The Universe needs to stop forcing him to come back to me. I do not like the person he is. The harm and words are done cannot be reversed. I was angry with him. I ask heaven and universe for him to get struck by lightning for what I went through the lost, pain, hurt, lies, and dishonor vows…..to find out he has not changed but is the same person. There was no justice for me……I do not deserve to experience these traumatic events. I am such a negative person. I have such a negative energy that I cannot meditate with mindfulness. I forgive but I need to heal. I am sorry I cannot do what the Universe ask. He had hundreds of years to practice and work on himself. But chooses to look elsewhere for love….Thank you for your reading. You have a lot of talent. This is my response to the Universe.