Rosemary Opens Up About Struggles with Injury and Mental Health | Diary: Rosemary

For the first time, Rosemary chronicles the early part of her career and shares personal details of her struggles with injuries, mental health and finding the right path in today's pro wrestling landscape.
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[@Emezie]

We always stan Rosemary.

[@AngelusNielson]

I respect her even more for talking about this.

[@1jonhalo91]

Same here

[@christophercrenshaw4704]

Fr she has one the dopest themes too

[@anthonyanthonymorones4226]

I hope that Rosemary does stay with impact wrestling, but one of my comments misspelled a word, but I hope Rosemary stays with impact wrestler to me. She is like the undertaker of impact wrestling.

[@AngelusNielson]

@@anthonyanthonymorones4226 I thought Abyss was that? Of course he isn't anymore... >

[@mrcold8966]

Her face paint and her look when she debuted was second to none, she looked absolutely grotesque and I loved it. Easily in the top ten face paints of all time

[@tomseville2345]

The actual DECAY-ing look and black eyes...

[@MrWolfchamp-xi3cu]

One of the last great and interesting wrestlers in the modern world of pro wrestling. Been keeping quality character and personality alive in a era where it's largely dead.

[@MoonlightStrider]

And that's what I love about her, the way she commits to her character and cultivates her personality around this character despite the current era's emphasis on workrate, that to me is what endears me to her.

[@theresaibler6942]

😢😢😢

[@zemox2534]

There os nothing wrong with workrate wrestling. Frankly it is underappreciated. That said, I love the character of Rosemary and I hope she returns soon. Impact isn't the same without the demon assassin

[@sadetwizelve]

She was never great

[@michaelgoulet9008]

One of the great story tellers of wrestling. I'm glad we didn't lose her like we lost Daff

[@Ravenz91]

She’s so cool, and it’s encouraging seeing her open up about her struggles, especially as someone who deals with mental health troubles myself.

[@ryandavis4448]

The best entrance in impact wrestling. The hand on the screen, and scream with the black lights and fog? Pretty cool. "Left behind...you're left behind..."

[@georgeadkins2215]

Proud to be a Hiveling because of Rosemary’s passion.

[@crimsonite2044]

I love these wrestler diaries giving us a deeper understanding & conversation with the talent. Well done Impact

[@ChrisBell9838]

Y u think I love pro wrestling

[@crimsonite2044]

@@ChrisBell9838 also makes me admire Rosemary more. As someone who also deals with mental health I talk about it openly. Mental Health is Mental Wealth

[@ChrisBell9838]

@@crimsonite2044 everyone has mental health it's ok to talk about it I'm scared to talk about mines I feel like no one cares so seeing rosemary it really hit me

[@crimsonite2044]

@@ChrisBell9838 same

[@dernardtaylor7761]

My current favorite wrestler bar none, and in my top five all time.

[@shopaccount8909]

I've followed rosemary ever since she debuted on impact with crazy Steve. She's an amazing wrestler & entertainer. Much love ❤

[@rayrichardson7176]

I was there the night she got hurt and it was immediately apparent she was hurt. To know how deep she fell after watching this. I’m glad I came across this and glad she fought through it. She’s one of my favorite wrestlers of any promotion. I hope others can watch this and find inspiration, to seek help when one feels they need help and know that it’s not a sign of weakness or one should feel ashamed of. She possesses a strength few have.

[@ChrisBell9838]

This is why I love pro wrestling wen the pro wrestlers talk about personal life u can just feel it

[@polarfamily6222]

PROTECT ROSEMARY AT ALL COSTS!

[@IFdude]

By far the best woman wrestler of all time IMHO! I remember getting into Decay because of Abyss. Over time though, Rosemary became the absolute heart and soul of Decay. She absolutely deserves any and all fame and fandom that she has and more. She something unique and special. I hope she is around for many more years.

[@jeffmorrison6056]

Watched her for over 10 yrs. Watched her Rosemary character morph in Smash, loved her work in CANUSA CUP. That match with Jessica Havoc was one of the hardest hitting wrestling matches ever. Shes 1 of my all-time favs. Give her that extended world title run. She deserves it .

[@shawnpeacock3153]

Ever since I saw her first debut on impact I have enjoyed her character and she has stayed one of my favorite female wrestlers. I'm glad to have watched this and all the stuff she did with the bunny. I'm glad she got to come back and always be Rosemary

[@theresaibler6942]

Thank you rosemary ❤

[@jayzendelarosa5178]

Literally the most encouraging and hard worker and entertaining person ever much love and respect to rosemary

[@Freddyfan1428]

It doesn't ever get said near enough, but THANK YOU to all the stars of Pro Wrestling that go out there and give so much to us, the fans. And more people need to see documentaries and behind-the-scenes interviews like this to remind us that these people are human, they love, they cry, they hurt and they feel just like anyone else. They may have struggles we know nothing about. Respect them and let them know they are appreciated! Once more, THANK YOU, to Rosemary, Jessica Havok, Crazzy Steve, Gail Kim, and everyone else out there giving so much to live their dreams!

[@paulwoodford1984]

yawn

[@VendettaAS]

​@@paulwoodford1984 so edgy.

[@TeganCantEven]

Rosemary is a legend!! And one of the kindest people I’ve ever met in wrestling! Really happy she’s with us! 💜

[@RueMorgueDweller]

Rosemary, wrestling is a lot greater place because people like you are in it. First time i saw you was in 2017 on Impact, and you reignited my interest and admiration for wrestling. You have become one of my favorite wrestlers, and you are one of the best women's wrestlers ever. You deserve all the recognition and adoration in this industry.

[@MichaelBurmy]

THIS is why I adore Rosemary so much...this is why I am SO proud to be a fan of everyone in her support structure, why I love being an Impact fan...this is why I'm so happy to be in the Hive, for all of us weirdos proud to be ourselves! (Watch for this happy Hiveling shortly after the 20-minute mark)

[@LordSStorm]

So glad we got to see behind the eyes of Rosemary. I don't know if its acceptable to say this but I always saw it as Daffney started something a while ago, and Rosemary carried it across the finish line. She got to a level that I always wanted her to go to. Beyond that however, as an individual, Rosemary has helped carry Impact Wrestling by connecting to the fans deeply. I think that is very rare for a wrestler, more so a female wrestler. And to see her at the live events is something special as well. I think that memory will stick with fans.

[@Dr.Thirteen]

Luna started it in Florida with kevin sullivan.

[@generalhayate3810]

rosemary was one of my main interests when getting back into wrestling, and getting inspired to get into shape to wrestle myself. hearing her talk about mental struggles that i have myself dealt with and still deal with is something that i cannot express how thankful i am for.

[@theresaibler6942]

thank you, Rosemary ❤

[@Ged1356]

I can relate to her in so many ways... Depression is something I have been dealing with for a very long time and a friend of mine just said something that he didn't know shut me down from every opening up to people was when he said. YOU SHOULD NEVER TRY TO MAKE AN UNHAPPY PERSON HAPPY BECAUSE THEY WILL EVENTUALLY MAKE YOU UNHAPPY..💔 INDIRECTLY HE KILLED ANY COURAGE I HAVE TRYING TO SPEAK OUT

[@akirose3794]

This was really great to see especially rosemary taking all about her injuries and mental health respect to her I have always loved her as a in ring performer mad love to you stay strong

[@chrisembry3736]

Thank you all for being transparent with us fans and letting us in on the truth behind the show, career, job, etc. We appreciate each of you!

[@MichaelMichalski]

Thank you to Impact Wrestling and Rosemary for helping shine a light on mental health. She's been a favorite of mine and my kids since the first time we saw her live - and now, she's only elevated herself even further by bravely baring her soul in this documentary. Impact - another stellar job, here. Well done.

[@ArtCatsGamingFoodbyTinaNoire]

I always loved Rosemary since I saw her back in Shimmer starting in 2010! Watching her and many other ladies from that period in time inspired me in many ways to starting my weight loss journey in 2015 (going from gaining 300+lbs after high school due to bullying now to losing over 250lbs lost now with no surgery) to getting into wrestling at 36 years old back in 2018, to many more things over the years. Watching you go from Coutney to Rosemary & watching the Rosemary + Bunny DVD and all those story lines, just amazing! From one Canadian to another, keep at it Rosemary, you are amazing and inspiring so many other women out there. Keep doing what you are doing! 💯🐾🤩🤘

[@kidg666]

Thank you so much Rosemary. You deserve all you have ever gotten with IMPACT.

[@txl17]

I love Impact so much. Rosemary is one of the best performers and overall presences in all of wrestling. Truly one of a kind.

[@shawndavis8438]

I remember seeing her as Courtney Rush, and seeing her as Rosemary has been so much fun. I'm just happy to see her get the recognition for all her hard work and dedication. Rosemary has become a cornerstone of the Knockouts Division. The sky is the limit for her

[@theresaibler6942]

😢😢😢

[@marksguitars5617]

Love her, great performer, when she comes out or is in a video package you know something special is about to happen

[@Friendowo]

I can't begin to tell you, as someone who loves professional wrestling and loves the people who dedicate their life to this, everything about this is what I love about pro wrestling. And Rosemary has always been an all-time favourite of mine, so happy to have met her the many times I have, and she deserves the spot, she deserves all the success and love back for all she puts into this!

[@jordanjoseph837]

This is by far the best video diary ever since I saw Rosemary I have been waiting for a decade to see the woman behind the character every time I see a interview she's in character for a while I thought she lived her character

[@michaelsinger4638]

I love Rosemary. She’s one of the coolest characters in the business today.

[@kaffdon8948]

Can’t wait to see this Big Rosemary and Daffney (Rip 🙏🏿 🕊️) fan here. Gisele and Jordynne episodes were really eye opening.

[@rudiebjones]

Always important to have these messages shared ❤️

[@ronniesouthern7829]

Love this diary. A friend of mine recommended this episode and I’m glad I tuned in. Been watching Rosemary since her debut in Impact. ❤️

[@HulkSith89]

Rosemary is 100 percent the female undertaker of the impact wrestling world. This documentary was awesome and was very cool to get to see another side of her and the rosemary character. I hope she gets another shot at the impact knockouts title again. She is one of my favorite impact knockouts and has always been since she started in TNA/ Impact Wrestling.

[@Jayke1981]

I haven't seen impact in years, but Rosemary was always one of my favourites. This was a brilliant diary, documentary.

[@lucasgartley9603]

So eye-opening.

[@bartdebrucker]

Thank you for sharing your talent! Be proud of who you are and what roads you've travelled.

[@williamwentworth8520]

I love you rosemary your my favorite wrestler of all time

[@RatedRLouisN.TNAwrestling]

IMPACT is LOVE, wrestling, family!

[@alexisdesmall95]

I really wish there was a girl like Rosemary on TV when I got into wrestling in 95.

[@theresaibler6942]

😢😢

[@WaylonMoone]

It is sad, there was Daffney from WCW but from what I remembered she didn’t do much wrestling other then promos.

[@Dr.Thirteen]

@@WaylonMoone don't forget Luna!

[@JohnnyZ716]

Rosemary was one of the first ever female wrestlers that really started getting me into women's wrestling. It really only took one time seeing her perform and I was hooked on her. She's truly one of the best to ever do it, and a true Hall Of Famer in my eyes.

[@skreekx7300]

From the moment she debuted I’ve been in love with her and her character

[@starkiller7278]

Really love watching her on impact every week, I just hope she's doing ok now

[@mungorgor]

This is so genuine and refreshing, arguably better than anything Impact has put out in years.

[@brianmoser5973]

One of my all-time favorite wrestlers, going back to pre-IMPACT wrestling and the Courtney Rush character in SMASH wrestling battling with Cherry Bomb (Allie the Bunny)!! Many thanks to Holly Letkeman for the amazing characters and amazing matches then, now and in the future!!!

[@bri-ale1965]

I haven’t watched impact in the last decade, I knew of her but this docu warmed my heart to this human being living her dream. She made a fan outta me 🙏 truly inspiring

[@solidsnake0186]

Rosemary and Crazy Steve are my two favourite wrestlers right now, has been since decay. Love their characters. Maybe a Crazy Steve diary

[@somedude2440]

This was a great story and I hope it gets a lot of views. Rosemary really touches on the loneliness of uncertainty and how depression just destroys the mind and body. I am glad she found both the mental and physical strength to come back and perform again. This should really be shown to anyone even considering going into professional wrestling. My wish would be that we never have an issue like what happened with the former knock out Daphne ever again. If its not already a policy, I really think the promotors of at least the televised companies should have mandatory mental health check ups in addition to the physical check ups especially during a recovery period to protect both the talent and the brand as a whole.

[@SmashYamato]

I've always been a Decay/Rosemary fan. Thanks for opening up about your personal issues and helping normalize talking about mental health.

[@javonjohnson322]

I really appreciate everything that rosemary has done for this business that I have been a fan of since I was 4 years old now at age 30 with 3 kids of my own who still struggling with mental health issues I can say that asking for help was the best decision I ever made and it's improved my relationship with my kids and wife and I hope to one day meet her in person and tell her face to face that not only has been my favorite female wrestler for almost a decade, but looking at this reminded me so much of myself and reminded me it's okay to ask for help.

[@BillR-nb6zm]

Thanks for sharing Javon. I wanted to say that I agree asking for help is KEY. But not just in 'grand gesture' ways... reach out to ANYTHING that helps if you are struggling (and ya know what people? We ALL are!)! Things I use: put on a favorite song, think about a favorite story, look at a picture of someone I love smiling... easy stuff that gives you a break, snaps you out of that mindset. And for those suffering in silence? Remember too, asking for help doesn't need to be a grand gesture or new life plan/tearful confessional! Sometimes to be helpful it is as simple as "Dude, had such a rough day today! I just need to hear someone laugh rn, got five minutes to talk about nothing realted to the things going on in my life?" Amazing what 'clearing your head' for those five minutes can do for you, allowing it to build up and weigh you down makes getting help/reaching out/seeing your way through harder and harder and that's when we lose people... it's a daily journey, wins and losses, but every bit of positivity helps.

[@loganraposo91]

Rosemary was and still is one of my favorite wrestlers in Impact. She inspired me so much in my personal and creative endeavors. As a performer on the indie acting world, the one thing that stuck out to me about Rosemary was I believe in everything she does. Promo, matches, etc. She's just always at 110% and I respect that so much. This was such a powerful video into who she is as a person. Thank you Rosemary for reminding me and so many others it's ok to be thee weird kid 🖤

[@Baron_Alexander_Renfield]

Thank you so much for this, I really needed to hear a lot of what you said. Thank you so much Rosemary for your courage for sharing your story. Thank you impact for this

[@trentshape]

Fascinating watch.. What a beautiful soul. Thank you

[@SHOPOFTHEPOPS]

Wow so incredibly powerful, what a message. Thank you Holly/ Rosemary

[@peternicholls5649]

Thank you for starting the conversation...It takes true strength to be vulnerable to be honest...Thank You...

[@JohnWickPresents]

Still on my short list of favorite wrestlers. For her creativity, passion, and fearlessness in the ring.

[@THESHADOWSLAIR669]

I cried thru this. I love u rosemary!! PROPHECY 4EVER!!!

[@ronaldrobbins5282]

Sending hugs and love❤we thank you Your amazing woman you saved me when was down and out . night of Daffenys death changed me broke my soul gave me depression . we learning cope

[@Nfoster1916]

Incredibly creative and compelling individual. All the continued best to Rosemary. Been a fan of her work since she came to be in SMASH Wrestling. Also, Demon vs Slayer for life!

[@Ryanonfire03]

I hope Rosemary knows, somehow, that she’s been a huge positive influence on me, and just how greatly she’s appreciated. 🙏🏼💜

[@paulyoung5966]

Really interesting and thought provoking film. Really shows the struggles that we, the viewers, don't tend to acknowledge, hopefully, this will help other wrestlers and just people in general with their mental struggles.

[@bbuildingfan01]

This is a very deep documentary. I wish it was a little bit longer. I like the fact that they spoke to Rosemary and that way and we get to see both sides of her the same thing with havoc. That was awesome! Please continue doing this and also to see how deep it is when it comes to mental health issues because everyone deals with it, whether it's themselves or whether it's loved ones.❤🙏 And those ladies also prove that you don't have to chase the big bucks or go to the big promotion to be a big name. They were doing it way before and they continued to still do it!!! ❤❤

[@jasongoswelluk7475]

Me and my mother have mental health issues and we talk about it plus I work for the NHS in mental health as well. As I like to say, never surrender never give up. ♥️👍🤘

[@bradb213]

Rosemary renewed my wrestling fandom. I first heard about her when she was injured in Mexico. I started following her and became a huge fan.

[@robertwm92]

She’s amazing! Whenever she performs, she truly embodies her character and makes me believe in what she’s saying. Love you Rosemary 💕

[@benevolence3623]

Im a big aew fan and have never watched impact but I've always found rosemary to be so interesting and cool. This was super dope!

[@dylandosh]

I’ve been watching impact since before you started rosemary ur the best thank u so much for being u ur you’re wrestling kept me in my boxing and mma through those injuries Sadly, I’m only 25 years old and I had to retire. At the age of 18 I had to retire. I am glad you’re still wrestle. Keep it up. I watch every match. You’re awesome.

[@tonyvaughan1903]

rosemary is an inspiration to all generations that go through this. it happens in all walks of life but it's how you handle it and come through it helps you to become stronger and friends that support you helps the most.

[@KMmouse20]

Doesn't matter if its the Living Legend or the Demon, she's always a wonderful spirit and fantastic performer. Will be a Rosemary fan for life.

[@comment0242]

She is one of the coolest and most badass female stars in impact. The demon persona is used by very few wrestlers but for her she's nails it

[@bradhirigoyen3039]

I’ve been a fan of rosemary since she started on impact and even before she is my favorite knock out keep up the great work

[@d365Promotions]

As someone who has worked with Rosemary many times, I can say she is the realest person there is. Sincere and honest! Love her to the moon!

[@taco7144]

Loved every minute of this video. Wrestling needs Rosemary. Thanks for uploading!

[@OdysseusLaerte]

Great documentary! Thank you Rosemary, all the talents and Impact for openly sharing this with us. All the very best to you! 💛

[@jamespoyser106]

One of the last true greats a brilliant character and great wrestler ❤

[@mrbuu82]

Thank you for putting this video together! I went on a roller coaster of emotions watching this video. It's easy to forget how much of a mental and physical toll wrestling takes on a person when you are just watching it for entertainment. However, it is also great to be able to support the wrestlers in the fulfillment of their creative needs and artistic expression. It's a balance and you just hope that you and the wrestlers strike it the best you can. Rosemary is a really special wrestler and it comes across in all aspects of her character. You can see those elements even when she is speaking in the video. Great to hear from her and a number of the other wrestlers in this video. It gives me new appreciation for the highs and lows of the profession.

[@alexusturner3231]

I love Rosemary she is amazing and courageous

[@VADallasCowboysFan]

Mad respect for Rosemary. Been following since Decay first appeared on my screen. And has been a character I have to create on every wrestling game I get

[@VegetaAlex]

Wrestlers are never forgotten. The entertainment they provide always lives on in peoples memories

[@RatedRLouisN.TNAwrestling]

The blind guy 😊 is freaking amazing also! 😂 🤟crazy Steve🤟

[@outlaw358]

Been a fan of her for close to 7 years. Love this

[@nailsandny6894]

I love Rosemary. I hope we get a Jessicka episode of Diary too.

[@Elrinell]

One of the best character of this era , I loved Decay since day one and Rosemary was the reason why. She has that something special that can't be teach , the passion and the genuine vibe that goes with her character

[@stephenomallie1659]

One of my all time favorite wrestlers. Ever. She is amazing

[@brianszekely6162]

my heart goes to rosemary all the hard work and dedication all the problems she face with injury and mental health

[@francissobotka8725]

Impact is a very special place ,I've been watching since day 1 and Rosemary is one of the best performers out there .I would love to see inter promotional matches .Her vs Asuka would be amazing.

[@po3bowers]

As a US Military veteran who was injured and told I could no longer fight, all I ever wanted to be since I was 7 in 1989 was a member of the armed forces and to support and defend freedom and democracy and when I was injured in a car wreck (a woman ran a red light and Tboned me at 65mph the corner was blind and I couldn't see her till it was to late} I had to rehab my left leg for a Year and it ultimately cost me my service career. I was and still am in that place at times and can completely understand the depression and the Voice telling you to give up. But we push on. You are not alone WE are all in this with you. You have been since you debuted in my top 5 all time in the company of the likes of Sting Flair Austin and Taker. I've watched all of the DemonBunny videos every interview I can find and almost ever match you have had that I can find video of. Just remember never give up never say die never quit never surrender never let them beat you if we bow out and beat ourselves in our head they win and WE are winners. Respectfully Robert Bowers II proud member of the hive Electrician in the IBEW LU 136 and former Petty Officer in the USN

[@vashstarwind36]

Rosemary is SO amazing. Big fan since 2015 🤘 She rocks. She got me into TNA/IMAPACT! & opened my eyes to a whole new world of independent/underground/ & different men & ( especially ) women's pro wrestlers.

[@jugghead82]

Man this was a Beautiful piece an Rosemary is a Beautiful person. I remember when Rosemary debut it was AWESOME to me she is One of the BEST in the world of wrestling. Amazing spirit nothing but love an RESPECT ❤❤

[@bubbah6000]

We LOVE Rosemary. She never fails to make us feel. Her dedication to the emotional side of wrestling is almost unparalleled. Im so grateful to her for her sacrifice. Your performances always make me delighted. Love you.

[@rick7684]

I want to say thank you so much Rosemary for all you done so far.

[@Phillip-ino]

Always and forever my favorite Knockout

[@SirDawkster]

Rosemary will always be one of my favorite wrestlers. She's so unique and talented.

[@ivanyost6395]

This is an incredible documentary. So refreshing, different and more positive than all the other pro wrestling documentaries that are out there. Please make more!

[@ooh4suremaine66]

Rosemary has always been one of my all time favorite wrestlers!!

[@KingoftheSimians]

A perfectly produced piece!!! Excellent work! To Rosemary, and the body she dwells in. A truly fantastic wrestler, entertainer, creator, person. When character creation is mentioned in wrestling, Rosemary needs to be in the top 5. Hail her work, hail her talent, hail her guts to do something different!! Can’t wait to see what’s next!!

[@BillR-nb6zm]

There IS no character like Rosemary... there is a Top One list IMHO and it contains Rosemary's body of work only, a character w/o peer. Yes, people have played great heels, great faces, become great storytellers, great on the mic (like Rock's legendary promo runs) but that's charisma and delivery not a multi-layered character study with years of backstory and depth that is ready to go every time you see her. There is but one Rosemary, and when she is gone we'll never see her equal.