Randomness - 10 29 2020.

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So right off the bat you can see how poor my memory is as cause I had to check and make sure I knew what day it was today. I've been having issues with remembering stuff lately. Something I probably will discuss more in depth in another vlog.
I do say I wanna keep this vlog around the 10 minute mark but of course that doesn't happen because I end up going off on tangents which is why I named this vlog Randomness. I also have difficulty knowing what to say in this vlog because I have so much going through my head and I have a bunch of random idea written down. It was just a matter of what I felt like talking about for this vlog.
Part of the vlog is just me talking about how bad my short term memory has been as of late. I've been keeping a pad of paper near me so I can write something down real quick so I don't forget. I actually keep 3 notepads with me, all for different reasons. Whether it be for my vlogs, my doctor or just other stuff so I don't forget to do things. I just think that writing stuff down helps. For me at least. And taking it a step further by doing a vlog about things. It gives me a chance to vent if I need to.
So one new update is that I got put on a new med. That med being Invega. It's to help with my schizoaffective disorder. I get it in a shot form. Or injection as they say. So I'm hoping that helps because I'm tired of feeling this way. It keep me in bed. So now I'm on two meds for one thing. Hopefully it takes care of things, especially delusional thinking, which I have been having a lot of issues with that as of late.
Then I go on to talk about something called Visiting Nurses. Basically what it is is you get assigned a nurse who will come to you, where you live and help with things. Things like meds, depression, anxiety, even your physical health. You can have them come as frequently as you want. Right now they have me down for one visit once a week.
I briefly mention looking for a job, but I have to be realistic about things, meaning I now go to counseling at two different places and it's enough to keep me busy. So even if I was stable enough to get a job it would be difficult to manage that and all the counseling I go through each week.
Just having a disorder like mine can also knock you back a few steps and that's something I need to be prepared for. I've had bouts of delusional thoughts and psychosis. So me working and potentially having a break down would obviously be bad. So that is something that is just a fleeting thought at the moment.
Not only that, but there is work involved with having a mental illness. You can't just totally rely on meds. You have to physically do things to help yourself as well.
As far as the description of this vlog goes, I'm going to leave it off right here. I don't know how many people read this stuff but I also can only write so much, that and I have to leave something for you to watch instead of just reading about it. Plus it's not exactly early in the day which is when I try to film and upload my vlogs. I am contemplating doing another vlog tomorrow.
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