ranting & self care with a splash of hauling

What was supposed to be a quick 24 hour turns long. Day 1 starts off with me doing my makeup and ranting about vladimir before thrift shopping and getting a facial. Then, the next day, start A Dowry of Blood with me and open January's owlcrate before ranting some more about self worth.
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[@moviegirlkatie]

We love you Brittany, I can imagine how frustrating it must be to see all your hard work seem to go unnoticed. I think us viewers are annoyed that nobody seems your awesomeness. You rock!

[@blibeaut]

I loved your annotation video, the work you put in really showed and I think you can be proud of it regardless of the viewership numbers :)

[@ximenaallessandrij.5972]

34:46 guuuuys! Can we please talk about how ✨magical✨ this part was? Like when all the set for the book and everything appear I got literally SHOOK 😍

[@Crybaby_26]

I honestly wouldn't take the fact that your annotations video didn't do as well to heart. I loved your annotation video! Annotating books is still a controversial topic but im sure the people interested in your methods will find it! We want it even if everyone doesn't. Film what makes you happy Brittany! We love and appreciate all your effort in making content for us❤️

[@katiee728]

Omg ok i'm not done watching the video yet but i had to come down to the comments immediately to tell you that i LOVED your annotation video! I applied some of the techniques you mentioned in it - specifically the combo of doing underlining and brackets etc. to emphasize different parts of the text - during my last read and it was super satisfying! Also your handwriting is beautiful ✨

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Ah I’m so glad!! Bracketing is probably one of my favorite things I do in annotating so it’s cool to know you liked it too 🤍🤍🤍

[@gamexpress111]

i do agree with your rant. Who's gonna fight for you if every one leaves? You're own fighter, our own supporter. We have to believe in ourselves if every one leaves. It's also good to take a break too because you can use this time to use it as advantage to make a video that will go viral

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Very true, especially in creative spaces- no one will support you if you don’t first support yourself

[@alexwithabook]

I really appreciate your vulnerability! As someone just getting started in this space, it can be really hard to be confident in my content or my worth within the space but your words were really encouraging to me. I’d honestly watch entire videos from you about your experiences as a creator and the ups and downs of that and any tips you have.

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

I’ve never really considered doing a series like that!! I feel like because I change things up so much that I don’t feel like I have set tips hahah but I’ll look into it

[@kimistafford18]

We love you ❤ as a viewer for a while you're still one of my favorite booktubers

[@kalareadsagain]

It’s really comforting to see someone who has been doing this for a while have difficulties with the same things I’m dealing with starting out, even if I wish none of us felt that insecurity! I just discovered you recently but your videos have been really comforting to me recently as I’m currently struggling with the loss of my cat. So I hope you know that even when your videos aren’t performing as well, they’re still getting seen by the people who need them ❤

[@theinstabookworm6428]

The pressure to post consistently, and also imposter syndrome, are so real and your feelings are very valid. I'm currently on a Bookstagram break because I was burnt out and was feeling the pressure to post "better" content.

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Imposter syndrome 🙃 I remember when I told my therapist I thought I suffered from it and she was like “well… why do you think that? I don’t think so.” And it was after a rant about content creation and I was just left feeling like I’d misdiagnosed myself lolol but now it’s been a few years and I can humbly say I think my diagnosis was correct lolol And I hope your break helps you see your content more clearly!! Instagram has been such a hassle the last year or so, their algorithm is so messed up and basically everything I’ve seen gets half the likes it used to, from huge creators too. So it’s likely not that you need to post better content, and way more likely that it’s their stupid algorithm, but I still hope you see better results when you feel ready to go back!

[@theinstabookworm6428]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile Thanks! And I think your diagnosis was correct too, lol.

[@fromsophiewithlovex]

we love your content and we love you. we’re here for whatever you have in mind ❤

[@Dasha-pv1xk]

yessss a haircut would be amazing!! eespecially with all the bleaching

[@agentnaget]

I feel like that annotation video will be a slow burn for you… it was sooo good! I know that the way I watched it didn’t help you or the KZbin algorithm though. I normally watch videos in the background while I work and I had to pause it and come back later because you had so many tips and tricks. I was 🤏 to sitting down and taking notes 😂 I know a lot of crafting channels get hurt by that watching style because KZbin wants us sitting down watching videos back to back.

[@pixiethorne]

I’m already living for this video title

[@brittneym.3125]

I'm so happy you're enjoying A Dowry of Blood. Honestly, it was one of my favourite reads of last year, and I am eagerly awaiting the sequel

[@unclarable]

i very much relate!! i took a 4 year break and lost 5k subs so it’s definitely disheartening and hard to find our footing again when the algorithm isn’t in our favor. i adore your videos and your channel. your annotation video was wonderful btw!! you can tell you put a lot into it!! always in your corner

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

That’s so wild, I used to watch your videos *all* the time and your videos (and a couple other booktubers) were part of the reason I started my channel back up. So this is a very full circle moment for me, I’m so excited your making videos again and I, too, am in your corner haha

[@ximenaallessandrij.5972]

Like we say here, chale :c The annotating video is by far one of my favorites (or even my favorite one), but I know it's special for those who saw it 🥰 Crossing my fingers for that one day Great B can compare only with herself and see how amazing she really is and it still gonna be ✨

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

I agree that the people that did catch that video seemed to have loved it which definitely makes it worth it 🤍 the comments have all been lovely and that makes me happy

[@ximenaallessandrij.5972]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile I'm so glad that it feels worth it then somehow :'3

[@JulEnglefaris]

Tulips and lillies are the worst for cats. I wont even let a lily into my house. Even the pollen is deadly.

[@nancy7542]

I❤❤❤❤❤ your annotation videos. It is what brought me to your channel. Personally, I ❤ your book talk. I really appreciate your efforts even if the algorithms say otherwise!

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Aww I’m so glad!! I really appreciate it 🖤

[@karlamayol]

THE WAY I RELATED TO THIS VIDEO 😭😭😭♥️♥️♥️♥️ thank you for being a light 💫

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Thank you for your lovely comment 🤍🤍

[@stepheniejohnson2233]

I loved your annotate video!! Specially for someone that is new at it.

[@theresa3528]

honestly, thank you for being so open about this because i feel like its a part of youtube or content creation in general you never really see as a viewer and therefore quickly forget its not all easy and "glamorous" if that makes sense haha (but i do wanna mention i get excited every time you update :D)

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Thank you 🤍 yeah, I think sometimes people will go through phases in content creation where it actually is all glamorous and easy, but there’s always a point where it becomes difficult & it’s always harder because you can compare to the times it wasn’t such a task, if that makes any sense?? Either way, I really appreciate it 🤍

[@theresa3528]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile yeah I absolutely understand what you mean!!

[@marielbellan]

From someone who has had her Channel for *so* long and have minimal growth… I know how frustrating it can be. But I love doing it and I think that’s important ♥️ but I get what you are saying 😅 … loved this

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Loving the process is honestly more important than growing, because I’ve had times where I had lots of growth but i started hating the process and that was one of the hardest times to create. Honestly, if it weren’t for the income factor I think growth wouldn’t effect my view so much

[@marielbellan]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile Completely understandable :) But don't worry, we love your content! Even if it's just lifestyle like what you were hoping for your other channel :)

[@almamaka]

When I found your channel I think 2ish years ago, I went back to all your videos and binge watched every one of them. There were times when yes, you had less videos, and now, sometimes I have to catch up with you, not you with me haha. I really wish you do and will love what you are doing because I think you are fantastic in it. 🌸

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Thank you so much 🤍🤍

[@readtheriot]

YOU GOT THIS QUEEN 🌹

[@VanillaMoon]

totally relate to the content creation stuff it’s so hard when we start to doubt ourselves and get imposter syndrome too. but anywayssss adore your channel and have done for years

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Thank you 🤍🤍

[@arnabanerjee5363]

Hey Brittany, I can understand how you must be feeling. For a few months, I have been feeling the same way. I lost all my cats, and I have been feeling disconnected very much. I have not been reading, and nothing excited me that much. So, I've kind of forced myself to pick up a book and start reading, but I've been in the middle of that for so many days now. I don't know the point of this rant, but I guess I'll go and pick it up once more or maybe move on to some lighter read; but yeah, that's kind of the gist. Love ya!

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Follow your instincts!! After I lost my cat I didn’t want to finish books I was immensely excited for & it wasn’t until months later when I decided to read a trashy book (that objectively sucked, but was filled with fun tropes) that I started pulling myself out of my reading slump. So don’t force it, just do the things you know will help you feel better and your book will be waiting for you when you’re ready

[@arnabanerjee5363]

Thank you so much 💞 Ranting and your support felt good.

[@caitlyn.m.t9618]

I am planning to reread A Dowry of Blood soon. When I finish Fae, which is an anthology edited by Rhonda Parrish, which will most likely be tomorrow, I'll be moving on to it.

[@honee2short200]

Girl talk, RANT, shout get it out. We all need it sometimes, best to get 💩 of your chest so you can breath easy 🤣🤣🤣🥰🥰!! I have a channel as well, so excited for this year of growth and love. ❤ sending positive vibrations your way!!

[@kennedymoore9964]

My dad and family have alway told me to NEVER do that to your car 😂😂😂 I’m pretty sure that it’s okay for olderrrrr cars with manual trannys. So none of us should be doing that. That’s so scary 😂😂😂😂

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Slamming it into park while it’s in drive? Or the emergency brake thing?

[@kennedymoore9964]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile the emergency break thing hahah. I have no knowledge if he’s right or wrong to this day but i just obliged and that’s what they’ve told me of it. What would I know tho LOL

[@msellenandrea]

I can relate so much to your experience being a creator online. I ended up taking this year off my art business because I wasn't able to produce to the level I know Im capable of, which made me really bitter at social media because no one saw my things and it was a whole downward spiral haha. It is not always easy, even if it is fun. And I don't think many realise the different weird pressures we can be under due to algorithms and the whims of social media.

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Very true, I think if you’re on the outside looking in the algorithm doesn’t even play a role in your mind, when it’s something most creators heavily consider at all times. I’m sorry you felt you needed a break, but I do hope your break has been good for you 🤍

[@msellenandrea]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile I hope things will change and that we all just find joy and fun from social media again! Because it IS fun! My break so far is doing me worlds of good 🥰

[@jaylasfinearts2902]

I’m sooo glad I watched this video because I FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT MYSELF! I’ve been thinking of making a channel for reading and I do art videos on this channel but I HATE how I look and sound so I’ve been scared to upload videos! So thank you for being real in your videos and caring enough to share!

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Of course 🤍 like I said, I don’t normally share that side of creating so the message was for someone and maybe that someone was you! Not everything has to be perfect and you’ll likely always be your biggest critic, so knowing that everyone else can’t possibly judge you as hard as you may judge yourself sometimes helps hahaha like when you’re about to hit upload it’s about remembering that the things you noticed in the content that you don’t like- almost no one else will notice, you know?

[@blackraven7774]

Oooooo girl, let's talk hair. Just this week I was frustrated with my dry ends so...tied it on pony tail and cut half it off and dyed it black...my partner says she like the Cleopatra look😍🌞💃

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

I’ve always wanted to pull off black hair, but I truly feel it’s the one color I couldn’t 😭 congrats though!! Live your cleopatra life 🤍

[@blackraven7774]

Thank you😊💃looking forward to your new look 💜🌹😃

[@Luna-po5ui]

just a little fyi that the cute Owlcrate light has a protective film on both sides that you need to peel off before you use it, idk why Owlcrate didn't share that. But if you take it off, the plastic will be perfectly clear and the marker will work perfectly! Okay back to finish the video

[@STQ_Josh]

You are a wonderful woman. ❤

[@KMort]

I love how you rant about the book and then, 'the point is, I'm hating it'😂 A goddamn mood. I feel shitty today, so I need to see someone else self care and absorb the concept at least😆 Also, the weather must be chaos if you're wearing the loki sweater + short pants, in the Mediterranean it's either bone chilling or dryly warm rn🥲 This is a long comment now, sorry, but I feel the thing w yt is that often the things you were most proud of don't do well. Two of my most watched videos were so boring for me to make and then the stuff I enjoy is pratically just for me.

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

THIS!! Some of my best videos are ones I put the least effort into & it’s always the ones I’m so excited for that just get regular views. That’s a good reminder, thank you 🤍

[@rebeccaalexander8877]

I'm sorry I haven't watched the annotations video yet. I will watch it today. It does have 8k views though that feels like a huge number for me. I've been a slacker because quarantine lol but I will go watch it. I love your videos and you are awesome 🙂. Do what makes you happy.

[@allthingsnik]

I was really excited for your annotation video ❤ The only reason I haven’t watched it yet is because I haven’t had the time to give it the attention I want to, whereas vlogs are easier on my brain to watch 😅

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Ahh don’t worry about it!! It’ll be on my channel for whenever you have time, this wasn’t supposed to be a dig at people who still hadn’t gotten to it, I’m sorry if it came off that way 🤍🤍

[@allthingsnik]

@@BrittanytheBibliophile of course not!! I just wanted to let you know that there’s for sure someone out there who is desperate to watch it 🫶🏼

[@JessicaRoseReads]

🖤🖤✨

[@Elxuxoxo]

Hey B! I found you in November (i think) and I absolutely love your channel and your videos! I'm also 26 y/o and I struggle with the same thing you talked at the end of the video. I have my own brand and an Etsy store (since 2019) and I've been a fulltime entrepreneur for over a year now and I still feel like I'm "nothing" since I still struggle to pay rent each month😅. I have never been on any official payroll but I have still worked at clothing and cosmetics stores and I'm licensed cosmetologist so I do know stuff but I still don't feel like I'm an actual adult 😂

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

It’s hard to feel like a real adult when you love paycheck to paycheck- I 100% relate. But I have a theory that no one really feels like an adult until years later when they look back on their life and they see how much progress they’ve made haha I wish you luck, though 🤍 though it’s always nice to know you have different things to fall back on, I hope your Etsy store only grows from here

[@carahamelie]

Don't be too hard on yourself... youtube is a very weird and hard platform for almost everyone... especially right now. Being able to see analytics and numbers really messes with your mind. Regardless, I love your videos, and you are one of the booktubers I look forward to watching the most.

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Thank you 🤍 yeah analytics will always be a good and a bad thing because it’s easy to get too caught up in them when in reality a lot of it is out of our control

[@anitamartino7125]

me encantan tus videos ❤

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Gracias 🖤

[@JayGTheAwkwardBookworm]

I want to read Dowry so bad 😤

[@ezemendez84]

have you seen the animated series Mirculous Ladybug? there is a character Chloe , who became sometimes in a superhero called Queen Bee!! you sometimes look similar to her!!

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

I haven’t!! I’ll have to look it up!

[@ellieskouros2174]

first

[@blackheartbooks]

It’s a shame that we’re taught to go and go and when you take a break for yourself the algorithm punishes you

[@igu9817239873]

Hi Brittany, if it helps - I’ve been a subscriber for a while and I always get excited when I see new video. BUT I don’t annotate my books and have zero desire to do so, and that’s why I have not watched. There is probably plenty of people like me ;)

[@BrittanytheBibliophile]

Hahaha that’s fair!! And very true! I feel like the thing that confused me was because my first video I ever did, did so randomly good?? But even at the time I was confused by how many views that one got, so it was all probably dumb luck