ай бұрын

You really have a talent for translating how I feel to myself. I'm often in pain from existing, but I'm very glad you and this channel exist.

@martinwintersee7859 Жыл бұрын

A breathtaking vision of human existence...to the extent of all the possibilities we can live. And we can accept life, even if it would sometimes be a journey into our own or other people's abysses... This video is one of your masterpieces. A rush of the senses, a color horizon of the imagination. And an invitation to a powerful approach to life, in the manner of Albert Camus. Many thanks for your art! It inspires me to write. I'm working on a novel.

@javethanssar Жыл бұрын

Rightly said!

@CrinklyYT Жыл бұрын

how can I reach your work?

@martinwintersee7859 Жыл бұрын

@@CrinklyYT Thank you very much for your kindness. I am working on my manuscripts and will probably have a lot of work to do to find a publisher for publication. I believe in my chance and in people like you. Take care!

@leannadavies7440 Жыл бұрын

I agree this is brilliant thanks I made me feel better

@jarenr4041 Жыл бұрын

This evokes such fantastical feelings in me. I'm still young and have most of my life ahead of me, and I'm still not quite sure where I'm going or what I'm doing. I'm just going, just doing. This channel makes me want to do everything there is to do before my time is up. It takes everything I thought I knew and rips it apart only to rebuilt it on a completely different foundation. It shows me entirely new perspectives on topics I thought I was an expert in. I'll keep going, and keep doing, and I'll try my best even if it all amounts to nothing in the end. Thank you, Pursuit of Wonder. Please never stop doing what you are do.

@rsi4561 Жыл бұрын

how do you know.. "most of my life is ahead of me" lol.. that's a silly idea. young people die everyday. you need this explained to you?

@stevedriscoll2539 Жыл бұрын

And having lived 59 years (that the last 30 have felt like a thousand because of the tragedies, mistakes, and tedium), I would only be fooling myself to think I could impart some existential wisdom to you. Like for example, I could say don't make big mistakes like destroying people or animals, but how would I begin to know what might be "right" or "purposeful" for you. In some moments, I can see the teachings of Lao Tzu making some ultimate sense and at other times I think Stalin was a servant of God...My conclusion is: who is to say? Maybe this is just some program running and not attended to by an Overlord or even self-conscious. And maybe there is no "self" and no "free will". One thing I do have a gut feeling about though is that the people who swear they know (and try to make you feel dumb for not "knowing"), don't know...or, at the least I have come to find that what all these hotsy totsy apes know and parade around like they are really something, seems to have less and less grip on me as I near my end.

@thefightingplumber Жыл бұрын

You do you, but i'd say take your time to enjoy the little things. Smell the flowers and love oneanother. One things for sure, it wìll be over in a blink of a eye if you age or not. And yes, it will amount to nothing eventually, even if you're a king or a queen.

@jarenr4041 Жыл бұрын

@@rsi4561 That's a very cynical and depressing viewpoint... but just because I don't know when or if I will die, why should I stop living? If you want me to correct myself, then I guess it is MOST LIKELY I have most of my life ahead of me. I would continue to live and do the most I can even if I was dying tomorrow.

@ze-prestooo Жыл бұрын

@@rsi4561don't instill your negative outlook to youngsters. Let them enjoy life.

@budi0251 Жыл бұрын

There are other people/souls that may never see and/or understand this video. 😢 Yes, The experience to live a life in a human body (perfect or less than perfect) is an experience of a lifetime itself. With your human body you can experience the world, bitterness, pain, cold, loneliness, etc. Along with all the millions of goodness (and bad experience) it promised, warmth of love (along with inevitable heart breaking loneliness of being left) , sweet candies as a kid and tropical fruits and bacon (or medications and torture) , the sense of your skin touching your loved one and be loved in return (not all have experience such motherly love as they're being cast into the recycle bin once they're born) , the beautiful colours of rainbow (or the sight of horrors where satan himself will give a standing golf clap applause for such beyond imagination evil act), the smell of petichor after rain (or the terrible smell of death in war and chemical warfare), etc. So much so our experience with our senses as human that we become much accustomed to our body and define ourself by that (perfume, hairstyle, smile, sound, skin color, etc) along with our culture being taught by the people around us. So much so that when we reached that point in the video where we have to choose then we can't help but to choose hell ourself (bacon was sooo good, you can't have bacon in nirvana).

@thegeekqwerty Жыл бұрын

The best moments of my life were spent not worrying about the immediate future constantly. If you feel you cannot make the pain go away, just let it sit, it would turn to other forms of strength. If you feel something is absolutely impossible, grit your teeth and change your priorities adamantly to seek other forms of productive happiness. Just my two cents.

@Othefallen12 Жыл бұрын

I feel comfort knowing I can pull a trigger and turn it all off. I wonder if people actually have the experience described in this video. Happiness and peace are impossible, but just to feel love and family, that sounds like heaven.

@TheSimArchitect Жыл бұрын

I don't believe I would make that choice in that position. Even as a child I never really wanted to live, but I was always afraid of making the wrong choice and paying for it, hence why I didn't end myself. I am still here out of fear. I don't have enough enjoyment and it's only downhill from here... 🤔

@lovethyneibor22736 Жыл бұрын

Sir, I want to know ur opinion on the books of David Benatar

@spjs1996 Жыл бұрын

Same here. I too am here bcs I'm a Coward and I worry too much about consequences. My life has been utter hell for 7 yrs.

@lovethyneibor22736 Жыл бұрын

@@spjs1996 what's your opinion on Benatar's asymmetry argument?

@spjs1996 Жыл бұрын

@@lovethyneibor22736 From the brief information found on Google I'm 100% against reproduction.

@loverrlee Жыл бұрын

Same. It’s hard not to regret living when my life feels like it gets worse instead of better. 💔

@metaldroid85 Жыл бұрын

I’ve been watching your channel for so long now, always full of realizations for myself. This is my favorite one so far. Thank you, thank you.

@TheNinjaBiker Жыл бұрын

The way you narrate is very profound as if you have known it all and you were there watching all this exactly as it happens. Brilliant!

@uvikir3547 Жыл бұрын

During my life I have experienced a strange thing about 5 times. Everything is happening as usual and suddenly something happens to me. It's like I'm becoming someone else and I'm very old and "I know everything." Everything around seems to slow down and I begin to look at what is happening. I look at plants, at animals, at the sky. Everything seems somehow different. I look at the faces of people, children and adults, I look at them and I know for sure that "they are sleeping, they don't really know anything, they don't understand now." I don't know how to explain this "knowledge"... And I feel some kind of disappointment (?) in everything that exists. At the end of this "experience" the words "I will remember this" always appear in my head, then everything gradually returns to normal, I become myself and I care about ordinary human things, and this "big knowledge" seems to elude me and I can no longer remember it. For many years it seemed to me that it was just me and after that life went on, but now I am 26 and I understand that the thoughts at the time of this "experience" are too adult for a child who is only two years old from birth. It's as if someone else, someone old and very tired opens their eyes in me and looks through me, and I can watch with them. It may look like derealization and depersonalization, but I've been experiencing them for the last 6 years of my life and can tell you it's a completely different thing... Maybe someone here has experienced something similar? Also, in my early childhood, I fell into "aryk" many times - it's a kind of ditch with clear mountain water, and I never got up from there, I didn't try to get out, I stayed there on my back with my eyes open. I am often reminded of this by my grandmother, who got me out of there. She still feels some kind of shock because of this after so many years😅 This also happened to me in kindergarten at the swimming pool. I slipped and stayed at the bottom. When adults got me, they asked why I didn’t do anything and didn’t try to save myself. And I don't know what to say to them. All I remember from those moments is how empty my head was and I looked at the surface of the water above me and felt incredible peace and I didn’t need anything and didn’t want anything, there was no fear! Damn, this is so weird. Something similar I experience in my dreams when I die there. For some time I am in the dark in absolute peace and without any thoughts or desires. Pure consciousness or unconscious maybe, I don't know... I hope that after death it will be so 😔

@louisj2256 10 ай бұрын

The desire to exist, the desire not to exist. All these feelings and every part of the gradient between them are experienced by sentient beings. Some people think to be awake is to be asleep and to be asleep is to be awake. Maybe everyone is wrong, maybe everyone is right. This universe is a strange and mysterious beast.

@CuidightheachODuinn Жыл бұрын

Everyone's rationale seems a bit dark whereas mine just feels... cold. It's not because of pain, turmoil, ugliness, or wickedness that gripes me and entices me to the emptiness but the utter disconnect from any of it. It seems not a "release" or "rest" to me, just peace.

@DrewZA81 Жыл бұрын

My god, this is your best video so far.... Bravo!

@jeremykush4932 Жыл бұрын

Your videos have been one of the greatest blessings in my life and I'm grateful. They are the greatest wisdom, the most painful truth, the most beautiful understanding........ They are an incredibly cherished treasure. Thank you.

@zoomer619 Жыл бұрын

In Hinduism, the moments after death are believed to be a significant transition for the soul. It teaches that the ultimate goal is liberation from the cycle of birth and death, attaining Moksha. Moksha is the state of liberation where the soul unites with the divine or achieves self-realization, breaking free from the cycle of rebirth. Nirvana is more nuanced and redefined version of Moksha, braching done by The Buddha.

@lavabender_taku Жыл бұрын

Is it bad that I’m intentionally making sure I don’t come back? Now, I genuinely enjoy and feel warm when I’m spreading love and light, but I don’t wanna come back lmao

@xx_amongus_xx6987 Жыл бұрын

@@lavabender_taku How do you try and make sure you come back? It's your choice but I couldn't see why you wouldn't want to come back. Even when life sucks, isn't it still worth living? Once you no longer live, you are gone forever.

@gracepistis304 Жыл бұрын

@@lavabender_taku It is actually great. Yogis and Sadhus in India consciously chose to lead a life of non-attachment. I feel it's your soul realising that it has matured and now ready to transcend the cycle of birth and death. Because without that soul desire you wouldn't even be thinking about rising above cycle of birth and death. Anyone telling you otherwise has a soul that is not matured enough to understand that.

@evanfoster3053 Жыл бұрын

We ultimately have the choice on if we want to come back or transcend, just as the two options were given at the end of the video. If when the end arrives you maintain material desire, you will return again and again until that desire ceases. On the contrary, if you spend your life desiring to transcend after death, then you have not spent your life LIVING it. The Mahayana Buddhists have conceptualized it best. Be a Bodhisattva, LIVE life, and when the end comes, let it be THE end.

@lavabender_taku Жыл бұрын

@@xx_amongus_xx6987 I’m actually at a point now mentally and emotionally where I enjoy the absolute hell out of life, it’s so beautiful. I took shrooms for the first time a couple months ago and it enhanced that tenfold. It’s not that I don’t enjoy life, my autism just has me exhausted ALL the fucking time. Plus it just breaks my heart seeing humanity treat each other the way they do. So I just wanna do my part in helping raise the collective consciousness then her back to the void lol

@Zoro-IX Жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing the wisdom of Buddha without boundaries and labels … All the viewers are probably somehow closer to Nirvana coz of you

@marriedtocuriosity Жыл бұрын

Sometimes I feel like I already don't exist

@johnhamlett8414 Жыл бұрын

I never say my life has been easy or hard, it's just been life... I've loved it and hated it, but I don't think you can come to love life without hating it too. I've often thought life for other people seemed easier than my own, but the older I get the more I have come to realize we're all treading water in the same pool. I think that when you strip everything away all we really have is each other, and that's all that matters. To all those struggling please know we're all pulling for you to keep treading with the rest of us. Brilliant video, I would 100% ride this ride again.

@ToriKo_ Жыл бұрын

Some of your videos really feel like miracles of self reflection and articulation to me

@0ssicle Жыл бұрын

Me holding back the tears knowing I would pick Darkness because I would wish no one else my pain of existing.

@TonySoprano007 7 ай бұрын

What's your pain ??

@joshtaylor485 Жыл бұрын

I love deep thinking and exploring yourself like this and learning what others think of the same topics

@fisgust Жыл бұрын

First scene is about what other people saw in you and the second scene is how you struggle to keep what they saw going. That's the true punishment, to keep a good face infront of others and suffering alone with your mind.

@jamesstaggs4160 Жыл бұрын

Give me heaven. I'll take blissful reality over hellish illusion any time. It's not just nothing, it's also everything.

@fxm5715 Жыл бұрын

There is no guarantee that the joy will balance or exceed the pain. Some people are doomed to endless tragedy and despair, others merely have brief encounters with suffering, and may never even realize or appreciate their good fortune. Nobody deserves whichever lot they are handed. Nature doesn't care about happiness, just success, and doesn't give a hoot for individuals. I might be willing to be reborn as a non-sentient animal or plant, but definitely not as a human.

@tigrispanthera5496 Жыл бұрын

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