3 years off protracted benzo withdrawal

[@masonguritz6758]

I had to stop online college, because I couldn’t retain anything I was learning. My anxiety was through the roof trying to learn

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I barely had to retain anything because I picked a soft science, already have a degree in soft science and kept really good notes. I basically had to teach myself how to read again during this.

[@tamihenderson4500]

@@AngiePeacockMSWis it normal for your head to be jerking

[@Filthycoffin]

I’m 20 months now I wake up with extreme fear/anxiety and suicidal. It starts at 3:am lasts till 1-3pm. I’ve no drive to do anything but I need to work and do things. When did the morning shit go away it’s taking away my life and makes akathisia bad.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Around the 3 year mark it started to calm down. Hang in there. You’re right in that zone.

[@susanmorgan4151]

How are you doing now ❤? 8-24.

[@foxclover6]

2.5 years, definitely eye stuff. If it wasn't for you I'd be dead, I fought really hard to be alive, but you're the only person who I related to. Still struggling, but still fighting.

[@TheBenzoHouse]

Glad to see you still making videos!!!!! Thank you for supporting others!!

[@stevevoncini4661]

Thanks for the update much appreciated. Hope things continue to improve for you. Take care.

[@scottabaillie]

Dear Angie, Thank you for your strength , and for your honesty , Love Scott from Australia.

[@TE-7302-]

I love your honesty regarding how irrational some of your fears were.

[@toolaazy]

Haven't watched yet, but just saying hey and imagining giving ya a high - five! 2 years as of the 28th here. I figured this was rare for it to last so long, but yeah. Learned a lot that I don't think I would or could have any other way though.

[@lcf3335]

Your a real trooper.. And a true surviver👊

[@TheBambam2371]

Will pray for you my friend. I hope you feel better soon. Pray about this. God will help you. He loves you unconditionally. More than you will ever understand. I wish you the very best. God bless you my friend.

[@jocelynpoesnecker5526]

I had a time when I was feeling not well. God Helped me remember things that I had done that were wrong with other people. I really wanted to repent to God of my sins! I remembered having lied to some people and I prayed to God for Help as to what to do. For women I spoke to them and offered a gift from jewelry I had. I promised them that I planned to never hurt them again. For some men I lied to I wrote them citing the incident and apologizing to them. For one I also baked some bread for him and sent it with my son. I thank God; I now feel much better and I am happy. I ask God humbly to Bless you.

[@elijah8849]

Withdrawals happen from antidepressants as well. I think it has some sort of effect on the central nervous system. psychiatric drugs are no joke. I am so sorry you have had to go through this babe. I pray it gets better for you! Edit: TRY DEEP BREATHING EXERCISES AT NIGHT. IT WILL REALLY HELP WITH ANXIETY SYMPTOMS!!

[@syntholshoulders1842]

Is a modern lobotomy is a mental castration it's truly horrible unspeakable pain they all neuro toxins SSRI's anti benzos ativan yet some people still advocate their use

[@UnBoxLifeWithLori]

I agree with you 100% Dr.'s prescribing Benzo's without knowing what happens. I remember thinking "that dr. who prescribed these evil drugs to me for 2 yrs - need to have to go through the exact same nightmare ( I went to hell ) withdrawal I went through."

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Lori how r u now

[@incognito595]

THEY ALREADY KNEW/KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WOULD SUFFER.

[@bobsolem6034]

Thank you for confirming I'm not crazy. My one year off the medication is a week away and I see progress but like most I'm impatient. I too have a lot of similarities to your experience and then some differences. I was on Klonopin for 23 years. Time heals I guess, have to keep on reminding myself.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

One day at a time!

[@graysonguice5956]

You are one strong woman, I'm 28 male and this is scaring the shit out of me starting taper, already so many symptoms

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Slow and steady wins the race. Please make sure you are well educated on safer tapering strategies!

[@tamihenderson4500]

@@AngiePeacockMSWif it wasn’t for you I would probably be dead even though it’s rough at 5 months I hope I get to tell my story I’m weak right now

[@jocelynpoesnecker5526]

I ask God humbly to Bless you.

[@sharon8121]

Believe in yourself. Exactly! Look what help can do to you! Never put others opinions over your own.

[@Mi-mi4gr]

Hey I just wanted to say I’ve been taking 6 mg of clanazapem For 11 years And I’m tapering down and I can assure the person You We’re going back-and-forth with in the comments that there are countless symptoms🤦‍♀️And everybody’s different so if they were survivor everybody’s journey is different

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Ariana Elisa thanks Ariana. You are so right. I get very defensive when people try to tell me what I am experiencing is not real or not as bad as it really is. They have no clue what we go through.

[@Rhonaroo]

Wonder how you're doing today!

[@Mi-mi4gr]

Rhona Page I haven’t done another taper so I’m ok still not my self . I’m scared 😱 to do another taper I think this is giving me PTSD. Thank you for looking out for me:)

[@80s_GameR]

Couldn't agree more Ariana Elisa, i find myself that a lot of people don't realise or i go misunderstood even family members but they haven't been through anything like this they're basically gauging it on an anxiety basis which i wish it was tbh, thank goodness for Angie Peacock ❤️🧠💪🏼👌🏼

[@Mi-mi4gr]

@@sangeetalambh6389 yes there’s countless symptoms

[@ted.the.human1]

Thank you for your post I really enjoy your videos and have been watching from the beginning. I am 2 years and 7 months off so im not to far behind you.I have this theory that part of what makes recovery so bad is that it causes adrenal fatigue . I know there is no proof for this but I truly believe the sleep deprivation and the body being in a constant panic/hyper vigil state for so long puts our bodies into adrenal fatigue. So it just compounds the problem even more. I know this is just speculation but it seems logically possible if you really look into it. It all lines up

[@sonofhibbs4425]

Yes, I think so too. After all this I was diagnosed with “chronic fatigue syndrome “, which is basically a trash can diagnosis. I have no doubts this drug messed my body up. No doubts. They can’t tell me otherwise. There should be justice for all of us who were harmed.

[@liamo54321]

Son Of Hibbs can we heal from damge these meds have done

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Ted howw r u now

[@brittalinstrom537]

Did you have really bad dizziness and balance issues? Or muscle jerking/twitching when falling asleep?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Yes I did at that point off. I’m now 9 years off and it’s all gone.

[@tyme5514]

Good day to you. I was on Rophynol for about 1 year and now I am having post acute withdrawal symptoms. It all started in September when I went cold turkey. I am from Africa and the medics here didn't really tell me anything about the side effects. I came across your videos few months ago and also checked Benzobuddies because you spoke about it and it really helped me understand what I was going through. I saw the video you did at 6 months, you spoke about your neck feeling swollen. I am having the same problem right now, feels like my thyroid glands are affected. I have spent so much going to the hospital until I came across your videos and I decided to stop going to the hospital also because it was affecting my finances. I had to close my business and relocate to a place where I wouldn't kill myself. I would like to know if you used anything for the neck issues you had or if you have any advice for me because it's getting at me. Thanks

[@Veevaldimoney]

I was afraid to believe it could have been ativan making my life a living hell, for I only took it for about 10 days, as prescribed to me when I freaked out (we're talking ER visits at 2 a.m. so I wouldn't blow my brain out) taking Celexa for only four. However, I watched your videos and you described me to a T. I of course don't have it as badly, but it's still a black nightmare of doom worse than any horror writer could ever dream of (unless they took it as well). Depersonalization/derealization, panic and doom triggered by lighting, music, even some of my favorite hobbies, weird myalgia/fibromyalgia problems and pain, the works. After only 10 days and almost three months of this crap. Do yourselves a favor, folks, and face your demons or change your lives. Don't use these pills. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@tp5386]

Finally found someone with similar experience . I took 14 pills of clonazepam for around 10 days and it has been 4 months since still suffering

[@theanointedbrush8859]

I took Xanax for only 5 days at 0.5 mg. 8 months off and still healing. My CNS was originally fried by taking Zoloft twice and having a reaction to it. I started having panic attacks to ER gave me Xanax. It made it 100x worse. This is tortuous. But we will all make it.

[@salonsanmiguel133lauramarg8]

Are you better

[@daliac4023]

I feel For you I went through this I was on lorazepam cheap brand of Ativan didn’t know these pills are for people who had seizures and I took him I was prescribed by the hospital for anxiety and panic attacks got addicted to them three years off I’m still feeling lingering effects I just want to be back to normal I can’t even drive can’t go nowhere if I do it’s ready to come home home is my safe haven I feel really bad for you and I hope you get better

[@Veevaldimoney]

How is everyone doing? It does go away, it just takes a hideous amount of time.

[@jojojeep1]

I remember your original video, I went down from 4mg to 1 mg gram and a half, now I’m at the point where I use a jewelers scale, one K-pin Weighs 55 mg I take a razor blade and slightly shave it until it goes down to 54 mg and on and on so far so good

[@tamihenderson4500]

I had surgery and a cortisone shot no knowing I was in withdrawal heal me most high

[@benzoaftermath6831]

Thanks for sharing, I hope that you feel better soon.

[@goalsoverbenzos5384]

I really appreciate your videos and admire your resilience. Are you at a point in your recovery where you're able to sustain fun and healthy relationships with people again. Almost 9 months off and I'm still anti social as shit.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

ehhh not quite. I talk to my benzo friends because they understand how I still struggle. Outside of that I really don't socialize and mostly just want to be at home in the quiet after I am at school and stuff. It's rare that I do anything social. Maybe once every 3 months or so lately.

[@goalsoverbenzos5384]

@@AngiePeacockMSW At least you're able to go to school and fly and do stuff like that. That's pretty impressive in itself :) I have a lot of physical energy (ran a half marathon yesterday) but mentally I'm still in the twilight zone. Have you heard from healed people that their social lives come back in full swing? Being a recluse is not the a lifestyle I think any of us enjoy...in any case very very proud of how far you've come. It takes a fuckin boss of a person to survive this stuff

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

wow- half marathon! So jealous! I lost all that energy after 1 year mark lol. Yes, I know lots of healed people and they are dating, traveling overseas, have friends, you name it!

[@goalsoverbenzos5384]

@@AngiePeacockMSW that's good to hear! I Tend to HOUND people with questions about the social aspect of things lol it's just so damn scary when a 29 year old man "forgets" how to hold a conversation. I can honestly say I've gotten the most out of your videos, you seem to have a real go getter's attitude. I'm definitely rooting for ya :)

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@goalsoverbenzos5384 i started by making myself talk to 1 person per day, even if it was just to say hello. Then 2, then I had to be nice. It's very much like we have to relearn all these things one by one. Just push a little outside of your comfort zone every single day and you will get there!

[@Jack-mw3rp]

Benzo withdrawal had me on my knees crying it is horrific 22 months clean and still a mess but I have improved

[@LEGENDofBEANY]

How you feeling now?

[@Jack-mw3rp]

@@LEGENDofBEANY a lot better think I’m nearly there maybe another 6 months

[@Jack-mw3rp]

@@LEGENDofBEANY the withdrawal makes you lose your mind i was seeing and hearing things that weren’t there and you cannot sleep for days

[@Jack-mw3rp]

@@LEGENDofBEANY the anxiety and terror is like been in hell you can’t eat because your stomach cramps up so glad I got through it I cold turkeyed in a prison cell for 2 years

[@Jack-mw3rp]

@@LEGENDofBEANY whole body shaking 24/7

[@xy-qy2yg]

I do not know how we do not want to die cause this is not living at all, I do not care about dying, it is the suffering that is so bad

[@vaneramirez5235]

Thank you for your support !

[@Kimmm1984]

I know from experience not everything has to be benzo related. I had pretty bad CNS problems before going on Valium, it was 1 of the reasons I was put on it. I used it for 6 months incl taper and had a lot of trouble with it coming off. I did found out later down the road, that I had some other things going on and had to have 2 surgeries to heal from that. So for me, it definitely wasn't just benzo withdrawal. I think it's important to mention, because sometimes we get lost in the whole benzo withdrawal syndrome and miss chances to improve. I'm almost 28 months free and a lot of things have improved, but I still feel like moving into a log cabin in the mountains where it's quiet and where I can follow my own pace. Extreme nervous system issues will change your entire world and it's the most horrible thing I've ever experienced. I also have a really hard time going to the doctor and I also see a functional medical doctor. I feel a lot of these issues are caused by your genetic make up and that's the reason why some of us don't have any issues and some of us struggle immensly.

[@udaykiran8163]

Very well said

[@neetujogi8087]

@@udaykiran8163 r u indian?? How r u?

[@Rhonaroo]

The first 10 minutes of this video describe exactly and precisely what I went through same time frame same exact symptoms same attitude oh my gosh... I'm having a particularly wonderful day today two years off and today something in my brain healed so that I can take a step up ladder... Thank you 4 your video honestly, it certainly could have been me writing your words and I really appreciate it!!!!!♡♡♡♡ * so many bad things have happened as a result of this withdrawal!!!!*

[@jbgodsgirl5381]

Rhona Page how are you doing now?

[@jarmenkell1991]

3 years here and you suffering I have see a post from you you was in one year healed 75%

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Yeah and then I went straight back to hell. Feel free to watch how my whole process unfolded. I vlogged the whole thing on this channel.

[@jarmenkell1991]

@@AngiePeacockMSW You did not have persistent derealization or constant headaches. You did not have akathasia. I know you suffered, but don't exaggerate. You were all miserable, yes. But when you were back in hell, how could you still work and go to school?? You only unsettle everyone who is in such a bad situation. Much worse than you. And you have never talked about your sleep except very recently, and recently in your video you said you only slept 20-60 minutes the whole year, 60 minutes if you're lucky. That's not true. That's a lie. You end up in psychosis, just like me. And I have never seen or heard of anyone writing that I am 75% cured after 11 months who only sleeps for 20 minutes. The only person who tells the truth is Jason Anthony on KZbin.

[@80s_GameR]

Day 35 I went down to the super mall today first time I've left the house in two months got breakfast and actually enjoyed the walk back home had a laugh on the way back it definitely lifted my spirits, enjoy the little things because they seem to me too be the big things, i won't ever take anything for granted ever again.. don't think i did anyway probably my brain being numb to it all.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

It's so true. I enjoy even a good night's sleep so much more now. I am so happy you are seeing healing.

[@80s_GameR]

Yeah definitely Angie I'm getting about 5 - 6 hrs on a good day and I'm so grateful for that considering the insomnia that it entails, I really appreciate a lot even though i still feel like shit, thank you very much Angie I'm happy for you also and grateful ❤️

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@AngiePeacockMSW how r u now

[@sonofhibbs4425]

It is really scary- you wonder if this will be the rest of your life. I want to be truthful, for some, I’ve heard it is life long, but their symptoms are more apparent. but take heart that 3 years out and having symptoms is not uncommon....as you know, they don’t report how ducked up their demon drug makes people. You do get better and better. It’s a two steps forward one steps back type thing. I want to encourage you. It’s so tough. No one seems to understand or care. I was on benzo buddies forum-. It helps so much to speak to others. Take care if yourself and do what you need to care for it. I found eliminating sugar and caffeine helped a lot. No junk food- all healthy fresh foods- greens, veggies. Yes, the weight gain is from it. I suffered the same. I was able to lose the weight (and got really skinny) once the symptoms subsided. It’s from the stress this shit causes. I’m not a doctor, but please don’t fast- it’s too hard on your liver which was already put through hell. Just eat lots if salad without dressing. Do veggie smoothies- mostly veggie but add a fruit to sweeten. This should help a lot. Sleep whenever you can...lots if need be. Don’t be hard on your body. Everything you described is very similar to what I went through. Your senses enhance to remarkable levels. I remember I could smell so much of my surroundings...I mean everything from the mud, the grass, the pine trees, the oil on the ground under the car....everything, all at once. It was painful. These drugs screw with way too much of the brain for them to be ok to take. Makes me so sad for y’all... let me assure you it gets better. Hang in there. I’m listening, I hear you and I support you.

[@liamo54321]

So your saying we never heal fully

[@susanmorgan4151]

Thank you!❤

[@JustME-ft4di]

Thank you Ang!

[@vaneramirez5235]

God bless you .

[@tygreen8831]

It gets better long fucking process hang on warriors

[@silvana8246]

how on earth did you work and study!!??

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Silvana my symptoms were so bad I needed constant distraction. It was super hard. However, I didn’t “work.” I had a very flexible internship that gave me disability accommodations. School did too. It’s the second hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Withdrawal was first, school second, combat third.

[@nyclettetoby2908]

Thank u so much for thing video. Did u get any gas in side your stomach? Or stomach pain? If yes , did it felt like burning pain ??

[@e-lb3234]

So happy for you in manyways hope you evenmore feel getting better💕

[@garysimone4977]

Thank you for sharing I am suffering and trying to WD..... how did you handle no sleep ??? You are so strong Pls keep sharing

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Gary Simone you just trust the process and know you won’t die. Your body will sleep when it needs to.

[@garysimone4977]

Healingfrom Benzos Thank you. As you know a night with no sleep the weee hours I are the worst the depression is soooawful you have the same experience ??

[@garysimone4977]

Yes I need to trust the body I am tying to control this crap I need to let go as you did

[@susanmorgan4151]

​@@garysimone4977YES!!

[@boomboxboy7729]

Here are some of the symptoms of DP/DR I have. Can you relate to these? Does this stuff ever go away? 1. Emotional or physical numbness of your senses or responses to the world around you 2. A sense that your memories lack emotion, and that they may or may not be your own memories 3. Feelings of being alienated from or unfamiliar with your surroundings - for example, like you're living in a movie or a dream 4. Feeling emotionally disconnected from people you care about, as if you were separated by a glass wall 5. Surroundings that appear distorted, blurry, colorless, two-dimensional or artificial, or a heightened awareness and clarity of your surroundings I am over ten months off and taking time off work and the DP/DR seems to be worse the past few days.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Yes absolutley. I still feel like I can't touch my life that happened before this experience. I also feel that glass wall but it gets less and less as the months so by. I would say most of what you wrote was either gone or greatly reduced by 18-22 months. You're in a touch stretch and I was feeling pretty shitty at 10 months off.

[@boomboxboy7729]

@@AngiePeacockMSW So what is the vision stuff you're dealing with, exactly. I think mine are a result of DR/DP. My vision is always really blurry and my surroundings seem off or distorted like I am no longer connected to them. Do you think it would be worth it to get my eyes checked and tell them what happened? Could an optometrist do anything?

[@sonofhibbs4425]

Boom box, it does get better. I’m 12 years out...3 years of hell, and then a few more of off on symptoms that were not as bad and heavy, but just sensed. All I can say is take good care of yourself. I’m not a doctor, but do what you feel is necessary, but be aware that these symptoms can be mistaken for other things and the doctors can mess you up more if they don’t understand what’s going on. I don’t know what you’re going through, but with withdrawal, it’s up to you what you feel needs to be checked out.

[@boomboxboy7729]

@@sonofhibbs4425 I'm just over 11 months off now. My sleep has returned, so that's a good thing for sure. But some other symptoms are emerging and others are just slowly improving.

[@boomboxboy7729]

@@sonofhibbs4425 Did you have really bad depression still at a year off?

[@alexandrasarno6394]

why did u gain weight you think? I have horrible vision problems on clonazepam..terrified to get off as I have a 10 year old and no help..Im 39 years old too..congratulations on your recovery journey..u are amazing!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

These drugs poisoned my body and I believe that put it into a stress state. Everyone I know either loses weight or gains weight when they start tapering. I gained.

[@a.b.37-f9v]

@@AngiePeacockMSW I gained weight too however I was put on gabapentin to deal with withdrawal and I know that contributed to it. Now I have to taper off it and I've heard it's just as bad

[@Vangela1]

Peri menopause can also cause cortisol and heart palps. I get to go through BWS and peri at the same time. 🙄

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Rock Me Armageddon I believe it. Haven’t had the heart palps in a while. All gone.

[@susie-q1630]

Me too! I can't tell what my symptoms are from anymore.

[@naomi8097]

Does eating healthy help you through this?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Food is information and supports your body with nutrients while healing. No one should be eating the standard American diet. It’s trash.

[@susanmorgan4151]

​@@AngiePeacockMSWTRUTH❤!!!

[@jracs]

very strong woman i admire her.

[@jocelynpoesnecker5526]

I love that people believe God Exists and God never dies!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Jocelyn Poesnecker wish god wouldn’t have allowed this to happen. Makes me wonder!

[@susanmorgan4151]

​@@AngiePeacockMSW, totally understand. We live in a fallen world for sure. Human failure, human greed , and human ignorance did this to us. I believe God's grace is leading us and teaching us through this hideous journey. I'm so GLAD you are using this devastating experience to help so Many of us other poor schmucks. ❤ You are appreciated and loved!

[@b.b.884]

You are my hero. I watch your videos over and over. I am very, very, very sick...with this. I don’t think it’s looking very good for me..which is really sad..I have two daughters 19 & 23.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Take it one day at a time! YOU WILL HEAL I PROMISE YOU! Live in the second, minute, hour, DO NOT THINK about a week or a year from now. If you want to distract... here's my new channel: kzbin.info/door/iDKHkLjlQGz7Rgv0Z8kHQw

[@b.b.884]

..came across my comment when re-watching your videos. My girls are now 22 & 26…..I am in the same spot….now 27 months off….I don’t understand this…. Love following you on fb ❤️ Stay strong ❤️

[@tigerlily9234]

@@b.b.884how are you

[@b.b.884]

@@tigerlily9234Wow…it’s been an unbelievably long road! I can do more these days ☺️ however, I am still dealing with painful symptoms and can get hit pretty hard when in a 🌊. Re~reading this thread blows me…my girls are now 28 & 24. I will be 4 1/2 years off all meds at the end of this month. How are you doing?

[@vaneramirez5235]

Hello the first I want to thank you for your support . I took by misstake another Benzo the other day . And I can not go out now after one damn pill my symptoms get 100 hundred worse that I can not do nothing now . How long time do you think that I need for get better from the last dos and setback ?

[@positivebenzowithdrawal5578]

Thank you. 🙏🏽❤️

[@tygreen8831]

How are you now?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I'm going to make another video this weekend. Hit the bell to be notified when I post it.

[@tygreen8831]

It gets better long fucking process!!

[@ericblackmonmusicbass9175]

Hi. Glad to see that you are finally getting better. Thank you for this video. My wife is dealing with benzo withdrawal right now and has been med free for 4 months. She is totally incapacitated at this point. How long was it before your worse symptoms started to subside? Thanks.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

6-8 months was the worst of the worst. 18 months was pretty bad. But, remember, we are all different so she could get better tomorrow. The 3-4 month mark were really, really hard for me. I was unable to make videos, it was so bad.

[@vaneramirez5235]

Did you experiment like painfully electric sensation in your brain ?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Yes and it felt like my brain was swelling and pushing on my skull like my brain had too much pressure in it. It was horrible.

[@christopheryako4419]

Hey I hope your doing well. I just wanna say I was taking 2 to 3mg of xanax every second day for about 6months. I'm 5 months off them cold turkey and I'm feeling 70% like my self. I Just wanted to ask how long where you on them and how long did it take for you to feel normal again?

[@cm9270]

How/when did your sleep come back? What helped? Even though you said you wake up 2 times a night, I would kill to be able to sleep and only wake up 2 times. In 2017, I spontaneously developed anxiety and insomnia from a neck injury. The injury healed, but the anxiety and insomnia wouldn't stop. I am 3 months off having taken Ativan for 11 months plus a 5 month taper. I was polydrugged during those 11 months with other ADs and tricyclics - horrible side effects. Past 2 years have been really traumatic. Been taking melatonin, but I think it's backfiring on me now. I get a couple broken hours one night and not the next. I think I might have to ditch it. Scared! I have an 11 year old son and I desperately want to get well and be a happy, healthy Mom again.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Change your diet. That helped me more than anything. I didn't sleep more than 4 hours total until I was 11 months off. I'll never forget that when it happened. I was so grateful. No caffeine, no processed foods, lots of water--- that helped my sleep within 3 weeks of doing it. My sleep got bad recently and now I'm doing keto and its better than ever! I wake up rested. Hasn't been like that in probably 15 years since the first time I was put on meds.

[@cm9270]

@@AngiePeacockMSW Which do you like more VMR/Paleo or Keto? As soon as this happened to me, I stopped caffeine, cut out sugar, eliminated processed foods and have tried to cut out gluten and dairy since they increase glutamate, which mine is high. I'm also trying to drink 1/2 my body weight. I could be doing a better job on the diet, but I'm really exhausted since jumping a couple months ago. Also, under a lot of stress with the marriage, which isn't helping. :(

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@cm9270 I like both but I'm getting faster results and more energy with IF/Keto

[@cm9270]

@@AngiePeacockMSW Thank you. I wish you continued healing in 2019!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@cm9270 You too!!!

[@evngeo6611]

Good vid. Spot on.

[@capstone6045]

Going through the same hell , off 4 years. Go check out dr tent. He’s amazing, nothing about benzo withdrawal, but, a lot of great info

[@davidkruse4030]

Dr tent the chiropractor?

[@boomboxboy7729]

Do you really believe everyone heals? I am nearly 10 months off .25 mgs of Klonopin, which I quit c/t. I only took it for 2 1/2 months but was probably kindled. I have tried everything. Exercise. Drink more water. Eat better. No alcohol. No caffeine. No supplements really. I tried zinc and ginkgo for a while but neither was helping me. I am still suffering from insomnia and depression (all symptoms associated with it). But the biggest problem is I know I'm not myself still. Does this ever actually change?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Yes it does change. 10 months off i was still pretty bad off. Go watch my other videos so you can see the difference between then and now. Also, go here to learn more about what you are going through: facebook.com/groups/benzorecovery/

[@boomboxboy7729]

@@AngiePeacockMSW I have tons of numbness and itchiness and tingline in the backs of my legs. I also have facial numbness. Those are my main two physical symptoms. Have you dealt with those? Have they gone away? I am also dealing with depression. No hobbies. S.I. I have intrusive thoughts about my family and random people. I still have a very hard time with idle time and must keep myself busy at all times. Insomnia. The DR feels like my vision is all screwed up and the world around me doesn't feel right.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@boomboxboy7729 Yes i mentioned everything you said in my video. Mostly at the beginning. It's all gone now. It goes away. Here's another video I made about SI and intrusive thoughts. I had them for a very long time but they are gone now too... kzbin.info/www/bejne/l3q9hYZmfbBje68

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@boomboxboy7729 howw r u now

[@boomboxboy7729]

@@sangeetalambh6389 Better.

[@vaneramirez5235]

Did you feel every time that you were having this sensation in your brain your heart was slowly like you will be unconscious?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I had so many strange things like that, almost every single day for 2 years.

[@Noir-sr5bw]

How do we move forward with these bad memories

[@goalsoverbenzos5384]

How are you now boo?

[@cmendoza5917]

I like your videos! I’m ct 2 mg Ativan all because stupid ass doctors don’t know about Benzo I’m 14 months out and in complete hell my main symptom is severe dizziness

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

It will go away! Keep on healing!

[@udaykiran8163]

Not everything will be benzo related symptoms right? Of course some may be.... When we are dealing with benzo withdrawal we tend to relate everylittile symptom to benzos...... I am not against you guys.... I know your pain.... I am scared to taper

[@ourevilone]

going through benzo withdrawal will exacerbate any symptom you are having with anything wrong with you. if you have hormonal imbalance, if you have pain, if you have food sensitivities, everything just gets worse through benzo withdrawal.

[@Thomas-j2g6x]

@@oureviloneit will create problems

[@Remi-bt7tp]

Question: I’ve been off Klonopin for 14 months and I’ve started to have really good days lately with almost no symptoms if I get restorative sleep , if I don’t get restorative sleep I basically just stay home and deal with it. I’ve been going out eating at restaurants , shopping and socializing with close friends and family and it has been pretty good with very few symptoms. However last night I went and socialized with some friends and had to socialize with people I don’t know and had never met and I was in and out of extreme nervousness , feeling like I wanted to jump out of my skin feeling, etc... it would come and go. I feel deflated afterwards because I had had a really good day up until the socializing with people I don’t know that evening , is that normal for my first time socializing ?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

totally. We remain sensitive to stress of any kind for awhile so new things can trigger those weird feelings again. When I felt like that I just kept doing it in hopes that my brain would adjust eventually. It's not dangerous, just bad bad anxiety and it won't kill you. It's just really uncomfortable.

[@John-p8m2j]

Sounds like it makes opioid withdrawal a cake walk in comparison, no human should feel those symptoms, good grief

[@vaneramirez5235]

I just want to say that before I took my lost dos of Benzo my withdrawal was normal I took another Benzo by misstake and my symptoms got 100 times worse . I’m 3 months off sense my last dos and I still suffering terrible symptoms that I can not even go out . How many months do you think that it’s the worse ? God bless you and thank you !

[@kingbee48185]

At what point did the insomnia and heart flutter (atrial fibrillation) go away? Did you throw up a lot trying to eat? I am 50 something, planning to taper down. When I went 5 days cold turkey, no sleep, minor heart attack. Also get nauseous and sick frequently.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Yes, you can't go cold turkey. IT IS SO DANGEROUS and is why my withdrawal has been so intense and protracted. Here's some info that might help if you are having trouble while still on. Also, make sure you get checked out medically to make sure it's not something else. w-bad.org/tolerance/ Please look here for information about tapering. www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php

[@ellaMel4632]

How long were you taking , and how much , did you taper already or cold turkey . I m also in my 50s and afraid l will not handle withdrawals . As far as food it’s really bad , did you loose weigh?

[@atypicallavender77]

I'll be 41 months off tomorrow and i am still suffering... :(

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

What symptoms do you have left. I am still suffering from a lot too.

[@harmedbuthealing]

Hey just wondering how you’re feeling these days?

[@stuntmanlove]

How’s your quality of life now compared to when you first started withdrawls? Also did you stay on the anti depressants?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

much much much better. Watch my 4 years off video on my channel.

[@stuntmanlove]

Healingfrom Benzos I did! I saw that! Are you sure you didn’t have withdrawls from effexor or Cymbalta? Thanks for responding btw! I’m glad you’re better. I just came off Effexor 4 months and I’m in the middle of hell. I don’t have the akathesia where I have to move but moving does help me and walking the Neighboorhood

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@stuntmanlove yes I had withdrawal from all of those but was on nothing for 4 years except benzos then came off those and that put me into a whole other level of hell I didn't experience with Cymbalta or Effexor. But, I have no idea if the benzo was covering the other withdrawals or not but I was functional before benzo withdrawal.

[@stuntmanlove]

Healingfrom Benzos yes that’s crazy what these drugs do to you regardless of the type of drug, right? Thanks for your videos. Makes me think this isn’t going to last forever. I never feel tired and I have constipation. I’m 31 and this effexor screwed me up. I feel like I’m gunna be like this forever. I can’t imagine being normal after this

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@stuntmanlove You will! If I can heal, you will too! Just takes time.

[@tombalthis7199]

Need to locate a benzo wise doctor .In Florida can travel for compassionate doctor.Want to switch from xanax to Valium and then taper my doctor won’t help!Anybody have any references?Please somebody respond!!!

[@carolinamadariaga1644]

Someone who got setbacks from Kambucha ? I red that kambucha have alcohol . And if like this for how long it was last ?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Kombucha made my visual symptoms worse and I got pretty bad for about a month.

[@ChadGraves-h3g]

How do you know its not just your "original" problems and not protracted withdrawals

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

That would be up for you to decide but many say - if they still have some weird physical symptoms, they know they’re still in withdrawal. If it’s their previous issues, work on them in a holistic way, meds are not the answer for many of us and we find others ways to heal. There are other ways.

[@ChadGraves-h3g]

@@AngiePeacockMSW I agree benzo s end up making things worse, have u heard of agmatine. It does the same thing can get it at Walmart

[@billiecontreras9255]

How long did you have tge akathesia

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Billie Contreras I never paced it was only internal really.

[@vaneramirez5235]

Im worse now because i got the cold , and im feeling Terrible bad one week like im in acute like the first month . Dis you have the cold or the flu under your Withdrawal and IF like this how many weeks ? Thank you for asking me how i feel ?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

5-7 days. For more support visit the groups. I can't answer all the time. facebook.com/groups/benzorecovery/

[@Clambum]

Hey I’m 53 days into quitting THC oil concentrates, I dabbed from morning till night for a couple years and I know your knowledge on this is very limited but basically I’m going through post acute withdrawal syndrome. Symptoms I’m experiencing are dissociation, anxiety, depression, and tingling sensations throughout my body. I know time will heal but with the dissociation/brain fog/ derealisation/depersonalisation how long did it take for that to go away? It sucks :(

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

My acute withdrawal lasted about 6 months. It was pure torture. It takes time and lots of it. You’ll get there though. Take it one heartbeat at a time if you have to. That’s literally what I had to do.

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Jaden how r u now

[@billiecontreras9255]

You mentioned that you had multiple cold turkeys. If you dont mind me asking, what else besides tge benzo did you ct off of?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Billie Contreras nothing this last time. Only 1.5mg Ativan. The last meds I took were 3 years before.

[@billiecontreras9255]

@@AngiePeacockMSW I sent you an email 2 days ago and was hoping to hear back. Hopefully you got it

[@TE-7302-]

May I ask how many CTs you went through? Did you CT the other meds or taper? I think I’ll try your taper group even though I’m broke. The other groups trigger me - either with horror stories or toxic positivity 😂, but I find you inspiring! I just don’t know any coaches who actually tapered.

[@DavisonVideo]

look into dr. norman doidge for brain healing neuroplasticity treatments. you could use light or pons therapy possibly for your eyes.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I did his exercises for almost 3 years and it didn't help. I also did brain injury rehab designed for neuroplasticity for 1.5 years and that didn't work either.

[@genemurphy5075]

Would all of you people posting videos pursuant to this subject stop using the term "Withdraw" the symptoms have nothing to do whatsoever with the discontinuation of the drug or withdraw of the drug. The drug is out of your system within 72 hours. It is the damage or acquired brain damage that is the cause of all the symptoms, that is why it takes years to recover. Very similar to the damage incurred from a stroke. It was the pharmaceutical companies who promotes the term withdraw and abuse in order that it places the blame on the user rather than the drug. When ever they see or here someone use the term" withdraw" they celebrate that there cover up campaign is still working great after over 50 years. Thanks, God bless you all,

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

did you listen to the whole video? I mention it a few times. I call it brain damage.

[@sonofhibbs4425]

Gene, I see your point..it’s important what you say, but it’s obvious that the term withdrawal has to be used to help the people out there going through this...that’s the term they would look up. I can’t speak for the owner if this channel, but it’s apparent to me, she’s trying to reach out to others suffering, in order to help. Which, I know she is. But you do bring up a most excellent point. I have always believed it is brain damage. The companies need to be held responsible for such.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@genemurphy5075 Please send your thoughts to Benzodiazepine Information Coalition, World Benzo Awareness Day, and The Withdrawal Project-Inner Compass Initiative.

[@neetujogi8087]

These motor issues r are lik stroke one side of my body . No cordination only weakness one side. Does this go away? Is it axonal loss?? That happnes in brain damage

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

that's a common symptom for some people. I had it! I got medically checked but they didn't find anything.

[@neetujogi8087]

@@AngiePeacockMSW okies thank u . Ur reply gives me so much hope. I also have severe hair loss in patches . I had thick hair before. Did u also suffer hairloss??

[@Agaettis]

Why did you pic the benzo to taper off of last?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

i didn't know any better. Was just listening to the doctor who was helping me come off.

[@pgomezbaez]

Ang: Very good hearing that you are feeling much better, I saw in another video from you that you had hypnic jerks on your legs and Twitches or fasciculation's, do you still have them? Are those related with some food?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I think for me they definitely were made worse by food. Mine feel like the bone marrow has electricity in them and I have to move and kind of kick them to feel better. I've been on keto diet for last 2 months now and haven't really noticed them. I can't remember the last time I had them. Maybe before the diet change?

[@pgomezbaez]

thank you very much for your response best regards @@AngiePeacockMSW

[@garysimone4977]

I am st a lost was on Klonopine for only 3 months 15 months ago can I still be in WD ???

[@jorgei.hernandez610]

Gary Simone how you feeling?

[@garysimone4977]

Jorge I.Hernandez it had been bruta

[@jorgei.hernandez610]

Gary Simone did you taper off or ct

[@garysimone4977]

Jorge I.Hernandez I tapered off under doc supervision

[@jorgei.hernandez610]

Gary Simone how long was your taper ?

[@terrybaldwin8883]

Cannot hear you

[@Thomas-j2g6x]

Does anyone take anything for stomach issues I’ve tried Pepcid and it don’t work makes me worse

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

PPIs seem to make people worse. Not a good idea. Try diet changes before drugs.

[@Thomas-j2g6x]

@@AngiePeacockMSW I’m 10 months off and not doing good at all period I’m fatigued like crazy

[@billiecontreras9255]

Did uou ever experience benxo rage

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Billie Contreras yep! Still do a little bit.

[@Miguel-st9bd]

Where u able to sleep after u stop using it?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

after using what? Ativan?

[@dlu8666]

Can't hear you

[@colty7764]

intermittent fasting (combined with some high intensity interval training if possible at least 2 hours after "mini-fast" begins.. if not, even walking a mile or 2 during the fasting interval. Walking works almost all muscle groups significantly) will help with many things. Glad to see you've made some decent progress over the months.

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

I've been doing 18:6 and 20:4 IF for 2 months with keto and I walk a few miles a day. Making progress for sure. Thanks so much!

[@colty7764]

@@AngiePeacockMSW that's great.. The neurological system heals very slowly. These practices help to increase growth hormone factors (builds muscles, regenrates nerves, etc). I hope you continue improving!

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@colty7764 Thank you! I'm betting on it!

[@vaneramirez5235]

I have a lot of head pressure intense after vitamins b12 and I got the sick

[@billiecontreras9255]

How long did your dr dp last?

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

2 years really bad, then eased up and still get it a lot at almost 5 years off. Try not to compare to me because I was on a lot of psych drugs.

[@alyan83]

Are you suffering anxiety, when you read? Studies show that drugs don't really affect cognition that much. Anxiety do momentarily, but that doesn't mean you're not as smart as you were, before benzos

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

WHAT? That's not true at all. You're kidding right. I can paste 10 studies here showing how benzos and antihistamines cause early onset dementia. My brain MRI shows early atrophy. It ABSOLUTELY messes up cognition. Where are your studies?

[@alyan83]

@@AngiePeacockMSW and that's from drugs? Did you have an mri done before you were medicated, triangulating your present mri? Atrophy is equally linked to depression/anxiety, overweight, lack of exercise, poor diet choices, smooking and genetics I can start posting, and we can go back and forth. There is not a chance on this earth, you can claim with certainty the brain atrophy you exhibit is solely due to the benzos

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@alyan83 um yes I did have a previous MRI. I was a soldier in the Army. Why did you come to my video. To gaslight me? I have been living in this body for 39 years and I know what happened to me. When you have done that, then I'll listen to your dumb opinion of what has happened to my brain.

[@alyan83]

@@AngiePeacockMSW to challenge your views yes? I think I'm allowed to

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

@@alyan83 For what purpose? To make yourself feel better? Whats your story? I must have said something that really disturbed you. Wonder why?

[@chrisgonzales8204]

I experienced all of your symptoms before. I know how to get rid of all of it and get your life back. Your symptoms will get worse if you don't do ERP

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Exposure and response prevention, a treatment method in behavioral therapy?

[@chrisgonzales8204]

Healingfrom Benzos Yes ma'am the only thing that's ever worked and I had it as bad as you. I had my wife do things for me I take niacin research up on niacin your body is being robbed of Serotonin that's what's causing the intrusive thoughts niacin will bring you back it has to be the niacin flush not the niacin without the flush also look up kratom Works wonderful for anxiety the best I've ever tried

[@chrisgonzales8204]

Healingfrom Benzos Exposure response is the only thing that gets rid of it for good you have to spend long hours not just a little bit of time

[@chrisgonzales8204]

Healingfrom Benzos You need to do a full body detox especially the liver so you can take those medications out your liver

[@chrisgonzales8204]

Healingfrom Benzos watch this video kzbin.info/www/bejne/Z4WnmZSdd85knqc

[@garysimone4977]

Was Cymbalta hard to come off

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

Gary Simone yes it took me 2.5 years to taper it but I was still on the benzo so I didn’t notice much because I went slow.

[@Moietmyself]

Cymbalta is the worst worst evil thing i ever tried. Dont Take it ...dont e ven consider it

[@garysimone4977]

candice blanca Thank you how long were you on it ?? And what dose did you say enough and weened off They want me to start it due to Anxity off the charts I have picked up the bottle but have not taken

[@Moietmyself]

@@garysimone4977 i just could handle it for 15 days. .the dose was 60 mg ..i felt like i was on a roller Cost every minute, every hour..and after Quitting it i would vomit everyday, shaked and had serious vertigo i called the doctor almost screaming. .please look up there are some news on which patients go to court and demand on the drs. Who prescribed this evil drug

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

there’s a whole group on Facebook called “cymbalta hurts worse.” You can read patient stories there

[@incognito595]

HUGE WEIGHT GAIN. HUGE.

[@andrewpinkus5555]

11 months off clonazepam

[@ourevilone]

should i get off trazodone during this? i took it because i didnt know it was benzo withdrawal why i couldnt sleep. but im too scared to go through the hell before where i was only getting 2-4 hours sleep

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

thats a personal decision and I cannot give you medical advice. I would urge you to join a benzo support group and research it.

[@AngelMonroeAngelMonroe]

Are u Gemini ???

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

no. Why?

[@billythekidd-go3hv]

You spent 30 mins and all that breath and you cant even hear you

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

get some headphones or a speaker. I ordered a mic. Brand new computer. Sorry.

[@billythekidd-go3hv]

@@AngiePeacockMSW I got headphones can still barely hear it. Thats unfortunate but thanks anyways

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

turn on closed captioning if you really need to watch it. It's in the bottom right where it says "cc." Otherwise, next time I'll make sure the sound is better. Again, I am sorry for the technical difficulty. I can't control everything I'd like to.

[@billythekidd-go3hv]

@@AngiePeacockMSW i appreciate your compassion and understanding thank you

[@cindyl9606]

coconut oil is a good deo

[@chrisgonzales8204]

Do you have like an email or contact information? I would like to communicate with you and ask you a little more about what you've experienced

[@AngiePeacockMSW]

[e-mail]