Came here from David Archuleta's livestream. Great song! Very touching.
@silverbluesbe Жыл бұрын
At 53, I'm taken back to the time when I was still closeted and living this lie of my own choosing. I wanted to be proud of who I was, to let the world (and my family) know I loved who I loved...and it didn't turn out that way. It drove wedges where there were none before, it created distance from those too blind to see, to deaf to hear. Eventually, I'm happy to say, I finally was able to live my own truth. Of course, several of the people who didn't understand or who wouldn't take the time to get to know me and whomever died off, so that eased matters as well.
@zhubaimydads33552 жыл бұрын
This hits so hard in my situation because i grew up in a family where they really don't understand and would not even understand who you are so i really feel every lyrics of this song you wrote and that says a lot how talented you are as a person, at the same time I'm still learning who am i and learning to love myself as well it's so weird that i can relate a lot when i'm just in my 20's yet not even close to 28 to 30.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
you are not alone, I completely understand.
@cestrell2 жыл бұрын
I want to write an entire movie script, just to put this song in the movie. There's a whole story here, taught very beautifully and tragically.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
🥺❤️
@nobodyidk6361 Жыл бұрын
" I am not done learning how to be proud of who I am" " I am not ready to lose someone" I am not ready and I no longer want to lose someone and that someone is me. I ended up losing myself in all of my relationships. I allowed guys I love to tear and trample my heart to pieces. I'd rather be alone than fall into another state of chaos, confusion, stress, and despair in the name of love. Thank you for this amazing piece, love every seconds of it!
@nyurma_eden2 жыл бұрын
I literally stopped doing what I was doing and hours later I’m in my bed, crying but in a good way because this is so beautiful 🤍 what a blessing to be able to create such art! Thank you 🤍
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
😭❤️
@jaeskiffskia77542 жыл бұрын
This reminds me so much of the one that got away. He never could show his family who he was. This sounds like it’s coming from him. Just wow!!! Thank you.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thank you so much for the kind words! ❤
@EbbermanEmily Жыл бұрын
Oh, this one hurts. It's so beautifully written and composed and sang. I fell in love with your voice but your lyrics have really touched me. Even if I can't fully relate to every song, I can feel the emotions from them. This one though 💔 that fear and caution and hesitancy to be who I am. "I'm not done learning to be proud of who I am." Is such a beautiful line. Love this song ❤️
@HungminVlog2 жыл бұрын
Omg. This song is so great. The chorus is just like telling my situation now. In Vietnam, when we’re at 28-30 years old and haven’t married yet, this song says every word that I want to tell everyone that I’m not ready for marriage, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to. Omg love this song so much. It gonna hit 2-3 million views soon. Wish you all the best.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
You are so sweet, thank you ❤️
@CSbboy87 Жыл бұрын
Was it selfish to lead you on when I still don't know myself....ugh, this hits home so hard I need to call my insurance company 😩. Well done Sir!
@MAC195234565 ай бұрын
I also got here after listening to David Archuleta's site. I love this song.
@ΑΡΗΣ-ω5π2 жыл бұрын
When you're already a broken person, and you think if you want to enter to that someone's world and it feels like you're one mistake away from destroying them
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Seriously so relate to this 😭
@go-cm4rz Жыл бұрын
Thank you Ryan. I've been listening to this song almost nonstop for the last week and... it still makes me tear up every time. Thank you for putting it into words. This feeling, that none of my straight friends or friends with accepting families will ever get. "Just tell them. They don't love you enough if they don't accept you." But it's never that easy. And people don't understand, that you can still love and want love from a person, even though their love comes with conditions. The Christmas holidays make this so hard and hearing your song and not feeling so alone with this feeling, is so heartwarming. It's probably not what these lyrics should do but... They make me want to come home with a girl and introduce her to my family, even if it's just in my head. ❤️
@devilish0000ful2 жыл бұрын
This is the beauty of music. I’m probably thousands of miles away from you bro but I was able to relate to every single world that you sang. Love from Pakistan 🇵🇰.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much ❤️
@sansarey Жыл бұрын
This hit really hard since I'm in a similar situation as you. I feel like I should play this to my therapist. Thank you for sharing this and making music from your heart. 💖
@taruntrikha52622 жыл бұрын
This has been playing hours on loop now. This is how the internal of people who are strong on outside and carry the weight of everyone around them looks like. Thanks for your creation
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thank you so much for listening and for these kind words yeesh!
@l.d.pjohanse9219 Жыл бұрын
I heard it on Instagram reels, and the song has stuck me in my bedroom feeling down for a while.
@iSingToooMuch2 жыл бұрын
I'd be lying if I wasn't bawling my eyes out right now, because this masterpiece you've created is why I love music. To hear your experience with dating which is similar to mine, I can't tell you how much I relate to how hard it is to love yourself and be accepting towards yourself. Amazing song, and thank you for giving not only yourself, but a lot of us a way to show how we feel through your song. Much love from Minnesota.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for this! Sending you love!
@benbeaupre69712 жыл бұрын
This song is an amazing song that is making me cry and I hope more people find this song
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you 😭
@corrosive94302 жыл бұрын
Here before this goes viral.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
🥹🤞🏻
@jayray41292 жыл бұрын
Wow the strings in the background, and your voice are phenomenal! Then there's the lyrics... Thanks for being so raw and honest. Extremely talented you will be noticed in no time.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much 😭❤️
@asra29 Жыл бұрын
I've heard this song on repeat for a while now but suddenly it hits differently when I finally get the meaning behind the lyrics. This song is truly a masterpiece 🫶
@markdavis5176 Жыл бұрын
It resonates so much. Never had the words to express. Your songs express my spirit
@hosseinhosseinabadi14332 жыл бұрын
Damnnnnnnnnn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you just made a song of what's been happened to me recently and that hits DEEP. PLEASE KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK , YOU'RE SO TALENTED AND HARD-WORKING , I'M PROUD YOU . EVEN THOUGH WE DON'T KNOW EACH OTHER
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤️🥺
@atendrheart11 ай бұрын
omg i have heard only two songs so far that got me heart pumping and my eyes weeping..i love you already
@sandipanshekhar71462 жыл бұрын
I lost perception to my surroundings midway to this song.. Its magical,its painful, its beautiful 🖤
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much!
@michellebever7729 Жыл бұрын
You have an amazing voice and your music has messages that truly touch others. You are very special and I just wanted you to know that. You were blessed with a beautiful voice and a talent for writing what you feel. I can't wait to hear more !
@malenasaldanasoto49972 жыл бұрын
I cry. 😪💙👏👏
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤
@Temvezes Жыл бұрын
🇲🇿🇲🇿🇲🇿💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕. I'm from Africa and I like the music, this is crazy congratulations dude
@aftab_alam48 Жыл бұрын
Been playing this on repeat for the past few days, probably one of the most relatable songs I've heard in a long time man. Great voice, much ❤
@aftab_alam48 Жыл бұрын
idk why it changed love to ❤ but ❤❤❤❤❤❤
@kitfiex8825 Жыл бұрын
I didnt expect to bawl out with your song. Thank you for creating this masterpiece.
@ryanealon Жыл бұрын
aww thank you so much!
@muhammadrestujohansyah82172 жыл бұрын
I like this song, I hope it will appear on IG quickly🖤
@Elizbethhhh Жыл бұрын
Beautiful deserves more views ❤
@Jason_Drums_ Жыл бұрын
Such a Beautiful and Brilliant Song 👌 Can relate to this 💯 ❤ 🙌
@ukenrelax Жыл бұрын
wow this is so beautiful...the lyrics, the melody, the voice, everything ♡ keep going :))
@akennyproduction Жыл бұрын
BEA....UUUUU... TIFUL!!!!!! :):)
@paulthouvenin38852 жыл бұрын
I am a hypersensitive person and I really thank you because your text resonates in its own way in my heart and ... it's just sublime, a real sweetness to think my wounds deep inside me Thank you man 🙏🏼🙏🏼
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
sending you love ❤
@VibeSounds2 жыл бұрын
Came from Instagram! This song hits deep 😢
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much ❤️
@TommyWaaves2 жыл бұрын
Stumbled across this song and it’s amazing. Relate to every line of it 😖🔥🔥
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤❤❤
@bastienlefriec8140 Жыл бұрын
So pure. Love from France. 🖤
@AlvinIlagan Жыл бұрын
Thank you. You're so awesome. Really i love this god damn song!
@Raquelpinaborbinhas Жыл бұрын
Hii, I saw you in the Instagram, and I glad that you appeared, love your music, good luck, you deserve it ❤️
@lalvensanga8205 Жыл бұрын
OMG😢😢 I’ve nothing to say but I’m so so much rooting for you
@Ganesh-op6wc Жыл бұрын
Sweet treat to my ears!
@kaoutherbchm44222 жыл бұрын
I love it!❤️ This song breaks u and hugs u at the same time, it's warmly painful💔
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤️
@vivekshri2 жыл бұрын
I came here from a reel which said "this is why I don't date" and boy oh boy!! This is so relatable! I loved each and every single word of it. Ryan man you have created a masterpiece!! ♥️ Love and respect from India. 🇮🇳
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thank you so much! happy that you're here ❤
@karim7356 Жыл бұрын
That reminds me of the problems i had with my ex. Bro no words to describe how i feel about this song !!!! This should be a movie main soundtrack !! I assure u it will be one day. ❤️ Greetings from Egypt
@martasanchez6785 Жыл бұрын
Im crying so much with this song that you write perfectly because you understand that situation so good thanks for this you are so so good love you from Spain 💜
@fachriandrianto5666 Жыл бұрын
Hey ryan, i just wanna said that ur words makes me not feel alone again. Cause its not easy to live in this world alone. Thank you for the song
@valueabletalks7476 Жыл бұрын
Damn broo bought tears into my eyes 😭
@nangkiewyoutubechannel82252 жыл бұрын
Bro I can't wait for millions views😊 💞🔥 Keep going brooo
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
so sweet! thank you!
@kyno4042 жыл бұрын
I have been waiting to hear this for weeks, and MAN it was worth it! This song is absolutely beautiful!
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Kylie! Means the world ❤️
@JepoyOlivo2 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much! ❤️❤️❤️👏👏👏😍😍😍🙏🙏🙏
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤❤❤
@jeanlinares74092 жыл бұрын
Keep it up! I imagine this song as the background song in a movie trailer
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
🥹❤️
@saraep4442 жыл бұрын
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭your tone, the depth, the everything, the power, then the holding back, ugh yummy! I’m manifesting that this song gets at least 100,000 views 💖💖💖💖💖
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
you're so sweet! thank you so much ❤
@steffeni252 жыл бұрын
Accidentally saw the vid on ig and im hooked..I totally could relate to the lyrics cause we're from different religions and i know my family won't ever accept him 😢 so i decided to put an end to it and we still texted often tho.. "And where I come from, they don't take the time to understand I would rather hide than let them know It's easier for me to be alone I'm not ready to lose someone when I bring you home Was it selfish to lead you on when I still don't know myself? 'Cause it's too easy to hold my tongue and put you through hell Wanted to wait until my parents were older So I could give them the son I thought they wanted But all I gave them was someone they'll never know" This part right here really cut the deepest 😭
@JonyMira1125 Жыл бұрын
this is my soooong!!!! T_T thanks!!!!!!! handsome boy
@svpjef Жыл бұрын
Those strings are hauntingly beautiful ❤️
@abobsing Жыл бұрын
I love that song....just beautiful 💔
@shashwatrawat37092 жыл бұрын
The song is well written, well composed. I hope you touch a million...All the best👍
@joelnithin69732 жыл бұрын
Related to this So afraid to lose someone and to bear the hurt its better to be alone
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
😭❤️
@ranztakhel4058 Жыл бұрын
Feels like this song is made for me. Thank you for this masterpiece
@ryanealon Жыл бұрын
thank you for listening ❤
@Officialkrypticmind Жыл бұрын
This song speaks to me so much! Words I could never express in my own music! I'm not done learning how to love myself or be proud of who I am either. Also, I can't love again. It may have been 7 months since my ex left me but I'm not there yet. This year is me trying to better myself and get my music perfected
@bmm76402 жыл бұрын
Wowowoowoowoowowowowowow
@hideinthebush27292 жыл бұрын
Thanks for putting into words what many of us go through.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
😭❤️
@lakuku93632 жыл бұрын
I love this! These words are relatable and hit too close to home. But I’m glad I’m not the only one feeling this way. I’ll have to check more of your music out❤
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much friend ❤️
@jessecollinsjr.2411 Жыл бұрын
I heard this on instagram and thought the singing was beatiful, but didn't fully understand the lyrics until I heard the first verse here. When I did, I immediately started to weep. This hits so hard for those who have gone or are going through it. Masterful songwriting. Looking forward to hearing more
@ryanealon Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! You're so sweet!
@akamanto71 Жыл бұрын
I can't describe in words the mixed feelings this song gave me, congrats man keep it up, the sky is the limit
@asuraa5379 Жыл бұрын
This song somehow tickles my heart 🔥
@jessamaeceros Жыл бұрын
I like the message of the song and your voice😍💜💜💜, I want to listen to it over and over again
@RACHEL-do4sj Жыл бұрын
FAVORITE ❤️❤️💋💋
@paulthouvenin38852 жыл бұрын
Be proud and continue ✍🏼🗣️
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤
@emil.mit.y23892 жыл бұрын
im crying- this is so beautiful!!
@davidg.2144 Жыл бұрын
What a beautiful Song ❤️ I can really relate to it 🫶🏻 You‘re doing a great Job
@rn6355 Жыл бұрын
u deserve alot more😢❤❤❤❤
@shafaralparizi5550 Жыл бұрын
Keep make song with a soul bro i like that
@bento12562 жыл бұрын
This song is just too good to have only 7,000 Views.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Ahh thank you so much 🥺
@anjanovak11192 жыл бұрын
Awsome song and really relatable. Sending you all the love from Slovenia❤️
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thanks so much!! ❤
@grimhawk93082 жыл бұрын
You just summed it up. Love you bro.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤❤❤
@dstreak92 Жыл бұрын
Beautiful music!!
@1forlive1999 Жыл бұрын
This is painful to hear but so lovely to heard over and over again.
@feiermusic2 жыл бұрын
this is the most beautiful song I've heard in a while
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much 🥺
@Tj-ed4je2 жыл бұрын
💯💔
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤
@zainabkhalid14092 жыл бұрын
Cant wait for you to go make it sooo big dude.
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much!!
@aaronmoua89642 жыл бұрын
Been waiting for this to come out since I saw it a month ago on TikTok 🥰
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
YAY ITS HEREEEE
@saiprabhu34682 жыл бұрын
Too good,deserves a million ❤
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thank you so much!
@joshuahoy5257 Жыл бұрын
wow i love your song bro :)
@JackG_Entertainment2 жыл бұрын
This is soooo underrated!! This is a great song and your voice is great! Keep doing this man this song is amazing 🙂
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much!!
@Asim_Inamdar2 жыл бұрын
Added to my favs list❤️
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thanks so much!!
@pramitghosh85442 жыл бұрын
Nice song bro❤️❤️
@santhoshjayakaran2 жыл бұрын
What a song
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤️❤️❤️
@rastatararararsta28352 жыл бұрын
i found this song from your insta! keep up the good work, this is such a good melodies & lyrics ❤️
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
thank you so much!
@sofiaaynur76122 жыл бұрын
Hi Ryan, I heard your song on insta for the first time and I simply fell in love, the lyrics, the message you convey with such a pure sincerity and honesty, your voice is angelic, I'm listening to it on repeat for about 2 hours now, you are so talented please keep going, you have a fan here! ❤️
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
You are SO sweet! Thank you so much ❤️
@saikrupa20042 жыл бұрын
This is soo trueee😭
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤️
@animehoz6192 жыл бұрын
Bruhhh love ittttt 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🖤
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
❤️
@Kev232 жыл бұрын
love this bro
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
😭❤️
@taimurkhan6122 жыл бұрын
Keep that up ! You have great creativity skills as the songs speaks itself 👍🏻
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much!
@sunflowersrosieashle2 жыл бұрын
This is a masterpiece
@ryanealon2 жыл бұрын
you're so sweet! thank you!
@its.EvanCorey2 жыл бұрын
IT IS FINALLY OUT 😭 OMG it is PERFECTION! thank you so so so much for this