RANTING ABOUT MY LIFE WHILE EATING CHIPOTLE 🫠

[@capricornfairy624]

Your feelings about online therapy are completely valid. It’s good for your mental health to get out of your house and interact with other humans face to face. The act of getting dressed for your appointment is a form of self care. I’m so sorry you are struggling and can’t find in person therapy 😕 You should be proud of yourself and your baby steps to the life you want. Any improvement is good and should be celebrated. It kinda sounds like you are having a trauma response to working. I hope you are able to make more KZbin content so you can see income from it. I’d love to see cooking content from you! Wishing you all the best ❤

[@Sagittariusshawty]

I didn’t even think of that (it being a trauma response) that makes complete sense 😭

[@brynn1995]

I have no desire to do online therapy either. I want and need it person otherwise I just don’t think it’s as helpful. Just want a real person to person conversation

[@21stcenturyshowgirl]

yeah a form of self care. i agree with you

[@neeqnagetaiha]

@@Sagittariusshawty Whenever I’m with you, I become a happy, giddy kid again I always feel so safe seen and heard when you are around and I couldn’t ask for anything more You are the one for me and I love you

[@Bachelbasquez]

Girl i used to be a stripper and i understood the demons and mental attack sex work has on your mind and it gets so hard to get out of the loop but Im praying the Lord helps you because life is so much better out of it!! Even if it seems impossible to get out of now.❤❤❤ sending so much love girl

[@maeghangiles7488]

This is all a blessing Sagi. Your body, mind, and spirit are speaking to you- they're saying they're uncomfortable. You are worth everything, girl. Keep pushing. Do what you need to do to move forward and choose yourself. There is nothing wrong with you for feeling like you don't want to engage in certain stagnant behaviours. You're a different person than you were. I always believe in you and rooting for you from the sidelines, girl 🤍🤍🤍

[@Sagittariusshawty]

I appreciate you ❤❤❤❤❤

[@beeb6104]

a lot of ppl really struggle to leave the house due to different mental illnesses but i get what ur saying. pushing yourself to get out the house for therapy can be more beneficial to some

[@Lance67327]

Father God, I pray that you come into Sagis Heart and into her life. You can do great things even when things seem absolutely impossible. I pray peace and healing over Sagi and her life. Amen Sagi maybe you could look into working with animals in a shelter or a groomer or something. Also you could look into working at a woman’s shelter to be with other women who have gone through a similar situation that you have been in. Also you could just sit on the balcony and get fresh air and sunlight. And please invest in a probiotic. After taking antibiotics it really messes up your stomach and can lead to depression. Gut health is very important invest in some good probiotics. I’m so sorry you’re going through a hard time this was very hard to listen to. I pray things get better for you.

[@catlover5656]

these are great and healthy suggestions! ty for your kindness

[@Sagittariusshawty]

Thank you so much ❤❤❤

[@gwgfm8875]

@@Lance67327 she would be absolutely amazing in a women’s shelter. Young women would really take to her honesty and amazing personality and life story.

[@felishafraser5230]

Girl you don’t give yourself enough credit! You are so entertaining that even your rant videos are worth watching. Literally sitting here thinking how silly you sound when you talk about your videos not being good enough.. you being so real is why so many people love you and a big part of the reason why so many people leave hate comments as well. What you are going through is so normal and I feel like the most important thing you can do is keep reminding yourself even on the hard days that this phase is temporary and that everything you do today will either shorten or prolong how long you have to be in this spot. Having a better out look and trying to convince yourself that doing these things aren’t a drag is a huge thing to getting started! Even if it’s hard you feel so much better by either doing it or feeling accomplished and proud that you did it! I suggest giving yourself a work schedule too. Even if it sways give yourself time frames if you can which include the time you sleep, getting into a routine will help you feel more organized and put together and less like things are spiralling! You’ll feel so much better eliminating the chaos and unknown of how your next day is going to be.. get a note book or a white board and write down your routine and reward yourself at the end of each week by sticking to it! With a take away, clothes.. whatever it is! As for meal planning as much as it sucks and gets hard to trust your cooking sometimes you just have to do things that make you uncomfortable and there are soooo many videos online about cooking and that will teach you how to make things like chicken and so on. One good thing is the proper way to cook chicken in the oven is to take it out at 160-162 temp and leave it rest for 10 mins.. the internal heat will cook the chicken without making it overdone and dry. Something I did for weight loss to was make croc pot meals that’s how I knew my chicken was fully cooked! You can literally just throw it all in a croc pot and you don’t have worry about it or do anything.. you can even leave your house and leave it cooking all day! I also got an air fryer and it has been life changing.. it’s less work and takes a lot less time. Things like veggies, meats and sweet potato’s take next to no time. I have fully cooked chicken in less than 10 mins! But highly recommend you get a meat thermometer. You can throw prerolled meatballs and everything in there.. one thing I used to make all the time for weight loss was I would fry ground turkey or ground chicken (I would cook the shit out of it) and when it was done I would throw in a can of green beans with salt pepper garlic and siracha and put it over rice.. it was healthy and so filling. You’re doing so good and managing things so much better then you give your credit for.. give yourself a break and celebrate how wonderful you are and if you need anything I can always try and help! I live in Woodstock but if you need advice or motivation, I’m here girl ❤ good luck! You got this beautiful! ❤

[@sweetspicypepper]

I do therapy on the phone and it's absolutely helpful. Doesn't mean it would be for you but it helps a lot of people, I think.

[@Sagittariusshawty]

Okay that’s good to hear ❤

[@user-vb7ud2id3h]

Girl why don’t you try the meal prep service where they send you the daily food- like factor or chefs plate or hello fresh!

[@Rylinabee]

You’re not alone with these feelings and struggles. I wish I had answers to all of your questions. Just keep trying to be the best you and good things will come

[@Gatomama667]

I’ve been watching you on and off since 2020. I was where you were at one point hun. I was up to 300 lbs and I gained a lot from anxiety and depression and losing my brother. I couldn’t walk without getting out of breath, I felt exhausted all the time but I was hardly moving my body. One day I woke up and said I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I started walking everyday and making better choices. Meal prepping is a game changer too. I’ve lost over 70 lbs by just being consistent. When I feel stuck, I try to remove asking myself if I want to do something and instead saying I just need to do it. Remove the choice and just do the thing girl. Motivation will come and go but you gotta stay disciplined. If you wanna go to the gym, lay your clothes out where you will see them. Get in the car and start driving to the gym. Just push yourself out the door and once you get out the door you won’t wanna turn back. You don’t feel like filming? Get the camera and push the record button. Take that first action and the rest will follow. I hope it helps and I don’t mean to be offensive in anyway. This is just what works for me.

[@chrissyg1006]

When I went through a long bout of depression, I didn't even want to leave my house at all. I didn't even like leaving my bedroom. Everything outside felt unfamiliar to me, though I left the house every day to go to work. It was a very strange feeling. I cried all the time, it was just horrible, but I do take medication now and it helps a lot, so I can understand the not wanting to leave the house part. Don't worry things will get better. Just find yourself a good doctor and a good prescription to help with unwanted feelings.

[@tracytx5630]

I'm sorry that you're going thru this Sagi. You deserve better. I think deep down, you would really like to have a life partner. You can't have people respect you when you continue to do what you're doing. I really feel your pain. And your mental health is everything. 🙏🙌

[@sosouzokwe5904]

Sagi have you tried talking to God? I say this with love. I used to deal with everything you discussed in this video and it's only Jesus that helped me.

[@jennabateman1500]

Sometimes the smallest things you can do in a day are still accomplishments. Even if it’s one thing a day. I have severe depression and you seem to have it to and it’s extremely hard to have the motivation to even get out of bed or brush your teeth. But the fact that you clean your apartment is a great thing. It’s all about the right meds and I hate saying that, but it’s true when you are so mentally unwell. And to make sure to talk to your med doctor just to see if you need to raise your meds or change them. You probably know that already. Life is very hard so what you are going through is valid. I also had to stop going to work because of how many horrible experiences I’ve had so I had to go on disability until I can get help to learn how to deal with work better and getting yelled at all the time and all the sexual harassment etc. it’s not easy I feel for you

[@SmooothMountain]

Nice to see you Sagii🩷🩷 Food looks soo good, I'm starving

[@Lorenaamtz]

I’m sorry you’re going through all of this sag,, i hope everything gets better for you soon 🤞🏼ilyyy❤️❤️🫶🏼

[@Danibooz]

Baby girl, focus on the part where you said you manage to keep the place clean ❤ That’s a positive thing boo 🫶🏻 And that is the part you need to focus on, not about the things you couldn’t manage to get done. We aren’t perfect sis. I’m in the same boat as you. I really wish I just had a really good bestie I could just spill all my secrets and issues too all the time. I miss having a friend 😢 all I have is my man and kids and I need a friend 😞

[@catlover5656]

I felt stuck for most of my life and I realized God was the missing piece.

[@Stalkers-Get-A-Life]

Glory to God. Yeshua God can Help if you let Him and Believe in our Lord and Savior. God loves US All Remember that if you’re ever in a tough place in life give God a chance open up to him and you just might be Surprised.

[@Anna_780]

🙄

[@catlover5656]

Also, ill be prayin for ya girl!

[@uniqueimperfections1]

Love these videos Sagi! More mukbangs pleasseeee ❤️❤️

[@jesseminns]

I am a therapist and only see my clients virtually. Many people prefer virtual therapy due to the convenience and it allows me to keep my fees lower. I have had clients that do not like virtual therapy and I understand completely, not for everyone.

[@phoenixrockwell3162]

i found u when i was 15 and just recently started watching you again

[@catlover5656]

God loves you, He saved my life and He will for anyone who needs help.❤

[@LilathThewitch-j1b]

Well prostitution definitely would make you depressed

[@21stcenturyshowgirl]

I think you would be a great social worker. people really like you...look at all the people who like you here! you could help a lot of people i think.

[@MissGlam19]

You have matured so much. I am so proud of you girl. 💖

[@americangirl8535]

I am really hoping that you get what you want.God loves you no matter what you do in life hun.... Hey we all get tired of our lives please take care and stay blessed ❤.

[@CrystalLynnBeauty]

I loved the convenience of doing therapy via zoom/duo but I already had an established in person relationship with my therapist and we started the video sessions to fit with my work schedule.

[@Mippioo222]

Doing therapy on Skype at the mo and I can't lie I much preferred going in person. I was more motivated for the commitment but I wasn't offered more than 5 sessions (UK). Now I've got up to 16 but its all online. Sending luv xxx

[@Danibooz]

I love reading all the positive comments ❤❤❤ Sag it’s time for a change girl 🫶🏻 Move to Detroit by me 😘

[@TheBabycrow]

Ground chicken cottage cheese Greek yogurt focus on protein. Chicken meat. Balls even home made pizza w organic pepperoni and veggies yum

[@zoey-nh2uk]

I feel like me and you would be such good friends

[@lindsaymarie700]

It might be Adhd paralysis? I have adhd and I have a hard time transitioning into other tasks and find it extremely difficult to do anything at times. Doing things takes a lot of mental energy. I think that's a part of it for me. I wish you well girl xo

[@CAMBY608]

didn’t you once say you wanted your own clothing line?? that would be killer!!! i’d love a “i love sagi” shirt!! (do u have any merch now?? 🥰💕✌🏻

[@itsamandax978]

Girl I been watching your videos for yearrrsss. I'm trynna see what my first comment was 😂

[@sj3695]

Hey sagi. I do therapy in person I just started (2 sessions) and I find it much more helpful cause it’s really hard for me to express my emotions in person, so it’s also helping me with that, and being comfortable in a room with another person and emotions. Also if I’m otp I loose all concentration. Not to bait ur area lol, but I do it actually pretty close to you.❤️rooting for you x100, love you bb❤️going thru a shitty time too, here for you 🥺

[@Sagittariusshawty]

Yes I lose concentration as well over the phone 😭 but I’m glad it’s helpful for you ❤

[@witchingbrew3]

Literally me but with jalapeño kettle chips

[@reze3416]

I think your hat looks good! Maybe just tuck in your hair behind your ears?

[@Purrlow]

Get a walking pad !!!!!

[@bbaby-qb4it]

Do you think pms symptoms could also interfere when you’re with your clients ? I’m normal half of the month and then I become depressed and anxious the other half when it close to my period. Hate being a female sometimes ❤

[@gotit4cheap368]

I think you look sporty cute in the hat, dad hats are back in style and it totes matches your cute top 🖤

[@janev_]

love you sagi, i hope things get better for you soon 🩷

[@juicethatcherry]

haven't started the video yet but i went and got chipotle so i can eat it with you while i watch lmao

[@Sagittariusshawty]

I love that 😭😭

[@TammySaj-zm6kr]

Saggi why's there a bottle of booze 🤔 I thought you quit drinking. Alcohol is a depressant. Please stop drinking 🍸

[@bubblesxo]

if you’re not ready to jump into working, you could maybe consider volunteering to start off? just something like people said to give you structure and get you out of the house

[@TammySaj-zm6kr]

Where is your bunny 🐰 🐇???

[@orangetabby3229]

Saggi, for real, get a job at Canadian Tire. It's a start, and you won't feel bad about yourself showing up to work 🙏 First step to freeing yourself.

[@chrissyg1006]

Sounds like depression. Do you take any type of medication for depression? If not, maybe you should see your doctor and ask about getting some type of medication. I have depression myself, but I take medication and it helps a lot. Also, just wanted to say you have a beautiful view from your windows.

[@joanna3755]

Okay now I’m going to get chipotle 🩷☺️ that looked delicious

[@orangetabby3229]

Good to see you Saggi 🙂 👋

[@TinyGrim-vx1lu]

You're real and nice .

[@blckcatluver]

nah ur sneaky link is gross for not testing!

[@vannevers]

Disassociation-- also can cause shaking and being unable to talk.

[@vannevers]

A good resource to look into is "Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving" . You can listen for free on here.

[@Cookie2u6319]

I thought some one in some other video said she was on a recovery journey from alcohol. What’s up with that big bottle of empty wine sitting on the counter IJS.

[@Sagittariusshawty]

@@Cookie2u6319 never said I was sober said I hardly drink lol

[@sparkles7420]

I’m sorry you’re going through this Saggi. I hope you start making enough money soon ,so you can quit your job. I think your mental health will get better once you are able to quit. But,I understand cause you need money to live. But,I kinda know where you’re coming from ,cause I do live video chat sometimes,and I hate it. It disgusts me and grosses me out ,and it’s really hard for me to get myself to do it.

[@Zenithxblack]

Take care, Sagi. ♡

[@Anon-box]

try posting regularly? I know it's hard but the more regular you are, the more money will be coming in so you don't have to work. Maybe some storytimes, hauls, get ready with me, maybe mukbangs?

[@walkingthickstic]

444th like 🫶🏽

[@littletoadstool]

♥♥

[@pawcatt]

what was that male voice at 04:40

[@pawcatt]

you heard it too!? that’s crazy 👻

[@pawcatt]

love you btw

[@MINKHIJAB]

love u sage u are every woman in all of us like u stay relatable love u mama also I love how u live in a skyscraper like #penthouseprincess

[@QBeezy444]

Would you ever consider moving to a smaller town and getting into more outdoor activities like hiking, biking, gardening, kayaking, camping, etc? I believe outside time with nature could really open your heart and mind and relax you in beautiful ways and teach you so much more about life. 🫂 💗

[@R.E_WI.N.D]

PLEASE DO YOU EVER WASH YOUR HAIR

[@sp-ff1pt]

i don't know about canada but deceptively not wearing a condom counts as rape in the US

[@anaeltoussaint1682]

Yes it is considered a form of sexual assault or sexual misconduct in Canada

[@immabigkidnow1]

@@anaeltoussaint1682thankfully

[@gwgfm8875]

Saggy to hear you saying this life isn’t for you and that you can’t understand how you did it before it’s because you’ve grown as a person, you’ve evolved and come a long way even if you don’t see it. I remember being so happy to see you sober, working out and glowing and I think that part of you is shining through despite your mental health problems. Hope you find peace you are such a magnetic personality. I feel like you would thrive doing something in the glam world or in broadcasting. You have time to discover yourself just keep going! You have strangers rooting for you

[@Sagittariusshawty]

Thank you love ❤❤❤❤

[@dreamdeep302]

You've gotta stick around. I'm sure most of us here want to see you do well and are rooting for you. Keep going, you've got this.

[@Sagittariusshawty]

Thank you ❤❤❤❤

[@emmacharles5591]

Keep on fighting Sagi, you are worth more than you realise xx

[@dirtyjerseyy]

I know it's rough but just keep in mind you are still young. You can do anything.

[@ElizabethMoreno-fg5ei]

I think you could really benefit from a job to create a routine and bring some structure to your life sagi

[@Sagittariusshawty]

You might be right tbh

[@Yourstruly9201]

Yes!

[@Paranahmamaa]

Keeping your place clean, personal hygiene and feeding yourself are some of the most important things sagi. You’re doing great ❤❤❤❤

[@emilyowen7952]

I agree, when you have mental health challenges, doing these things are huge accomplishments!

[@aysebrisebois2669]

You’re actually right, when I had to talk to someone over the phone she was walking her dog said one sec so she could pick up poop and it just felt weird and having awkward silence over the phone is weird

[@nkita7363]

That’s unprofessional as hell though lol

[@Sagittariusshawty]

That sounds really unprofessional I’m sorry 😢

[@451brit]

I had someone doing dishes during our session I feel you 😂😅

[@orangetabby3229]

I'm sorry you're having a hard time Saggi

[@saharap3718]

I get so happy when you posttt🩷

[@orangetabby3229]

I think your natural color really compliments you ☺️

[@champagneprincess4]

8:05 what other jobs do you think you’d like? Because I feel like stopping sw would help your mental health. But at the same time I get it because the money. Also chipotle is so over rated to me 😭

[@catarixpto]

Does she have a black eye?

[@alishamarquez8735]

It does look like it

[@Zoe40319]

It’s just her tattoo under her eye and the lighting

[@asha.2223]

Girl. Don’t touch ur hair. Just wait a couple months and then get clip in extensions in ur natural colour. And u can wear a hat til u get good at hiding them!!

[@christinag4968]

have you thought of just moving to a completely new city? start over and maybe go to school? i hope you feel better it hurts hearing you feel so sad about everything.

[@QBeezy444]

I even think she would thrive in a small town, start being outdoors more, hiking maybe biking, eventually camping, kayaking, gardening, etc.

[@Anna_780]

I think the hat looks cute Sagi! Also if i were you I'd consider a day job with therapy session afterwards, and maybe "dates" at night for extra cash 💚

[@Yourstruly9201]

I think a job will bring u some type of structure and make u feel better. You're always at home alone with your thoughts. Getting a job will create some type of routine.. even just working in like a quiet store nobody goes in!!

[@Sagittariusshawty]

Been considering it tbh 😭

[@nessaguilar3759]

Maybe you should buy a bucket hat

[@benniekings9970]

What happen to your eye

[@tzeimi_]

Idk what is either. For the last 2 days I’ve isolated myself in my apartment instead of going to work, even though I need to!! I hope things get better for you babe 🥺 life can be so tough..

[@linalicious415]

Hey baby!!'love seeing u do literally anything 😊

[@catarixpto]

Is that a bottle of boose? I thought you stopped drnking.

[@Sux2suc]

This sounds like a cry for help. I truly hope she gets the help she needs asap.

[@ramunesoda1]

day in the life of my bunny would be ✨ ICONIC ✨

[@TammySaj-zm6kr]

You need to start reading the Bible. God is really real and you are not living the way he wants you to. You will never be happy if you continue with the way you are living. This is facts. These men could care less about you

[@Pawcket514]

Hi Sagi! I think you should meal prep. With the price of food these days here is a way to get the most for your money. Buy a rotisserie chicken and chop or pull the meat into 7 portions. Buy a ready made fruit tray and a veggie tray. Then buy bento boxes or take away containers. Cook some rice ( 2 cups) or small pasta like bow ties or penne and divide into 7 portions. You can probably get more than 7 portions but you will have to judge for yourself. Don’t mesure things just yet just keep an eye on the leftovers so you know for the next time. If you like sausages or even canned tuna mixed with a little celery and green onions and salt and pepper and maybe even chop up some grapes or apples into it from the fruit tray. Alternate proteins for every meal so you don’t get bored. You can also fry up 2 eggs or hard boil with some seasoning. Avoid heavy dressing. Keep it simple with lemon juice and olive oil and coriander, rosemary and hot sauces are a good option. Good luck!❤❤❤

[@TammySaj-zm6kr]

I can't stand the sound of chewing and me and my sisters 🙄 would fight as kids over lousd chewing. I had to turn off the volume.

[@phoenixrockwell3162]

good never watch her again ! ur crazy

[@lauramonds4099]

I'm sorry you're going through that😢

[@Barbiemess]

Commenting so Sagi can go viral and not have to trick anymore

[@blaze7494]

Always looking forward to your posts even if it’s you doing mundane things

[@dk237]

I think you look adorable in the hat. I suggest you watch you tube videos on how to make simple healthy meals. They will take you through it step by step. And you don’t have to deal with blood when handling raw chicken. It’s actually so easy to make.

[@mrs.noodles]

Sagi... I think you've been through a LOT of shit. Like, A LOT. Also, I think you're a sensitive person who is overwhelmed because you've changed and grown. In-between times are difficult because the old life no longer fits but the new life hasn't fully formed and taken hold yet. You'll get there. Lots of people have faith in you--including me. Sending you peace.

[@TammySaj-zm6kr]

Sex is not everything, your actions will ruin your life . Your exchanging your energy with people who could care less about you. I really thought you were going to change your life when you were going to the gym and not drinking or sleeping around. Please stop the self destructive behavior.

[@ashleepometta6388]

You are depressed

[@larzapan]

Burnout maybe?

[@emilyowen7952]

Don't give up the search for a therapist. I have had to "kiss a lot of frogs" as it were but now have a wonderful therapist, I can see in person, and she's only like 3 blocks from my house. But it did take me years to find her. I've had some terrible therapists. I don't even fuck around - fired them ASAP. You're doing great Saggy, just keep going. The depression monster got me bad rn too and I haven't been able to work in over a month because of it....but I refuse to give up. I know you will make it outta SW and I look forward to reading your book someday! Stay strong, take care. Sending lots of 💜

[@deniseking154]

This is a never ending bag of chips god damn

[@sarahkhedr4530]

I’m a therapist and I offer virtual sessions. It’s definitely not for everyone but I will say that based on my experience, it is very possible to form a connection through video. My clients have expressed the comfort they feel in being vulnerable and I do see their progress in our work together. For some people it is moreso finding the right therapist as opposed to the right format. It’s all about preference though!