recovering from the worst rut of my life

[@MichelleGia]

hello everyone

[@Mystic_Paths]

Recovering from a rut is a journey, and it’s important to honor your own pace

[@MichelleGia]

Exactly🫶🏼

[@mercedesRV1983]

I feeling this right now. NUMB. No drive, no happiness. I do feel my anger which makes it worst. Idk how I’ll get out of this, I miss feeling joy and excitement. Just bought a house and got me and my mom out of an uncomfortable living situation. I can’t even rejoice in my accomplishment. I don’t feel the excitement of having a new home that I can call my own. Any words of encouragement help. I feel very alone in this feeling. Hearing videos like these reminds me I’m not alone in this dilemma.

[@chiaraortiz]

I can relate to this in a way. I was working so hard and sacrificing so much to help people. To be the person everyone needs, I neglected myself and buried my feelings to the point where I ignored how I felt. When I cried, it didn't feel real--like no matter what I felt, this numbing feeling would occur. I just wanted to feel again. I just felt so isolated from everything, especially myself. So, what happened? I kept trying to do new things, and I reached out to people who may have seemed like strangers, but ultimately, they were there to help me. I often asked myself why I felt like this, was I just weird, was it like this for everyone? As it turned out - no, it's not. It's ok to not be able to comprehend your feelings. However, it is not entirely normal to just feel an emptiness inside. I feel like as humans, we try so hard to be good. To do good. We forget that we are unique and we as individuals are good. We are who we choose to be. So I hope that whatever you are going through gets better and understood. Also, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Each day is an achievement, but it is a choice. It is the rest of your story, who you choose to be.

[@mercedesRV1983]

@ thank you sharing your thoughts and your story. Your words are encouraging and very appreciated 🙏🏽❤️

[@ann-kathrin_3207]

Hey there I’m really sorry you feel that way. I know that might be overstepping a little, but what you’re describing sounds very much like a depressive episode. I’m a certified psychologist and just wanted to let you know, that there are ways to get out of this feeling. It probably won’t be done from one day to another but one can overcome such an episode. If that might be an option for you (both in terms of your willingness but of course I also don’t know whether you’d have access to it) talking to a therapist would be good place to start. They might guide you on whether you’d benefit from medication or “simply” embark on a CBT journey which you. If that is not a possibility for you I’d recommend to strategically analyze whether there are still things that make you feel something, whether you can pinpoint a starting point and whether there are certain thought patterns that keep coming back again - maybe you can do that with a friend or family member you trust in. It might also be helpful to try “forcing” yourself to do something every day. Whether you start with something as little as stepping outside your door for just a minute every morning or something bigger such as committing to exercise or cook - whatever feels realistic to you. Once that one little thing is established you can consider adding another element. This might take some time and it also might take a while till you feel an effect on you but empirically it has a good probability in improving your symptoms. I feel for you and am wishing you all the best in the world and hope this came off right. Much love from Germany, Ann ❤

[@mercedesRV1983]

@ Thank you Ann! I appreciate you taking the time to share these strategies. I am in therapy, and you are correct I need to force myself to do things, specially outside of my comfort zone… as I tend to isolate. I will keep your words close and use them as inspiration. ❤️ thank you 🙏🏽

[@MichelleGia]

@@mercedesRV1983 hello, I’m so sorry I missed your comment, but I’m glad you were able to get some words from Chiara and Ann❤️ I understand how you feel exactly, it can be so discouraging to have such a great accomplishment, but almost feel no emotion towards it. I also get the fear of not knowing when you will ever be excited about anything again. I hope you never give up on getting back to a place where you feel yourself again though. Sometimes it takes a while because it’s such a gradual process. For me, there wasn’t a certain thing that anyone could do or say to make me feel better at that particular moment, it was more of a slow process towards feeling a little bit better over time. I agree with Ann’s suggestions, taking things day to day and making small improvements can really make a big impact over time (along with therapy as well ofc). But I’m so proud of you for what you’ve done for yourself and your family, even if you don’t feel that. You are important and you have really made an impact on the people in your life❤️ I hope you remember that

[@carlobisda]

i feel ya - last year was objectively the worst year of my life and i'm still recovering, slowly but surely. good luck

[@MichelleGia]

I’m sorry to hear:( Wishing you all the best with your healing and recovery🫶🏼

[@Papi-c2n]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤​@@MichelleGia

[@__jabkoo__3493]

im so freaking happy to see that im not struggling alone . I have been in a very bad loop of anxiety and many bad feelings for three months and its still feel shitty but i have a hope that step by step it gets better

[@jencee]

I feel you, grieving to someone or even lost job too its a part of growth…

[@MichelleGia]

Yes:( painful but necessary

[@Erika-pq7ip]

Mental health is super important 😢

[@MichelleGia]

It really is😣

[@Psa46]

This was on time! I’m currently going through a rut myself, and if it wasn’t for my therapist, I’d be in bed all day. I have cptsd, anxiety/depression complex so when I’m down, I’m down down. However, after starting to heal my inner child I notice my down down time getting shorter. So now I just tell myself I may be down for a minute, but it’s part of the process. I’ll be okay.

[@MichelleGia]

I'm so happy to hear that:) wishing you all the best from here on

[@franksotherchannel]

2023 was a terrible year for sure. Every bad thing that could happen to me, happened that year. I'm just about on the verge of recovering and it's been really tough, but I'm now finally starting to see a little light. Thank you Michelle for sharing your thoughts. Your videos are always very comforting and I'm glad you're doing better now

[@MichelleGia]

im sorry to hear your 2023 was so rough:( but im glad that you're slowly bouncing back. I wish you all the best on this healing journey:) sending love

[@nikvvvs]

I cried the entire video, because of the hope you’re giving. Thank you for posting this

[@MichelleGia]

of course❤️ sending you lots of love

[@gyozaa_y]

you rambling is comfort and therapy :)) luv u michelle! hoping for better days to come

[@MichelleGia]

Ur the sweetest ily❤️ wishing you well:)

[@AynBernos]

loved this

[@MarkChammas]

Love you Michelle. I am in a rut too. Please take care of yourself. Live each day at a time

[@MichelleGia]

Thank you for the kind words❤️ sending you love and strength during this time

[@hughmorrison8931]

When people go through these lonely times they sometimes forget the fsct thst these are temporary times and they don't last. Things will get better. I say this from personal experience. Just stay the course. It will work out eventually.

[@MichelleGia]

Thank you for the words❤️ I agree 100%

[@lifeofkrissyy]

it is absolutely okay to take time to yourself, putting your mental health first is vital before anyone and anything. I resonate with this in so many ways and currently still getting through it but things will be better (: There will definitely be trials and tribulations throughout life but one thing God taught me is to always speak light into your life, its okay to grieve its apart of healing but do your best to keep that optimism within yourself. These hardships will pass and they teach us more about ourselves and opens opportunities for growth and self development. God says the flesh is weak but the spirit is willing! Its not about being perfect but being willing, youre in the right place at the right time with the right events (: Stay faithful and hopeful! So sorry for your loss of your grandma & doggo, I understand how you feel. Thank you for sharing. You are strong Michelle! God bless you, your life’s journey & your loved ones.

[@MichelleGia]

thank you so much for this sweet and thoughtful comment, i needed this and it made my day❤️ sending you love and wishing you all the best

[@delicatebreeze_]

Going through this for the past 4 months now and I’m trying to start looking in the brighter side of things. It’s not easy but I know with time, I’ll eventually find the light. Thank you for sharing your experience 💗

[@MichelleGia]

I believe in you❤️ sending you so much love

[@delicatebreeze_]

@ Thank you! I also hope you have wonderful days ahead of you! 🫶🏼

[@asmafatimasagri8941]

i was going through something like this for about an year when i was a junior in high school...i was a really good student and all of sudden when I was in junior I was just not good enough...also corona was really at peak at that time so i didn't get to meet my friends and family who would cheer me up and help me when I'm struggling ( i don't ask for help...its hard for me to ask for help, its like if they'd notice they'd help me) and so it just went on for about and year and then when new year came i found some youtubers when felt like home ( YOU INCLUDED) and yeah I've been better. Everyone has their own struggles and change of mindset really helped me a lot too.

[@MichelleGia]

I’m so sorry you went through that🥺 I’m really glad to hear you’re doing better now though❤️ wishing you all the best, thank you for supporting me:)

[@aruuu06]

2023 was a terrible year for me too. We slowly heal 🩷 you are so strong we all are so strong. Sending love 💞

[@MichelleGia]

I’m so sorry to hear:(( but yes we are🥹 wishing you love and strength❤️

[@aruuu06]

@@MichelleGia ❤❤

[@woahpaolo]

you've got this!! you're about to have the best year of your life

[@MichelleGia]

Thanks Paolo🥺 needed that❤️ hope you’re well

[@angelacastro1484]

Thank you so much for this video. I'm going through a series of bad situations at this moment and I understand how scary it is to think that things can get worse, but deep in my heart, I know that after the rain the sun will shine again, and after this, I will be stronger, and more capable of achieving all I want in my life. This is not failure just redirection 🙌🏼✨

[@kats2427]

so mang things resonant with me at this point when i turned 20 which friends, family, school, and working are a mess. I'm glad you shared your experience made me feel that i am not alone !

[@MichelleGia]

Youre def not alone🫶🏼 sending you love and strength❤️

[@suzdelly]

okay girl... we lived the same life LOL. the only difference was that i got married and moved out, so i had to keep going. I lost my grandfather and my dog within 2 weeks of each other back in April, and had a falling out with 2 friends. I understand so deeply. I am so sorry you went through it. I feel like now that my wedding is done and I'm finally settled into my new house, I can actually heal... it was very difficult to keep going. But it always works out in the end. I am so happy to see and hear that you are doing better! Thank you for sharing your story with us - I know that in itself can be so difficult to do.

[@MichelleGia]

Omg:( I'm so so sorry to hear that girl. You are so strong and I'm so glad to hear that things have been working themselves out for you

[@rice_dish]

your videos are always so comforting. a mix of a personal vlog, deep introspection and gorgeous videography/editing to go with it.. it's so great to see your creativity and showing us how and what you've learned!! so inspiring, truly.

[@MichelleGia]

Thank you so much❤️ that really means a lot:)

[@kindaeng]

omg this hits the sweet spot, an exact explanation of the state i am currently in. thank you so much for sharing ❤

[@MichelleGia]

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through it:( sending you lots of love and wishing you well❤️

[@LittleFlame93]

It’s really comforting to hear that things got better for you over time. It’s easy to feel stuck when you're in a tough place, but knowing that healing is possible, even if it’s gradual, gives me hope. I appreciate your encouragement-it reminds me that even the hardest moments can lead to growth. Wishing you continued peace and happiness on your journey!

[@trishaaa5925]

The start of the video just made me relate so much it just hits to the heart.

[@MichelleGia]

😔🫶🏼🫶🏼 wishing you well rn

[@trishaaa5925]

@ 🫂🫂🤍

[@JenniferKhuu12]

Always such a pleasure to see an upload from you, Michelle. This has been a super challenging year for me and I can't help but compare myself now to myself this time last year and feel like I'm so behind even though I thought I was putting in the work to be my best self. It really does feel like I'm constantly grieving. Thank you for your vulnerability and for the reminder that we're all just trying our best and things will work out because they always do.

[@MichelleGia]

Hi Jenn🥺 I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through a similar thing:( I feel you completely girl, and I'm wishing you all the best during this time❤️ I know you're gonna push through, and I believe in you so much. I hope the days ahead bring you nothing but love and healing:)

[@xCiaraLouisexx]

I’m just about to leave the job that doesn’t align with my goals! So scary but I’m ready for the next chapter I’m not in a rut anymore. Thank you for this ❤

[@MichelleGia]

of course

[@Mirinmusic]

6:00 was the minute that explains my situation right now..thanks for the validation ❤

[@MichelleGia]

Of course❤️ wishing you well

[@asailorsvoyage]

Omg. I needed this video. Last year I lost my dog of 15 years and my grandma who was my best friend. Thank you ❤

[@MichelleGia]

omg i am so sorry:( i'm wishing you love and healing❤️

[@asailorsvoyage]

@@MichelleGiayou as well ❤️

[@esteryna]

I really needed this. Thank you so much

[@MichelleGia]

of course

[@hales20]

I literally love your videos so much they are so comforting

[@MichelleGia]

Thank you so much🥺🫶🏼I’m happy you enjoy them

[@alexxcendejas967]

Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today. You matter. You're important. You're loved & your presence on this earth makes a difference whether you see it or not.

[@truepolly]

Michelle, You have grown so much and I am super proud of you! Always keep that good vibes on you no matter what ❤

[@MichelleGia]

thank youuu😭❤️ your support means everything

[@RijaZaman]

“but its a whole other thing to compare yourself to who you used to be” Never related to something this bad.

[@MichelleGia]

😔😣

[@hayatiyly]

michelle, you are truly a blessing

[@MichelleGia]

❤️❤️

[@luzlalala9233]

last year was one of the worst years i have had and i havent had time to recover and now it’s starting all over again

[@MichelleGia]

im so sorry:( please keep pushing forward, sending you lots of love and strength❤️

[@zionroberts6592]

I’m feeling Thiss. I’m mentally depressed and miserable. Just want get out but tonight I feel like I got my spark back a little. Cause now I’m drawing again. I have not drawed anything since 2023. I’m just glad something told me to believe in myself.

[@olayinkaowonifari3168]

Omgg, you just described how I’ve been feeling this year. I feel so seen lol. Thank you for this video💗

[@MichelleGia]

of course❤️ wishing you better days ahead:)

[@MarianaFerreira-l1f]

After an argument with my parents I fell into depression (Im prone to it bipolar depression)as of now I feel exactly how you described in the video for now two months it feels like my joyful self was erased I just feel numbness.It feels good not to be alone but I wish you weren't going through this.Thank you so much for this video it will keep me warm till I recover from this

[@michaelaspiazu]

i love you new family member and will always support you no matter what

[@jelemil]

I’d love to hear more about this and how you climbed out. I can fully relate ❤

[@MichelleGia]

I can try to one day:) It definitely was a gradual process so I’m not really sure if I can articulate exactly what it was that helped

[@mamulya878]

I feel heard and so understood, somehow I am not able to share how i feel and this rut feeling with ny friends, and all the parts of my life feels like a burden. But it seems nice to see and hear other's stories and how they are trying/willing to get back brings me hope. Maybe soon I'll start feeling like myself but for now i feel like i have been losing every part of me slowing and im just stuck in the freeze response. I really need to get out of it but some how I'm not sure how to do so :')

[@MichelleGia]

I understand completely, you are not alone and I'm wishing you all the best on this journey. You're gonna get through this, I believe in you!❤️ Sending you lots of love during this time

[@mamulya878]

@@MichelleGia means a lott, thank you for the comforting videos, wait for more! And a newbie here

[@spencerswaggington]

you're doing well michelle !! always pray and never give up. take care of yourself and be kind to yourself too. keep hope alive :)

[@MichelleGia]

Thank you for the kind words:) needed that, wishing you well

[@nikolailumo]

thank you for this ❤

[@bak4tawarr]

Omggggg 😭how can we be in same situation but this make me feel m not alone lost my loved ones i never imagine and try alot still cant get out of sadness push my self alot cut of myself from people but still feel smthn and failing in studies everything and failing in dreams try alot do rest alot still drained

[@MichelleGia]

im so sorry🥺 you are never alone, I understand you completely. I know its hard but just keep pushing through. Sending you love and strength❤️

[@laurenbrowning1380]

as someone currently in the thick of it, thank you for sharing this. this video helped me to feel seen and encouraged me to keep going 🤎

[@MichelleGia]

I’m so glad it helped you! You’re amazing for pushing through ❤️

[@vitoriaalvesap]

i just adore your videos so much!

[@MichelleGia]

thank you so much🥹🫶🏼

[@jeisylim8384]

Im glad someone talked about it

[@MichelleGia]

🫶🏼

[@luciadeguzman9992]

This video found me - thank you.

[@MichelleGia]

🫶🏼🫶🏼

[@caxhd8047]

You’re so close to 100k subs! 2025 is your year! Keep striving for the bigger picture❤️🌎

[@morningsausages]

ughh we need to normalize accidentally joining cults 😮‍💨🤣🤣 ..Michelle, it's crazy how emotionally intelligent you are for your age. they weren't lying when they said girls grow up faster than boys 🙈😭 you seem to have already figured out big life-trajectory-determining problems that took me the best part of a decade. i'm grateful you shared this story. and i don't know if this YT channel is "the thing" you're building, or if it's something else, but.. please keep posting 😂😭 we love you! ❤

[@MichelleGia]

LMAOOO seriously, it's not talked about enough😭 Thank you for the thoughtful words, and thank you for listening to my story:) I'm glad you enjoyed the video! Haha I do love youtube, but I am working on some projects outside of it, I will try to keep posting for as long as I can🤭 Hope all is well with you, sending lots of love!

[@morningsausages]

@@MichelleGia awesome. well you clearly have the creative talents (writing, videography etc), no doubt. whatever it is, good luck & i hope you can share it with us one day! ❤❤

[@ifrakhankhattak6458]

I am stuck in this situation and innmy country there is no such thing as mental health today this video came in front of me and bow l feel like l am bot alone and thia is a real thing

[@alexxcendejas967]

Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today. You matter. You're important. You're loved And your presence on this earth makes a difference whether you see it or not.

[@MichelleGia]

❤️❤️🫶🏼

[@vanessabellissimo350]

2024 worst year / best year of my love needed to lose myself to finaly love myself

[@MichelleGia]

exactly❤️❤️sending you love

[@Barbiejoooo]

Hey, I have also been in a rut ever since I graduated from high school. The transition from high school to university was rough for me. I literally could not concentrate on my studies because at the time I just looked at postsecondary as an option for people who want to become a doctor, engineer, lawyer etc. As of 2024 I am still in the same position, I just feel so unmotivated to study even though I commit myself to putting effort into my assignments. I was once an active and happy person in school because of all of my friends I got to interact with. I enjoyed studying with my classmates and all the memories that were made during that time. Now that I am currently 20 years old I am slowly taking action on improving myself on a daily basis without any distractions getting in the way. :)😊 I just want you to know that you are not alone in this situation and that it is ok to feel down about things because that is how I feel right now even though I look happy when I am around my friends and family...

[@MichelleGia]

Thank you for sharing your story, it's really great to hear that you're working on improving yourself ❤️ I was in the same position as you, post-secondary really took a lot out of me and put me in a really bad spot. Sending you lots of love and strength:)

[@Vvs4x]

So relatable !!

[@MichelleGia]

😔🫶🏼

[@diarmidthomson7878]

needed this :)

[@MichelleGia]

🫶🏼

[@gina9517]

2023 was terrible for me from May till September. And 2024 has been even worse from May till now😅 I have no clue why my life always takes a downward path towards May/June

[@MichelleGia]

im so sorry to hear:( sending you love and strength

[@gardenlove7639]

Past 10 days were just like this

[@MichelleGia]

😔sending you love❤️

[@JasonWason]

Wow camera angles be going crazy 📸📸📸📸📸📸📸📸📸📸📸

[@MichelleGia]

LMAOOO

[@MichelleGia]

Ok…

[@coumbandiii]

Literally perfect time. I’m going thru a major rut rn🥲 I resonated with every part, like wheres the person I worked so hard to become. Lost alot of people as well, our stories are too similar. I fr thought I was cursed or it was some evil eye going on😂 Thanks for sharing your story and being real.❤

[@MichelleGia]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this:( and no literally, I thought someone evil eyed me too LMAO😭 sending you so much love though❤️

[@KulwantKaur-n3w]

Hi really sorry for your loss I have question about acne scars how does it go away I have skin kind of scars I having last 2-3 years

[@georgias8099]

Society's got it wrong since forever. We've mastered the earth a long time ago, and we're capable of solving all our problems. The only threat to ourselves is each other. The reason people are miserable is because the mindless race to wealth, power, and status has erased our ability to appreciate what truly matters. The beauty in the little things, making everything we do as meaningful as possible, and having meaningful connections with people, nature, the world around us.

[@roosjeframboosje4892]

Okay this is so random but I have to tell you this.. Your nose is GORGEOUS 🥹. Sorry if this is a weird compliment but you’re just so pretty ❤!!!

[@MichelleGia]

Omg so sweet🥺 thank you so much, I'm super self-conscious my nose haha, so that was vv much appreciated😭❤️

[@brbapappa]

If you're not building your own dream, somebody will hire you to build theirs.

[@MichelleGia]

Exactly🥺

[@Xyxyr]

It’s the first time I’ve heard “Rut” do you mean a depressive episode? Anyway, I liked to vide and as someone who has depressive episodes it’s relatable ❤

[@FatTonyTheSkipper]

What should we all do? Lets follow a step by step

[@jiac5193]

related so hard to every word in your intro 😔

[@MichelleGia]

im so sorry:( sending you lots of love and strength

[@LeanderMathias]

You're a strong girl 😍😍😍

[@elizabethod]

Take time to yourself ❤

[@MichelleGia]

❤️❤️

[@dunphy1238]

I have been in a rut since 2019 LMAO

[@MichelleGia]

I’m sorry:( Sending you love😭

[@georgias8099]

If life was meant to be suffering, why was it so easy for humans to master the earth and there are no alien threats despite the odds? Think about it

[@Jerry-yy5gu]

Love girl! Praying Jesus’ loving arms around u! He always helps me ❤

[@MichelleGia]

❤️❤️❤️

[@KEVPLATE]

🫡

[@MichelleGia]

🫡

[@joannabusinessaccount7293]

Looking at the realities of young people - one word. Economic privilege. If you had to pay for a roof over your head, food on the table, clothing on your back, medicine and surgery for your illness, you would not have the luxury of being able to sleep and surf all day in your bed. Sorry. Not feeling sorry for you guys.

[@kleinesalaska666]

The thing about comparison is , I Compare myself to onlyfans Models because they are pretty and so on… because I think in my regular Job I‘m nothing… but i have enough confidence as a Body and vehicle builder 😅 thank you for this Video 🎗️

[@MichelleGia]

Of course:) thank you for watching and sharing your thoughts

[@Perseverance-EJ]

Can i be honest with you for just this one time ? I totally understand how you feel tbh i dont even know how i stumbled on your page BUT i can hear a theme in what your saying. Here is my idea, and its just an idea i could definitely be wrong when we focus so much on our own internal state or self worth or identity, what WE feel and HOW WE think and what WE are going through, we become void and depressed. I know this sounds silly but i think spending time in nature, a retirement home, a spa, or a cat cafe or humane society may help you change your perspective. Life is all about perspective, instead of « why is this happening to me think what is God trying to do for me or what is growing within me ? Doing something for the homeless and dont post it. Give and share kindness. It may heal the soul. I hope and know youll find your out champ! 💪🏾

[@Pio-wn5bw]

thanks for another great video michelle! as i said in my previous comment, they always feel like a warm hug. the message at the end made me feel both less alone and a little (🤏🏼) more hopeful that things will work out one day. been living w depression for 3 years now, and it's been an exhausting journey. some days, on the ones when i actually want things to get better (since most of them are spent exactly like the quote around 1:11 "i didnt see any light at the end of the tunnel. nor was i even bothered to look for it"), all i need is for someone to tell me to trust that things do actually get better. and this video was just what i needed today. so i truly appreciate your vulnerability - it's helped at least one person ◡̈ 🫂

[@MichelleGia]

of course! thank you so much for taking to time to write such a thoughtful and kind comment, it means so much:) I understand how tough it can be, but I believe in you and I hope you never lose hope❤️ Sending you lots of love and strength on your healing journey.

[@Icewallowmen]

just came here to say I read "nut' not rut.

[@MichelleGia]

LMAOOO i respect that

[@everythingisseverything]

thank you for making this video🤍you basically explained everything I’ve been feeling lol

[@MichelleGia]

Glad it resonated🫶🏼 sending you love

[@shahnazparvin5055]

I can relate with you. This year has not been kind to me. Difficulties keep coming one after another to the point that I don't even get the time to process properly. I just hope God has some mercy on me. Btw glad that you're doing ok now.🤍

[@MichelleGia]

I'm so sorry to hear:( you are not alone, I hope you never loose hope. Sending lots of love your way. I hope things will work themselves out for you in time❤️

[@hayatiyly]

michelle, you are truly a blessing