Shake, salam... sounds like u gotta good heart, u made poor choices in your youth, u realized them mistakes, all u gotta do is repent n get back on the CLEAN life.. ii mean is there not enuff ways to earn halal money for u? even if its not a lot, halal money gives u that sakeena(tranquility) that u put in ur worrk, u fed ur fam, Allah happy with u, rest is just JOKE this dunya. the glamour the trying to 1up one another.. u know it by now.. cuz u bin there.. so juz do your best to live a good clean life, halal money n inshallah, u be on good side of fence on J-day. That'real success, right? part of azaan is ''come to success', come to success'' by people not going to salah.. they rrr going to failure.. so deligently, its just insane.. Big up urself, stay true man.. i feel u gotta good heart big bro.. May Allah make it easy on u to earn halal n take care of fam n live a good positive life.