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안녕 우리 오랜만이지?
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메이크업 잘 못하지만,
열심히 뚝뚝딱딱딱
옥수수들을 위해 해봤지롱
거기에다가 + 헤이미 와 꿀 조합😘
어때 어때 좋지좋지
예쁘게 봐주세요
사랑해요!!!!!
내가 더 잘할게
또 만나 우리
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#GRWM #여름메이크업 #브이로그

[@seoyeonsu]

옥수수들 안녕 오랜만인 것 같지 왜~~~~~ 넘넘 보고싶어떠 이번영상도 재밌게 잘봐줘어 따랑ㅎh🌽💚

[@UPJH-l3p]

혜미x연수 조합 진짜 최고 ㅠㅠ

[@hajisoo96]

연수님 영상을 보면 뭔가 다정하고 나긋하고 편안한 분위기에 매번 챙겨보게 되고 미소짓게 돼요 ㅎㅎ 속 깊은 마음이 잘 느껴지는 것 같습니다 항상 응원해요🤍

[@seoyeonsu]

이런 댓글이 있기에 저도 있어요 감사합니다💗💜

[@jinhit8213]

I really like the fact that you usually put the English subtitles too. Most of the Korean KZbinrs don't. Thank you so much for the effort you put into your videos ☺💕💖

[@_joo5183]

으앗 두분 케미 너무귀여워서 댓글은 안달수가 앖잖아요!!! 두분 모습 지켜보는데 왜이리 제가 흐뭇하게 웃고있을까요.. 앞으로도 우정 영원하세요🍀☘️

[@seoyeonsu]

히히 고맙습니다 저희 우정 평생 갈게용~~~~💚

[@__niniya]

진짜 언니 반지 몰래 주려고 하는거 너무 귀엽고 마음씨도 너무 이뻐요ㅠㅠ 얼굴만큼 맘씨도 이뿐 수수온니 🤍

[@seoyeonsu]

악 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 반지는 몰래줘야 제맛~~😜

[@박지민-i9b]

진짜 오랜만에 영상 보는거같아욤.. 엄청 기다렸다구여.. 저 살면서 유튜브로 메이크업 하는 영상 처음 보는거같아여!! 진짜 진짜 혜미님과 조합은 짱이에요😍😍 말이 필요없는 조합이다 이 말이죠.. 다음 영상도 얼른 보고 싶어요😊😊

[@seoyeonsu]

아놔 ㅋㅋㅋ 지민님 항상 감사해요✌🏻 더위 조심하시구요 항상 저도 응원합니다😝

[@RizkaDwiSrirahayu]

aaa I miss you, The vlog is very fun to watch😭, I hope the next video and make another vlog🤩😘✨

[@21.5_d]

영상 잘 봤습니다❤︎ 언젠가는 언니 직접 보고싶어요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 이렇게 모두 다 완벽한 사람이 있다니… 진짜 정말 예뻐요 사랑해요ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 영원히 응원할게요❤︎❤︎❤︎ -일본인 옥수수가🌽🤍-

[@dkssud555]

두분 서로 아끼는게 너무 잘 보여요ㅎㅎ너무너무뷰러운 관계네욤!저도 서로 누군가에게 저런사람이 되고시퍼효

[@seoyeonsu]

당연히 그런 사람 될 수 있어요🤍 반드시 아니!!! 이미 그런사람이야

[@콩콩콩-m2u]

혹쉬 차가 전기차!? 환경까지 생각하다니🙀 즨짜 안좋아할수가없다🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@seoyeonsu]

헤헤 곧 만나용 차 영상 찍어야지잉!!🏎

[@lovelyme0728]

연수님 혜미님 케미 진짜 너무 좋잖아요!!🥺💕 두공주님 너무 귀엽고 이뻐서 저도 기분좋고 즐겁게 영상 본거같아요💕

[@seoyeonsu]

헤헤 기분 좋게 봐주셨단 말이 젤루 좋아요!!😝

[@콩콩콩-m2u]

언니 유튭 기다렷어요ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 저번주에 안오셔서 걱정햇는데 이쁘구재밋는̆̈ 영상으로 와주셔서 고마워요😍😍😍

[@seoyeonsu]

히히 앞으로 자주 올게에.. ㅠㅠ 자주자주 보게할거야 질릴만큼 헤헹😝

[@쪼-c3w]

아 증말루 나 언니 영상만 기달렸어🤍 쉬면서 봐야징🤍🤍

[@seoyeonsu]

기다려줘서 고마워어어어💚💚💚💚💚

[@hy_jang4708]

온냐의 든든한 옥수수 입쟝!! 오늘 영상도 재밌게 봤떠영 !!! ㅋㅋㅋ헤먀&연뚜 케미 보소 진짜 미쳤고요>< 나두 따랑ㅎh욤🌽💚

[@seoyeonsu]

히히 혜먀 연뚜 포레보 윗 옥수수🌽💚

[@eunhye5847]

오늘도 너무재밌었어요🫶🏻🫧 연수언니랑 혜미언니는 언제봐도,,예뻐요🤍 이조합 완전완전 사랑해요👍🏻👍🏻😍

[@seoyeonsu]

수수연수 혜먀💜🤍💙 다들 많이 좋아해주시네용 히히 고마워요>.

[@auddhr]

언니 영상 오랜만인 느낌,,♡ 그만큼 보구싶었다요..우정링두 넘 기엽다🫶🏻 언니 항상 힐링만핵!!!! 사랑핵!!

[@seoyeonsu]

웅 마자아!!! 오랜만 마자 ㅠㅠ 나두나두 사랑행!! 알g?

[@user-li4ws3wq7u]

언니ㅠㅠ 진짜 영상 오랜만인 것 같아여ㅠㅠ♡♡넘 보고싶었다구여 메이크업 알려주는데 완전 노력하는게 보이고 특히 메이크업이 잘 보여서 너무 좋았어요!! 혜미 언니랑 조합 완전 너무 좋아서 계속 웃으면서 봤어요 진짜 꿀조합 두번째 니트 어디껀가요?? 입은거 너무 예뻐요 핑꾸 바지도 넘 찰떡..ㅠㅠ 그리고 반지 선물 어떻게 줄지 고민하는 모습 너무 귀여운거 아니에요?!! 덕분에 오늘은 행복하게 잘 수 있을것 같아요!!>

[@seoyeonsu]

니트는 헤이미 제품이예요💜 고마워요 우리라떼 매번 이렇게 길게 댓글 달아주느라 고생이 많아 ㅠㅠ 토닥토닥

[@user-jarry]

내가 존경하고 롤모델인 연수언니 새은언니 두분이 바닐리코 모델인게 너무 신기하고 영광이고 언니들이 극친하는 클렌징밤 사서 쓰니까 너무 좋더라구요 ㅠㅠ 그리고 언니 메이크업 차이가 없어 !!화장전도 너무 완성형이니까 ㅠㅠ 언니 카페에서 청치마룩 완전 미우미우 같애 너무 잘어울리고 바비인형 같아요 ❤️ 날도 더운데 더위조심하세용 🥰

[@yehhhk_ggoo]

마스카라할때 입술하는건 국룰아냐 ????! 오늘 브이로그 너무 재밌고 바닐라코 역시 수수연수에게 찰떡💗

[@happyday6731]

보기 너무 좋아요 !!!!!! 진짜 체고 💍💍💍💍

[@lolokaty8266]

love youuu susu 🥺🥺❤️

[@Uro06516mia]

우째 기말 끝나는 날에 뙇….짱이여

[@가히-o2z]

아 쌩얼도 이렇게 예쁘면 반칙아니에요 언니 ⸮⸮⸮⸮ 아무리 선크림이라도 이건 사기야 😤🤍 인간 복숭아 과즙 팡팡으로 임명할래요 … 늘 함께하는 혜미언니와의 케미는 이제 입아파요 그냥 사랑한다고 말해줄래요 🫶🏻🤍

[@lunaeclipse5768]

that intro made me fall from my chair

[@tjfnwj]

언니 ㅠ 피부 무슨일이야.. 도자긴줄 알아써 ..🤍🤍

[@seoyeonsu]

도자기가 되고싶다...😭

[@정다다-f5w]

언니가 영화야…♥️

[@seoyeonsu]

옥수수가 있기때문이지..💚

[@김아현-x7q]

와 진짜 보고싶어써 울언냐 ❤️ 항상 행보카장 ~~~~🥹❤️

[@juju166]

넘 오랜만이자나용 ㅠ_ㅠ NFF 반지 너뭉 예쁜거 같아요 🤍💚 저도 따라 사야겟어요 !!!!! 언니랑 컾흘반지 ~ 🥰

[@sei3187]

이렇게 갈수록 이뻐지기도 힘든데.. 🤍🫶🏻

[@seoyeonsu]

오랜만이햐 옥수수들🌽💚

[@Kimchiis]

점점 더 이뻐지는 수수연뚜우💓🥰

[@son7092]

수수연수님 메이크업 아티스트 잘하시네요.

[@1kingofmoney738]

타이칸 뽑았어요?

[@minjuu.u21]

멋진 언니잉~♡

[@seoyeonsu]

히히♥️💗

[@옹뇽뇽-f7r]

너무 이쁘다ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

[@Eunnvly]

으앙 너무 예뻐요 🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@우원-r6g]

연수누나 웃을때 끼부리시네,,,,🤭💙

[@문우진-y8y]

이쁨 사기캐 연수님 😍🤩

[@eunhye5847]

연수언니 혹시 삼각대 정보 알수있을까요?? 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@user-ds5td6bq4c]

연수 겟레디 존버 성공ㅎㅎㅎㅎ🥳 혬언냐랑 둘이 있으면 둘이 다른 매력으로 너무 예쁜거 아니냐며!!! 항상 옥수수들한테 진심이고,찐템들 많이 소개 시켜주고 알려줘서 너무 고마워요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 그 마음이 다 느껴져...🥰누가 뭐래도 연수 화이팅

[@seoyeonsu]

나는 정말 옥수수한테 진심이야😋💚 넘 따랑햐~~

[@박기범-b2s]

수수연수님 브이로그를 잘 볼게요

[@백승운-s3u]

이쁘고 여성스럽고 멋지십니다😻

[@youmay1750]

우앙 넘조아용😖😖 워커? 신발 어디서 샀는지 알 수 있을까요??

[@seoyeonsu]

헤이미 입니댜💜

[@이해은-k1x]

마지막룩 상의 정보좀요~~너무 이뻐요

[@seoyeonsu]

헤이미💜💜💜💜💜입니다 히히

[@지연-d1b]

혜미님이랑 렌즈 궁굼해용 🥹🥹🫧🤍

[@seoyeonsu]

혜미언니껀 모르겠어요 ㅜ.ㅜ 수수연수꺼는 오렌즈 글로이 브라운입니다✌🏻

[@lolokaty8266]

fighting 🥺

[@Yoo_mini]

이거 프라이머 선크림 다음에 바르는거에용..!

[@n.niharikasingha_]

Saranghae! 💗

[@minyunn3206]

언니 화장할때 입고계신 나시정보 알고싶어용♥️

[@user-ci7kp2rc3r]

카페에서 입으신 구멍송송 니트 정보 알려주세요 !

[@jiji-il2mq]

Love you 🇲🇦🇲🇦💓💓

[@eunhye5847]

반지 사이즈는 어떻게알고ㅠ선물하셨어요?? 팝업스토어는 또 안하겠죠.?!

[@seoyeonsu]

저렁 혜먀언니가 반지사이즈 비슷해서 대충 직감으로다가 헤헤!! 팝업 지금 더현대서울에서 내일까지 하는 걸로 알고있어용💗💜

[@미동-z1w]

롱부츠 정보 궁금해요🥺🥺♥️

[@seoyeonsu]

헤이미💜입니댜

[@dusdn1275]

애교샇 그릴때 브러쉬는 뭐에용?

[@zzzkoozzz]

웅니.. 더위먹지말구 시원하게 보내야대요... 삼시세끼 전복삼계탕만 먹어요

[@seoyeonsu]

진짜 너무 더워엉ㅇ......

[@seoyeonsu]

건강 조심💙

[@user-ch6ew8ws4t]

언니 보고싶어떠❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@seoyeonsu]

나두 그래떠♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@user-ch6ew8ws4t]

@@seoyeonsu 언니 사랑해 너무 이뿌고귀여오

[@초코파이-k2i]

아니진짜넘예🤍

[@seoyeonsu]

아니 아이디 넘 기여어🤍

[@RizkaDwiSrirahayu]

Eonni, can you translate it in Indonesian? Because if there isn't it's hard to understand🥲

[@YunHan-m9u]

Oink Oink.. I am missing You.. I don't know why I can't find YOU anywhere.. as I am Looking at the waters.. the waves of the waters coming to the shore.. and On this Beach.. I been asking for YOU.. the Bottle I send to YOU.. I wrote a Note Inside and Put into the empty Bottle.. and it is called the Message in the Bottle.. I can't find the Bottle here on this Beach.. and wondering did it get to YOU.. YOU told me that when I write YOU a Note and put it into the empty Bottle and toss it into the Waters of this Ocean.. of course I would come to this Beach.. and I would be walking in the sand.. Looking for a Bottle.. and YOU told me before YOU left.. when I come to this Beach.. and with an empty Bottle.. Put a Note inside and write YOU something and if the Waters and the Wind allows to reach across and it gets to YOU.. reaches YOU on the Other side.. and if YOU read it.. you would write Back on a Note to let me know that It has gotten to YOU.. the Day YOU left me I remember we came here to the Beach.. and we spent the whole day at this Beach and telling me all kinds of Dreams YOU had.. and even we saw the Night Comes UP.. looking at the stars and the Moon up in the sky and YOU told me.. it would be so Nice that when YOU are gone.. and I started to Miss YOU.. to grab an Empty Bottle and write a Note for YOU telling YOU how much I missed YOU and How Much I loved YOU.. I saw you going into the air port.. as I watched YOU leave.. I wanted to ask YOU when will you be back.. but I did Not want to ASK YOU because what If you would say.. YOU don't know.. that even when YOU wanted to come time can always delay YOU.. so I left it with a Big Question Mark.. and Only Time will Tell.. what drives Me crazy is that this Beach I am standing is where YOU be smiling the Most.. that we would come to this Beach many times when we were together.. telling me that this is the most favorite Place to be because YOU can just be really YOU.. Now I am missing YOU.. missing YOU that it drives me crazy.. I did come here many times trying to look for the Bottle.. because I would write you Many Notes and send it on different times with different Empty Bottles.. and when YOU have this Big Dream of coming to this Beach with a hope that I am going to receive a Bottle with Your Note on it.. and YOU come here and YOU just can't find it.. I would even ask myself.. there are a lot of people who comes to this Beach.. and what if some one else saw the Message in the Bottle.. and YOU wrote a Note inside and thinking that I got it but it be a different person.. and it is the Bad timing for me Not able to get to the Bottle first.. because some one else who was here before me got to it first.. and that is why I started to Write YOU more notes.. and I would come to this Beach.. with the Empty Bottle and stick the Note Inside it.. Looking at the waters.. the waves coming in and leaving back.. I would toss the Message in the Bottle into the Ocean Water and the current of the waters and the Wind.. it seems like it is on my side because I can see the Bottle.. the Message in the Bottle going far from the shore.. and I am thinking after.. I wish that it can get to YOU.. because YOU told me.. when we both stand here on the Shore.. and YOU would tell me to do YOU a big favor.. that YOU had a wish.. and I would ask YOU.. what is that Big favor.. what is Your Wish.. Please tell me so that I can make you smile.. you know I would try my best to do what makes YOU happy and YOU told me.. when I miss YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. there will be a time that I be missing YOU so bad that YOU could not handle it.. then to write YOU a Note.. and tell YOU how much.. so that YOU know and put the Note inside the empty Bottle.. even though YOU may not see what I am doing.. YOU know because I love YOU.. and I know if I love YOU.. I would do anything to keep that part of the Promises of my Word.. and I started to Miss YOU more and More.. I can feel it in my heart How much I started to Miss YOU.. and I would be screaming from the top of my Lungs.. that I am missing YOU right Now.. I have been in the room.. collecting many empty Bottles.. and buying many Note Cards because I know that my Heart is coming.. so that I can tell YOU How much I love YOU.. How much I am missing YOU so much right Now.. it is driving me Crazy.. and standing here in the Beach.. I would Look at the Ocean waters and ask.. WHEN are you coming Back.. or Are you going to just leave like this.. making me Wonder more and more about YOU.. YOU did tell me that if I starts to Miss YOU so Bad.. that it drives me so crazy because there is Nothing I can do right Now.. I wish that I can do something but what can I do when YOU are gone.. that YOU are so Far away.. why don't you tell me that YOU are coming back.. after I collected many empty Bottles.. it became empty because I started to drink A lot.. missing YOU makes me angry and makes me mad but most times it hurts me.. like a HOLE in my Heart.. I want to see you again.. but why can't I see YOU again.. YOU told me that when the days like this come.. to write YOU Notes.. and I started to write on these Note Cards I bought and started to place inside the Empty Bottles.. even telling me to come to this Beach.. and Now What.. told me to toss the Message in the Bottle into the Waters of this Beach.. I been doing this and has been listening to Your Words.. asking me to do YOU a Big Favor and that it was Your Wish when I started to Miss YOU.. what if this Missing you of Pain never goes away.. because I never felt like this way Before.. does it means that I always loved YOU but never seen it before like this.. but it is affect of after you are gone.. I could not see it when we were together because I believed that YOU would always be here by my side and together I get to grow old with YOU.. I saw many tears in your eyes but also saw so many big smiles to light UP my Heart.. when I was going through so hard painful times.. YOU were there.. Not many words you would say because I wanted to heal alone.. but it was your Presence just being here for me made the healing a lot faster but Now.. watching YOU leaving.. and when coming to the air port.. I remember grabbing your Hand.. I would say.. do YOU really have to go.. why can't you stay here longer with Me.. why must YOU go.. why are you leaving me without answers.. are you trying to run away from me.. Please tell me.. how about my Heart.. what happens when My Heart becomes Broken.. I can't fix my broken Heart.. but YOU would tell me that YOU had to go.. and I asked.. when are you going to come back.. I would hear NO answers from YOU but all you told me.. YOU must Go.. and you turn to face me and tell me this.. WHEN I feel like I am missing YOU so Bad.. and that I can't handle the Pain of missing YOU.. the Beach.. the Note and the Bottle.. and I would see YOU walk away.. I can't believe that YOU are doing this to me.. why are you leaving me like this.. NO explanation but just telling me to go to the Beach.. WHY.. are you going to be at the Beach with Me.. what is this YOU are doing to Me.. as I am Now at the Beach.. My eyes are filled with tears.. It hurts me.. My Painful Heart.. I can feel this Pain inside of me because I am missing YOU.. and I do remember your Words.. as I feel my tears rolling down my both eyes.. I am sick of tired of crying for YOU.. because it is hurting from the Inside.. I am at this Beach.. YOU told me to come to this Beach.. when I am missing YOU that come to this Beach.. but coming to this Beach brings me a lot of memories.. of YOUR smiles.. and how much you enjoyed the wind blowing Your Face.. your sandals and going to the waves of the waters when it comes in.. getting your both feet to get wet and there will be times when YOU would splash the waters when I get close to YOU and I am standing here.. thinking about all of the great memories YOU gave me.. then WHY am I here if I am thinking of all these great things But you are Not here.. I don't care about the Great Memories if YOU are Not here with me today.. I want YOU here by my side so that I can tell YOU.. and I would start to think.. and I would cry so loud and my cries grew Louder because the Words.. and I would be wailing Out Loud into the Night.. as I am at this Beach.. I never told YOU HOW much I loved YOU.. when YOU were here with me.. we had a lot of laughers and would joke around a lot.. like Kids running around the Beach.. but Looking at the Notes.. the Cards that I would write to YOU and Putting into the Bottles.. into these empty bottles.. I would cry A lot and Loud because when YOU were here.. why did I not say of these words to you then.. I could of told YOU how much I missed YOU.. How much I wanted to be with YOU.. How much My Heart needed YOU and to thank YOU that You were here next to me.. why did I not say any of these Words because when I would write On the Note Cards.. I would tell YOU so much More.. the words that Needed to say to YOU.. needed for YOU to hear about my feelings and emotions when I express.. but as I am standing here.. in my hand I am holding onto the Bottle.. inside is the Message of the Note that I wrote Last night and I would say that I love YOU.. and that I miss YOU and that I wish that YOU be here with me and why do you have to be gone this Long.. and Now I am wondering is this the reason why YOU wanted me to come to the Beach.. to make me Cry and to regret for the Words I should of said then.. because Now I am regretting of the times that I could of told you then but Now.. even though I want to say it.. I know that I just can't because YOU are gone.. I remember you be telling me.. do I have any words to tell YOU.. and YOU would start with that when we come to this Beach.. and I am standing with YOU

[@YunHan-m9u]

Missing YOU.. asking you to do.. I am standing by the Window in my room.. Looking Outside from inside the room.. in my hand I am holding unto your Picture.. asking myself.. I do miss YOU.. why do I keep on missing YOU.. wondering about the Truck.. the Mail man who drives his truck has Not arrived yet.. I been waiting for this Truck.. and I am looking at the rain.. it is falling Hard as I am looking in the room.. looking through the Window.. waiting for the Truck.. I have wrote YOU a letter.. for few days I have Not written because I was sick.. I been dying in the bed.. could Not get UP out of the Bed.. and when YOU are so sick.. I think it is My Heart.. My Heart is dying because I am missing YOU.. and just can't handle this Pain of missing YOU so much.. for few days as I would be laying in the Bed.. only thing that I could do is grab hold unto your Picture.. and it made me so Mad.. made sick to my stomach because when YOU are so sick.. and having fever.. and trying to eat has been so hard.. coughing and throwing UP all over the Place.. and only thing I be thinking is YOU.. writing you the Letter.. and turning toward looking at the desk.. and every time I would get Out of the bed.. and my Head be killing me.. trying to pull the chair to sit by the desk.. and I would PULL out the Piece of Paper.. holding the Pen in my Hand.. wanting to write.. wanting to tell You something that I needs to say.. and I just can't write YOU On the paper.. and when YOU have to lay back down on the bed because YOU are so sick.. a doctor came to see me.. and told me for few days I needed to rest.. and I knew that is the only thing I could do.. but when I look toward the Desk.. only thing I can think of is the Mail Man who drives his truck.. coming to the Mail Box.. and I know that I am suppose to write YOU the Letter and fold it into half and put into the envelope and give it to HIM so that He can take it to YOU.. when YOU are unable to sit UP.. and the Moment YOU sit up.. trying to move.. my Head be banging Hard from the Inside.. with a fever that won't leave me alone.. it hurts me the Most because I am thinking of YOU.. and I am wondering.. what if YOU are standing out by the front door.. and YOU are waiting outside.. and YOU be looking at the Truck.. the mail Man who takes you the Letter to YOU.. I remember last time I went.. I was in the truck with the Mail Man.. and I wanted to be the One to tell YOU that It is me who has been writing you all these letters. that I wanted to show YOU for the first time.. that the One who sits be this side.. who sits in the room.. who sits on the chair by the desk.. that it is I who would pull out the Clean sheet of paper in front of Me.. and I would sit looking at your Picture.. I would stare at your Smile.. and I would ask myself.. is My Heart be moving because of YOU.. am I allowed to move my Heart.. am I allow to tell YOU that my Heart is moved when I see YOU.. that I do have a Name.. that I do have a Heart and yes.. most times I be missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU again and over and over I want to see YOU.. that I wanted YOU to know for sure that even though YOU may not see me Much.. but I just wanted to show UP one day to tell YOU.. I do have a Face.. that I do have a Name and that I want you to remember me.. Not to forget who is the ONE who loves you the Most.. and Not to forget me at all.. so I remember asking the Mail MAN.. if I can go with him to the Place where YOU live.. just to see YOU.. I just wanted to see YOU for the first time without Having Your Picture in my Hand for once.. How does My Heart feel when I see YOU face to face.. to meet YOU even from afar.. from the distance but enough to know that I am looking at the One who I love the Most.. I remember you took my breath away as I stood there.. I told the Mail MAN not to leave so fast.. that even with this much of space and distance I am alright as long as I am standing there looking at YOU.. I felt my Heart and it started to beat so fast.. did Not know that It was my Heart making the Noise.. beating from inside.. it felt like I was listening to a Drum beating somewhere but I believe.. I know that It was My Heart when I saw YOU standing by the front door.. I wanted to walk over.. and go to YOU and give you the Letter inside the envelope but.. I had to tell myself.. Not Now.. Not yet.. so I do remember opening the Mail Box and putting the envelope inside your mail box.. as the mail man asked me if He could go.. and I told HIM that He can go now.. as the Truck started to leave your mail box.. I just could not hold it in anymore.. I felt my tears.. and It ran down two lines as I would watch the Truck.. the mail man drives off.. because I am wondering now.. when can I see YOU again.. How long is it going to be from that time I was there.. will YOU let me visit you again or are you going to react the same way.. standing by your front door and Not moving at all.. YOU know that I am Not a stranger anymore.. but I feel like YOU are treating me as One.. you know that I been telling YOU what is in my Heart.. at least you can let me know that YOU been receiving the Letters and Knows that YOU been reading the Letters right?? Do you even take the time to read or do you just look at the envelope and PUT it on the side so that It can sit there to ROT like my Heart.. when the Mail MAN drove the Truck back to the My Mail Box.. I would thank him for taking me to the Place.. where YOUR MAIL BOX was.. and the mail man looks at me and noticed that I was crying and asked me why.. and I would turn to him and tell him.. what if YOU don't read any of the Letters that I write and give to YOU.. what if YOU do not open any of the envelope and the mail man tells me.. if I love YOU.. just to believe in the Love of giving.. if I really do Love you so much.. for me to always have the open Heart and just to wait.. to be patient with YOU will heal in time.. Just to Wait on YOU.. and it breaks my heart that this is the Only words I would hear.. I wanted to hear that YOU do take your time and you would open the envelope and YOU would sit and read the Letters.. and I started to cry louder.. of course He looks at me and decides He should go.. and I would watch the Truck.. the Mail Man drives Off.. I felt so broken hearted.. I do remember that it started to rain as I would stand there crying.. maybe this is the reason why I gotten so sick.. I stood there and it started to rain down on me hard.. as I would just turn and LOOKING at the MOON.. and did not care about how heavy the rain waters hit me.. getting me wet.. very wet all over the place.. but ALL I think was.. the distance that YOU made me feel.. and that I am Not a stranger any more.. I know that I can't be just a stranger to YOU right.. I been telling YOU.. writing you Letters.. and I have been telling YOU My Heart.. that from my Heart.. when I grab HOLD unto your Picture.. all I can think of is telling YOU how much I love YOU.. and I stood looking UP at the Moon.. and I do remember just going to sleep after getting wet.. for few days it has been so hard.. when you feel like YOU are dying from the inside.. with Hot fever.. and your burning UP because YOU are so sick.. can't get UP to eat.. and coughing and just feeling so down and Hurting all over.. the few days goes by.. and I am able to move Now.. and able to eat well.. and I been thinking of YOU more clearly.. but for some reason.. when I did Not touch the paper.. and did Not hold UP the Pen to write a Letter to YOU and Only thing I did was to Hold Unto your Picture and just stare at YOU and Your smile.. YOU start to miss something deep within.. I started to miss writing you a Letter.. and I knew I had to get the Letter Out.. so I went over to the Desk.. pulling out a clean sheet of White piece of paper.. and started to write YOU what is in my Heart.. and do YOU know what I been saying to you through the Letter.. I started to tell YOU about the few days that has been happening.. How I had to lay on the Bed and just could Not move much.. about the time I went over with the Mail man.. in his truck.. I would tell YOU through the writing that I felt like YOU giving me the distance and felt like a stranger instead but in my Heart.. I wanted YOU to feel close to Me.. for YOU to know that I been waiting for something that YOU can open UP with a smile.. just like the Picture YOU gave me with this Big Smile.. but My Heart broke when I saw the distance.. of course I know that it does take time for YOU to come close and Yes.. meeting YOU and seeing you the First time when YOU did Not expect was My Mistake.. maybe YOU did Not think that it was me in the Truck with the Mail Man.. or just surprised to see me without telling you in the Previous Letters I wrote to YOU.. and even though I wanted to surprise YOU.. I wanted in a way that Not like I am a stranger but that close person.. and I would share and write about the experience with the doctor who came into the home.. and How much I did Not like the fact that I had to lay there and do Nothing.. I just wanted you to know that I wanted to see YOU because I wanted to see if YOU loved Me.. if YOUR Heart would ever open to accept me as I am.. and to know that I been loving YOU for a Long time.. that I just can't stop but still be missing YOU and still be waiting for YOU because I know that I love YOU.. I wrote a Long Letter.. two Letters and folded into Halves and Put into the envelope.. Right after I finished the two Letters.. I had so much on my Mind and so much to say.. which is needed to come Out to tell YOU the Heart of Mine.. I would put the One Letter in One envelope and the second one in a different envelope.. and as I stand UP to leave.. I turn to Look at the window in the room.. and I just could Not believe what my eyes were seeing.. It started to rain down Hard.. this time I am not going to stand Out there to get very wet.. because of the rain

[@YunHan-m9u]

Open.. and I would stand by the front Door.. and I can see a figure.. but it is a figure of a woman.. in a white dress.. I know that it is Not the Mail Man.. and can it really be.. is this true.. and as I am looking.. the rain Stops.. the Hard pouring down of the rain suddenly stops on me.. and I can feel something.. My Heart is being moved.. My Heart is being touched.. can it be really YOU.. is It YOU who is standing on the Passenger side of the Truck.. and I just can't go On.. because YOU are taking my Breath away and if it is YOU who got the ride with the MAIL MAN.. in his truck and YOU came.. How can this Be true.. and I started to cry.. My tears just can't handle this feeling I am from the inside my Heart.. I would start to cry Loud because YOU just don't know how much I love YOU.. YOU do not know how much My Heart.. my MIND loves YOU.. my hand holding unto two envelopes.. and I would start to walk towards the Mail Box.. and I would stop by my mail Box.. and I see your eyes looking at my Hand holding unto two envelopes.. as I stop by the mail Box.. all I can do is cry looking at YOU.. I wanted answers.. because I had questions running through my Head.. wondering what is in your Heart.. but I know Now.. I never knew that YOU would come like this.. and Yes.. I was very sick.. for few days.. I wanted to die.. and wanted to never wake UP from this dying of my Heart.. Now I know the reason why I was dying from Inside.. it is because I love YOU just too much.. and it is YOU who I love the Most.. as I lift UP MY Arm.. and I see your two hands holding unto the two envelopes.. and I would say.. I have written two letters of what happened.. and YOU will know why I was delayed.. and YOU will know why I delayed because I never stopped loving YOU and even Now stronger than before I love YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful who takes my Breath away and even leaves speechless.. that is because I love YOU..I am looking Out the Window.. Looking for the Truck.. I know that the time.. looking at the watch.. the Clock in the room and I am looking through the window.. the empty Bottle on the top of the desk.. and I know that I been drinking.. trying to get YOU off my Mind.. ever since the New Picture came.. when I opened the envelope and I would pull out the Picture you have placed inside.. I would be looking at it.. ever since I saw this new Picture.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind because I been thinking of YOU and just looking.. telling your New Picture.. How Much I wanted to see YOU.. asking you through the New Picture.. when can I be close to YOU.. but only thing I been getting is No responses because it is Only a New Picture of YOU.. as I would write YOU another Letter.. telling you how angry I am getting because it seems Like I am the Only One who sees YOU.. am I the Only One who is going crazy.. is it only Me who be missing YOU.. is it only my Heart who misses you the Most.. is it only my Head which I am thinking about Love.. just wanting to say I love YOU.. do you not miss me at All.. do I ever cross your Mind.. how about your Heart.. if only I can ask your Heart.. what do you feel about Me.. am I truly special to YOU.. am I the Only Man who can Love YOU.. please tell me some words so that I can hear YOU.. that I am able to smile knowing even miles apart.. miles which leaves such a long distance.. but I needs to see YOU.. as I would sit by the desk.. pouring on the Shot Glass.. I would be taking shots after another shots.. as I would be looking at your new Picture.. the Photo that YOU gave to the Mail man.. who came last week and gave me the envelope.. Now I am going to ask him if I can go into the Truck and if the Mail Man can take me to the Place you Live.. I may Not walk towards YOU.. but close by I want to stand to see.. I just want to know How you are doing.. How would I feel if I see YOU in person.. even though there will be a distance between Us and I know that I can't come close right Now.. but enough room and space knowing that YOU are there.. I am Not asking you to come close to me Now.. but at least YOU can see that I am doing Good.. and that still I be loving YOU.. I may Not be able to say it to YOU yet.. but when YOU see me inside the Truck.. which the Mail man would drive to take me where you are.. I just want you to know that it is Me.. whose been longing for YOU.. whose been waiting on the Other side.. by my mail Box I would be waiting for the Truck.. for the mail man to stop by on my block as I would wait by the mail Box.. just to give you a Letter putting inside on the envelope so that He can take it to YOU.. but this Night.. I know that I must go.. I must go with the Mail man.. be inside his Truck and I want to deliver the Message in this Bottle.. I want to surprise you.. so that YOU will remember that it is I who is loving YOU.. not to scare YOU but to show YOU that all this Time.. YOU would only think of the Truck.. the mail man who was inside the truck.. and he was the One who gave you the envelope with the Letter that I wrote inside to YOU.. but please.. forgive me when I show Up on this very night.. I must go and see How you are doing.. I must be there to give YOU this Bottle.. inside the Bottle is a Letter that I have written for you.. when YOU see me inside the Truck.. don't think that I am a stranger to YOU because It is me.. it was me all along who gave you the Letters.. inside on this envelope.. after a while.. you are only seeing the Truck passing through and it stops at the Mail Box.. just to give you the envelope.. that is all you see back and forth.. but How about me.. how about the person who sits in this ROOM.. who is the One pulls Out the Clean sheet of paper.. who would be holding a pen or the pencil and who thinks of YOU.. YOU do not see me because I am always behind the scene.. you may think that Am I afraid of YOU.. am I scared to show UP.. you may be thinking maybe it is the truck.. or the mail man being friendly to YOU.. and He would smile inside the Truck as he gives you this envelope.. I know when YOU receive the envelope and once you open the envelope inside is the Letter.. but Do you see my Face.. do you even think of my Name there.. do you know who is the One who is telling you all these things.. expressing Heart to Heart.. when I sit in the ROOM.. by the desk.. I am thinking of YOU.. constantly thinking of YOU.. looking at the new Picture.. my Heart is crying inside for Love.. I am crying in my Heart for Love too.. but it seems like after awhile you begin to forget.. you forget because YOU are looking at some one else but How about Me.. do you know who is the One who be really loving YOU.. all this time.. who is the One putting every thing In and Out.. and telling you how I feel.. I do not want YOU to forget about me.. I am putting into so much work here.. you know that it is not easy to tell YOU all these things.. and it breaks my Heart when YOU forget the face.. forget the person who has a Name.. who is the One loves YOU the Most.. who be missing YOU and thinking of you constantly.. what will happen when a Day Comes.. the Truck stops on your Mail Box.. and you are starting to forget the Man who loves YOU the Most.. and you stand there looking.. the mail man looks at you and says.. there is No envelope today.. and the Truck keeps on coming to your mail Box.. and every time YOU stand there.. the mail man tells you the same thing.. there is NO Letter today.. there is NO envelope.. and I know if you start to forget the One who loves YOU the Most.. I also can be the one to delay the Letters.. because I feel like YOU are forgetting the Face.. the name and the man who loves YOU the Most.. as I would look at the Empty Bottle.. and I would roll up the Letter I have written for YOU.. I do not want YOU to forget me.. because YOU know how much I love YOU.. have been loving you just too Long.. but also I know that I must Man UP.. I must tell you that I am still here.. and that I am going Nowhere but waiting patiently till you are truly ready for Me.. I want to get close when YOU are ready so that I can Love you fully.. and able to speak to YOUR ears.. and tell your ears.. looking at your Heart.. that all this time.. I want your Heart.. I want your Heart to know that I love YOU.. and Now.. sitting by the Window.. I put the Letter inside the Bottle.. and looking out the window.. and just waiting for the Time.. the arrival for the Mail Man in his Truck to stop at the Mail Box.. I been taking few shots on this shot glass.. and it has emptied the Bottle.. I wrote this very night telling you that I missed YOU.. and I just don't want you to forget about Me.. because it is I who loves you the Most.. I would get UP from the chair.. holding in my hand is the Bottle inside is the Letter.. and I would walk Out of the ROOM.. and going to the front Door.. I open and I close behind me.. I am looking at the Mail Box.. and I know that the truck be arriving very soon.. so I would walk down to the Mail Box.. waiting for the truck to come.. and as I am waiting for the Truck.. I see the Lights and I turn to look.. I see the Truck Coming and the Truck stops by the Mail box.. the mail man looks at me and smiles.. and I ask HIM.. can YOU please take me to where YOU are.. and I show him the Bottle.. and inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU.. and the mail Man was kind and telling me to come inside the truck and to stand by the steps.. as I would stand there.. and the truck would be driving.. and the Mail man drives to a Mail Box and he stops the Truck.. and as I am standing there.. I see you on the Other side.. YOU are standing by the front Door and I am standing on the steps and I see your Mail Box.. as I am looking towards the front Door.. I see you looking at me.. I do not know what it is but my Heart.. can YOU hear my Heart beating.. It would not stop beating as I am looking at YOU

[@YunHan-m9u]

Else is doing so.. That is why I had to tell myself and to have courage to tell YOU this very Night.. I wanted to surprise YOU.. so that the Impact of Your Heart you feel inside.. it has meaning of what I am doing today.. that is to tell YOU that it is me who is the One loving YOU.. some times when a person do not show UP.. you think of it is some one else but the truth is to be told that is it ME.. who is the One loving you the Most.. I just wanted to come out this very night to make a clear statement.. that I do not forget the One who I love.. and I wanted to see YOU face to face.. to see you in person so that YOU would remember.. that there is someone like Me who has been loving YOU.. and I would look at your Mail Box and I would open and I would place the Bottle.. inside is the Letter and I put into your mail Box and closed the Door.. and I see you just looking at me.. and the mail man would start his Truck and it would leave your mail Box.. as he was driving the Truck.. I feel like my Heart has lightened.. I feel like a burden Off my shoulders because of telling YOU.. face to face and in person to person letting YOU know who is the One writing you these Letters.. so that I know when you receive these Letters.. YOU can think of me Too.. that YOU can think of a face.. and that face is a person who has a Name.. that my name can be placed in your Heart.. can I write my Name inside your Heart so that whenever you receive a Letter from YOU.. that YOU will never forget and know who I am telling you all these things to YOU.. I don't want you to be confused because I am only One person.. Only One man.. who has a Heart and can express this Heart of Mine to YOU because all I ever wanted to share is this.. that I love YOU.. that there is going to be NO OTHER man like myself.. who can give YOU something very simple but has a meaning behind every time I think of YOU to give you letters.. OH PLEASE help me so that YOU don't forget me.. I am giving YOU my Heart and my Love to YOU.. the Only thing that I can do and can be good at in the Long run.. as the Truck stops by the Mail Box.. I get off the steps and I turn to look at the mail man and I thank him for his service by taking me to your mail Box.. and he looks at me.. and smiles.. I see the truck leaves the mail Box and I would look UP at the MOON.. why can't I be there a little longer.. Now I feel it in my Heart that I am Now missing YOU more.. was it a wise choice for me showing UP.. and looking at you from the distance.. seeing YOU eye to eye.. and able to tell YOU how my Heart was heavy because I was feeling like you are forgetting all about me.. and YOU would wonder.. why do I think this way.. it is because there are times I would doubt what if YOU are Not seeing me the same Way.. you can see my Heart and how much I love YOU but.. what if YOU are not loving me in any way.. It is only going to Hurt me in pain because I do also want your Love.. I wish that I knew that I can be Loved by YOU.. so that I know we are in the same page together.. all I ever wanted is to give and tell YOU that I love you but also be loved by YOU too.. that is the Only One thing truly I need and want from YOU.. nothing more and nothing less.. just to be Loved by you because YOU already knows that I love you just too much.. but it is in my blood to just love you more and more.. that is the Only Good thing I can do.. just to share and tell you.. How much I love YOU..I am waiting for the Truck.. the Mail man in the truck.. I heard from the Mail Man that you told him that YOU are writing a Letter to Me.. I couldn't believe the respond that I am getting.. I thought that I would Never hear from YOU.. I been writing you a lot of Letters lately and has Been sending it Out.. Hoping that One Day.. that One day be some day SOON.. I been looking UP at the Moon.. asking if the MOON can hear me.. asking if YOU KNOW what is happening on the Other side where YOU at.. I would keep on asking that MOON.. do YOU see.. can YOU SEE.. but I never got any kind of response from the MOON.. until the MAIL MAN.. who came on the Truck and told me that HE has heard from YOU.. that YOU are writing something to Me.. I tried to sleep.. the Night I have received the Message from the Mail man.. who came on the truck stops by the Mail Box.. I was walking Out.. with the envelope in my Hand.. inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU again.. when I showed him.. the MAIL MAN the envelope and told him I wrote YOU a Letter.. I saw a smile on his face and tells me.. there is something that He needed to tell me which it was received from YOU.. and I asked him to tell me.. that YOU are writing a Letter.. a letter sharing to Me and I saw HIM taking the envelope I gave him inside is my Letter I wrote to YOU again.. It was a NIGHT I wanted to dance.. it was the Night I looked UP at the MOON.. I waved my hands looking at the MOON.. people who were walking passing by the Mail Box looks at me.. I am sure they are thinking I am a crazy person.. but I would say to them.. I don't care what they think of Me.. if you do NOT KNOW WHAT I am feeling and dealing this very Night.. I don't care.. and I would be walking back to the House.. trying to lay down on the Bed.. I am trying to sleep.. but My Heart.. my Mind.. I be thinking of YOU.. turning on my side and I am looking at the desk.. I am just picturing YOU sitting by the desk and with a Piece of paper.. with a Pen or Pencil.. I can envision YOU writing a Letter to Me.. so I would turn the Other way.. looking at the wall.. facing the Wall because I know.. if I look at the Desk.. I be thinking of YOU and I would not sleep at ALL.. but facing the wall.. and able to close my eyes.. I just could Not sleep.. I can feel my Heart beat pounding Hard.. this excitement all over my body keeps me UP and I would sit UP.. sitting on the bed.. I am looking at the wall.. I just can't sleep.. HOW am I suppose to sleep tonight but I needs to sleep to get a good rest for the Night.. but I would try to sleep.. laying on the bed.. turning side to side and sitting back UP again.. if I turn on the side towards the desk.. I be seeing you there so I rather Not see YOU through the vision.. I turn on the other side.. facing the Wall.. and I sit UP again.. maybe I needs to get something Off my Chest.. maybe I needs to speak to this wall.. things all always on my Mind about YOU.. I can't just let it sit there.. I needs to express and tell YOU.. More and more I express my Heart to tell YOU.. the More I needs to say something to let YOU KNOW.. let you know How much I love YOU.. so LOOKING at the wall.. I know that YOU are Unable to hear me on the Other side.. but I still needs to tell YOU why I just can't sleep tonight.. some nights I can sleep well.. but there are Nights I just can't when YOU are on my Mind.. when YOU sink into my Heart.. I just have to let it Out.. WHY.. I am Not sure why I needs to let it Out.. but it starts with I love YOU.. it starts with I love YOU and I miss YOU and I would say looking at this WALL.. I been waiting for YOU.. walking Out of this ROOM.. walking Out of this House.. I am looking at the Mail box.. before I go to the Mail box.. I would be looking at the Desk.. when I sit by the Desk I look at How many Papers I have left.. I needs to have plenty of papers because there are some I won't give it to YOU.. I have a trash can which it gets loaded with rolled UP balls of papers that goes into the waste because I can't put it into the envelop.. so I needs to look at the stacks of paper.. when It gets very low.. I go to the store to Buy More Papers so that I can write YOU MORE letters to send it out to you.. SINCE I am able to see the mail Man and he has became My friend who is helping me.. He tells me there is NO need to put stamp stickers.. HE is able to take the envelop.. the Letter direct to YOU.. so told me there is NO NEED to put any stamps.. I would smile.. and I would weep at the same time.. to able to write YOU a Letter.. something that I can endure.. something that I truly enjoy and Love.. a Passion that was given to me since the YOUTH.. I started to write when I was very Young.. so for a very Long time I loved to write and still do even more.. because now to share this True Joy and Passion and something that I really enjoy and love.. I can write you letters more than any other MEN can in this world.. ONE thing that I can tell YOU is that MONEY cannot By My Love.. cannot by what I am doing and what I am giving to YOU because it is because I really Love YOU.. YOU may not see it Now.. I am Not sure when YOU WILL see my Heart but I believe that ONE DAY.. SOME DAY YOU WILL SEE it.. the day YOU see my Heart of How much I love YOU is the day when YOU WILL see the MOON appear before YOU.. on the Night Your Heart will see it.. is the day YOU will realize because The MOON still be there LOOKING at YOU.. I may be gone.. I may be GONE far away.. when YOU DO see it is the day YOU will remember the Letters because I will Love you even after when I am GONE.. as I am looking at the wall in the ROOM.. I needs to see YOU.. I wish that YOU can see me.. see my Heart soon.. because the Day when YOU see me.. I be asking the Angels.. when I am gone.. can I be an Angel TOO.. an Angel who can still Love YOU after I am gone.. but I am always around.. that I am close to YOU this time to able to still Love YOU.. I may not be able to speak or write YOU Letters but I am able to appear before Your Eyes.. BY the time YOU do not receive the Letters.. and YOU know my real True Heart.. there is NO reason for you to receive Letters any more because by that TIME your Heart Knows who Loves YOU and I be able to come before you to tell YOU Not by Letters on Words but by being YOUR ANGEL.. An Angel who can always be there and An Angel who will always

[@YunHan-m9u]

Paper into the envelope Inside and I would run Out of the House.. the Mail Man in the truck tells me HE saw me in the room.. and saw me writing a Letter to YOU.. and knew I was running late.. so I came out.. running and catching a breathe and gave the envelop into his Hand.. He smiles and waves taking it to YOU.. I would watch as the Truck gets smaller.. tears in my eyes because the MAIL MAN was patient to wait for me when It was me who was late to give.. but He still waited knowing that I was coming OUT and giving YOU a Letter.. as I am Facing the Wall in the ROOM sitting on the top of the Bed.. and my tears fills UP my eyes.. I wish that YOU know my Heart.. sometimes am I being just too impatient with myself.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. I love you just too Much.. from here to the MOON I love YOU.. why can't you believe my Words.. why can't you believe me and see me the way I am.. why can't I just love you as I am.. Please tell me why I can't just love YOU as for Me.. and My hands rolls into two fist and pounds on the wall of this ROOM.. and shakes.. I really really needs YOUR eyes to open and Heart to open to see me that I love YOU.. My fear is this.. Only the day I come to YOU as an Angel.. DO I needs to Die for you to know My Heart.. the day I am gone and I been Out side.. at Night when the MOON Appears.. I been asking the MOON.. where is the Angels.. Please tell me are the Angels There with YOU.. Please let the Angels KNOW I have an request.. I want to Know if I can ask an Angel for something.. I been going Out at night when the Moon Appeared.. and kept on asking and begging and Bugging.. One Night an angel did Appear before Me.. and I would have the Picture of YOU in my Hand and I would have the Letter on the Other Hand and the Angel came to Me.. and I showed that Angel my Heart.. HE saw the Picture of YOU and saw the Letter and told the Angel.. my Wish.. My request.. and I asked the Angel.. I may Not be able to be with YOU when I am on this Body.. but I think it is when I am gone.. when I die and the Angel looks at me.. and I would tell the angel.. I been writing YOU a Letter.. and the Mail MAN came to take the Letters in the envelop and has been receiving the Letters.. if I can't be with YOU when I with this Body.. I think the Only way is when I am gone.. and the Angel looks at me and said.. But I said.. if I die.. can YOU Please give me two wings.. Can I be an Angel who can still Love YOU afterlife.. IF I can't be with YOU here on the earth with this Body.. and the Angel would say to me.. the Wish and the Request is granted.. and the Angel left away.. as I am in the ROOM.. Looking at this Wall.. I am able to smile still because I have been given this request that it does NOT matter about Now.. that I am thinking about Later.. and that I can still wait for YOU as long as I can live.. because as long as I live I am able to tell YOU through the Letters HOW much I love you and keep on writing on the Piece of Papers.. the Mail Man comes and smiles always being the friend who I never had knowing and understanding and can relate my Heart.. I give him Letters so that He can take it to YOU and I know that even though I may not see YOU now.. I can wait.. but what happens when I die.. my Heart is for YOU to Love Me.. I wish that YOU can love me too.. as much as I love YOU.. My whole request has been this simple.. to LOVE me back.. YOU do not have to love me as much as I love YOU but can think about loving me.. I am thinking thought.. How the Angel has agreed to this that HE will send me two wings the day I die.. I hope that YOU can see my Love when I die.. even though I want to see YOU see me Now.. but if YOU can't still see me Now loving YOU.. I must learn to wait.. I must learn to be patient with YOU but.. is it when I am gone you will know that I love YOU.. is it when YOU start to miss ME when I am gone.. the day I am gone and far off.. but it be the Most Glorious day when I receive the two Wings and can approach YOU closer.. When I come to you as Your Angel.. I am going to show YOU that I came to Fight on your behalf.. to Protect YOU and to defend YOU because I been loving YOU FOR such a Long time Now.. my wish is that I wish that YOU can see it Now.. and when it comes to be never.. it breaks my Heart because I been writing you Letters that I love you since the day One.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. but do I needs to be Your Angel for YOU to finally see my Heart of loving YOU.. I would look at this Wall and I would be crying.. It hurts.. It hurts because I needs to Die.. I needs to be gone.. but I still be loving YOU when I am gone.. but it be that I can't write you Letters when I become Your Angel.. when I do have two wings.. I know I can appear before your eyes.. and I will show YOU that I love you still.. but what If I can't speak to YOU.. if I can't tell you this Heart of Mine when I do become.. that is what I fear when it does Happen.. but as I am looking at the wall of the room.. wiping the tears of my eyes I turn to look at the desk and I get out of the bed going to the chair to sit by the desk.. and I sit.. the Piece of paper and pencil to write you another Letter of how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to say.. I love you and I miss YOU..I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU.. the More I try not to think of YOU.. it seems like it is getting More Harder.. I would take a Look.. and looking into the Picture.. that is the Only One thing I can do.. is to LOOK at you when I have your Picture in my hands.. it has been so hard lately.. because I been alone.. I been writing YOU Letters.. but How can this Letter ever reach YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU that I still do Love YOU.. WILL you open your Heart.. open your ears to let me talk.. to let me speak.. will I be nervous to tell YOU if I stand before YOU.. having the Courage to tell YOU.. then I would ask.. will you give me the time and the attention that I needs so that I can tell YOU from My Heart.. Lately.. I been walking to this Mirror.. and I know that One Day soon.. if I do Not practice Now speaking and sharing.. and talking while Looking at the Mirror.. I know that I will never get the chance to tell YOU or say to YOU because I know that WHEN I see YOU.. I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know

[@YunHan-m9u]

Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT For me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU..I am looking at the paper in front of me.. looking on the floor.. on the ground.. on the carpet floor.. few papers been rolled into balls.. I would try to write you a letter.. with the Pen.. and would make some mistakes and with the Pen.. there is NO eraser to erase.. so I would grab the Piece of paper.. when it has been made mistake while writing YOU a Letter.. I would roll into the Ball and it would Hit the carpet floor.. been struggling.. my Heart been struggling so Much.. I would look at the Cup.. pouring the Can of Beer.. and I would grab the Glass cup.. drinking the beer.. I can feel bubbly inside.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind.. but when I place a Piece of Paper in front of the desk.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to write you something.. something that I needs to say that comes from My Heart.. that sinks in my Head.. and I can't just hold it in.. but Needs to tell YOU as I would write you this Letter.. when YOU been practicing for such a Long time writing.. and for a long time it becomes a part of YOU.. Like a lifestyle and changes into.. that is where I am at this Point when I would pull out a clean sheet of piece of Paper.. I know that the Truck is coming.. the Mail man.. with his truck.. He is coming to this Home.. to the Mail Box.. and I know that I am running out of time.. and I needs to put something.. Needs to tell YOU something on this Piece of Paper.. I received something from YOU.. an envelop.. a new Picture YOU put inside and I have Never seen this Picture before.. YOU are smiling.. Holding a Bear.. I am Not sure what kind of Bear is this.. do I call it the teddy Bear.. and My eyes.. I keep on looking at this new Picture.. YOU look so beautiful.. YOU look so Cute holding.. holding this small bear.. and it seems like YOU are trying to tell me something.. are YOU telling me that I am small like this Bear.. because I do not like that Small bear.. of course I am Not saying I am tall because I am Not.. but when I look at the new Picture of YOU.. holding that small bear.. it means that I wish that it be Me.. I want to hold the small bear.. and I want to hold YOU close in my arms too.. putting down that Small bear.. and to tell you that YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful that I ever saw in my life.. that YOU are just too pretty.. just too beautiful.. even without holding that Small Bear.. just YOU in the Picture alone is enough to say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. there is NO reason to be holding that small bear.. and is this what I should Put.. should write.. to tell YOU on this Letter.. or should I say to YOU.. I been missing YOU so bad lately.. but this very Night.. I had to go into the kitchen and grab me a cold can of Beer.. and grabbed a glass cup.. Open the Cold Can of Beer and poured into the Glass cup and I would sit.. sit by the desk looking at the new Picture of YOU holding this Small Bear.. I would

[@devinjo2318]

Oink Oink.. Beating on Me.. what if I stop beating.. and I can't feel my Heart beating inside of Me.. I guess in times like that.. I can be glad that I am behind the screen.. because If I were to face YOU.. and has to talk to YOU directly.. would I say the things that I can say and share like the way I am able to write to YOU these Letters.. what I have the Words to speak and tell YOU all these things that I can when I am able to sit by the desk.. and I would pull the drawer and the Key Board is there.. I would turn on the screen and I would Look at the Blank white Screen.. and the first thing is that I would Look at your Picture.. I would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would ask the Question.. WHY are you so Beautiful to Me.. when I look at you through your Picture.. I can feel this Sharp Pain.. it hurts me more than YOU can say One word to me because this Sharp pain never goes away unless I needs to say It.. to tell YOU from my Heart.. How much that It is Hurting me because I been loving YOU.. just loving YOU does hurt me because it is what you do to MY Heart when I look at you and Your Picture.. YOU are wondering.. you can be thinking that is it going to end very soon.. WILL I ever stop writing.. Will I ever end telling YOU these words and maybe YOU can think that way because It can feel like.. what if IT does end.. and I will ask YOU.. will you be missing Me.. is it then when I will know your true Heart.. if YOU ever did Love Me.. but to speak truth in love is this.. It is so Hard for me to end because it is YOU who I love.. when a MAN like myself has Nothing to Lose.. I really have Nothing to Give YOU to be honest with YOU.. I am Not wealthy.. I am Not even smart.. I don't have Any Master degrees.. and I don't even have a Great Job.. what I will look like to YOU is a MAN who has failed many times In my Life.. seems Like I am going Nowhere.. I guess that is where it all begins because I do truly Have Nothing to Lose.. that I am Not afraid to tell YOU that I do Love YOU.. it does Not matter what YOU think of Me.. I can be the Most smallest Person on this earth.. I may be very small but when It comes down to Love YOU.. I know that I can run through Snowy roads to get to YOU.. even if it takes Miles and miles apart from here to where YOU are at.. I know that NO matter what.. If I have the Heart to go to you now.. I know that I can.. I can even climb up on Mountains.. if falling down and rolling down.. hitting the floor and falling down.. just remember that I can get back UP.. and I will try one more time because I believe in Loving YOU.. give me two wings.. and I will put the wings so that I can fly to YOU.. just to tell YOU that it is me whose been loving YOU.. I don't care because I love YOU more.. that is why I want to prove it to YOU HOW much I really do.. I can run.. I can walk.. I can fall back and bounce back.. but as long as I know that I love YOU.. I will do what my Heart says in me.. to keep on trying until YOU can get it to Your Head.. I believe that In due time.. One day I do believe that YOU will love me too.. I am Not asking you to love me Now because I know that YOU just can't.. do you know why.. because I am Not ready yet to be with YOU.. the day that comes for me to be with YOU and when I am ready.. I know that YOU be ready to receive the Love I want to give to YOU.. I am only letting YOU know that I been here.. Looking at your Picture.. but when I do look at your Picture.. my Heart burns in me.. and my eyes get watery these days.. it did Not happen before.. but Now.. I am Not sure what is happening to My Heart.. but I know that I am beginning to Love YOU more.. I focus on telling YOU.. How to tell YOU that I really do Love YOU.. which way.. is it to the North.. is it to the East.. how about to the West.. looking down to the South.. any direction as long as I can find YOU so that I can tell YOU that It is Me who is loving YOU.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would be wiping the tears from my eyes.. as my Chest hurts.. and YOU are wondering.. if My Heart Burns and It is hurting me with this Sharp Pain.. why don't I go see the doctor.. why don't I tell the doctor that I have a Heart problem.. if the Doctor asks me why am I in for the Office check.. I will tell the Doctor.. and I will show the doctor the Picture of YOU.. and I will point to YOU to that doctor and say.. when ever I look at this Picture of YOU.. I can feel my Heart burning and I do receive this sharp Pain of sensation that just don't go away.. and My eyes becomes watery and I just want to pour Out my emotions as I want to cry loud as I be looking at YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It hurts me that this is the Only thing I can do.. that It hurts me more.. it hurts so sharp.. I wish that this pain can go away but it becomes more stronger and stronger each time I would LOOK at your Picture.. I know that I want to stop.. but I just can't.. I wonder what the doctor would say.. unless he gets rid of my Heart.. but I want My Heart because I love YOU.. I need my Heart because I know that this Heart can only tell YOU how much YOU mean to me.. I want to go to YOU.. if I have to swim in the Oceans.. in the cold water and telling me this is the direction I needs to take.. I will go and will go to find YOU just to tell YOU that It is Me who is loving YOU.. when It comes to loving YOU.. I have this drive.. it is driven in my Heart.. this will in my Heart that I want to love YOU more.. what am I suppose to do or say to the Heart.. I am determined to Love YOU more.. YOU can tell me and Push me.. telling me to GO away.. kick me.. push me so that I fall on the floor.. but I will tell YOU.. I just can't.. I needs to love YOU.. and More I needs to love because it makes me alive when I do love YOU.. I am Not sure if you ever have this kind of experience before but lately.. I am feeling it More and more.. the Picture in my hand.. I would hold unto.. and I will say.. I am going to love YOU.. I am going to show YOU one day which is HOW MUCH I really do.. YOU can test me the day YOU meet me and I will do anything just to be close to YOU so that I can finally say to YOU.. I love YOU.. when My Heart be burning inside.. and I feel this sharp pain inside.. it is after I would take a LOOK at your Picture.. looking and saying to myself.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why are you so Beautiful.. that I know I am going to Hurt myself because I know YOU are just good to be true.. I would sit on the top of the bed.. just thinking of YOU.. I would say.. holding unto your Picture.. sitting on the top of the bed.. I look at your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I just can't keep you away.. am I nuts.. am I going crazy.. do YOU call me insane.. that there is something wrong with me.. and I would get Out of the Bed and Sit on the chair.. and drawer pulls out.. I would LOOK at the Key Board.. I do remember when I first started to type.. many years ago.. I would be looking at the Keyboard constantly.. fingers trying to push down on Letters.. when YOU practice typing for such a Long time.. and when Years went by.. I am able to look at the screen.. my eyes don't need to look at the key board any more because my Fingers knows now where to push the Letters as I be thinking of YOU and telling you How much I love YOU.. that shows how much I had to practice over the Years.. where I can only LOOK at the screen.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. I can feel my Heart calling Out to YOU.. calling Out your Name as I would keep on typing.. telling YOU through this How much I needs to be with YOU.. How much I needs to be the One to Love YOU.. Only YOU are the One who can give that answer an account.. YOU are the Only one who can let that happen.. and I be hoping.. I wish that these Letters get to YOU.. that YOU know my Heart.. my Mind.. my Soul.. How much I love YOU.. I remember when I first saw Your Picture.. and I would be looking at YOU.. and I would say.. How can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want my Mind to go across.. I wanted to tell YOU something.. and I would say How.. that is when I saw the drawer.. and I saw the Key board inside the drawer.. and the Idea came into my Mind.. and Into my Heart.. that I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. as My fingers would touch the Keyboard.. and I would start to type by pushing into the Letters.. I saw something that felt like Impossible turn into some thing special to Me.. that It was possible to get it Out to YOU.. that I am able to share my Heart.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and ever since the day I saw Your Picture is when it began.. that I needs to say It.. I needs to tell it to YOU.. needs to tell you that I love YOU.. and I will never give UP on YOU because I know.. maybe One day.. Maybe some day soon.. I know that YOU can too love me back too.. and still I am believing in that Dream I have in my Heart.. YOU are the One for Me.. and I know that YOU are the Only One who I know I can love.. I never gave UP on that Dream till this day.. when I first saw that Dream.. can a Man like me ever Love.. Can I turn a Like into some thing Bigger.. Can it change to be Love.. at first it started as just liking it.. but Now I know in my Heart.. I am in love with YOU.. when It becomes Love.. NO matter How much it hurts.. the Sharp Pains that keeps on coming.. the Burning of the Heart.. missing YOU like crazy.. and just Loving YOU just because it is YOU.. I know that I now love YOU more.. and growing more stronger each day because I never stopped loving YOU.. YOU are the One for me.. always been the One for me even till this day Now.. just wanted to say.. I still love YOU.. ever since I saw your Picture.. I just knew that I am going to start loving YOU.. when YOU believe in Love and loving YOU.. I believe anything can happen as long as I know.. YOU are the One for Me.. and I am just hoping that YOU believe in the same way too.. YOU are everything to Me.. that I know that YOU mean everything to me and you

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MAH MAH.. I walk into the tent in the training Ground.. all the Men are inside the Tents.. and I would lay down.. before I would close my eyes to sleep.. I have a recent Picture of YOU.. a friend of Mine has gave me the Art Sketch paper.. and some one drew this Picture and the friend of Mine who kept it and gave it to Me.. it was before I came into the Training Camp with the Official Seal Paper.. the Letter which the Older man.. the Teacher gave to Me so that I can pass it to YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. and I would say again.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. do YOU know that I been looking at this Picture.. this Art sketch Paper that some one drew of YOU.. I remember when the Friend of Mine came to me.. knowing that I been Loving YOU for a Long Time.. He saw me with the Art Sketch paper.. it was when YOU were much Younger.. the Boy who went over to draw picture of YOU and who was caught after giving it to Me.. MAH MAH.. the One that I gave to YOU.. because I told you that I did not need it any More.. because I was next to YOU now.. and when YOU took it.. I saw you holding.. I asked you to Burn it.. but I see that YOU would Not.. and to be honest with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I had a recent One.. the Art Sketch paper which some one drew of YOU.. I know that YOU have ways to capture the Hearts of Many Men.. it does Not matter who Loves YOU but I know for sure that I can Love you More.. that is why I am telling YOU even though YOU may Not hear me on this very Night.. as I am holding this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just saw you before I went into the Tent.. but I feel like I still has to keep On seeing YOU.. I don't know what it is about YOU.. maybe because YOU are the Crown Princess of the Nation to be the Next Ruler for this Country.. for this Nation.. because YOU are the greatest.. the Biggest.. the best.. a true Ruler and that is why knowing this Truth.. the Strength and the Power and the control.. the Dominance you have in YOU.. the More I look at YOU.. the More my Heart be moving.. and I just can't let YOU Go MAH MAH.. WHY can't I let you go MAH MAH.. Please tell me WHY.. and I am laying down.. as I would LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would fold into Half and lay it behind Me.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking about the People.. but when I saw YOU holding the Sword.. pointing to the direction which I did Not want to see.. I would be begging YOU.. to Stay with the People.. with the Little Children.. when I saw HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. pulling out the Sword.. the King's Sword towards the Other side where the Enemies are going to Come.. I just could Not help it to drop on both Knees.. because I did Not want to see you fight.. I don't want to see you going into the Battle field.. but I know how YOU are MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. once you put your Mind on something that YOU be aiming for.. I know you will go for It.. in One way this is the reason WHY I felt in Love with YOU.. YOU are so Bold.. and so Fierce when it comes to protection and fighting for something.. when it comes for the Nation of your People YOU love.. that YOU will do anything to Protect this Country.. this Nation because of the People.. when I saw YOU on that Horse.. in the Garden bringing the People from the Royal Palace.. to rebuild the Garden.. My Heart.. I just knew it from the start that you were.. Crown Princess be different.. when I saw you doing something.. when MAH MAH cared for the Unimportant.. the Little People.. a person like myself.. I knew that YOU are going to do something very Big.. because even the Poor and the Little People are also your People too.. the most smallest of all.. I came from that Garden.. I am the Most lowest person in that Garden and I saw you in that Garden.. all of the Knees went down when the People saw YOU in that Garden.. tears would roll from the eyes.. just could not believe.. the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. it was the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. from all of the People out there in the royal family.. it was the CROWN PRINCESS who came with the Horse.. who has this Big Heart of even rebuilding what was under Looked.. NO ONE cares about the Poor people.. NO ONE loves the Ones who are hungry and dying in such poverty.. growing UP in the Garden.. there was NO Homes.. when it rained.. I would sit in a Hay House.. but I be wet from the rain.. I would look across at the neighbor Hay Home.. just like my home.. we are staring at each other watching the rain fall from the sky and both of us are getting wet.. it is very hard when it becomes Cold in the Winter.. many of the Children living in the Low poverty will die because it is just too cold for any one to survive in that condition.. many times and Many nights.. many winter nights.. I do wonder How did I even manage to come this very far.. I saw many families in the Hay Homes.. the Parents of the children are in their arms and left to die as they are crying for help.. my Heart breaks each time I think of being so Low.. being so Poor and having not much.. but How is it that I manage to get Out of that Garden.. and I saw many Mothers burying their Sons and daughters in the Garden.. Hay Homes would fall and crumble as strong winds comes to blow hard.. I would watch strong rains breaking the roof tops of the Hays down and it falls down on people.. I would watch Many People living without homes.. begging for Food and crying in the Night asking for Help.. rescue Me is what I would hear.. and WHO ever thought it be YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. out of the Blue you came along on that Horse.. what really got to My Heart is that Hays and straws were no longer use.. when YOU Came MAH MAH.. it became bricks and How you rebuild giving it a NAME and it became a Town.. now I hear that it has changed to a City like.. market place where people are Now Living.. and watching many People who came from the Garden.. to pay respect for YOU.. many children grew UP well after YOU came to rebuild that Garden into a Town to City.. a market Place where More People are going there to Work.. MAH MAH.. if YOU did Not show UP.. I am Not sure if I would of made it here today and that is why I wanted to tell YOU that I am so thankful that I get to Love YOU now.. and every day I can Love you more because YOU have given me a Place.. where I can be so close to YOU.. just wanted to say to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. thank YOU for rebuilding that Garden.. Now that Place is flourishing and more people are going to come here after they make it Out of that Garden.. as I would close Both eyes and I am dreaming.. I am Not sure but I look at the door in front of Me.. behind me is the Seven Friends of Mine.. as the DOOR opens.. I walk in with the Seven Friends.. the MAIN HALL ROOM.. and it is the Meeting Board.. on the Right side.. the Six Princes are standing from the First to Sixth SON and the Prime Minister with the 12 Council of Noble Men.. on the Left side is the Older MAN.. the teacher.. the TOP COMMANDER.. the Commanders.. to Chief Generals.. to TOP General.. 2nd Rank General to 3rd rank General and to the generals.. as I walk and I stop.. a stairs above me.. and the King's Chair.. the Messenger calls Out to YOU.. and I would stop.. it just can't be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Scroll rolls Down.. and I see YOU walking UP the stairs.. and I see you turn around.. MAH MAH.. the Messenger walks UP to YOU.. the Crowns are changing.. I am wondering what does this Mean.. and the Messenger reads the scroll pronouncing that YOU be the QUEEN.. My Heart.. are you trying to KILL my Heart.. I know that It is going to Happen.. but is it going to happen NOW.. are you the True QUEEN.. to be pronounce.. and the Messenger walks UP.. holding the KING's Crown and Puts on TOP over your Head.. HAIL to the QUEEN of NATION.. and I fall on two knees.. and I am crying.. I know it suppose to be the Best day to celebrate.. but How about Me.. I am now suppose to call you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that is the QUEEN.. and I hear the Voices in the MAIN HALL room.. in the Board of Meeting calling Out.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and voices grows louder and louder as they Shout to YOU.. knees all hits to two.. and shouts Louder HAIL to the QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. and I am crying louder and Louder.. How can I love the QUEEN.. Please help me.. How can I love you when YOU are seated as the QUEEN of the Nation.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the ground.. I see you sitting on the King's chair and YOU stand UP.. pulling Out the king's sword.. hands all lifted UP.. and voices raises UP higher and people are all crying.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would open two eyes from the sleep.. I know that this means some thing very big is going to happen.. it must be a sign that YOU are going to rule for this Nation.. and I would stand UP and get Out of the tent.. and I am standing alone still dark.. with my hand is the sword and I pull it Out.. LOOKING at the Blade.. the War is coming.. first we needs to win and beat in this WAR but I know and I would JUMP UP in the air left right left right swing the Sword.. I know Not much time but for the CROWN PRINCESS.. for WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I must fight to Protect so that YOU can sit on that THRONE. the King's Chair to become my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH. as I would LOOK UP at the MOON.. my both feet lands on

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MAH MAH.. People are going to choose YOU to take your Father's Place.. who will be the One to rule and direct for this NATION.. but if I can't love you any more.. I know that I must Go and YOU can select the MEN.. I will let them stay with YOU and I will go alone.. it is just too hard for me because I have been loving YOU since when I was a young Boy.. ever since I saw YOU for the first Time.. my Heart would beat more than it skipped the Beat.. but I know.. the people also who came from the Garden.. they are seeking for YOU to rule over them too.. that is why they are going to fight and unite so that they want to PLACE YOU over them.. if I can't love YOU any more.. there is NO reason longer for me to stay any more.. I can't live without loving YOU more.. that is the Part where it hurts me the Most.. I just can't keep it to myself and be silent.. if the council of Noble men sees me keep on doing this.. they are going to find ways to put my chains and will try to persecute ME.. they are going to try to kill me for this.. that is why I know that I must go after the War.. will you let me Leave Your sight after the War.. either way I am a dead Man now.. the Prime Ministry with the 12 council of Noble men tried to find ways to execute me because I am hearing words.. so Please.. if I can't love YOU any more.. please let me GO and I can go as far.. I am thinking about returning back to the Garden where I came from.. and I would see you pointing the sword and YOU remove the sword away from me.. picking UP the arrow.. putting on the end of the Strings of the Bow.. pulling it back YOU would aim and release.. the ARROW hits right in the Middle of the target.. I am thinking.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is so good even at Night.. YOU just never miss the shot hitting this target.. in this dark Night.. it is so hard for me to see the target.. and I am hearing the Soldier by the target.. the flag is moving around.. But.. YOU know that I still Love YOU.. I will always love you no matter where I go.. it is just that It is getting so much harder for me Now to Love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because I really Love YOU.. even from the Far.. when I was in a long distance I loved you then when I did Not see YOU.. Now I see you close that I love you more.. either way far or Near.. my Heart will never change of loving YOU more.. because I really Love YOU NO matter where YOU are CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH..I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name.. they just don't and I was touched.. But YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS cared.. my best friend was dying before my eyes.. and I cannot do anything to help.. I am watching him throw UP blood and He is asking me to bury HIM next to my Mother who is already GONE.. and I would close both eyes crying Loud.. my Heart hurts because He is telling me that HE is dying.. this pain.. and I would watch the Royal Physicians walking into the Garden.. and two of them goes over to my Best Friend.. I watch HIM being carried by the two doctors.. and I would walk the wood cutters and stone builders and they have come with Nurses and even the Maids and kitchen Ladies all comes to this Garden.. feeding the Poor.. feeding the Lost.. feeding thousands of children with no homes and I would watch the remodel of the Garden as the Homes are being placed in the Garden.. and as I come to my senses.. and I am both on the Knees Looking at the ground.. the man who knows Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I

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MAH MAH.. YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into my Heart when I saw the enemies getting just too close to YOU.. I wanted.. rather I die.. rather come after Me and Kill me instead because I rather Die instead of YOU enter that Battle Ground of war.. I can't take it any more.. so Please.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. just this Once.. and how about these children.. they too needs your hands and Your care.. they wanted to meet YOU.. they want to be close to YOU.. look at the Children and I would watch you turn your Head looking at these Little boys and girls.. more than hundred children came with their parents.. and I would watch the New Recruits raising UP their wooden Sticks wanting to join in the Fight.. and I am Looking UP at YOU.. and I would watch YOU turn your Head looking at the Little children.. and LOOKING at the new recruits and YOU turn to LOOK down at Me.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please say something.. Please answer me for Once.. even those families with the little children all needs YOU by your side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am thinking of You.. as I am holding the stick in my hand.. I would say.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. My One wish.. I just want to Love YOU but also with this Sword.. I want to protect YOU and I would swing the Stick.. and My friend who is also holding the stick blocks with the stick I swing at him.. and He would look at me and swing the Stick in his hand and It hits me on the Arm.. I would swing the stick I am holding with my hand and it hits his head and my friend falls on the Ground.. and He looks UP on the ground.. I stood there.. just thinking of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hand grabs his hand and I pull HIM up on his two legs.. as the Moon is High Above.. the Six Friends are making a circle on two of us.. and they are all holding the Sticks.. and as I am thinking of YOU.. I would look at the Seven Friends.. I have to go back to the Palace.. I have to go see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the two Knees.. My Head looking on the Ground.. the Seven Friends are Behind Me.. both on the Knees.. Looking on the Ground.. arms UP saluting to YOU as the Crown Princess.. as I hear more foot steps walking.. I see you with the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. I see you turn around looking back.. there are seven Chief Generals.. with their Foot soldiers all walking to YOU.. and Five Commanders behind with the Foot Soldiers.. they all stop.. both on knees.. Heads all looks on the ground.. arms UP and I see YOU.. a great large of army military men has gathered around you.. As I am holding the sword.. I would Lift up my Arm up with my hand holding the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. the Seven Men.. my friends all would pull out the swords.. hands holding the swords.. arms lifted UP and they shout out with a Loud Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout Out louder More.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I would hear.. the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. they pull out their swords holding in their hands.. arms lifted UP high.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends with the Foot SOLDIERS all lifted UP their Swords holding their hands.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. and I would raise UP my Voice Louder and Cried OUT.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I hear all of the Voices.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you stand in the Middle.. our heads looking at the ground.. and I would say.. YOU are so Great.. Look at you because the men has gathered.. I know there is something that is about to happen.. but my Heart.. to Protect YOU.. and Too keep on protecting you to the end.. and I see YOU looking down.. as I would lift UP my Head looking into your eyes.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I hear something behind.. a Messenger riding on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand.. and the Heads would all turn to look.. the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets out of the Horse.. two on knees.. arm UP and Head looks down.. hand holding the Scroll.. and I am wondering.. what does this Mean.. a Private Messenger only for the Crown Princess.. and I see you raise YOUR HAND.. and the Messenger gets UP.. and He would unroll the scroll.. and starts to share.. a War is going to break Out.. and the enemies are coming to the Fortress.. and they are bringing many foot soldiers.. horse riders.. and the Six Princes are in the Eldest house and they are drinking having the Party.. and the Messenger goes down both knees.. Head goes down and arm up.. and I am wondering.. a War.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. and YOU look at me.. there has been a talk about a war for a Long time.. and it is happening.. I look at YOU.. Why did YOU not tell me about this war.. then I would of been preparing for a battle.. but why did YOU not tell Me.. and I looked at YOU.. it does Not matter Now.. because it is going to happen anyways.. and I Just can't believe you have kept this from me.. I told YOU that I wanted to protect YOU.. and that is what I have said.. I have promised YOU that the reason why I am here.. it is to Protect YOU and Your nation.. if YOU told me about this War.. then I could of found More men.. gathered more Men.. and I would look behind YOU.. which there was more than thousand Men.. they are ready.. has been prepared for this War.. and of course.. I knew that you had the men power.. but I also wanted to bring more so that we can win this War.. and I get UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I told you.. ever since I saw you from the Garden.. that I was going to come to YOU.. I have made the Promise in the garden.. when I was only looking at the garden of flowers.. even though I am a lowly servant son.. that One day I am going to see you and meet you at the Palace.. I told you that I will make this promise that I will become a Swordsmanship so that I can guard and protect.. Because this is all I can give and this is all I can do for YOU.. I may be very small.. and not be much to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP on you.. I will keep on fighting for YOU as long as YOU give me a chance to stay.. and Now.. here I am.. I have kept my words.. I have kept my promises to YOU.. it took me long long long time to get and come this far.. but I am here right Now beside YOU.. I told you when I was young

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MAH MAH.. They have more experience then me at the art of swordsmanship.. but having more Men it be better for this war.. and My Heart.. I just can't believe I have to hear it like this.. at the last minute when I did Not know anything.. and I just can't see YOU go out on the Battle.. I know that YOU would and you will.. I can't see you at the battle field.. I saw you training with your teacher who is the Chief general.. when I saw YOU with the stick.. I knew something was going to happen.. YOU know that I can't lose YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. and it be better if I die rather than YOU.. and I hear the Horn.. and someone is blowing the Horn from the far.. and I know now.. so I would get UP.. both feet.. and I turn around.. and I look at the seven Men.. the friends.. I am going alone first.. and I am looking at the Horse.. and I get on its Back.. holding the sword with my hand.. and I see your hand telling me to wait.. but.. I know that it is time.. I needs to GO and handle some business here.. I look at the closest friend and I tell HIM.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. be with you.. and.. I see the Other Six Men.. they all get on the back of the Horses and holding the swords in their hands.. I am looking toward the Fortress and my Heart.. it is Hurting me More.. when I am thinking about this More and More.. my Heart keeps on hurting.. why didn't WANGSEJABI MAH MAH did Not tell me anything about this situation.. I know I may not be much.. but I know that I will fight for YOU.. I will do anything for YOU.. even I know that I can die for YOU.. I am sure I can bring some enemies die with this Sword.. but why is My Heart keeps on hurting me.. this is NO JOKE because this is a War.. and I would turn to look back.. and I am looking at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. DO you not know how much I love YOU.. and I am grabbing the strings of the Horse.. and I swing it and the Horse takes Off.. the Six Friends behind Me.. they too grabs the strings of the Horses and swings it.. and follows behind Me.. as the Horse keeps on running fast.. I turn on the Side.. putting the Sword into the sheath and I pull the Bow on the side.. and behind is the arrows.. and the Horse keeps on running.. leaving the Palace.. and it is going to the Fortress.. and the Horse stops.. and my hand hits my Chest.. How long was this been going On.. How long was it for this talking of the war.. I wonder how the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH felt.. knowing there is going to come this war.. and have to keep it inside for a long time.. and I grab the Two Arrows.. putting on the Strings of the Bow.. PULLS the strings Back and I would release the strings.. the arrows shoots far off.. and I would sit on the Horse.. and I would think about when I was a young Boy.. watching YOU from the far.. when YOU were young.. I was sitting on the Horse.. the Commanders behind YOU.. the Chief General next to the Target Practice.. with the Flag.. my eyes full of tears.. YOU were holding the Bow pulling back the strings with the Arrow.. and release the strings and the arrow shoots and hits the red dot of the target.. and hearing the cheering and hands clapping.. flag swings around.. BULLS EYE.. and as I am sitting on the horse.. being still.. what bothers me the most.. I was by the Ocean water.. thinking about YOU coming to the Ocean waters.. but YOU just stood.. YOU just sat on the Horse.. watching me from the distance as I am looking at the waters.. but did Not tell me anything about it there.. it bothers me when I saw YOU looking at me.. sending four new friends to me.. and I saw You turning the Horse away and in silent you left the site.. but the Heart.. was it heavy leaving without mentioning about what was to come.. why did YOU not say anything then.. why did YOU not tell me that something was about to happen.. why just leave in silent.. YOU know.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU told me.. I would left everything behind and just went with YOU that night.. I would of not think about anything but to Just to protect YOU and to Protect Your Nation.. I would of done anything.. If YOU just said something.. I would come with YOU much sooner.. I feel like a foolish person now.. because I would told YOU that I was Not coming.. I do remember you be asking me to come with YOU.. but I told YOU that I needed some time away.. that I wanted to stay by the Ocean water.. but if YOU just told me then.. what was happening.. YOU know that I would leave it behind and came with YOU without making you feel frustrated.. because I know that I can be some kind of Help of your Need.. why do YOU think I wanted to be a Swordsmanship.. WHY would I learn this skills and this Art of holding the sword.. I have promised you.. I remember when I was YOUNG.. I made a Promise to YOU.. even at the Garden when I knew Nothing about the Sword.. I told YOU that One day.. I am going to master the Art so that I can be useful and to be a part.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU forever.. and YOU have seen me through it ALL.. YOU have seen me when I had no skills at the sword.. when I was working in the garden as a flower Boy.. just as gardener.. Now here I am with the Sword.. at least you could of told me then.. I would not feel so bad right Now.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU know that I would drop everything just for YOU and to Protect YOU because YOU know How much I love YOU.. I am looking towards and I am watching the Arrows flying and many arrows flying over the Wall of the Tower.. I turn to look at the Left.. ten men sitting on their Horses.. bows in the hands.. Looking UP.. and Arrows shoot Fire and I am truly Touched.. these are the Men that belongs to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see the Chief General standing on the Tower.. and He arm raises holding the Sword UP.. and ALL the Men up on the Tower of the walls.. They are too holding the Bows.. and arrows are shooting out.. I grab the Bow.. and I turn back.. grabbing two Arrows.. I remember when YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. when YOU were a girl.. I saw YOU on the Practice training ground.. I was sitting on the Horse and My Father next to Me.. I have never see a Princess.. Now a Crown Princess.. grabbing the two Arrows.. and the TOP GENERALS.. the CHIEF GENERALS who were standing behind YOU.. and they kneel.. two knees.. heads looking Down.. asking Only to shoot One Arrow.. and I would watch YOU.. the two ends of the arrows.. pulling back the strings of the Bow.. and pulling aiming and off you release.. the two arrows flies fast and Hits the Target on the red BULLS EYES.. the Chief General.. the teacher holds the flag and swings.. BULLS EYES.. and the five TOP generals.. three are Chief Generals.. they raise their heads too look.. hands would all clap.. and I would sit on the Horse.. my hands start to clap.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. MANSAE WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hands would clap.. as I am holding the Bow.. two arrows in my hand.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. I was touched in my Heart.. I was truly touched in my soul.. I was truly inspired when I saw what YOU did when YOU were young.. I even started to practice.. when My Father was with me.. I would ask HIM that I wanted to protect YOU.. How do I protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please help me to be the Protector.. and I remember my Father looks at me.. and lowers.. Do what the Crown Princess has done.. I started to practice Shooting arrows.. as I am looking at the wall.. I look UP sitting on this Horse.. I raise up the Bow.. putting the two ends of the Arrows and I pull back the strings.. and I aim looking towards.. I release the string and the two arrows flies Off.. over the Wall and I would keep on looking back.. two arrows.. pulling back the strings and release.. the two arrows would keep on flying over the walls.. I hear the foot steps.. I hear the Horses coming.. and I see the seven friends and they all stop behind Me.. and pulling their Bows.. grabbing the arrows with me.. and aiming looking over the wall.. More arrows are shot fired out and the Eight of us kept on pulling Out the Arrows.. shooting over the wall.. and Chief General turns who is standing at the tower of the Wall and shouts.. they are retreating.. and He raises the Sword UP and Shouts in loud cry.. and I raise UP the Sword.. the Seven men behind Me.. they raise up their swords.. and the ten Men on the left side.. all shouts.. MANSAE to the Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I can feel the tears flowing down my Eyes.. CROWN PRINCESS.. the enemies are going to come back.. But right Now they have retreated.. SO we have WON this Battle.. and I turn around.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I turn to look back.. I just can't believe it.. and the seven men also turns to look back with Me.. I see YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU are riding on the Horse.. even few Chief Generals and the Commanders are on the Horses and YOU are leading.. I see the Bow in your Hand and also the Sword on the Side.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU must not GO.. the Battle is going to be fierce.. we won but the More are coming this Way.. and I get Off the horse.. and I would walk fast and I kneel before YOU.. two knees.. Head looking down.. my arm up.. and I see you stop the Horse.. Now the seven friends of Mine also gets off the Horses.. and they are behind me.. kneeling.. two knees and heads looking down. arms are Up.. and I see you raise Up the Sword.. and I lift up my Head to look at YOU.. I just don't want YOU to go out

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MAH MAH.. You grabbing the two Arrows.. grabbing the Bow.. and putting the two ends of the arrows on the strings of the Bow.. and aiming the arrows.. and your hand releases the string of the Bow.. the two arrows goes straight and Hit the Red Dot.. the flag was raised UP and the Chief General swings the Flag.. I was sitting on the Horse.. my hands would clap with the Chief generals and the commanders.. and they would shout.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and I was truly touched.. I asked my Father that very Night.. when I was at Home.. I wanted to Protect the Crown Princess.. How can I protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please Father tell me.. Please.. and He tells me.. DO what the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH has did and what I saw that morning.. every Night.. I looked at the Target that my Father made.. with the RED DOT Circle around it.. I started with One Arrow.. my hands would hurt.. my arms would ache.. and I knew YOU were so strong.. because pulling the strings of the arrow.. my Father would tell me to keep on pulling it over and over.. for months I had to do the basic training.. just to pull.. then He gave me the arrow to shoot.. It would not shoot at all.. as Months.. more months went by.. I started to shoot the arrows.. hitting on left far to the right far.. But I was thinking about YOU.. I was thinking about that if I don't this.. I can't protect the Crown Princess.. but I have made UP my Mind and made a Promise that I will protect YOU and always will love YOU.. from Months goes to years as I would start picking UP two Arrows.. starting to shoot over and over until It would Hit the Red circle big Dot.. every Night.. I would look UP to see the Moon.. into the woods.. and the Target stuck on a tree.. I would aim.. two arrows I would shoot from the distance to Hit the BULLS EYES.. I been waiting for this very Day CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I don't want to see YOU Hurt before My eyes.. I don't think anyone here wants to see YOU out on that Battle field.. WHO wants when YOU are the Next Ruler.. YOU are going to be the QUEEN for this Nation.. How can any of Us want to see you out there.. I don't want YOU to go.. that Is why I am taking the steps.. I know YOU are a very strong woman.. and also the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but I don't want to see you Out there.. I even asked my Father.. How can I be a Protector.. How can I protect YOU.. and he told me the way.. and I did it.. practiced and trained for multi of years so that YOU don't have to go to that Battle Field.. if someone is to Die.. let me be the One to die for YOU.. at least I can say I have tried Hard.. and I did it for YOU.. just to protect YOU and coming this far to SHOW YOU that I can and that I love YOU.. Please don't refuse my request.. Please think about it before.. because I can't see YOU out there.. my Heart would not let me.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider this request.. and I hear the seven friends.. Please reconsider the Request.. and I see you looking down sitting on the Horse.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. there are plenty of Men here who are ready to go and fight for YOU and for this Nation.. I want YOU to be kept safe.. and I see you looking at me.. and I see you putting down the sword.. the Men raises up the Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you giving me your Sword.. and I just can't believe it.. it is the King's Sword.. from PEH HA!.. How is it that YOU give me this Sword.. It is from the KING'S hand to YOU.. and I am looking at the Blade.. and I see the teacher.. the Chief General who is with YOU.. and he is the One to help you to get back to the Palace.. and I am so amazed.. so inspired by this Sword.. this is which the King has won many battles with.. who fought in many wars and in the battle fields.. as I keep on looking at YOU.. I can't take this Sword.. because it belongs to YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. I have a sword with me.. which My Grand father gave to my father to give it to Me.. I want you to take the Sword which belongs to Your Father the King.. Please.. and I would lay the King's sword on the Ground because I know I can't.. and my Head looks on the ground.. arm raises.. I see you walking.. and I see your hand grabs the King's sword.. are you considering to stay in the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I just can't see you on that Battle field.. Please consider.. Please be safe.. and I see YOU on the Horse and YOU hit the Horse on the side and It goes Off.. I just can't believe it.. WHY.. Crown Princess.. WHY are you breaking my Heart.. I asked you to Please Consider and I see you raising up the King's Sword.. and the Men.. the soldiers.. Commanders and the Generals.. Chief Generals.. they are all preparing to go Out to the field.. ready to fight Out.. as I turn to LOOK at YOU.. I hear other voices.. Please Consider.. Please stay in the palace.. Crown Princess.. I Look up at the sky.. Please help me Father.. help me because the Crown Princess does not hear my Voice.. the Battle is going to get fierce.. my eyes can't see the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH out fighting.. Do you want to see a bloody Heart.. How about a bloody Tears.. YOU are suppose to be the One to rule Next.. and I would stand UP.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please hear my words.. Hear my Heart.. Please reconsider my request.. and I hear the seven friends also asking the Crown Princess.. Not to go.. Not to go Out to fight.. we have plenty of men who will fight for YOU and will die for this Nation.. I came here so that I can Protect YOU.. I came and became the Swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can protect YOU.. because when YOU love.. YOU just don't want to see hurt and I would start to show you my tears.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider my request.. the Chief General UP on the Tower.. he raises the Sword and the Horn Blows.. saying the Enemies are coming again.. the Horn Blows.. Get ready for Battle.. I am looking back.. thinking about the Time.. both eyes would close.. I am standing by the Horse.. and in my both hands.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I just wants to be with YOU.. Missing YOU.. I just wants to go back.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. the art sketch paper.. and my Father walks and stops next to me.. and He has the Bow in his hand.. and Pulling the strings of the Bow back.. my father looks at me.. and I turn to LOOK up at him.. what if I never see YOU again.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am so Little.. I am so weak right Now.. there is Nothing that I can give YOU.. what am I suppose to do because I know that I am powerless and useless right Now.. all I can do is just pull out this Art Sketch Paper.. my eyes would look at this Picture of YOU.. but there is NOTHING THAT I can do.. that is Hurts my Heart so bad.. but Just loving YOU.. can it really work.. can anything truly work Out like this.. Look at me.. I am so Poor.. I am uneducated.. I am so weak and so Little.. have NO power or NO strength.. what can I do.. and I be looking.. tears would fill my eyes and it starts to roll down my two cheeks.. what do I do.. I just can't give UP right Now.. do I suppose to give UP now.. and my Father looks at Me.. He grabs an Arrow.. put the end of the Arrow.. pulling the back of the string of the Bow.. and He aims.. the target in center of the Tree.. and He lets go of the string and the Arrow Flies and It hits the Middle.. BULLS eye of the target.. I am wondering.. what do I do Now.. I can't think of anything else.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH has become so Big.. become so Great.. My Father.. which he takes out another arrow and Put the end of the arrow of the Strings of the Bow.. and He pulls back and aims.. and I lift UP to look.. He releases and the Arrow flies and Hits the Middle of the Target again.. I am looking UP at my Father.. He smiles.. and I am wondering.. when can I ever be good like my Father.. I want to learn to shoot the arrow Like this.. I see my Father turns away and He walks Off.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I know that my Father wants to show me and teach me something.. and I look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU again.. I really want to protect YOU.. I really want to be there for YOU.. I wish that It is ME who can truly Love YOU and that YOUR HEART can open UP to accept.. but I know that even though I want to give YOU all my Heart.. all my Love to YOU.. I look at myself.. I am a Low Born.. I know that I can't afford to be with YOU.. WHO am I to Love YOU.. I have Nothing.. what can I give or bring which YOU have already just too Much and plentiful.. My Father stands behind.. and I would turn to LOOK back.. I see his Figure but could Not see HIM.. but I hear his voice.. telling me.. If I love YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am not afraid to Die for Love.. It should NOT matter at ALL because Love comes from the Heart.. if I truly Love YOU.. I will do anything to be close to YOU.. if I truly choose Love and Death.. and if it does not scare me.. I can just truly Love YOU forever.. does Not matter about what will happen to me.. if I can only Protect YOU.. and that is the Mighty Weapon I carry just to be with YOU.. Just to be close with YOU.. Just to get to know YOU little.. that is all it matters.. because Love is the greatest gift that A HEART can give to a person you truly Love.. and I hear my Father.. telling me that the secret Weapon is the Bow and the Arrow.. and to DIE for YOU means to protect not just YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. but also Your Nation