I have not been able to forgive my counselor who should support me. I can't cos I feel his attitude and behaviour being bias towards someone who defile me. I could not stand the thoughts of forgiving these two person. I feel I cannot forgive becos I learned that forgiving is the licensy for them to continue and I insist they need to meet with their consequences. But insisting made me a bitter person, and I agreed with pastor Jon that others sinfulness actually grows in me and ending up living out doing the sins not of mine but from those who hurt me. Thanks so much for making this talking point topic and this really gives me so much insights. Leading me into the understanding of my failure attempt to forgive.
I am here coming back to this comment to make correction on the word I used in my first comment, the word I used ' defile' is a wrong word which I do not realise that I should meant ' defame' I was notified be a English speaking friend yesterday. So I really apologize for that carelessness, actually it came into my head out of still with the anger driving me that I used this word loosely by not checking on its meaning. I hope this clarification make god happy with my honesty.