Real Talk#3 Losing A Parent

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This video was filmed a long time ago hence the hair
Another real talk type of video and this one is very emotional and took a lot for me to do this. Any death whether it be a friend or family member is something that should never be looked upon lightly.
The piece from Spirited Away is called The Sixth Station not The Sixth Sense
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[@SofaTrash]

A lot of your story parallels mine so I thought I'd share with you. I understand how hard it can be to feel so hopeless at times and how hard it can be to say goodbye. I never got a chance to say goodbye to my father before he passed away and I can't decide which is worse; you having to muster the courage to face your father in his last days (and you are so strong for that) or just not being able to say goodbye at all. My father passed away from non Hodgkin's lymphoma when I was 9 and the whole time he was sick I was kept mostly unaware. By the time it was too late, and I was brought in to see him, he was already in a coma so in the last four months I had with him, I didn't even get to talk to him. It's been hard coming to terms with it and I suffered through depression for a lot of middle school, but it's also made me a lot stronger. It's one of the reasons I want to become a doctor in the future and it's also the reason I try to go through most days with a smile. Thanks for sharing your story and for allowing me to share mine as well.

[@SofaTrash]

Also wanted to add that you are probably one of the most wonderfully outgoing and genuine people I have had the pleasure to meet on KZbin, and that's a great reflection of the kind of man your father was to have raised a child like you.

[@alsk20]

I am very honored that you shared your story with me, it really means a lot to me. And I hope that you will be able to become a doctor in the future! And thanks it means a lot to me. And I am also very glad that I met you on KZbin and we've been able to talk here and there for our love of k-pop!

[@Sierrrrraaaaa]

Wow. Thank you so much for sharing your story. This video was sad and beautiful at the same time. Warning: this will be a long comment I felt so many emotions while watching this video. November is the worst month of the year for me. I could relate to so many things you said, about losing someone and then having to still go back and complete school. Watching the people you love go through the loss of a family member is sometimes harder than going through it yourself. I lost my mom in November of 2014. It was completely unexpected, I came home from college on a Friday and she was in the hospital and she died that night from a blood clot that hit her heart. I had to say my final goodbyes to her as well that afternoon, but she was unconscious. I agree with you, it is the hardest thing to ever have to do. I never had a dad growing up, so she was like both of my parents. So I was 19 years old with no parents and it is devastating to say the least. Losing someone that you see everyday is the worst thing to ever have to go through. It changes your whole life and the way you see things. I am a completely different person now. Now I treasure things more and I am closer with my family now more than ever. When you said that Taeyeon's I was so important to you, I loved that so much. I listened to the Sixth Sense and it is so beautiful. I bet it was so beautiful to hear you play those songs. Your poem is so heartfelt and beautiful. It made me cry so much to hear you read it. I can see how emotional it made you and how deep meaning those words have for you. I'm so glad you shared that with us. I love to talk about my mom. Sometimes it makes me sad to recall certain things. But I am so happy to talk about her with other people. I love hearing something or thinking of something that reminds me of her and sharing it with people, even if they never met her before. My brothers don't like to talk about it that much, so I can understand why it would be hard for you to talk about this topic. A few weeks ago, my grandma also passed away. Just like my mom, she passed away unexpectedly on a Friday on November and it stings and it hurts and it is tragic for our family. You are correct, words can never sum up the amount of pain that losing a parent does. I'm glad you feel better after making this video. I'm glad you ended on a good note. Thank you so much for saying your story. It helped me a lot and I know it will help other people as well. You're so strong for sharing this. Thank you ❤️

[@alsk20]

Thank you for sharing your story as well!! It means a lot to me. I agree November is definitely the worst moth for me as well. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it must have been to have lost your mom leaving you with no parents. I've had a few family members pass away from both of my grandpas, my grandma, and my uncle but this one was definitely the hardest because I was so close to my dad. I am glad I was able to make this video have other people share their own experiences where we can all comfort and relate to one another.

[@ktboo1979]

Oh Alex this totally broke my heart I'm so sorry for all that you have gone through but your Dad would be really proud of you cus your amazing! This must have been tough to do but I'm very glad u did X I lost my uncle a year ago today to blood cancer, he's was an amazing man and he is missed dearly by me and my family X We will never forget but we will carry all their love with us till the end of time xxx

[@alsk20]

Thank you for the kind words. And I am sorry that you lost your uncle. I too have also lost one of my uncles who was my mom's brother a few years ago. And its very true that we'll never forget but we will always love them very deeply.

[@RayneCloud0]

First, beautiful poem. Second, I can tell how hard it was for you to talk about this,my heart goes out to you,I wish i could give you a hug. It never seems like it's really real,When my grandma died earlier this year i felt like everything was falling apart,she was the only person in my family who never left me and shes gone,so i understand exactly how it affects you differently from other family members passing away. It's so hard and it never makes any sense. What keeps me going is her love. I feel like you and i have a lot in common,i didn't realize how much till this video,Between taking over your dads cooking to bottling your emotions and to writing about how you feel. If you ever need to talk i'm here for you.

[@alsk20]

Thank you it took a lot for me to do this video let along recite the poem that I had created. Losing someone so close to you is just so painful its hard to believe that its actually happening to you when it happens. And I hope that the two of us can become closer and continue talking more in the future. I've liked talking to you and getting to know you from this past month about music and stuff. : )

[@RayneCloud0]

***** No thank you for sharing this with everyone,i think it's nice to let people know that they aren't alone.I hope we can become closer! I have liked getting to know you as well ^_^,like i had said in the previous comment i didn't realize how much we do have in common till i saw your real talk videos(esp this one) and by talking in the thread for Secret Santa. So i'm happy we can talk :)

[@alsk20]

Miranda0223 Me too I definitely didn't realize how much we had in common either! I think its cool that we got to discover that this year!

[@RayneCloud0]

***** It is cool,i'm glad we did get the chance to!!!