Reflections - Speedpaint

[@womp9809]

I LOVE UR ART SO MUCH U NEED MORE SUBSCRIBERS!!!!

[@Fasfinnvard]

Wow that's awsome one of the best i have saw!

[@SkylaFoxu]

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[@gretaferrari5949]

How do you learn painting like this? Amazing!!!

[@DaMooCow5000]

I LOVE THIS!!!!!

[@victoriasipisado7640]

I'm self-conscious and am scared of what people would say if I was... in a bikini......... I've stopped eating a lot and have downloaded a lot of phone apps about how to live a healthy life... but... I don't know anything else what would make me happy... And I'm scared... I ignore what's real and try to be the best me I can be, but somehow I never change how I feel about myself.... Growing up I was bullied... and those memories are stuck like super-glue and a scar on the mouth... they come back, no matter how hard I ignore them, no matter where I go, no matter what situation or time or month, they are always there... like that feeling of eyes never leaving your back even though you're alone... even when you've succeed at something great, they're there... waiting... watching my every move until they know they can pounce on me like a Tiger out of nowhere... I'm never able to see or hear them coming, and they're even in my dreams... therapy doesn't help... I've tried that already... I've rejected the idea of medication, because I don't know what could be in them that could possibly be dangerous for me. Mum says I'm skinny-as, but I don't believe her... whenever I go to the pools I'm either in a one-piece or board sorts and rashie... but that never changes how I feel, and I turn it off... but not completely, because even when I'm having fun, I feel like I'm being watched... like everyone thinks I'm a sore loser but they're just pretending to be my friends and have a good time rather than scolding me and calling me names. It's as if I'm slowly drowning in a pool of Acid and everyone's just laughing and ignoring me, having a good time but still they know that I'm there... it's as if I'm a wall trying to talk, but nobody can hear me when they write mean things over and over and no-one makes any attempt to clean up the mess they made... I forgive and forgive, but nothing has changed... never. And so I wait... I give out advice as if I'm a Mechanical Therapist, but I never listen... the only times I do listen is when someone else gives me advice... but there aren't very many people like that nowadays... and I've only found one or maybe two other people who are like me in that way. They compliment me, but I never believe the compliments... I always believe that they're for someone who could possibly look like me, but that she isn't me... and she may never be me.... I don't want her to be me... I reject her. Dishonor her... shun her... hurt her and call her names... but she's always there... waiting.... sitting by the pond, playing with the fishes... she begs me to let her in, but I turn away... I feel sad, but I still go on doing so... she cries and cries to let her into my life, but I feel like I have to keep the door shut... I feel like I need to keep the door shut, because it's how I've always been... it's the only way I know how to survive in this world. I don't show my true emotions, because I don't want to be in the middle of the spotlight... I don't like too much attention, but the moment I show one bit of my true emotion, they're on me like a bucket of seeds versus a whole lotta Maggies... people pecking at me, asking me questions, going near me, hugging me, squishing me and I can't stand it. Even when I say "I wanna be alone" they won't leave me alone... they follow me like a love-sick puppy, stuck to me like a leech.... I never tell anyone, because they just ignore me. I have shut off most of my emotions, but at times like these they come rushing back as if I was dunked underwater by a wave and I don't know where the surface is... Crikey... I'm sorry to have bothered you with this... I'm such an idiot...

[@athenas_atheneum]

Victoria Sipisado Dear girl, you are beautiful. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I know why you took the time to type this. A shout in the darkness for some hope of light. I have been there, years ago when I was around your age. This world is brutal. You typed things that I have thought and felt but never said.I've been where you are. Honestly, I got sick of it. I stopped socializing because of it. Society and I don't mix. They pushed me away at the same time, I walked out. I deal with zero drama about meaningless things. I can count my friends and adult family members I still talk to on one hand. It doesn't even bother me anymore. There's nothing wrong with you and you are not an idiot. There is something very wrong with the world we live in. Tons of people don't see this world for the sick and dying thing it is. Some do, and if you haven't figured out just what is wrong with the world yet, please use my channel, playlists and subscriptions to gain a more accurate perspective. God loves you. Jesus loves you. I love you. I don't have to know you to understand and feel what you're going through, the internal suffering. I also don't have to know you to love you as a person, a beloved sister in Christ. Doesn't matter if you know him now or not, He knows and loves you. He will patiently wait for you like the perfect Groom. Waiting for you to be ready to embrace the love of the Father, which is the most powerful of all love. He has you, He has a plan for your life better than anything you can come up with. If you wanted to know if anyone genuinely cares, now you know. Even if you are in the lowest of lows, and you have absolutely nothing and seemingly no one.... God is there. He sees you at that lowest point and loves you through it. Pulls you up out of it. The struggle of living this life will never go away but the way you see and feel the struggle can change by knowing that you are not alone and you are loved by our Father in heaven. His love for you, will never die. You can email me if you want, if ever you need to talk. God bless you dear, in Jesus name. Peace. [e-mail]

[@womp9809]

I also like how you drew a bit of belly roll that shows not everybody has to be skinny to be beautiful 😁😁😁👌👌👌

[@victoriasipisado7640]

I.... I'm self-conscious....

[@womp9809]

Don't be! If someone try's to bring you down don't let them show u are stronger Victoria! 😜

[@victoriasipisado7640]

Potato Girl I wish I was at times... mentally, physically, spiritually and psychologically.... I'm unbalanced in all those sections... I can't stay focused on one thing, I have agitated Asthma and don't wanna make it worse, I barely have any emotions left and I can't lift the heavy weights like Mum can, even though she has medical issues and isn't really supposed to be lifting heavy stuff...

[@victoriasipisado7640]

I also have no clue how to heal my spiritual side... I'm not experienced in that part yet and need someone to help... but there's no-one I can trust...

[@womp9809]

Omg i am so sorry my dad got into an accident and it was rlly bad he almost had to be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life but when something bad happens dont let it stop doing things u love.You should find something you enjoy to keep u distracted from all the stress

[@flesh_clock]

Do u like undertale because that looks like undyne