Ren Ft. Bibi - Crutch

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This was shot with no budget at the end of a frickin ' freezing October, felt like I was going to get hypothermia lying on cold slate for a few hours, serious case of mind over matter but so happy with how it turned out :) The song came about after a nervous breakdown following lots of visits to emergency room after some scary health problems. It's a song for anybody who has faced any kind of mental challenges, depression, anxiety, or health struggles while in a relationship and all the fears that come along for the ride with that. It is also a song for the courageous and wonderful people who support their other halves, family or friends during times of crisis :) In whatever context I hope my music can help take some of the weight from anyone suffering and help people feel less alone.
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[@davidmacpherson4673]

I’m 66 years old Ren , never have I wanted an artist to make it to the top more , I love your creativity and your spirit, thank you

[@Lulabee2024]

I believe he's "an old soul" in every sense of the phrase ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@83_is_the_magic_number...]

As a fifties baby, I have lived through rock'n'roll, prog, glam rock, punk, modern romance, mind numbing pop and more. Ren's ability to write and perform at such pace is awesome. A big fan of watching the fun busking of the Big Push and the way that they have built up such a local fanbase. Their sell out gigs in Brighton are a sign of how much they are appreciated. Ren... thank you for 'Hi Ren' and the masive portfolio of socio-punk and deep psycho strained music. Lovin' it.

[@sanelliott7695]

Me too but I truly believe that doesn't matter to Ren....true artist ❤️

[@davidjarvie9546]

I agree totally as a 61 year old.🇬🇧👍

[@KatieM786]

💯

[@sircoynie]

Another week, another me obsessing over a different Ren song. This man’s body of work is giving like no other that I have found in at least the last 10 years. You special special man, please keep blessing us with your art.

[@themetalheadhippi]

100% agreed

[@SplashOfGreen]

Yeah Where the hell did this come from?! 😮

[@themetalheadhippi]

Splash of green. Wherever it is, im so fucking happy about it. Ren is a blessing to the 🌎

[@PO-tc1fw]

you nailed it

[@SplashOfGreen]

@@themetalheadhippi seriously! He improves my day to day.. no joke. Just by listening to his music and marveling in his artistic mind!

[@RenMakesMusic]

Maybe if I move, maybe my troubles wont follow me I've got none to loose cause everything turned to dust around me my hope it got so bruised cause circumstance held me and it drowned me I'm searching for the glue To try and fix these broken things around me My love if I loose my mind i'd be so ashamed if you witnessed I try my best for you to try and keep my head but my god its slipping an unspoken truth...i feel my body dying as the clock keeps ticking and everything I knew is painted with a fear that its all for nothing Could I interrupt? if the weight should get too heavy ill help hold this burden ill walk with you my love Into the fires of hell if it should ease the burning but please don't loose your trust the man i know is brave so don't you dare say you're folding I can be your crutch until we both grow old and the curtains closing Maybe if I move maybe my troubles wont follow me my love I give to you every single inch of my soul while it bleeds baby im confused but i know in your arms i find relief Baby if I loose my mind would you stay with me?

[@liljabjarkar]

I stumbled on to live street performance in Brighton in October and bought your cd...great job

[@katieguyan7224]

Are u single yet 😁

[@katieguyan7224]

💞💝💞

[@shahnawaazbatliwala9174]

You've got great vibes...Great Art! A fan of yours...Hope to cross roads!

[@claudia8870]

Art.

[@janegill-pl5kz]

I'm a 50 year old woman. I stopped listening to the radio a few years ago. Apart from an odd song that's catchy or a rare gem that crops up from time to time. I havn't really engaged in modern music. Thought I was just getting old, especially what I hear my own parents when I say 'music these days is rubbish' 😅 I don't even remember how I came across Ren. But it was only 2 weeks ago. Since then everything has changed. I've been so deep in the rabbit hole and still finding new gems every day. I'm listening to Ren and only Ren right now. There's not one track that I have found that hasn't blown me away. Not a single filler or 'meh' tune that I want to skip through. I find a new favourite everyday and then when I go back to ' Hi Ren' or chalk outlines or what you want, the hunger, love music 1 2 and 3 etc etc etc....I could list them all. I'm in awe all over again. I only discovered this one today and I'm listening to it with tears in my eyes. The emotion, message, passion and talent just blew me away. I've been 'numb' for so long and this... as well as the rest of his music has made me feel deep powerful emotions that I thought I couldn't feel anymore. Music has changed for me and Ren is just the most powerful and important musician, not only in a generation but in many generations. I can't put into words how I feel or how he has managed to make me fall in love with music again.

[@ECCENTRICERIC69]

Beautiful words Jane, So many new Ren fans share the same sentiments!

[@janettahiri1160]

Similar. I'm 53 and recently separated after 20 years. I need music to keep my feet on the ground through this, but every thing else just seemed like jelly with no substance. Ren and also Chinchilla have completely dominated my playlist ever since hearing Hi Ren. It astounds me that this guys music appeals so much to all the generations. Sign of a great artist.

[@ewganhoff]

Love your comment❤❤❤

[@SleepingLionUK]

💯💯👏👏👏❤❤❤❤❤

[@puppenbuhnebauchkribbeln1183]

👌🏼

[@katrinakent1684]

Man, I swear I fall in love with Ren a little more with every video I watch.

[@kimbennett3014]

He's a goddamn genius.

[@paulineb9800]

Same

[@JoH4LH44]

Don’t we all. ❤

[@The11susan11]

6 yrs ago? I just fell in 3 months ago. A lyrical genious, guitarist, innovator, genre breaking, musicality beyond comprehension, story teller, actor, AND MAJORITY OF HIS VIDEOS ARE LIVE WOW... Sighs... REN YOU ROCK ON ALL LEVELS

[@steffenlee3768]

I didn't know his videos are live! That's fucking amazing that he can create such beautiful art all in one take. Everything he does is such a masterpiece, from his music, to his vocals, and especially to his videos. There's just an element he uses to tie all three together so beautifully... And am I the only one that thinks Ren is kinda hot? I can't be.

[@leeloulg1883]

​@@steffenlee3768 non, tu n'es pas le seul,😊 Ren est effectivement "très" sexy 😁😊

[@newspapertaxis1]

Yea..I fell in about 2 months ago......Can't believe I missed this guy!!! They don't come around like this often! Off the hook!! I'm amazed at his talent!!! Glad I got on board!!!!

[@PainReigns125]

11 years ago. I fell in several months ago. Gonna listen to his yt in order amd get to hunting. He is a special type of artist. The kind where the easel and the canvas are part of the art.

[@anonglakmoonwicha2726]

Today's Sunday... I heard him for the first time on Wednesday... my lip has done a lot of wobbling in 5 days.

[@bl00d_hound]

I can't for the life of me understand why he isn't the biggest artist on earth . Ren is a musical & lyrical genius and a gift to us all.

[@annmonica2253]

Singers who can't tour or do appearances don't earn enough money for the music industry money grabbers. He was signed by Sony but they let him go years ago.

[@RLD983]

It's not about the riches or being known to the world. He's feeding us mentally messed up souls, music and stories that connect with our hearts. He's reaching the ones that needs to hear his music. We are all mentally messed up in some way. I hope you find joy today

[@mandyshaila1]

Agreed. ❤

[@Del3691]

He is, in my head at least, and I'm pretty damn sure I'm not the only one thinking that way.

[@Atilakus]

He will be!

[@hollinkarelja7564]

this is one of the most unseen ren songs. It did not show up as recommended for a long while. But its maybe one of his absolute best. Just perfectly stunning. Like all of his songs, it leaves you in awe of the feelings it invokes.

[@alysonstrang948]

Totally agree 💐

[@aguywithparkinsonsplays6397]

I am 41 years old, with Parkinson’s disease and just separated from the woman I thought would put me in the ground… this song sums up my feelings perfectly…

[@Lynnie_14]

Another one that hits home for me is Penitence Ft Molly McKinna 💔 beautiful but sad 😢

[@sandradee6029]

I'm truly sorry 😞

[@lk2275]

I can relate. I am so sorry.

[@strive4impact]

Sending so much love your way. 44 here with a pituitary tumor in a state of active treatment. Fortunately, not cancer. I'm just sending so much ❤ your way for comfort and the patience life is asking of you.

[@strive4impact]

Patience, by Ren, is a good one, if you haven't heard it. Had it on repeat yesterday for quite a while.

[@jmblp119]

“Suicide” bought me here. After 4 months of diving headfirst into the Reniverse.. 79 tracks on my Spotify playlist, love YTing busking and reaction vids, and watch his interviews.. tonight I’ve been moved in a new way.. again. In a week, it’s really bought something. Synchronicity is so real. I spent my birthday alone yesterday. I haven’t felt darkness like this week in a while. And the last few hours has shifted my focus. Or to paraphrase “Hi Ren”.. I can feel the pendulum is swinging back to the light, because of what Ren has given. The dance is easier. I don’t quite know why or how, but Ren lifts me, and speaks to me, like nothing I’ve known. Ren, as someone with a pretty large musical variety soundtrack of life.. you cover all bases, you are a creative genius like no other, your talent in every possible area, unmatched, and I honestly believe the way you can cut through the fog and get real with people, there’s never been anything like it. And it’s not just the music/storytelling/videography I’m mad blown away by. With great talent, comes great power, comes great responsibility.. and I have every faith and confidence that you Sir are a gem for our time. Here for your moment, at a moment in the worlds history, and I really think it needs you. Thank you for what you do, what you put into it, and I know you have a team/friends around supporting and working with you, so thank you to them as well. You are all doing something quite magical. I genuinely believe we are witnessing a “never before/never again” artist making his way to infamy and I’m so gassed to be here for the ride. All power to ya Ren 👊🏼

[@amymbeauty8765]

Holy shit Ren. Everytime I jump into another one of your songs for the first time, I think I'm fully prepared for what you'll deliver straight into my very essence, and every time, I'm actually not prepared at all! This one was a gut puch in the best of ways. Absolutely beautiful Ren. Thank you for laying yourself bare and creating these masterpieces that connect us all on such a raw, human level.

[@nualakay4420]

Truth 😮

[@rockynason6500]

Amazing

[@Lynnie_14]

I can't stop watching it - it's incredible- as an ex dancer I can see a contemporary stage performance. POV - Someone should be developing a RENaissance theatrical stage performance. I'd sit glued to that! ❤❤❤

[@christyheffernan1248]

The rabbit hole is so very deep.

[@keithmallarkey8786]

Just realised I stopped breathing at around 2:24 when the guitar kicked in. No song has done that to me since I first heard Lead Zeppelin III when I was a kid!

[@aranstuparyk1559]

Dammit, Ren. I am never quite prepared for my first viewing of your work. Please don't stop challenging us.

[@Tibbles777]

It is sad that Ren and Bibi broke up, can feel the pain they went through in this song

[@Just-Schizo]

I'm schizophrenic, so I episodically lose my mind. And over time I've gotten sicker and sicker. The fear of losing your mind and not finding your way back is intense. So this really spoke to me. As it is now I never really come out of it. But I still have waves of it being worse than normal. The need for no one to see you lose your mind and the desperation really comes through in this. It's so accurate. Thank you for making art about things no one wants to talk about. (and not just this either. Look at Violets tale for example.)

[@georginaeden9685]

One of Ren's most underrated songs for sure....should have so many more views 🥺

[@susiejo143]

Ikr I was stunned!

[@davidjarvie9546]

It will reach many now.great song and maybe he should do a remix an update for todays listener. 🇬🇧👍

[@jonasmandersson]

It soon will.

[@OneLove101.]

He will be seen now. He was merely an undiscovered talent by many. Now he will finally gain the recognition and admiration he deserves ♥️🙌🏼

[@rockynason6500]

Absolutely Amazing 🇺🇸

[@strive4impact]

That moment when the crutch is just gone... wow. That's the raw realness of what we're asked to face in this life.

[@amydecker5971]

Crazy that someone can be creating art like this for years, but it's only discovered by chance or coincidence. So glad I found it (thanks to Tim Ferriss's newsletter!). Much respect to you, Ren. The Jack White turn this song takes is searing and beautiful.

[@georginaeden9685]

I forgot to breathe during that......lost for words....just beautiful.

[@heather1667]

ME ALSO took my breath away i gasp

[@ricktorzynski1794]

How did I miss this song?!?!? Clearly shows Ren's early genius period.

[@sorashell]

I've been married to the most wonderful man in the world for 23 years. He suffers from anxiety, depression and a variety of physical ailments. This song hit hard for me, Ren. Thank you for giving a voice for so many people. It's appreciated, and you are jaw droppingly talented. Many blessings to you and yours. ❤

[@clairme_5865]

Oh damn it, I thought by now I'd seen all of the Ren songs that were going to make me cry.

[@AzBabyGirl]

My good god. That really was art. So brutally raw and personal, that it’s almost uncomfortable to watch but also beautiful. So much talent, but so much pain for a man who was just a boy when your trials started. If you ever release a book of your story, I’d snatch it off the shelves just to know how your thoughts work.

[@heather1667]

a journal is good for your soul Run and it helps keep up with your health for notes if needed later

[@itsniknut333]

Dude. Everything you do is a f*cking masterpiece and that's not exaggerating

[@chanchan-me2jc]

Master piece is an understatement ❤️ REVOLUTIONARY!! They don't come around to often.

[@boshraissa5962]

100% true.

[@clintonmoore5833]

Well put couldn't agree more just wow that ren wow brilliant

[@nualakay4420]

The truth.

[@bobbycollins6783]

F**k me this is so powerful. 6 years ago. another Ren gem I've only just seen. He really is in his a league of his own.

[@kristinolafsen3276]

Holy hell….his music hits like nothing else…❤️

[@wellnessbeatsreacts]

Oh fuck, I wasn't ready for that. That was so beautiful, but I'm constantly in awe of this man that can do what he does every day. I can't imagine the extreme pain and also trying to get your art out to everyone that will listen at the same time. I don't know how he does all this, but it's incredible. 🖤

[@BenjaminShort-u4l]

My god Ren, everything you've done in your music mimics my girlfriend and I . Accept she's the one suffering the plight of the medical system. It's like looking into a a mirror. Knowing that we are not alone is a massive comfort to us both. All we can say is thankyou. Words alone cannot describe what we're all going through. Your music, your insight says so much that many others would not understand. Each night we sync our head phones hold hands ,kiss ,smile,cry and connect with your music. The raw truth in your music,is a lifeline for us both. We are now in the third year of our search. Thankyou from Tess and Ben to you REN❤

[@ChrisLawton66]

The courage this man has to show himself so intimately on both the outside and in. Stunning.

[@judibecker7833]

Ren, your talent speaks for itself. I absolutely love the raw honesty in your music. You put it all out there, giving people who are having the same experiences a way to express what they are going through. I am a huge fan and am praying for healing of your mind, body, and spirit. Being misdiagnosed is trauma. Thank you for sharing your journey in the most spectacularly vulnerable and creative way.

[@Bones2764]

PROTECT REN AT ALL COSTS! Genius like Ren must be preserved and shared with the world.

[@christyheffernan1248]

❤️❤️❤️

[@HaleyMac912]

This song reminds me of the toxic and codependent relationship I was in with my ex. for a decade, I wish him the absolute best, but were two people that didn't know how to live. struggling side by side. Unfortunately, he's still lost in the world, but I hope one day he can heal., for the sake of my twins. However, the passion reminds me of the closeness between my husband and I over the last ten years with his ability to bring me out of the dark whenever I've ended up there, I know without a doubt, I'm not alone anymore; he even took on the role of father for my girls when they were a year old and got along with my ex well.

[@Nonniewantsmore]

Ren, a 62 yr old gran in the US just discovered you like most of us with Hi Ren. I’ve loved all that I have seen and wish for you health and healing during this difficult time. It looks like you are moving in the right direction now and the possibilities for you are endless. You are so much more than a guy with a guitar. You are a man with a message. ❤️🙏🏻❤️

[@iarumasxx]

He's touching people with his music on so many levels; I can't keep up, but I know I have to have more. Listening to his music is like therapy for me: triggering, reassuring, explaining, reassuring and healing. This generation more than any other needs this music.

[@agnespaterson6901]

This broke my heart. Sat here crying. Its beautiful and sad at the same time. 😢❤

[@Lynnie_14]

I'm binge watching Ren's videos - again! Pretty sure I'm addicted at this point. Ren's music has permanent occupancy in my mind from the minute I wake up till I force myself to sleep. Guys! I've started rapping bars at the supermarket and im 58!! 😅 I love The Hunger, Genesis, Illest of our Time, Sick Boi...... Another beautiful one I'm loving is Penitence ft Molly McKinna ♥️

[@nidaladil4150]

Same here ✋😅

[@heather1667]

glad im not alone ,,, its a wonderful feeling isn't it ,, its called LOVE HOPE FREEDOM RELIEF

[@lea88pu]

😄 So cute ❤

[@nataliehughes6818]

All the Ren songs that i've loved diving into, clicking that watch button with glee but with this one i felt some apprehension. Now i think i understand why. I felt this in my soul. Just beautiful, everything about it. We see you Ren. In loosing it you said "i'm the one to make the world look" (or something like that)...finally the world is seeing you and you are a gift that we didn't know we needed. Thank you doesn't come close. Now the wait for the reactors to discover "Crutch". This should be everywhere.

[@andyhollister4610]

Wasn't sure how to word my comment but you nailed it for me

[@lisastevens2607]

I think my heart just broke.

[@suesee4855]

Holy shit.That was hard to even watch, let alone go through... Brutally brilliant. So glad you found what it takes to survive. Much love ❤️ Sue

[@samirawyrd4796]

I've discovered Ren 4 days ago... 1st i've listened to just the one song, thinking that if i listened another, he would loose his magic for me, it happens sometimes... then I clicked another, had that on repeat for a while, because I was convinced it was my new favourite song, feeling courageous now, I clicked this one. Only heard it once so far and even if it close to midnight, I will hear it a few times more.

[@dosdan]

Concerning the "empty hands" at the end: this is an indication that the pressure of his debilitating illness split the relationship apart. But an alternate interpretation, not supported by Ren''s song description, but this is a work of Art so the receiver can respond differently to the creator's original intention, is that the hands are empty because the "crutch" was never there. The sufferer is facing this ordeal all alone. The crutch is the product of his tormented mind imagining a comforter. At the end of song his hands drop when he realises his crutch is not real.

[@kellyt5341]

🔥

[@stevehertzfeld8859]

I recently hurt someone I love and cherish very much. It was a total accident and misunderstanding. This song has helped my through my darkness as I battle my own thoughts. Severe remorse and sorrow wreak havoc to an over thinker. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

[@dreamingscarlettm5415]

This musicvideo deserves an award. The cinematography is stunning, the music is raw and beautiful. Thanks for creating Ren. Your art has an impact on so many lifes, it's crazy

[@vampyrekelli]

Another song that is my life. Watching this video was hard I did end up watching it more than once. I've been the one that was on the ground and not being able to get up I've also had people walk away from me because I'm ill. At one point during my illness I was dying and my boyfriend at the time said he couldn't handle me being sick. he left when I need him the most. And that's why this song hurts. Because it's brutally honest. It's amazing how many people would rather walk away then be there for somebody. It's truly sad. Thank you for coming into my world. Thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone. I genuinely appreciate you and I appreciate your music a lot. 💜

[@ammocandoit]

God dammit Ren! How did you get in my subconscious and articulate that which I have been unable for so many years!? Every track of yours is a therapy session for me. Im realizing more and more about myself from you- a stranger from across the world. Thank you. Thank you. Think you!

[@heather1667]

[@badadviceforfree]

God this is beautiful. One of the hardest parts for me of falling apart, was watching people I loved slowly lose all respect for me.

[@RaineSophiaLewis]

Damn! How did this not show up in recommended before? I f*cking love this and see parts of myself within this. ❤

[@stephenhadik9752]

You are a voice for all the chronic sufferers, your talent is next level brilliant. Huge respect for exposing your pain, I look forward to seeing the rest of your work!!

[@OneLove101.]

I think that’s it, Stephen. So many of us can empathise, so many of us hidden in the shadows. So when we hear his music, it’s almost as if he’s speaking for us all. Pure *poetry in motion*

[@bethellen1962]

This was Art. Simple, pure, real. It broke me wide open. Thank you 🙏

[@chrisseiler42]

Although Hi Ren is what first inspired me and gave me hope with my rehabilitation, this song has me thinking about my partner who has been dealing with chronic pain for almost 15 years now. We both have autoimmune issues. At 62 years we are in this together but I feel for him. I feel for you Ren. Thank you for this song. Thank you for all your music. ❤❤❤

[@truthseeker73]

Originally not my favourite with so many gems, but keep coming back and touched ❤.

[@markm.8169]

ren will dominate music for the next 15 years. hear my words.

[@robasiansensation3118]

Came for Hi Ren. Staying for all of it. Dude. I'm 56 yr old new fan. You are a stand out. Keep your authenticity, and you will never really fail. Don't sign with no label. Don't compromise any of it. Stay raw and real. Without darkness we cannot truly know the Light that is in all of us.

[@dawnpatterson8708]

Ok, uh... The first time that I saw this. It SERIOUSLY broke my heart. This is one incredible depiction of pain and fear. At the same time, it shows SO much strength and self sacrifice. In the midst of this torturous and horrible time. You were willing to continue to ENDURE it. But, not for yourself. For another. Bibi, oh my LORD. What a VOICE. Absolutely the voice of an angel. Sent to earth, for the SPECIFIC purpose of support. But, mostly to be the ONE he would endeavor to make it through this for. When, he himself had lost ALL hope that there would EVER be an end. Then to have you vanish..... Leaves us to wonder if you were all just an illusion. Or, EXACTLY what I had said. The ANGEL sent. Just so, this tortured young man COULD endure to persevere. I read your quote about, showing the things that you felt UGLY about and changing into something BEAUTIFUL. THAT you did, sir. It was one of the most excruciatingly beautiful things I have EVER seen. To see you so Ill and weak, was bad enough. The gutt punch, for me. Was to see YOU cry. OH MY GOD, every single part of my being ACHED. Because, I couldn't STOP it. I am SO thankful, you were born with what seems to be an ENDLESS well of creativity. Along with, the mad INTELLIGENCE to be able to EXPRESS it. If not for that combination of gifts. You might have been lost. THAT would have been a TRAVESTY. One larger than I can even come close to being able to explain. Like I said, this thing of beauty breaks my heart. But, I sit here. Ever so willingly eager for YOU to do it again. I think maybe, TRUE art does that. As my soul aches for that tortured young man. I politely say, thank you sir. May I have another, please.

[@heather1667]

thank you for the deep statement , very beautiful

[@16bgurreri]

Brilliantly articulated, frend

[@NixyRose72]

My bf is what holds me together. I got sick with a chronic pain/connective tissue disorder that had me out of a good job and fighting for SSDI. From making excellent money at a job I loved to struggling in a matter of months. We'd only been dating 6 months when I got sick. Bed-bound and sliding back into a mental health battle that I thought I'd managed to get control of. He struggled with me. He's still right here beside me. We'll be celebrating 10 years in October. I don't know if he's a crutch or a lifeline or both. I know I'd be dead without him. I'd have given up 9 years ago. I still wake and worry that he's going to come to his senses one day. He deals with my struggle as well as his own every day. Constant, never-ending, world-consuming pain... I'm on pain meds, muscle relaxers, antidepressants, anti-anxiety, anti-inflammatory.... I was starting to climb back into the light, learning to find some semblance of normalcy when covid hit. Suddenly all my progress is again gone. I'm labeled agoraphobic on top of all my other labels. It's exhausting to wake up to the same thing every day...I can't imagine the exhaustion of being chained to me. I almost wish he would leave me... then I could give up. He won't let me quit. This song hurts. I don't know how you do it, Ren, but you've left me sobbing once again. You're amazing, and I don't often say that to people who make me cry so often lol. Love your music, your talent, your soul-crushing, soul-enlivening magic. That's a whole lot of words just to say thank you. Also... I'm sorry. Your pain gives you beauty and art and yet... it's pain. Your soul is beautiful and the fact that you have the talent and the will and phenomenal strength to share it is astounding. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. ❤

[@jenniferlynnebecker7316]

have you listened to ren and chinchillas song chalk outlines yet? sounds like it might have been written for you! you're lucky to have your man to love you thru it all. I wish you peace ❤

[@NixyRose72]

@jennifer lynne becker I have! I've been going down the Ren rabbit hole for a couple weeks now lol. He makes me cry and feel seem at the same time. My bf is amazing. I honestly don't know what he sees in me... but I'm thankful every day that he does. 💙

[@AndysBolton]

Ren omg what I feel on this track is the same thing as you show but your artistry is my crutch

[@joestrat2723]

I don't think I've ever seen an artist paint with a larger pallet of colours. Every song so different than the last, but mesmerizing in its own right. Brilliant stuff Ren.

[@kellidonovan5064]

Your music cracks open my sternum allowing me to scoop out my own darkness so I can understand it better

[@Waterlily588]

God, that's so true for me, too. Fuck... I love how you phrased that...

[@mikeglenister9518]

Damn,..... those words are FIRE!!!

[@taycouns3lling]

I have been down an amazing Ren rabbit hole, the guy is an absolute genius. This track with Bibi is beautiful, heartfelt and so powerful. “Crutch” by Ren featuring Bibi is a heartfelt and powerful song that delves into the depths of vulnerability, love, and support. This track resonates with me on so many levels. What an absolute gift. So grateful for the magic Ren brings to the world.

[@cathywethington5913]

This is one of my favorites. If you're new to Ren, you'll find that, not only does he make wonderful music, he is a beautiful soul... which is why he has such a passionate fan base

[@kathrynecherie9913]

Insane. I have gone down the Ren rabbit hole and I won't be coming back out. Thank you, Ren.

[@ayemanda6174]

This is the most intense masterpiece I have ever witnessed in quite some freaking time.

[@joshuabennett3377]

😮 I don't what to say.... Incredible... The emotion runs deep... Anybody with deep issue from the mind we'll get this song... This is a powerful tune...

[@niftyhacker]

This song brought me back to time I got diagnosed with cancer and brought back all the memories of what a cornerstone my wife was at this time. It made me go hug her and thank her once more. Thank you Ren!

[@scottallen5269]

Maybe if I move Maybe my troubles won’t follow me... Our troubles don’t need to follow us. They are a part of us, till the end. I’ve tried many times to out run them, sedate them, drown them, hide from them, overpower them, dismiss them, compartmentalize them, get therapeutic treatments, and even lie to them. In my darkest hour, I ran from Florida all the way to Alaska. Only to sit down with my troubles, having a comfortable conversation, and thankful not to be alone. Until, the conversation turns, and I remember how much I hate the man in the mirror.

[@FearEeatsTheSoul]

How is this guy not famous???

[@AntiVinti]

100%

[@nananananananathan912]

I was just about the type the exact same thing.

[@danb554]

He was then he fell ill and lost it all watch his interview

[@nonfacedloser4247]

We all ask that when we find his music

[@s_h_u_a_n]

@@nonfacedloser4247 indeed

[@Scoobypilot2000]

Man, thank you, I'm in bits watching that, Knowing what you went through, but also what I have and am going through. Sunning, both the videography and the person behind it. Ren man, you look after yourself.❤

[@SabahsPsalm777]

I just discovered u yesterday and was blown away. then learned of your health struggles and was amazed. i also have lyme, chronic pain. bit by a tick 22 years ago 8 months pregnant. ignorant, didn't know to be concerned. a year or so later i began the spiral. was coming to terms with deep trauma. sexual, emotional and spiritual. so thought it was that. long story short married and 6 kids later my many issues and there impact on my life have damaged my relationship with my husband to no end. he's sooooooooo angry (understandably) why god gave him this beautiful wife who hasn't really been able to fully be a wife for 20 years. my kids say (younger ones) why are you so tired. why don't we do more stuff. why can't you push me on the swing longer. honestly i push through more than i give myself credit for. my eldest daughter is my champion but she has had to grow up and have a lot of responsibility because of my challenges. not preaching but Christ, sobriety, psychotherapy/emdr and strict diet/herbs keep me going but not healed and i cry out wtf!!!!!!! i do everything i'm supposed to or can afford but i'm still just getting by and if i don't keep everything in a state of balance i flare and spiral to such an intensity it doesn't seem real. your music has touched me (and everyone else) in such a deep way. i'm crying straight 4 2 days. reminding me how i NEED art, it's a necessity . i can relate to your struggle and expression, especially as someone who shares having an invisible illness. even my family struggles because i look great. im almost 50 but look in my 30's, all my kids friends think i'm so dope and a cool mom but i feel like shit everyday for years. if i eat little, very clean and low carb i can manage most days to function but still hurt just not as bad. my eldest recently suffered a mental health breakdown and this spiralled me into a dark place of guilt, shame and blame. fell into alcohol and weed to take the edge off. so u my friend are being used by the Most High to bring light and hope to this lady from east coast usa and a a fallen world. G-d bless

[@stephanieschleter6054]

I’m sure wherever you are, sleeping or awake, good day or bad, somewhere in the corners of your mind I bet you are still trying to carry the burden of “making it” in the music industry, or having your artistry validated, or “beating” these illnesses that plague you, or receiving the accolades that you truly deserve-all of this-YOUR JOURNEY, your talent, your bravery, your humble nature, YOUR JOURNEY is why so many people are touched by you! That journey- the one that you share so transparently, IS THE SUCCESS! You have already “made it” my friend! Try to remember to ENJOY THAT each day! Because the struggle will ALWAYS be there. It will never LEAVE… it just changes shape and keeps coming at you. Idk if you will ever see this… just hope so- I just thought you needed to hear this today.

[@jensterooniam]

Ren, I want to thank you for sharing this song...this part of you. I never thought I would ever come across someone who would speak to this experience so accurately...and so beautifully to the pain, let alone, to the experience at all. A little over a decade ago I had a psychotic breakdown, and among the many pieces of my life that proceeded to disappear, I watched helplessly as my marriage disintegrated before my eyes. And not longer after, I too disintegrated much further into darkness. I did eventually come out the other side - a phoenix rising from the flames - to fight for my life, my soul, and to rediscover who I was, but it was a very long and painful journey getting there. Years later I was able to see how necessary it all was to my journey, because I had so much healing work to do, that could not have happened with my partner. Struggling to face my past and work through it, was not something I could have done with him...and maybe not anyone else either. I'll never know. As grateful as I am for where it led me as a person and in life generally, the depth of sadness and pain...the degradation and humiliation...and the degree of self-hatred and internalized stigma, are experiences and feelings that I will never forget. The stigma around any illness with the prefix, "schizo" is massive, and psychosis is not something people generally want to talk about. The media has always done a fabulous job of demonizing, and creating monsters of people who suffer and struggle with this experience. And sure as hell, does not help in the process of seeking help or accessing resources to aid in healing and possible recover. I was lucky...so so blessed to recover fully. But many are not. I thank you from the bottom and breadth of my heart, for speaking to this pain that all to often, silenced or snuffed out completely. Thank you for speaking for the many who are silenced, and long to be heard. Sending you a whole lotta love.

[@geminimoon6221]

No one like REN for the artistry, emotion and musical genius. He always leaves me wanting more!

[@LuisFelipe-xf4mh]

HOW COULD I NEVER HAD WATCH THIS BEFOREEEE?

[@kaysara1568]

This is really a hidden treasure that I don't think people who have found Ren know about. It's genuis and anyone who doesn't feel this to the core of their souls is not human. ❤

[@cathywethington5913]

This is one of my favorites

[@gendoll5006]

I can’t believe how long he’s been making music with videos too!! I’m so happy “Hi Ren” has been such a hit!!!

[@ljwethington4162]

Beautiful and heartbreaking

[@Tessimistic420]

"I am lost I went to go find myself If I return Before I get back Please tell me to wait" ❤️Note on my front door. #ren

[@MichellEllis]

As someone whose years of pain and insomnia have recently manifested into bouts of psychosis, this hits hard. My husband, my care giver, has recently suffered a stress induced heart attack and I'm blaming myself. The NHS has been starved and most of the mental health resources are gone. The chronic pain patients over here live like ghosts. Apart from hospital appointments and the monthly mandated visits to the DWP to prove that I'm still sick and disabled and there is still no cure, I don't leave the house. I sometimes, in my darkest hours, think that there is a shadowy genocide going on with the disabled and chronically Ill community. The Tories basically admitted it when they bragged the "Cruelty is the Point". Thanks for speaking for us Ren.

[@seane8ifyify]

I am 51. I have been a musician since I was 16 and Ren you have more raw talent than anyone I've ever seen! I find your work so moving every time. My wife suffers with M.E. so I do understand your pain and frustration more than some. The fight for your right to show your brilliance must be so hard. I hope with your help that people try harder to find a cure and life would stop being so cruel. Keep going mate ❤️

[@Dragonartykay]

Discovered Ren in December, almost every conversation I have some how comes round to mention, REN in some way, I can’t stop watching and listening to his music, I am 52, I just hope he keeps blowing up and getting bigger and bigger, he deserves it, and quite frankly so do we all. We deserve better that what we have been getting, it all seems hollow, and pointless now.

[@C4.Cooper]

I find myself doing the same...just a conversation, that includes the one question, "Have you heard of Ren?" ❤

[@christelsegbars1630]

Me too. Even docters I meantion him, when I again get another medication, oh yeah in case this gives you these sideaffects you can use this.... Dear Ren you speak the truth in so many things... thank you for beiing you

[@Dragonartykay]

@Bhodisatvas me too. Whatever I can get my ears and eyes on. Downloaded everything from Spotify. Watched every reaction. He is just so different but yet so familiar. 😘😘😘😘

[@D3ADPO3TRY]

i'm 46 and married, and this music is where I am from... not a bleak hood, but a melancholic life numbing mind that I keep hidden from the wife. Depression and Anger are my welterweight titles, and I'm about out. Ren Gill is my midnight coach and the counselor hath bespoke..

[@natashaszydlak4411]

Holy s**t Ren! Every song of yours....it's like your singing my thoughts, my feelings. Like you, I've been through hell physically and mentally the last 20+ years. If it wasn't for music and my fiance, well...I wouldn't be here. You are totally awesome. You are unique, a bloody god damn brilliant artist, and an honest human being who isn't scared to let the world know that life can be really crap sometimes. I have said this numerous times on some of your vids, but thank you so much. Music is the one thing that understands me and to find you, the one artist that actually puts into words so eloquently what is in my head...well..thank you so so much. I feel like I'm not alone. Peace and Love from Australia

[@leia_guitar]

I think any chronically ill in a relationship can relate. Thank you for putting into words what so many of us feel but can never say. Also, the song has some nostalgic 90s Nine Inch Nails and TripHop vibes. Haven't heard that in a while, awesome!

[@karenm1919]

I listen to this song several times a day It's how I feel and what I need

[@Rushyyz3]

I started the Ren rabbit hole a few weeks ago, what a great talent. Is there anything this young man can’t do?

[@ashleytyner9848]

The Ren rabbit hole 😂 spot on

[@mrfabulocity]

One of my favorite songs by Ren. I'm in my 60's and Ren always makes me tear up. If you've ever had a nervous breakdown you understand this song. Bless you, Ren.

[@SoZen08]

This gives me chills... Then to think that you lay on cold concrete for hours to film this... and how raw the feelings are (in this song and in your life). So beautiful. You are a gift to humanity.

[@ashleytyner9848]

My thoughts exactly

[@bethaniehope]

This song is absolute gold. Just discovered Ren a few days ago, and quickly became obsessed with his art... but this song really hits deep for me.

[@danoodle72fly]

Just another day with The Maestro

[@donaldjohn123]

Ren popped into my existence a month ago. Where have you been.

[@austinsinger7565]

I'm blown away by the Cinematography in this!

[@omerabdullah1270]

It's been ren-week.. Actually last 6 weeks were 'him' .. his songs.. reactions.. documentaries.. vlogs.. etc.. Damn! I cant listen to anything/anyone else.. Wtf ya've done to us all mate?? ❤❤❤❤❤ God bless ya.. GWS!!!

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

He was Born!!!

[@zed4225]

I know right, what the actual ..........

[@laurafromliverpool]

Every time i click on a song for the first time i have to make sure I'm in the right mind space to hear it. Listening to Ren is like standing on the edge of a cliff. You've got to make sure you are tied on to something before you put your toes over.

[@baconatordoom]

Seriously underrated. This is a masterpiece.

[@alysonstrang948]

Totally 👍

[@donnasmall6032]

Im almost 62 yrs old ..There hasn't been an artist in yrs who I've wanted to listen to more than one time until Ren. His music is palatable...feeling it in every cell of my body ..Please ..don't stop Ren. .It's me again ..D from Indy ❤️

[@austinterry28]

Hits home so heartbreaking….. So is life. Some people are too much for others, the fear is always real.

[@jaeljade3609]

almost sounded a little prince like at the end. Reminds me of my husband and I on this wellness journey. He's my rock. Only wants to love and support me and would do anything just to see me better. He's an angel if I ever saw one. Rob Thomas's wife, Marisol, deals with Lyme's too. I love how he supports her. The song "Her diamonds" was about her struggles.

[@stampandscrap7494]

This was so heart rending. Reminded me of the time I was unable to lift up my covers for days at a time over 6 years with suspected ME I know think it was a complete mental breakdown due to CPTSD from being abused from 5 till 8 and many other things after.. So amazed at how you let your walls down, let your vulnerabilities show. This is beautiful but awfully sad. I wish we could all travel in time and come and hug you and help you through. By the way this 57 year old finally let down some of those walls thanks to you.

[@karenteague9143]

If you arent the voice of all thats happening in this world i dont know what else or who else is . Im grateful and hopeful that your voice touches the world and opens there eyes .woke is more than just a word ..your brilliant young man you truly are.your number 1 old lady groupie santeekaren

[@JoH4LH44]

I’m No ☝️2 ❤

[@pdfp24]

Found this at just the right time. I’m having such a shit night and can feel myself slipping back down into the dark hole of depression.

[@MagnusTHEWILL]

I've found that Ren's music, especially the song "Crutch" with Bibi, has helped me put words to some of the most chaotic feelings and thoughts I've had. Ren himself has struggled with neuroborreliosis, and it was through his music that I first began to understand that it might be the same thing that has been the cause of my own hallucinations and disturbances in my thoughts. I really relate to the way he portrays anger, frustration and confusion - it's as if he's putting into words what I've felt myself, but never quite managed to express. In "Crutch" there is a particular depiction of a feeling, a kind of presence of something that feels good and loving, amidst all the psychotic confusion. It's as if there is something there that holds me up, that gives me support and comfort, even when the world around me feels unreal and chaotic. This feeling has often been a kind of lifebuoy for me, something I could hold on to when everything else felt uncertain. But at the same time, it's been a painful realization to realize that this presence might not be real - that it's just something I've created in my head to survive. Yet, even though I now understand that it is not real, that feeling was so strong and so important to me at the time. It gave me something to cling to, a crutch that helped me get through the worst periods. Pure music has given me a language to understand this, to put into words what has been so difficult to explain. It is as if he has taken my own experiences and given them a voice, and through that I have begun to see my own situation more clearly. I think there's something about the way he balances hope and disillusionment, between what feels real and what turns out to be illusions, that really resonates with me. His music has been a form of therapy for me, a way to navigate my own thoughts and feelings, and perhaps also a path to healing.

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

[Ren:] Maybe if I move Maybe my troubles won't follow me I've got none to loose 'Cause everything turned to dust around me My hope it got so bruised 'Cause circumstance held me and it drowned me I'm searching for the glue To try and fix these broken things around me My love if I loose My mind I'd be so ashamed if you witnessed I try my best for you To try and keep my head but my God it's slipping An unspoken truth I feel my body dying as the clock keeps ticking And everything I knew is painted with a fear that it's all for nothing [Bibi:] Could I interrupt? If the weight should get too heavy I'll help hold this burden I'll walk with you my love Into the fires of hell if it would ease the burning But please don't loose your trust The man I know is brave so don't you dare say you're folding I can be your crutch Until we both grow old and the curtains closing [Ren:] Maybe if I move Maybe my troubles won't follow me My love I give to you Every single inch of my soul while it bleeds Baby I'm confused But I know in your arms I find relief Baby if I loose my mind Would you stay with me?

[@fibienn250]

Breath taking. Am I right in thinking that this was written when Ren was still living with misdiagnosis? That makes this even more amazing!

[@alysonstrang948]

Think so 😔

[@ECCENTRICERIC69]

Yes, he was chronically ill here and his weight had plummeted to just 8 stone!